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Lost And Found And Lost Again…

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By Raphael Awen

So I go to grab my passport a few days ago in order to head to the bank, and it’s not where it belongs.

Shite!

I think back to where I used it last and that would be a couple weeks back when we had to go get our van back from being towed after I parked it where I shouldn’t have. Another anomaly.

I recall producing my passport at the government office to pay the fine, but I recall getting it back. Could I have left it in Pablo’s car? Pablo was the miracle man we had met recently that took us on the tour to get the van back, who had a ‘friend’ at ‘Transito’ at the government office building. I pull out my pendulum to ask it for some help. Is the passport in the apartamento? No. Didn’t think so. Is the passport in Pablo’s car? No. Shite. Where else could it be? Is it at the towing yard possibly? I couldn’t recall producing it there. Big YES! OMG, could it be? I get the phone number from the receipt and call the yard. I recalled a sweet young woman working there. I think I recognize her voice. ‘Hola, mi nombre es Marvin’ I say slowly (my name on my passport). ‘Ahh’, she replies, ‘tengo su pasaporte’. Big relief. Gabriel and I make the trek back there to pick it up the next day. Bingo. Passport is back. All good.

Well, it was all good for about less than an hour.

We went from the towing yard to the mall to do some shopping. We stopped to get something to eat, and I reach for my man purse and it’s not with me. Shite! Only now, it’s the passport AND the wallet! I left it in the bathroom stall draped over the tissue dispenser not 10 minutes prior. I run back to the bathroom. I recalled a bright looking young man entering the stall as I left, but he’d be gone by now. I look under the door to find the stall occupied and so I wait. The guy takes a while, so I wait some more till he’s done. I check the stall and it’s gone. Of course it’s gone. Double Shite!

I take a deep breath as I think to check in with customer service as I head for the bathroom exit, when in walks the bright young man carrying my murse…all intact, relieved to have found me! I reward him with some pesos that he accepts, and walk away not quite believing my good fortune and not believing I could have been so careless? Or was it care-free? What planet am I living on? …redoing my teen phase of life?

I joked to Gabriel when I returned smiling to find him in the food checkout that my karma must be all paid up in this department!

I’m not exactly sure what the moral of all this story is, but it feels like it has something to do with life reordering our worlds through chaos, and through manageable death and rebirth cycles. Jelelle and Kalayna couldn’t believe my story when we got back home saying I’m the last person to ever lose or misplace something. While that’s been true for me historically, it felt like it was obviously only true for a previous version of me. I strategically learned a good survival skill, but life and the universe wants to swap these out for some new ‘thrival skills’ based in trust and abundance, as it gave me an opportunity in this chaotic run of circumstances to loosen my grip on these fear based rigid rules of what being a ‘responsible’ human is.

Can we see that any chaos that comes into our lives is not meant to be a self-punishing cycle, but instead is a beneficial synchronicity of a loving universe? Can we see and feel life wanting to give us what we need even when we can’t see it or feel it as such?

Another question that came for me was ‘Can you imagine a world where losing your valuables would be the last thing to worry about because no one is in any kind of lack?’

Can you and I begin this task of letting-in this super-abundant universe into our emotional bodies as a way to virally infect the human race with this abundance ‘bug’?

It only takes one as we are all one and only one.

Raphael Awen
www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Jelelle Awen and I, Kalayna Colibri and Gabriel Heartman have our next group call this Saturday if you’d like a taste of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life…it’s a magical portal into a brave new world.

Event details are here: https://www.facebook.com/events/271320303342295/

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Is It Safe To Want More?

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By Raphael Awen

‘Is it safe to want more?’

‘Can I actually have what I most deeply want?’

‘Isn’t gratitude for what I have the opposite of wanting more?’

These questions repeatedly come to anyone who chooses to awaken their emotional body? They came to me again last night as I felt another layer of what I so deeply want.

To learn of deep abounding beauty that you don’t normally experience is to subject yourself to longing and despair that you don’t currently have that in your life. It takes big courage just to awaken that far. To then set out to obtain that deep beauty as your living reality is to call on resources of courage and choice that will surely be tested and tried moving forward.

How much easier and understandable it is for the masses to choose to remain asleep to desire. In moments, you are tempted to choose the path of the masses if you had any inkling that it could actually work for you.

