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Freeing UP & Sharing Your Truth Through Self Validation, Permission & Play – Holy Week Divine Union Transmissions W/Yeshua & Magdalene

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By Raphael and Jelelle Awen

This writing continues on from the first post in this Holy Week transmissions about Cleansing Your Temple: Body, Mind & Heart

Yeshua offers: 

“Thank you, Raphael for asking my truth about speaking your truth. You are all clearly able to receive my frequency because we are all attuned to, and sourced in, at source level, the same highest frequency. 

As you attune more and more to that frequency, by your choices and your soul’s evolution, expressing in your life, you will feel this, you will know this, and you will confirm this more and more. 

This is where it gets fun. This is where so much tension gets answered. 

You get to be you. You don’t need to conform to any other pattern unless you want to, unless it’s fun. 

I’m toying with this word ‘fun’ today, because it gets at the seriousness, tediousness and boredom overlay that I know you, Raphael, have journeyed through and continue to find your way out the other side. 

Let’s have some fun, okay? You did religion long enough. So did I. You did spirituality boredom long enough, so did I. Let’s return to play. 

…Yes, my take on the waveform of speaking your truth as I did in that life spoken of in the texts of old…

Let’s go there in heart and mind, soul and body now as One. Let’s feel this truth together with all of our capacities in alignment, tuning into the higher heart and mind—to Love itself…

Your truth, my truth and even the Divine’s truth is in change, growth and evolution. If God or Source knew all truth, there’d be no reason for it to exist. IT exists to know more while knowing it can never come to know ALL.

 

If you subscribe to a God who has the final word on all truth, it’s a clear sign you are still afraid of your own truth. 

This is because admitting your truth to yourself and in turn to your world around you changes everything. You will walk through fires of separation. The sword of your truth will cut and pierce. 

You will suffer loss. It will hurt. That wound however is the portal opening to so much more. 

It begins by making your truth known. But becoming an angry advocate and parking there is no longer where I’m at. It was a necessary phase, one that I entered for a time and needed to go through in order to go on to my next discoveries and courageous choices about my truth. 

Remaining in contention with opposers is another evidence of the fear of your truth. 

I offer you this personally, Raphael and to all those souls taking this in now who resonate. 

You have left so much behind by the simple act of making your truth known and allowing the landscape to reconfigure. Naturally you carry these losses as a trauma fear of more loss. Even in the refined life you live now, you are not excused from feeling and negotiating this fear. Gain and loss are part of this frequency reality. Becoming higher frequency doesn’t exempt you, me, or anyone from that. 

Living out this negotiation however, is like the most grounded and empowering and alive proposition. 

If you will truly do you, without apology, yet with tenderness of heart and soul, with care for yourself and the other…at times with a ferocity, never with intent to destroy, and at other times with the gentleness of a kitten…all only to rearrange, realign, then you will continue to unfold in this magic. 

Every breath, every thought, every movement and exchange of energy gets to BE you. 

Admitting that you see through a personal lens and an ever changing lens at that, puts you in your God class. The God class of never-ending learning, feeling, experiencing, exponentially growing.

One who won’t admit that they have a personal lens has a longer way to go at remembering who and what they are and are still serving the forgetting. But even this forgetting is all sacred and part of the Divine’s own evolution. 

I had to, over and over again, come to forgive myself and receive not only the Divine’s forgiveness but its appreciation for my entire awakening journey. All the time and even lifetimes spent in lesser things and places are equally treasured by the Divine. 

No place was this more attuned and precious to me than in my relationship with Mary Magdalene. We each danced, both in step and out of step, with our own truth. Yet, we kept and keep finding our way. Without her, I still can’t begin to see where I could be where I am now. 

I honour you and all souls for your willingness to be in all of this. I feel for you all in the sorting of all the reactions, the forwards and backwards, the triumphs and the recoils. 

Your truth will take you from one place to another. New territories will continue to emerge. Don’t seek a final resting place. Instead, let your resting place be in the flow and in the change. 

You are in my class, and I am in your class. We are in the God class together.”

Love,

Yeshua with Raphael

~

Mary Magdalene offers: 

“I feel dressed today, beloveds, and more ready to share with you from my fuller self. Through the cleansing of the healing waters and allowing the fears of the vulnerable and scared part of me in our first meeting to come through, I show up now not in armour yet in a healthy sense of self affirmation earned from a deep reconciliation within.

I have settled in quickly to my connection with you, Jelelle, as we have cultivated it for many years now…when I first showed my face through yours in the early days of your soul’s remembrance awakening to the Feminine Christ within you. At the time, you were in a False God group led by a mostly shadow-based teacher, who also saw and validated your deep connection and love of the Divine. In doing so, he timestamped your ability to be under his controlling and often abusive authority system for very long. My face came through yours and also my energies catalyzed your need to tell your truth, even as it eventually cost you your relationship with him, your livelihood as a facilitator of his work, and your soul family community at the time who all rejected you.

I fuelled your ‘No!” and your choice to leave this teacher as you responded to the first blooms of new love with your beloved Raphael in a true Divine Union frequency of equality instead.

Sharing our truth that comes from deep within, especially as women, has often come with a cost. In my primary lifetime for which you know of me, it would have cost me my life to be at my beloved Yeshua’s side in my full expression of truth with him. And I wasn’t meant to die in that way, yet to continue to hold the seeds of our soul family lineage and ascension codes on, even as threat of persecution followed us always in that life.

From the shadows of our bridal chamber and with the few beloveds in our Magdalene family that we could truly trust, I was able to unfold all of my feminine gifts, bridging heaven to earth and infusing Yeshua with the Creatrix codes of death and rebirth. This helped give him the courage to face his body’s ‘death’ and trust his spirit’s resurrection on the other side.

And, to the ‘public’, I became the whore seeking redemption from him for so long. The truth of my equal status with Yeshua began to emerge, to be unearthed, when the collective finally became more ready for it. The truth of how he held me as much a teacher of his as he did student as he did beloved. The apostle of the apostles, as I truly considered myself even though very few could honor me as such.

And the truth emerging still of my deep Divine union with Yeshua, the sacred sexuality grounds that we explored, the children we had together eventually, the live we shared after the resurrection with him in a lighter form of body.

