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“An Empty Vessel Cannot Give Love”: Quotes From Free To Be 5D Book (Available as Free PDF through 12/31)

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By Jelelle Awen

Thank you to everyone who has asked for a free PDF of my book Free To Be 5D:Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out since we began offering it on the 22nd! The sweetest and most touching messages of appreciation for what we offer with SoulFullHeart and for this book gift have come through and that has been so worth it for me, a valuable exchange in the reflection! Many of you commented that the book is coming to you at the perfect timing for your awakening journey and that seems to support the guidance I received to offer it now, esp during this end of year completion and new year calibration.

We are offering the PDF through December 31st, so if you would like to receive it just provide your email to us via soulfullhearts@gmail.com or our website contact page soulfullheart.org/contact or via the blog and we will send you the attachment.

Here are some passages from the book that came up randomly:

12/29 – Today’s random pull quote from my book Free To Be 5D explores the false light matrix projected from the lower 4D. There is much to explore and unplug as your veil of amnesia lifts and you connect to your Gatekeeper and heal the polarities from many lifetimes of fighting, battling, being a warrior.

“You remember your soul’s wisdoms and gifts as you download directly with it through connection with your Gatekeeper aspect allowing your veil of amnesia to gradually lift.

What has previously been a mystery becomes clear again.

What has previously been in shadow comes into the light.

What has been subconscious or unconscious becomes conscious.

Both traumas and gifts that your Metasoul has experienced become accessible and available for healing.

Some of what is presented as ‘mystery school teachings’ these days here on Gaia is still filtering through an outdated model of spiritual teaching anchored to many fear-based timelines and to the 4D Matrix. The 4D Matrix is still running on the fumes of more polarized energies of ‘good versus evil’. It can project an energy of ‘false light’ from it, in which the messages sound loving and have the right words, yet the energy behind them doesn’t match the sentiments.

There is the sense in the 4D Matrix that there is something to battle and to protect yourself from. Spiritual warfare realities are programs from the 4D Matrix, the sense of battling the dark on behalf of the light or being any kind of warrior for the light.”

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12/28 –

Daily random text quote from my book Free To Be 5D from Yeshua, a beloved ascended guide/soul family teacher advocating for FEELING it all so that you can give from an overflowing heart and soul.

As I share about in the book, his energy transcends religions, belief systems, and shadow projections. This is the energy of Golden Earth, New Earth, and what we are moving collectively into as we ascend into higher dimensions of consciousness where we experience more sense of Oneness, peace, self-love, and reverance for all life.

“An empty vessel cannot give love.

Heal your heart and its pain by feeling them.

Heal your soul and its painful legacy by feeling them.

Purify through your tears and your openness to feel it all.

Then, as you are this, will you be able to transact real love, heart open human frequencies with others who are in the same process.

You will be able to let in Universal love frequencies that light up your Infinite Love essence,

and you will be able to give with a healthy heart and soul. ~

love,

Yeshua Christ

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12/27-

“These (parts of you) are the ones so sensitive that their hearts seem to burst and break with every injustice and abuse.

These ones live inside of you. They take the form and shape of your Inner Teenager. Your Inner Child. Your Inner Punisher. Your Inner Protector. Your Gatekeeper. Aspects from other timelines and lifetimes too.

They are beyond shape, age, and time too. Their energies are so often stuck in a looping pattern of trauma that never seems to end. They are beyond time in that the traumas are happening over and over…not in the ‘past’. They become these traumas and cannot seem to escape from the aftermath of them…no matter how much conscious work is done to heal from these situations. That is why so often you can feel a trailing edge emotional reactivity and wounding that still lingers on no matter how many spiritual awakenings and bliss/Oneness/Kundalini experiences you have.

These parts of the 3D Self are the ones that seem to hold the multi-layered and often multi-faceted experience of being wounded in 3D life experience. Some of these parts are more expressive aspects of the personality of your 3D Self. Some of these parts are more buried and suppressed; these parts are put away in the psyche and subconscious until connected with in a conscious way. All of these parts have traumatic scenes and events that were pivotal points for them in which digestion of the traumas and transmutation of these experiences from fear back into love was not possible at that moment.”

