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Finding Help To Enter and Exit Your Cave Of Suffering

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By Raphael Awen

I believe every last one of us has a cave of deep suffering somewhere in our makeup, somewhere in our souls timeline, that plays out in our lives.

Many are working hard to avoid all contact with this cave while others know it all too well.

Some of us have done serious time in coming to terms with our caves and have found, through trial and error, a way through, and even gone on to transform the cave into a beautiful space of previously unimaginable self love and connection. If there are yet more caves to uncover, we are no longer afraid, nor too deeply surprised to encounter them if and when they arise. I feel this to be true for myself.

Our capacity to know and feel our deepest and truest joy is inextricably connected to our capacity to know and feel our deepest sorrows. It all wants to be known and felt and one cannot be separated from the other.

Finding and feeling a part of you that hates life can be quite a task when there is another above ground part of you quite invested in keeping a surface life that is expected of you intact. But for many now, it is becoming clear that this is the reason why they chose to incarnate here, to find and feel all of what exists in the furthest regions of their being, and to re-member it all to the love that they are.

What we are also realizing is that we can’t do it without help. The steps to our freedom, like the pathways that led into our pain, intertwine us in messy relationship. Until a ‘you’ can emerge that isn’t fused with the pain, and this you can recognize and go on to authorize someone or something outside of yourself to help you, there really isn’t any help to be had.

In another way, any ‘outside’ resource that you engage and authorize is coming from you as they couldn’t have any way of serving you without your authorization, regardless of their claimed expertise or desire to help you. In this way, we rightly project our higher selves onto an other that is our flow of help in the now moment to help us.

But where does ‘help’ come from and what does it look like? How would you know it when you saw it?

Truth is, you can’t really know, at least not in the way a part of you may be seeking a guarantee that the help you are attracted to isn’t in fact a path that will elucidate more of your own deeper suffering through an abusive kind of experience. If there is more suffering to encounter in your being, you can know that it was yours to encounter, and even an experience of abuse was something your higher self was not afraid to encounter and even draw to yourself as it offered you an opportunity to access and heal something that couldn’t be accessed and healed any other way.

Your soul knows that you are love, while you are out seeking to know and feel more of this love that you are.

Your soul is not afraid of the role of momentary pain or sorrow, to backlight this glorious everlasting love into being seen and felt as your daily lived in reality.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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You Can’t Steer A Parked Car

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By Raphael Awen

The reason your next steps may not feel so clear is that a part of you has been resisting the natural movement, the flow, the direction.

An all too common way parts of us do this is to focus on the ‘impossibility’ of the big step as a way to not take any small steps. Big steps are just a series of small steps.

You can’t steer a parked car and a parked car cannot take you anywhere.

The small steps are crucial to confirming guidance, building trust and being en-couraged to take the next steps. Big movements are always a process, rather than an epic end-of-life-as-you-know-it, mammoth, swallow-you-whole kind of choice that a part of you may be amping it up to be.

If life is in fact facing you with a life or death kind of choice, I venture to say that that is what a part of you has created by resisting the many small choice points along the way. Life never gives you what you cannot bear, but the opposite can sure seem true when we haven’t been paying attention. Parts of us then can play victim to life and change in a seemingly all-too-real reality, hiding the fact we created that reality.

A decision to leave a partner or a marriage shouldn’t be what stops you from beginning to bring your truth, both to yourself and to your mate. Start there and see where that leads. What changes can you embrace in your career while feeling and not denying the desire to leave that career?

Life at its core is about change. Trying to be in life with a resistive relationship with change is like trying to stop the wind. You can resist change, but you only end up resisting yourself and where change wants to take you.

When you don’t change, you become more and more uninteresting to yourself, others and even to life itself too. You are contributing less to the community you are a part of and so naturally you feel less safe and less trusting that life will reciprocate and meet your needs. Your anxiety becomes palpable and obnoxious as you demand that others look after the fallout of your resistance to life, and the dis-ease that you are manifesting around you and in you.

If you are allowing me to speak this straight to you today, I can feel that it is because you really do want to take responsibility to change your relationship to change, and return to actually being in life.

You bring huge air into the room when you do that. You water the souls of everyone around you, which includes all of us, because we are all connected and we are all one as well as individuals at the same time.

Talk about a high spiritual calling, like no other, just living your life, to the fullest!

