All we can ever feel with another being in this world is possibility, potentiality… nothing is ever a given, no matter how strong the vision of what could be or the depth of soul/heart connection that seems to just BE.
We are always sorting out and sorting through. We are taking in who we are through the reflection of another, directly or indirectly. We are choosing in every moment what resonates most for us right now, which may not resonate any longer in the next now. We are also this reflection, this point of resonance or dissonance for others, in relationship to them.
None of us are exempt from this sacred sorting out process or the growth that comes of it. Let go, let in, let go again… be surprised, be enlivened, by new beginnings and even necessary collapses. Though there is always more to feel and be with in all of this, and many reactions pinging for parts of you, it’s all part of the process of deepening your intimacy with yourself and with others as well, whether they can continue to connect with you on the next leg of your individual journeys, or not.
Each and every time I walk this out… I’m surprised by what it opens out within me. The clarity of what I want next, the boundaries I need to hold with an open heart, are priceless to feel and honour. It’s always challenging in new ways, but feeling the trust in my own growth that I know is always available and necessary, that helps me sink and surrender into each crucible… and feel the Divine with me at all times.
Much love from my ever-growing and opening heart to yours, Kalayna
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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
Last night before going to sleep, some really sweet energies moved through my heart space that I so wasn’t expecting, but I welcomed it all fully. I felt invited to think about the men I’ve been with or ‘almost’ been with in romantic relationships. The ones who parts of me felt rejected by for some reason, the ones who kept me in the “friend zone”. The ones I made love with or talked about making love with. The ones I wanted to marry. The one I did. The ones I “friend-zoned” and sometimes felt confused about. The handsome ones… well, they were all handsome, let’s be honest. And I loved all of them.
In all of this I felt how much I STILL love them. And a genuine appreciation for them, and whatever relationship we had or didn’t have. I learned a lot from each of them. And somehow, up until last night, parts of me and Metasoul aspects in other lifetimes too, felt primarily rejected or cast aside or ignored… or simply unworthy, not good enough, and made it seem to themselves like these patterns of “not ever” being with a deeply passionate man who can truly meet me in all ways, “stay in the room” with me, explore his King’s leading and trailing edges while I explore my Queen’s, would last forever.
There’s no romantic companion in my field at the moment. No prospects or crushes beyond the etheric ‘mate’ I can sometimes see and feel. Yet, I felt guided to keep feeling this through. And for the first time, I could see not only the gift of each of these connections I’ve had, but the gift of ME that’s come out of each of them and the ways in which they were each able to adore and love me, no matter how complicated it was or wasn’t between us on a romantic or even just a friendship level. My own Inner Masculine took notes throughout all of these connections, I’ve realized, and decided from each of them what he would take with him and what he would help me say “no” to in the future, even within him, himself, in my relationship to him as an Inner Father, Protector, and Mate too.
My personal process is so deep for me that no matter what happens in my life, I “mine” it for the golden nuggets, the exquisite diamonds, of personal growth and healing on a heart and soul level. I have looked deep into the mirrors of all of these relationships with still more layers emerging, and I’ve been willing to let that show me what the truth of ME has been throughout it all; which parts of me were hiding or activated and where/why, which Metasoul aspects were feeling the pain and the sting (and also the joy and lust) in their own timelines.
All of this exploration has been rich beyond measure and I’m still reaping the rewards of these inward journeys. It’s because of this work that I’m able to, for the very first time, HONESTLY say “I am GRATEFUL for it all… for every cut, every bruise… every loving touch, every hug and kiss… every unconscious choice and every conscious one too.” If any of these men are reading this (many of them probably won’t because I’m not connected to them anymore… but I know their Higher Selves are listening and feeling this) I want them to know how much I can feel the adoration I and parts of me have always had for them on many levels, even with the impact we had on each other and the fear-based choices that sometimes overtook the love-based ones. We’ve helped shape each other into the people we are now and I know in my soul that I needed every single one of you.
Maybe now we can move even more fully into whatever is next for all of us.
