Trust: The Merkaba to Infinite Love

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There is one word that I feel has more influence on us in our healing and emergence as sacred humans than almost any other and that is TRUST.  It is the bridge that connects us to the Motherland of Love.  In our pure essence, the word just doesn’t exist (not that any word does but you know what I mean).  We just ARE.  We flow, move, and accept all that IS because we are in harmony with Love.  But if we were pure essence, I wouldn’t be here writing and you wouldn’t be here reading.  We would be ONE.  And we ARE.. essentially.  But we chose to live and experience in this differentiated/ fractured dimension to experience ourselves as Love outside Itself to experience Itself. Learning to trust Itself back to Oneness.  

This separation was/is a scary thing for us.  And for Love.  If we experience this existential terror then so does Love.  It too is diving off a cliff to see what happens.  But the one thing Love has is Trust that it will reclaim Itself no matter how hairy things may get.  I feel for us in our human expression, this is a very epic lesson.  If Love has trust, and we ARE Love then what makes it so damned hard to trust sometimes?  We clearly have a part of us that still hasn’t drank the heart-shaped KoolAid cup yet.  Welcome to the relationship with our 3D self.  

We so badly want to let go of all that holds us back from experiencing Joy and Purpose.  And we have on so many levels.  I don’t believe there is a single soul on this planet that doesn’t have an issue with trust.  It may be less of an issue for some, but there is going to be something that kicks up this very human relationship to fear.  It is why we are here.  To continue this healing toward Pure Trust or Ultimate Surrender.  The chasm between where we are NOW and this desired place is different for all of us.  It is through experience that we learn to trust.  We have to act upon something. Make a choice and see what happens.  The results that occur are not always going to be the ones we are hoping for.  Just because they don’t happen doesn’t mean that we didn’t receive something we were meant or dialed up to learn.  If the result is traumatic then our level of trust will determine our ability to let in the deeper meaning, while we allow for all our reactions to be had in response to said event.  

There are also other life experiences and soul woundings that have great impact on our relationship to trust.  By asking our guides for assistance we can be shown many different soulscapes that provide much heart data to what is THIS life wounding and what is part of our larger MetaSoul picture.  What is in our fractal that contributes to this trust wounding?  There are stories to be unveiled and felt.

Can we hold the Meta-space of Trust while we navigate our journey into our new sacred humanity?  It becomes our life-preserver.  Our invisible stepping stone or set of forgotten wings.  It provides a container, a Merkaba, for our entrance into and through unknown portals of experience.  Without it, we stay stuck and stagnant on some level, even if we have access on others.  Ultimately we want ALL of us to come with us into this new frequency of existence.  If there are soul aspects that still have issues of trust, we can have a relationship with it to bring more of our essence of Love into the heartscape.  
The Separation is a uniquely 3D traumatic experience, I feel.  In 4D consciousness we have the tools to hold space for that within us but we need support along the way.  So many times have I taken leaps of faith and taken the fear with me.  I was also gifted with not just my own guidance from angels and other aetheric beings,  but also that of soul family.  Our 3D self needs it.  There are those that have been across many trust chasms and have found their way on the other side.  Leaning into that experience is essential.  I feel this is an ongoing journey for us.  Continuing to embody our own bigness and gifts,  while continuing to lean further into the forgotten territories of Galactic Love Consciousness to bring more and more Joy and Bliss to our collective creation.  Trust is the way across and into this new territory.  Finding the distrust and feeling its very real reasons for not trusting provides us the ground upon which we may take one step at a time.

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

In Joy, With Life Poem

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By Jelelle Awen

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Raphael and Jelelle At The Beach In Puerto Vallarta, Mexico

In JOY, with you, my beloved, arising like an easy flow, so many moments between us the substance of this….

In JOY, with you, Mother Gaia, exchanging bursts of appreciation, feeling your gifts of reflecting my most rooted origins….

In JOY, with you, Angelic BEings, soaring the heights of the heavens, safe in your Divine embrace….

