Completing Our Sacred Union Romance

By Gabriel & Kalayna Solais

From Gabriel ~ 

This is a hard post to write for many reasons. It signals the completion of something that has been a big part of my journey the past six years so there is mourning. It opens up to the vulnerability of what is real and moving for me in transparency. All of this is held with Love and Grace.

Recently I felt a need for Kalayna and I to take some physical space to feel into some deeper layers that have been some core issues between us for some time. We had been having a hard time connecting on a deeper level and could feel some much needed heart exploring and feeling to get to a root of something.

The fear was always that we could wind up finding out what has been eluding us that may not be reconcilable. Something baked in our dynamic that had a time stamp. We have been down this road a few times and eventually we needed to complete to go back into our own processes. Each time though we came back with new awareness and foundations.

However, this time we have had to admit through deep tears and some frustrations, that this romance needs to complete for its last time. The last chapter of a volume that comprises our larger story. It was not an easy choice to make considering we did just get married. I knew that there were things we had to go into but I wanted to do that while wed to her, because that is how I saw her. That is how I wanted to remember what we had. That she was my wife. My partner. My beloved mate in this wild ride of ascension.

The reasons run deep and wide. We have many differences between us that are hard to reconcile. In our solo processes and sessions with Jelelle and Raphael, we realized that what we have is meant in a different context. One that doesn’t have romantic ties but ties that run deep nevertheless. I have found that I need a space to access more of who I am to myself and in intimacy. I have work to do just as any other ascending human man. Kalayna came to a very similar conclusion for herself.

So many timelines and stories have needed to collapse and complete so that I can open up more to the Love that wants to occur from me to me, me to the Divine, and me to Other. This is an ebb and flow of clarity and tears. I hold this just as sacred as when I got married. This time I am marrying/integrating more of myself that had been put aside in the name of the Usness that just wasn’t meant to be in this way.

In all of this, the one thing that has always held firm and true is that my love for Kalayna is real. So much so that I need to let go so that she can arise and draw what her deepest heart needs. The same is true from her to me. This death and rebirth is a part of what we signed up for and it has been one of the biggest ones to date for me.

Thank you for taking this in to your heart and holding it with reverence. I will answer any questions you may have. I appreciate all the love and support you gave us during our time together and feel blessed to have been a recipient of it. I feel held in all of this by Divine Love. There is no one else I could have walked this out the way we have at this time then Kalayna. Thank you so much Kalayna for everything you were, are, and will continue to be.

From Kalayna ~

It’s been 6 years.

6 years of friendship, of off-and-on romance, of deep connections together on all levels: soul, heart, body, and mind.

And now something so sacred to us both is deeply completing.

We have navigated life together in so many different ways and phases… we’ve pressed forward into plans, launched ourselves into the unknown, met new parts of ourselves and each other, felt new Metasoul aspects of ourselves that are connected to one another and some that aren’t or don’t seem to be too. I’ve grown so much because of being with this amazing man… and the recent choice to become ‘married’ and to deepen in Sacred Union really gave me the gift of a longtime wish I had inside to marry HIM specifically. The fulfillment of a dream, truly. And I couldn’t have asked for a better man to have been my first true, deep, resonant love.

It’s been about a month now of process within myself while taking space from the relationship and altogether separating from Gabriel. I’ve been feeling what the tendrils were that parts of me had with him and so much of that is still unfolding.

It’s been very tender and raw to feel, but it’s time to complete our marriage, our coupleship, our 6 year cycle of going IN together in different ways, always wondering about being together romantically, ‘completing’ romantic phases without them feeling really complete. Now it feels like the romance actually IS complete. I’m realizing and letting in that the ground we’ve had together, though made and built upon with SO much deep resonance and goodness on ALL levels, is a ground that isn’t nourishing in the deeper ways we both would need for it to continue, the way I need it to be to continue…. I’m seeing how in our time spent apart recently, I’ve had more self-discoveries happen inside of myself than I did in much of our romance together, at a new depth that I had forgotten in some ways was possible and also needed personally.