Much love to you as these Valentine’s Day energies bring out whatever you may need or want to feel through in your own romantic life or even just with regard to the Sacred Union within…
Kalayna
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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
I decided to create a video about healing heartbreak through parts work/the SoulFullHeart process, highlighting how it has been helping me and offering a guided meditation to help you connect to the part of you that is the most heartbroken right now (if you’re going through your own mourning process). I share openly though not in great detail yet (I’ll do more of that in another video and in some future blogs, I think) about what I’ve been processing around my recent completion of a Sacred Union romance.
I focus more on the healing of heartbreak when a relationship completes, yet this meditation can apply if a beloved in your life has passed. It’s all about connecting within and letting in the support and LOVE you’re surrounded by through guides, the Divine, your Higher Self, and even life and love themselves in order to move through the pain in all of its many layers and waves.
There are SO many dynamics moving inside of you at all times and it does sometimes take phases of big life changes in order to stir the pot and help you deeply feel what’s been going on this whole time. I’ve found it so helpful and empowering to take everything I’ve been moving through in my life back inward to process it all with parts of me… even and especially when this feels challenging to do or take space to do.
With much love,
Kalayna Solais
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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
Feels like a bit of a sleepy day today, with recovery in the air. Today is a day of relief in some ways from the intensity of the energies that have been streaming in for weeks now, yet these energies pushed up so much that now is the time to clean up the aftermath and be with the revelations and new inquiries too. It feels in some ways like an earthquake rattled through our consciousness and our lives, awakening and activating but also offering us ways in which to be with everything that was moving and being illuminated within us and within our relationships. ‘Letting go to let in’ yet above all, ‘let arise’, has been the theme for all relationships and especially the patterns going on in them. This has brought up fear and in some cases shame too yet also it has brought an opportunity to go inward and see what the inner relationship ground has been like between parts of you and how this has been reflected in your outer relationships. There is no way to be stuck in a victim’s role no matter what was shaken up if you choose to take it inward and see what’s been going on inside of you.
The day with my beloveds yesterday was fulfilling on all levels and a powerful digestion of everything that’s shifting within us and within our relationships to each other… but also our relationships to service. It was a very alchemical day of feeling, talking, exchanging gifts of love and intention without pretense and while being very real and current with each other too. It amazed all of us how this Christmas celebration came together and how we continue to come together in this deep way even with so much going on and moving through.
It feels like the energy of illumination will hold steady yet won’t be as pressing for a while, unless we need it to be on an individual level. Love is here to help us look at the debris of what came apart during this last month or so and feel into what comes next, what actions we can take, and what needs to be felt into more. Leading us into the ‘new year’ of 2019, we can feel this as a time to reboot and regroup. A phase of reenergizing our intentions for the next phase of our consciousness, growth, healing, and of course Ascension. We get to choose the next empowering place for us in our lives and love is there with us always to encourage us to keep choosing and keep expanding.
Much love!
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Photo by Shelby Miller via unsplash.com
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
It doesn’t feel like we’re in a phase of much being activated at the moment, though it depends very much on the phase that you find yourself in. If you’ve recently been navigating some significant life changes, you may find that you’re actually in a phase of integrating them… and if you’re trying to figure out your next step at the moment, or taking some sort of action in order to exit one phase and enter another, you may find that you’re being asked to find some stillness amid challenges that are springing up. It feels like whatever side of “change” you’re on right now, whether in the INcubation or INtegration phase of it, you may be feeling the birth canal of the rebirth these energies coming in are inviting you into. And what’s more is that these changes are a direct result of your awakening journey so far… they are all a graduation point, even the difficult ones, and they all want to lead you to your next places on your journey.
You may be starting to realize that parts of you have been over-focused on ‘making change happen’ in one particular area of your life, whether it’s trying to lose some physical weight, moving to a new home, looking for work, or completing/beginning a relationship. This over-focus feels two-fold to me: first, I feel there is an invitation here to feel how the work to ‘make something happen’ is a part trying to force something that perhaps has its own timing and probably out of a fear of missing out on an opportunity or to bring someone or something closer to you in your life for fear of losing them, or losing your next chance, whatever that may mean; and second, I feel too the invitation to begin seeing the bigger picture of the changes, that they connect to all areas of your life and not just one. It’s like trying to work out by only targeting one muscle group when really it’s your whole body that needs your attention and love. Plus, compartmentalizing is probably losing its ground for you in general, so the focus on only one thing/area or even person in your life is something you won’t actually be able to maintain for long as it all wants and needs to connect and integrate together.