In JOY, with you, Star BEings, remembering the unity of ALL, merging your stardust consciousness with mine….

In JOY, with you, ALL sacred humans, awakening to the essence of LOVE, becoming ONE once again…

Jelelle Awen is co-creator, writer, and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc

SoulFullHeart Museletter Week Of February 27: Sun Light Activations, Connection With Gaia, Relationships Shifts

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The weekly ‘pool’ of writing (12 articles or poems!), audio, and video offerings from me, Raphael Awen, Gabriel Heartman, and Leena Colibri called the ‘SoulFullHeart museletter’ is available for the week of February 27. There is a wonderful theme of celebrating the sun and Mother Gaia that emerged through the week with the solar eclipse and increasing light codes being transmitted through taking in direct sunlight. I also wrote a couple of pieces about shiftings in relationships with friends, family, and mates from ‘sticky’ binds to soul bonds, plus navigating soul desires that arise with the parts that may be in doubt or fear (with a wonderful article from Leena about navigating doubts in 4D).

Overall, it feels like a time of transitions – both personally and globally – with support coming from the influx of photonic light and love waves….as offered by Archangel Metatron in his message re-offered in the museletter. Please msg Leena Colibri if you would like to receive these weekly in your email….

To read, go here:

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Light Wave Influxes Offer Love And Support, Not Suffering: Message From Archangel Metatron

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By Archangel Metatron With Jelelle Awen

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We do not want you to suffer. Many messages from teachers and light workers coming forward about how ‘hard’ and ‘intense’ it is right now as the influx of photonic light (PURE love) waves from the Universe come in, wash in, and rinse out and push up. Sometimes, unknowingly and innocently in a way, these teachers are supporting a suffering and self punishing response in the hearts and souls who take in their messages. Many heart cries go out in response to this interpretation of what is happening in the cosmos and then how it may impact you on an emotional, spiritual, and physical level.

These waves of PURE love are NOT meant to make things difficult for you but rather to offer a support, a boost, and a means for you to continue on in your remembering journey. These waves are meant to encourage you that life as you have known in on your Gaia is changing to the miraculous, the magical, the joyful. These waves of PURE love are to encourage you that it IS moving into frequencies of love, it IS moving into sacred humanity, and unknown expressions of divinity in higher frequency human-from-Gaia form called sacred human or 5D human.

The PURE love available to you in ALL moments is only challenging if you make it challenging. It is only painful if you make it painful. It CAN push up oil to be felt, to be with, to make space for, and then move out. Yet, what if, it doesn’t have to be painful and challenging? These waves of PURE love are not there to test you. They are not there to see if you can endure the intensity and all that is pushed up. They are a GIFT from Divine Source to offer you support to ascend with your mother home Gaia.

There can be parts of you that suffer over suffering, this is an easy loop to get into as it has been the default energy of 3D for thousands of years and is in the collective unconsciousness. Suffering over your suffering,…your soul, your higher self can feel when this is happening inside. Your soul can feel when ‘holding space for your emotions and what is pushed up’ has moved into the area of suffering over your suffering. Your guides can feel this too if you ask for their help. And if you cannot access guides then this, too, is suffering over suffering because we are a VERY available and accessible resource to ALL humans right NOW.

We want to offer the END Of suffering altogether and so the end of suffering over your suffering. We have had to give much invitation to FEEL though as so much has been suppressed in your emotional bodies as it was hard to feel it in the denser 3D reality space with any kind of separation. This invitation to FEEL is not an invitation to suffer over your suffering, but rather to make space, hold space, to ALLOW the feelings so that they may then move. And the invitation is that this space would be held by love for love and with love at a rate and pace that you can bear.

