Your I AM 5D Divine Self Essence Guided Meditation: Video 17 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

In this seventeenth video of our 31 day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teachers/Co-Creators Raphael and Jelelle Awen share about what we mean by becoming your I AM 5D Divine Self. We talk about the 3D, 4D, and 5D selves and the qualities such as gratitude, forgiveness, compassion, curiosity, openness, joy, willingness to feel, etc. that are the essence of the 5D Self.

We share about how the I AM is an invitation for embodiment of the Divine within you and not looking to an ‘outside’ source to experience and bridge to the Divine, as has been offered by the False Light Matrix. This is a process of transmutation from the ‘ground up’ of your 3D self meeting the higher dimensional aspects of 5D and higher in a middle place.

In the guided meditation, your Gatekeeper joins you on an exploration to raise your frequency by climbing up stairs to a higher dimensional space. Once you reach the higher 5D space, your 5D Divine Self is invited to come in, along with any higher dimensional soul aspects or star/soul family members.

Here is high frequency music you can listen to during this meditation by Divine Channel Mei-Lan: https://youtu.be/tC1RGAne_yE

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvJPnLzbEKl4OsQBXBYw2XwI

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about two Deepen 2022 group calls on January 16th 30th, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.
We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed
For more information about a free consultation call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Jelelle Awen, Raphael Awen, Gabriel Amara, and Kasha Rokshana, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

We are offering this series for free of charge, yet we would be so grateful if you offered an energy exchange/donation to us for the value you receive in this series. You can donate through paypal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

The Christened Divine Ambassador

This painting by Autumn Skye Morrison really illuminates something for me in my own ongoing journey as well as the journeys of so many.

This ‘shelter in the storm’ feeling is held by our deepening connection to our Divine Self and the Divine Itself. We hold the Light and the Love inside of us. It can never be extinguished or taken. Only hidden, forgotten, or given away.

This Divine Self cultivation is not easy with all that is occurring outside of us and inside of us as represented by the waves and the lightning. It is an inner storm that we are ultimately at odds with. In my past, I was the storm rather than relating to the storm.

I have been working for many years on healing the layers that have kept me from fully letting this Divine Self and Divine Love into my BEing. So many layers of unworth, self-doubt, and even fear of my own power.

These layers were energies that were held by parts of me that were stuck in some form of trauma, pain, and judgement from this-life wounding. They were (and to some degree still are) also layers of soul aspects that have been through their own trauma as well as misuse and abuse of power. A guilt-shame spiral that as lived in my Metasoul.

These parts and aspects have needed the time and space needed to unfurl their own healing, forgiveness, and letting in of love from my space-holders, myself, and the Divine. It is a process that takes the time it takes even if it feels we are running out of it.

We have been so deeply entrenched in and entangled with the Matrix to the point we have replaced our own Divinity with it. It has become difficult for these parts and aspects to sense life outside of it even as much as they desperately want to feel that at the same time. It is a ‘spaghetti pretzel’ that has been created and it takes time, courage, and soul choice to engage in its unplugging.

There are thick layers of protection, from our Inner Protector, and veils of forgetting, from our Gatekeeper, that have been placed in the way for very good reasons. They are not band-aids to be ripped off, but rather lovingly melted off by the power of grace and love. As these layers are felt and moved through our spiritual, emotional and physical bodies, they find a safe haven in our heart and expanded consciousness.

Our Christened Ambassador Self becomes more revealed to us and more embodied. It feels and chooses differently than we did in our past consciousness. It creates a boundary that healthfully protects, yet also beacons and receives. I am continuing to feel this in myself more and more with each movement along the spiral of healing and illumination that has come from this deep work.

From my Divine heart and soul’s perspective there is nothing more needed than this inner work to occur layer by layer. Self-loving choice by self-loving choice as well as challenge by challenge. This is what allows us to come from this brave and centered place. Our circumstances are calling this Being forward into the world each and every day.

