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Moving Beyond Fear-Based ‘Tolerance’ Of Dissonance During Awakenings & Growth

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by Kasha Rokshana

“Tolerance” is really such a terrible word. I don’t particularly like it. Because it makes parts of us feel like they are obliged to let things go that really they shouldn’t have to. It’s one of the most misinformed tenants of modern society. Tolerance is not compassion or understanding, let alone love, and it actually typically comes from fear, especially the fear of you yourself not being ‘tolerated’ let alone actually felt or understood.

If you find yourself tolerating a dead marriage, a dead relationship to birth family, a dead connection to your livelihood, rather than seeking and humbly taking risks for the sake of aliveness, then you’re likely in a place of having been coached, told, conditioned into feeling like as long as you’re tolerating these dead things, you’re ‘doing something right’ and dare I say, even reaching the carrot of ‘enlightenment’.

No one is entitled to your tolerance, not even the parts of you that ask for it. Just as people on the outside of you basically tell you ‘don’t look over here, you have to accept me as I AM’, parts of you can do that too. They don’t want you to see their manipulative strategies or ways of controlling the people in your life that you don’t resonate with so that they don’t have to experience real and true growth and what actually COULD become possible in ALL of your relationships.

Tolerance becomes intolerance, sometimes quickly, as awakenings happen and these awakenings lead quickly to depression and anxiety when this intolerance is not honoured or felt. You are changing. And if you’re a big soul, you’ve likely felt how quickly you change and shift at times and are oftentimes tiptoeing around your relationships rather than letting your awakenings truly ride with you into a new life phase.

Death and rebirth is always a part of awakening, whether it’s the kind of death and rebirth that is very, very dark for a time or the kind that is actually much easier to move through. I can assure you though, that if parts of you still buy the 3D Matrix or New Age Spirituality Matrix shit of ‘you have to find a way to make this work because that’s what real love does’, then you are in for more difficulty, not less, whether it manifests in physical illness, emotional waves you fall under rather than feel able to come to terms with (note, I didn’t say ‘control’), or a feeling of existential crisis that keeps growing until parts of you can no longer stuff it down.

Awakening, truly expanding into your heart and soul and letting them lead, is not about tolerating anything or anyone. Yet, as this intolerance is felt and honoured, true compassion can be felt as well as authentic passion. You change, and even if the people around you can’t, you are empowered to navigate your way through that and find new people to be around, even if you need a phase of being ‘alone’ (which is never alone, truly, for the Divine is ALWAYS there and sometimes it takes the lonely feelings to actually drop into Its arms at last).

If you truly have a penchant for your deepest growth, you’ll find a way to feel what you’ve been allowing that actually doesn’t feel good to you. Our gut honesty is what brings us the most growth and the most Divine alignment, even in all its messiness and absolute dearth of glamour. There is NO such thing as an ‘ugly cry’, especially when what you’re feeling is the grief of what perhaps once worked, what once was beautiful and resonant, and you’re feeling into letting it go for the sake of all involved…

I love you. Keep feeling. Keep moving beyond tolerance and you WILL find your truth, whether you end up needing to move into deep life change right away or not. Your awakenings will deepen and your experience of your soul will too, even in all of the waves of exquisite sadness, necessary rage, and openings into bittersweet bliss.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Ascension Update: 3D Mainstream Consciousness Moves Into Lower 4D As 5D Upgrades Come In

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By Jelelle Awen

Ascension Update: Intense clearing energies as 3D ‘mainstream’ collapses, 4D Karmic healing intensifies & 5D upgrades come in. This is such a truly unique time to be alive here now with ALL that is happening on physical/emotional/spiritual levels for humanity both in terms of what is releasing, collapsing and what is upgrading.

You may be feeling these intense energies on the physical body level, prompting a need for fasting or eating very lightly. It can be of great assistance to put all of your energy toward this clearing/upgrading process rather than toward digestion of physical food. Eating just fruit (with high light/water content) can also be helpful. Being very sleepy, need for rest and long naps, passing out and going ‘off line’ are also happening now along with various aches and pains occurring too. Chronic illness and deep toxicity may be coming up now too…feeling ‘worse before better’ as the cells clear it out and there is no longer need for it. Our immune systems are also being upgraded to ‘survive’ whatever is coming next.