I felt a need to speak this straight today as I am gathering my own courage again for my next steps, and I so want to be around, up close and personal with this kind of very exciting life giving energy.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Who’s Who In Your Zoo?

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By Raphael Awen

The idea of being grateful for what you have is only a piece of a piece of the answer.

For starters, a mental idea of something you should be more of is just that, a mental idea, rather than a feeling state. Gratitude just is and can’t really be moralized into place, not real gratitude that is.

Intuitively, we know what that feeling state looks and feels like because we’ve tasted it, and it was fun, and so we prescribe it to ourselves, our children and our inner children, but in the prescribing, we are ‘shoulding’ on ourselves and that kind of force based relationship to life is fast losing steam for all of us.

Then, the idea that if you were truly spiritual or awakened, and in real gratitude, you wouldn’t be so attached to wanting more stuff is another example of trying to squeeze yourself into someone else’s box that you just can’t fit into.

If you come to know and feel real gratitude for what you have, you will be so caught up in wonder and reverence for the beauty and magic of being that everything takes on a different glow, and you want it all. Materially, socially, egoically,…you want and you want it all, without judgments of what a higher or lower desire is. I’ve wanted a new IPhone 7plus for months now and the desire isn’t going away anytime soon. 

But wait! Won’t I want different stuff than what I used to want? Won’t I want healthier stuff? I could tell you my story around that, but what’s your story? Your story is where the juice is!

Do you want to hang onto what you’ve hung onto? How satisfying is that for you? Are you ready for something new? What is YOUR real definition of having it all? Is it okay to make that up and change that up as you go?

When you explore this ground though, you inevitably come to a polarity at the root of a stasis point inside. Part of you wants the old intensely and part of you is so ready for the new. The only way a healthy movement can occur in a standoff situation like this is to find out who’s who in your zoo, and why they are the way they are. Anything short of this and you are simply back to where a part of you is shoulding on other parts of you, (very often busy prescribing change in this way ultimately and paradoxically to keep a stasis in place).

Really finding out why a part of you has such a bizarre addiction, for instance, what they get out of it and why they are so attached to it will change your world. I venture to say that though the addiction has been a part of your life for the years it has, that you are basically unfamiliar with it. It knows you, but you don’t know it. Oh, you may even be an addiction expert and an author on the subject, but this you is not the you who has the addiction, and the author/expert you isn’t the one who needs to create a bridge to the part of you so attached.

An arising curious authentic self needs to arise on the scene and be about getting to know and feel with an open heart. This is the ground of real change that doesn’t come out of a self-help aisle in the book store.

We dialled up the challenges we are faced with. We’re that big. We even dialled up the ability to face ourselves with challenging and unwanted timelines as an arena for our growth. Isn’t this what our choice to enter our soul amnesia is all about? We forgot, so that we could re-member and become all that we were and are meant to be, that we couldn’t access any other way.

I can be very grateful for an unwanted timeline. Both can be true.

I can feel what parts of myself like and don’t like about the present timeline, and in that…., the movement my higher self set up for me unfolds in a magic, a synchronicity, a flow occurs. I reach out to all the parts of myself as the subjects in my kingdom who are awaiting my leadership and king’s heart. This is my new emerging timeline and I wouldn’t trade it for anything!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Why Would Anyone Want To Be A Legend In Someone Else’s Mind?

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By Raphael Awen

This is day 2 of my new introduction to my soon-to-be re-released book ‘90 Days With Yeshua’ that I originally wrote in 2013. This introduction is written in the same easy dialogue fashion of our conversations from the book. I felt to share these new intro pieces here as I go. Enjoy…

Raphael: Good Morning Yeshua.

Yeshua: Good Morning Raphael.

R: I’m just feeling into where we might go together today…

Y: We don’t actually have to go anywhere…where we are is just fine if we can let that in.

R: I still find myself reaching for some dynamic outside of the moment somehow, like I’d like to enter a higher frequency awareness and feeling space than the one I’m consciously in at the moment.

Y: I so get that. It’s why people pray or meditate or read books, or watch movies, or drink a beer…to overlay a different feeling reality over the moment.

R: In one way, Yeshua, and a pretty big way at that, I find that sums up a whole lot of my relationship to life, even to this day. Even as I’m talking to you right now, I’m invested in it for some kind of a mood shift, and I’ll bet the people reading this would have to admit that the reason they are reading it is seeking some exit from something and entrance into something else to some degree.