You know you are here for more. You know that’s ‘just what is’ in your relationship to life. You also know any spirituality that offers the killing of your desire in the name of ‘overcoming attachment’ won’t work for you. You want more and you know it.

But life doesn’t actually offer you any kind of unconditional guarantee that you will obtain the desire of your quest for more, in exchange for your willingness to want so deeply. What life does offer you however, is the opportunity to embrace, and be in the aliveness of your desire for more. This is where the meaning is felt and found. I am a living breathing ‘wanter’.

I get to be in want.

I am a lover of love and love is so infinite and so multi-faceted that in surrendering to being in love’s want, I am sure to always be wanting something more than what I currently have, as beautiful, and even super-abundant as my current reality may be, and may go on to become.

We came from infinite source ‘having it all’ and yet we wanted more. So we came here, to be in lack, and want, to feel all there is to feel about this paradox. I am The All out wanting more.

I do get to fully enjoy every fulfilled desire along the way. I get to be in gratitude for both my wants AND what my wants have brought me. Every attachment that I ever clutched onto for as long as I did, be it a healthy or an unhealthy attachment, was really for me simply LOVE, in the way that it was, for the time that it was. It may no longer be love for me as I move on to deeper experiences of love, but that doesn’t mean it wasn’t deep and abounding love in the way and time that it was.

In fact, everything that I ever wanted and will ever want is simply love. Love is the source of all. I’m told that you and I can have all that we are ready and willing to let in, AND, when and as we are ready for it, we can have it TOGETHER too, in community.

How’s that for a deal? How’s that for a new world order? You and I get to be the deepest experiencers of love as we are willing to be in love’s deepest want.

 

Audio recording of this blog post in Raphael’s voice is here:

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Leaving Credibility Behind

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By Raphael Awen

Come with me for a moment, leave the world of the so called ‘credible’ behind to feel the world of the ‘IN-credible’…

Imagine for a moment that planet earth is likened to a single grain of sand, and then imagine that, for each and every of the other grains of sand on planet earth, that there exists another earth-like planet in the cosmos…watery, inhabited and abounding in life. One for every grain of sand!

Start with a pinch of sand…that’s countable, right?… bit of a challenge, but doable. Then try a tablespoon. Jump to a wheelbarrow of sand, and then to a sandbox full. One earth like planet for every single grain…. No wild way any of that’s possible, let alone one for every grain of sand in the earth!

But who’s to say?

Our minds are quick to point out that we don’t have any ‘credible’ science to back up such a notion (which actually isn’t accurate as new science is in fact emerging to strongly support this), but I invite you to FEEL this idea first with your heart and let your mind follow. Does it FEEL possible? Does it FEEL desirable? What about the opposite; that we on planet earth are the only ones ‘here’ in the cosmos…does that FEEL desirable or even possible to you?

Credibility is so far from all that it’s sized up to be. Something that’s ‘credible’ simply means that it is a ‘truth’ that has been given its stamp of approval by someone or some group, outside of yourself, who took it upon themselves to grant such accreditation, as a correct truth or a right truth for you to believe in. ‘Credibility’ is the world of mutual agreement where you are offered a false sense of belonging in exchange for suppressing your own truth. That if you believe what you are told is true, you won’t be frowned upon by the group or by these self declared gods of ‘Thee Truth’.

The truly IN-credible is the world where what you believe and see and feel as YOUR TRUTH is authorized from withIN you, from your own heart. Where you are the author. Where you are the creator….where the seeing that leads to believing is the seeing that YOU see through your third eye of true sight. The world of the INcredible is the world where you assume full power and full responsibility for what you believe and why.

You are free to believe whatever you want to. You are free to believe whatever you feel to. You no longer have any need for being ‘right’. You get to be wrong in fact, and change your mind and heart as often as you wish or need to. You get to invite others who are ready to explore their own truth to feel you as you explore yours. You get to live from your curiosity, rather than what you think you know as any kind of final truth. You get to let the world of not-knowing lead you to a truer and deeper ever unfolding kind of knowing, where even that ‘truth’ is again surrendered into deeper still realms of knowing what you never actually knew.