Thank you for letting me come through all those years ago, Jelelle, and many since then, allowing me to be a bridge to your Magdalene sister aspect from that life and feel her grief and pain so deeply. Thank you for sharing my message and my truth now out to this public forum that is so far reaching, forming a truly world wide web. I am still getting used to having such a vast pulpit and receptive audience now for those who feel called to share my energies and messages…..when I have, as all Divine Feminine energies, been waiting for so long and just now starting to wake up and be welcomed.

And I offer to you all who hear me now…..the truth that rises from within you is not rebellion—it is resurrection. Each time you speak what is real, you roll away the stone.

Honor your wisdoms that come from your precious life and soul’s experience and direct communion with the Divine as sacred and valid. Seek not permission from others, yet feel freed up within your own sense of self worth and self love to play, to create, to share, to envision, and to advocate.

When you speak from that place of deep bubbling well of Divine Essence within, you might be questioned, doubted, and misunderstood. Yet, I am here to assist you in remembering your soul’s truth as held in the heart of Divine Mother. I am here to create safety for the parts of you who feel protective; to forgive the parts who judge as they have been judged, and to inspire your Divine inspiration to flow.

You are already worthy. You are already chosen. Your truth IS the authority.

Let me walk beside you today, let me come through you as you speak what’s real for you, not for validation, but for remembrance.

I leave you now with this blessing:

Beloved soul,

May your voice remember its origin in Love.

May the tremble in your truth be held as holy.

May every word you speak from your depths

be met by angels in flesh who echo,

“Yes, this is the way.”

Until tomorrow, with all of our love,

Mary Magdalene w/Jelelle

Read all of our written transmissions here on this blog and our Divine Self embodiment website blog and the spoken versions of this transmissions on videos here on our Divine Self Embodiment You Tube Channel. More info here to join us for a live Easter Divine Union Codes Transmission w/Yeshua and Mary Magdalene on April Sunday 20th over zoom with Raphael and Jelelle Awen and to receive the replay.

Preparing & Cleansing Your Temple: Body, Heart, & Soul – Holy Week Divine Union Transmissions W/Yeshua & Magdalene

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By Raphael and Jelelle Awen

This holy week of Easter, which began yesterday on Palm Sunday, offers profound opportunities for sacred soul remembrance. From whichever ancient culture, calendar, or belief system you recognize the Easter passage, the codes are very much here—potent and ready to be stepped into with your intention and power, even if that power feels diminished in this moment, quite possibly a preparation for this entrance. 

I feel Yeshua as a beloved guide, template, and mentor. Beyond the debates about who he truly was or how his essence has been distorted, lies the authentic encoding—already within you—awakening now.

When Yeshua offered his disciples a cup and said, “Do this in remembrance of me,” he gave a ceremonial and ritual act to substantiate, in the more familiar physical, what is happening in the subtle realms of the Metabody, your soul field, your energy body, your entire expanded and connected reality of being.

From his grand entrance into purpose and calling to the daily preparations, to the death and resurrection codes at the end of this week on Easter Sunday, your own entrance and choices await you: into embodiment, empowerment, and attunement.

I hear and feel Yeshua offering this Monday’s observance as one of “Cleansing Your Temple: Energetic & Emotional Purification”

We’ll feel together, if you’d like to take up my invitation, into a different alignment and message each day of this holy week leading into Easter Sunday, where you can also join us for a virtual Sunday Service offering event. I’m joined in this with my beloved, Jelelle, as she connects to Yeshua’s counterpart in this Sacred Union transmission…embodying Mary Magdalene’s potent, alchemical, and central voice, role, and encoding.

Yeshua offers:

“You are not who you once were. You’ve changed so much, even recently. You’ve chosen and walked through the fires. Yet many of the old furnishings of your previous life—things you’ve largely lost interest in—still hold a place in your temple. It is time now to honor those former attachments deeply, thank them for the grounding and gifts they gave, and then release and cleanse.

Your temple is a finely tuned instrument—well beyond even the wonders of the pyramids.

Your sovereignty of being, with deep self-permission and self-authorization, wants to awaken further into felt and experienced validation from within.

No longer to suppress, but to support and allow. No longer to make things happen, but to serve the greater happening that you always were and always are.

Your temple gates extend outward in service to others—by sacred invitation, through natural alignment and attunement. This is both quantum and personal. This cleanse, choice, and self-permission flow potently into the reality of your life as you currently perceive it—and beyond, into realms you cannot yet articulate or fully feel.

You’ve prayed and sought long enough for your redemption and deliverance. It is time now to respond to the life ring your soul offers in answer to those prayers. 

The alignment is here, in this now. It awaits you. Meet it—and it will meet you.”

Love,

Yeshua w/Raphael

~

Mary Madgalene offers: 

She waits for me in the healing pools of the sacred temple of Divine Mother that is connected to her human timeline and also to the Unified field outside of time. These healing pools offer such deep cleansing, purification, and release and are available to all who need them.

She is somber and somehow exposed emotionally, vulnerable and naked, both in body and in heart. I can feel how she wants to be experienced not just as a historical figure or an ascended master or even as Yeshua’s counterpart, yet also as a divinely human woman with her own sovereign emotions and vulnerabilities.

She is preparing for the intense initiation that awaits her beloved Yeshua this week. Our entire Magdalene soul family has been preparing for and tuning into the ‘events’ of this week for generations. It is not a surprise nor is it a betrayal or an ambush or a sacrifice. It is a chosen, planned and orchestrated light working held by highly advanced souls who come from an ancient lineage, offering a remembrance code of resurrection for those who are ready to receive it. 

Yeshua will experience the painful process of death and rebirth mostly in the flesh, yet she and the other female Magdalenes such as Mother Mary and Yeshua’s beloved cousin Miriam, will hold space for it ALL in the higher grids and inside of their wombs, hearts, and souls. 

As Mary Magdalene relaxes into the waters, she has this to offer us now: “As I cleanse the temple of my body and my heart in these holy waters, I am feeling today some resistance inside of me, some place in my ‘ego’ as you would call it now in your time.

This part of me does not want to let my beloved Yeshua go. She is feeling attached to his physical form, even while knowing that our divine union continues in the higher realms in which we will remain connected forever. 