Y: Here’s the deal though, Raphael. Being in a dualistic world, where one thing is always preferred over another is an art that leads you back to the moment if you follow it fully. Even when one settles for an escape instead of something deeply satisfying, that experience is part of their learning. The deeper appetite is unfulfilled, even though it may be dulled in the moment, or rather, dulled from the moment.

R: So it’s a pretty big pretzel though, because I often find myself in want of some kind of a mood shift, or experience shift. Like I said, that energy is present even in this moment of seeking deeper connection with you…

Y: Believe me, I hear you. What I want to convey to you in feeling this acutely with you, and I love how your heart and mind works, to evoke these inquiries….is to feel with you how the true portal to that mood shift as you call it, is actually an invitation into the moment, into the now, outside of time. You have this portal through your heart available in the now.

R: So the seeking of this mood shift as we’re calling it isn’t a negative thing in and of itself, and by negative, I mean a frequency lowering thing, but, it’s more about what source I turn to to get my needs met, choosing to go external vs. Internal…I get that part…

Y: I know you do…

R: The part I’d really like to get on with is entering that portal into the now and staying there more…
Y: Try this on for size…the feeling that you already do exist in the now….., we talk about entering the now as if you are not there already, but on a deeper level, you ARE the now.

R: ‘I am the now’….don’t know Yeshua if I’ve ever heard that anywhere else before?

Y: Cool huh….we’ve definitely got it going on friend…

R: We are legendary, in the truest sense, legends in our own minds….

Y: Why would anyone want to be a legend in anyone else’s mind!

R: Haven’t heard that one before either!

Y: Try BEing the now, recognizing that you are the now, and then the moralizing and shoulding about changing your mood can fall away as a relic of the past, and you get to enjoy and live in your native frequency.

R: THAT sounds so cool…and I notice it still offers us a focus, a choice point, even an effort point, but in a very different way, would you say?

Y: It’s the perfect marriage of doing and being actually. All the effort needed flows abundantly and freely from being, which turns the old definition of work on its head. There is choice, focus and effort still required, but in this higher dimension, there’s no shortage of that, and it flows from deep desire and joy. Work was never intended to be drudgery, but rather passion and fulfillment, that leads to more, and more.

R: And I like how it doesn’t emasculate me somehow…My power and choice is still very much a part of this, my individuality too…

Y: So many spiritualities here to this day are about trying to find some work around to this very point you bring up…the essential requirement of life itself of personal power and choice. No one is here doing life that isn’t on the deepest level seeking to come to terms with the God-being they actually are….seeking to learn how to create entire new worlds that they can feel as real….that no one can take away from them….

R: Wow, Yeshua, how do you wrap this up for today?

Y: I think I just did…all that’s left is choosing to BE, and letting BEing lead the doing…and it’s okay if that takes even a lifetime to learn, it’s worth it all, and besides, what could be funner?

R: Thank you Yeshua.

Y: You’re welcome Raphael.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

I Am One Inside Of Thee One

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By Raphael Awen

Everything you could ever want and dream of having is already yours on a very real dimension, in a very real time and place.

Your and my difficulty in seeing that and feeling that to be true is because of the veil of forgetfulness that we, as an act of this infinite power we all possess, chose to enter. We are living out a choice. We needed a sacred journey of deep sleep and awakening. We needed to die to our infinite greatness in order to be reborn to it, and in so doing become somehow more in our new reborn infinity than the infinity we surrendered. A good nights rest changes everything you could say.

The staggering greatness we all possess was so great, that even in our prior aware state, our waking state, there wasn’t enough juice for us to not be afraid of our own bigness.

It’s important to feel here, that we, as individuals are all a part of one great consciousness that we are actually sharing. We have within that one great consciousness, a perpetual and sovereign lease on individuality, but what we experience and feel as personal lack or personal inferiority is actually a part of the one divine consciousness out journeying towards a great awakening.

In this way, divinity itself is coming to terms with its own fears and sense of lack and emptiness. Why would we think that only our positivity is a reflection of our divinity? Let’s hold that question and offer a couple other related and important pieces that will help us see this…

I am sovereignly one. One inside of thee one. Part of me wants to say ‘Don’t come preaching to me a religious sounding oneness crap if you can’t also honour the total uniqueness of being that I am in contrast to you’. This is so important to feel for our awakening process because we are all feeling and healing the one consciousness AS we come to terms with what’s true in our personal consciousness.