More about the Free To Be 5D, an excerpt, and links to purchase as audio, ebook and print editions at soulfullheart.org/freetobe5d

Truly Being LOVE During These Dark Times

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by Kasha Rokshana

Spiritualized/False Light love is idealized love. It allows the heart and head to be buried in the sand, not willing to face what’s actually real in the world, not willing to set necessary boundaries, not willing to speak your deeper truth — especially to yourself — and not willing to live into the invitation of that truth, which can be a lonely road at times and fraught with challenges too.

It also doesn’t allow for the necessary processing of what’s truly happening in the world around you, let alone within you, and those worlds are always connected.

The agenda of the Great Reset is out in the open. It’s scary as hell and also held by the Divine. It’s necessary to see facts and FEEL them too without pretending that if you ‘love and light’ it all or ignore it, the problems go away. In the same way you can’t ‘love and light’ your dissonant relationships and hope they transform… and that’s vulnerable too, to feel how truly alone you may need to be for a time.

Real love is not ideal. It’s not fairytale-based and is in fact laced with darkness. It’s a darkness needed to help you wake up and the waking up process is SO held and deeply honoured, yet not caretaken or coddled. The darkness of love is what encourages us to see and feel what’s real and what supports us through that process. It is Dark Mother helping us burn and awaken, ushering us back into our hearts for our own sake first, and then in overflow of that heart renewal to others.

I feel a gentleness in my field from the arms of the Divine as I take in all of the information I am via documentaries and the like. I feel a cognitive dissonance as I try to reconcile the information, yet I also know in my heart we are meant to walk all of this out with LOVE in our hearts. It’s the same love with which we can let go of those dissonant relationships I mentioned, especially as parts of us become so filled up by it that they can no longer settle for anything less. And these same parts then become receptive to what’s moving in the context of the world around you too, the tensions and movements, all.

Seeing and feeling this agenda really does spark a level of fear and deep sadness and I feel all our sacred human hearts are meant to feel it… our souls know this agenda and also know this is what we came here to live through and work to get to the other side of, despite perhaps not managing to do so in other lifetimes – and I feel that this is what is hardest to feel. All those lifetimes of tragedy and collapse and death without rebirth. It’s happened on a galactic level and also during lifetimes on Earth such as in Atlantis, for example.

Awakening to all of this and more is NOT easy. How could it be? Sometimes love’s intensity is needed to move us into the next place of digestion of that and into our next level UP. Awakening is about waking up to it ALL, even the fearful and awful things, so that we can come into reconciliation of that darkness within and see the true light beyond the false one. To see and feel what real love is about, which is definitely challenging at times but always growthful and in the end, worth every single thing you had to feel with parts of you and Metasoul aspects in other lifetimes too.

I feel the Divine Mother especially coming through now, to offer this reminder about love and the return to Her. She reminds me of how turning to Her isn’t always a gentle-feeling process and can be quite fierce and fiery, but that She always cares and always wants to hold our questions with us, hold our tears with us, and remind us that we are here to experience and explore the meaning of that. There is so much at stake in our worlds as we turn to Her, yet Her and Father are all we have left as a way to understand what’s truly going on as we pour out our hearts in the form of tears…

So much love to you and all parts/aspects of you,

Photo is of me by the Atlantic Ocean a couple of weeks ago in Nazaré, Portugal, where you can feel the churning energies in the world showing up as the big waves that occur there. You can also feel the energies of Atlantis as you tune into it. Very much a death and rebirth message. ✨

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

How Some ‘Spiritual Truths’ Dull Divine Passion & Personal Soul Truth

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By Kasha Rokshana

So many popular ‘spiritual truths’ feel so empty and tinny to me, and they can sometimes be used by parts of you to quell your genuine passion and divine fire. They become such dull platitudes and yet they are revered and held as THE irrefutable Truth for so many souls.

There are so many different ‘truths’ that indeed ARE true in different ways, yet just like affirmations, they can so easily be used in a manipulative way that also dulls intuition and raw instinct within yourself and others. It’s about how they are related to, not about the words themselves…

Taking the “high road” that some of these sayings offer really isn’t as interesting to me as going into the messy road, the one that has brambles and needs some bush-whacking, for that is where realness is and also some very catalytic Divine energies. It’s not that being elevated enough to see the bigger picture isn’t important, but sometimes it’s the grind and grist that leads us to our deepest growth AND our truest exit from the need for grist to appear in the same way.

These ‘truths’ which are so often hijacked by the false light matrix, can be used to gaslight, to divert attention away from a need to actually own what’s rumbling in yourself or another, to keep you from dropping into a realization about a shadow play-out that’s been happening in your life or your spiritual healing/writing offerings.