There is this deep, wise aspect of a Divine Mother priestess in me that is in anticipation of becoming the phoenix that will arise from these painful ashes. All that is false will be burned away. She trusts the love that is holding us and the collective service and template that this resurrection process offers for the All. 

Yet, I want to honor this part of me that is attached, as I feel like this may resonate for many of you taking in this message now going through your own letting go processes. And I want you to feel my vulnerability as well, not just my strength and my spiritual attainments. Not just my access to divinity. 

This part of me that is human, that wants to keep Yeshua all to herself, feels like it is ‘waste’ to lose him in this way as also she feels anger at the distortion and corruption of this precious resurrection code by the False God programs. How deeply its light has been buried in the darkness of enslaving dogma and its purpose twisted by power hungry, patriarchal agendas!

Surrendering to the Divine cycles of all of creation – light and shadow – brings me the most peace and I find it now as I hold this struggling part of me, this feminine mate within, in my heart. I feel Divine Mother comfort and reassure her, and it immediately moves through me like a soothing balm.

And I offer you the same reassurance as you prepare to undertake the next death and rebirth initiation that awaits you on your soul’s remembrance journey. I invite you to feel the human parts of you that are afraid, that are resistant, that are angry, and who need comfort along with the bigger soul context as they ‘face their deepest fears’. Not just to label them ‘ego’ and judge them and push them away. Yet to love them with all of your heart infused by Divine Mother’s.

This is the only way to move from fear and into love. From separation and into union. By honoring your inner reality and emotions and thoughts and human body as the most sacred temple that deserves your compassionate attention. Your most holy of holies truly is found from within. 

As you cleanse your body and heart and your physical space in preparation to move into a deeper surrender to wherever the Divine is guiding you now, allow whatever feelings from any parts of you to be a sacred aspect of this process. Open up the portal of the feelings to wherever they want to take you and receive love as the ultimate answering of all fears.  

Just sharing this message with you has helped this part of me and my heart. Thank you!”

Until tomorrow, with all of our love,

Mary Magdalene w/Jelelle

Read all of our written transmissions here on this blog and our Divine Self embodiment website blog and the spoken versions of this transmissions on videos here on our Divine Self Embodiment You Tube Channel. More info here to join us for a live Easter Divine Union Codes Transmission w/Yeshua and Mary Magdalene on April Sunday 20th over zoom with Raphael and Jelelle Awen and to receive the replay.

Accepting What You Have Already Manifested In Order To Manifest True Soul Desires

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By  Raphael Awen

The hard part of ‘becoming a manifester’ isn’t the obtaining of some magical alchemical highly-hidden esoteric ability.

It’s something much more mundane.

It’s the self responsibility to see and admit that you already are this manifester, just maybe not of the kinds of realities a part of you was hoping to manifest.

You already fully are the creator. You don’t need to work on that to get it going.

What you can work on is the willingness to assume response-ability for what’s been created already.

What are the various parts of me creating in my life as powerful manifestations?

Why? When? How? With whom?

Make a full-on quest of these questions.

Add in a bunch of love from your Divine Self as you explore these parts of you. Honour all that has been created for how it has brought you to this present moment with both its sorrows and joys.

These parts of you and soul aspects hold your present manifestation power and creativity. If you bridge to them with your opening and curious heart, you can get them on board with creating entirely new realities that never existed before.

Now, the courage you gained in your quest becomes called on in order to adapt to the challenges of the new super abundant reality. Higher timelines are not without challenge, and this is why the universe needed you to start right from where you were without skipping any grades.

I’d love to help you with this process. Check into sessions together at the link below with myself and let’s let the quest reignite.

Raphael Awen

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The pic above was from 6 years ago of Jelelle and I. Just yesterday, as Jelelle stepped out of the house to join me in the back yard for some sun and barefoot grounding, I was again struck by how I get to be in this reality with her. She is without a doubt the most major manifestation that I was surprised by and still am.

I want to find others, soul family others, who are willing to be in and to bear the calling of loves many manifold manifestations. 🌹💚

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of Divine Self Embodiment.  Visit divineselfembodiment.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Reconciling Our Needs, Appetites & Desires As A Key To Our Growth

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By  Raphael Awen

It feels so apparent to me that our appetites, needs and desires are the key factor in our growth, learning, evolution as well as our fulfillment.

But the hard part is that it is these same appetites, needs and desires are very intertwined with our pain, our suffering and our addictions.

It may well be that were it not for appetites, needs and desires, there wouldn’t be any suffering. That seems to be the conclusion of many spiritualities. Religions as well offer various ways of dealing with this dilemma and dichotomy.

I’ve been feeling this heightened in myself this past year, heightened more in recent months and weeks dealing with changing body tolerances to favored foods. A lot of life change brings on holding onto familiar comforts for a time and stretching the tension between what fulfills in the moment and what truly rewards.

I was dealing with heightened indigestion, loss of sleep due to frequent urination and came to that point of a deeper desperation. I chose to fast for the needed reset.

It wasn’t a mandated forced self discipline way of going about it. That ability of disciplining myself to do anything is one of the things that has changed for me too, to where what I deepest desire, seems only possible to move towards if it is by desire and surrender. It has been a scary thing to lose, this ability to marshall change by willpower alone.

I do feel all of this as an upgrade, but definitely finding on a deeper level how the only real way that I can navigate any upgrade is to feel it all as I go.

After 3 days of fasting and feeling everything along the way, yesterday, while out for a walk in my familiar village, walking a section without people, I spoke aloud my desires, yearnings and the fears associated with losing the opened-out edge that I feel while fasting. Will desire and appetite just return to their old groove and I’m left with more despair for being almost worse off? I felt the part of me very tenderly who holds that question. I deeply honored the tenderness and transparency of the question. I reflected back to this part of me how awesome it is for us to feel this tension together instead of allowing the unanswered tension play out in our navigation of our appetites and desires.

I’m returning to some fruit smoothie this morning, allowing my strength to return to show up for what’s next.

This is a big piece that Jelelle and I feel called to live and share, this ongoing transition to living on light. Many people have made the transition to where their bodies are sustained without eating physical food, without any loss of the quality of their health.

Many too who reached that place have also found that though they could get their body in the groove, they hadn’t felt all there was to feel along the transition and chose to return to eating in order to fill in the gaps of their transition.

It is light that we all live on. We just differ in how we source that light. That’s the journey and it’s all about our relationship to our desires, appetites and our current fulfillments. That makes for such a deep common denominator amongst us while also making for so much diversity.

To know that light itself without the need for physical food can sustain the body points to the reality that that same light is all we need for all of our needs. We ‘earn’ money as part of journey to realizing that all worth and value is freely available and attainable for all of our needs. Then deeper in the journey we realize that we are so humbly entitled to full sustenance by our birthright in a super abundant universe.

There’s still some ‘rules’ that seem to govern this super abundant universe to where we are in a symbiosis of giving and receiving, but that is a higher frequency than ‘earning’.

What if what you do to earn money could be transformed into giving more of you to love and to life while you earn that money?

Love to every part of us and to each other for holding these tensions of our journey in being born into need desire and our appetites.

Raphael 💚

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of Divine Self Embodiment.  Visit divineselfembodiment.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Unleashing Your Sorrow To Attain Your Joy

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By  Raphael Awen

You can’t really uncap your true joy without uncapping your sadness or sorrow.

Your deep joy essence is part of your emotional body, your emotional being. But so are feelings of sadness and sorrow that parts of us are often resistant to feeling, that have been compartmentalized for safe keeping.

The problem is though that there is no ‘safe keeping’ for unwanted feelings indefinitely. The part of you who feels those feelings wants to be felt, connected with and known.

As you become more willing to explore these so called ‘negative emotions’ (which are so tired of being ‘negated’), you also open up your native deep, rich and profound joy channels.

As we are journeying here as souls in a remembrance journey of yearning to experience more of our divine soul essence being embodied, it means that sadness, sorrow and missing will need to be an equal part of the propulsion system on that journey, right up there with the true joys of homecoming. You can’t be getting glimpses of a paradise lost and a paradise regained without feelings of deep missing.

All of it wants to be allowed in the moment, in the now. I have found this reconciliation of my sorrow to be an ongoing challenge to any parts of me still holding onto conditioning that I should somehow be beyond sorrow. Entering that friction inside always opens me up to new joys.

The good news is that these sorrows or sadnesses won’t actually swallow you whole, contrary to how parts of you have positioned their resistance to opening up to your sorrow. Your divine self always offers a rate and pace that you can bear, along with the answers of deep joy right alongside of it all.

The courage this requires however is truly significant because our Inner Gatekeepers and Inner Protectors really don’t know how much gas there is in your tank to complete this journey. Nor do they know how deep or arduous the journey will be.

This can only be consciously and directly negotiated with these aspects of yourself which becomes the assurance of the possibility of this journey as well as the assurance of the outcome.

I find it so hugely rewarding to open my heart to others pain in service and dedicated 1:1 session space with individuals who are ready for these kinds of inward journeys. The courage they find, the desire and readiness they demonstrate fuels my own journey. Info on me and the work I offer and the community around it all is here: divineselfembodiment.com/sessions

Being willing to bear these deeper joys and the deeper sorrows are all actually the divine’s own expression and experience through us and with us!

Love to you in all you are willing to feel and move through in your service to love, your service to yourself and your service to me!

💚 Raphael

This gorgeous flower I found yesterday was growing just down the way in our village, flourishing even amongst the subdued weather and delayed spring this year.

Solar Eclipses Digestions & Activations

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Jelelle:

The reverential AWEsomeness of the cosmos rushed over me and the Divine wonder of the configuration of our Universe as we took in the eclipse ‘show’ for a couple of hours via live feed.

During the eclipse it felt right for Raphael and I to be in our airbnb rental together, a cozy studio that we cleared the energy beforehand with a salt lamp, incense, set up a simple altar….as it was super windy on the beach here in Nazare, on the silver coast of Central Portugal. We were guided to be here on the coast to celebrate our recent wedding anniversary, the release of our book together, the birth of Divine Self Embodiment AND take in the eclipse.

The energies themselves kept building and building before the eclipse as well and I had a sense of that, plus overall uneasiness, intensity, calibration, and needing to ground, to be in sacred space, especially after driving here for a couple of hours yesterday. It reminds me of the anticipatory feelings when you take a plant medicine or psychedelic….excitement mixed with unknown mixed with some tension.

Every chakra and clair ability amplified prior to it within me and during it as well, which is why I advocated yesterday for being in an environment and with energies that resonate with you and what you want MORE of in your life, in your internal world and with others. Energies that are supportive of your larger and authentic being coming forward into expression.

As I digested the eclipse energies more with Divine Mother this morning, I felt how what was most interesting was the RELATIONSHIP that each soul/parts/aspects of people had with the eclipse. What their filters were going into it and then their digestion during/after as well.

Many souls had strong fear and darkness projection filters going on, avoided it altogether, didn’t want to take it in visually in any way and even warned others about it…felt it was inviting in darkness and entity attachments. In the reality they are coming from (which is sacred to them in this phase), the timelines where this was the sense of eclipses (esp in more primitive timelines) may be coming forward now for feeling and healing. Fear draws the reality of more fear on the ‘outside’ until it is met and answered by love and trust from within and with the Divine.

There were those souls who projected that the eclipse would result in a ‘grand saving’, a rapture, a dissolution of the false world and a sudden and abrupt sweeping into the New (in whatever their soul’s desire and picture is for that.) There was deep meaning projected onto the eclipse changing everything, often because of a hollow and empty feeling inside themselves in their own life experiences. Unfelt despair can so often be placed onto events outside of self for some relief rather than felt/used as a portal for more self love and Divine connection.

There were those souls who made it into an occasion to party, to be in a large crowd, to feel Unity in that way even while being less sensitive to the impact on themselves and their energies. And, the 3D mainstream view of ‘science’ explaining it all logically and yet admitting that it was a rare occurrence worthy of study.

It’s fascinating really, all the different filtering experiences and perceptions of the same event! It feels like the eclipse itself serves as a mirror for us all individually and collectively. It really shows how divergent humanity is right now with so many different timeline realities playing out on the Earth Plane as it ascends to Gaia consciousness and we do too. That divergence does create quite a schism, where groups of souls are really experiencing quite an altered and often polarized reality from each other.

