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Why Would Anyone Want To Be A Legend In Someone Else’s Mind?

Published on March 25, 2017 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

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This is day 2 of my new introduction to my soon-to-be re-released book ‘90 Days With Yeshua’ that I originally wrote in 2013. This introduction is written in the same easy dialogue fashion of our conversations from the book. I felt to share these new intro pieces here as I go. Enjoy…

Raphael: Good Morning Yeshua.

Yeshua: Good Morning Raphael.

R: I’m just feeling into where we might go together today…

Y: We don’t actually have to go anywhere…where we are is just fine if we can let that in.

R: I still find myself reaching for some dynamic outside of the moment somehow, like I’d like to enter a higher frequency awareness and feeling space than the one I’m consciously in at the moment.

Y: I so get that. It’s why people pray or meditate or read books, or watch movies, or drink a beer…to overlay a different feeling reality over the moment.

R: In one way, Yeshua, and a pretty big way at that, I find that sums up a whole lot of my relationship to life, even to this day. Even as I’m talking to you right now, I’m invested in it for some kind of a mood shift, and I’ll bet the people reading this would have to admit that the reason they are reading it is seeking some exit from something and entrance into something else to some degree.

Y: Here’s the deal though, Raphael. Being in a dualistic world, where one thing is always preferred over another is an art that leads you back to the moment if you follow it fully. Even when one settles for an escape instead of something deeply satisfying, that experience is part of their learning. The deeper appetite is unfulfilled, even though it may be dulled in the moment, or rather, dulled from the moment.

R: So it’s a pretty big pretzel though, because I often find myself in want of some kind of a mood shift, or experience shift. Like I said, that energy is present even in this moment of seeking deeper connection with you…

Y: Believe me, I hear you. What I want to convey to you in feeling this acutely with you, and I love how your heart and mind works, to evoke these inquiries….is to feel with you how the true portal to that mood shift as you call it, is actually an invitation into the moment, into the now, outside of time. You have this portal through your heart available in the now.

R: So the seeking of this mood shift as we’re calling it isn’t a negative thing in and of itself, and by negative, I mean a frequency lowering thing, but, it’s more about what source I turn to to get my needs met, choosing to go external vs. Internal…I get that part…

Y: I know you do…

R: The part I’d really like to get on with is entering that portal into the now and staying there more…
Y: Try this on for size…the feeling that you already do exist in the now….., we talk about entering the now as if you are not there already, but on a deeper level, you ARE the now.

R: ‘I am the now’….don’t know Yeshua if I’ve ever heard that anywhere else before?

Y: Cool huh….we’ve definitely got it going on friend…

R: We are legendary, in the truest sense, legends in our own minds….

Y: Why would anyone want to be a legend in anyone else’s mind!

R: Haven’t heard that one before either!

Y: Try BEing the now, recognizing that you are the now, and then the moralizing and shoulding about changing your mood can fall away as a relic of the past, and you get to enjoy and live in your native frequency.

R: THAT sounds so cool…and I notice it still offers us a focus, a choice point, even an effort point, but in a very different way, would you say?

Y: It’s the perfect marriage of doing and being actually. All the effort needed flows abundantly and freely from being, which turns the old definition of work on its head. There is choice, focus and effort still required, but in this higher dimension, there’s no shortage of that, and it flows from deep desire and joy. Work was never intended to be drudgery, but rather passion and fulfillment, that leads to more, and more.

R: And I like how it doesn’t emasculate me somehow…My power and choice is still very much a part of this, my individuality too…

Y: So many spiritualities here to this day are about trying to find some work around to this very point you bring up…the essential requirement of life itself of personal power and choice. No one is here doing life that isn’t on the deepest level seeking to come to terms with the God-being they actually are….seeking to learn how to create entire new worlds that they can feel as real….that no one can take away from them….

R: Wow, Yeshua, how do you wrap this up for today?

Y: I think I just did…all that’s left is choosing to BE, and letting BEing lead the doing…and it’s okay if that takes even a lifetime to learn, it’s worth it all, and besides, what could be funner?

R: Thank you Yeshua.