And, they do anything BUT support you to go into more intimacy grounds within yourself, to truly cultivate and embody your Divine Self, and in that same way they do not support a deepening intimacy ground with others built with true compassion and love.

On my own awakening and Ascension journey, I haven’t personally been drawn to very many of them or the leaders/teachers who spout them off and justify the abuse they dole out through them. Yet, I also feel in my heart why some souls would be drawn and even ignore any intuitions they may have about them, especially if this to them is what love is or must be and it sure seems much more alive than what they’ve endured in the past.

There are so many I could highlight today, yet I’ve chosen just a few to share about that seem to really show up a lot.

“If you’re triggered by me, it’s not about me, it’s all about you”.

While this is true to some degree, this so often gets used to divert away from your own accountability, the mirror of your own shadow showing up. Even though you may have innocently triggered someone, sometimes there is still room to own your own side of things, to see and feel someone in their trigger, and discern if this is a reflection you truly need at this time or not. None of us are perfect, and we DO get to choose whose opinions and reflections of us we value the most, yet there is so much data in all of our triggers for ourselves and our relationships to absolutely everything and everyone.

Also, where is the heartfelt care in saying this to someone that you supposedly DO care about?

“Make sure you heal before you enter in romantic relationship so you don’t project your wounding onto your partner.”

Rare is the soul who is fully done with projecting. It is so challenging at times to be the receiver of projections and sometimes, again, we can innocently trigger someone into this ground, yet this is ALL a sacred part of our exploration of deeper intimacy with others. Sometimes parts of us HAVE to project in order to see and feel themselves from a different light. Without allowing each other to have ‘stuff’ we are working when in relationship, we have missed the point of even going into it in the first place.

In the past it was hard for a time for parts of me to get that we have this permission inside to get messy with others or to let them get messy with me without any true ‘winner’ in the situation, without anyone needing to be ‘wrong’ or ‘right’, and without anyone needing to pretend to be perfect and have it all together. Yet what gets me through the pretense and old conditioning around conflict, is the reminder that we’re all in this together, we’re all imperfect, and if we can at least hold a common ground of doing deep inner work and wanting the mirrors that true intimacy offers us, then we will be just fine and heal in ways we never imagined possible.

And here’s one more which has recently been on my radar: “It doesn’t matter if someone steals or takes credit for your writings or creations made in the service of love. It never truly belonged to you anyways”.

If you have created something from the fires of your inner work, your passion, your hard-earned Divine access inside and out, and someone takes credit for that who has absolutely NOT done the same work you have and may actually be using your words/creations to seduce and create their own platform and following (something many ‘leaders’ do, unfortunately)… why would that be considered ‘ok’? If you genuinely feel unattached, I would say there’s a missing Divine passion in you that some part of you is afraid of and concerned about what it could do if untethered.

Advocacy and reasonable self-defence are not separate from Divine passion. You can keep your heart open, refrain from getting nasty, and stand solidly in your truth all at the same time. I’ve done it, my beloveds have done it, it’s possible and it’s accessible. It also shows that instead of trying to control your emotions, which aren’t ultimately controllable, you are willing to explore what is actually happening in this scenario from all angles possible.

“What’s the lesson I need to learn here?”

Whenever I hear someone say this, I immediately feel an Inner Punisher playing disciplinarian inside of them. It can feel so harsh to say this to yourself or to have a beloved ‘teacher’ say this to you. It takes the humanity out of the equation or worse, tries to discipline your humanity and make it bad or wrong or off or even ‘not ascended enough’.

I don’t feel that the vast majority of ‘teachers’ out there are even remotely qualified enough to ask such questions or make such judgements of you or anyone else, but that’s another piece I’ll share more about soon…

When something goes sideways in my own life, I don’t ask myself if there’s a ‘lesson’ to learn because I’m not in school anymore. What I do is look into the mirror that’s been offered and ask my parts/aspects, “what do I need to feel in myself that’s been off my radar but that I couldn’t see without this situation?” Even with this question sometimes I’ve had to feel a shame spiral my parts have fallen into… yet grounding it back into them and feeling where that comes from helps so much, as well as feeling the situation from as many angles as possible, truly ‘milking’ it for my growth and inner reconciliation while inviting the Divine in to support and love me through it, and then moving on. Nothing will help you move on the way real love does and that is always, without any doubt in my heart, seeded first within.

There’s such an important discernment that is being asked of us in spirituality and beyond. It’s as simple as asking questions about what is truly real, what your heart and intuition both tell you is possible, and feeling how the Divine is guiding you in every moment… whether this means you are able to ‘follow the crowd’ and wherever the current fanfare is around this or that ‘truth’ or ‘teacher’, or if you’d rather stay in your own lane for a while, feel it all out from deep within, and continue to find your own empowered connection to yourself and the Divine.

This has been such an important place to go for me personally and I imagine that we have all struggled at times to find our way to what’s pure, true, good, and loving amidst all of the din.

If my truth stirs or inspires your own in some way, please do be in touch and if you’re curious about 1:1 sessions with me (for women), we can meet for a free intro call to talk about the SoulFullHeart process and community and if it might be a fit for you at this time: soulfullheart.org/sessions

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

V. Bioweapons Are Targeting Our God Gene: Message From Anna, Grandmother of Yeshua

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By Jelelle Awen

From Anna:

You cannot underestimate the threat that you live under and have been programmed by your entire lives. I say this not to bring up fear within you (unless you need to feel that) yet rather for you to feel with compassion ALL that you are living with and under. This threat has become more apparent to you now…over the last 18 months, with their C. and V. agendas, fear propaganda programming, and intense pressure to conform and obey.

These same Dark Ones ruled through the Roman Empire that persecuted my family and my beloved son Yeshua, who also chose to teach the lesson of forgiveness of those who would persecute you….and the wonders of resurrection that can come out of the harshest seeming endings. He arose out of the violence and ‘lived’ many years after his crucifixion in between body and spirit, setting a template and seeding for 5D consciousness living within the body.

We lived as a Magdalene family under a constant threat of being invaded, being persecuted, with some loss of life and violence experienced by us. And yet, still, the Divine would invite us to hold in our hearts a compassion for our ‘persecutors’ and to understand that there were no true victims or abusers in the eyes of the Divine. Each of us being a child of the Divine, EVEN those who seem to be so polarized to the dark, was a deep invitation that we were constantly learning to embody.

So, you are challenged now. In your lifetime. In this time of heightened polarity, segregation, and persecution of those now who have taken the V. and those who have not. Understand too that they have targeted the “God Gene”, as it is called, within your human bodies with these V. Bioweapons. The God Gene is your soul consciousness, your connection to the Divine, your capacity for multidimensional experiences beyond the 3D and 5 sense filtering that they would prefer you stay at. We didn’t see it in our lifetime as they didn’t have access to those technologies then, yet now it is clear that disabling the God Gene is to disconnect what makes humanity sacred as children of the Divine. That connection is your source of empowerment, your source of hope, your source of compassion and forgiveness and compassion. Your source of love. Without this connection, you then become susceptible to their fear-based programming even more than you are already have been.

For those who have not CONSCIOUSLY unplugged from their control Matrix (and for many years as it is a very arduous initiation process chosen by the soul and Higher Self), they are already very vulnerable to the transhuman, remote-controlled technologies that these V. bioweapons infuse into the body along with the 5G grid, chem trails, and poisoned food/water sources. Even many spiritual teachers and seekers may be compromised here as they are still operating within the False Light Matrix programming rather than outside of it. This is how the Dark Ones have ‘dealt’ with those whose souls would awaken during their lifetimes. They would hook into their karmic wounds, trap them in karmic incarnation cycles, and a pattern of the same soul theme sufferings over and over again with unworthiness, disconnect, guilt, dominance of others or suppression of self, etc. to cap them from rising into their OWN Divine connection embodiment.

Unless you have unplugged CONSCIOUSLY from this False Light Matrix AND the previous mainstream 3D one, you are still operating under their agenda to some extent. Those spiritual teachers/healers who are not very directly talking about the V. agenda and offering guidance/support to refuse it are still plugged into the False Light Matrix. They are in a ‘love and light’ bubble or a ‘guru/devotee lineage’ bubble or a self image/ego-based frequency to their spirituality that becomes very obvious to you once you have unplugged from it.

Now, the Dark Ones are hijacking the God Gene directly (which they have spent years trying to isolate as they know it is part of the ‘problem’ of why humans rebel and kept trying to awaken) and then they are hoping the False Light Matrix won’t be necessary as the soul’s drive to awaken will extinguish. Much of spirituality and religion will fall away then, as you are seeing already the collapse and upheaval of some of it. This is yet another reason to not inject their V. bioweapons into your precious human body vessel. Your God Gene, the hook up to your Divine parental source, is so important and vital, esp during this time.

