Arising Opportunities For Connection Through Deep Life Change

By Kalayna Solais

Earlier this week, Raianna Shai and I ventured out to Salt Spring Island for a couple of days’ journey… Salt Spring is very easy to get to from here in Victoria, yet I hadn’t been yet and this trip ended up having the most perfect timing with some deep personal changes being navigated recently in my life (more details on that in a future post).

It was wonderful to BE with Raianna in this emerging sense of sisterhood goodness… we have had a bond for quite a while now with her having been a Facilitant of mine in SoulFullHeart, yet we’ve also always had a clear connection on a soul and heart level that goes beyond physical age and even current life experience. Each moment together arose in a new way and we were able to arise in a new way for each other too. I have so much MORE love and appreciation for this feminine being that I get to be in relationship with right now and that feels so good! 😀

Together on this trip we felt a connection on a Metasoul level as we felt our First Nations Metasoul sisters and their own sisterly connection. They danced and chanted and sang and hugged trees while exploring the beautiful, super-natural landscapes of this stunning island and reuniting with us and with each other too.

There’s something about letting go into life changes and feeling the parts of you that are having a hard time trusting them deeply (or at all) that allows for this sort of newly arising set of circumstances and opportunities to really be let in… the bittersweetness of letting go of what was DOES make room for what IS and what will be. Opportunities do come as we continue to feel our hearts and the parts of us that live there, that hurt there, that need healing there.

There’s much to look forward to, but there’s also much to be with in this very moment too, being real about the pain surfacing and being with the parts that are feeling the losses, the cost, the retrospect, the sentimentality. There’s much to take stock of and digest about the past through big life changes yet there’s also much to hold out for, to envision as possible, to see as imminent and to let in as much as you can in each moment.

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

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Letting In The Fullness Of Love On My Birthday

By Raphael

Thank you everyone for the amazing birthday wishes, today on social media! I’m with my beloved, Jelelle, for a few days away on the west coast of Vancouver Island. We’re taking in a ton of nature and feeling its nurture. You can see photos of our trip on my facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/raphaelawen1

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I feel such a deep invitation to really let in the fullness of love that so surrounds each of us, but yet that requires our negotiation and navigation to participate in.

These coastal areas have a deep feeling of death and rebirth, here where land meets sea. The rock looks lava like and carries a feeling of being born out of calamity, which makes feeling the loss of Lemuria very apparent. Then the sun and the very resilient trees and plants offer deep reconnections with Lemuria and even deeper connections with the soul source that we all share and not only originated from (past tense) but origin from in every moment.

I was moved to tears hugging what’s said to be an 800 year old tree, as I felt it channel to me a big bear hug and deep reassurance of being loved and rooted in love.

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Gaia is us and we are her!

We’re off today to go visit Long Beach here a few miles north today and take in the vast sandy beaches to see what they want to tell us.

Much love overflow,

Raphael

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The Challenge To Let In Love

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By Raphael Awen

‘The biggest challenge you will ever face in this life is the challenge to let in love.’

These words came to me many years ago from a trusted teacher, and I’ve often taken this encapsulated sermon in a sentence from a mental file to reflect on it. I still do believe it to be true.

What dawned on me today though, on this resurrection Sunday, is an addendum to this sentence, and pardon me if it doesn’t quite fit in a sentence so simple as the first one, but the awareness that came is that for there to be a letting in, there would need to be a letting out.

Like breathing, we take in oxygen, transmute it, digest it, and then release and expel carbon dioxide. Trying to remain in a continual letting in mode, without surrendering to a letting out mode, would limit the letting in very quickly, making the original challenge to let in love feel all the more impossible.

If that’s true, that letting out is equally important as the attempt to let in; and that letting in can’t actually be separate from letting out, then what might the letting out look and feel like?

And as I tune in beloved guides, what comes to me in a gush of a big out breath of awareness is that we are being invited to trans-parent this love in-breath into a vulnerable willingness to be seen and known for what we really are. Am I able to to let you (any and all others in my life) see me for who I really am? This washing away of these false gods of upholding self image require so much time and energy, and prevent me from letting in another drop of real love. The letting in pushes up a profound need for letting out.

If that’s all true, then the question comes up about where to practically apply all this as a practice. It can be very relieving to immediately put this into practice in your relationships with anyone, whether a deep intimate or a store clerk, yes, but what comes to me is the invitation to apply this all internally, me to me.