The power of Love is greater than the love of Power.

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Meeting Your Divine Self – Our Journey From & Back To Source

By  Raphael Awen

The farther we journey from source, the greater is our return to source where we are enabled to experience it for the first time.

This is the homecoming that you and I are now in, even as parts of us feel like the separation is growing.

It’s no longer the separation that’s growing, but rather your awareness of it that is increasing.

This week has been marked for me with another reunion with my Divine Orphan self that was triggered by some arising life circumstances, inviting the conditioned-to-this-life parts of me to feel and see this divine orphan self. I’m finding the beholding of this part again to be so moving and deeply rewarding, that answers the deeper questions at hand about the feelings of separation.

We were all initiated out of divine source into experience itself, and this experience needed to begin with what was not source. All of the fears, anxieties and depression we carry hearken back to our being birthed out of our divine bliss/oneness/source essence.

In this, we all were implanted with a great core wound, a wound that would underlie everything we would come to label as neurosis, things wrong with us. All of our attachments and quarrels within and without stem from this wound. But this pain and burden we carry is not only a wound that hurts, it is also an opening, a portal back, back to our true essence.

Your true essence is not conditioned by the conditionings of fear and lack that were needful for the experience journey. Your essence hasn’t participated here in the hijacked, 3D, matrixed, realm. Your essence remained untouched and protected from all of that.

The godhood you long for, you actually still possess and never lost. You just took on the experience of forgetting and of losing. In experience, you did lose divine connection and it hurts like the hell that it is. In essence though, you never lost a single thing. You are both experience and essence. More correctly, you are essence that took on experience.

You set out not to discover faraway lands, but to leave the land of your origin, so that you could return to it and discover it for the first time. As essence, you couldn’t know or feel or appreciate that essence and bliss. Bliss was left wanting to be known and felt and experienced. It was a risky endeavor, but your soul and the divine’s decided to fund this great discovery journey into reverence, awe and wonder.

As the increasing awareness of this separation rumbles in your life, you feel a fever pitch of everything coming apart at the seams. Everything you’ve worked so hard for to make experiential life bearable or even good comes now at this stage to be found to be not enough. In reaction, you may work harder as I have on gratitude and whatever other host of self-prescriptions to attempt to right your relation-ship with life, only to find they are not at all effective like they were before.

What the hell is happening?

You are beginning the return part of your journey home. You are sailing in the opposite direction. You are returning from where you came and the way you came. The return voyage has been negotiated through many lifetimes and so many experiences and you are ready now, equipped and prepared for the return.

The conditioning of lack and scarcity that you onboarded in your journey into experience is still here, and at times feels strangely and troublingly magnified. But this is all to be expected as you are called to feel and reconcile all the parts of you that are adjusting to returning to source – such a different experience than journeying away from source.

Now, you begin to get a sense of how sacred this forgotten core wound opening is. It is the one thing that would guarantee your return to divine source experientially. Your messed-up-ness is actually your perfection expressing and calling out to you. Each arising pain and ache is an intrinsic part of  the ongoing guidance as you restore to each part of you the pieces of their birthright that they are ready to feel.

Your preferences for pleasure over pain are a key part of your being human and of restoring your humanity with your divinity. You are invited not to bypass them any longer in the name of some kind of medicative spiritual practice. You chose to experience. You chose to want and to need. Those wants and those needs will need to be courageously owned and embraced if this voyage is to be completed successfully and on time (and in time).

As you witness the great fever pitch of insanity unfolding around you, ask yourself if you can think of any greater contribution to such a distress call than that of saving yourself, deeply choosing and embracing your own return journey home.

As you continue your return journey home as one being, you are reminding the oneness that we all are and share of this remembrance journey. Those around you in the forgetting phase will need your example when the time of their remembering comes, just as you needed it from others.