The consciousness that awakens in 4D is receiving infusions of higher self guidance, wisdoms, soul retrieved lessons and gifts, connection to the Metasource source of your soul, Divine Source. With these infusions, more ‘metaspace’ is created inside in order to allow for the process of de-fusion, de-conditioning, de-attaching from the 3D persona, personality, and aspects of ego that are connected to development of the ‘strategic self’. Metaspace is heart space, soul space, objective space, Infinite Love space that ‘holds the space’ for relationship TO and WITH the feelings and reactions and woundings and pains and sufferings. This metaspace-infused self grows more and more as the inner world shifts, more soul embodiment comes in, and external choices are made in alignment with your soul.

We offer you this gift of light infusions that provide Meta-Space if you let them into your ‘higher heart’, your Christ heart, your cosmic heart. Connecting with your ascension chakras can help with this. Taking in the sun’s rays can help hugely with this too. Connecting with Mother Gaia can help with this too as it roots you as you connect with your cosmic selves, creating a bridge or column of light that I call the ‘sacred human or 5D blueprint’. More on that coming soon.

The Universe, Divine Source, does not want you to suffer or especially to suffer over your suffering. If you are experiencing very intense emotional and physical reactions in response to the light waves and activations, please feel if part of you is in resistance to feeling them as a loving invitation. Feel if part of you is in a suffering over suffering pattern. Feel if you need a space holder to help you navigate the difference, such as the beloved souls in SoulFullHeart. Feel what you need to support you to ride with these waves rather than get tumbled by them, or ‘whooshed’ as Jelelle calls it.

The Universe is MADE of LOVE as are YOU. These gifts given to you in these accelerated light codes are gifts….they ask for some adjusting but, again, all of the capacity you have to accept and thrive in response to them is inside of you as, also, they ARE you. I love YOU. I am here to HELP you remember the the aspect of you that is me. And so in this remembrance, become One yet not the same….. again united and connected in love. And, so it is!

 Archangel Metatron is available to serve love with and to those souls who are dedicated and focused on their personal ascension and assisting the ascension with Gaia. Jelelle Awen is co-creator, writer, and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

 

Message From Mother Gaia About Mutual Reverence And The Beauty Of Nature That Lives Within

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With Jelelle Awen
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This beauty is you. This beauty you see in this image is as beautiful as you are. I show you my beauty so that you may see your own. Always, I have been here to provide this for you. Always, I have wanted you to see that you ARE beautiful too.
You come to me, you take me in, you pause to let me in. You swim in my waves. You sit on my sand. You lay on my beaches. In this place, you find reverence. You feel reverence toward me. You pay much of your ‘money’ to live near this expression of me.
Yet, I want to tell you, as I am a mother to you as my embrace holds you and supports you. I want to tell you that the reverence you feel toward me is but a re-minder of the reverence that YOU are. And this I reflect back to you. I reflect reverence FOR you in my waves, in my trees, in my mountains, in my breezes, in my landscapes. I offer this beauty of me so that you might finally SEE and FEEL your own.
You who are reading this, taking in these words, you feel the exchange of beauty, the exchange of reverence between us. You pause, you reflect, you walk mindfully, you do not destroy. You are the keeper souls of my energy, my stewards. You are the hope and possibility that burns bright and shines and beacons to others.
It matters, your reverence for me and it matters even more your reverence for yourself. It matters, it makes a difference, it propels changes forward. It propels our ascension together forward as reverence is the stuff of grace, appreciation, acknowledgement of worth.
I offer you many gifts of rejuvenation, nourishment, connection to ALL, connection to cosmos, connection to No-Thing-Ness, connection to my animal children. I offer these with reverence for you and all I ask as you accept these gifts is to feel yours in response. I offer you these gifts so that you might see that you have access to all of these frequencies already, that they live inside of you, that they ARE you, that I AM YOU too.
I am raising myself UP because it is time for me to do and be so. It is my phase of UPness. I invite you to come along, those of you in reverence and appreciation and goodness. I invite you to come along with me into this exploration of your sacred humanity and the expression of the best of what your hearts and souls can express in those human bodies. I invite you to come along on the next phase of this journey together to experience the expression of New Earth Or Golden Earth Or Golden Gaia. I invite you to come along with the deepest feeling of appreciation and love, from the depths of my inner groundings to the heights of my orbit crowded with star being friends.
I invite you to come with reverence for the beauty expressed by me and that lives inside of you already, just waiting for the water of more love!
Much much love to you my beloveds,
Mother Gaia
Video of crashing waves on the coast here in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico…..Mother Gaia is speaking….what do you hear of her message?
https://youtu.be/h_Vvt-CR0KY

