Moving Beyond Fear-Based ‘Tolerance’ Of Dissonance During Awakenings & Growth

by Kasha Rokshana

“Tolerance” is really such a terrible word. I don’t particularly like it. Because it makes parts of us feel like they are obliged to let things go that really they shouldn’t have to. It’s one of the most misinformed tenants of modern society. Tolerance is not compassion or understanding, let alone love, and it actually typically comes from fear, especially the fear of you yourself not being ‘tolerated’ let alone actually felt or understood.

If you find yourself tolerating a dead marriage, a dead relationship to birth family, a dead connection to your livelihood, rather than seeking and humbly taking risks for the sake of aliveness, then you’re likely in a place of having been coached, told, conditioned into feeling like as long as you’re tolerating these dead things, you’re ‘doing something right’ and dare I say, even reaching the carrot of ‘enlightenment’.

No one is entitled to your tolerance, not even the parts of you that ask for it. Just as people on the outside of you basically tell you ‘don’t look over here, you have to accept me as I AM’, parts of you can do that too. They don’t want you to see their manipulative strategies or ways of controlling the people in your life that you don’t resonate with so that they don’t have to experience real and true growth and what actually COULD become possible in ALL of your relationships.

Tolerance becomes intolerance, sometimes quickly, as awakenings happen and these awakenings lead quickly to depression and anxiety when this intolerance is not honoured or felt. You are changing. And if you’re a big soul, you’ve likely felt how quickly you change and shift at times and are oftentimes tiptoeing around your relationships rather than letting your awakenings truly ride with you into a new life phase.

Death and rebirth is always a part of awakening, whether it’s the kind of death and rebirth that is very, very dark for a time or the kind that is actually much easier to move through. I can assure you though, that if parts of you still buy the 3D Matrix or New Age Spirituality Matrix shit of ‘you have to find a way to make this work because that’s what real love does’, then you are in for more difficulty, not less, whether it manifests in physical illness, emotional waves you fall under rather than feel able to come to terms with (note, I didn’t say ‘control’), or a feeling of existential crisis that keeps growing until parts of you can no longer stuff it down.

Awakening, truly expanding into your heart and soul and letting them lead, is not about tolerating anything or anyone. Yet, as this intolerance is felt and honoured, true compassion can be felt as well as authentic passion. You change, and even if the people around you can’t, you are empowered to navigate your way through that and find new people to be around, even if you need a phase of being ‘alone’ (which is never alone, truly, for the Divine is ALWAYS there and sometimes it takes the lonely feelings to actually drop into Its arms at last).

If you truly have a penchant for your deepest growth, you’ll find a way to feel what you’ve been allowing that actually doesn’t feel good to you. Our gut honesty is what brings us the most growth and the most Divine alignment, even in all its messiness and absolute dearth of glamour. There is NO such thing as an ‘ugly cry’, especially when what you’re feeling is the grief of what perhaps once worked, what once was beautiful and resonant, and you’re feeling into letting it go for the sake of all involved…

I love you. Keep feeling. Keep moving beyond tolerance and you WILL find your truth, whether you end up needing to move into deep life change right away or not. Your awakenings will deepen and your experience of your soul will too, even in all of the waves of exquisite sadness, necessary rage, and openings into bittersweet bliss.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Need For Discernment & Connection In Spiritual Healing: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Apr 29, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

With all of the big shifts and changes that happen through your individual process of healing and Ascension, there is an energy within you that likely has a good reason to be defensive and highly discerning (sometimes to the point of deep mistrust). This energy can be felt as your loyal Inner Protector, who has a growing radar for “BS” in all areas of life, but especially in spirituality where it tends to feel the most burned, deceived or confused. Featured in this week’s Museletter is an article by SoulFullHeart Facilitator/Teacher, Gabriel Solais, that digests this reality of needing to cultivate healthy discernment within in order to navigate the waters of spirituality. He also offers that all spiritual leaders do need to go into their own shadows and feel/heal what’s there in order to serve with more purity of heart:

“The deep desire to serve must be precluded by the deep desire to see and heal the shadow. It is not shadow hunting as much as it is being aware or being brought mirrors of any energy that may feel out of alignment with the sanctity of genuine, compassionate service and leadership. In other words, light work is shadow work.”