You can imagine how profound and emotional this whole process of letting go of this relationship has been for my heart and soul. So many of you have taken in videos, writings, live streams with us co-leading and I’m still so grateful I got to do that with him. We even recently led a few in-person meditation circles here in Victoria and that was alive and nurturing too, a new taste of my own leadership and my leadership with a mate too (another lifelong dream of mine that still remains and likely always will). I’ve been really feeling it and really letting in the mega timeline shift this has been and how needed this is right now through the tears, the mourning, the frustrations and even the resentments towards him that surface sometimes in parts/Metasoul aspects of mine.

In this whole process I’ve felt wrecked, hopeful, despairing, and then newly alive as I feel some emerging possibilities for myself outside of our bond in service, in personal healing, in future possibilities for my life in all areas. I’ve felt parts of me that don’t want to leave this relationship or complete it, and then felt ME coming up in a new way to be with what’s real and to feel what really does need to complete here for my sake and his. It’s time to come home to ME in a new way…

There’s nothing in me that doesn’t want to be connected to Gabriel somehow… and we both know so well the ground of sacred friendship that we can and DO have together. In some ways, these transaction grounds on a friendship level are just easier for us with so many gaps between us in life and soul experience that just aren’t as bridgeable in a romance as parts of me were hoping they would be.

The promise of Sacred Union is that you will grow… not that you will stay together romantically forever, especially if the bond cannot be kept alive and lively, renewing and rebooting. This has been our experience in the last 6 years of knowing each other and being together in different ways for different phases, and it feels like this last phase of romantic exploration HAS been the deepest we could go in this lifetime while in Sacred Union together.

I knew when we got married recently, that this was a step I needed and wanted to take with him, no matter how long it would last. In a sense it actually feels like we’ve been married for as many as 10 years, let alone just a few months, especially with all of the new realizations coming through that could only really be coming through because of the ground and history I’ve experienced with him. My process is calling me to keep moving forward and onward, as sad as it still feels to be moving on without him by my side…

I so welcome any questions or comments you may have…

Much love to you all… thank you for being a Sacred part of our journey.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s Facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, emoto-spiritual teacher, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess. 

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Energy UPdate: High Speed SOULar Winds Message – You Get To Choose!

By Jelelle Awen

Energy UPdate: We are still in a stream of high SOULar winds….wind speeds have been staying elevated in the low 500 km/sec range for the last two days. Many people experience tiredness, disorientation, and head/neck/shoulder pain during high SOULar winds. Yet, also, there is the opportunity of lifted veils, active dream states, timelines bleeding through, third eye openings and Kundalini awakenings.
You may still be in digestion of the shock wave that moved through four days ago, that I wrote about here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2019/05/27/energy-update-interplanetary-shock-wave-moved-through-on-5-26/
It seemed to bring an amplified energy to EVERYTHING….whatever your everything is right now, whatever stage and phase you are moving through in your awakening.
A strong message came through yesterday in a session to a beautiful woman who is struggling with relationship misalignment and lack of resonance (as SO many awakening souls are right now.) with her long-term male partner. The message to her from her Higher Self was, “YOU get to choose. YOU get to choose what you will put your energy into. YOU get to choose how and to whom you will offer your soul gifts in exchange with..including your romantic partner. YOU get to choose who you will resonate with and who you will become intimate with.”
This message of personal choice feels SO important as especially long-term relationships of all kinds reboot and try to find new grounds of relating. You are not the same person you were when the relationship started….you have probably grown quantum leaps since then. If your partner or friends or birth family is not ALSO choosing this kind of growth rate, it is actually your CHOICE whether to continue to be in the relationship with them. This choice to complete the relationship often serves both sides, as the other person is very often suffering in self doubt, inadequacy, and turmoil from the feelings of ‘not keeping up’ with you. And you may be growing weary of trying to teach them and reach them and tugging on them.
I feel these SOULar energies support the sacred masculine within us to help us make these very difficult choices in relationships. This is beyond ‘boundary setting’ yet is actually about rebooting and regrounding the entire base root of our relationality with others from codependence based on mutual wounding patterns to interdependence based on resonance and self worth.
YOU get to choose. What will your choices be in every moment? Toward fear or toward love? Toward resonance or toward resistance?

