New Phase, New Name: Becoming ‘Kasha’

by Kasha Rokshana

Today I’m officially stepping into my new ‘name’. This has been digesting for a while and I’ve been going into process lately with ‘Kalayna’ as a part of me to work with and feel deeply. There’s something so powerful, so meaningful, about drawing a new name to you. It’s a graduation and it’s an invitation. It’s a feeling of ‘arrival’ and yet too, it’s a portal into feeling your personal next steps in your process.

Feeling ‘Kalayna’ as a part of me has already been illuminating the patterns I’ve embodied related to service, men and romance, friendships, connections to the Divine and my own Divine Self, and really my relationship overall to the world ‘outside’ of me and my approach until recently to being with my inner world too.

‘Kasha’, interestingly, means ‘pure’, which happens to be the same meaning as my birth name in this life! This was completely synchronistic. My birth name ‘Kathleen’ and its short form ‘Katie’ both mean ‘pure’ as well. ‘Rokshana’ is a variation of ‘Roxanne’ in some languages and means ‘illumined one’ or ‘star’, yet in Farsi it means ‘light’, which I also didn’t realize until I looked it up. The synchronicity with that name is that it holds the same meaning as ‘Solais’, which was the last name Gabriel and I chose together when we were engaged. ‘Rokshana’ was offered to me in a vision as a last name before ‘Kasha’ was offered to Jelelle for me and she invited me to feel into it. The two names together mean ‘Pure Light’ and when you say them out loud, you feel the waveform and energy they hold! Woooosh!

This shift from ‘Kalayna’ is both sobering and exciting for me as Kasha. It’s a rebirth as a name change always is, yet differentiating from who I’ve been for the last few years of my life is not exactly simple, though it is very alive. Kalayna is my 4D Self in many ways and as her I walked out many stark ups and downs of awakening and death and rebirth cycles that were quite intense and dark. She has had her own experience of life and relationships and service of love that need some more digesting. I’m separating out from yet another ‘persona’ layer and it’s emotional yet exciting too.

I can already feel the NEW energies that ‘Kasha’ holds as my emerging ‘self’ and am looking forward to exploring that even deeper. As my energy as ‘Kalayna’ rests more, the integration of Kalayna’s gifts into ‘Kasha’ will be powerful. I can already feel a negotiation ground emerging and it’s sweet to let in.

Thank you for celebrating this shift with me!

Love,

Kasha ❤

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Birthday Love Exchange Celebration

by Kalayna Solais

I am still in SO much glow this morning after celebrating my birthday with my beloveds yesterday. Actually, it wasn’t JUST with my beloveds here in the flesh… it was also with all of you who wished me a happy day from your hearts. ❤

Every year, my birthday tends to bring with it a birth canal or even a series of birth canals, in the plural, for me to move through in order to keep becoming the being that I most desire to be, in the relationships I most desire to hold dear, and in the purest energy of service of love possible. Last year, my marriage and longterm relationship with my dearest soulmate so far completed and that whole process was bringing up SO much for me to feel every single day. This year was actually the most celebratory for me, as I wasn’t moving through ‘loss’ so much as deep inner ‘gain’ and feeling how much more capacity I now have to let that IN.

Jelelle reflected to me yesterday that in previous years, it felt like no matter what they ‘gave’ me, for parts of me it was never quite enough. Entitlement on some level was covering over deep unworthiness to let in love. And that’s true. Yet I never felt it as ‘not enough’ coming toward me. I actually distinctly remember feeling that I couldn’t let it in, especially the positive reflections of who I am that my beloveds tried to share with me. Their love couldn’t land because I couldn’t land inside of myself and my parts could barely, even after years of working with them, let ME in, let alone my nearest and dearest.

This year… I’ve been moving more into a flow of letting go and letting be while also letting in. I’ve still needed to set boundaries with others, letting go of explorations and connections so that they can arise again anew someday if they’re meant to, yet the sadness of this is flowing alongside a new sense of inner peace with myself, as I am now, even in all of my learning curves and imperfections. There’s a new conviction about who I am and what I’m here to offer, yet also a softness in my heart that though healthfully protected, remains open and in self-love overflow and compassion towards others that seems to grow every day.

This is new. And while I’m letting in such deep appreciation for myself and my own journey that has led me here, I’m letting in those who I can exchange deep and meaningful love and resonance with more than ever before, knowing that this is really all I need. It’s a tall order relationally to show up for on all sides, but it’s worth it to be in the journey of letting it in, not settling for what isn’t this (yet) and trusting that everything and everyone you need right NOW is with you and within you too. ❤

Thank you to everyone who celebrated with me/us yesterday, in person and in energy. Your hearts all land in mine in big ways.

SO much love,
Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

July’s Abundant Growth Edges Offer Alchemy And Next Life Steps

By Kalayna Solais

What is the next ‘edge’ of your growth that you’re standing on, looking at, feeling into, right now?

Now that July is more than halfway over, looking back on it I can feel how not just for me, but for those I’ve been serving or interacting with, there have been many new growth edge invitations presented to each of us. Some of these invitations have come in the form of wakeup calls and other times they’ve been much softer. In either case, ongoing invitations into change and deeper healing abound.

The opportunity is always there to just keep feeling what those next steps are. As the fears come up you have the power to empower yourself by feeling the parts of you that are afraid. You also have the power to feel your courage rise even WITH the fear, as your desires continue to awaken and move you into the new.

For me… I’ve had some new life steps to take and it’s been very emotional for parts of me that have been ‘quite fine’ with the comfortable and in some ways have even avoided or tried to bury their own desires for the new and unknown. Just yesterday I managed to manifest (very quickly) another job that, while 3D in nature and focus in many ways, also is lighting parts of me up with possibilities and a new focus for service other than directly holding space for others.

I feel some fears arising in parts of me yet I also feel how being out in the world more in this way will help me be a beacon to those I come across in a way that isn’t solely virtual. I get to meet people during every shift… and while I’m no stranger to the challenges of anything to do with customer service in any form, I also feel how each person I interact with becomes another opportunity to feel who I am now and my own next growth and healing steps.

The alchemy and creativity that life wants to offer you can only truly be let in it seems, through being willing to take chances and feel into opportunities as they present themselves. This doesn’t mean you don’t get to also say ‘no’ to what’s offered, yet it does mean that each choice you are willing to make even to say ‘yes’ or ‘no’ does truly fuel your currently unfolding life phase.

Much love to you as you feel your own precipices of change in this catalytic month! ❤️

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.