May we each embrace the perfection that we are amidst all that seems and feels so imperfect. May we set up a heart home with a great hearth of the warmth that will allow the fullest remembering.

Raphael Awen

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

SoulFullHeart Museletter: Nov 4, 2021

With the Samhain/Halloween/Day Of The Dead passage moving through, there’s a continued illumination of our shadow selves and other pieces of ourselves, our parts, our essences too that have been hidden or tucked away. This week we share a few writings about shadow exploration and what it invites and involves, plus we have a new group meditation call coming up this Sunday, Nov 7th, focused on Shadow Exploration.

You can find out more about this group call by visiting: soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

Featured this week is a writing/transmission from Jelelle. It’s an invitation to your shadow from your Divine Self, to encourage it to come out of hiding and to support it as a sacred part of you and your soul, though it may not have ever been treated that way. Jelelle reads this transmission aloud in the featured video with her and Raphael, where they talk some more about the upcoming Shadow Exploration call and what they will be offering through it from their own explorations and discoveries.

Along with some writings about processing with your own shadow, you will find other digestions of what’s moving in the world, and a sharing from a beloved community member and facilitant, Bey Magdalene! Bey shares about her own SoulFullHeart journey and what she is currently moving through and into as she continues to embrace all parts of her and her soul essence too.

You can subscribe to receive these Museletters in your own email inbox by visiting our website: soulfullheart.org, or scrolling down to the bottom of this issue and clicking ‘subscribe’.

Take in our latest Museltter here.

Much love from all of us!

~ The SoulFullHeart Community

Come Into The Light Of My Heart: Message To Your Shadow Self From Your Divine Self

By Jelelle Awen

To your Shadow Self from your Divine Self:

I seek you out now

I invite you out now

I search for you now….

not to judge you

not to hurt you

not to persecute you….

Yet, only, to invite you out into love.

What you hold and store,

what you have kept hidden,

what has been so long guarded,

what has been wrapped up tight….

can now be opened, revealed and healed.

There are gifts in your secrets

There are truths in your mysteries

There are treasures in your troves.

So long you have been

in the fog of what is purposely forgotten

made invisible behind a thick veil..

and now these barriers can be lifted through the gently powerful forces

of forgiveness, self acceptance, worth and compassion.

Rather than be afraid of you

or wanting to avoid you,

I am in awe of you

I am curious about you

and I can patiently hold space

as the trust between us grows

to allow a loving mutual ground of growth.

Come out into the light of my heart

and you can become once again

the love that you truly ARE.

Love,

Your Divine Self~

Please join us for a group meditation call with a sacred exploration into your shadow on Sunday, November 7th at 5:00pm Portugal time/12:00pm EST/9:00am PST. You can join us live and receive the recording by whatever donation you feel to give (usual is $10 CAD) at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. More info at soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions and https://www.facebook.com/events/171567888429264

Here’s a video with Raphael and I talking more about the group call and I read this message as well:

We also offer powerful and loving space holding during 1:1 sessions for shadow exploration and integration. More info at soulfullheart.org/sessions

Dear You…

Dear you…

What comes up from that deep well of your soul inside of you can feel like so much to hold sometimes.

It can feel like you’re going crazy trying to understand it.

It can feel like your heartbreak is so soul-deep that you’ll never overcome it or move through it; like you’ll never see the shoreline for the waters that surround you, that feel like they are drowning everything inside of you.

So, how is it that you’re still swimming, still breathing, even when it all feels like it’s rising above your head?

There’s a voice, whispering, telling you of your strength, even if you cannot consciously hear it; even if all other voices (many that aren’t actually yours) tell you that you aren’t going to make it (because they never did, did they?).

You’re writing a new story for yourself now, especially as you feel and begin to heal the parts of you that have been formed from so much Matrix trauma, so much birth family legacy and influence, so much 3D conditioning that has been layered over top of your big, big soul and naturally open heart.