The ultimate invitation that I felt from the eclipse was one of Unification….an occurrence of seemingly miraculous alignment designed and offered by the Divine to SHOW us and INVITE us to unite, to come together, and to be in surrender to something bigger than ourselves and our current life content, struggles, and issues. To move out of fusions to parts of us being right or being wrong, being evil or being righteous…to feel how sacred we ALL are as Divine children and human embodiments of the Divine.

These eclipse energies, which feel like they will be integrating for months/years to come, offer both an invitation to go deeply inward to know/feel/deepen with self….and a transmission of Unity/Oneness/connection with ALL That IS outside of self.

A deep compassion for humanity and where we are in this moment…in the sacred growth experience of divergence and somewhere deep inside parts of us aching for reunion…moves through when we open our hearts to feel it ALL with Divine Mother.

Love to you as you integrate, feel, and ground in these eclipse energies within your BEing,

Jelelle Awen

This was our favorite image from that we took…a screen shot from Nasa’s feed as offered through Fox News feed in which after totality a burst of the sun’s rays came through…light emerging out of the darkness.

Raphael:

There’s a feeling to this eclipse after the fact of being on the other side of all the anticipation and projections of what might occur, shifting now to the wonder, inquiry and digestion of what did happen.

This event, when felt through the heart, offers a big entry point and exit point into new realms of our being.

It’s kind of like 9/11 – everyone remembers where they were on that fateful day that was like a lightning strike to the tree of collective consciousness that we could only wonder what that would mean to life going forward.

I feel this surrender now into receiving something long awaited and yearned for. My mind is a bit tired even at the attempt to encapsulate it mentally, but my heart knows it received a big transmission and transmutation. A download if you will.

We each get to go beyond the projected fears and hype that was thrust onto this celestial event and feel what each part of us needs and wants in the new territory.

It was probably an eclipse like celestial event that heralded the birth of Yeshua. Culture works for millenniums after that to try and integrate it.

You are the Christ consciousness arising, even as parts of you feel nothing like that at all. That’s what and where you as your divine self comes in. You’re the digester, the integrator, the reconciler. Yeshua too was quite surprised and profoundly challenged to learn of what his soul had intended for him.

No part of you wants to be left behind. All of you wants to come along. You are the event, the totality, the dawning and the integration.

I’m feeling a personal piece of being reconnected with Divine Father after a many years long incubational rebirth period with Divine Mother. She’s passing me off it feels like, yet offering she goes nowhere.

I’m feeling an Old Testament scripture come back from memory offered to me and each of you. (Admittedly with a couple updated tweaks)

“Arise, shine, for your light has come and the glory of the divine has arisen within you. Great darkness will cover many people, but my light now dawns inside of you.”

What does your full shining look and feel like? What’s been hidden in shadow that wants revealing? How can this come out without harm even though it may hurt?

Love to you as you hold it all. If my words offer a support to you, let me know and let’s see what a deepening connection might look and feel like together. 💚 I’ve been told that sweet new souls are washing up on my shores as I wash up on theirs.

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The Professional, The Provisional & The Profusional

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The PROFESSIONAL is one who declares openly that they have the know how and the care and the full time commitment to something. They promise expertise mixed with care and full commitment. They operate in a world of scarcity and competitive edge, hoping to gain our trust.

The PROVISONAL is the more relaxed one who declares that they’re doing their best. They’ll make do, hopefully. They operate in a world of “I’m in, at least until a replacement can be found.”

The PROFUSIONAL is one who is pouring forth love so abundant, it’s overwhelming. The care and the expertise that is flowing from them is both personal and transpersonal, connected to the source field of all knowledge and all discernment. They operate in a world connected to the superabundant source of all life. The results they produce can be more than you thought you were looking for. Their declaration of credentials is embedded deep in their being, before words are spoken. You only go to them when you’re ready for a deep shift and complete with other phases of growth and learning.

I like the profusional, personally. 😊 They’re the ones I want to be around. They’re the ones that nourish. They’re the ones I want to model after.

Yeshua was a profusional. When followers who were clearly both drawn and hesitant towards him said, “I’ll be right there, Yeshua, just as soon as I’m done looking after my dying parent,” Yeshua replied, “Let the dead bury the dead, you come follow me.” He read this person’s higher timeline, called out their ‘nobility’ that was in service of staying small, and offered it to them. He sorted out their draw to him, not allowing them to suffer in a half-in, half-out place.

That’s the confrontation of deep overwhelming love and possibility. It always includes a letting go of something to embrace a larger something. We all chose this world of choice. We’re already exercising this power of choice in every moment. It just wants to be turned now in its direction towards love, rather than from love.

Our choices are what regulate the amount of love we can take in and digest at any given time. There are valid reasons why we would need and want to slow things down, and this is where sacred choice comes in. Lack itself was created by love as a way for love to come to know itself, so there is no judgment on a necessary slower timeline. It could be said of everyone of us, that we are in a kindergarten relationship with love’s infinite potential. The veil is necessary.

Yeshua liked to push the boundaries, however, to explore beyond the safe and the known. He taught that the Kingdom of Heaven (the true ‘more’ that you seek) is likened to a man who happens upon a pearl of great price while walking through a field, who after beholding it, buries it in the field, then proceeds to go out and sell all that he has, so that he can return to purchase the field that contains this pearl.

We’ve all done this before. We’ve gone after something. Gave up other things to get that thing. Think about when you fell in love. Your ‘wanter’ will need to come back online, and be dusted off from its journey in the halls of the non-dual invalidation of the healthy ego. You’re going to need an ego to play in this game. You’re going to need to have needs, and be able to care for them, if you will ever be in the overflow of care and love for others in this profusion.

The cool part of all this is that in this higher heart motivation, the most truly ‘selfish’ motivation, is transmitted from the scarcity world of ‘my benefit at your cost’ to the world of ‘whatever is in my highest interest is in actual alignment of all others, because at root, there is only one of us.’ ‘Self’ is not only redeemed from the sinful picture of being separate from God, but celebrated and calibrated as the divine itself expressing in flesh. Your embodiment of all this is your divine reunion. It’s your ‘pearl of great price.’

It will ‘cost’ you, but it will be felt to be a pittance compared to the superabundance that you realize in yourself, and for the one-self of The All that we all are.

I lead and participate in a specific world of profusion. A specific soul family playground that requires preference. We all had to choose deeply and risk and give up other things to be a part of it. I’m inviting you to feel if what I lead is part of your pearl of great price.

