The Game Of Life Is Rigged In Your Favour

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Dissonance is simply resonance’s way of remembering where we came from, and guiding us back to essence.

Stress, anxiety, fear, or any other ‘negative’ state cannot ‘negate’ us out of the overwhelming ocean of resonance in which we live and move and have our being.

This bliss that we are only awaits our conscious acceptance and increasing awareness of it. There is no other journey, but this inward one. You ARE God millions and billions of times over, and over, and over.

Now this, I am well aware, is not most people’s felt reality, as it admittedly has not been mine for many years. It may even stir feelings of anger for some to read such a far-fetched sounding declaration. For others, who sense these words are true, about the deep underlying resonance of all things, they are able to accept the words mentally, but are left longing to feel this as a deeper lived in reality, and in turn create a state of ever deepening bliss, for themselves and their world around them.

Both of these reactions, of either accepting these words, or rejecting them, are testament to the truth of the underlying perfection of all things. War, racism, hatred, and any other ill you can name are also evidence of our deep seated longing, as well as the means, to find our way back to the bliss of our origin, our essence, and to where we are returning. Even our exploration of ‘evil’ is ultimately ever and only a coming to terms with an infinite love that has already won.

Our truest state of grounded fulfillment in this journey is simply reverence, and the stuff that flows from that, like gratitude, kindness (acknowledging that all are ‘kin’), joy, creativity, love. And all of these are more reflections and resonances of where we came from, what we actually are, and what we are also becoming.

The deck is so stacked in our favour that the game of life rides a razor’s edge of losing its legitimacy as a game. Hell, if we’ve already won the game, why set out to play? There’s only one valid and profoundly true answer to that question and it’s this: the only valid reason to play is simply for the fun of it, and for the community of it. Nothing else…(near as I can tell). The universe wants to play, and it wants to play with you.

Now, there are only a few things that the universe set out as essential ‘rules’ to this game. Bear in mind though that the only point to the rules is the preserving the whole point of the fun and the community.

Free will is the one big rule. Nothing can or will be pushed on you. The universe doesn’t offer any unsolicited advice, but yet longs for your inquiry to share what it has and what it knows. In fact, it’s all yours to begin with, only being held in trust until you are ready to claim your heir-ship.

The sovereignty of the individual is another rule (maybe just another way of restating the first rule) of the game. The universe set up this game with the deepest respect that you and I would be subjected to pain and even the loss of our awareness of our true original identity. The only way it could justify doing such a horrid thing was to make us not only reflections of itself, but also literally make-us-itself, at the outset of the journey. We are the divine out feeling anxiety, hatred, fear when we do. It was only in this way that the divine could subject us to such horrid experience of perceived loss. It was only in this way that we would never be earning our way to back to God-hood, but instead only learning and returning our way to our full birthright experience of our God-hood essence.

You are infinite wonder. You are the sacred experience of divinity out journeying and journaling its way through its own capacity and its own polarity for bliss and reverence.

Possibly this is what makes God, God, this incredible capacity for reverence. All that it knows, it knows in and through you. You need no other, for all other is you. Your mind struggles to comprehend, but this in no way excludes you from the knowing. This knowing lives in you as fully as it ever will already, now, present tense. The only thing, and this is the point of the whole game, the whole journey we are on, is your and my awakening to this that already is, and all of that, simply for the fun and the community it.

So what are we left with now? In light of all this that is (which is way more than you and I can begin to digest it seems), how then shall we enter the next moment? What will take us from our present consciousness of perceived lack, exclusion, separation, and return us to the fact of this bliss?

Those questions are the quest! Just asking them and feeling them creates longing. This longing is the propulsion that is necessary to authorize movement and rememberance. This heart open quest is what opens you to all of the guidance, strength, and healing you need.

All that is ever in front of you, regardless of the content, regardless of the time needed, can never be outside of your journey back to source, awakening to the source you already are.

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

SoulFullHeart Museletter: Week of January 9th

Please go here to read our SoulFullHeart museletter for the week of January 9th…it has a NEW article by me about six ways that you might be experiencing the current energy shifts and links to our articles from the past week, information about SoulFullHeart sessions with a facilitator and energy sessions with me, and the group call that we are doing on Saturday.

