Digestion Of 3D Energies & Appreciation For Awakening Souls: Personal Vacation Experience In Algarve Coast, Portugal

By Jelelle Awen

After being immersed in more 3D crowds, energies, and chaos of ‘holiday season’ in one of the most popular spots in the world during our vacation last week, I could feel a tension and sadness move through me/my womb/my heart last night after landing back in my higher vibe nest here in our more secluded mountain valley setting.

The sadness seemed to be both for humanity and what has become of so many souls during this fall from our bigness, grace, gifts, DNA, and light during the age of Atlantis. The sadness was also a part of me feeling the strain of being here during this peak collapse phase of the Matrix reality where agendas from all sides are constantly being pressed at us.

In my somewhat isolated, quiet, yet highly resonant life with my small community and in service it felt humbling to move into being around more 3D masses and their seeming preoccupations/fixations and near constant need to medicate, drug, externally be ‘entertained’ by food (usually junk), alcohol, water ‘sports’, small talk/chatter, loud music and loud noises. And to see/feel that they go from one thing to the next and wake up day after day with little self awareness or reflection or digestion around what they had just experienced!

The meditators and those actually letting IN the ocean and sun codes beauty were few and far between, those of us drawn at sun rise and sun set when the energies were at least calmer. To see so much infrastructure/buildings created around such truly beautiful natural settings was also hard to see, yet it is the case all over the world, as the beauty on the ‘outside’ is monetized/valued by those not able to be accessed often enough on the inside.

Oh, I so felt my heart and soul ache for humanity! And I could still feel and see the Divine spark within everyone and even the joy/goodness they could experience, especially receiving the negative ions from the ocean (which they are not conscious of needing/wanting.)

And as I connected with my Inner Earth Lemurian aspect Ruma last night, she offered again so much appreciation for those of us who are here to seed the light and hold the remembrance during this phase of darkness. I got such a sense of how few of us there truly are (although growing!) as the majority is still so fused to 3D. And this wasn’t from a place of despair, yet rather recognition of what we have signed up for and the true challenge that it is.

We have so often made beauty out of mess and are extracting goodness out of density, receiving healing/learning from hurts and abuse, turning negative experiences into growthful ones, clearing toxic energies from our ascending light bodies…..it is really an extraordinary transmutation that we are ALL doing every day!

I many times have met with very brave souls in sessions who have hardly anyone around them who is awakening. Not only are they in often complete divergence to their families and former friends too, they are still in a void space of drawing soul family members to them. It’s amazing to feel what they/their Divine Self and even parts of them are able to retain inside themselves of their heart and soul, staying open, even without much support on the outside.

So, I felt a lot of recognition and appreciation for us awakening souls from Ruma and all the amazing beings who wait in Inner Earth for the time they can come to the surface and join us here in the creation of a NEW Earth and NEW Lemuria. A reminder too that these beings are here to support you, any time you need them. You can especially connect with them in natural spaces.

We soul family members are also finding each other, more and more, as letting go of 3D energies/patterns/abuses/traumas opens us up to receive more love and goodness again in relationships. I always feel that those drawn to sessions with me are soul family members and we are in agreement to hold space together in service of ourselves/soul family/humanity, which is not a business transaction (even with a fair energy/money exchange) yet rather a soul’s calling and reunion.

I was reminded by Ruma that humanity is in a deep transition and it CAN be hard to see and feel that things are shifting at times.

Yet, as we hold it in our inner worlds, as we access the love that we ARE, the light that we ARE, as we beacon and radiate those energies OUT to those who can receive them…..so we become the new possibility that others can embody too.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

More information about free intros/1:1 sessions, group call events, writings/books, online community at soulfullheart.org.

Raphael capturing the beauty through his heart/soul in this pic at sunset #raphaelsphotonics

Womb Healing During Heartbreak: Sacred Feminine Arising Guided Meditation Series

by Kasha Rokshana

As women, our wombs hold so many energies: parts of us, parts of other people, codes for us to download and integrate, soul purpose alchemy, grounding into life, and so much more. After being in intimate relationship with another soul or letting go of anything in particular in our lives, there is usually something deep to feel within our wombs as we come back home to ourselves and reclaim the space she has held for others within her.