The pressure will keep building to get the V., with many more freedoms taken away, as the Dark Ones shift rapidly from the ‘carrot’ of incentives to the ‘stick’ of punishment and peer pressure policing.

Your trust in the Divine will be crucial during this time to navigate through this. Within your primal Divine nature, ALL the resources you need to survive this lay dormant. From many lifetimes lived BEFORE the Matrix reality came to be after the Fall of Atlantis. From many millions of years in the Golden Age of Lemuria. From 5D other planetary experiences.

You have access to SO MUCH within your soul field that can help you now. And you came here now to remember, to wake UP, to truly be free of their Matrix. This lifetime offers that opportunity. If you choose it. The biggest challenge is to let go of those who are still within their Matrix programming and are choosing to stay there. You cannot fight their soul choice here, as they must still have growth to experience within it. Nor fight the choice many will make to leave their bodies now rather than ascend with Gaia.

Gaia holds the 5D template now, you can tune into in the wild natural places that are left on the surface. She activates your God and Goddess Gene and provides a groundedness to your spirituality that helps you unplug from the False Light matrix. She broadcasts the beacon of ‘home’ to you so that you can remember, you can chose, you can love….you can truly be FREE.

So much love to you during this dark time for which so much is possible,Anna, grandmother of Yeshua, Magdalene Elder Priestess and Wise Woman with Jelelle Awen

We are offering powerful healing 1:1 sessions to support you during this intense time to connect with your God Gene consciousness/Higher Self and unplug from the False Light/3D matrix. I am working with those women who have previously met with me, Gabriel and Kasha offer free intro calls plus 1:1 sessions, and Raphael 1:1 sessions as well to those new to our work. More info at soulfullheart.org/sessions

Photo is of Gaia transmissions here in this beautiful mountain vortex Lemurian hot spot in northern Portugal.

Womb Healing Activation & Unplugging From The Matrix Women’s Group Call April 4th

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By Jelelle Awen

The womb is a powerful space of creativity, alchemy, stillness, and bridge to our ancient Sacred Feminine empowerment roots. Our wombs become filled with pain/trauma layers and also hijacked by the 3D/4D Matrix so our access to the purity essence of our womb is often covered over and not fully activated.

Kasha and I are co-hosting our second women’s group call over Zoom providing womb healing and activation here from Avalon. The first one drew close to 25 women in sacred circle with us and was a powerful healing frequency! The focus of our group on Sunday, April 4, 2021 at 5:00pm/17:00pm BST (London, UK timezone/12:00pm EST/9:00am PST) will be opening up more access to your womb for healing and activation in order to unplug from the 3D/Lower 4D control Matrix.

We will talk about how our wombs have been hijacked by the Matrix control system (and what that is, how it impacts us, etc.) since the Fall of Atlantis and how that creates an ongoing disempowerment for us. This hijacking also impacts what we experience within our wombs during often painful and debilitating ‘programmed’ menstrual cycles. Our wombs can be filled with and hijacked by false mother/false god frequencies, Patriarchal/wounded masculine energies; transmuting other people’s energies as empaths; aborted/still gestating/blocked creative projects and expressions; and suppression of our wombs’ truth.

Through a personal relationship with our wombs, even having her give us a ‘name’ and journaling/dialogue, and supported by the Divine Mother…we can unplug our wombs from the Matrix and become truly free. Kasha and I will share our personal journeys with this process and our wombs during the call.

During this call, we will also guide you in a meditative space into a safe healing dimension to allow deep connection to your womb and activation. Mother Mary and Mary Magdalene will join us as Love Ambassadors as we go into the Matrix multidimensional space to unplug our wombs. We will also repeat affirmations as mantras together.You can receive these Divine Feminine frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards.

If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us.This women’s group is open to the public and to all women over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of whatever donation you feel to give.

You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawenand we will send you the zoom link via email. Please make a note that you are purchasing the April 4th women’s group and check that your email is current.

Group will last a max of two hours depending on those that want to share their experiences and ask questions. You can purchase our last women’s group call and others in the series at https://www.soulfullheart.org/shop

More info here https://www.facebook.com/events/715845532438759 and soulfullheart.org/events

Love from OUR wombs to yours in Avalon!

Jelelle and Kasha