Love,
Jelelle Awen
1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators to support these personal choice points and life transitions at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Here is a guided meditation to connect to your higher timeline of self loving choices: https://youtu.be/T0K7Ti68gNo

Narrowing Corridors On 3D Life & Relationships

All night long during my brief conscious moments and during sleep too, I was walking down this corridor….a long hallway. The ceiling was getting tighter and the floor rising up to meet it. Not a pleasant feeling…this ‘narrowing’ passageway feeling. Yet, also, I could feel there was LOVE in this movement somehow and that at the ‘end’ of the hallway were wide, OPEN spaces filled with Infinite Possibilities.

As I digest this in the now moment, it feels like a pretty good metaphor for what is happening energetically on the inner and outer cosmic levels. In this now called “August 2018” is a ‘mega month’ of energy activities…another eclipse and the Lion’s Gate opening that peaks in a week on August 8th.

The narrowing corridor I was shown feels like the old life and the previous versions, the 3D self versions and masks and personas, are being ‘pressed down’ in order to move them along. It is becoming increasingly uncomfortable and cramped to be less than who you are and you are feeling it more acutely now on all levels. The physical body is releasing pain and resistance in the form of ascension body symptoms such as ringing in the ears, changing sleeping patterns, dizzyness, nausea, appetite changes, body aches, hot flashes, etc. Some of this is resistance and some of this is just transition and adjustment to so much more light coming into every cell and igniting previously sleepy DNA.

It is becoming increasingly uncomfortable too within relationships where previously you were the ‘big fish in the little pond’ or the ‘tall one in the rooms with shorter ceilings.’ What this means is that the settings, relationships, and careers where parts of you feel VERY comfortable within your comfort zone are now feeling cramped and confining. Your soul self (higher self coming into the body and healthy emotional body) wants to fly, wants growth, wants to be challenged, wants mirrors to see yourself, wants to stand tall, and is ok to be the big fish in the big pond with other big fish.

There could be a feeling of crawling right now as you travel down the corridor of this old, feeling your way through as previously suppressed pains and wounds from your emotional body and Metasoul greet you and come up. Crawling is ok though, as is pausing and just sitting still and BEing with the discomfort. Crying the tears that need to come up. BEing with the fears too.

All this is temporary….a pressure cooker, compression point, narrowing corridor reality that invites you to keep choosing love in every moment in order to keep moving through it.

Some souls will become immobilized, stuck, or choose to leave their bodies. Even those who are more awakened or newly awakened may lash out with fear and retreat….going back down their hallway and into their comfort zone and safety again. In this case, all you can really do and BE is compassionate love for them, invite them to come with you and keep going forward yourself. If you try to ‘go back’ for them or stay with them, you will lower your vibrational frequency to fear and potentially ‘fuse’ to parts of you that will put you back to sleep again. There is heightened temptation to do this as the fear-based energies reach out in a ‘last grasp attempt’ at our trailing edges of BEing.

There is actually something at stake and at risk in relationships right now. It is probably the stickiest ground when it comes to the ascension process. ‘Going down’ with someone in order to ‘save them’ is a trap that could keep you parts of you looping in suffering and co-dependent patterns. Clinging on to ‘capacity’ rather than being real about transactability can keep you hanging on to others, staying stuck, and even parts of you in delusion. Really asking yourself what you want in relationships of all kinds, what is healthy and nourishing for you, who is a healthy mirror of you and being open to feel all that comes up in parts of you that cling and why can help you navigate this sticky ground.

Better to mourn the completion of these lower frequency relationships, let go, and keep BEing the light that you are, feeling yourself and your own healing as your first priority. This choosing of yourself and your own heart creates a beacon that draws the souls that are in your soul family tribe to join you and your TRUE sacred union mate as well. You may be walking, crawling, and BEing alone for a phase though as you truly leave behind your previous life to enter your new one.