Sacred Feminine SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator, Kasha Rokshana, leads you to connect deeply with your womb during this guided meditation/transmission. During the meditation, you’ll connect with Divine Feminine guides as you step into the depths of your womb and begin your journey of feeling and deepening your relationship with the parts/aspects of you who hold the heartbreak you may be experiencing at this time.

1:1 sessions/free intro calls with Kasha for women are available if you feel drawn to deepen your healing and self-discovery journey. More info here: https://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

Kasha co-leads monthly women’s calls with Jelelle Awen by donation and on Zoom. For more information on upcoming and past women’s calls, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org/womengroupcalls

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

SoulFullHeart Museletter: Aug 28, 2022

It’s always perfect timing to work with your chakras, feel them deeper, continue to clear them, and tap into what they have to offer you about your personal process and the integration of Ascension codes.

Featured this week is a chakra meditation and sound healing video from Jelelle Awen, featuring her beloved sound bowls. This video is a compilation of ALL the individual chakra meditation and sound healing videos she released during this past week. It’s a powerful transmission and attunement to let in!

Raphael and Jelelle will be leading a group call over Zoom on September 11th, focused on healing the persecution wound inside and out. If you’d like more information on this and other upcoming group calls, visit soulfullheart.org/events.

There are many new writings and audio blogs to take in this week, featuring personal sharings, digestions of current energies, poetry, and more.

There are also some brand new videos from Jelelle, featuring sound healing meditations to open up your chakras individually. These are some of the videos that were put together for the longer video featured this week. There’s also a new video from Gabriel where he digests some pieces about connecting to your Root Chakra and the importance of doing so in nature.

You can find our current Museletter here.

If you’d like to subscribe to receive our Museletters and other announcements in your own inbox, you can do so on our website: soulfullheart.org, or you can scroll to the bottom of this issue and click “subscribe”.

Much love from all of us!

~ the SoulFullHeart Community

Healing The Persecution Wound Group Call 9/11 | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

I recently had a persecution wound experience come through quite strongly related to a Cathar lifetime as I open up to the Cathar (Magdalene descendents) mass persecution/holocaust that happened to them in Southern France. I was feeling tension and that ‘something bad was going to happen’ for a day or two although nothing in my life was occurring. I was able with my Gatekeeper’s help to connect to the soul aspect who experienced being burned alive in a church with all her beloveds (including Raphael’s soul aspect) by the Catholic Church, the terror and horror of it, and also bridge to Divine love/soul family love again. She is recovering now and has many gifts to offer me as we connect more.

This way of being with persecution wound energies from this life and other lifetimes is about being relational, intimate, and also being a bridge for your soul aspect to connect with Divine support in a very specific way that goes beyond just a one time regression. And it is led by you and not others ‘reading out’ your ‘past’ lives. It is all occurring in the Now. You can shift the entire experience/choices around it as well in this lifetime with the soul aspect leading that….quantum healing possibilities.

It felt timely to focus our next monthly group call on 9/11 to healing the persecution wounds that live within ALL of our souls through our lifetimes in the Matrix, esp as those who ‘lead the way’ and awaken before the masses. Healing these wounds can open so much more trust and gift expression! Hope you can join us…

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The experience of being persecuted is one that lives within all of our soul fields and expresses in our reality in this life as well. It often vibrates underneath your sense of daily life without conscious awareness and connection to it, which just leads to more recapitulation of the same energetics over and over (even if the circumstances are very different). Persecution occurs as an acute experience of separation, rejection and punishment that creates fear and retraction knots and blocks within us, particularly related to sharing our soul gifts and outed expression of our truth/boundaries in relationships.