You are offered only what you can carry. You are given a mirror only for what you can look at; what you have the power to see, digest, and even heal.

To opt-in for the feeling-way, the way of the heart, as a means to reconcile the many layers of necessary falseness, is humbling but also freeing.

It is an empowered sense of surrender even in your most disempowered-feeling times.

It is a tender way, always, to welcome in Divine Love and Support.

Dear you…

It is time to awaken and remember that the bright shoreline is just as real as the rough waters; that you know this terrain in ways you don’t yet realize; that even in the highest of highs and the lowest of lows, you will always be given what you need… and no more than you can possibly carry.

Love,
Your Divine Self

Take in the recording in Kasha’s voice

*****

Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The WOKE Program

The term ‘woke’ is a word that has interested me from its inception. I remember when it was ‘PC’ (politically correct) in the “old days”. As with all things matrix, it has chosen to hijack awakening and turn it into a divisive, political, high-control buzz word.

I have come to see and feel that WOKE is a program. It is an activation code to redirect one’s sense of critical thinking, intuition, and common sense. It is not the content of the wokeness that I am at issue with, but rather the hive-mind response mechanism that comes in the wake of particular trigger events.

Right now, to be “woke” is to bind yourself to violence, to unconscious rage, to the calling out and exposing of others that are not a part of the program. It lives on both sides of any issue really. It is a collectively-destructive sequencing code.

To be truly awakening, one questions all things and vetts them through their own internal resonance filtration system. Some call it a Bullshit Detector. I just choose to call it heart and soul guidance.

We are all highly intelligent beings with many instruments at our disposal. We have not just mental capacity, but emotive, psychic, and soul-based receptors. If you allow yourself the ability to feel into each of them, you would get a much deeper and more authentic understanding of what is happening in the world and your place within it, rather than succumbing to the web of high-control transmission that is pervasive through all of our daily interactions.

The Masters of the Universe (as we have permitted them to be) are punch drunk on the masses controlling and monitoring themselves. They have put all their chips on that roulette number and they are getting stunning results. They bank on our disempowerment, our guilt, our shame, and our conditioned fear to skew our natural ability to see and feel our true power.

So programs like WOKE are highly efficient at solidifying consciousness to do its bidding for its programmers, just like C-vid, v@x, or ma$k. We lose our true sovereignty in the bull rush to be righteous.

We live in an upside down world. The visionaries of the past warned us. Or maybe we were just being set up for the long game. Either way we are in it. We have to find our way back to our own power and authentic choice. Love has been hijacked in the name of a needle, of a movement, and of our humanity.

The portal to that lives inside of YOU. It is a door to which you hold the keys. Not the politicians, not the doctors, and not the talking heads.

Waking up is, and always has been, an inside job.

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

The Golden Road Home Paved By The Divine Self

The time between the last two full moons has been quite the rumble rouser. Lots of dissonant energy inside and out coming to the surface to be felt, choices to be made, and then given the self-loving space to integrate.

Calling on that golden thread of the Divine Self to hold and guide is the ark that keeps you from getting too bounced around energetically and emotionally. It also offers you the wisdom to rest and self-care when needed physically.It is the Divine Self that keeps you anchored into the greater context and the trust needed to weather difficult terrain and phases of growth and initiation.

We are all in some form of initiation if we are a path of sacred human realisation, way-showing, and seed-sowing. This path can feel like a rollercoaster on a merry-go-round at times, yet with a close and intimate connection to our Divine Self are we given the providence and guidance to make our way through even when parts of us are in doubt or reaction.

As you find some relief and/or clarity beyond this Supermoon Lunar Eclipse, we are being invited to keep in touch with our Divine purpose and vision for ourselves and the planet. This is the the Golden Road to Golden Earth paved by the Divine Self within, the spark and offspring of the Divine Itself.

Here you will find respite and refuelling on the way to your inner Shambala, that then lights the way for others to follow if sovereignly chosen. No convincing necessary when you are Embodied Love.

