New Phase, New Name: Becoming ‘Kasha’

by Kasha Rokshana

Today I’m officially stepping into my new ‘name’. This has been digesting for a while and I’ve been going into process lately with ‘Kalayna’ as a part of me to work with and feel deeply. There’s something so powerful, so meaningful, about drawing a new name to you. It’s a graduation and it’s an invitation. It’s a feeling of ‘arrival’ and yet too, it’s a portal into feeling your personal next steps in your process.

Feeling ‘Kalayna’ as a part of me has already been illuminating the patterns I’ve embodied related to service, men and romance, friendships, connections to the Divine and my own Divine Self, and really my relationship overall to the world ‘outside’ of me and my approach until recently to being with my inner world too.

‘Kasha’, interestingly, means ‘pure’, which happens to be the same meaning as my birth name in this life! This was completely synchronistic. My birth name ‘Kathleen’ and its short form ‘Katie’ both mean ‘pure’ as well. ‘Rokshana’ is a variation of ‘Roxanne’ in some languages and means ‘illumined one’ or ‘star’, yet in Farsi it means ‘light’, which I also didn’t realize until I looked it up. The synchronicity with that name is that it holds the same meaning as ‘Solais’, which was the last name Gabriel and I chose together when we were engaged. ‘Rokshana’ was offered to me in a vision as a last name before ‘Kasha’ was offered to Jelelle for me and she invited me to feel into it. The two names together mean ‘Pure Light’ and when you say them out loud, you feel the waveform and energy they hold! Woooosh!

This shift from ‘Kalayna’ is both sobering and exciting for me as Kasha. It’s a rebirth as a name change always is, yet differentiating from who I’ve been for the last few years of my life is not exactly simple, though it is very alive. Kalayna is my 4D Self in many ways and as her I walked out many stark ups and downs of awakening and death and rebirth cycles that were quite intense and dark. She has had her own experience of life and relationships and service of love that need some more digesting. I’m separating out from yet another ‘persona’ layer and it’s emotional yet exciting too.

I can already feel the NEW energies that ‘Kasha’ holds as my emerging ‘self’ and am looking forward to exploring that even deeper. As my energy as ‘Kalayna’ rests more, the integration of Kalayna’s gifts into ‘Kasha’ will be powerful. I can already feel a negotiation ground emerging and it’s sweet to let in.

Thank you for celebrating this shift with me!

Love,

Kasha ❤

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Kasha Rokshana is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Snow and Sun Codes Bring In Sense Of Newness and Rebirth

By Jelelle Awen

Taking in the first snow of the year here in Victoria, I’m reminded of how purifying and cleansing it is. How still snow is, even when it is ‘falling’, and how it blankets everything in this energy of newness. Snow codes are refreshing, especially if they come rarely and stay for a short time.

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The sun came out to greet us as we headed out on a walk to our local seaside park with Kalayna Solais. There is the joy of reunion in our hearts in the moment after a few months of choosing to be apart. This a celebration of new places to transact together…space made inside from necessarily being apart.

These are the rebirth moments that come out of the death and letting go phases that can be so challenging to navigate. These are the new moments that arise only out of letting go of the old. These are the confetti in the air moments where ash may still even be lingering.

It can seem in the darker moments of separation, that we won’t come into union again. It can push up the separation from the Divine and the wound that is often buried deep of what it felt like to be cast off from such bliss and Oneness. Parts of us can feel the pain of rejection, the hurt of disappointment, and land in the reality of our truth too that didn’t get brought before.

Yet, forgiveness inside and of others clears the ground. And, we are finding our way back to each other, back to the Divine, back to our souls. And life greets us and serves us with whatever necessary death and loss process will bring us most back to ourselves again.

Love,
Jelelle Awen
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I shared today a teaching and guided meditation as part of my Deepen 2020 series about death and rebirth, offering a bridge to the part of that needs to ‘die’ and let go in order to be reborn:

 

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Current Energies Empower Us To Feel Our Choices Within

by Kalayna Colibri

At any time, you get to push the ‘reset’ button. You get to start again. You get to wake up in the morning and realize that life can become new, can arise for you anew. That the people in your life can too. And that there are many choice points along the way that make this come alive and help YOU come alive again, too.

The only thing that seems to keep us from doing this, letting this in, is what we have still to feel inside of ourselves that really doesn’t trust these choices or see the possibilities in our daily reality. Parts of us that want a quick-fix, get frustrated when everything they’ve tried hasn’t worked or seemed to work (or at least not with any staying power), and then the bottom falls out of our motivation to be IN life… to be a vital part of each relationship we have, especially to ourselves. Or, parts of us get frustrated with simply not finding the solution, not feeling genuinely guided or templated for, not feeling comfortable to be in this skin we’ve chosen as a vessel for our 3D come 4D experience here on Gaia. And THEN the bottom falls out and we are left with quite a bit of inner flatness and apathy.