Where are parts of me struggling to gasp in another breath of real love and then are being prevented from letting out its effluent. What has not been trans-parented into the light of day between parts of myself? Where have parts of me been allowed to remain in suffering in the absence of my deeper heart bridge to them?

This is the resurrection we are invited into – that is here now. He is risen. She is risen. The fall has given way to the rising. You are the beloved and the beloved is you. A sacred romance awaits like you’ve never seen or heard tell of.

It’s a story that only you can tell awaiting your authorship.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Equinox & Supermoon Live Stream & Guided Meditation

This journey of today’s Equinox and tomorrow’s incoming Supermoon has been a mega time of upheavals and transitions, changes and deep transformations, shadow illumination and possibilities for healing on all levels. During this live stream, SoulFullHeart Facilitators (and newlyweds!), Gabriel and Kalayna Solais, offer a powerful guided meditation to help call in and ground in the incoming energies from the sun and moon. They also offer a digestion of the incoming energies and what they may be pushing up for you or helping you with on your ongoing journey of transitioning to higher and higher personal timelines.

This live stream was recording live on Facebook on March 20, 2019.

Kalayna and Gabriel both wrote about the incoming energies in different blog posts, two of which can be found here:

https://soulfullheartblog.com/2019/03/20/equinox-supermoon-bring-support-for-transitions-into-the-new/

https://soulfullheartblog.com/2019/03/18/equinox-passage-illuminates-shadow-4d-cycle-of-fear-to-heal-and-integrate-with-love/

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The Pain Of Letting Go Into Love

By Raianna Shai

Letting go is one of the hardest processes we go to through in our lives. Whether it’s letting go of a career, a pattern/habit, a geography, or a relationship it can bring up so much for us to process. Letting go is so much harder than holding on.

Parts of us can judge us for our decision – feeling that you made a mistake, that you hurt or disappointed someone, that you did something wrong or will regret your decision. The best thing to do here is to feel compassion for this part. Give it love knowing that it just wants the best for you and it may be scared that it couldn’t protect you from this pain you may feel.

Letting go is painful but it also leads to a beautiful new beginning. Maybe you get that new job you always wanted or a geography that inspires your heart and soul. Maybe you get the chance at a new phase of an old relationship or a new one that reflects the love you have cultivated inside.

It can feel like you’re dying inside during this process. Like you’ll never feel happy or be yourself again. Or maybe you feel hurt and angry and find it hard to feel why it’s all happening, especially if it felt out of your control. Maybe you can’t feel anything or you can’t stop feeling everything.

And sometimes it comes in waves. A comment here or a reminder there can spark tears at the drop of a hat. Then you have a moment of clarity, a moment of knowing it will all be okay. Then you feel the guilt or the shame and it all comes crumbling back down. These are all parts of you that have reasons for feeling the way they do. Feel the pain, but let the clarity and love hold it all.

Whatever you feel there is always another side of it. A realization waiting to happen. A new love for yourself and life will start to creep in. A new view on what you have and what you want to have will fill your heart and inspire you.

All this can happen if you truly let go. Let go of expectations, let go of judging yourself or others, let go of what others might think of you. Mourn the loss, mourn what could have been and the goodness of what was and then let love fill the space. As hard as that may sound right now, it will come. Whether it takes days, months or years it will come and it will be beautiful.

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc. Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Processing Rage Into Passion With Care

By Kalayna Colibri

Rage sometimes pours out like volcanic lava, ready to burn and melt down, create a reset or reboot as it moves through. We’re barely into 2019, yet already we are feeling what it’s pushing up… more to look at within, more to feel rage at but then find the real hurt and vulnerability underneath it. Anger and the parts that feel it need to be validated. It’s meant to help elucidate what isn’t ok anymore, what needs boundaries set around it, and what needs shifting in any area of your life.

Rage can also become an addiction, like anything else. It can be used by parts of you to self-medicate and avoid feeling vulnerability. It can also be used to avoid feeling others and your impact on them, which, even though they may answer your anger with their own and not seem impacted in a deeper way, they have been… as have you. Your anger has impact on your parts too, especially the ones that do feel more hurt and sadness, self-consciousness, ache for love.

