“You are NOT Alone,”: Message From Your Divine Self & Soul Aspects

By Jelelle Awen

These messages of support are coming through right now for those of us who need them! This one is from Your Divine Self, Higher Dimensional Soul Aspects, Galactic Aspects, etc: ❤️🌹

We know it has been hard and IS hard in so many moments. Moments where you want to give up.

Moments where you want to ‘go home’. Moments where you are consumed by pain.

Moments where your heart feels like it is breaking. Moments where your tears fall and sobs shake your body.

Moments where the sky feels so dark and cloudy and overcast with unexpressed pains.

We feel you in this and we see you in this. We are with ALL of our hearts with you in this.

It has been so hard for you at times, this journey of forgetting, this traveling road of separation. This road has many curves and dips and turns.

We see all these with you, we witness how you crawl at times. How you lay low at times. How you feel like giving up at times.

Yet, your heart beats on. Your desire lives on. Your need for love echoes strong inside of you. You do not give up. Your soul carries you forward.

We watch you crawl through glass at times and yet you keep going until the way is clearer. You fight your way ‘back’ to your heart over and over and then, the fight rests and you are just moving forward because it is what you are called to do on your way to remembering.

We know that you often feel like you are alone. How you feel sometimes that no one else understands and no one else gets what is happening to you and how you are changing from who you used to be.

We feel for you and this struggle that you sometimes go through alone. We feel your loneliness and we ache for you in it.

Yet, this we offer……that you are NEVER alone. Your eyes may see no one else. Your heart may feel sad and alone. Your birth family might reject your changes and who you are becoming. Your friends may not come along. Your mate may not come along or get what you are awakening into.

But, you are NEVER alone. As we are always with you and we will NEVER leave you.

We feel how you sometimes think you are wrong or unworthy. How you feel that the struggle and suffering are what you deserve. And we want to offer to this part of you that this is NOT the truth.

You cannot do anything wrong. You cannot BE wrong. We want to offer to this part of you that you ARE worthy of love, you ARE worthy of awakening, you ARE worthy of connection.

We feel how you forget that you ARE love. You forget how you ARE infinite possibilities. You forget that you ARE infinite awareness. This forgetting was part of the process, the experiment, that we all agreed to.

We are here watching over you in the forgetfulness and we feel how you ache to remember again.

And, it is TIME for you to remember again.

If you are resonating with these words, then we invite you to connect with us. Reach inside for us. Find us INSIDE.

You don’t have to look outside of yourself. You don’t have to look to others, unless you feel that you want and need to. You don’t have to be at a special place of attainment or have special gifts. You are special just as you are. We are RIGHT HERE inside of you, ready and so eager to connect with you.

We are the aspects of you that you feel are ‘too much’ or you have forgotten or you have disconnected from. We are the aspects of you that are from and of your soul.

We are the multidimensional aspects of your BEing. We are your angel selves. We are your star BEing selves. We are your spirit guide selves. We are your Divine selves. We are your other lifetime-Metasoul selves. We are your shadow selves.

We are your councils of light selves. We are your star gates inside and your portals inside and your star dust selves inside. We are your crystalline body selves and your crystalline chakras merged into one. We are your merkaba and your inner gridwork connected to Mother Gaia’s new gridwork. We are your soul family waiting for reunion.

Connect with us and we become you. We merge into you more and more and in that merging the feelings of loneliness, the feelings of pain, the feelings of separation, the feelings of unworthiness, the feelings of despair and suffering, the feelings of wanting to die….ALL of it can and will move with this embracement.

And someday, we will become ONE, more and more, and your sense of you will keep changing and changing until you don’t really have a sense of you anymore as you just ARE.

You just ARE the Infinite Love and Possibilities and awareness that you were meant to be in human form.

We love YOU and we wait right here for you, inside you. Come and get us with an open heart and we will become one again.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

More info on 1:1 sessions, group call events, writings/books, online community to lift the veils/remember connection to your Divine selves at soulfullheart.org.

The Fogginess & Unknown Of Now

by Kasha Rokshana

We’ve had many beautiful, sunny, warm, and clear days here in Portugal all winter long. We’ve not been experiencing the amount of rain that the land needs, though. I’ve felt quite nourished by the sun codes but also the relief of the rain codes that offer much permission to stay indoors, warm and cozy, while the storm moves through and the thirsty land starts getting its fill.

The fog here, though, is like nothing else I’ve ever experienced. In this land that feels so Divinely maternal, so motherly, and so Magdalene too, I feel embraced by the fog even though it makes it impossible to see very far ahead. The mystical quality speaks to my Mystic within and feels familiar.