We get to choose. We get to choose to do and be something different, to have a new approach, to try a new way, a new lens too. We get to do all of this and perhaps that is the very essence of free will. We also get to choose NOT to choose, which is still very much a choice. We can opt-in to our inner power and do the work we need to within, or we can let parts of us continue to opt-out of this invitation to heal and continue on in the same patterns we and they have been used to.

We get to decide our approach to life and to healing. What we don’t really get to choose is how and why our pain surfaces, as this is a collaboration with life and the Divine that we cannot shake off, no matter how hard parts of us may work to keep activity and positivity in place. We get to choose our healing paths and whether or not we fully show up for whatever place we’re at in our lives. We get to lead or follow as much as we want to, as much as parts of us want to… for in the beginning of feeling your parts, you begin to realize how much of your life has actually been a result of the choices parts of you have made, and not necessarily choices the most authentic and raw YOU would make.

Whatever the array of choices are that you make in one day let alone one lifetime, the deepest choices are often the ones that help us look, feel, notice, and heal. These are the choices that don’t ever flatten us out but bring us closer to ourselves and the lives we have truly, most deeply been wanting to live and LOVE. To feel where and how these choices show up for you and within you today feels like the most important revelation you could take in and the biggest, most magical experience you could ever have. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Journey To New Pastures Of Growth And Love

by Kalayna Colibri

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There is a new ground wanting to ripen for you now. It’s calling your roots out of hiding, inviting you to plant them firmly in new soil. ‘New’ only in the sense of not having been lived in by you before… yet not ‘new’ at all, for there are others who have tilled it for themselves too for so long.

Out beyond everything parts of you have expected of themselves, well passed the flat expanses of ‘normal life’ that have held you in stasis, is a reality you’ve only begun to imagine for yourself… a reality where love flows and flourishes freely, pausing only to flood you and help you feel more of where it can’t quite get in. There are stuck places inside you of immaturity, of push-away towards goodness, of disbelief that love actually IS different than what parts of you have been taught it is directly and indirectly. In a pasture that you haven’t yet known, are your deepest, farthest-reaching places of healing and growth. It’s not a mental concept or construct, it can only be felt and experienced and lovingly challenged into being.

Those souls and hearts who have been in this soil before you, want to empower you beyond what parts of you have ever felt possible so far in your life. They want to empower without enabling, without caretaking what needs to be looked at, felt, deconstructed, loved UP… your soul somehow kNOWs the way, understands that it needs to lead and feels how much it wants to. It’s up to your parts, your personas, your willing heart, to feel what needs and wants to shift, what areas of life you especially need help with and illumination for, where love doesn’t seem to be flowing abundance and why love doesn’t seem to feel very nourishing, based on what you’ve lived of it so far.

It takes a lot… it takes a big soul, like yours, to say ‘yes’ to the desire deep within, that wants something different, wants transformation, wants fulfilment in the sweetest way. It takes a capacity to be with what isn’t desired, to find it within your heart to love it for what it was and what parts of you needed it for, and to move on to what awaits you next in the greener pastures of soul family, ever-expanding heart wisdom, and exponential service of love. ❤


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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Sail Away: A Poem To Beyond

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Picture by Christian Schloe

Sail away
Away…. beyond the gravity and into your levity
Where nothing holds court other than your own limitation
Your own deprivation

You are not to be denied
Unless you feel the need to decide
That it is all too much for you to let in
The truth of your own creation

It is all so there for you to have
For you to own and mold
Into the image of your long lost dream
You buried so long ago

Don’t give up my beloved
My glorious angel and magician
For you own the key AND the door
It is a matter of choice….of believing….of trusting

Do you want to continue letting it all define you?
Instead let the possibilities imbibe you
Refine you
Deconstruct you into constructing you

Back, forward, up, and out
Beyond what the chatter is claiming of you
Of clinging to you
Afraid to losing you….unable to protect you

For you are Free
If you choose to Be
Spread that mind’s canvass to it fullest length imaginable
Open that heart to the widest aperture enjoyable

Tell the world that you are here for more
More than just what you have continued to settle for
More than the picture that was painted….
Debated…. Indoctrinated

The end of this world is the beginning of You
The unending surprise of your fear’s demise
Into the vast ocean of surrendered devotion
To the broadcast of your heart’s limitless evocation

 

Inspired by my beloved teacher and friend Raphael Awen

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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