It feels like July is a ‘hot’ month for bringing in and settling into changes too. I get a ‘coming and going’ sort of feeling around it. You may be experiencing a push-pull inside of you around change too, as parts of you want it and others don’t, and this polarization becomes harder and harder to ignore. You can choose to feel the parts and the ways in which they’re attached to what you’re taking steps to let go of and the ways they feel about what/who you’re trying to let in too. Your Inner Protector especially will have opinions and observations to offer, as will other parts of you.
As always with the incoming energy waves, there’s much to feel and awaken to within. You’re always invited to find expanded consciousness and a brighter view of the bigger picture of Ascension, the Cosmos, etc, yet this expanded consciousness landing within you is the one that truly lights up your path, your action steps, your stillness needs, and the parts that need your love as you choose, inhabit, and integrate the changes you most need in this Now. The Divine Mother/Feminine and Her many different expressions are here to be with you and hold space with you too as you explore all of these elements of your being… I feel Her honouring all of your choice points and everything you’re feeling or even ‘not’ feeling along the way, while also encouraging you to keep going, flowing, finding ways to BE with all of the challenges and desires, both.
Love to you as you feel all there is to feel on this next stratum of your ever-deepening healing and ever-increasing desire for everything you’ve ever wanted to have or happen in your life. ❤
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week!
SoulFullHeart co-founder, teacher and Facilitator, Gabriel Heartman, offers you much insight into what the rumbles of awakening can look and feel like in your life in this week’s featured article. He invites you to feel how your awakenings shift the picture of what really is, especially as you feel the shift in your relationships with others and how the world around and within you is being affected by what is being shaken up. There is a lot to feel with parts of you about all of this as old ideas of what love is are being questioned and many emotional pieces start to rise to the surface:
“Pulling out of this old matrix of 3D relationship can be a tough one as it tugs on our inner guilt and shame. It can be hard for the part of us that feels a responsibility in the emotional responses of others. It doesn’t feel very loving to hurt others. It can feel like you are being selfish and uncaring. Think of a spider web and you are at one of the crossings. If you pull on that it affects all those around that are connected in that web. You make waves and rumbles when you begin to realize this arrangement is no longer in service of your highest self.”
This week we feature the recording of a live stream that Jelelle hosted on Facebook on April 28th. This live stream was a live teaching and digestion of the incoming energies and what they may bring to you and invite you into, especially with the 5/5 gateway officially happening tomorrow.
Also in this week’s issue are the latest writings and recordings from Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, Kalayna, and Raianna. A few of these are digestions of the 5/5 gateway and also the latest full moon in Scorpio experience.
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As Mama Gaia continues Her ascent into 4D reality at an increasing rate, we’re invited along for the ride, to experience the highs and lows, ups and downs, and take them inward, to experience them personally while connecting them to what’s happening globally. As we continue moving through these birth canals which it feels like are the main map and territory of 4D, we are being popped into new awarenesses and dawnings within.
The once tidy compartments held by parts of us, carefully sanctioning off this area of life from that one, separating, for example, our spirituality from our social lives and priorities, our emotional worlds, and our physical being, are all being blown apart. Sometimes the experience of these dividing walls coming down is one that happens with plenty of inner-negotiation, like with parts of you that you are actively working with and loving up, or life brings in what can feel like a sledgehammer (of love, mind you!) that seems to, in one fell swoop, bring an end to all separation. The dawning illuminations of how we have held our lives or allowed parts of us to hold life, are coming in stronger now. Intuition can no longer be denied and neither can the feelings of, ‘I want that, not this…‘ – the ‘that’ being the vision, the new template for how you want to experience your life, combining all sacredly held areas, and the ‘this’ being what you may be currently experiencing, in your relationships especially, yet in all other areas as well…
There is so much to feel as we let this one in… that the invitation is to feel where our sense of spirituality has been held as a separate entity, often for safe-holding and keeping by parts of us and understandably so… yet the call to really BE what we are learning about and downloading, to really live into our ‘talk’ and take the steps necessary to embody our deeper soul purpose and service of love calling, grows stronger still and shows us where we have things to look at, some resistances inside of ourselves, to truly letting go of what doesn’t feel like it aligns with this deeper soul and heart calling.