This fog this morning represents so much to me at this time… what is still working towards clearing on a physical level as I continue to heal from a UTI which has been helping me clear old energies, especially in relationship to the masculine through my yoni, but also in relationship to service on this planet at this time. I also feel the fog of not being sure what’s next on this planet or how to serve into the deafening lies, the beckoning out of anger, the sadness of people whose lives are not being considered or cared for. This isn’t only about the current war but also about the ongoing battle ground of the Matrix push and pull on the consciousness of so many still freeing themselves, one choice at a time, that has been intensifying over the last few years especially.

We are shrouded in a dense fog as we move past what hasn’t been true and start to let in what is. It’s like moving through molasses at times as we feel all the stages of grief which come with every deep awakening, and reunite with the Divine as our parts, Metasoul aspects/soul themes, Gatekeepers, etc all begin to feel more ready for that experience.

We don’t have concrete answers but we do have the invitation to continue trusting the Divine and looking inward too. We are invited to become love from the inside out, which doesn’t often result in a fireworks show of love and virtue-signaling. This process is often messy, foggy, painful, but hopeful, and above all, it’s very humble.

I’ve had rounds of anger and sadness both stirred in my heart recently. I’m feeling my inner process and the process of the planet and human collective I’m a part of yet also individualized from. The anger in my soul needs to vent at times and then the sadness comes up too. To me, there’s no hiding behind a veil of pretending that events in the world aren’t real while so many are being impacted. Yet there’s also no hiding behind conclusions made by those who choose to only see and experience one possible reason for things. I feel a nuanced sense about what’s really going on and surrender to the unknown more and more.

And then, I feel so humbled by that and somehow so held too, as I surrender my understandable feelings and invite in my own deep Divine connection to help me hold space for the movements.

The fog is clearing already here now. Maybe that’s another sign of the clearing to come. Not knowing or understanding the way forward or how and when it moves is as sacred as working hard to know or understand as much as we can. Parts of us can truly struggle with letting go of knowing and simply being in the NOW. They can feel restless while sitting in the mess as long as necessary until more understanding comes and the way forward becomes clearer. But the mess and fog is as necessary as the experience of clarity and opening of the hardened, sad, confused heart.

Much love to you and any parts/soul aspects of you that may be struggling while they experience this fog in their own sacred ways.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Sacred Feminine Love Ambassador and Co-Founder/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with Kasha for women or Jelelle for women over 35 and with Raphael or Gabriel for men/women, free 45min intro calls with Kasha or Gabriel, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheart.org

Your I AM 5D Divine Self Essence Guided Meditation: Video 17 – Deepen 2022 (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

In this seventeenth video of our 31 day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teachers/Co-Creators Raphael and Jelelle Awen share about what we mean by becoming your I AM 5D Divine Self. We talk about the 3D, 4D, and 5D selves and the qualities such as gratitude, forgiveness, compassion, curiosity, openness, joy, willingness to feel, etc. that are the essence of the 5D Self.

We share about how the I AM is an invitation for embodiment of the Divine within you and not looking to an ‘outside’ source to experience and bridge to the Divine, as has been offered by the False Light Matrix. This is a process of transmutation from the ‘ground up’ of your 3D self meeting the higher dimensional aspects of 5D and higher in a middle place.

In the guided meditation, your Gatekeeper joins you on an exploration to raise your frequency by climbing up stairs to a higher dimensional space. Once you reach the higher 5D space, your 5D Divine Self is invited to come in, along with any higher dimensional soul aspects or star/soul family members.

Here is high frequency music you can listen to during this meditation by Divine Channel Mei-Lan: https://youtu.be/tC1RGAne_yE

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2022 playlist on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvJPnLzbEKl4OsQBXBYw2XwI

For more information about the Deepen 2022 series including a full listing of the content covered over 31 days and information about two Deepen 2022 group calls on January 16th 30th, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.
We also invite you to join us for free membership on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others engaged in the series: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed
For more information about a free consultation call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Jelelle Awen, Raphael Awen, Gabriel Amara, and Kasha Rokshana, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

We are offering this series for free of charge, yet we would be so grateful if you offered an energy exchange/donation to us for the value you receive in this series. You can donate through paypal: http://paypal.me/jelelleawen or at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

The Christened Divine Ambassador

This painting by Autumn Skye Morrison really illuminates something for me in my own ongoing journey as well as the journeys of so many.

This ‘shelter in the storm’ feeling is held by our deepening connection to our Divine Self and the Divine Itself. We hold the Light and the Love inside of us. It can never be extinguished or taken. Only hidden, forgotten, or given away.