Y: You’re welcome Raphael.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

Moving From kNOwing To kNOWing

Published on March 23, 2017March 23, 2017 by Jelelle Awen1 Comment

By Jelelle Awen

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In the awakening journey, in this process of ascension…..it becomes more and more about what you kNOW rather than what you kNOw. This is more than just playing around with capital letters. I kept getting offered this over and over and now it has become a sort of mantra to invite us beyond the mind. kNOWing comes from higher guidance, soul wisdom frequencies, reSOULance, weaving in with the higher/Christ consciousness heart openings. kNOWing is the 4D transitional self and the emerging 5D sacred human merged and embodying with higher self frequencies relating with life through exploration, through curiosity, through risking into the unkNOWn in every moment.

kNOwing is the 3D self, leading with what the mind has learned, analyzed, digested, filtered and packaged. Non-vulnerable and rigid, kNOwing caps the frequencies of joyful magic that could and can arise in ANY moment. With kNOwing, nothing can arise or surprise as it is ‘figured out’, its essence drained of possibilities through the figuring and defining.

kNOwing creates a resistive frequency relationship to life and love.

kNOWing creates an open frequency relationship to life and love.

You’ve been conditioned to kNOwing by a culture that cultivates this frequency as a safety bandwidth. Changing your frequency to kNOWing happens through negotiation with the 3D self, through letting go of what is safe and known (what has become just TOO comfortable and isn’t offering growth anymore.) Letting go of what numbs and dulls and flattens everything into the kNOwing space. Letting go of the mind more and more and moving beyond it, in relationship WITH it yet the soul and heart are leading.

Like this picture so beautifully shows, moving into the kNOW is letting go of the comfortable connections sometimes too and risking to leap, to fly, to lunge off of a cliff and into Infinite Possibilities. A deepening connection, a personal sense of the Divine Source waters the frequencies of inner kNOWing, not book kNOwledge. This HAS to happen inside FIRST, over and over, in a loving self held space (and with a spaceholder too in phases) creating safety INSIDE that also allows room for trust to arise in the unkNOWn on the outside.

This safety and trust inside makes the jumping off the cliff feeling movements on the outside bearable, enjoyable or INJOYable. It is an internal YES that then can move downstream to the external YES to the kNOWing possibilities in every moment…..

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

I Am One Inside Of Thee One

Published on March 23, 2017March 21, 2017 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

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By Raphael Awen

Everything you could ever want and dream of having is already yours on a very real dimension, in a very real time and place.

Your and my difficulty in seeing that and feeling that to be true is because of the veil of forgetfulness that we, as an act of this infinite power we all possess, chose to enter. We are living out a choice. We needed a sacred journey of deep sleep and awakening. We needed to die to our infinite greatness in order to be reborn to it, and in so doing become somehow more in our new reborn infinity than the infinity we surrendered. A good nights rest changes everything you could say.

The staggering greatness we all possess was so great, that even in our prior aware state, our waking state, there wasn’t enough juice for us to not be afraid of our own bigness.

It’s important to feel here, that we, as individuals are all a part of one great consciousness that we are actually sharing. We have within that one great consciousness, a perpetual and sovereign lease on individuality, but what we experience and feel as personal lack or personal inferiority is actually a part of the one divine consciousness out journeying towards a great awakening.

In this way, divinity itself is coming to terms with its own fears and sense of lack and emptiness. Why would we think that only our positivity is a reflection of our divinity? Let’s hold that question and offer a couple other related and important pieces that will help us see this…

I am sovereignly one. One inside of thee one. Part of me wants to say ‘Don’t come preaching to me a religious sounding oneness crap if you can’t also honour the total uniqueness of being that I am in contrast to you’. This is so important to feel for our awakening process because we are all feeling and healing the one consciousness AS we come to terms with what’s true in our personal consciousness.

When you have fear, worry and anxiety moving through you, the divine is learning its way to returning to awakening. When you are in utter bliss, joy and abundance is washing up on your shores, you are also equally awakening. Now, I, like you, have been trained to value the positive, but this is because of our conditioning and forgetfulness.

When we experience the so called negative, why would we think that these feelings are outside of our overall participation in and with divinity, our godhood?

Nothing is actually in power over us dictating our reality. We sure got busy creating the illusion that the opposite is true, but now at these times of awakening, the only forward momentum or gravitational lift we can find seems to be around coming to terms with our own power.