There’s nothing to control here, but there’s a ton to feel and keep feeling. There are so many questions to keep asking. The fire of anger and frustration is needed in phases of awakening and moving forward in your life, yet ultimately it wants to be transmuted into passion and taken in the direction of creation, not destruction. The direction of love… heart-centered and fulfilling.

We cannot skip this step of truly feeling it and getting the good stuff on the other side of it. There’s so much it needs to rumble with yet also so much it needs to shift into as the dust and ashes settle on the new ground being birthed within. The rageful warrior inside holds an invitation to move into a role of ambassador of heart and soul, dropping the sword and baring the heart. This is important to remember, even as the fire burns you up from the inside and wants to spread into your outer world too.

There is ultimately no ‘other’, even when you feel opposition. And if that’s really true… there is always a ton of reflection to take in and be with, get real about, and start loving from these increasingly passionate places within.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Intense Energy Waves Lead To Deeper Healing & Change

By Kalayna Colibri

Been in more waves of change personally as we finally transition to a house where roots can be planted in nourishing soil… this isn’t coming through without tension also moving through, making room for the new and all possibilities. It feels like a time for this, a time for stepping into your highest timeline, and feeling the reactions and tensions moving along with that. It’s a time where stepping into your highest timeline may not look and feel like the perfect picture in the moment, yet you can so trust the vision as it’s unfolding and hold onto it as more than a wish, but something you are deciding to fully show up for… even as there are steps, sometimes many steps, to realizing it in its entirety.

There’s still density to move and be with, to acknowledge and to challenge within, especially as you continue to be invited into new and deeper perspectives. These new strata of seeing yourself, of feeling your parts and how they’ve moved in and reacted to the world, are landing in your field and waiting to be let in as you sometimes shake with old rage and deep hurt as parts of you live into their pain and in some cases have a very hard time letting in healing. Actually, this shaking and vibrating with old reactions often IS part of the healing and is just as sacred as the feeling of release and relief as you let in new waves of love into dark corners of your being that have so needed it.

These higher perspectives want you to see yourself and your parts in a more profound way, to see where the pain is and why and to feel compassion for how you’ve been in this world up ‘til now. The debris of the old needs to come loose before it can be lovingly swept up. And, the timing of this sometimes chaotic-feeling shake-up process is sacred and soulfully personal to you. You can’t know the exact timing of WHEN it will be more healed, yet you can hold onto a trust that it’s all in process and there IS an other side.

Connecting with your Inner Protector might be timely for you, as this part in particular may be quite stirred up right now. Both Raphael and Jelelle Awen have created powerful guided meditations to help connect you with this precious part of you. You can find them and other beautiful guided meditations on our YouTube channel: SoulFullHeart Experience.

Much love!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Being With Post-Holiday Emotional Indigestion

By Kalayna Colibri

I get the sense today that there’s a lot of lingering ‘indigestion’ going on coming off of Thanksgiving weekend in the USA, both in the physical and the emotional…. being with friends and family members who are no longer resonant with who you are and are becoming often creates a strain inside as parts of you shape-shift and adjust to the energies at the dinner table, suppressing how they are really feeling and reacting. Something that is becoming harder and harder to do as truth-telling parts of you like your Inner Protector, who has been observing and managing your relationship with your family and old friends, are becoming less and less tolerant of what isn’t resonant or feels like real love to them.

This suppression leads to intense indigestion in your emotional body, leaving you with physical and emotional pain too. If your body is reacting to the amount of food you’ve taken in, it’s likely also reacting to the energy of its preparation and consumption too. Checking in with your Inner Protector is a great way to feel them in their ongoing rumbles and to connect with the other parts of you they have been protecting as best they can from the sometimes quite invasive energy of those around you on these holidays that can be especially intense and charged with all sorts of unfelt and uncared for emotional realities and reactivity.

There are several guided mediations on our YouTube channel, SoulFullHeart Experience, for you to explore a connection with your Inner Protector.

The invitation is always to feel what you want in your heart and what you need for your soul. The real soul food of resonant relationships and soul family community is a potent energy to lean into for growth and deep nourishment. The reflections offered to you by non-resonant relationships are eventually no longer needed as the care offered from those who are doing the same degree of inner work as you is no comparison and is all you and your parts eventually will want to experience. It’s a sacred journey to arrive here to this place where the comfortably uncomfortable feeling of being around family members and friends who do not nurture your journey nor let you in enough to have you nurture theirs, is no longer desired. And, it’s just as sacred to feel all there is to feel, including the fears and anxieties in parts of you as you begin to let in true soul family connections and embark on the journey of continued growth and expansion in all of your intimate relationships.