This is a message from my Divine Self to yours. 🙏🏻❤️

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Context, Content, And Deeper Feeling

There is a sacred process happening on this planet. I feel it, you feel it, we all are feeling it. But are we reacting to it or REALLY feeling it?

There is a way that parts of us can go into a particular ‘modus operendi’ when it comes to deep feeling. When I used that word above I am getting I really meant ‘sensing’. First, there is an intuitive or even an obvious sense of what is happening. And then there is going into feeling.

How we respond to that feeling is varied. We can research, protest, get paranoid, paralyzed, positive, or proactive. I find myself doing a little of bit everything depending on what part of me is in the forefront.
All of it is a natural flow of our emotional body. It is all welcomed and necessary. They are all portals to access our Divine Self. That essence of each of us that has a larger perspective and understanding, while at the same time hold space for the deeper feeling that emanates from our fractured selves.

Finding context in the midst of it all can open some more space to breath. That context is one that lives in you that may find resonance in different places. It gives parts of you something to lean into. That context is really You. Your Higher or Divine Self lens.

Yet, context also provides the space to feel. When we are locked in content, we are fusing to the more wounded aspects of us. They lose sight of a bigger heart and soul picture that takes them to sobriety and even hope.

When you can feel or at least see from a wider or higher vantage point, those deeper feelings (parts) are given permission to unfurl and unpack. They let go into deeper vibrations of loss, grief, fear, and rage while not getting wrapped up in them. They become rivers and not dammed up energy. Interesting…dammed and damned.

I continue to feel deeper layers of my feeling that lie under my reactions and responses. The clouds look thick and foreboding from a certain vantage point. There is also infinite sun shining on the other side of those clouds. Both are true in our full spectrum of awareness. It can be hard to see the forest for the trees, especially when it feels like the forest is on fire.

If you or someone you know is struggling with finding context and getting caught up with the plethora or content, please get in touch for a free 45 minute consult/intro call with me or any one of my beloveds here at SoulFullHeart. We can work together to feel the parts of you that are in need of context, and more importantly You as a Divine Self. Visit www.soulfullheart.org/sessions for more info.

Raphael and Jelelle Awen will also be hosting a Group Call and Meditation around the Covid narrative on Sunday, April 18th at 5pm BST. Visit www.soulfullheart.org/events for more info.

Sending much love to you and your inner world as you navigate the content to find your context

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

You Are The Bright, Bright Light Of God

I am the bright, bright, bright light of god.

You are…

We are…

Everything you desire, and the gap between what you have and what you desire is like a soul’s propulsion system.
Even what we might judge as fickle desires, and even the judgment of those desires, even desires that have become addictions are all a part of your soul’s propulsion and power to learn things you chose to learn.

Your life can never become any more sacred than it already is. Lots can and will change, and for the better, indeed.
But you can’t become any closer to god than you already are, for you are god, and you are in the center of god’s heart, both.

All you can do is come to accept that in ways and moments and movements, that real-ize this, that savor this, that feel this.
Feel the parts of you who can’t yet get this, can’t feel this. Feel it for them. Feel it with them. This is your missionary calling to foreign lands. Bring your curiosity to their language, culture, climate, means of travel and diet. These are the lands you are called to.

You are their salvation, for you are the bright, bright, bright light of god. Seek not to convert them, but only to get to know and love them. You and they both will be converted in the process.

‘How lovely on the mountains are the feet of them who bring good news and announce peace’ (from the book of Isaiah)
This is the announcement of the peace of your reconciliation with god, past tense, but being ‘present-ed’ to these parts of you as a ‘present’ in the present.

You lost in order to find. You forgot in order to remember. You did this as part of god’s infinite and forever expansion of itself into more and more and more. 💚🏄🏻‍♂️🌹🙏🏻

Thank you for being in this with me.

*****

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/