There’s one thing you won’t have to give up to participate and that’s your sovereignty. You’re going to need to truly own that more than you thought you did actually. Only one in possession of their autonomy is able to surrender it into a setting while healthily retaining it. It’s the only safe way to go ‘all in’.

We’ve all seen the long played out unhealthy surrender of people’s autonomy onto pedestalized gurus who proved unworthy of our higher self projections onto them. We’re getting beyond that phase now in our collective consciousness.

What’s your ‘next’? If you were to gather up your investments, pool them into a fund, what, and who and where would you spend it on?

I encourage you to find that worthy place. Let yourself dream of it. Feel and love every voice inside of you that says it’s not possible. Know that their resistance is key and the portal to you transmuting your world to the new world. Take a next step in that direction. See how that step fuels the next. It makes you interesting, powerful and beautiful. It all looks so good on you!

Love,

Raphael 💚

This pic was part of Jelelle and I’s visit this past week to the Templar Castle and the later Church overlay onto it in Tomar, Portugal.

When we took these pics, we were both stunned by the transmission of our leading edge with a message that says “despite your questions, yes, you really are this big!”

Join me for a free intro (30 min over zoom) and 1:1 sessions for men (and with Jelelle for women) for support in this divine self embodiment path in person (here in Central Portual) or over zoom with THREE types of sessions now available…..Divine healing, self healing, and embodiment healing sessions by donation of 55-100 euros sliding scale, truly based on neg. and what you can afford…soulfullheart.org/sessions

Your Unhappiness Is Key To Your Happiness

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By  Raphael Awen

If you’re not unhappy, you’ll never come to know true happiness.

Twenty years ago, I had ten big desires brewing inside of me, that all felt so out of reach. Today, I’m actually living in the fulfillment of all ten.

In some ways, at 62 years old, I’m happier than I ever imagined I’d be and in some ways, I’m not.

If you’re curious and drawn to some real transparency, please allow me to explain, but only if you’re truly wanting to dare to own your own sacred journey, as well as your deeper desires.

If you’re here and reading this, I feel it’s safe to assume that you’re connected to a deep common denominator in each of us to grow and expand. That’s why I’m writing and reflecting on this, actually, to keep on growing.

A quick list of the 10 really big desires I had brewing back in 2004 were as follows:

To escape the world I had created in a profitable niche world in my 30 year long painting contracting business. It was too easy and felt like a trap in many ways.

I wanted to leave the city I had spent the last 40 years in, but that felt so far out of reach.

I wanted to get out of debt financially.

I wanted to express my soul purpose and live in a much deeper sense of mission in my life, with more influence and connection with my world around me.

I wanted to be really intimately connected with a soul mate romantic bond inside of that mission.

I wanted to travel and live somewhat nomadically, and be in a much deeper connection with nature inside of that romance and soul purpose.

I wanted to get beyond a very limited sexual expression and repertoire which was all I’d ever known.

I wanted out of a 23 year marriage as well as my lifelong relationship with Christianity, both of which were reaching the end of their natural life cycle inside.

I wanted to learn how to live inside of the superabundance of the universe where I didn’t ‘work to earn a living’.

Each of these desires spoke to something really true of my soul. Looking back, it’s quite striking to feel how each one of these desires has been fulfilled when 20 years ago, each one only felt like a dream, where the entire self-help Tony Robbins like phase of my consciousness where ‘You can manifest the life of your dreams’ was no longer anything I had much steam for inside of me.

The dreams felt more and more taunting to me as I couldn’t see where and how I could move towards them. All I could feel was a sense of my life powering down in many ways, and my impulses to protect what I didn’t want to lose kept making me feel more trapped and more in despair of ever realizing these elusive dreams.

It’s an even stranger thing to realize that from the vantage point of 20 years ago, I’m both more fulfilled today than I’d ever imagined and I’m also not.

All of these desires were quite external to my internal world, which wasn’t nearly as in focus at the time. Many of the desires were strategic hopes of not having to enter my personal internal hells to find this imagined external heaven. What life and my soul gave me was a mission much deeper than the one I was superficially, externally, dreamily focused on, and that was to begin to truly feel and heal long avoided terrains inside of me.

Parts of me back then imagined in all those dreams, if I were somehow ever to make them more than dreams, if I actually realized them, that I’d be guaranteed to be outside of a world of deep challenge, of any experience of fears and insecurities, that I’d have life by the tail somehow, at least on my terms. I would be in expansive heart and soul fulfillment somehow. The dreams were like an imaginary world to cycle in, to escape into. In many ways, they felt so safely impossible, that parts of me didn’t actually worry about what it would be like to actually move my life from where I was then to where I wanted to be.

I didn’t really have a travel plan or a relocation plan because I didn’t see myself traversing that gap between my reality and my desires, until I began unavoidably falling into that gap.

I feel many men and women are right there now, falling into that gap, into that primordial void space. We are in deep cycles of death and rebirth, where not only individuals, but also entire cultures and ways of being in the world are reaching the end of their intended life cycles. We’ve received a sobering terminal illness diagnosis that feels quite unavoidable and convincing. Change is coming. Time to prepare, but how?

Where my unhappiness lives in me today is realizing this expectation or even demand that I’d be happier than I actually am was some kind of expectation of being saved or removed from life itself. My soul, and your soul never actually expected that life here in physical form would be free of deep challenges, or immune to unhappiness.

Your and my soul knew then and knows now that the propulsion system and digestive system of our growth always includes a ‘wanter’. No wants, no appetites, no unhappiness…; no real life.

Your and my present ‘skin in the game’ of carrying unfulfilled desires is what makes us interesting, useful and capable of deep joy, reverence and meaning. Without new desires showing up on the shores of your deepest fulfillments to date, you are withdrawn from life and love itself.

The biggest purpose at the core of the universe may be love itself wanting to come to know and feel itself, to unveil itself to itself. If that’s accurate, then you and I, as manifestations and expressions of that love itself, best gear up and ‘fear up’ (in a healthy way) of giving ourselves over to love’s cycle of despair, turning to yearning and then fulfillment and preparing to do it all over again. If love ever decides it has come to the end of its infinite learning and growth and to rest on its laurels, then we can be sure that heaven will be somehow beyond the risks of boredom and atrophy, that have and would surely plague and haunt us at this and previous phases of our consciousness.