This is an Arcturian Healing Chamber meditation with my Arcturian aspect Binkh that may be helpful during there energies: https://youtu.be/vkbPpXNgPnI

What we are experiencing now since the Covid narrative began to accelerate a year ago feels to me like it is the 3D mainstream collapse that so many of us have been feeling will happen, yet in a different form than perhaps we imagined it would. I’ve been seeing ‘collapse’ scenarios for over ten years now. I was attached to the Lower 4D picture/program of industrial collapse for awhile… we even relocated to Mexico for a time to create a sustainable sanctuary to live on an off-grid ranch in community. We were motivated then by the sense that it would all fall down and wasn’t sustainable, sensing that it was being fuelled by energies that were more about control and dominance than they were about balance and love in tune with Mother Gaia.

Then, during my time on the ranch, I awakened to the false AI-generated Matrix reality that has created our 3D ‘mainstream’ culture for so long. I felt that it would collapse, yet I didn’t initially see the bigger and darker agenda going on around it at first that was actually controlling THROUGH the technologies and dependency on energy grids. Understanding more now about the motivations of the Cabal and how it connects to the overall Ascension process for humanity, I could ‘place’ it more into that picture with trust in the Divine plan around it all….and include support/technologies being released eventually from Star Beings as part of the solution to what seemed like insurmountable problems otherwise.

3D culture has created a numbed and drugged sense of false safety, where self preservation and material attainment are the number one goals. Social media, mainstream media, education, and easy streaming entertainment 24/7 lulls us into compliance, easily programmable by all that we watch and take in. It was hard to imagine how it would collapse without ‘pulling the plug’ of the electrical and technology grids that fuelled it.

Yet, Covid has been a mercy in that it has woken us up out of this slumber. It has interrupted the routines of eat/sleep/work repeat; threatened financial security (as the money systems need to collapse too); and put physical ‘safety’ and the fear of body death as the most pressing motivation for ALL personal choice and governmental decisions so we could reconcile and heal our fear of it. Covid and the ways that it has been used and leveraged by the Cabal has brought us into the Lower 4D, collapsing the 3D world that was an addictive dream one in comparison. The ‘true’ dark Lower 4D agenda of depopulation, AI-control, transhumanism and genetic/DNA modification is being revealed now…aided hugely by poisonous mass v@ccinnations/gene therapies being pushed on us all.

Being in the Lower 4D reality now AS our collective consciousness for the last year has dropped many awakening souls into deeper states of depression/suicidal temptation, ego death, dissonance with their families/friends, chronic illness/body toxicity, soul karmic bleed throughs, difficulties/separations in relationships, and overall despair over how it will all resolve. This has been so challenging to navigate.

Yet also there is a sense of liberation going on here as the Dark timeline gets ‘so bad and so obvious’ it finally motivates many more to change. Being tuned into the Divine Mother, I always felt it would be an intense death/rebirth process that would be necessary for us to wake up and choose New Earth realities. It would take A LOT of collapse and deconstruction for us to choose something that is unknown to us, unsupported by the mainstream, and draws so much resistance/fear projection from others. It felt important to stay soberly grounded in this, even as I experienced a lot of joy and bliss on an ongoing basis as I embraced this process.

Yet, also, in this willingness to die and let go of something old in order to experience something new….we are met with so much love and support from the Divine that it is always ultimately worth it. We are increasingly coming to trust that loss is part of the process of being reborn. We are able to grief and mourn as needed, celebrating the new as it arises.

This is then what the death of 3D culture, our rebirth out of the Lower 4D transitional grounds and into 5D New Earth realities from WITHIN us looks and feels like. The densities of 3D toxic living and eating need to clear out and be released; the karmic soul patterns and traumas need to be consciously connected with and integrated; the 5D and higher energies that most support our light bodies, our Divine Self to embody and our heart open/expand need to be brought in and allow for upgrading.

It is challenging right now not to get stuck in the sticky web of the Lower 4D as it moves into mainstream collective experience. This can lead to over focus on the ‘outside’ and what is happening or not happening. This can lead to engaging in battles over the old rather than focus on creating the new. This can lead to ongoing suffering over being rejected, misunderstood, and vilified by others.

Most souls are not yet able in this moment to be conscious of how this shift into the Lower 4D is impacting them; the timelines that are opened out and now bleeding through: the karmic patterns that their soul has engaged with life after life. They have gone to others, such as mediums/psychics/spiritual teachers/channelers for this ‘information’ about themselves with mixed results and sometimes abuses occurring as they hand over their sovereignty to others with more ‘awareness’ than them.

We are meant now to go within for this information about ourselves. We can lift our own veils. We can channel our own Divine guidance. We can connect to any lifetime and timeline that is relevant for us to know and feel. We can hold the space for our own healing. These awarenesses and this access is becoming more available to us through the activations that are happening on DNA/cellular/body/heart/chakra levels that move us into deeper embodiment of our sacred humanity.