If you’d like to receive these museletters weekly in your email and be on our mailing list, please go to our website to join or email us at soulfullhearts@gmail.com. Thank you to SoulFullHeart Facilitator Leena Colibri for your work on this, it’s beautiful! <

 

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Embracing And Healing Our Fears To Experience More 5D Consciousness

By Jelelle Awen

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“How do we dissolve and transcend fear contracts that we have created while in 3D reality so we can be clean for 4D and 5D experience?” This question was asked of me by someone to respond to from my perspective. This is probably a good time to offer that while I often have a strong sense of inner clarity, intuition, and guidance that comes from many years of inner work and soul integration, I also hold an open question about what I offer and do not claim to possess the Absolute Truth about reality. Only you can feel if what I am offering resonates in your heart and soul as a truth that you also are remembering and, therefore, we will find our resonance there.

The first place I feel to go in response to this question is the ideas that parts of us can have about fear. Our Divine or Higher self doesn’t have fear as it is a resistance to love and our Divine self is remembering that we ARE Infinite Love. Yet, in the process of remembering this and because we are so influenced by the cultural and societal conditioning and programming around us then parts of us are formed and created that hold fear or a very visceral resistance to love.

The way to heal anything is with love; it is the only frequency that can and does heal and transform energies. Resistance to love is healed with more love. Rather than resisting our fears, we connect with, get to know, and love the parts of us that hold the fears. These are parts of us that have been conditioned to a 3D reality where fear is expressed in politics, in religion, in society, in education, in many ways and forms love is resisted and not embraced. Our fear is actually trying to show us where our resistance is. When I feel fear I celebrate it (at this point, for me, after many years of this awakening process through parts work I don’t feel much conscious fear anymore) because it is showing me another place inside of me that needs more love. When I feel fear, I become very curious about where it is coming from, how it lives inside of me, and I go in deeply to be with it.

When I feel into the idea of ‘fear contracts’, it doesn’t have an alive frequency for me. It feels like a binding idea, an idea of old paradigm binds with legalistic roots. It’s not a word that I have used over the years even as I have felt deeply the fear that exists inside of bonds with others, which is what I call the ‘binds’ that exist. There can be many layers to these binds between souls, many cords of codependence, many chapters living out even in other dimensions and other lifetimes. Those that are most intimate to us are usually the ones for which we have the most grounds of transaction of both binds and bonds. These souls are also the most powerful mirror for us to see ourselves and both our trailing and leading edges.

If both people are engaged in a consciousness awakening and heart and soul healing path, they can be with the fear that comes up to intimacy (again, a fear of love), feel the aspects of themselves that are in fear of love, and come back to the mutual ground to process it. Going in as an individual, going in ‘vertically’ rather than focusing on the horizontal ground is so important here as it is the only place that we actually have the power to heal or transform fear to love.

I also don’t use the word ‘transcend’ as it can imply not feeling or not being in the body, not embodying our emotions and fears. Again, it is the embracement of the fears and shadow that heals them. Embracing without going into suffering loops is a delicate balance and one that I have needed space holders at times to guide me in, to be a mirror outside of myself so I can see myself. This is what we offer in the SoulFullHeart process through holding session space for others. The person is always holding their own process of healing fears, yet the SoulFullHeart facilitator is there to guide and support, not to fix, but rather to support. I believe that this support from a heart-open other person is critical to this process of healing fears and awakening to our Divine self. Also, to be in a community of others who are on the same path is hugely nourishing and transformative as well. I do not feel that we were meant to do this alone. It can be the fear of love and the fusion to the 3d sense of separation that keeps us in a solitary place around our healing, suffering, and not asking for support.

It can be very tempting to parts of us to just escape our ‘pain body’ (where our subconscious woundings live in heart and soul frequencies) rather than ‘go in’ to them. Parts of us are literally afraid that we will die or go crazy if we go there. These parts of us will use spiritual frequencies pulled from the 4D and 5D consciousness levels to bypass feeling these things. However, I feel that we cannot really avoid our own healing. It comes back around in a parallel lifetime to be faced and held. It is why we are here after all.

With this ‘inner embracement’ of fears it is not that they dissolve so much as the parts of us that hold them eventually integrate into our Divine self until we experience more and more Wholeness of Being and more sense that we ARE Infinite Love. We experience more and more the frequencies of fifth dimensional consciousness (and beyond) as we let go into what we really ARE beyond the fear.

Jelelle Awen is co-creator, teacher, and writer of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information. 

Experiencing Shifts From The Third To Fourth Dimensions

By Jelelle Awen, co-creator, teacher, and writer at the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life

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I feel like I am in two worlds at the same time…..walking around in third dimension, buying groceries, having tea in starbucks, connecting and talking with Raphael……then in fourth and even fifth dimensional consciousness experiencing frequencies of intense light, love, connection, multidimensional communion with guides, and a sense of innate self goodness. The physical settings are the same but the experience of that reality is much different.