I want more. You want more. This connects us like nothing else does. Your and my rewards and fulfillments can’t actually be kept to ourselves. My big piece of the pie doesn’t mean a smaller piece for you. If one of us figures it out, it’s actually figured out and plainly available for each of us. There’s no patent office to file your proprietary and personal claim on your fulfillment, or your ‘life hack’. This is because there is on a deeper level, only one of us in this illusory game of the ever appearing separate self.

Love needed the staging of the sovereign individual, the separate self, a birthing of its own image, likeness and stature, billions of times over, to prove its point that the whole show is a love show, including the deepest polarities and ‘evils’ and ‘devils’ we are faced with.

The despairs, the evils and the devils are all wanting nothing more than reconciliation with love. Every trauma and despair within you is a portal to the more that you are self-assigned here to seek.

The separation fears and traumas are all vital to learning and growth. The happinesses turning to more wanting needs to be factored in. You are this big of a being.

I want it all. I want it for me. I want it for you. I want it for love.

That’s my new desire and dream. I’m looking for more connection with more dreamers. Let’s get transparent with one another. What hasn’t worked? How can that inform what’s wanting to take form now?

What new ways of life and love want to express in this reunion side of the separation equation?

Are you willing to get honest and real? Because until you do, while you’re still part of the game, and love’s game and ever worthy, wherever you are, you’re just kind of boring and uninteresting to me. I’m not really drawn to you. On a higher level, I’m in awe of you, that you’re soul would take on such levels of disconnect and unfulfillment to transmute for love in time, but until this soul turn of reunion turns a corner in you, there’s just not a lot of any kind of a personally interesting game to play with you.

We both ever and only have equal worth and intrinsic value, but we’re just not on the same page. The game of separation and difference and polarity is still here, but only really to stage more reunions, and more learning.

I want to be a part of your despairs and your dreams, because when I’m allowed into that, I’m allowed into more of me, more of love itself, more of the divine’s sacred evolution.

Much love,

Raphael 💚

For more on my journey from those 20 years ago, check out Jelelle and I’s book: ‘Under The Bloated Banyan – Our Sacred Union Journey From False Light To True Love’ You can read more about it here: soulfullheart.org/underthebloatedbanyan

I’m also posting some longer writings like this one on Medium.com if you’d like to connect with me there. This post can be found here: https://medium.com/…/if-youre-not-unhappy-you-ll-never…

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

New Book Release: Under The Bloated Banyan: Our Sacred Union Journey From False Light To True Love by Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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By Jelelle Awen

Today is the day our book baby is born! As we waited for final approval from amazon, we thought it might be on our 15th wedding anniversary on Thursday, and then on Good Friday, yet, it turned out to be Holy Saturday, the day in between Yeshua’s ‘crucifixion’ and resurrection….which feels perfect somehow!

And today is also perfect to release it as Raphael and I are having a sacred marriage vow renewal ceremony together with our beloveds…to name our intentions in deepening commitment to each other and to our commission (co-mission) of continuing to bring our Divine Self Embodiment consciousness offering to the Earth Plane/Gaia ascending for those soul family members who are resonant with it.

Our book called, Under The Bloated Banyan: Our Sacred Union Journey From False Light to True Love, is now my fifth self-published book and my first co-written with my beloved Raphael. This book has had quite a journey to being born in its current form! I first published it with just my writing/my side of the story in 2013, still feeling in some deeper trauma processing around what I share in it about the former cult-like spiritual group and teacher I/we were involved with (for me nearly five years and I was a facilitator of the work as well). It felt just too vulnerable at the time for parts of me while the group was still active and there was still so much controversy and energectic push back going on about speaking out against it from former friends/followers and my former teacher…so I ended up unpublishing it.

Then, I published my story again in 2018, feeling more settled inside with parts of me around the release of it, as the group had been collapsed for three years at that point after members FINALLY woke up to the abuses going on and fired the teacher/leader of it and collapsed the non-profit altogether. I had been able to process the completion with a couple of my former friends at that time, which seemed to help as well.

Yet, again, it didn’t feel quite right timing and easy inside to have my story (which is mostly from actual journals that I kept at the time) ‘out there’ so I retracted it again from public purchase. Both times I felt a sadness inside too as I had received feedback from people that sharing my story in such a vulnerable way touched them deeply and helped them in their own recovery from similar toxic, yet enlightening experiences with narcissistic groups/relationships.

So, then, about five months ago, Raphael and I were guided by Yeshua and Mary Magdalene to write the story of our sacred union journey over the last 18 years, including the time before we ‘officially’ came together while we were in the group. They offered that it would be a deep service to do this for others, the Christ-Magdalene lineage, and for ourselves/parts of us as well, to share it as a template for what is possible for those who have signed up for the Divine union marriage alchemical journey.

Raphael tuned into the parts of him (Marvin and Wayne) who had been through the several year journey shared about in this book, and wrote about leaving a long-term marriage and Christianity for which he received some pushback and his bravery in choosing his emotional healing and his soul awakening over duty and obligation. He also shares about holding the conscious memory of attraction to me and our Divine Union (as sometimes the masculine partner does) and he brought a few attractions to me before I was finally ready to respond to them (lots of emotional maturing to do on my side to be ready of it and him!).

Now, it feels time finally to share this story, which really hasn’t ever been just MY story I realize, which is why parts of me were uncomfortable to share it alone. Now, it includes Raphael’s parallel experiences in tandem with mine. It is so interesting to see how the choices and challenges we faced as individuals seem to constantly mirror each other, overlap and coincide, often entering and dissolving relationships with others at the same time…….until finally we are ready to choose a shared relationship and timeline together.

And, it is still stunning to feel, once we did, how our true and deep and Divinely guided/supported love dissolved ANYTHING false in our world right away. Within three weeks of our first date. We were accused by our former teachers of ‘faking a sacred union’ and of ‘going too fast’, ‘being codependent’…all of which we probably were in the beginning. Still, it was easy in another way to say ‘yes’ to being together and ‘no more’ to the ultimatum thrust on us of breaking up or staying in the group, which we were increasingly feeling had unnamed abuses and toxicity going on.