The persecution wounds of currently awakening souls are being activated for seeing, healing, and clearing. At first consideration, this can feel daunting, but as we bridge to these wounds we find incredible gifts in the process. As we connect to the part of us who acts as our soul’s Gatekeeper, they can open up access to the lifetimes/timelines and the soul aspects that are suffering due to these experiences. As this access occurs in an ongoing and intimate way, we are able to digest the fear and trauma that leads to suffering patterns in relationships, soul gift expressions, physical body illness/chronic pain, energy blocks, and more. As our relationship with the Divine deepens, a bridge of love to these wounded experiences occurs with more trust, balance, and creative expression.

​In a two-hour group call for men and women on Sunday, September 11 at 5:00/17:00pm WEST/12:00pm EDT/9:00am PDT, SoulFullHeart Teachers, Facilitators and sacred union mates Raphael and I will offer an activation to connect with the persecution wound within your soul. We will share about our most current personal processes as individuals and as a sacred union pairbond related to the persecution wound, how we have experienced it together and as individuals. We will also share about how our SoulFullHeart process can serve to allow for more integration, digestion, and release of the persecution wounds.

In the guided meditation/transmission portion of the call, we will create a bridge to connect with your Gatekeeper, the soul aspect that knows and is connected to all your lifetime incarnations. Your Gatekeeper will then bridge to whatever persecution wound experience is ready to come through. We will offer a lot of love and bridging to the soul aspect/part of you that we will also tune into as a group to receive codes to assist humanity’s ongoing awakening process and healing of persecution wounds collectively.

Divine guides will join us to hold a safe, higher-vibe space for this exploration and offer inspiring transmissions of Infinite love and light. We will also repeat affirmations as a group that provide a new coding of anchoring spirit into our physical bodies.

We recommend engaging in this guided meditation video to meet your Gatekeeper prior to the call: https://youtu.be/bGqTeeaYpwc

You can receive these frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us (this is totally optional). Plus, you’ll be able to take in and receive sharings from other souls (both women and men) in the call, which is a powerful activation of its own!

This group is open to the public and to anyone over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy/money exchange of whatever donation you feel to give ($11 USD/$15 CAD is the usual amount people offer us).

You can offer your donation via our shop at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will send you the zoom link to attend and the recording afterwards. If you purchase via paypal, please include your email and what you are purchasing in the note section so that we can send you the zoom link and the recording afterwards.

More info at soulfullheart.org/events and soon on FB.

Hope you can join us for this powerful exploration into these energies!

Love,

Raphael and Jelelle

Pic is of Raphael and I standing in front of the church at Fatima…you can see the Cathar soul aspects coming through in it!

Custom-Made Spirit Animal Transmission Portraits by Kasha

Animal guides offer us so much support in our lives here on Gaia. They feel like Star Family as well as Soul Family. So often it seems to be the case with our ‘pets’ and personal animal companions that they have a deep soul connection with us from many lifetimes and aren’t with us by accident or even coincidence. Our animal companions are just as essential to our lives and our expression of service of love, as anything else we hold as important for they offer us so many reminders of unconditional Divine love, remind us how to show up for and care for something outside of ourselves, and can help us open out our soul gifts as well.

An essential aspect of our Ascension and reunion process with the Divine within and without is our connection to our Gaian animal beloveds. They represent and remind us of so much within our hearts and souls and it’s never random which animal it is that we feel most drawn to, whether it’s physically or energetically. They all give us so many gifts and messages to draw from and they also offer portals into our essence and our soul’s lifetimes too!

I began making Spirit Animal Transmission Portraits as a way to offer a portal of connection to the animal companion(s) that reflect and offer something to you at this time. I create high-resolution images that can be used virtually or printed and framed/mounted. I can create your image with any dimension you prefer and we can talk openly about all the details as well as anything you’d like changed or altered once it’s been created.

I ask for an exchange of at least €20 as a donation in exchange for your portrait, yet I’m open to receiving any amount you feel is accessible to you and is a reflection of what you feel it’s worth to you personally. I create these as a way to serve love besides the 1:1 sessions I do with women, and they are a way for me to keep transitioning from my online English teaching job and into more full-time soul purpose-based work, so your generosity will be met in kind and with a heart full of deep gratitude!