I am still digesting an intense journeying experience that I had this morning to the earths orbit in which I met with a beloved non-human soul sister guide with deep tears of reunion and completion…such beautiful soul integration and realization of my galactic roots, letting go another degree of the pain body that I have spent so much focus and attention and love healing over the years. I will be integrating this movement and continual teaching that is being offered into my life by non-human and ethereal beings and offering of SoulFullHeart in a way that is current and transparent.

So much is shifting in the world right now as we move out of the third dimensional realities and energies of five sense-based reality processing, dualistic thinking, separation and loneliness, linear time, and fusion with the body-mind and the pain body (which holds our emotional and spiritual woundings). We are transitioning into higher consciousness frequencies – those of us that choose this anyway – of fluid time and space, less dualistic thinking, Oneness and connection, access to our deepest soul gifts, remembrance of our bigness and inhabitation of our multidimensional Divine self.

Even as this is a challenging phase to be here, it is also an incredibly exciting time to be here as so much possibility for new can arise out of the ashes of the collapse of the old, outdated, shadow-based and patriarchal world views, thought and behavior patterns, and ways of living. For those of us called to make this higher dimensional shift of consciousness, we are being pressed to let go of the old and let in the new….at an increasingly rapid pace.

Holding this with self love and care, feeling the reactions of all parts of us (the trailing edges of fear, insecurity, doubt, depression, rage, flatness) is important as we go into the unknown reaches of inhabiting the consciousness of our Divine Self.

If you would like emotional support and healing with a heart open facilitator (Raphael Awen, Sequoia Heartman, and Leena Colibri) and a loving community and to experience accelerated spiritual awakenings to help you during this time of transition, please visit us at soulfullheartwayoflife.com for a free initial session either in person here in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico or offer a virtual messenger.

What We Really Most Deeply Fear Is Our Bigness

By Raphael Awen

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Video of Raphael Awen reading the following words with music and images

Something will hold our fear.

Fear is a form of reverence. That which we fear, we revere. We fear and revere things that we perceive as bigger than us. We fear god, circumstances, illness, etc. as things or beings that are bigger than us and that we are thus subject to. I might want this, but god might want something different for me that I don’t want.

All of this is a product of making ourselves small.

What we really fear at a deep core level are not the things that we think we fear. What we really fear is our own bigness. Our bigness isn’t just big, it is infinitely big. Anything that we can’t define, refine or confine, we fear, and understandably so.

So we set out to manage ourselves. We manage life instead of letting in life. We see ourselves as subject to life, rather than the subjects of life. We choose a perception of a scarcity-based relationship to life because of the utter fear of falling prey to unlimited abundance.

It is actually way easier for parts of us to shut down our desire for more and just live with the dampened desire and dampened disappointment than it is to open ourselves full throttle to the level of desire and abundance that our being actually is. Here again is the deep core fear we run from.

How might we change this?

Because we live as conditioned beings, and we have conditioned ourselves to a lesser-reality which has become our ultimate-reality, then it follows that letting in new and truer reality will happen for us as we entertain and let in that new reality. We begin to become reconditioned to a new reality. Nothing happens without our consent and choice in our personal kingdoms and queendoms because we are the sovereign of our own domains.

There is still a deep place for surrender to the divine in all of this, it’s just that you can’t take yourself out of the divine equation. By that, I mean, you can’t externalize God and surrender to God. This is a form of keeping intact the small-you reality. You can’t separate yourself from divinity, try as you may.

Many will chafe at this idea of seeing themselves as god. How sacrilegious they exclaim. What we define as blasphemy is in service of the gods of our own creation. The gods we create are created out of our deepest fears that we haven’t yet felt.

Time and time again, life faces us with our infinite bigness, awaiting our surrender, our exploration, our reverence for all that is, and all that is in us, and though us, and to us….You are ‘divinity out divining’…. as you are now; as you are desiring to be; and as you will more and more come to terms with every day.

Feel your fears. They are one of the single truest things about you. So are your desires. Feel them too. Own it all. Let in the tears of having muffled both your real and deepest fears as well as your desires.

Let love collide with the reality you’ve conditioned yourself to.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.