Hence we gave ourselves a great big self created reality of an absence of our power through this veil of forgetfulness. Now, however, we really do want to awaken fully. Divine oneness created duality, and we best make no mistake, both are now equally true, and in complete harmony. You and I as separate and distinct are one and the same. Both are true. We’re living in 2 worlds. Only as we accept both worlds can either of them be true, and come to blend.

So what now? In this moment of wanting to come to terms with this more and more? I say follow your desire. The word desire literally means ‘of the sire’ meaning something to do with fathering the seed of our most deepest longings into the ground of all being. Sounds wild, but it’s as simple as truly letting our desires out to play.

And herein, we are advised of the great courage it is to want new things and more things so intensely while also feeling so grateful for what we have. We can do this because on this being level, any and every wish we wish for, we are already in possession of that wish. Let both desire and possession and gratitude flow through. Feel it. Feel it. Feel it.

I want to help you feel it if I can. I’m writing these words today out of a desire to seed a new consciousness deeper into myself and others at the same time. If your desire calls you to ask for personal space-holding with me in session space, let’s do it! I want you, I want your money exchange as an authorization of your power to be served by my power,.. I want to inhabit my next steps into this brave new world with you.

Others are available for sessions as well and you can see more here:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

Leaving Is Entering

Published on March 22, 2017March 21, 2017 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

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By Raphael Awen

Every leaving is always and also an entering.

Oftentimes in our wrestling with a deep choice at hand, be it an exit or entrance moment in our lives, we think we are anxious about what we are focused on, ie, the entering or the leaving, when in actuality, we are actually subconsciously more in anxiety about this counterpart of our focus. These two cannot be separated in our dualistic relationship to life and time and space, and are all part of the same choice.

We are actually in perfection before, after and during our decision points, but to have growth and grist in our school of learning, we actually need a degree of not feeling the perfection of all things in order to re-member it back into our being. We need the stress of choice, and even the anxiety that comes with that. We just don’t want to suffer in a cycle of that beyond what is necessary for our growth. In this, it is always us who decides what ‘enough’ is, and when to move on. Even the suffering is not outside of perfection.

We came from complete perfection, and we retained this perfection, but we gave up the conscious awareness of it (so it definitely feels like we lost it) in order to feel and heal our way to even more than we were in our previous perfection. Who’d have guessed that we’re busy improving on perfection, or that it’s even possible, but it feels like perfection is an ever expanding and changing reality, and one that we are being invited into…

It seems we were perfect, but we lacked somehow in our perfection a relationship with our perfection. It’s like being married to the most beautiful and amazing woman on the planet, but having lost sight of it and her. What else is there to do but leave in order to one day rediscover, and in the process, end up with something even more than you didn’t know you had.

So, get in, there’s no more time to explain it any more fully to the rational mind. There’s room in passenger seat for the rational mind and plenty of space to process the whats and wheres that intuition is inviting us all into…

If this lands in you, consider yourself etherically tagged here in FB land, and in the soulscape of the one-being that we are feeling and healing the same stuff in different ways and times. If I can be of service to you in any of the enterings or leavings that life is inviting you into, I’d love to show up for you and be in energy exchange with you through a session space… http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

The Ascending Man: What Is 5D Masculinity?

Published on March 22, 2017March 22, 2017 by Gabriel Heartman4 Comments

We are learning so much about what we as human beings are capable of in regards to our potential and expression. How we have so many gifts that lie dormant in our DNA and arising light bodies. A power of creation that seems mythical in proportions to our current limited consciousness. There is a general human frame that surrounds it and that is all true. I have also been very interested in how this plays out in our gender expressions. Do we just become less polarized this way and become more androgynous? I certainly feel this when it comes to our Star Being brethren. But does that mean we lose our humanness the way we know it now? I suppose, like all things in this unknown and unknowable time, it all depends on where we come from and where we want to go.

I feel we are being offered a Golden Age of Humanity. One in which we live both in unity consciousness and individuality. An individuation that is the Me within the We. Being connected to Source and having an awareness of our integrated fractal expressions. A higher vibratory dualistic experience. So in that picture I see a New Woman and a New Man. Or just remembering what it is we always were and even ARE currently. I feel this Golden Earth that we are desiring to be a part of and co-create together, is lead by the return and rebalance of more feminine and yin energies. This has been talked about for a long time and we see its need even more with the state of current affairs. The more wounded masculine psychic overlay is seeing its consequence and demise. Current disclosure revelations are showcasing the depths of this condition and awakenings are increasing.