It is a time of choosing love over fear in every moment in ways both subtle and perhaps very dramatic and profound. It is a time of change…both on a very personal level and as a collective. It is a time of a waking up on a grander scale then we have seen before since choosing our collective slumber and amnesia.

At the end of each of our hallways is VAST, open space filled with Infinite Love and Infinite Possibilities. The Divine waits there to embrace us in Love again even as It is with us always in every moment as we crawl and find and arise into the love that we ARE.

Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session
Walk down your inner hallways and meet the parts of you that want and need your attention and have gifts for you too during 1:1 bridging sessions with me and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators…more info above

5/11 Energies: Portal To Forgiveness, Completion Of Old Timelines With Others

by Kalayna Colibri

5/11 energies feel significant today… portals opening into self-forgiveness. Higher Self connections are possible between you and those you’ve known in the past. Old relationship debris gets to clear away as you feel the tears of remorse for what’s happened in these relationships and what didn’t happen too. It’s an opportunity to own the role you’ve played while feeling the Higher Selves of others own their own roles too… ripples of deep self-forgiveness are possible in this today as well as forgiveness of others.

This is a powerful way to complete old timelines and embrace the imminent, highest timeline that is possible for you. So much movement happens when forgiveness is genuine and not simply said but felt. True gratitude can bloom from this too, as you feel these portals open and close, and feel the lessons and growth you and parts of you gathered from each and every experience.

This is beautiful to feel in words but even better to experience when parts of you are ready to let go into this space. It is a true and deep gift to be able to feel how all relationships have been connected for a reason and how you are a part of the trajectory of so many others. This is true oneness and connectedness. This is what unites us in higher, more porous dimensions for the healing of the collective inside and outside of us. This is powerful and poignant healing and ascension, a true moving on and moving up.

Being in this space with your parts if you can feel them while leaning into the space holding of higher-dimensional aspects of you is the invitation today. Experiencing this for myself and the movements inside are touching, expansive, and above all, loving to the nth degree… ❤️

Lots of love to you and WITH you!

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, speaker, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling Self Love Inside To Experience It In Relationships

By Jelelle Awen

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This push and pull, this ‘tug of war’. You can wear out your hands and hearts engaging this way with each other. This energy puts you on one side and them on the other. This energy creates division lines and walled up fortresses. It creates stances and lock downs. It can only be ‘against’ rather than ‘with’.

Moving into a ‘with’ in relationships of all kinds brings you into love together rather than polarizing each other with fear.

This can only happen on the outside, with other people…..as it is happening on the INside within you. Where there is a tug of war from one part of you to another…your Inner Punisher and your Inner Teenager (for example) or your Inner Protector and your Inner Mother/Father…..so, it will manifest on the outside.

How can you be different in a relationship with someone else than you have been in relationship with parts of yourself? Where would this new and spacious and healthy way of relating with others come from if it is struggling to happen inside of you? Why would others draw a healthier way of relating if the putting down, self punishing, guarding, suppressing energies are occurring from one part of you to another?

INside is where the empowerment is. INside is where the ambassadorship of offering love to ALL parts of you has the most traction and can go in the deepest. INside is where the gifts of your empathy, your healing, your compassion can be received the most fully.

AS that ambassadorship happens deeply, offering love to ALL parts of yourself, so then, it overflows outwards and DRAWS those who can resonate with these frequencies as well. Their self love resonance overflows to mingle and mix with yours. This then is healthy relating. This becomes less co-dependence based on parts grabbing and pushing on each other and is more interdependence….two healthy ‘I’s’ dancing to the music of their healing hearts and souls.