The Conscious Now

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This moment is alive.  It breathes in the unmistakable fragrance of our desires.  Moves them into the cauldron of alchemy to be witnessed, felt, stored, and baked.  It exhales not answers but experience, lessons to be learned, love to be let in rarely in the forms our limited consciousness can fully grasp and make sense of.  So we must trust.  We must trust that if All Things are God, God is Us, and God is Love, what we receive is meant for our deepest healing and growth.  It is what we signed up for, while having forgotten that chose it before forgetting.  The moments of bliss, of peace, of terror, and of trauma.   

This  moment sends the blood of our pain and suffering to the depths of the Cosmic Heart.  To be held in our Highest Being with the tender hands of our Divine Unity.  In the arms of our Angel brethren, whose dream it is to feel our humanity merged with their divinity.  To offer the love needed to move one more block between us and them sending this love-filled blood back to our long forgotten light body limbs.   

This moment reflects the magic of our interwoven destinies in number, form, and synchronicity.  It sends messages via pattern, music, and intuition.  It asks us to open our soul eyes to truly see all that is being offered and provided.  It is the cinematic screen of our essence projected.  

This moment is time stood still.  A portal into the Galactic One.  Our Star Being selves that await our transmission of goodwill and partnership.  Of cooperation and co-creative emergence.  The .expansion of what we all thought was possible and probable.  The truth lies lies beyond the limited one we chose to agree  to.  

This moment is a toggle of yes and no.  Of action and inaction.  Of creation and destruction.  A glorious conscious NOW that is all tied together with the magic and science of our fullest power of choice and opportunity.  Each one a snapshot of what was, is, and always was.  Take It into your heart, let it be seen and felt in your soul and have it come back to you with all you have remembered It to BE.  Love in Action. 

Gabriel Heartman is a facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Honouring Our Necessary Doubts In 4D Consciousness

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by Leena Colibri

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Though our souls feel drawn to the light and to the most exquisite colours and textures of love imaginable, there can still be a bubbling up of necessary doubts. Necessary in the sense that this is an aspect of us that needs our center to feel, hold and guide it and also, there are plenty of ways in which love actually pushes up these doubts within us, asking us to discern for ourselves what it feels like it is in our lives. Feeling ourselves in this way can really open up a whole other experience of love (and the light of illumination that comes with it) and land it deeper within us. In terms of ascension, we can talk about this as being in 4D consciousness, where there are many questions on our way to our own inner truth and certainty.

Those times of wanting proof, desiring something tangible to land in, looking for a concrete playout of love in our lives and in the world, is something we seem wired up for and it also feels like an invitation to eventually come to a place within ourselves where love can express deeper and more fully, first within us and then outside of us. Sometimes the most incredible and grounded hearts and souls who become spiritual teachers are the ones who have undergone awakenings on many different levels – and I can almost guarantee you that they weren’t afraid to have their doubts along the way.

What is a quest but a journey filled with questions and many different corners to turn and paths to draw and take? Some souls are so big and ancient, that they need those very intense periods of doubt and density in order to find their way through it and into the love polarization again, but this tme, in a much bigger, brighter way than ever before. They are just another expression of love finding its way back to itself through hardships, abuses, and other numerous and often very challenging life circumstances. None of us who are living into embodying ascension are souls who have “had it easy”. Letting this in, we can feel so much more compassion and also reverence for all souls everywhere, no matter what they have chosen. No matter the ways in which timelines shift, we are infinite and we are playing something out for our own growth and the growth of the collective consciousness we are intrinsically connected to.