Men are scattered just as much as women among the dimensional consciousness spectrum but women are closer to the frequency of 5D, at least in my opinion and experience. The awakening is happening mentally for most men and then as the vibration continues to raise on Gaia we are being invited to go more into our hearts, as that is what the core of 5D is. To live in the fullness of authentic BEingness. There are no more 3D wound-based blocks that cap or prevent our access to our more crystalline nature. So when we as men begin to heal the Heart what does that look and feel like?

Clearly we are honest with our emotions. We are vulnerable. When a feeling arises we express it with clarity, certainty, and openness to perspective and counter emotion. We are not afraid to get into the fray to burn away what is old and arise what is truly authentic. We invite the shadow reflection as a gift to deeper understanding and healing. There is a reverence for ourselves in the path of this integration. There is no longer self-doubt and self-judgment. We see ourselves as true Kings and proport ourselves as such.

The 5D masculine has met, wooed, and integrated his inner feminine. This creates a self-contained and balanced male BEing. The love and acceptance of the inner feminine reflects the reverence of the outer. The healing of the mom wound feels vitally important as it holds the energy of our relationship to the feminine and our subsequent sense of power and sexuality. There is the need for union with Woman as an alchemical and powerful dynamic of intensely epic proportions. This mating and integration of this inner feminine aspect brings us a more heart-open, softer, and less linear way of expression. There is less DOing and more BEing. Being with what arises in our desire and creative abundance. We clearly respect Gaia in all Her splendor and weep at the sight of Her stunning beauty. We are more connected to Her creatures and the guides and totems that they represent. Meat eating becomes a thing of the past that no longer has a place on our plate…our diet just changes with the integration of this new consciousness.

One of the biggest pieces to me is the shift from competition to cooperation as we become more aware of our connection to All That Is. We are One of the same so competing serves less purpose. I can feel a healthy form of competition possibly but my jury is still out on that one. As men begin to heal their father wounds the more we begin to open our hearts to each other in beautiful male bonding that is alive with wonder, exploration, and leadership. A cauldron of possibilities are shared and MANifested.

No longer will men feel responsible to achieve, but rather responsive to the call of building galactic bridges and to co-creating with their feminine counterparts in sacred union. The weight of the world and the need to control and provide are felt through and healed with love so that we can access our more authentic power that is in alignment with Source and Reverence. The chains of our own captivity are melted away with the tears of remembering what we have always been and why we chose the density of 3D.

This healing will open up our Galactic chakras and become more in tune with the energies of the universe. Many men are being awoken today only to be left with the question of what it all means and what to do with it. The grounding into Gaia and the heart feels like it will help with this feeling of uncertainty. This connection between our humanity and our universality is what creates a powerful new conscious cosmic experience. The heart opens up and grounds in. The service to others becomes 5D man´s new frontier.

I feel such a plethora of possibilities. Our expanded heart consciousness will open new doors of relationality among ourselves and our galactic connections. The relationship to Gaia will be in alignment with Her consciousness and Love. Living and breathing with and alongside her. Setting off into unknown realms to encounter new and exciting territory with the desire to learn and spread more love. Implementing and encountering new technologies and wisdoms. It is a great time to be alive.

But there is work to do on ourselves. Some more or less than others, but needed healing just the same. We are all in this together. All looking for those who are resonant and can provide support, reflection, and love. The old male collective is feeling the press of this continued flow of energy that is coming at us in Love each moment. Following Yin is to respond to the pings that are going off inside and to meet them with a gentle curiosity that brings them out into the light. No need to excavate or drill in the old way. Feeling each of our desires and fears are what leads us the next choice point of healing and ascending above the what used to keep us down. I look forward to this New 5D Man within me and within you to see what amazing experiences we can have together and with our counterpart 5D Woman. Now THERE is something to show up for!

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Body Changes, Interrupted Patterns, Collapsing Timelines, HUM energies during ascension

Published on March 21, 2017March 23, 2017 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

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Mega interrupted sleep ‘patterns’ for the last few nights for me. I can sleep for about three or four hours, then I am awake for several hours, crash nap, and then repeat again. I can connect this to a late afternoon tea or some chocolate, yet, it feels deeper then that and more about connecting to something BIGGER that is happening in both the COSMOS and personally. Before I knew the ascension vocabulary of ‘jumping or dissolving timelines’, I would have called what I am feeling as ‘anticipating change’, feeling changes coming on an intuitive level, and feeling the ‘rumbles’ of change coming for me personally, my beloveds, SoulFullHeart, and the world at large.