There is nothing to take very lightly about this process, as it runs deep and is often very challenging, as letting go with LOVE means letting go with a full heart, truly feeling the letting go by feeling parts of us that have held these compartments, these safety/no-go zones in place. Feeling their tears and leading them into your vision of what you truly want for you and for them in unification and a greater experience of love in all areas of your life is what brings the waves of NEW into your Now. This is the process of truly inhabiting your 4D and higher sense of spirituality… that the nitty gritty is what leads to the profoundly beautiful arising of you that you have yet to come to know, and the mess is what leads you, ultimately, to the bliss you have been wanting.
Courage is what is needed as you walk into the illuminating lights of 4D awakening and beyond… and courage, arising Sacred Human, is what you absolutely came into this dimension with in the first place and something your soul and heart remembers how to embody if you can find a way to be with that and let it in, one step, one fully felt feeling, one part of you, at a time. ❤
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
In this video, SoulFullHeart Teachers, Facilitators and Sacred Union mates, Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri, discuss the spiritual area of life and the different ways parts of every human being may relate to it on a 3D, 4D and 5D level.
Spirituality tends to be the main focus for many as we live into Ascension, and all too often at the cost of the other areas of life that really can’t help but be connected to it. As arising and healing Sacred Humans wanting to co-create and experience a New or Golden Earth experience, grounding into our spirituality and feeling all of the different ways in which parts of us have related to it, is an important step to healing towards this new reality starting from the inside. Kalayna and Gabriel invite you to feel the different ways that parts of you may relate or not relate to spirituality, how your awakenings may play out in your life, and what can happen if you ‘pop’ into 4D and 5D spiritual consciousness without taking steps to reconcile your wounding in other areas of your life and your spiritual or existential wounding too.
As Gaia continues her ascent into more 4D consciousness, Her inhabitants (us) are being shaken to the core and sometimes awakened without prior sense of this coming or conscious desire for it. Awakening can happen spontaneously or can be sought through other experiences, such as with psychedelics. Moving more into 4D spirituality often means asking many questions, beginning to feel that spirituality starts within and that the Divine is as much a part of us as we are a part of it. Tidy compartments put into place by parts of us that have tried to keep our spirituality separate from other areas of life are being broken open and it is becoming harder and harder to keep these compartments in place. This is all happening with love and is necessary for our spiritual evolution as a species… though the road can be long, winding, and sometimes quite dark and full of thorns too.
Sometimes the spiritual area of life is related to with so much over-focus that other areas of life are neglected and thus different parts of us are neglected too. In SoulFullHeart, we experience ever-deepening and expanding spiritual awakenings and consciousness shifts through deep-diving within and looking at all areas of life as they are meant to flow and grow together. If you would like to take in more writings and videos on this topic, you can visit our blog and also check out more of our Youtube channel, as this is inherent in what we embody on this healing path and where we go inside of ourselves as well as with facilitants as they begin to feel parts and Metasoul Aspects of themselves, too.
If you have any questions or comments, you can leave them in the comment thread here on the blog, on the Youtube video, or find us on Facebook (just look for Kalayna Colibri and/or Gabriel Heartman and/or SoulFullHeart Way Of Life!). You can also email soulfullhearts@gmail.com.
Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.
Each and every time you have an awakening experience, though they are coveted and desired and often long-awaited and worked for, these experiences also carry you into a greater unknown. The whole idea of awakening is to shake something up inside, whether it moves your frequency up or drops back in inward into parts of you that need you more than ever. Sometimes awakening experiences bring us both in tandem. Sometimes we call this, ‘leading edge’ and ‘trailing edge’ in SoulFullHeart. ‘Leading edge’ is the experience of true and pure love awakening and deepening inside and feeling your actions, words, expression of you coming from a higher, less reactive and more expansive place, and ‘trailing edge’ is the opposite, or what can feel like the opposite; the parts of you coming up in reaction to the expansion, trying to close the gap between it and them, sometimes flooding you with their lower frequency wounding and reality. The main bridge between the two is consciousness, awareness that this can and will happen and that your job as an arising authentic self is to be an ambassador between the two, not negating or dismissing one or the other, yet bringing them together somehow and letting the newfound expansiveness inside to become the bigger container for the smallness, the pain, the existential terror.