When you have fear, worry and anxiety moving through you, the divine is learning its way to returning to awakening. When you are in utter bliss, joy and abundance is washing up on your shores, you are also equally awakening. Now, I, like you, have been trained to value the positive, but this is because of our conditioning and forgetfulness.

When we experience the so called negative, why would we think that these feelings are outside of our overall participation in and with divinity, our godhood?

Nothing is actually in power over us dictating our reality. We sure got busy creating the illusion that the opposite is true, but now at these times of awakening, the only forward momentum or gravitational lift we can find seems to be around coming to terms with our own power.

Hence we gave ourselves a great big self created reality of an absence of our power through this veil of forgetfulness. Now, however, we really do want to awaken fully. Divine oneness created duality, and we best make no mistake, both are now equally true, and in complete harmony. You and I as separate and distinct are one and the same. Both are true. We’re living in 2 worlds. Only as we accept both worlds can either of them be true, and come to blend.

So what now? In this moment of wanting to come to terms with this more and more? I say follow your desire. The word desire literally means ‘of the sire’ meaning something to do with fathering the seed of our most deepest longings into the ground of all being. Sounds wild, but it’s as simple as truly letting our desires out to play.

And herein, we are advised of the great courage it is to want new things and more things so intensely while also feeling so grateful for what we have. We can do this because on this being level, any and every wish we wish for, we are already in possession of that wish. Let both desire and possession and gratitude flow through. Feel it. Feel it. Feel it.

I want to help you feel it if I can. I’m writing these words today out of a desire to seed a new consciousness deeper into myself and others at the same time. If your desire calls you to ask for personal space-holding with me in session space, let’s do it! I want you, I want your money exchange as an authorization of your power to be served by my power,.. I want to inhabit my next steps into this brave new world with you.

Others are available for sessions as well and you can see more here:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

Leaving Is Entering

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By Raphael Awen

Every leaving is always and also an entering.

Oftentimes in our wrestling with a deep choice at hand, be it an exit or entrance moment in our lives, we think we are anxious about what we are focused on, ie, the entering or the leaving, when in actuality, we are actually subconsciously more in anxiety about this counterpart of our focus. These two cannot be separated in our dualistic relationship to life and time and space, and are all part of the same choice.

We are actually in perfection before, after and during our decision points, but to have growth and grist in our school of learning, we actually need a degree of not feeling the perfection of all things in order to re-member it back into our being. We need the stress of choice, and even the anxiety that comes with that. We just don’t want to suffer in a cycle of that beyond what is necessary for our growth. In this, it is always us who decides what ‘enough’ is, and when to move on. Even the suffering is not outside of perfection.

We came from complete perfection, and we retained this perfection, but we gave up the conscious awareness of it (so it definitely feels like we lost it) in order to feel and heal our way to even more than we were in our previous perfection. Who’d have guessed that we’re busy improving on perfection, or that it’s even possible, but it feels like perfection is an ever expanding and changing reality, and one that we are being invited into…

It seems we were perfect, but we lacked somehow in our perfection a relationship with our perfection. It’s like being married to the most beautiful and amazing woman on the planet, but having lost sight of it and her. What else is there to do but leave in order to one day rediscover, and in the process, end up with something even more than you didn’t know you had.

So, get in, there’s no more time to explain it any more fully to the rational mind. There’s room in passenger seat for the rational mind and plenty of space to process the whats and wheres that intuition is inviting us all into…

If this lands in you, consider yourself etherically tagged here in FB land, and in the soulscape of the one-being that we are feeling and healing the same stuff in different ways and times. If I can be of service to you in any of the enterings or leavings that life is inviting you into, I’d love to show up for you and be in energy exchange with you through a session space… http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

Growth By Choice

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By Raphael Awen

The universe can never violate our free will, and make a choice for us, as it invites us into a fearful next step of our growth. It does seem however that while the universe can’t violate our free will, and force anything upon us, it does withdraw any support for us to prolong a path that it feels we are done with. In other words, the universe will not enable us to remain in a smaller place when it’s time for us to enter a larger expression of ourselves. Divine source feels where our higher self wants to go, while also feeling the parts of us in pain or anxiety over a given choice. It gently, patiently and yet firmly points us to our next steps.