We have two upcoming virtual events with Jelelle Awen!

The focus of the group on May 11, 2019 at 10:00am PDT is to assist you in the ongoing process of unplugging from the 3D and Lower 4D matrix control systems that have been in place as part of the polarized experimentation that we all signed up for as souls. Jelelle will guide you in a meditative space in which you can connect to your 3D self consciousness to tune into how the unplugging process is progressing, and she provides guidance and support to go to the next level in that process.

The focus of the group on May 22, 2019 at 10:00am PDT is to assist you in the ongoing activation of galactic activation codes. Jelelle will guide you in a meditative space in which you can connect to your Inner Protector/Gatekeeper, energy field, and download whatever codes are ‘waiting’ for you there. She provides guidance and support to go to the next level in that process.

Both events are an $11 USD/$22 CAD minimum donation to attend or to receive the recording and both are held online over Zoom. For more information, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

There is a new video/guided meditation offering from Gabriel and Kalayna Solais this week, on the process of individuating from birth family, a crucible for deep healing and self-discovery that is often quite difficult to walk out but important for your personal healing and Ascension process and whatever theirs may be as well.

There are many new writings this week from Raphael and Jelelle Awen, and Gabriel and Kalayna Solais. They include energy updates, an update on NEW SoulFullHeart offerings (including the two events with Jelelle coming up this month), a celebration of the recent Beltane/May Day Festival Day, and digestions of personal process movements.

There is NEW offering from Jelelle that is launching this week! An Ascension Energy Healing session with SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator and long-time energy healer Jelelle Awen one-on-one over Zoom offers a self-empowering experience of your energy system upgrading and activating into the next level of your Ascension. Coming from the truly unique SoulFullHeart Way Of Life perspective, Jelelle provides a bridge to your Gatekeeper, an aspect of your Metasoul that guards over your energy system, overall soul awakening this life and your veil of amnesia….along with access to other lifetimes/timelines.

Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD minimum donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Live Stream With Kalayna & Raianna TOMORROW, Aug 2nd, at 4pm CDT!

by Kalayna Colibri

Only one more week until Lion’s Gate and the energies are helping us open up and out, guiding us to new ways to BE and inviting us to honour the sacredness of our humanity as we move into another year of openings, awakenings and deep movements. It truly feels to me like Lion’s Gate IS the ‘new year’ celebration for the spiritually conscious, as we bathe in the waters of renewing light and incoming waves of love.

Raianna and I felt guided to hold this live stream as an opportunity to feel these energies, to feel the next places in our consciousness expansion and inner healing that they are inviting us into, no matter what age, label, sun sign, etc we may feel most resonant with or that parts of us may be attached to. It feels like this live stream is about feeling our realness, the sacredness of our emotions no matter how messy, feeling how life and Divine love continue to invite us to inhabit vulnerable leadership, feeling how we are being guided to BE with ourselves, others and love itself as we continue to move through our personal activations and integrations on a soul, heart, and star seed level too.

This, we feel, is what the new wave of what has been known as ‘New Age’ spirituality is about… being real, bringing our truths yet with care, being where and who we are in this moment with an openness to feel that this is not all we are or all we’re meant to be and have. From this place of going into our depths, we get to awaken to more of who we are as individual souls and we can connect to our galactic aspects too that are waiting to reunite with us.

We will also lead a guided meditation tomorrow, to hold space with you as we all go inward for a moment and feel our next pieces we’re being invited into in service of love to ourselves and others and our next layers of feeling what the ‘new wave of the new age’ means to us all on a personal level. You may even meet a galatic Metasoul Aspect of yours who has been waiting for contact with you, if it’s time for that in this phase of your personal journey.

We look forward to digesting all of this with you tomorrow and welcome your questions, comments, and personal sharings as well!

Tune into our live stream at 4pm CDT tomorrow (Aug 2nd) on our Youtube channel: SoulFullHeart Experience or on my Facebook page: Kalayna Colibri.

Much love,

Kalayna Colibri & Raianna Shai

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart Facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.

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