I remember being quite young and awakening to angelic frequencies and love. My birth mother had given me a gift that Christmas of my first deck of Angel cards. They were simple yet sweet, not created by any well-known author or speaker. I was in my early teens at that time, or just about anyways. I remember playing with them, exploring them, reading the little book they came with. I did as the book instructed and asked a question I believe, or simply asked for guidance. I did a little spread of the cards and picked them up to read the other side. The messages that came through hit a chord of resonance inside my heart and soul, both. I felt a rush of energy move through me and suddenly felt Angels, what I called ‘my’ Angels, surrounding and encouraging me. The love I felt was so exquisite, I believe I even had tears… I remember too, that the book suggested dowsing as another method of reading the cards. I grabbed a necklace of mine with a small ring on it – a ring that had a nickname of mine etched into it and was too small for me to wear, so I had put it on the chain instead. I held it out in front of me, above my palm, to ‘tune it in’, asking it which direction it would turn in to mean ‘yes’ and which way would mean ‘no’. To my surprise, oh my God, it MOVED!! Woah!! The rush of adrenaline and excitement that followed I can’t explain in words, but it felt so powerful and I felt so powerful to be holding this tool in my hand!
After this happened, I ran to tell my mother and sister about what I had experienced. Part of me felt a bit shy about sharing, slightly worried about it being invalidated, but too excited to let that in at the time. I shared with them and my heart sank… there was an ounce of validation from my mother, who was exploring some areas of spirituality outside of the Catholic church I grew up in along with me, yet she couldn’t let it in deeply and didn’t ask any questions about it. My sister just sort of looked at me, I recall. I think she said something like, ‘that’s cool’. As my first experience of an awakening, without having much knowledge of what awakenings even were at the time, this sort of set the tone for any of my other awakenings that followed. I do not fault either of them for their reactions… their parts weren’t sure what to do with any of this and they probably both had fear and maybe even comparison come up. What I was doing was not ‘normal’ and I think it actually reflected their own capacities back to them, which of course parts, especially Inner Protectors/Gatekeepers who are busy trying to navigate the dense 3D world, tend to have big reactions to, as it isn’t exactly safe to be outside the norm in most cases.
Nonetheless, this birthed a whole world of spirituality for me. It validated so much of what I had begun to read about in different books by spiritual authors. I feel a young part of me sharing all of this, as she was the one who primarily ‘drove the bus’ on my spiritual adventures for many years of my life. Eventually, this part and I needed to separate from birth family and many other relationships altogether, as the lack of resonance hurt and also wasn’t serving my continued openings and my desire to deeply heal.
What followed was many years of seeking and searching. Being very naturally emotional and reactive and not having a container for it, no matter what spiritual path I/part of me tried on for size. I came close to some version of ‘parts work’ through one particular author and speaker who I even studied with for a while and this path was what then led me to SoulFullHeart, which I now teach and facilitate today. It took me a long time to realize that I needed to bridge to my emotional world, not try to put it away. And in truth, my parts weren’t ever going to let me do that anyway!
Every awakening I’ve had has been a mixed experience of up and down, sometimes at the same time, as I can feel my emotional body and also the wounding in my soul trying to catch up with the higher frequencies pouring in and watering my heart with so much love and dawning awareness. I invite you to feel where and how your own emotional body needs to catch up to your own awakenings and openings… to feel how your relationships currently surrounding you serve or don’t serve you along the way is an essential part of awakening and growing and healing. Every new vista invites us all to feel deeper where and who we are as well as who we want and need to become. And, they also invite us deeper into love, so we can better serve love, especially to others who truly want and need us to and are ready to let in their own capacity for the same!
Love to you in each and every moment of your awakening journey… know that my love and the love of many go into these places WITH you! ❤
Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
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