Doubting is just as sacred as believing. Sometimes these doubts bring us back into the conditioning that many of us were raised with (by culture and birth family), that the more negative outcomes are the ones more real than the positive outcomes. This is also sacred, though that may feel a bit thorny and hard to swallow. For those souls who find it easier to trust that the worst case scenario is always the most likely, that is something that often needs to be walked out and is just as sincere an expression of their power as those souls who choose optimism. There is a thought pattern of “what goes up, must come down” that feels so central to 3D belief systems and is not only about the law of gravity, but also the feeling that being in a higher in vibration and more IN love will ultimately have a big come down and even a crash. There is a way that yes, this has to be true for us at times on our growth paths, as going upward also means coming back down and going inward when necessary, that is, until we don’t need this anymore, which I like to hold that someday will be true for all of us and that for some of us, this is already what’s true! If we can claim that those “crashes”, often signifying some wounding that we need to be with, is just as important as the high of healing, then we offer ourselves and those wounded parts of our hearts and souls a big pillow to land it.

So at the end of the day, as real as “days” are ;), there is nothing to really keep us down and in doubt but ourselves and what we’ve signed up to experience and learn from. In my experience, it feels like as we heal, we can feel more and more a growing center that wants to stay in the more natural “highs” of healing and love flow. If we exclude our doubts from our inner worlds, we could be denying ourselves some healthy discernment and also some more doorways into a deepening experience of what it truly means to be Infinite Love embodied. It seems also, that these doubts can then surface as self-sabotage and more negative play outs if they aren’t felt and negotiated with in the moment. I also feel the Archangels offering me in the moment, that not feeling even these feelings of ours, can actually block them from accessing and truly knowing us, more so than the feelings themselves might! THAT feels like real Divine love to me… a willingness to help us be with what we are feeling and arise with it, rather than bury and rise above it.

You are goodness and love embodied, carving out its way through this world through moment-by-moment choices. Your chosen expression of it is yours alone and every single thing you are feeling through is just as important for your personal growth and ascension as any books you may read or teachers you may lean into. ❤

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Leena Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Group Calls, Conscious Community Video

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Raphael and I, Jelelle Awen, were at a beautiful beach today and were inspired to film this short video talking about our SoulFullHeart group calls, community connection, etc. We mention the call that we have coming up this Saturday, where I will lead a guided meditation with some aspect of calling in the sun’s energy and warmth and light codes in with current teachings from Raphael and I too plus contributions from SoulFullHeart facilitators Gabriel Heartman and Leena Colibri. PLUS, community connection with resonant souls and individual check-ins if you desire to! I recommend listening to this video on headphones as the waves are loud!

Here is the link to the event on Saturday if you’d like to join us over zoom :https://www.facebook.com/events/376229456083017/ or http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls

Negotiating The Soul’s Desires For Change

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By Jelelle Awen

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Your soul stirs, drawn forward by deep impulses. Like a magnet, your soul is drawn to the light, drawn to love, drawn to growth, drawn to inner transformation that arises then in external manifestation. Your soul wants to move out of suffering and into LOVE, even as the ‘suffering’ is held as a necessary ground of growth until it is time to let it go.

This soul draw is PURE and connected to your higher self, the fractal of you from Divine Source, your Divine expression, your sacred human. This draw is resonance, that vibration of “yes!” that vibrates in true tones. This draw is compelling, it invites you to return to it over and over again.

The push and pull, the openings and closings…these are reactions in your 3D self, within parts of you that have learned to modulate desire and draw. These aspects hover over the aperture of your heart and soul; opening and closing, adjusting based on their perception of safety or comfort or fear of getting hurt again. This adjusting of the aperture can be largely unconscious to you and happens in seconds in reaction to many triggers.