I can create a portrait for you of your spirit animal(s) or any pets you’ve had that you’d like to honour as well!

Email me if you’re interested at kasharokshana@gmail.com and we can talk some more about details as well as how you can offer your donation to receive one.

Looking forward to creating one (or several) for you or as a gift for someone special!

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

All Seven Chakra Meditation & Sound Healing Series (All In One Compilation Video) | Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

All Seven Chakras: Chakra Meditation And Sound Healing Series

Per request, this video is a compilation of all eight videos that I recorded in my daily Chakra Meditation & Sound Healing series last week. The 1hr 20 minute video includes a sound transmission from a 432HZ tuned bowl with a specific resonant note playing that corresponds to each chakra: the root chakra, sacral, solar plexus, heart, throat, third eye, and crown.

I also offer a meditation to tune you into each chakra along with affirmations/recoding for each one. You can read about each individual chakra through the descriptions of each video on my FB feed or in the playlist at: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIB4KbRnnqNSZ20DgfN1Jdh

In the final part of the video, we tune into all of your chakras as I’m playing all the sound bowls that activates/clears/opens all of your chakras. I particularly focused on playing the Root Chakra (E note) and Heart Chakra (F note) as the grounding into our heart space is the base from which we can most effectively open out all others.

This video would be great to play as you are falling asleep as well, just letting the codes come through as you drift into theta/delta states.

I’m grateful for the Divine inspiration that guided me to offer this series and for the inspirations that come in the future that serve love within me and with you as we embody our I AM on all levels.

More sound and voice healing transmissions to come, esp now that I have my handpan!

INjoy!

With Love,

Jelelle Awen with Divine Mother

More info about free intros/sessions, group call events, books/writings, online community, and videos at soulfullheart.org.

The macrame jewelry I’m wearing has been lovingly made by Enchanted Well Creations: https://www.etsy.com/ca/shop/EnchantedWellCreate

Visit To Fatima Mother Mary Religious Site and Grutas da Moeda Coin Caves: From Matrix Complex To Inner Earth Lemuria

By Jelelle Awen

We went on a day trip yesterday back to Fatima, the religious and spiritual site here in Central Portugal that honors an extended visitation with Mother Mary to three children over a period of six months in 1917. It has the look and feel of a massive religious complex with three churches within a courtyard of concrete…one is able to seat several thousand visitors/pilgrims.

Here is my previous writing about our experience visiting Fatima in December and digestion within my soul afterwards: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2021/12/15/digestion-of-my-visit-to-fatimas-marian-apparition-sacred-sites

“Mother Mary shared with us that while the first visit with the children was genuine as it was only the three of them (which was Jacinta’s favorite one), the visits after that were somewhat hijacked by the Matrix False Light frequencies. The purity of Mary’s message of peace, an end to wars, and hope/love/support for ALL of humanity was distorted by this hijack and used to convert even more souls into the religious trap of self condemnation, seeking salvation outside of themselves, and False God Worship of the Papal ‘corporation’. Mother Mary offered that the Miracle of the Sun event witnessed by so many souls was also a Matrix hijack and tweak of the Matrix hologram in that moment.”

After the intensity of heat and crowds at the Fatima site, we were then blessed to go to Grutas da Moeda (Coin Caves), a fairly large limestone cavern complex nearby just ‘discovered’ in 1971. The energies within the caves were calming, cool, and grounding…such a needed balm! We spent some quiet moments in the depths of the caverns, taking in the sounds of running water

I felt how many visits I’ve had with my Inner Earth Lemurian aspect Ruma in which we connect in a healing pool within a cavern as a bridge to Inner Earth. So many explorations with people’s Gatekeepers as well in sessions that began in caves and tunnel systems running off of them representing timelines/lifetimes. AND I could feel of course all the lifetimes in which I have been drawn to solitude. meditation, and prayer within the cool comfort of caves.

The caves felt both wombic/yonic with moist walls and valleys carved out by water over time…..and protruding lingual looking limestone stalagmites rising up within them. I can so feel the portal and bridge that caves offer to Inner Earth, where it truly is another world of higher dimensional possibilities/codes/way of living in harmony, unity, and love that the Lemurians are preserving for us there until we are ready on the surface to receive them.

