This time of year there is a collective ritual of looking back and looking forward. Evaluating what happened this past year and what wants to be made manifest in the year to come. There are things we look at personally and things we look at globally. These past couple of New Year’s have been hard to peel away the two as separate as they have seemed bound to each other somehow. What happens ‘out there’ can directly influence and effect what happens ‘in here’.
This morning I felt like checking in with the New Year and feeling what it has to offer me personally and collectively. I have been connecting more with my Gatekeeper as well to continue to heal his own distortions, wounding, and relationship to Love and the Divine so that I can receive a clearer message rooted in compassion and passion both. I will write more about my Gatekeeper in the New Year as it will be presented in the upcoming Deepen video series with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. More info on that here: http://www.soulfullheart.org/deepen2022.
When I invited 2022 to presence itself I was drawn to the number two, obviously. The first thing I felt and saw was Choice. We all have a choice in this life, even in the most dire of circumstances. We may not have a choice in an external situation, but we ALWAYS have a choice on how to relate and respond to it. This power of Choice can be challenged in numerous ways and at profound depths. Do we choose suffering or do we choose Love?
I understand that this may seem elementary and basic depending on our circumstances, but I feel a sacred reality and truth in it each time I go in to feel what is gnawing at me or making me feel less than the Divinity I AM. We all have parts and aspects of us that can look outbound and compile a trove of evidence to convince our inner juries that we are fucked, worthless, or forever in some kind of suffering loop.
This is not meant to disregard those feelings, but rather meant to access the You that lives above those clouds and in the realm of Grace. I have been rewatching the past Matrix movies, and there was a scene in the third one where Trinity and Neo flew above the clouds in that dystopian world and saw the real Sun for probably the first time ever only to fall back down into it again to complete their mission.
This is what I feel 2022 is inviting each of us to realize. We have access to that world above the clouds and in the Graceland of the Divine. Not just to transcend and park ourselves there, but to recognize that we are more than the suffering while working through it at the same time. It is a matter of choice to see and feel it that way. Each moment offers us a portal into that choice and to challenge each of us to feel alive and in Love, even if that means feeling the pain of NOT feeling alive and in Love. That pain is actually part of it. Not feeling is the suffering.
This coming year, I’m sure, will provide more of the same when it comes to the insanity of the pandemic. Yet, this increasing insanity will actually allow each of us to poultice out our own sanity in the form of choosing Life, Liberty, and Love. It starts from the inside. It starts from feeling the parts of us that are in a state that doesn’t feel these things, or believe they are not possible. It starts with feeling that Sun above the clouds, even if it is just a faint recollection or desire. That sliver is the proof it does exist, just as a ray of sun peeking through thick clouds is proof there is a Sun even if we can’t see it in totality.
As I let this in, I feel such a deep compassion where all souls are at and what each is choosing. I feel a deep call to help others with this process of healing and leaving the suffering over the suffering. I feel to do this in the name of those that may not have quite the choice such as our children who are stuck in this upside down world we have all co-created on one level or another. We can each help ourselves which in turn inspires others to follow suit, so that we can begin to create and remember a world that upholds innocence as the Divine Child within each of us.
I invite you to check out the upcoming video series mentioned above as well as join our free online platform at https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co to partake in our digestion and conversation of the series and the year to come. It would be a blessing to have you a part of it.
Here is to a New Year and an Alive, Free, and Loving You by day and by choice.
Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc