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To Truly Love When We Love Each Other

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by Kalayna Colibri

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If we loved each other more… we would let go without fear or tugging.

If we loved each other more… we would empower instead of enable.

If we loved each other more… our words to one another would never be empty.

If we loved each other more… the eyes of love would forever be the ones we wear and we would see each other for who we are.

If we loved each other more… we would recognize the difference between caretaking and caregiving.

If we loved OURSELVES more… we would, ad infinitum, love each other more…

… and in this love, we would find
even more of ourselves
than we ever thought we would ever see,
feel, and heal
before we realized
that loving more
means
we will never know love in the less.

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Parts Of You Need To Be Challenged By Love, With Love

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by Kalayna Colibri

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There is a part of you that wants to be challenged by love. ‘Challenged’ in the sense of being shown a mirror about who they’ve been and how they’ve operated and how ultimately they have been suffering this whole time. There may be several parts of you that feel this way, actually. They want to look into the mirror held up by love and admit that they are struggling to keep it all together. More and more transparency is happening these days, whether on purpose or quite ‘by accident’, though of course there are no accidents and all is orchestrated either consciously or unconsciously or simply inspite of ourselves (and our parts). There are certain ways in which love hasn’t been able to help you feel the challenge it brings, what it wants to illuminate within you, the strategies it wants you to look at that have kept your authentic self safely tucked away and your truest, most compassionate heart out of reach.

The big soul that you are, of course you’ve had parts of you form in order to protect that bigness and keep it from expressing in the generally unsafe and unsupportive environments you’ve grown up in and lived in and worked in too. These places and faces have supported parts of you, not the authentic you. You HAVE been through a lot, yes. You HAVE felt very challenged at times, yes. And you’ve needed all of these phases in order to grow on different levels. Yet so often these situations have not been held with love and the sort of self-inquiry that wants to reach beyond self-punishment and criticism.

To let in the reality of how parts of you have held life and ‘done’ different aspects of life is to let in that there is so much more love to be felt and flowed with in all areas. So often the biggest, most protective parts of us have been the most ruthless with self and others. And they can be tricky to suss out and separate out from what we’ve always felt to be ‘you’ because they are used to blending in somehow, like chameleons, even in with the rest of the parts that make up your personality as you’ve known and experienced it. For them to actually start letting in love would mean that they are getting ready to give up the ghost and be felt AS separate from you, so they can heal and transmute into higher vibrational energies and rest too. It can feel to these parts like they are being judged when this process starts to happen, as they are being called out for their strategies and ways of being. They may want to run away, but really they are being seen and you are being shown a deep, effective mirror and really the scariest part, is that THIS is what letting in real love feels like… like the ground beneath you is suddenly rumbling and the skies are opening up to let in the illumination of who you’ve been and who you are now wanting most to become.

The magic of the love that awaits you and wants to enter your being through the gateway of your parts and your arising, rebirthing authentic self, is here at your doorstep whenever you feel ready to start letting it in… and once you’ve begun to let it in, the transformation that flows from the inside out will bring you to a place in your life you’ve perhaps only ever dreamed of. This is the reality of deep process… the firewalks and letting go in order to truly let in are all worth it when those mountain peaks of pure love on the inside are reached for the first time.  ❤

Join us this Saturday, Sept 9 @ 11:11 am CST (Mexico City) for a virtual group call introducing the 3D self. This process we offer in SoulFullHeart, helps you feel and differentiate from your 3D, 4D, 5D selves. Getting to know yourself in this way is an amazing and sometimes intense ride, that is well-worth the price of admission… if you’d like to know more about this call, you can visit our Facebook event here: https://www.facebook.com/events/110934986279085/  

You can also check out our website for more information about the process, recordings of past group calls, and/or to sign-up for a free 30min intro with either Raphael Awen or Gabriel Heartman: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Love’s Invitation To Teach What We Embody, Not What We ‘Know’

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by Kalayna Colibri

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So many ideas float around inside of me sometimes, so many directions to take my writing in, many life observations, spiritual and heart-based learnings, sometimes even metaphysical concepts that can be and feel quite complex and slightly (if not VERY) out of reach of my consciousness level. A desire to discuss this or that in a post, see where it lands, and yet then, I feel the mental exercise this can be and the juice for the writing soon peters out for me. In these moments, I feel an invitation to keep feeling… to trust that some things I’m learning now I will unlearn too and that there really is no ‘absolute answer’ for my mind to wrap around, try as it might. Sometimes the only answer is to ‘keep going’… to keep embodying, keep living, keep loving, keep diving in head and heart first and see where the mess leads.

Sometimes when I write something, I feel such a desire for it to ‘go out THERE’, land in hearts, move others, maybe even bring back to me more reflections of the love that I am and that I feel more and more openly. Then sometimes, when I write something, I realize that the main reason for the writing is actually to show something to myself, from myself… to ‘me’, from everything that makes up the mosaic of ‘me’, as I am now, as I may be in a moment yet to come, as I may feel inside of parts of me who need something more from me. To share from anything but a full vessel is to share perhaps only more of the emptiness in some ways, yet it’s all good and does harm to none, as long as it comes from a consciously healing heart that can hold reflections of its own shadow and light, both.

Maybe it’s time to no longer ‘teach what you know’, but ‘teach what you embody’… this is a phase I have been moving more and more into over the years of my process, and as I continue to feel my heart and what it actually wants, I feel less attached to ‘knowing’ at all. There are moments of frustration in this for parts of me as they grapple with this burgeoning reality of being more relaxed in the head and more lit up in the heart and soul. There is a healthy bridge here, and that’s what it feels like I am being now as I share this moment with you and with me too. I feel the challenge of a woman in spirituality who faces the more masculinized approach to metaphysics, trying to ‘figure it all out’ in a way that maybe I’m just not meant to. I’ve never taken to spiritual study in a way that others have, preferring actually to experience instead. This is landing deeper inside of me now, despite protests from parts that worry about self-image and credibility… yet this world of spirituality feels inundated with this data and that data and watch out for this and never do that, think that, be that… this whole realm has become fraught with self-punishment fueled existences that are actually begging for the permission to NOT be this anymore, to NOT feel the pressure to prove or contend. I so feel this in myself and I invite you to feel this too, as well as any reactions you may feel to doing so… I so get and feel these reactions too and I trust deeply that there is another side to them.

And then, in moments like these, I feel an outbreath… as I let in that this is what needed the floor today, trusting that it will land where it needs to and that at the end of the day, all teachings of all kinds go where they’re needed and necessary, reaching the consciousnesses that are on deck to receive them, and that as all of our hearts continue opening, there is only going to be MORE love to teach, live, learn and give from. ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Insatiable Appetite For More Love

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by Kalayna Colibri

 

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The heart of a little girl, turns toward her mother and asks, “How do I get your love?”

The heart of a young woman in a new relationship, turns toward her partner and asks, “How do I keep your love?”

The heart of a young nun in her morning prayers asks, “How do I earn your love?”

The awakening heart turns to Love itself and asks, “How do I remember you, Love?”

These journeys begin with feeling as if Love is elusive, a butterfly to capture and keep, a path to master, something to make, do, take, have, possess…

These journeys continue with receiving ‘answers’ from outside, with only letting in that which can be seen or learned, until one day, the love that you simply ARE reminds you from inside of you that it was always there…

Abuses of all kinds create a struggle inside, bruised heart walls, parts that hate ourselves, push away others, trauma and drama attraction, resistance to Love and all of its tones and frequencies both challenging and comforting. To be in the heat of Love’s reawakening is to feel what’s blocking it, to feel the need for more of it, to realize the areas of life where it’s not flowing, to ask the questing questions that lead us to clarities of this step followed by that one… if you are used to crumbs, crumbs is all you’ll expect, but once you’ve allowed in a taste of the real thing, the real thing is all that can suffice and yet ironically is what stimulates the appetite for MORE.