Offering Love During An Etheric Visit To Standing Rock

By Jelelle Awen

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Here, as I etherically visit Standing Rock, North Dakota during meditation, I see and feel a village, a town, that is coming together, forming together through passion, purpose, and awakening. The foundations of this village are about protecting that which brings life, the waters that have long been polluted, long been corrupted, long been taken for granted. The foundations of this village are about a sense of spontaneous community where the heart of sacred humanity beats like the drums to unify, serve, and witness.

The smoke from camp fires is thick, crowding the air. The noise is the thickest of all but it is not destructive noise. It is drumming from many different groups clustered together in undulating circles of bodies, soft limbs beating on hard surfaces, trying to beat away the hardness of fear. It is chanting, the range of feminine to masculine, joining together in old words that have little meaning in modern language. It is talking, communicating to put together meals to feed many people food donated from all over the world.

I offer an energetic touch of love to those that I pass over, desiring to provide even for a moment a boost for them to keep going, a sense of support and union. It feels like some of this goes in and some are starving for it, their heart chakras strained from so much output. The rivers that are the reason for it all feel like lazy witnesses, neutral in comparison to the charged energy around them.

The most intense energies are in an area that they call the ‘frontlines’, war lingo, and here I feel more of the darker entities that are feeding off the intensity of the stand, the fear of love pulsing against love itself……I touch the hearts of these entities too and the police that stand with blank faces and plastic shields that cover over a cascade of conflicting emotions inside of them. Their inner conflict is a desire to just go or to join in with the protectors, but the duty, the money, the uniform…it binds parts of them to stay, to use water itself as a weapon against those there to protect it.

Floating above the camp are many etherial beings polarized to love, offering showers of pure energy to those below….to raise the vibration, to soothe the parts of people that are in trauma and in rage. Joining them are others like me, traveling in the way that suits them without body. These others are offering love too in the form of energy and we acknowledge each other with a gentle nod. Native ancestral spirits hover here too, connected to the lineage and history of this land and this stand.

Time is not linear here, but layered, this standoff is already in the grids and has already happened….it is an unhealed wound in the collective unconscious, it is an unhealed wound in the third dimension known as the ‘United States’. There is only love to offer here and only love to heal the fear and the wounds caused by it.

Jelelle Awen is co-creator, facilitator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information. 

Be IN the world, not OF the world…..yet care FOR the world

By Jelelle Awen with Yeshua

Be in the world, not of the world…..yet care for the world. ~

You are in the world, bring your heart with you, feel your surroundings and those who call you into connection. You are in a human body, bring your health to it, feel your embodiment as sacred and the desires that flow from it. You are in a culture, bring your celebration of it, feel how it impacts you and forms you.

You are not of the world, it is not a reflection of that which you are really made and ARE. Participate in the world even while remembering that you are not just it…not your name, your occupation, your body, your income, your home, your history, your culture. Remain with some separation from it so that you can retain the essence of what you ARE as Infinite Love.

You are care for the world, bring your compassion with you, feel the tears of the world and those cries that call you to respond. Serve love as the greatest gift for yourself, others, and with the Divine God in all Its glorious forms, including YOU. Remember to respond to fear with love, not more fear, and you offer a new possibility to each moment. ~

Jelelle Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about awakening and healing sessions with her. 

All that we experience as life is given in Love held by Love for Love

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By Jelelle Awen

This image feels similar to the space I was guided to today…higher frequencies, beyond five senses, where all is made of white filaments with rainbow auras. I was just overcome by the brightness and beauty of it all, especially human beings in their essence as Infinite Love, too bright to even look in the eyes.

Hours (no time really) I floated here, dimensional traveling, Angels and guides surrounding me…..and yet also feeling the core of my heart beating strong even as my body became lighter and lighter. Feels like it was an energetic boost to allow more overflow to others, more love, stillness, and less reactivity. What a gift!

My body reacted initially with some pain last night as a portal of some sort opened, a vortex, and yet it is moving now…birth pains held with Infinite Love and seemed to serve a purpose. Shook off some negative entities that had attached along the way, like being dipped in bright love and all the dark falling off.

I would not be able to let this in without also going to the tears (and there were those too), saying goodbye and letting go to what I thought was my purpose and my place to serve it, allowing the part of me that was so invested to feel sad….tears even with a smile as I realized that it is all given in Love held by Love for Love….

Much Love is moving from my heart to those who read these words, may you feel the energy of it and let it in whatever way you feel to…

You are much bigger and brighter than you can even imagine!

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Jelelle Awen is co-creator, facilitator, and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information. 