Much love as you navigate all of these themes and tones in a way that is most meant for you at this time… ❤️

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There’s so much deep support my beloveds and I offer through affordable, 1:1 sessions if you feel drawn to ask for help in the digestion of what has been indigestible: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Photo by Cristian Newman via unsplash.com

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Service Of Love Invites You To ‘Come As You Are’

By Kalayna Colibri

As I was cleaning and packing the other day while listening to music, a certain Christmas song came on (yes, a tad early, but the message from the Divine was in perfect time). It was Little Drummer Boy. A personal favorite.

This particular time that I heard this song, I was debating about ‘what to do’ with certain things I was thinking of packing or maybe discarding, having already donated the majority of what I ‘owned’. This was the final series of choices to make in this final round of packing up for our move back to Canada. This entire process of moving has been one of deep preparation, inside and out. It’s been a lot to hold, especially, in moments, the letting go or keeping of items or clothing, as I’ve learned about myself that sometimes I seem to attach to ‘things’ as love… as reassurance that I and everything in my world will be OK. That I would know for sure I was provided for. Suddenly, I paused to take in the feeling tones of the song that was playing… and wept.

Many backed up tears of this and that washed over me and through me. I felt the Divine invite me to feel the message of the Little Drummer Boy. All he had was his music. All he could do for the baby, which in this moment I could feel was really Love itself and service of love too, was play his drum. He had no expensive gifts to offer. No ‘things’ that would seem fit to give.

I felt how this was about my relationship to the love that I am and the love I want to share and serve too. It was representative of my relationship to love… the giving and receiving of it. For with love, through love and as love, we ARE provided for. We ARE able to show up and respond in order to receive what we need.

In that moment, I felt how no matter what I decided to take with me to Canada, my real intention and purpose in going, is to serve love. To do that, all I need is me. Everything else, every thing I might ‘need’ for my survival and even thrival, could be bought, borrowed, earned in exchange somehow.

I wanted to share this movement because it feels so important and apt for the times we are in and the energies that are moving through… if we are ultimately to serve love somehow, whatever that means and whatever the means we use to do that, then we have nothing in particular that we need to have or attain to do so. We are being invited now and always to ‘come as we are’. And my god… if we aren’t so loved beyond any imagining within all of that.

Much love to you, with you, and through you too! ❤️

Photo by Elijah Macleod via unsplash.com

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Navigating These Times Of Change And Upturned Feelings Inside

By Kalayna Colibri

During these days and moments of so much coming in and going on, the constant invitation is to surrender to the tornado of reflections and changes, trusting that you WILL land somewhere soft and grassy… these times of upheaval actually press us upward AND onward, while encouraging us to go inward.

The preciousness of parts of you can be forgotten in the everyday shuffle and the ongoing dreamings of what you want to experience, be, have next. The need to see and actually be with what is now can be challenging. The emotional and spiritual pain and distrust that parts of you hold can become buried, even in a life that is genuinely good. The gift of these ‘tornado times’ is that this pain can surface and be felt again, made space for, healed deeper, brought with you to that new place the Divine so wants to take you and IS taking you, even if you can’t feel the surrender or see the ground beneath your feet at the time…

This is the ongoing offer, invitation, love we are granted and flooded with.

As hard as it can be and often is in these moments of poignant and pure feeling, there is always a Divine hand being held out for us to grasp onto, that encourages the authentic YOU to hold a hand out for the parts that are struggling in their fears and suffering in their pain, seeing and feeling the worlds – their worlds – that are collapsing in so many ways, while they reach out for a ‘more’ that they need reminding is not only possible, but already here…

In this bittersweet time of movement… of upswing and downturn… we learn to shift the gears into place, taking all of our precious cargo of self and soul with us. Bringing it all to that ‘Promised Land’ within, that does want to take us to all that we most deeply want and work to feel worthy of.

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My beloveds offer powerful session space for you to lean into if you’d like support through any changes going on and pain coming up: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart co-founder, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.