Yet, this isn’t anything NEW as change is the ONLY constant and we’ve been in transition for many years, both personally and globally. There is a HUM though, a feeling of something pulsing and alive, that wants to MOVE us on to the NEXT and the NEXT. Energies that want to move us on to whatever other place we are meant to be both inside of ourselves and what we experience as outer reality.

I can feel the sleep changes (crash naps for a few hours in the ‘middle of the day’ are newish too) as an aspect of the ascension process and actually a welcome disorientation comes where the mind can’t ‘track’ the days and nights as well and it ALL starts to kind of merge together, which is kind of the goal of ascension after all. The light body, the crystalline 5D body for which we are transitioning into more and more, doesn’t probably need the same amount of sleep as our carbon-based denser body did.

I already feel that our relationship to food will change significantly too with much less solid food needed and mostly vegetables and fruits when we do eat. Many of us can and will ‘live on light energy’ most of the time and go days without eating. This is not that radical as we ARE energy and made up of energy so it all we really need in another way is energy, although preparing and eating food can be so wonderful of an experience. It feels like we will get to choose when we want to eat. Our body weights will be natural and healthy with no extra fat as fat is needed only as an anchoring into 3D reality. A very necessary one at times, yet also, one that densifies us ultimately.

Back to the HUM….I’ve been asked what it means to experience a ‘collapsing timeline’….and today, as I was digesting wonderful openings and changes for some of us in the SoulFullHeart community, I had this sense of these changes feeling ‘surreal yet natural.’ This is a good way to describe a timeline collapsing…it feels surreal as in ‘better than my known reality before’ yet ‘natural’ in the sense of just fitting with essence and soul or higher self. Being open to timelines collapsing and shifting is really about being open to that ‘anything CAN HAPPEN in ANY MOMENT’…this is tapping into the realm of Infinite Possibilities for which we ARE in our essence as a fractal from Divine Source.

So then, of course, with all this exciting anything can happen-ness, sleep doesn’t seem as important even as it CAN BE critical to allow for the conscious mind to rest, the astral self to go explore, the integration of other lifetimes, the body to go into calibration and integration mode. I feel a trust in the moment in my body kNOWing what it needs for itself, rest and sleep will arise WHEN they are needed, and it is my mind that fixates on ‘missing sleep’ or ‘not getting enough’ or ‘interrupted anything’. The mind tracks life through segments and counting down of moments where the soul and higher self just flows in the moment by the moment for the moment. Why does being awake at 3am feel any different than being awake at 4pm, since both of these ‘markers’ are illusionary and made up anyway? To the soul, these distinctions don’t matter because they aren’t even REAL.

The HUM is also in the cosmos. It is the waves of PURE love raining and washing over us from the great central sun, center of the Universe, and radiating out of our sun in the form of light codes in the sun rays, which I’ve been taking in a lot of lately. It’s like the Universe is on a caffeine buzz, which feels both surreal AND natural. Momentum is the texture of the HUM too, a beat that is both relentless AND patient as it invites us to come along and also to keep UP with it. It invites us to ‘come along’ inside of ourselves, surrendering to the bigger picture and our higher selves, as we become more and more THAT surrender and THAT HUM in human form.

Love to you and our sleepless and crashing nap states both…..and feeling the HUM together….

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

In Service Of The Vulnerable Man

Published on March 20, 2017 by Gabriel HeartmanLeave a comment

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Vulnerability is the portal to our heart`s longing and truest self. Our most prized gift. In our `time` here in this dimension many aspects of our soul have been through many painful experiences, as well as the conscious experiences we have had in this life. It is not a fault for us to have a shield and need to suppress something that feels scary. All this happens many times on a subconscious and unconscious level. We created a protection because we know how valuable we are. How amazing we are. It was authorized by our Higher Self. But then the time comes when Love begins to make its way to our doorstep in whatever fashion that may be. Through pain, challenge, pleasure, or resistance. We begin to feel the dissonance inside us viscerally and the only really true relief is through letting your Truth be exposed.