This Divine Self cultivation is not easy with all that is occurring outside of us and inside of us as represented by the waves and the lightning. It is an inner storm that we are ultimately at odds with. In my past, I was the storm rather than relating to the storm.

I have been working for many years on healing the layers that have kept me from fully letting this Divine Self and Divine Love into my BEing. So many layers of unworth, self-doubt, and even fear of my own power.

These layers were energies that were held by parts of me that were stuck in some form of trauma, pain, and judgement from this-life wounding. They were (and to some degree still are) also layers of soul aspects that have been through their own trauma as well as misuse and abuse of power. A guilt-shame spiral that as lived in my Metasoul.

These parts and aspects have needed the time and space needed to unfurl their own healing, forgiveness, and letting in of love from my space-holders, myself, and the Divine. It is a process that takes the time it takes even if it feels we are running out of it.

We have been so deeply entrenched in and entangled with the Matrix to the point we have replaced our own Divinity with it. It has become difficult for these parts and aspects to sense life outside of it even as much as they desperately want to feel that at the same time. It is a ‘spaghetti pretzel’ that has been created and it takes time, courage, and soul choice to engage in its unplugging.

There are thick layers of protection, from our Inner Protector, and veils of forgetting, from our Gatekeeper, that have been placed in the way for very good reasons. They are not band-aids to be ripped off, but rather lovingly melted off by the power of grace and love. As these layers are felt and moved through our spiritual, emotional and physical bodies, they find a safe haven in our heart and expanded consciousness.

Our Christened Ambassador Self becomes more revealed to us and more embodied. It feels and chooses differently than we did in our past consciousness. It creates a boundary that healthfully protects, yet also beacons and receives. I am continuing to feel this in myself more and more with each movement along the spiral of healing and illumination that has come from this deep work.

From my Divine heart and soul’s perspective there is nothing more needed than this inner work to occur layer by layer. Self-loving choice by self-loving choice as well as challenge by challenge. This is what allows us to come from this brave and centered place. Our circumstances are calling this Being forward into the world each and every day.

The power of Love is greater than the love of Power.

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Meeting Your Divine Self – Our Journey From & Back To Source

By  Raphael Awen

The farther we journey from source, the greater is our return to source where we are enabled to experience it for the first time.

This is the homecoming that you and I are now in, even as parts of us feel like the separation is growing.

It’s no longer the separation that’s growing, but rather your awareness of it that is increasing.

This week has been marked for me with another reunion with my Divine Orphan self that was triggered by some arising life circumstances, inviting the conditioned-to-this-life parts of me to feel and see this divine orphan self. I’m finding the beholding of this part again to be so moving and deeply rewarding, that answers the deeper questions at hand about the feelings of separation.

We were all initiated out of divine source into experience itself, and this experience needed to begin with what was not source. All of the fears, anxieties and depression we carry hearken back to our being birthed out of our divine bliss/oneness/source essence.

In this, we all were implanted with a great core wound, a wound that would underlie everything we would come to label as neurosis, things wrong with us. All of our attachments and quarrels within and without stem from this wound. But this pain and burden we carry is not only a wound that hurts, it is also an opening, a portal back, back to our true essence.

Your true essence is not conditioned by the conditionings of fear and lack that were needful for the experience journey. Your essence hasn’t participated here in the hijacked, 3D, matrixed, realm. Your essence remained untouched and protected from all of that.

The godhood you long for, you actually still possess and never lost. You just took on the experience of forgetting and of losing. In experience, you did lose divine connection and it hurts like the hell that it is. In essence though, you never lost a single thing. You are both experience and essence. More correctly, you are essence that took on experience.

You set out not to discover faraway lands, but to leave the land of your origin, so that you could return to it and discover it for the first time. As essence, you couldn’t know or feel or appreciate that essence and bliss. Bliss was left wanting to be known and felt and experienced. It was a risky endeavor, but your soul and the divine’s decided to fund this great discovery journey into reverence, awe and wonder.

As the increasing awareness of this separation rumbles in your life, you feel a fever pitch of everything coming apart at the seams. Everything you’ve worked so hard for to make experiential life bearable or even good comes now at this stage to be found to be not enough. In reaction, you may work harder as I have on gratitude and whatever other host of self-prescriptions to attempt to right your relation-ship with life, only to find they are not at all effective like they were before.

What the hell is happening?

You are beginning the return part of your journey home. You are sailing in the opposite direction. You are returning from where you came and the way you came. The return voyage has been negotiated through many lifetimes and so many experiences and you are ready now, equipped and prepared for the return.