The only thing stopping you from taking this power of yours AS YOURS is the degree of your own unmet need to belong to something outside of yourself. What will ‘they’ think and what will ‘they’ say about me if I don’t agree or sign on with their deal? Are you ready instead to entertain the feeling of belonging entirely to yourself? Only as you belong to yourself are you able to truly share yourself with others. You cannot share what you do not own. Conforming in order to belong can’t actually provide any lasting sense of belonging, as you have not actually entered yourself into the circle, but instead only a caricature of you that pretends to believe and see the world in a certain conformist way. As they say in football, ‘you have no skin in the game’.

If the picture of our single planet earth that we were taught to believe is everything, as far as inhabited planets are concerned, is actually only the tiniest piece of a much greater thing, then we are brought to an awe; a surrender; and a curiosity of truly staggering proportions as we stand before that greater thing.

Then we also see that that ‘greater thing’ is also what WE ARE, as we share in the essence of that awe-filled reality regardless of the size comparison of our ‘known’ world to the unknown cosmos. Essence and ‘The All’ permeates all and vice versa.

We are brought to reverence.

We are brought to child-like wonder.

We are brought to LOVE.

Raphel Awen
www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Want some help with living into your truth? I offer personal spaceholding to men and women along with a magical process of transformation through getting to know and feel parts of yourselves at a price and a pace and rate that works! You can read more about that here:www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions and here:www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

We Get To Be Wrong

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By Raphael Awen

We get to be wrong.

The challenge we face when considering the popular idea that ‘we create our own reality’ is feeling, if this idea is true, how undesirable aspects of our present reality are our own creation, which in turn makes us wrong.

Parts of us may be ready to admit that they need and are willing to change, but often can’t get beyond what they feel is ‘taking the blame’ for the way things are now.

To accept blame is to admit wrong. To be wrong is to be unworthy of love, as only the right are worthy of love, as love is given to those who earn it by ‘right’ of their own righteousness…right?

Wrong!

We’ve had it all wrong. You were actually right all along, but became convinced you were wrong. So then, you were wrong about being wrong, when you were right all along.

It actually doesn’t matter any longer who is right and who is wrong, except to those, whom just like we did, must yet live their lives like forensic accountants avoiding blame at any cost, and must continuously lay the blame at someone else’s door. We all needed our time in the wrong to move us to where it did.

To those of us now awakening to this new reality that we are all-right; that we are love; and that we are worthy of this love that we are; there is a celebration of arising deep self-worth based in true self-love where we can now ‘afford’ to be wrong, where we simply couldn’t before.

Now we come to see and feel the very empowering feeling that only the one doing it wrong gets to take responsibility for doing it right, where the rightness and wrongness doesn’t actually mean anything anymore, in terms of blame, but now instead points to huge opportunity.

You created your own reality on the outside that perfectly matched how you felt about yourself on the inside. You come to see that this ‘create your own reality’ idea is something you’ve had down pat for a long time, but just didn’t know it, as you had it working in reverse to where you choose to move it now.

So, if you can now freely be wrong, what would being freely RIGHT look and feel like to you? What picture of new creations can you see and feel in your imagination as your new arising reality?

Raphel Awen
www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Want some help with living into a new reality? I offer personal spaceholding and a magical process of transformation through getting to know and feel parts of yourselves at a price and a pace and rate that works! You can read more about that here: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

HIGH Energies Bringing Quicker Pace Of Change Out Of The Old And Into The New

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By Jelelle Awen

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These HIGH energies are moving us through so many places in such a quicker pace than we have ever known or felt before. Timelines and REALities are collapsing AS the new is coming into manifestation. This overlapping is happening more and more with what is collapsing not even consciously known sometimes before it starts to shift and change.

Perhaps just as you are feeling there is something to let go of here, you are beginning to feel the rumbles, you are preparing to mourn……then, the NEW is already coming in and starting to manifest in your life. There used to be more gap in this process of death and rebirth, it seems…more ‘time’ for the process of it all. NOW, this gap is seeming to be greatly narrowed where in some cases JUST as you realize that you need to change something, the NEW is coming in to take its place. Just as you are feeling a need to shift and change something, the opportunities and possibilities are coming in through synchs and connections leading to quicker implementation of choice points. I am seeing and feeling this happen in my own life and in the lives of others in our SoulFullHeart community.