It is still shocking to parts of me, literally takes my breath away, to feel how quickly and completely our previous worlds (including my home geography eventually!) fell apart and away once we came together. This is often a signature of a Divine Union counterpart bond and also is the good will and genuine care/love/support for each other (absence of abuse, inability to lie to each other) that has been there between us from the very beginnings of our friendship turned romance. This kind of union calls you to be completely devoted to it, inside and out, as you feel how it is your means of expressing service and your soul purpose in the world.

I so hope you enjoy this first chapter/book of our sacred union journey, which we are now feeling to continue into what feels like two more books offered over the next three years. A sacred union trilogy capturing the phases, the ups and downs, the letting ins and letting gos, of what has truly been a bliss mess ride, yet always feeling held in a bubble of Divine love protection and marked absence of traumatic experiences (after the initial ones!)

Under The Bloated Banyan is a title that came through many years ago and represents the ‘bloat’ of these false light/false God groups and offerings that are offered under the banyan tree (the sacred tree where Buddha found his enlightenment.) So many of which offer deep teachings/gifts in their own ways and esp. in the beginning honeymoon stages, and yet are inevitability hijacked by the leader’s unfelt shadow motivations/aspects and the Matrix agenda/karmic field. These false light offerings/teachers are being exposed, disclosed and collapsing more and more as we outgrow the need for them…esp when we dedicate ourselves to healing our birth family/generational/incarnational trauma and engage in integrative shadow work with parts/aspects of ourselves.

Although, truly, this is not a story about ‘surviving a cult experience’…yet, really, it is and has always been, a love story. A love story about two counterparts reuniting again. A love story about discovering our deep devotional love for and with the Divine beloved. A love story about truly coming to love all parts of ourselves and soul aspects too.

You can purchase this book as a PDF on our shop (including instructions on how to read it on your kindle app/devices), or as in e-book and print editions through amazon. We would love to invite you to write a review if you feel moved and guided to after reading and also to share your thoughts, feelings, reactions, resonances with us here, via PM on Facebook, or email at soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

Links to purchase and excerpt to read from the first chapter are here at soulfullheart.org/https://www.soulfullheart.org/underthebloatedbanyan

Amazon link (it is available in all major Amazon markets/countries so go to your amazon country link to purchase): https://tinyurl.com/3xdyaerw

And special thanks to Kasha Rokshana, who helped edit this book and designed the beautiful cover image for it. She has been a true champion and advocate for sharing this story (including the two previous versions!) and it feels like it wouldn’t be happening now without her love and passion for it to be out in the world!

Thank you for taking it into your heart and soul,

Love,

Jelelle Awen

And Raphael’s writing on this release:

“I am one proud papa to have this heart and soul baby born in the world!

Our story begins in a group that we were eventually ‘kicked out of’, but in truth, it was life, love and the divine itself that ‘kicked’ us out.

What we left with, largely unbeknownst to us at the time, was a Christ child, in embryonic form gestating in our bond. We took it from the light side of the egregore/usness of the beloved group we were a part of. It was like a baton that was passed on to us. We also took a great wound with us that would challenge us and lay our hearts bare, and eventually reveal a much deeper calling.

This story is a great revealing for me of a much deeper heart and soul calling to own and inhabit my own calling. I was allowed to feel and experience so much during these four years covered in this book, that I believe will be part of a key awakening for the men and women who resonate, who share this same calling, who share this same soul family lineage.

I truly hope my story and our story stirs deep within you, a recognition of the specialness and uniqueness of your own sacred calling that begins right from where you are right now. It couldn’t be more divinely appointed. That’s how I feel your and my life story.

It would touch me deeply not only to have you read it, but to hear how it landed and what it stirred for you, even better if you could share it publicly, (even anonymously if it’s understandably too much of a coming out for parts of you).

What a gift it is that this baby was born on this day as Jelelle and I had also planned this day many weeks ago as a day to gather with our current closest beloveds for a wedding vow renewal ceremony!

Thank you, Jelelle for your intense focus these past weeks to handle all the rigours of self publishing! Thank you most of all for being with me into where we go now!

May this story touch you like no other!

Love,

Raphael

Third Eye Chakra: Divine Self Embodiment Video Series W/Raphael & Jelelle Awen

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By Jelelle Awen

Third Eye Chakra Opening: Divine Self Embodiment Chakra Sound Healing Series

Your third eye opens up your seeing, your visions, your clairvoyance, and your inspired dreams. As you heal blocks and fears (usually due to persecution from this life and other lifetimes for sharing third eye gifts), you can see beyond the veil of your soul’s amnesia and 3D Matrix conditioning. You become truly free and limitless in where you can ‘go’ and what you can imagine/envision that often leads to manifestation in the physical.

In this video, SoulFullHeart Teachers Raphael and I, Jelelle, Awen are playing our 432 HZ tuned crystal and especially the third chakra bowl (A Note). The meditation that comes through us invites you to open your third eye chakra to envision and connect to a safe, pure, high dimensional space where you can be with parts of yourself and soul aspects. You create an anchoring bridge to safety, purity, and deep healing for yourself with your Divine Self as you open to this creativity, this power of your imagination, this access to your soul’s domains.

And we recode together, we affirm together: I am seeing beyond the veil. I am Divine Intuition. My imagination is open and active.

We tune into our Divine Self embodiment for both women and men, plus Divine Union codes for opening up clear seeing and transmit these codes also through light language and toning/singing together in healing harmonies.

This is the sixth video in the Divine Self Embodiment Chakra video series, where we offer a recoding/upgrade transmission for each 3D Body/Energy Field chakra to 5D frequencies of light body. This provides a templating for each chakra to upgrade, yet also activates on a cellular level the imprinting of the light body. And, supports the detox and clearing necessary for the 3D body/energy field as well in its experiences of inflammation, indigestion, injuries, and illness. The Divine self vessel of vital health is what is needed to hold the higher frequencies of light and love that are possible now and going forward in this Ascension process.

Donations are always welcome as energy exchange and to support our offerings with payment links at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

We’d love to hear and feel your movements, reactions, and processes that come up in response to this series. You can watch the entire series in a playlist here, including the previous videos:    • Heart Chakra: Divine Self Embodiment …  

We also offer livestream/virtual sound healings and local sound healing circles in Portugal with more info about future events and 1:1 sessions at https://www.soulfullheart.org/