I had deep tears today as I am feeling Love wanting to enter my field and upend all that a part of me has been clinging onto to resist the power of its immense Blessing. I could feel in one moment all the ways in which I, and my soul aspects, have built walls to keep me from risking and letting spirit lead me to this sacred union. I don`t judge this. I used to. Today was a deluge that comes from letting that authentic feeling of remorse that comes and showers you with all the love you can possibly let in. It is a mixture of pleasure and pain.

There is a reason for the invulnerability and a consequence. The longer we suppress what truly scares us the harder it can be to feel. However, I have come to believe it happens when it is supposed to happen. To this part of us, there is no good time to feel our vulnerability and fear. I have been through many phases of this facing hard truths and feeling fears. It is a spiral that continues to send us all the healing we need as we need it. One layer of healing brings us to another layer of shadow until we are becoming more and more in tune with our most authentic self. It is a sacred process that cannot be ignored in my heart.

I feel this area of vulnerability is a huge part of the collective male experience. Different men have different levels and comfortability with vulnerability. There are numerous reasons for it, but ultimately we fear our own power and the unworthiness that covers over it. This is the Age of the Vulnerable Man. It is time for us to heal our biggest pains so we can enter this Golden Earth that is NOW. I feel a veil lifted off of me from my tears, but I am not `done`. I have more to continue to feel as Love continues its dance with me. I am okay with this. I honor this. I feel its sacred balm and alchemical manifestations. Or WOMANifestations when it comes to drawing romance.

So in the end, I could feel the Divine telling me that ascension is not really all about what you know, but it is about what you feel. It is simply about letting in Love in its most purest and unfettered glory. Simply stated not so simply surrendered to. Being vulnerable with ourselves and with each other is the only way to get to the heart of what we were truly meant to be. To have someone you can trust to hold that space for it is one the most intimate experiences you can have outside of romance. With each touchstone movement, a new wave of self-love comes in and expands my heart to serve those who are in a space of needing healing. It is what I am here to BE and serve.

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Love’s Taking Center Stage

Published on March 20, 2017March 21, 2017 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

by Kalayna Colibri

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I’m rebooting, re-calibrating, re-aligning myself to love’s flow in a new way. A way that holds a name change for me as my life broadens and my heart expands, letting in, breathing out, letting go, breathing in…

This is ascension. This is life. This is life with ascension in it… or ascension with LIFE in it. This is where it wants to take us all, bringing us to our gifts and to such a great amount of love that letting it in is the biggest challenge, not searching for it and finding nothing. Nothing…no-thing… it is no-thing-ness. No-THINK-ness…

The realization of it having always been there, waiting in the wings to give you back YOUR wings, comes onto center stage now. It pulls the curtains back on its own, shines through anyways… but if you find your space to let it and help it do so, you are in and of service.

Yesterday while in process, I felt these words come, inviting me, inviting you, to feel something so poignant, so important, for your own necessary and ongoing process and the spillover of your process into the global and galactic terrain…

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When you feel your self hatred, all it wants is love to override its fear…its deliberate self/loathing, caused by reasons based in hate… which is NOT the opposite of love at all. Nothing can be opposite, only another aspect, a way to try and hide the desire to love and BE loved…

What you call “hate” or even “dislike”, is simply resistance to letting in how much love, appreciation and reverence you can actually feel…. stemming from unworthiness inside you, feeling this way towards yourself. Hate is love covered with protective spikes. It makes love into a blunt instrument or even a commodity. It makes it an attempt to kill-off the one thing it actually wants the MOST… REAL LOVE.

… the sort of love that can’t actually die. The one element ALL is made up of.

In love, with love, falling into and embracing more love,

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

March Equinox Energies Offer Balance And Surrender

Published on March 20, 2017March 21, 2017 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

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The equinox is today, March 20th – the beginning of spring for those in the North and the beginning of autumn for those in the South. What are the energies of this ‘day’ offering us, even as time, dates, months, seasons are illusionary from a 5D consciousness? As I feel into this, I get an image of the yin/yang symbol inviting us into the discovery and feeling sense of balance, of Oneness, of feminine and masculine frequencies in polarity dance with each other. Equal sunshine and equal nighttime darkness in balance is the EQUI-nox.