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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

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Leaving The Safety Of 3D Shore To Swim In Divine Waters

By Jelelle Awen

You cannot cross the ocean unless you have the courage to lose sight of the shore (2)

 

Standing on the shore of your previously anchored into 3D life, the waters of change and the unknown call to you. The waters of Divine love and embracement beckon you inward, onward, and upward. 3D parts of you have known more of the surface and its easily accessible stories. They have been schooled, bred, and taught the familiar and comfortable that remains seemingly unchangeable and unchanged.

The depths of the underneath and all the unexplored places represent the depths of YOU to still be plunged into and discovered. Your deep dives into your emotional body and Metasoul legacy invite the revelation of all sorts of wonderful ‘creatures’ that live in your shadows waiting for your light. Each dive down brings another piece of your soul’s puzzle into your awareness. Each dive down opens you up to what has previously been mysterious BEcoming known.

To begin this journey of inner exploration is to leave the safety of shore. To cross your own ocean is to be courageous and willing to lose sight of the shore. To BE with the parts of you that are afraid to let go and feel insecure, frightening, concerned, worried about what will happen. To hold their hearts in your heart as you invite them to let go of their gripping. To let the shore fade from your vision as you face forward into the seemingly empty horizon together. To trust that what is next and NEW will meet and greet you as you choose love, as you choose life, as you choose growth.

There may be other people on the shore that want to stay there. Friends, birth family, romantic mates that want you to stay with them. They have been BEloved to you and are still loved. Yet, parts of them want to remain in what is known and haven’t woken up yet to the soul’s capacity for Infinite Questing. Yet, you understand that you need to move on and away in order to grow. You realize that you need to venture out alone to discover and draw the resonance and intimacy, the GOODNESS, that you most want and deserve in relationships.

Negotiating with the part of you that protects and guards, your Inner Protector, can allow a smoother transition into the New. Often, the Inner Protector actually wants and aches for new explorations and discoveries. They often have a sense of your soul purpose mission here to serve love. They can offer you this inspiration and information once they feel safe to let go of the ‘care and feeding’ of all your other parts (such as the Inner Child, Inner Teenager) that they have been overly protective of and over. As they feel more YOU show up in your BEing to become head of your own household and loving parent to all parts of yourself, your Inner Protector can transmute to the frequencies of multidimensional Gatekeeper, guide and bridge to your Metasoul/other lifetimes. They can become a navigator helping you guide your ship, rather than the reluctant captain! More about these parts here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

As you let go of the shore, the waters of LOVE embrace you and hold you. The currents of Divine guidance steer you. You are pulled by the undertow of a growing curiosity fueled by your soul and NEED to know and feel yourself. You are unanchored and free to float, to swim, to dive, to BEcome who you really ARE as Infinite Love. And, your sacred humanity rises up from within to meet and greet you as you land safely, always and over and over, onto the shores of your INNER home.

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Jelelle Awen is a Soul Scribe, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

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Inviting Others To Come Along With You: Navigating Relationships During Awakening

By Jelelle Awen

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I cannot make you grow with me, only invite you to come along. ~ I have experienced personally and have felt with so many others too over the years that one of the MOST difficult and painful grounds of growth during awakening and ascension is navigating through relationships….romantic, friends, family. As you shift and change as your heart opens, as your soul awakens, as your body enlightens…what you desire to see and feel with others shifts too. One of the main shiftings that happens is waking up out of the 3D sense that others are outside of you or just ‘there as a given’.

As you wake up to YOUR own magic and more of your bigness, so you start to really see and feel if others are a reflection of this or not….based on how much they are embracing, discovering, and exploring their soul as well. You start to want relationships to arise anew rather than remain stuck in comfort and safety. You realize more and more that your relationships with others IS a reflection of you. You start wondering, “What are these relationships reflecting about me?” You start pondering if those in your life (even the most BEloved ones such as your children and mate) really GET you and see you anew. Are they experiencing you through previous lens, experiences, and filters? Are they seeing and feeling how you are changing and becoming inspired by it or are they reacting in fear, doubt, and resistance? Are they saying that they are being ‘supportive’ yet are actually remaining in stubborn energies/parts that aren’t letting you in?