The inner negotiation around ALL this becomes so important. To bridge all this change (even as it is into the good, for your good, and for your growth) with the parts of you that (of course!) are feeling resistant, afraid, tense, and anxious about the transition. The Inner Protector especially is ‘charged’ with making sure you don’t experience harm and to warn you of any ‘threats’ coming. The NEW can feel like a threat to the protective part of you, even if YOU deeply want it. You showing up to negotiate with your Inner Protector can allow for more fluid of a transition and processing of the previously harmful experiences that occurred in the past. The protector can then rest more and allow the NEW to come in at a rate and pace that YOU want and then you able to let in the goodness that is coming to you in a deeper way too. More about the Inner Protector and a guided meditation to connect with this aspect of yourself here: https://youtu.be/yP0OmxcSScc

The NEW can bring up previous trauma experiences stored at the cellular level, to BE with as the water of love that washes out the ‘oil’ of what has been stored in your emotional body. As the cells UPgrade to crystalline they release the toxicities and lower frequencies absorbed through 3D experience AND in the Metasoul line too. This can be A LOT of stored toxicity and it doesn’t seem to make much difference how physically healthy your body is related to how much has to come up…..although being physically vital can help. As you move into the NEW from the OLD at a more rapid pace (as what seems to be happening right now), your cells can vibrate faster and it’s like a wet towel that you whip around in a circle…….the faster you go in your circular motion, the more water flings off. The more love in the form of NEW coming into your world and at a faster rate, the more is released that needs to be.

The Divine is offering SO MUCH trust and support in our capacity to handle this accelerated rate of death and rebirth and this increased cycle of cellular release of toxicity. As so many of us are being fast-tracked right now in this ascension process to lead the way, we can lean into the Divine to surrender the outcomes and preconceived ideas parts of us might have of what the NEW might look like, even as we hold our desires and wants with tenderness and care!

Leaning into the Divine in whatever forms work for you can bring so much ease and grace and trust in the overall process and the increasingly rate and pace of it. Trusting the feeling how, indeed, ‘we are never given more than we can handle (even of the good!)’ and that it is ALL held with much LOVE!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

An Invitation To A Beloved Part Of Me

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by Kalayna Colibri

 

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Be that beacon of love…. for yourself. ~

Today I am in process with a part of me that I have worked with before, but not for a long time now. She has been resurfacing lately and today has been a big day for her. On a wave of love for her and for our process together, this is the writing that came out. It feels like it offers a bridge and a picture of what it’s like to reach into your heart to be with a part of you, no matter how unworthy of your love and attention that part may feel. ❤

Hello, you… you in my heart. You who have been hiding and waiting and feeling cautious about coming out. Yes, you! I have been feeling you. I have been feeling your reactions, your triggers, your need for more love. I have been feeling your self-assumed ‘wrong’-ness, ugliness, ‘hard-to-be-with’-ness. I feel that you’re scared, that you feel separate, that you feel abandoned. I feel it all as I feel your tears. Even though, as a part of me that I met long ago, I have felt you before… your reality has shifted since then. You have seen more, witnessed more, sponged more. Now you’re ready to come out again, showing me the same patterns of reactions you’ve always had, but now you’re ready to be felt more, to be honest about things maybe you weren’t honest about before, to ask for me to help you, be with you, love you up. It’s time now. It’s time to start coming up and out to sit next to me, to lean into me, to not feel you have to do it all alone as you’ve done before. You aren’t alone, you never were alone, and you will never really be alone either. It’s not your destiny if you and I can be together now without you BEING me. That’s really the only time you might be ‘alone’ – when you can’t let me in and let me be separate from you so I can hold you and be that best friend you ache for.

I feel you, sweet inner princess, with so many gifts and dreams and hopes. I feel the pain you’re feeling about wanting to just be these things again, to not feel the weight of life that you’ve taken on anymore. You’re ready to ask for me now, and for you, sweet one, that is a big step.

Welcome home, beloved part of me… together we’ll feel it all and together we’ll heal even more…

❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

What You Really Want Is Love

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By Raphael Awen

What you really want is love.

Things we call ‘attachments’ are only placeholders that parts of hold onto as love until something better shows up. Who can blame parts of us for doing that. We are made for love.