Balance from a 3D perspective can be about things remaining the same or safe or known. Balance may be ‘achieved’ through control with an underlying tone and tension of anxiety. Balance may be seen as an ‘ideal’ and anything ‘off’ or more extreme or coming from shadow felt to be wrong. It feels like the ideal of balance can be used by the 3D self to numb out stronger emotions and suppress what doesn’t ‘fit’ with that ideal. This can be a tricky ground to navigate as the strategic or 3D self or unawakened ego can use what actually does create an authentic sense of balance inside as a numbing and bypassing of feeling and healing deeper emotions and awakening frequencies that want and need to come out during the process of awakening as you move into more 4D consciousness states. Things that can be ‘used’ in this way to numb are meditation and yoga, for example.

Balance from a 4D and beyond sense is about becoming more in tune with your authentic self, at peace with self even in the midst of great changes, both internally and externally. A sense of balance is openness to feel ALL of your feelings, to make space for them, and not make any of them bad or wrong. It is the exploration of what is you and what is NOT you from a soul expression sense. It is about feeling One with others even as relationship shifts and completions are embraced. It is about coming from a place of deep BEing and stillness from within to respond to the necessary doing in your life and making choices and taking actions that support this balance. It is about embracing the inner feminine AND the inner masculine with honoring while being open to healing the wounded expressions and/or suppressions of both.

Balance from a higher dimensional perspective also has something to do with surrender….a trust that the content and experiences of life are being held by something bigger, by the soul, by the Divine. It also seems to come from a sense that the power comes from within us and yet, also, true power is sourced in Divine Frequencies of PURE love. Surrender offers balance because, ultimately, it is all being taking care of, we are right where we need and want to be, and life is unfolding as it ought to. Surrender is the sense that we are not victims yet great CREATORS of our own realities in alignment with the Divine. We can then ‘let go into’ this feeling sense and it changes and transforms how we respond to life situations and what we draw and manifest as well.

This equinox also serves as a ‘marker’ for the ascension process, the ongoing experiment of moving humanity and Gaia from frequencies of third dimensional reality into 4D transitional awakening and into fifth (Christ Consciousness) and beyond. This marker (even though, again, time is an illusion) offers a placeholder for a process that often feels so much beyond the mind, beyond time, beyond tracking, and happening more and more ‘off the track’ where our minds can even go or our conscious state can even be part of. This ‘day’ offers a beginning, an invitation into newness, an invitation to feel where you are in your life and what feels like is moving into more reflection of your soul and what needs to shift and change to reflect this more.

I keep getting also this image of a flower bud emerging out of a bed of snow and ice. Searching for the sunlight, aching for warmth, wanting to shake off the cold and the wet and the blankets of cold that dampen. This bud feels like the emerging 5D self, the human self merging with the higher self. This bud has been ‘baking’ all winter, even in the cold, even in the rain, even in the stormy conditions inside and from the ‘outside’ to. This bud is searching for a water of love to continue its growth and to bloom into the full grown magnificent FLOWER that it is. This bud is needing the warmth of self love and self care and self discovery.

The ices melt, the sun comes out, the rains stop in an experiential way through ‘weather’ at this time, yet, also, this process happens from within as well. The sunshine of PURE love is offering all of us an invitation to discover what remains frozen inside of us, what remains stormy inside of us, what remains off balance inside of us, what remains not in surrender inside of us. To discover and to hold with MUCH love and embracement all that is dark and that is light. To lead with vulnerability with ourselves and with others to open up our hearts that much more to frequencies of unity and connection inside and with others. To risk for the experience of MORE love. To lovingly protect the bud of sacred humanity that is growing inside of you with reverence and awe and patience. To experience more and more that you ARE infinite love returning to love remembering love.

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of an upcoming book, Becoming The 5D Sacred Human. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Being ‘Fast Tracked’ Related To Ascension And Awakening

Published on March 19, 2017August 2, 2017 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

Wonderful afternoon unfolding, just arising from one thing to another, sitting in the sun, sharing tea and veggie sandwich at a cafe, no rush, just moving along to the next place and the next, taking our consciousness with us…..enlivening conversations with my two favorite angelic earth men on the planet Raphael and Gabriel. We talked about how it feels like we are all being ‘fast-tracked’ …those of us on this journey to ascend and heal and BE healers offering to others.

We feel this in SoulFullHeart as our personal processes are speeding up, quantum healing in moments, mega soul and heart healing happening fast, and continual creativity and ideas for offering and serving love. We are being fast-tracked because it feels like an intense phase is coming up with many of the old structures of the old timelines collapsing and falling away. Those of us, like you who are reading these words, with healing gifts will be very much needed. Those of us with a heart to serve and give will be in very much demand. Those of us called to serve love will be very busy it feels like.

Part of the fast-trackness is claiming of your soul gifts and their expression, being bold to offer who and what you are, seeking to learn and train and grow so you can offer more, being wiling to feel the self image attachments that may come up and heal them, being willing to feel the unworthiness feelings that come up in parts of you and heal them. Finding wayshowers to offer a path and process perhaps that you can be part of and offer and serve love through (that is available through SoulFullHeart as a facilitator by the way, if you are drawn to that as it feels like we will be needing more souls to serve as SoulFullHeart facilitators in the future).

I have felt for many years the sense of collapse and recognized too that sometimes only through collapses and completions can the new be born. Out the ashes arises the phoenix……this phoenix is the NEW sacred human. Some souls will arise into this, those of us who have been feeling this for maybe many years and on this awakening path for many years. Or maybe you have just ‘popped’ recently into awakening through intense awakening experiences that came about seemingly ‘suddenly’ (although orchestrated by your higher self all along). I am hearing of this ‘sudden popping’ from more and more people who seem to find themselves transported from 3D and into 4D and even into 5D and higher dimensional states in some ways very quickly.

The eclipse coming up soon feels important as a ‘marker’ in time (even though time is not real); a placeholder to feel how we are entering a new phase of intensity in this intense year of 2017. What you have lived with that comes from a lower frequency will no longer be able to be justified or tolerated. Relationships that are being held onto out of safety will collapse. Jobs that don’t serve love or your higher purpose will fade away with new opportunities coming to you. Geographies that don’t speak to your soul will ‘run out of ground’, inviting you to explore and find new terrains, perhaps connected to a conscious soul family community. Soul mates/counter parts who ‘signed up’ to be in ascension will find each other more easily and things will probably progress FAST between you, no longer with years to ‘get to know each other’…..you probably won’t want to wait anyway!

I feel for the human body as it is stretched and reconfigured as it is fast-tracked too. As it is outfitted in a new ‘suit’ of crystalized energy to replace the carbon ‘bodyprint.’ This can bring body pains, body discomforts, body flus and body rashes, sudden congestions as the body shifts into a higher frequency. Recognizing when these symptoms are an aspect of the ascension process can help…sometimes the pains are ‘old’ objects and structures that your soul has held onto or are being energerized in past lives suddenly dissolve and leave some residual pain behind. They are like scaffolding that is no longer needed or a vestigial organ that has ceased to serve a function any longer. This happened for me yesterday as my reptilian brain stem dissolved (I wrote about this today in an earlier post.) Head pain can be the pineal gland growing and shining and turning ‘ON’ too.

Self love is so important during the fast-track. Going within to find your grounding with Mother Gaia and going without into nature to connect with Her too in a conscious way. Going within to connect with angelic guides, spirit guides, star Being selves (even Archons-Reptilian selves, as I offered earlier). Going within to breathe, to center, to clean and protect and activate your chakras. Going within to feel parts of yourself and their emotional reactions and digestions to ALL of the changes, especially your 3D self that has been comfortable and secure in 3D life and maybe even comfortable too in the last ‘vestiges’ of that old life, content in the rubble of the old life.

Much love is available from so many sources to help those of us who are being fast-tracked…..from my heart to yours, I extend my most precious gifts of service and exploration of the sacred feminine to women who feel drawn to experience a women’s group call with me on April 15th (more about that here: https://www.facebook.com/events/210818762733437/) and Raphael is announcing a men’s group call soon plus our ongoing group calls (nearly every weekend now). OR an individual SoulFullHeart session with me (or the others) for support, energy healing, SoulFullHeart process work, ascension guidance, higher self connection….oh so much magic happens in these spaces!…and LOVE too. More about that here:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

Love to you fellow fast-trackers….see you and feel you as we zoom through the timelines and multiple dimensions and collapsing and changing realities and experience of the self….. looking for love, resonating in love, BEing with love and offering/serving love….

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of an upcoming book, Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human.
Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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