For awhile, these relationships can remain in neat and tidy compartments, with parts of you sometimes working quite hard, efforting and trying to keep the relationships going using the same, previous fuels of duty and obligation; familiarity; even ‘unconditional love’ (fueled by spirituality) can be used to stay in relationships. Maybe part of you tries to convince and teach others what you are learning and discovering during your awakening so that they can ‘get it’ too. There can be a forcing energy in this because it is actually run by unfelt fears in parts of you around what it would actually be like to lose, to mourn, to move on.

This comes from your SOUL waking up, after all, so there can be so much NEW energy then that is coming up and OUT. Not just love and light either. Yet, often 3D anchored (and lower 4D soul) frequencies of fierce self protection, need to control, distrust, doubt, confusion, depression/despair. These may have been numbed by the relationships, yet, they start surging up when your soul starts getting real about what is in your REALity. These are intense energies often too with darker tones, shadow sometimes, all the hidden things that the Inner Protector part of you has kept ‘safe’ behind the veil of your previously not remembering and the relationships that supported this.

On a higher soul level, all souls in your life agreed to be there and to be on this exploration with you. I don’t feel these as ‘contracts’ as others do, yet, rather, they are good will-based, love-based agreements with the ultimate purpose to bring growth and learning. Both souls/higher selves can feel that they are fluid, that the situations and circumstances may change; and that the relationships may run out of ground and complete on the transactional level. The higher selves remain IN and with love as they cannot be OUT of love, even if the lower dimensional selves cannot be in relationship any longer.

Inviting the souls in your life to ‘come along with you’ as your soul awakens comes from an energy of SELF love and trust. You are trusting that whatever happens will be held by love for BOTH of you. You are leading with what your soul desires for yourself while letting go of that you know what that choice should be for another person. THIS can be very challenging to inhabit until you have negotiated with the parts of you inside that struggle to let go of control and fear.

You can only invite others into and with a loving, clean, and pure energy IF you are inviting yourself and ALL your aspects into this ground of exploration. So as you experience it inside, so then can you naturally then invite others into it as well….

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You can experience our process for connecting with, integrating your 3D self and 4D self aspects to allow for navigation of relationships through a bridging session with one of us (Raphael, Gabriel, Kalayna and me): soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women and with Raphael for men…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Moving From The Isolation Of The Void Space And Into Being Filled Up With Love

By Jelelle Awen

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Then, there is the void. It feels like many souls will be in this as consciousness continues to shift and change. Maybe you are in this now or, at least, in moments? The void is the space in between the dips of necessary purgings and clearings and the peaks of feeling connected to Divine love, All That Is, the sense of your Higher Self kNOWingness. The void is the place that is the ‘during’…….the AFTER of the old and yet BEFORE the new has fully come in.

I was reminded of the void yesterday and how deep it can feel and BE. My heart went out with compassion toward the walking out of this phase as I felt it during session space with a beautiful, brave soul who is navigating this ground and asking me to support her to discover what arises on the other side of it. I could feel a resonant experience of it for myself too and for how it feels like the void will become more and more the collective experience too as we move from 3D consciousness to higher.

How lonely this void can feel. How isolating. How crazy making. It can seem to get bigger and bigger, never ending, a chasm that you can’t possibly jump over. It can feel like there will not be something on the other side of it again. Nothing to land in, nothing that will rise up to meet you.

Parts of you may feel so lost in this void. It feels like living in an empty house. It feels like looking in a mirror and seeing NO reflection there. You may feel like you truly have NO IDEA who you are anymore.

This void grows in your life as you awaken, as your soul frequencies rumble through you. As you are vacating the previous 3D life that parts of you, your 3D self, built up so carefully. You are purposely tearing down, pushing away, letting go. Things are slipping/cracking/completing. The previously nourishing relationships running out of ground and feel more and more shallow until they just fade away. These relationships once ‘told’ you who you were and you may find that you can’t locate yourself that way anymore. Another person’s ideas of who you are no longer offer the outlines that they once did.