Spontaneous light language came out of both Kasha and I within the caves, felt very Lemurian, which is shared on my FB feed. The message was one of joy, reunion and an encouragement to ground/connect with Inner Earth and our Lemurian aspects/ancestors waiting there for us.

We are moving out of the Matrix reality of control, shame, and excess and back to the roots of our grounded experience of the Divine within us, with Gaia, and within the authentic heart of our sacred humanity.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Info about free intros/sessions, group call events, books/writings, online community portal at soulfullheart.org.

Masculine And Feminine Needs & Wants In Sacred Union

By Jelelle Awen

The masculine wants to be needed.

The feminine needs to be wanted.

This is a sacred journey of polarities that sometimes is a crash and sometimes is a dance. Sometimes is a bliss and sometimes is a mess.

Neither is wrong in this core, underlying desire nor in the wounding that results in the human experience of it not getting met consistently.

As the masculine encounters being criticized, being judged, being tugged on, being controlled, being put demands by the ‘feminine’ (which is really more of a wounded masculine energy inside a feminine), then he retracts or he fights. He ghosts or he defends himself.

He is swimming in inadequacy if he doesn’t feel that he is meeting her needs….or especially if he feels like he has failed her in some way. He becomes often unable to speak this, to share these feelings with her….as if in speaking it, he is offering the most terrible confession.

As the feminine experiences being rejected, being unclaimed, a push-pull of desire for her by the masculine, she then attacks and blames with her inner masculine coming out to fight….or she crumples into core unworthiness and feeling so hurt that she is fused to the young child, the inner teenager within her. She is drowning in this hurt yet often can’t bring this vulnerably and in a way that can be felt by him.

This dynamic is not just from this life, yet produced from the original source wound of our separation from the Divine. And, downstream from that, separation from the counterpart pairbond that exists in our soul family monad of our other half holding the opposite polarity of masculine or feminine.

Variations of reactivity from when this core wounding gets triggered by each other play out in SO many ways. Yet, at the heart of it is a feminine who has felt rejected by her masculine and is still reeling from it. And at the heart of the masculine who has both been birthed by the feminine and yet also feels how with this capacity he doubts if she could ever really need him in any way.

As we feel this dynamic within us….from an Inner Masculine with our Inner Feminine, we are healing this polarity from within FIRST and primarily. We experience huge heart chakra expansion as these parts of us come into union. She forgives him for what feels like rejection even as she starts really getting how his protection of her has been his form of claiming. How he has always wanted her, just has felt inadequate to her.

And he forgives her as he feels that she has always needed him, yet doesn’t want to be suppressed by him or protected so much that she can’t be free, experience life, dare to get hurt, dare to risk and dare to dream. She DOES need him and he is worthy to show up for this.

And the Divine Father and Mother aspects show up to support each in the experience of receiving infinite love, infinite worthiness, infinite claiming by the Divine. The empty cups that lead to lashing out, defending and protecting become filled by this Divine love. And the feminine becomes more of a reflection and an embodiment of this Divine Mother energy in her unique expression. And the masculine becomes a reflection and embodiment of Divine Father energy.

As this sacred union happens within, so you can experience this on the outside with a mate who holds the other side of this polarity for you. You can be with the parts of you, both masculine and feminine, who get triggered by the deepening intimacy, the deepening mirror, the deepening challenge that if offered by TRUE sacred union when all grounds of relational transaction are coming together.

This download came in a little while ago, especially during our sacred union group calls in June (recordings available at soulfullheart.org)…realizations stemming from my relationship with Raphael as well and the phases of brief separation that opened out into more union and deeper understanding of each other.

Feels like this also speaks to a collective unveiling that is happening in the masculine/feminine dynamic in relationships and within…getting to the core of the separation wound created from the experience of polarity between us in which also so much desire for reunion also exists. Compassion for each other can arise in this space and also forgiveness for self and other.