The conditioning of lack and scarcity that you onboarded in your journey into experience is still here, and at times feels strangely and troublingly magnified. But this is all to be expected as you are called to feel and reconcile all the parts of you that are adjusting to returning to source – such a different experience than journeying away from source.

Now, you begin to get a sense of how sacred this forgotten core wound opening is. It is the one thing that would guarantee your return to divine source experientially. Your messed-up-ness is actually your perfection expressing and calling out to you. Each arising pain and ache is an intrinsic part of  the ongoing guidance as you restore to each part of you the pieces of their birthright that they are ready to feel.

Your preferences for pleasure over pain are a key part of your being human and of restoring your humanity with your divinity. You are invited not to bypass them any longer in the name of some kind of medicative spiritual practice. You chose to experience. You chose to want and to need. Those wants and those needs will need to be courageously owned and embraced if this voyage is to be completed successfully and on time (and in time).

As you witness the great fever pitch of insanity unfolding around you, ask yourself if you can think of any greater contribution to such a distress call than that of saving yourself, deeply choosing and embracing your own return journey home.

As you continue your return journey home as one being, you are reminding the oneness that we all are and share of this remembrance journey. Those around you in the forgetting phase will need your example when the time of their remembering comes, just as you needed it from others.

May we each embrace the perfection that we are amidst all that seems and feels so imperfect. May we set up a heart home with a great hearth of the warmth that will allow the fullest remembering.

Raphael Awen

SoulFullHeart.org/sessions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

SoulFullHeart Museletter: Nov 4, 2021

With the Samhain/Halloween/Day Of The Dead passage moving through, there’s a continued illumination of our shadow selves and other pieces of ourselves, our parts, our essences too that have been hidden or tucked away. This week we share a few writings about shadow exploration and what it invites and involves, plus we have a new group meditation call coming up this Sunday, Nov 7th, focused on Shadow Exploration.

You can find out more about this group call by visiting: soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

Featured this week is a writing/transmission from Jelelle. It’s an invitation to your shadow from your Divine Self, to encourage it to come out of hiding and to support it as a sacred part of you and your soul, though it may not have ever been treated that way. Jelelle reads this transmission aloud in the featured video with her and Raphael, where they talk some more about the upcoming Shadow Exploration call and what they will be offering through it from their own explorations and discoveries.

Along with some writings about processing with your own shadow, you will find other digestions of what’s moving in the world, and a sharing from a beloved community member and facilitant, Bey Magdalene! Bey shares about her own SoulFullHeart journey and what she is currently moving through and into as she continues to embrace all parts of her and her soul essence too.

You can subscribe to receive these Museletters in your own email inbox by visiting our website: soulfullheart.org, or scrolling down to the bottom of this issue and clicking ‘subscribe’.

Take in our latest Museltter here.

Much love from all of us!

~ The SoulFullHeart Community

Come Into The Light Of My Heart: Message To Your Shadow Self From Your Divine Self

By Jelelle Awen

To your Shadow Self from your Divine Self:

I seek you out now

I invite you out now

I search for you now….

not to judge you

not to hurt you

not to persecute you….

Yet, only, to invite you out into love.

What you hold and store,

what you have kept hidden,

what has been so long guarded,

what has been wrapped up tight….

can now be opened, revealed and healed.

There are gifts in your secrets

There are truths in your mysteries

There are treasures in your troves.

So long you have been

in the fog of what is purposely forgotten

made invisible behind a thick veil..

and now these barriers can be lifted through the gently powerful forces

of forgiveness, self acceptance, worth and compassion.

Rather than be afraid of you

or wanting to avoid you,

I am in awe of you

I am curious about you

and I can patiently hold space

as the trust between us grows

to allow a loving mutual ground of growth.

Come out into the light of my heart

and you can become once again

the love that you truly ARE.

Love,

Your Divine Self~

Please join us for a group meditation call with a sacred exploration into your shadow on Sunday, November 7th at 5:00pm Portugal time/12:00pm EST/9:00am PST. You can join us live and receive the recording by whatever donation you feel to give (usual is $10 CAD) at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. More info at soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions and https://www.facebook.com/events/171567888429264

Here’s a video with Raphael and I talking more about the group call and I read this message as well:

We also offer powerful and loving space holding during 1:1 sessions for shadow exploration and integration. More info at soulfullheart.org/sessions

Dear You…

Dear you…

What comes up from that deep well of your soul inside of you can feel like so much to hold sometimes.

It can feel like you’re going crazy trying to understand it.

It can feel like your heartbreak is so soul-deep that you’ll never overcome it or move through it; like you’ll never see the shoreline for the waters that surround you, that feel like they are drowning everything inside of you.