Awareness of how our ‘base reality’ as a collective is shifting can help with navigating this. Finding resonance within yourself and with your soul family provides a support bubble (of the truly best kind) to buffer you as needed from the intensities going on while you access this information for yourself. Discovering ‘outside’ help that is in integrity and empowers your sovereignty can assist in reconnecting to your higher knowledge. Seek out temporary bridges as needed and models in human and etheric form as you are guided by your higher heart to.

Surrender to the overall process that is happening here and Divine love can flood into your being…offering the sense that love is holding it ALL and always has.

Love from Avalon (upgrading now from Lower 4D to New Earth),
Jelelle Awen

We provide in our 1:1 sessions a bridging to and opening out of these awarenesses and consciousness states to allow a navigation of soul frequencies AS they come through, healing of traumatic patterns from this life and other lives, and integrate/reunion of previously very shattered/fragmented energies into wholeness. This space is held in collaboration with you, supporting your Divine Self to lead the way here on all levels. More info at soulfullheart.org/sessions.

Also, Raphael and I will discuss this navigating Covid transition much more in our group meditation call on Sunday, April 18th. We will also provide a guided meditation to assist you in navigating out of 3D into Lower 4D landscapes from a 5D perspective/consciousness. More info about joining us by donation at soulfullheart.org/events

Honouring Your Own Unique And Very Personal Journey Of Ascension

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By Kalayna Solais

Feeling behind. Feeling as if we are risking being ‘left behind’ if we aren’t able to tune into what everyone else that shares awareness of Ascension is tuning into and feeling personally. Fearing that we aren’t going to be enough to ‘ascend’ or to be ‘chosen’ TO ascend, perhaps.

These are feelings that I think so many of us can resonate with on some level. These fears feel existential and like they live in our Metasoul aspects in other timelines who HAVE been ‘left behind’ by others and on a deeper level still, there’s more to feel about ‘abandonment’ by the Divine too… maybe also in this life parts of you have trauma from the ‘competition’ conditioning, from growing up in a culture where you are always striving to be THE best, not YOUR best or even just where you are at and having that be ok. There are so many layers to this and for me, I’m still discovering many of them personally and how deep they go.

I’m a part of a highly catalytic process and soul family community that we always say is on a ‘moving conveyor’. The more work you do within you, the more your outer world changes and the more shifts you feel invited to take of your own volition too. The more parts of you that you feel in their traumas and begin to have a relationship with, the more you realize the changes you need to make in your life in ALL areas of your life.

This means that at any time, one of us could decide unilaterally that there is something we need to address, move on from or move toward, and that could be a big thing or a small thing. There are always next and next and next steps too as the inner awakening and openings deepen. There are new discoveries and new strata of consciousness that begin to open up and out. New relationships are drawn. New alchemy on all levels. All of these are sacred journey markers that are very individual and a result of the individual journey. It look and feel like pure ‘magic’ and it really is, but it’s also worked very hard for.

When you have conditioning in your soul’s timelines and the heart of your parts from this lifetime that there is something always to envy in others for the sake of feeling badly or ‘not good enough’ inside of yourself, this isn’t that easy to digest all the time. Jealousy can be kicked up. A feeling that you must be lacking something or have something ‘wrong with you’ if you aren’t experiencing what they are experiencing. This is one of the major reasons why I needed the break I did…. so that this comparison dance and suffering loop could be deeply felt into by me, so that I could arise for myself with more respect and self-love. This could only happen if I got big enough for my most intense and self-punishing parts/aspects to lean into me. This was the crux of my process at times in relationship to the lives of others around me too… feeling parts of me envying their skills (that they’ve worked hard for), their fitness level, their relationships, etc. This has gone on and on for me for as long as I can remember… and only now is this starting to shift into new ground.

Why is it SO hard to just BE with our own journey? Why do we look to others for templating but then resent them for it at times?

These questions feel complicated and like the answers lie within every individual. I think it’s so hard to remember that we are ultimately here to experience Ascension in a PERSONAL way, though we are returning to oneness too. I’m discovering, especially as I feel a relationship beginning with a Reptilian aspect of me, just how deep this ‘programming’ of avoiding the individuation process of our healing and Ascension actually goes and why it can feel a bit scary.

I had a yoga teacher once, many years ago now, who offered something during class that made us all laugh but it was actually quite poignant. She was showing us the many stages of one particular posture. When she got to the most advanced one, she said,

“See? There’s NOTHING there! There’s no need to rush yourself into this ‘advanced’ place when you have so much to discover along the way”.