 

Life Transitions, Trust, And Surrender

by Jelelle Awen

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Raphael and I were just digesting how much has changed for us since coming into Puerto Vallarta exactly five months ago. We had about $40 on us with just enough money coming in to live very cheaply for he and I plusLeena Colibri and Sequoia Heartman. Prior to that, we had been living for 19 months in a remote setting, off-grid, limited to no internet connection and our nest egg that we brought with us from Canada to buy land, etc. had been spent six month’s earlier.

Thanks to the efforts of Leena and Sequoia teaching english online, we were able to move to Puerto Vallarta so that all of us could be together in community. For a month, we lived in a space with three rooms, with Leena and Sequoia sharing a bedroom with two twin beds. We got our three bedroom apartment after the first month and at least could all have our own bedrooms. We felt grateful for everything that we had even though it was very little. Living on our ranch, eating what came from our gardens and very simple food, not going to restaurants or movies or shopping…it had taught us to appreciate the very simple things in life and that which matters the most: love and connection.

Eventually, people began to become drawn to SoulFullHeart and having sessions with us, all through connecting here on Facebook. We had only been on FB for about three months prior to that, so it was all very new to us. We didn’t and don’t have a ‘marketing or sales strategy’, we are just ourselves as much as possible – offering a way of life and process that we live as our daily reality within community. I was shocked and stunned in a very good way to begin serving women in session space after letting all of it go in terms of being a ‘teacher’ or ‘facilitator’ and surrendering it to the Divine while I was at the ranch.

Just this last month, through a freelance opportunity for a tech startup, we are earning quite good money (especially for Mexico) plus with facilitation donations and Leena and Sequoia’s pay as teachers. We are now able to afford eating in restaurants, to buy new clothing (after two years of wearing the same things all the time), and for Leena and Sequoia to rent their own separate studio apartments that happen to be in the same building as us! This living arrangement more fits our vision of sharing community space for meals and group circles when desired and for everyone to have their own individual living spaces otherwise.

The Divine has given us so much since coming to the city….abundance in the form of people and, yes, in the form of money. Our desires that had been suppressed somewhat on the ranch are now coming forward for higher quality things that will last over time, not fall apart, and are truly worth the money. We are also now dreaming of buying land in San Sebastian where our SoulFullHeart community may come about, in addition to or in place of the ranch.

So much trust and surrender has been needed over the last few years….willingness to live with very little, ‘give up’ so much of what we thought mattered, only to be shown over and over that when we are not expectant or entitled so much love can come to us and in so many forms! Now, that we are going to visit the ranch again for a few days starting tomorrow, we can check in with who we are now, who we were then, and maybe get some sense of who we will become….although that, of course, is in Divine hands!

* This photo is of the cabana that we built out of cob (clay, sand, water, and straw) and some of our organic gardens on our plot of land called “Tranquila” at the ranch.

Jelelle Awen is co-creator, facilitator, and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.

Throw-Away Love

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By Leena Colibri

 

In a world made for the throw-away
life
love
plastic anything
romance
friendship
god

 

…self

 

How can real love show its colours
of brilliant black, blue, red and gold?
The bruises and dents on the quest’s trail
and the blood bled from the freshly opened heart
can barely shine through the muddle
the muttering
the utter grossness of our need for something more to pitch.

 

The pliable heart with plastic implants placed by dense fingers with no dexterity just reaction
nearly made impossible to open.
Nearly patented to be perfectly beyond reach
and beyond the touch of real, sacred human love.

 

There’s a way to see it
there’s a way to be with it
there’s a way to look and love beyond it
there’s a way to penetrate the din within that all-too-sacred noise and static
created by a static life
with static means
running out of ground too quickly
…or not quickly enough.

 

Love, breathe the hot air of passion down my neck.
Let it run out onto my swollen chest
barely holding my bare, aching heart.
Whisper that it’s over those times of war within
and that you are here to stay
so long as I claim you, want you, breathe you, need you.

 

So long as I can stand to keep letting you in.

 

So long as you can stand my insatiability.

 

May the world cry rumble below
into the caverns of the depths of soul and heart
showing the cracks on the walls of the ache and the pain and the need for more, more, more…

 

love
synthesis not synthetic
surreal but real

 

To heal, to feel…to ask for the real, live, moving, passionate, messy, sacred, ultimate piece
driving onward, inward, upward and out
bringing us to that longed-for place of release
realizing we could have seen it, held it, had it all along
if we had just asked.

 

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Leena Colibri is an apprentice facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.