Be insatiable. Every pore of your body, every cord of your heart song, every tone of your multi-dimensionality wants to want more, wants to BE more. The having and receiving of more comes from making room, from flowing over with love withIN, from letting it flow to others FROM you and WITH you, from feeling the parts of you that won’t let it, don’t want to trust it, have been burned, hurt, wounded by ‘love’ before, that can’t see or feel or let in just yet that within their hurt and pain lies a pearl – an exquisite gift – of experience, wisdom, heart-opening mess and the capacity to pick up the pieces and keep going on and IN as you grow and bloom and shine ever brighter. Hunger for the growth that allows in more love. Let yourself ask those questions you need to ask parts of you and soul aspects of you. And bring it all back to your appetite for more love to let in and crave for.

To live life this way turns everything on its head! It brings in a whole new way of digesting all experiences, all challenges, all processes. It gives you a home frequency to tune into during emotional phases of deeply feeling your wounding. It motivates you to keep going in and through and guides you in the same.

It’s time to remember… and it’s up to you if you decide to now or later, yet it doesn’t matter, because you will never be less love or loved than you already are in this moment. ❤

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In SoulFullHeart, the process is always about leaning back into love in the end, though the journey to do this is complicated and challenging at times. Digesting pain with a heart-open other who can reflect to you what you need to keep feeling in order to heal it, is simply what works. If you’re interested in feeling into having sessions with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

You Are Still Loved

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by Kalayna Colibri

 

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You are still loved….

Even on those days when a feeling of un-importance
overcomes the brightest light
in your heart
and the world seems to keep on turning
despite inner protests to the same…

You are still love.

Even when times of harsh climates within relationships
move across your skies
and a feeling of not being worthy
collapses your ceiling…

You can still love.

Even if that mirror ahead tells a tale
of shadow and darkness
and the you you thought you knew
turns into a serpent of rarest truths unknown…

To move back into the self of this love
that knows this love
that feels how this IS love
is that place where the darkened skies move
into a space of contained wholeness
and held goodness.

The love of this love
is the truest guiding light
and the deepest sinew of a song
calling all back home
to the love
that they always, always ARE.

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Queen Sheets On A Double Bed

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by Kalayna Colibri

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Growth beyond the place we inhabit now

comes in wave forms and reshaping of dreams

intentions

and ways of feeling the self

BEYOND the self…

 

Climbing higher and reaching further

inside

creating a launch pad within an incubator

finding ignition switches in the heart.

 

A growing UP while expanding OUT

increasing all capacities learned and borrowed and agreed to

taking it all to a fireplace hearth of love

for the inner moments

movements

trials

and triggers

that serve the aching, baking

WAKING way

of relearning-ness

and most importantly…

re-LEAN-ing-ness.

 

A ledge of fortified former disguises

now un-guiled, not forgotten

spring forth all that’s needed

to fill the new space

created within…

 

There’s a nest there now

built exquisitely for one

yet with added room for two…

without need for stretching

or pressing

at anything yet immutable.

 

The new new-ness of you

arising and rising and surprising YOU

brings with it that beautiful opulence of well-tasted sunshine

integrated in the being of your being.

 

There’s no place it cannot spread now

that love blanket you’ve found tucked away

for it goes and grows and flows and flowers

in ways unknown

yet completely felt

in service of you

and reverence of ALL…

 

Who is this YOU that shines like the sun

in all its crystalline beauty and bigness?

Who is that Queen, that King

that rises first in your being,

TO your being

before being discovered

in the eyes of others?

WHO does this feel like it could be

even in those darker places of small enclosures

with tightening walls

and a sunless, reactive sky?

 

The you in there

holding court through storms

tumults and tirades…

THAT you calls forward

the way through it all

with a sanity yet to be fully known

yet one the soul recognizes

to be all its own.

 

This… this becomes that oversized bedsheet

meant to hold all corners without strain.

THIS is what it means

to be the container of love,

for yourself and selves…

spreading without tearing

becoming bigger in a soft expanse

of gentle holding and soothing balms.

 

The moment this begins

all power in your inner world

gathers and offers itself

as a reality beyond weapons

chaos

craziness

and a stable holding of a love

fit for all that is inside you

and all that you desire

and all that is to come…

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.