I can say from personal experience that when I arrived at a surprising juncture of choice that would change my life profoundly, I was always given a sense and feeling of deep guidance and the time I needed to digest and integrate that guidance along with deep waves of love and support to where I could feel deeply held while the courage and clarity arose to act on that choice. This enabled me to consciously and groundedly walk out steps that would change my life forever.

I feel many of the people drawn to SoulFullHeart are at such junctures, particularly with men who are drawn to me for space-holding. And if I could speak to you directly, if that’s you, I feel to say I am ready if you are. I see a meeting room of some awesome architecture in the mountains that overlooks a wide space. I see your intentionality and mine creating a new ‘third thing’…a going on place into your true heart and soul growth and freedom.

I see you on another timeline, with the presenting ‘problem’ now fully behind you, and you asking yourself ‘So, now what?…now that this difficulty no longer defines and caps my life, my energy,….now what?’

I feel the universe inviting you into this question because if you can feel into it now, then you can tailor the steps you are taking with the end in mind from the outset. The end is here and available at the beginning, while the universe invites into the time and space walk-out of that choice to imbibe the growth and love into every cell of your being. It’s in feeling this end from the beginning where deep self love and support can flood your being!

Now, the timeline you are being invited into holds its deepest offer of love and growth vibrantly as it also feels with you the gravity of the loss you are also feeling. Only now are you enabled to choose and guide like the God-being you are. Only now are you enabled to fully feel the part of you for whom this loss will be profound. Only now does this deep change move in self loving ways that feel all that wants to be felt so the changes can healthily ground into your new life and timeline.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

Untethering From 3d To Let In 5d

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By Raphael Awen

There is nothing ‘wrong’ at all with the kind of time and space orientation that we all know in 3rd dimensional reality that we all share. In fact, there is actually so much ‘right’ about it, that if anything, we’ve been unable to really handle its magic, so we’ve had to dull it down in an attempt to make it manageable.

Many of us have become so skilled at this dulling down that we find ourselves stuck in ennui and boredom, seeking some kind of external change in our time and space circumstances to shake off the doldrums.

But from the beginning, ‘getting stuck’ in any dimension was only and ever meant as a process for us to bake in order to lead us onward.

3rd dimensional time and space, and us, as aware beings within that, were imagined up from the creator as a way to have an experience outside of the timeless-allness bliss that it was. In fact, the divine actually got tired and bored of this bliss and reached outside of itself for something more. Boredom preceded creation. So it remains.

If that’s true, and I believe it is, then even our admittedly medicative and harmful distractions we seek from our boredom are a divine similarity in us. We seek freedom from boredom.

This week, where we live in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico, there have been 3 guys vacationing and sharing a suite just across from the deck where I like to sit out on and gaze and meditate, taking in the ocean. They’ve been given to lots of beer and giggling with one another and their own kind of nervous explorations in camaraderie. It was touching for me to feel at times, even in my annoyance at them, that they are actually no less ‘the divine, out divining’ than I am seeking to meditate and travel with star beings and archangel guides. They will ascend when they are ready, and in the larger picture, they are ascending every bit as much as I am. Did I not need similar experiences in density to arrive at where I am today?

We are all in such deep sacred journey that it is inescapable. We are hopelessly ‘the divine out divining’, all of us…., you, me, and any and all ‘others’, including many kinds of beings and consciousnesses that are off our radar, awaiting reconnection with us.

If we can see this utter reverence for every kind of dimensional experience and experiment, we are then so primed in that kind of reverence to let in other dimensions. When the divine, divined out of itself so called ‘others’ who felt individuated out of itself just enough to provide an ‘otherized’ experience of itself, the divine considered this dimensional experience we know as 3D time and space reality to be nothing less than supernatural. So that means, we, living in 3D are nothing less than part of the divines’ cosmic wow expression and experience. Right now, already, you can’t actually become more God than you already are, except in your awareness of that reality. You only and ever only become something ‘more’ in the discovery of what you always were and never lost.

The only thing on the downside in all of this though is for us to get so captivated by this dimension, that in our forgetfulness of other dimensions, we suffer in a sticky stuckness that can’t seem to find our way out, able to only check out, but unable to leave, and explore beyond. Our souls certainly can get stuck for painful times and be suppressed in our awakening.