That really impacted me at that time and it remains with me today because I think I was supposed to take that in deeply for my own ongoing experience of spirituality and of life itself… it really IS about the journey and not the destination. Ascension is a journey. ‘5D’ is not really a destination so much as an invitation into a new frequency in which to anchor our consciousness as much and as often as we can. Every individual’s soul expression and attainments are their own, often worked for over multiple lifetime experiences and deep inner work too. There’s nothing left to ‘envy’ if we can see it this way… but there could be a lot to be inspired by!

Plus, our own journeys, when we have the space within to honour them, are proof positive of our own inner work and also the growth and healing phases that we personally need that are a reflection of our bigness in order to be with them. Maybe there is no ‘ultimate destination’ but in fact, it all keeps deepening and expanding from here. This is such a humble way to look at and hold ourselves and this whole Ascension process on a collective level too.

I wanted to share this bit about my own journey and discoveries as an expression of my own uniqueness that I’m learning to embrace more and more. I hope that it helps you feel more love and respect for your own too… for the journey you’re on as YOU.

Much love! ❤

Kalayna

Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Rebooting From ‘Spiritual Burnout’ To Find Your Own Truth

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by Kalayna Colibri

Feeling done, burnt out, saturated with information, ‘truths’, knowledge, read-outs from others… does this feel familiar? Does part of you feel sometimes like they want to ‘chuck Ascension out the window’ along with your own healing path, or maybe at least take a very conscious break from it?

Maybe you’ve holed up in front of Netflix recently with a bucket of gummy bears or a liter of ice cream, watching something that parts of your more ‘spiritual’ connections (in your life or virtual life) would judge as being ‘unsacred’, ‘vapid’, ‘non-essential to awakening’.

That feeling of, ‘I don’t want to do this anymore’ is just as sacred, meaningful and alchemical as picking up another book, following another blog, taking in another video on Ascension, expanding your consciousness, healing your wounds. Sometimes you have to pull out of what’s been surrounding and saturating you in order to regroup and recharge, and also find what ‘truths’ out there most resonate with your own. Maybe you’re actually not supposed to resonate with what’s out there, at least not right now, because you most need to resonate with what’s IN HERE… in your own heart and soul.

You are a human being with a wealth of experience in this life and beyond. You have so much knocking at your door and there is a clamor going on in the spiritual healing world, with this path pushing another path out the window, internet ‘trolls’ looking to cut someone down who is expressing their own perspective through bitterness they have inside from their own burnout perhaps, and just a ton of information to take in and dessiminate for yourself.

It feels like it’s quite often the Inner Protector or Gatekeeper part/aspect of you that gets the most saturated or even fed-up with the efforts and seeking of other parts of you, the pursuit of your soul purpose, healing, etc. They feel ‘done’ with answers that perhaps don’t deeply resonate or that try and bypass this part of you that is there trying to protect other parts of you and quite often doesn’t deeply trust the space holder, teacher, therapist, or even skilled psychic you’ve been leaning into. Negotiating with this part of you along the way, helps you ground in what you’re being taught or told into your heart and soul in a way that is real for you and not simply just given to you by another.

Ultimately, the spiritual awakening/Ascension path is about rediscovering your own expression of your Divinity, your Divine and sacred truth of your own soul’s path. Seeking for what I have been calling “outside-in” answers like readings or energy sessions without “inside-out” work also going on, like finding your own truth, the truths of your parts, the negotiation with your Inner Protector/Gatekeeper and what they’re actually ready for you to access or not, will cause this burn out experience because the work you’re receiving needs to live INSIDE of you, otherwise you’re not likely to feel truly empowered to make the choices and take the steps you need to take in order to access your next pieces of alignment and feeling truly lit UP by your emerging strength of connection with the Divine within AND outside of you.

Your burn out is an opportunity for a reboot inside. To sacredly take a break if necessary from consciously taking in any offerings or healing paths at all and to simply BE. Feeling is the deepest path to your renewed sense of aliveness, even and especially if the feeling is that parts of you just want to “veg the ‘eff out” for a change!

No matter what… you can trust that your soul is integrating all of the work it has led you to do and inhabit and that it will lead you, in your own sacred/Divine timing, to your next steps for your own healing and your sense of your individual truth, Divinity, and essence of love that you inescapably ARE. ❤

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Still some slots still open for next week if you’d like some support/guidance on your next steps out of your burnout, connecting with your Inner Protector and/or other parts of you, connecting with Metasoul Aspects, or anything that arises if you’d like to connect for a Bridging Session with myself (for women under 35), Jelelle Awen (for women over 35), Raphael Awen, or Gabriel Heartman for men and women: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.