The void is when compelling careers and jobs (even the spiritually-based ones) are no longer able to be responded to and the new means of livelihood based on soul purpose expression have not been connected to yet. You may be financially ‘broke’ as you break away from money earning energies that don’t fit anymore. No self identify or self image is able to be propped up by the doing or showing up for the role anymore, so there is a drifting confusion about claiming a soul purpose expression. There are moments of feeling that you want to serve and share, yet a persisting lack of clarity about HOW and in what way.

It can feel like the void will last ‘forever’, yet, it is ultimately temporary. As you rewire your entire life, there is a necessary ‘lights out’ phase. If you are truly letting go of what doesn’t serve your soul, love WILL eventually come in to fill the space UP again. Love wants to do this. Love comes in to fill the void in the form of soul family connections that offer a deeper intimacy and realness, a true reSOULnance. Love comes in the form of self intimacy that grows as you embrace what is authentically you and no longer resist ANY aspects of yourself, responding to love all that is within you. Love comes in the form of synchroniticies and opportunities and resonances that you learn to trust, following with less doubt.

Love wants to light you UP again. Love wants to fill the voids. Let it INTO your life again in whatever ways and means it is inviting you to. Trust your opening upper heart to guide you through and out of the lostness. Trust your soul to find the way through. Trust love to show you the way to the NEW where the spaces are filling in, arising into Infinite Possibilities in every moment.

Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions
We offer through SoulFullHeart a free intro session to experience our process….a heartline to navigate the void, moving through and to the other side of it.

It Is Time To Burst Bubbles And Make Changes In Order To Serve Love

By Jelelle Awen

bubble-bursting

Bubbles are being burst and compartments are being flooded WITH LOVE. These bubbles and compartments served you for a phase as your soul has been awakening and the frequencies of expansion beyond your 3D conditioning have been SO needed. They served the learning and exploration as your mind deconditioned from so much academic training and programming about what reality is and isn’t. They served you as the ground rumbled from within, quaking and shaking inside as you started to remember WHO and WHAT and WHY you are here.

These bubbles serve you until they no longer do. Increasingly potent waves of PURE love from Divine Source want to burst ALL the bubbles that remain in your life. Waves of PURE love want to swarm and reform the compartments that parts of you have created in your life to separate your soul alchemy from other areas that have not been ready to change and transform yet. A compartmentalized life is how the 3D self can cope with the awakening of the 4D self, it is how these frequencies are negotiated and even allowed to happen from within you. ONE area of life can change (maybe it is career or geography) but not ALL areas….this is how the 3D self ‘controls’ the process of awakening until it can no longer BE controlled.

An example of compartments in your life is going to spiritual weekend workshops and retreats to get your soul watered and then coming home to or living with discordant and even toxic relationships that no longer serve your soul. Your unawakening mate may agree to this compartmentalization for a phase too in an attempt to preserve the relationship..it’s OK for you to go to workshops, retreats, see your ‘healer’ as long as the relationship stays the same and isn’t impacted or changed. As long as you don’t ask or invite your mate to JOIN YOU in the awakenings, then everything is ‘fine.’ The two 3D selves ‘agree’ to this arrangement and the unawakened partner says they are being ‘supportive’ when really they are being suppressive and YOU are allowing them to be because somehow that serves part of you as well.

This compartmentalization can REALLY show up in birth family relationships as so much of the ground within them is based on 3D conditioning and role playing. Your birth family ‘doesn’t get’ what your soul is awakening to and even judges it as ‘crazy’, yet your 3D selves agree that the family bond gets to stay intact as long as they ‘support’ you in your path and you agree to remain in the family, do family events and holidays, not be ‘too crazy or strange’. Again, this isn’t actually resonant support but a compartmentalized and codependent agreement between 3D selves. This can be the same dynamic in friendships too that are based on ‘old’ and previous life phases that you are outgrowing and moving beyond.