We however, like the divine, become more and more, when we are ready, simply bored and tired of locked-in 3rd dimensional living. A holy dissatisfaction begins to ebb more and more into our being. The enjoyments, pleasures and deep meaning found in 3D living simply dries up. Now, we are straddling more and more into the 4th dimensional place that is a bridge to the 5th dimensional reality known in our souls (by one description) as the Golden Earth reality. This is not an easy dimension and it is not for the weary, or weak of heart. Here, in 4D we literally burn up many of the comforts and super things of our super-natural lives, in order to reach for a dimension that we know is there, but vulnerably, we don’t experience much of it yet. Here we become a different person and feel intense shakedowns in all of our relationships.

Truly gaining more and more access to this so called 5th dimension, that our hearts tell us is possible, is firstly about completing and fully inhabiting the 3rd dimension and learning all we were meant to in that dimension. Our planet, Gaia, is currently going through its own ascension into the 4th dimension, and so it is a pressure that all of her inhabitants are feeling, and it makes for a big support structure for those ready in their soul journey to make the ascension with her. There is nothing wrong with any being or consciousness who needs to complete a phase in a so called ‘lower’ dimension and isn’t ready to ride the ascension wave many of us are feeling called to embrace.

We need to feel this same way towards parts of ourselves who need to be felt in this way for where they are at. Not all of you may be on board with this ascension process that a soul part of you is so excited about, and egging you on with. Feeling a part of you still attached to 3rd dimensional reality will be necessary to integrate in order to ascend. This is a ‘none left behind’ kind of deal. As a soul fragment being birthed out of God, we were only willing to be participants in this ‘god-otherization’ project if we were given the assurance that we would never be ultimately left behind, regardless of the necessary level of forgetfulness of our actually being a part of God.

With these kinds of feelings and reassurances, the kind that colour our hearts with love, we are enabled to much more so open the portals of our imagination to begin having real experiences of Golden Earth to call us forward and beyond…

This is the untethering into 4th and eventually 5th dimensional experience, loving and feeling and completing all the goodness that the 3rd dimension had for us, and will continue to as we incorporate 4th as a path to 5th, more and more.

If you’d like some personal help on your ascension journey, I’d like to offer you the spaceholding we offer at SoulFullHeart way of life. I’d like to help you, if I can…our sessions page is here. Let’s ascend together!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

Get A Heart-on For Yourself

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By Raphael Awen

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Somehow, I know that my greatest gift to the world has to do with my desire and need to be loved.

As I feel that, and make it conscious more and more to myself, and see where I have that love and where I don’t at present, I am moved. My need and desire for love is what ‘unstucks’ me.

I’d like to title this Valentine’s Day message:

‘Get A Heart-on For Yourself’.

You see, you won’t ever actually find love ‘out there’ to any degree that exceeds the actual love you have learned for yourself. In fact, the lack of love you have for yourself will always be mirrored to you in the actual quality of your closest relationships.

The entire universe we live in is wired on love. I know it doesn’t look that way when we live on a planet that is so much wired on proving what love isn’t, but such a planet and such a motive, could only exist in a fear reaction to this potent and fearful love.

Reverence is another word for what we’re talking about here. More than anything in life, I want and need reverence. I want to be revered and I want to swim in reverence for all things. That’s the stuff the universe is made up of. That’s what I came here to learn and become certified in.

If this is true, (and I say that because I am well aware that I am proposing a very different view of the world), then it so beckons the deeper quest in all of us, collectively and personally, to learn how to let in love.

And if that’s the whole point, then realizing that point gets you to whatever is next, and that’s truly and awe-somely exciting.

What’s next can only and ever be more love, because we are infinite love, made by infinite love, seeking to come to terms with infinite love.

Now, we are asked IF we feel that, IF we believe that, IF we KNOW that, then what does being a student of that love mandate? Dare I use the word ‘dictate’? If love is thee most powerful force for which any and all force is derived, then love’s dictates are of supreme interest to me. This is a dictating mandating force that waits incredibly patiently, but ultimately cannot and will not take ‘no’ for an answer.

Wait now, I’m not speaking of an other, some power over you….I’m talking about your own, you-to-you relationship. You are this love and that love won’t settle till it finds you in you. Feeling this, and letting it color in and out of the lines in your life is the most transformative thing you will ever do in this earth plane.

The circumstances (encircling standing things) of your life are the witnesses and signposts to this sacred marriage. What is happening outside of you can only and ever be a reflection of what is happening inside of you.

For many, and even most of us, this comes as a testament, a reflection and a dawning realization of what we are not, intended to point out way back to what we are.

Life now asks us to take the most courageous step of our lives. Would we be willing to risk losing what we have, in order to gain what we are? Are we willing to say a firm ‘No!’ in a bid to find our ‘yes’.

Falling in love always births a death-and-rebirth cycle in our lives. True love always gives birth to new life, but only after it has suffered the death of what preceded the emergence of that love. Many can yearn for love, but use that yearning to avoid the death that life is inviting them into in order to take them to that love. There simply is no other way to this magical kingdom of getting a heart-on for you.

Sex is a perfect metaphor here. It’s a possessing force that can and wants nothing less than to take over your life. It wants you to be dripping wet (self-consciously so) with ache and desire, and then it wants to relieve and relive that desire over and over again…

Sounds pretty hot, huh? That’s because it is. Love is not ambivalent about you. Love has its heart-on very firmly (and discreetly) set on you, and only you. Extreme Monagamy, because this extreme Monagamy is the only doorway into extreme poly-amory. You cannot love the many until you love the one. That one is you. That you is love.

It won’t settle for anything less. It can’t settle for anything less.

Will you surrender to this love that you are?

(I dedicate this writing to my valentine, my outer reflection of my self love journey, my be-loved, my am-loved, Jelelle Awen)

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

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By Raphael Awen

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Many of us have been made aware that time and space are not ultimately real.

They are real enough to us as we live our lives within a certain bandwidth of consciousness; the bandwidth that we call 3rd dimensional reality, but we are seeing and coming to terms with that time and space are creations or emanations of consciousness itself. They are very much like holographic projections we say, as we try to grok what life would be like if we didn’t see time and space as so damn real all the time (pun intended).

This leaves many of us somehow with a feeling of being tied to time and space, like we need to free our consciousness of time-and-space kind of reality processing. We tend to lean towards ‘If only, I could feel myself more outside of time and space…’, as we desire to get on with our consciousness awakening path. After all, amazing things like teleportation, telekinesis and dematerialization are all apparently on the other side of time and space as we perceive them.

This overriding desire to leave the realm of time and space can very helpful, and it can also be a big hindrance.

Initially, this awakening to see the ‘unrealness’ of time and space is essential to see ourselves outside of 3D reality for the souls we are; for the energy we are; for the consciousness we are; for the emanations of infinite love that we are. All very good stuff.

However, in that, there is an inherent tendency to see time and space as what limits us from the heart and soul freedom we long for; what keeps us bound to 3D consciousness. We feel we need to get out beyond time and space to the truer, or deeper reality.

I’m feeling this, this morning, in myself. I feel how more than anything I want to grow. I want to perceive myself and my life and my relationship with every’one’ and every’thing’ in this momentous and measurable flow of growth. So of course the idea of coming free of time and space limited perceptions and soaring into heart and soul reality lands pretty much at the top of my list.

Here’s the kicker though. The two things that are most needed for growth are (you guessed it) nothing else, but TIME and SPACE! Try growing a few vegetables successfully without time and space!

What a pretzel. I want to get free of time and space so I can grow??? It doesn’t work that way.

So what’s really going on here?

Consciousness itself gave us time and space as its own emanation. It didn’t give us something we don’t need. We need time and space for our growth. The problem is not with time and space, but instead how we have made a god out of time and space, rather than revere the source of time and space; consciousness itself.

So how could this be different…on a practical level?

In every space and at all times, see if you can more and more turn your awareness to awareness itself. When you do this, you are supercharging the intended purpose of time and space, which is growth.

Look at this. It’s really important. Put it in your own words. Frame it within your own experience and reference. Grok it into your sacred world.

When you experience time and space with reverence, you are experiencing the emanations of consciousness itself. When you turn your consciousness in reverence to consciousness itself, you have love looking at love; you have life staring at life; you have God looking on God. And you have all the time and space you can imagine to work this out and into your life as you know it.

Now, you’ve got the quantum version of hydroponic heart and soul growth cooking big time. And the coolest thing is that there isn’t a single time or space where this opportunity is not available to you. It’s as simple as turning your attention.

Holyyyy!

Now, you’ve just left all the constraints of time and space and fully inhabited them at the same time. Welcome to the God class. You are God enrolled in God 101.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.