Your soul negotiates, feeling compassion for the push and pull aspects of you. Your soul understands and feels with compassion the fear of change, the fear of being hurt again, the fear of rejection, the fear of re-union because there might be more loss that comes, the fear of the unknown. Self love and compassion in response to the fear is what heals the fear, this your soul knows and remembers.

With loving negotiation, the parts of you that are in fear can move into love and trust. This I have witnessed in myself and others over and over…….when fear is held with connection to it, with desire to understand, with TRUE and PURE compassion for self and others then it can let go INTO love and so becomes love.

Yesterday, during a spaceholding session with a beautiful soul, we could feel together how all of the life changes she had made very quickly had moved her toward her soul and were inspired by her soul’s awakening. Yet, there was a part of her that was still ‘shifting through the rumble’ of her old life. Ah, it was so tender to see and feel this part of her who was now ‘homeless’ and in shock in response to so much abrupt change. This part was definitely oriented toward 3D life, and yet, had so many soul gifts to offer her too! I invited her to connect with and feel compassion toward this part of her, to ‘collect’ it from the rumble site and give this part love so that it could lean into trust with her (the higher self frequency that comes through when we ‘separate’ from the fusion). We also felt that any future changes and shifts in her life could be negotiated with this part of her so that less shock would occur and more acceptance.

Life, the Divine, the Universe, Gaia, your soul family, your soul mates, your own soul desires and awakenings will invite you into making changes and going into the unknown. At first, it may be primarily motivated by getting relief from suffering and yet, also it will be motivated more and more by experiencing more LOVE. To bring the push-pull aspects of yourself WITH you is to consciously connect with these energies inside of yourself. Not to make wrong resistance and fear, yet to feel it and love it is what moves it and heals it.

In SoulFullHeart, we offer space holding sessions that create beautiful room and space for this exploration. From roots to wings, integrating the ‘this life’ emotional reactions and feelings and woundings with the soul frequencies, karmic playouts, soul gifts of other lifetimes, galactic selves, higher self expression, etc. is the space that we template and create with you and that you experience on your own more and more. It’s a beautiful thing!

The soul will stir, desire, be drawn….it is ‘peeking through’ in some form of expression in ALL of us. The degree it can vibrate and express AS you is related to how you navigate its desires and longings and draws and the resistances that come up.

Jelelle Awen is an ascending teacher into 5D consciousness, Divine guide-scribe, and co-creator/teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

Nurturing Gaia During Ascension

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By Jelelle Awen

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In the moment great question asked of me here in the comments on facebook that I responded to and thought I would share the exchange: Question: “What about the part of Gaia that is being poisoned, paved and cut? How do we nurture that part?”

My response: It feels to me like Gaia will actually ascend that damage by continuing to move into the healing that will come when a lot of that activity stops as She moves into more 4D and beyond. The activity stops as the souls awaken, as disclosure brings gifts from star beings that greatly change our transportation needs and energy needs AND repair the damage too, as those souls who DON’T change either leave the body or experience a timeline running where things stay the same or get worse. I can only share what is in my heart around this yet many are offering the same picture.

Oh and how we nurture Gaia is the same as how we nurture ourselves…making the inner connections, healing the pains and wounds (especially in the 3D pain body), choose to serve love in every moment, take risks that serve our soul, connect with soul family, etc….all these serve Her too as our consciousness shifts and She benefits too with that shift.

And I like to connect with Lady Gaia as a consciousness directly and she is very warm and very forgiving of it ALL….very much like Mother Mary actually! I asked her forgiveness for all the damage we have done and she embraced me SO deeply and forgave me right away and asked me to forgive myself and ALL Humans. She was so gracious and understanding and she helped me shift my consciousness around it. She also offered that just giving our energy and attention to nature and in nature helps Her to heal, even if it is just taking care of houseplants!

Painting of Lady Gaia is by Robert Donagher

 

Jelelle Awen is an ascending teacher into 5D consciousness, Divine guide-scribe, and co-creator/teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.