A child being only willing to eat french fries and chicken nuggets is because he found love and comfort in them and they landed in a place that only feels like the absence of love.

As adults, so much of our routines in habit, diet, feeling states, relationships that we keep or don’t keep, are all so full of these ‘attachments’. Another part of us that we all have until they are felt and healed is an Inner Punisher, and this part is connected to another part of us that holds deep shame. This sets up a punishment-shame cycle dynamic that is meant to protect us and keep us safe which is hard to grasp at first begging the question of ‘why would we do such barbaric things to ourselves in the name of safety?’ The simple answer is that in our subconscious we hold deep memory of feeling love’s absence and a deep culture shock from when we first landed here in the human domain, and felt how non-heart-resonant the hearts of our caregivers were.

Now, it’s up to us to feel how so much self-improvement and problem fixing energy in our lives is actually the problem, not any kind of solution. You are not a broken person needing fixing. You are a profoundly beautiful being made of love and by love and are coming to terms with the love that you are. Part of this acclimatization to love is your willingness as a soul to come to a place that feels like ‘not-love’ in order to afford you an awakening process to the love that you are as a profound soul growth. Your existence and the essence of your being is so much more than than what you and I know and feel in the 3rd dimensional reality of time and space here on Gaia.

So, instead of running yourself through the ringer with feeling and trying to change a persistent negative and harmful pattern or behaviour, what about instead feeling the part of you who needs that pattern or behaviour and why they do? What about getting to know this magical part of you stuck in their french fry and mcnuggett world? They are your portal into the more that you are and are longing to feel and be. They are ‘attached’ to what they know and feel as love. It’s up to you and I to lead with something more, rather than substituting one attachment for another.

Raphel Awen
www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Want some help with living into a new reality? I offer personal spaceholding and a magical process of transformation through getting to know and feel parts of yourselves at a price and a pace and rate that works! You can read more about that here: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

‘How Much Love Are You Ready To Let In?’

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By Raphael Awen

‘How much love are you ready to let in?’

This question came to me last night as I was out walking the dog in the evening cool and quiet. I tune the question back in now and ask Metatron for some more around this question. He responds with a ‘we’ voice evidencing that he has already been where we are and feels where we are wanting to go, and that he is also going with us as we do….

‘It’s not a question of how much love can you find, but rather how much love can you let in? The setting of the love story that we ARE is set in a setting of an evident lack of love and a competition for that limited and scarce love, but the essence that we ARE is the fullness of love. The real challenge is not to find love, but rather to let in the superabundance of love that surrounds you.

‘We chose the setting of apparent lack to contrast with the love that we are in order to see the love that we are and in turn expand our being with this infinite love. In other words, we needed a finite setting in which to see and contrast the infinite love that we are.

‘We are the story being written to ourselves, for us to see and feel, and in turn be moved by. Though the story is made up of many characters, a big piece of the discovery in understanding the meaning of the story is coming to see that every single character is actually me and you. There is actually only one of us. We are already one, though we’re just awakening to that, and letting this reality sink in. The appearance of an apparent individuality, of there being a separate me and a separate you isn’t true in the way we’ve perceived it. We are one being having an experience of individuation as part of our awakening and learning to realize the deeper one that we are.

‘More for you can’t actually be less for me if we are already one.

‘Because this is the deeper reality, any love that you take into your being, any wounding that you feel and heal inside of yourself IS healing the all. The gift you give yourself can’t be distinguished from the gifts you give to others. Self-love is the same as love for the all.

‘Love is the source and sustenance of every material and non-material thing there is, even hatred and fear are given their lease by and through love. Love is all there is. Hearts and circumstances that lack love are only opportunities and places to let love into.

‘All that is required is your choice and willingness to be vulnerable to love…to admit that you want more love, to admit you have parts of you that can’t yet digest love and need your help. This is all there is to letting in love, though for most, this can still be incredibly difficult. This is why most would rather maintain and be committed to their lack of love picture, wherein they can continue to resist love for a while longer under the illusion that love is lacking.

‘Even this resistance though is also contained in love. We all needed our illusions for as long as we did as part of our awakening. Nothing can be outside of love. It’s all sacred and it’s all love. All that’s left is to let it in.