Inner first, then outer approach allows the horizontal ground between the partners to be more clear and have more space. In this space, resonance can move, desire can move, attraction can move, and most importantly, love can move.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Here is an inner sacred union meditation to connect more deeply to your inner masculine and feminine: https://youtu.be/YVgEANrF6J4

More info about free intros/sessions, private online community, group call events, my books at soulfullheart.org.

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Unbroken You: A Divine Love Transmission

by Kasha Rokshana

The shaken-up ground 

Hasn’t broken you.

It was never meant to sever you

From the heart of the Divine

And nor could anything ever do so.

The uncertainty and unknowns

Are there FOR you,

To enliven you again,

To breathe life into the embers

Of your heart’s fervent passions

Hidden below what has now become flattened

Out of fear of losing

And never finding or drawing

What it is you truly want.

Your soul is quaking with truth

While judgements of right and wrong

Are on your tongue

Having held your mind’s way 

Of filtering life’s experiences

And experiences of love too,

Preventing an openness 

That could lead to more heartbreak.

Your heart flutters with a knowing

Of what’s possible

Even when the Divine extends a hand

And asks you to trust

As you take that next leap 

beyond the known

And out of what has been for so long.

Every sacred ending is temporary.

Every blessed beginning is extraordinary.

And each are celebrations of who you were,

Who you are now,

And who you’re about to become

In the eyes and heart of the Divine

Who mourns with you,

Let’s go with you,

Breathes in and out with you

Walks with you,

Holds you,

In all of your many waves of life,

Death,

And letting in more love

Than you ever could have before…

You are finding your way into

And through

All of your quaking, shaking

Fear, longing,

And opening UP to what’s real

Along with what’s really possible,

As you reach the destination of your soul

Through the feeling textures of your heart

And reunite with resonance

And declarations of being seen, heard, and oh, so felt

Loved

And cared for…

Starting, 

And moving deeper, always, 

Within.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Root To Crown Chakra Opening: Chakra Meditation & Sound Healing Series (Video) | Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

Root To Crown Opening: Chakra Meditation And Sound Healing Series

As I share this final video in the series, I can feel how I have been changed by it, by showing up each day to journey into the Divine retuning/recoding of these precious energy centers. I’ve been connecting to and working with the chakras for many years now, yet I feel like they arose anew for me by feeling them/seeing them as the Divine does. So much love for both the capacity that they can express and also for the densities/blocks/plugs they may still contain!

I can feel how you may be drawn to one particular video and chakra for a time….and then moving organically onto another depending on what phase you are going through. Or perhaps listening to all of them at once, which we will offer a video soon for that.

I’m grateful for the Divine inspiration that guided me to offer this series and for the inspirations that come in the future that serve love within me and with you as we embody our I AM on all levels.

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In this final video in my chakra meditation and sound healing series, we tune into all of your chakras as I’m playing my 432 HZ tuned crystal sound bowls that activates/clears/opens all of your chakras. I particularly focused on playing the Root Chakra (E note) and Heart Chakra (F note) as the grounding into our heart space is the base from which we can most effectively open out all others.

The meditation that comes through me invites you to open up to each chakra and feel the blending of them as well, along with some light language coding. As you move into embodiment of your sacred humanity. Of your Divine essence. Of your Infinite Love essence.

Thank you for being and joining me on this journey. You are SO loved.

This is the eighth and final video in a series that I’ve been offering over the last week, tuning into each chakra while playing my sound bowl that activates them, channeling whatever messages come through from Divine Mother/Father through my human heart to yours.

I’ve been sharing this chakra series on FB, IG, and our SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel. I’d love to hear and feel your movements, reactions, and processes that come up in response to this series.

You can watch the entire series in a playlist here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIB4KbRnnqNSZ20DgfN1Jdh

INjoy!

With Love,

Jelelle Awen with Divine Mother

More info about free intros/sessions, group call events, books/writings, online community, and videos at soulfullheart.org.

The macrame jewelry I’m wearing has been lovingly made by Enchanted Well Creations: https://www.etsy.com/ca/shop/EnchantedWellCreate