Another example of compartments in your life is continuing to do a job that is deadening, toxic, flat, not reflective of your soul purpose and reason for being here even as you SAY that you are here to serve love, be a light worker, be a healer, be a teacher. This is SO understandable for a phase as you transition to the expression of your soul purpose as your means of livelihood. But, watch and feel for the 3D self keeping you stuck in a job that doesn’t reflect your soul in order to shrink your bigness and keep you ‘safe’. This part of you can use anxiety about money and existential trust issues to keep you stuck in a career and job that isn’t serving love, which is the ULTIMATE reason for the soul awakening in the first place.

This is what bursts the bubbles and floods the compartments that parts of you have created and constructed….the DESIRE, the URGE, the COMPLETE DRIVE to serve love in ALL moments and in ALL ways. The service of love THROUGH you and TO yourself and WITH others is what provides the courage to complete the job, to complete the relationships, to complete the ‘weekend warrior’ seeker mode and truly CLAIM your soul expression in all moments. The service of love THROUGH you creates the NEW space to hold the reactions of parts of you as they transition and let go of the old structures and the energetic bubbles that form a ‘second skin’ over your auric field are dissolved.

The GRAND collective awakening that is happening in the NOW that we all agreed to participate in as souls has a force and energy to it that can be tapped into and downloaded in a personal way. Connection with Ethereal guides in a way that is visceral and REAL for you, a way that allows you to ACTUALLY make the changes you need to make in your life (the practical changes that you NEED to make) is available and they are SO ready to help you. Your guides and higher self WANT to be life coaches for you, not just deliver higher frequency contextual messages all the time from ‘on high’ in some transcendent tones that doesn’t really provide much relevant application to your life. Your guides and higher self are VERY invested in you making the changes you need to make yet they can’t go against the ‘free will’ (or stubbornness sometimes) of your 3D self. ASK them to help you make the changes you need to make on the day-to-day living level, and then surrender into the transitions that are necessary to REALLY be expressing from your soul essence and stepping into and UP TO what you are here to BE and DO. Archangel Metatron in particular is a very effective life coach and project manager (he wanted me to add that!)

In all of my SoulFullHeart sessions with women recently, the main theme of our process together has been around what their compartments and bubbles are and what the next steps are to moving them forward. Feeling places and parts (we start with the inner protector) that have blocked their soul frequencies from coming in, rumbling the ground, creating and making changes, moving them on if needed from toxic relationships especially. This is ‘practical ascension’ and it is about REAL changes happening, not just reading spiritual articles online and sharing quote cards on social media or taking in spiritual phrases and ideals back and forth while you continue to suffer in your ACTUAL life. But TRULY changing what IS NOT working for you any more on a soul level. The higher self YOU already KNOWS what these changes ARE that you need to make….you have probably been thinking and feeling what they are even as you are reading these words.

Negotiation with your inner protector as you are supported by your most beloved guides allows for the moving forward of these soul changes. Your inner protector is the aspect of your 3D self that has been in charge of guarding and defending your most precious assets such as your inner child, your inner feminine (in both men and women), your inner teenager, your SOUL bigness and expression. This loyal aspect of you doesn’t need to be battled or overcome to allow these changes but rather felt and connected to….to feel that he can NOW rest and have YOU take over. We offer teachings and a guided meditation about connecting with your inner protector here: https://youtu.be/yP0OmxcSScc

If you feel that you need the support of a spaceholder to navigate the transitions you feel you need to make and to provide a bridge to your higher self and guides and what they are trying to tell you, we offer this through SoulFullHeart sessions and through our group calls too. More about sessions here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions and group calls here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls

Suffering in ANY areas of your life can come to a completion as you allow the frequencies that are available NOW of PURE love INTO all areas of your life. This means letting in and letting go, being willing to question and wonder about EVERYTHING in your life and WHY you have chosen it and feel into if it is serving love or if it is not. It is the willingness and openness to be REAL about what you have created in your life as you are NOT victim to any of it but rather THE grand creator that has drawn it all to you and for you. This means trusting in deepening ways that the changes that you ARE guided to make serve your soul essence as an expression of service of love in human form.

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book,Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.