So, how is it that you’re still swimming, still breathing, even when it all feels like it’s rising above your head?

There’s a voice, whispering, telling you of your strength, even if you cannot consciously hear it; even if all other voices (many that aren’t actually yours) tell you that you aren’t going to make it (because they never did, did they?).

You’re writing a new story for yourself now, especially as you feel and begin to heal the parts of you that have been formed from so much Matrix trauma, so much birth family legacy and influence, so much 3D conditioning that has been layered over top of your big, big soul and naturally open heart.

You are offered only what you can carry. You are given a mirror only for what you can look at; what you have the power to see, digest, and even heal.

To opt-in for the feeling-way, the way of the heart, as a means to reconcile the many layers of necessary falseness, is humbling but also freeing.

It is an empowered sense of surrender even in your most disempowered-feeling times.

It is a tender way, always, to welcome in Divine Love and Support.

Dear you…

It is time to awaken and remember that the bright shoreline is just as real as the rough waters; that you know this terrain in ways you don’t yet realize; that even in the highest of highs and the lowest of lows, you will always be given what you need… and no more than you can possibly carry.

Love,
Your Divine Self

Take in the recording in Kasha’s voice

*****

Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The WOKE Program

The term ‘woke’ is a word that has interested me from its inception. I remember when it was ‘PC’ (politically correct) in the “old days”. As with all things matrix, it has chosen to hijack awakening and turn it into a divisive, political, high-control buzz word.

I have come to see and feel that WOKE is a program. It is an activation code to redirect one’s sense of critical thinking, intuition, and common sense. It is not the content of the wokeness that I am at issue with, but rather the hive-mind response mechanism that comes in the wake of particular trigger events.

Right now, to be “woke” is to bind yourself to violence, to unconscious rage, to the calling out and exposing of others that are not a part of the program. It lives on both sides of any issue really. It is a collectively-destructive sequencing code.

To be truly awakening, one questions all things and vetts them through their own internal resonance filtration system. Some call it a Bullshit Detector. I just choose to call it heart and soul guidance.

We are all highly intelligent beings with many instruments at our disposal. We have not just mental capacity, but emotive, psychic, and soul-based receptors. If you allow yourself the ability to feel into each of them, you would get a much deeper and more authentic understanding of what is happening in the world and your place within it, rather than succumbing to the web of high-control transmission that is pervasive through all of our daily interactions.

The Masters of the Universe (as we have permitted them to be) are punch drunk on the masses controlling and monitoring themselves. They have put all their chips on that roulette number and they are getting stunning results. They bank on our disempowerment, our guilt, our shame, and our conditioned fear to skew our natural ability to see and feel our true power.

So programs like WOKE are highly efficient at solidifying consciousness to do its bidding for its programmers, just like C-vid, v@x, or ma$k. We lose our true sovereignty in the bull rush to be righteous.

We live in an upside down world. The visionaries of the past warned us. Or maybe we were just being set up for the long game. Either way we are in it. We have to find our way back to our own power and authentic choice. Love has been hijacked in the name of a needle, of a movement, and of our humanity.

The portal to that lives inside of YOU. It is a door to which you hold the keys. Not the politicians, not the doctors, and not the talking heads.

Waking up is, and always has been, an inside job.

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

The Golden Road Home Paved By The Divine Self

The time between the last two full moons has been quite the rumble rouser. Lots of dissonant energy inside and out coming to the surface to be felt, choices to be made, and then given the self-loving space to integrate.

Calling on that golden thread of the Divine Self to hold and guide is the ark that keeps you from getting too bounced around energetically and emotionally. It also offers you the wisdom to rest and self-care when needed physically.It is the Divine Self that keeps you anchored into the greater context and the trust needed to weather difficult terrain and phases of growth and initiation.

We are all in some form of initiation if we are a path of sacred human realisation, way-showing, and seed-sowing. This path can feel like a rollercoaster on a merry-go-round at times, yet with a close and intimate connection to our Divine Self are we given the providence and guidance to make our way through even when parts of us are in doubt or reaction.

As you find some relief and/or clarity beyond this Supermoon Lunar Eclipse, we are being invited to keep in touch with our Divine purpose and vision for ourselves and the planet. This is the the Golden Road to Golden Earth paved by the Divine Self within, the spark and offspring of the Divine Itself.

Here you will find respite and refuelling on the way to your inner Shambala, that then lights the way for others to follow if sovereignly chosen. No convincing necessary when you are Embodied Love.

This is a message from my Divine Self to yours. 🙏🏻❤️

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/