Thank you Metatron, Wow, okay, this leaves me in a deep heightened awareness and QUESTions of ‘how much am I in this moment resisting love or letting it in?’ and ‘What are my next places to gift myself (and the one being that we all are) more of the infinite love that I already am?’

Raphael Awen
www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

I offer spaceholding sessions to others in their awakening to love process and you can read more about that here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

‘You Can Have Whatever You Want’

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By Raphael Awen

‘You can have whatever you want’.

These words come to me as I stare into the setting bright orange sun last night as it dips slowly below the ocean horizon and lights up the underside of the cloud cover in a stunning display of color. I feel the voice is from Metatron who is a favoured guide. I awake the next morning and the words are still fresh and here, still lingering audibly in my space.

Do I really believe that? Could this be true? I can have whatever I want. My mind takes it on first. If my friend owns a bakery and I drop by and he generously says ‘have whatever you want’, that’s easy and linear to grasp. He owns the bakery and I’m welcome to simply take a handful or two of whatever I want.

But it’s not that straightforward to apply when my higher self or a spiritual guide tells me to ‘have whatever I want’ and to feel how that translates to, say, a trip to the auto dealership for a desired new car.

It doesn’t compute. There’s obviously some missing pieces here, some more to the story, or, I’m just off into some nonsense and need to return to reality.

I chose to return to what I heard in the sunset. ‘I can have whatever I want.’ I ask ‘Metatron, can you help we with the missing pieces that my mind will need to be able to feel this with you and what you are trying to get over to me?’

Metatron waxes metaphysical and my heart and ears open:

‘Your desires and your ‘wanter’ is something that is tied to the center of your being and the center of the universe. There isn’t actually any difference between the two. They are one and the same. When you really own a desire and purify that desire inside of yourself to where it is really true, that pure desire is all you need to manifest that desire into the dimension you wish to experience that in. In fact, this is already true, you just find it difficult to see. Your life as you presently know it is a manifestation of your desires. Desire has created your present reality.’

My mind begins to reel with his expansive words and energy that he is juicing me with. Questions arise in a whole bunch of directions. I’m hesitant to focus on a single question when there are so many. I sit in the juice he is vibing and silently invite him to continue when he feels I’m ready. We sit together in the expansive silence and then he continues where he left off.

‘What you really want is the most sacred thing about you. It’s the secret that’s been manifesting your life as you know it. You just haven’t been as conscious of it up till now. As you find the courage to accept this truth, this secret becomes a normal everyday working practical knowledge that you can apply to your life. Now, you can begin to see where your wants have been in conflict, and what you have manifested is something between the two. This is still however a perfect manifestation, providing you with a sacred learning ground of coming to terms with what it is that you really want, especially in the presence of conflicting desires.

If this resonates for you and feels true for you, then the mind’s resistances of ‘that’s just not possible’ change to ‘I don’t quite understand it yet, but I feel it to be true.’ This is you accepting responsibility for the present creation of your life. This is you maturing into your next phase of consciousness awakening.

As you feel this as your reality more and more, your mind will come to track it all plainly, but the mind is only a tracker of reality, not the creator of reality. The mind’s refusal to accept a new reality is a barrier to that new reality arising, but the mind is here only resistively acting as the agent and protector of the heart. It is from the heart that courage flows to let in a new reality, to live into a new culture of reality. It is your heart that is your center of being, your center of reality, powerfully shaping your experience of life. Let the heart take the lead and the mind will follow’.

I pause to refill my tea, and to let in more of Metatron’s heart and energy. The questions are still here, but they don’t feel as clamorous for attention somehow. There is a trust that the questions are sacred and they will all be answered in time, a necessary part of this process of incubating a new reality. I consider how I am being offered a process over some kind of instant transformation into a new reality, yet the new reality is already here at the same time. Wow. Lots of ‘wow’ actually. I turn my attention back to Metatron knowing that I’m near full, but that he usually has one more thing to say to help containerize all the goodies he’s just given me.

‘Raphael, share this with others. Find others who are ready and wanting to shift their reality into new and arising places. Beacon it out. This isn’t a Lone Ranger deal. You will make this your reality more and more as you give it away while you embrace it. These new realities don’t belong to any one person, other than the one person that you all are. It’s held and arises and shines IN commUNITY. Plant the seeds you have, and then you’ll get the next batch of seeds to plant and live into’.

Okay, wow, thank you Metatron. I’ve got my heartwork cut out for me again. I can have whatever I want… I want more of this!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

BEcoming Service Of Love With Self And Others

Published on by Jelelle Awen2 Comments
By Jelelle Awen
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As you serve more love as the focus of your life, you BEcome service of love. Service of love with yourself and all the parts that need you. Service of love with others for a phase of time in mutual respect and reverence. Service of love with the Divine to help move the ascension process into Love forward for ALL BEings.

BEcoming service of love in all moments is possible when the personality doesn’t exist in the same way that it used to and the 3D conditioned self has largely dropped away. The attachments to roles and playing as mother, daughter, father, husband, wife, son, healer, teacher within 3D consciousness…..these roles are let go of and then it is just about serving the love that flows out of you and WITH the other person. It becomes about what can transact in love and what is based in fear and offering MORE love to transmute the fear. You arise beyond the past associations and are in the Now together, serving love together.

BEcoming service of love is possible when you have truly felt, connected with, and are loving ALL aspects and parts of yourself that have played these roles and worn the masks. As you love them, then it becomes safe for these parts of you to let go of playing anything or performing anything or hiding who they really are. The YOU that shows up to love all these aspects is then without roles or masks or performances. This YOU is just love and you WANT to serve yourself love as you feel how this is what you were missing and why parts of you put on their masks and personas in the first place.

BEcoming service of love arises as you heal the inner relationships between parts of you, feel the inner codependence and stickiness INside. As the LOVE YOU comes in between, for example, your Inner Punisher and the corresponding shame that can come up in reaction, you shift drawing this as a reflection in relationships with others. As the LOVE YOU separates the Inner Protector from fiercely watching over your Inner Child, the frequencies of magical joy and wonder from your Inner Child can flood your BEing…..which you can then come into your relationships with others. You also experience relationships with a much less guarded heart as your Inner Protector rests.

Serving love WITH others as a space holder, facilitator, healer BEcomes not about saving or fixing anyone. It becomes only about the love flow and serving their expression as Love WITH love. It is not about ‘you’ in that way as you are channel of expression of them as love, a mirror reflection for them until they inhabit and embody themselves as love more and more. You are not attached to them as love doesn’t attach in this way. You are, however, deeply committed to the service of love with them as it arises in mutuality. You are a guide in the service of love journey as you have journeyed it yourself and so invite them to come along. Healing and feeling the aspects of you that identify as a ‘healer of others’ yet actually don’t even LIKE people very much is a way to serve love to yourself, to be REAL about what you feel in order to allow more love flow when are you are called to serve love with others.

Service of love with others is WHY counterpart soul mates come together, especially during this phase of Great Shift and transition. You experience the overflowing love waters of union in ALL areas of heart, body, mind, and soul with an other who is WITH you in many other lifetimes and expressions as Metasouls connected deeply. This deep well of higher consciousness expression (and karmic things to heal too) provides a source of support for the service of love and MORE service of love. Relating to a sacred union from ANY other place than to serve love to yourself and with others is parts of you that are clinging and needing (which you can then love and be with once you feel it.)

I feel this shift in myself into BEcoming service of love in ever deepening ways every day after many years of parts process work on the emotional body level from this life and other lifetimes too. I am BEcoming this service of love as my purpose here and showing the way, BEing the way, for others like you to BEcome this too. My relationship with Raphael is based in service of love, yet, it has taken many years of parts process to be inhabiting this more and more lately together. As this service of love flows between us, however, MORE love is available for others AND ourselves. This service of love is even happening during our love making, where we can feel how we are connected in a quantum way to ALL women and men in those moments. We are serving the pleasures of our bodies AS we are also serving the collective healing.

BEcoming service of love IS a state of BEing with a natural balance of DOing too. It takes energy to BEcome it as you let go of what ISN’T serving love, yet rather is based in fear. As you BEcome service of love more, fears and tensions drop away, anxieties too, as you trust in the purpose and reason you are here and you draw MORE service of love opportunities and less healing fear experience. You live in a transacting overflow from your ready and healing heart to and with others, that plays out then, over and over, in an Infinite Loop of Love Possibilities! 

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc.