Allowing Your Mourning To Open Your Heart

by Kalayna Colibri

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There are different life phases where a mourning process of some kind sets in. Parts of you can feel overwhelmed with grief… sometimes wanting to lash out, sometimes wanting to simply cocoon in until the storm passes, and maybe the two of these are combined in some moments too. Life can feel ‘cruel’ to parts, especially as it is often so hard to try and see the bigger picture holding the process you have found yourself immersed in, sometimes without much warning at all.

What I feel to invite now, is for all of us to feel it and be with it. Let it move into you, feeling it through, being in the tears. Parts of you need this ‘time’. They need to simply be held. The time for reframing for them and moving on from the suffering of it into more context and ultimately a deeper trust in love, life, self and the Divine too will emerge naturally, especially if the rawness is felt first. 3D reality has conditioned other parts of us to want to stymie the whole process of mourning and grief and they have deeply taken that in and held it as the only possibility. Even some spiritual practices encourage ‘letting go’ as the number one priority, yet ‘letting love’ is what comes first… letting love in to do its work, which comes into the heart, illuminates and presses on the bumps and bruises to allow the feeling to come in and flow out, which ultimately brings us the gift of deep healing and a naturally arising sense of joy and trust on the other side of it.

Ultimately, mourning of anything or anyone… any relationship, any life phase… is a process of alchemy. It is a process of creation and recreation in an extremely powerful way, as all movements within the heart truly are. It is an opportunity to allow in compassion as the mourning churns and moves and eventually fades, too. Compassion for the person or thing or perhaps beloved pet you are letting go of. Compassion for the life they led, the phases had with you, their needs for the next phase of life or death or anything in between that they now need to be with and live into. This is perhaps one of the most challenging things to feel for parts of us, yet it is the place where I feel we are ultimately guided to by pure love frequencies, as we feel everything that’s NOT compassion first, as well as the deep mourning and sense of loss in parts of us.

What truly moves us into our next phases and places is ‘e-motion’… our feelings rise and fall as they need to and this is what maps out the terrain of our next growth points and places of deeper inhabitation in our lives. It is often a very powerful sojourn into the unknown of life that launches us into our most profound awakenings and healing. This is what leads us, by the heart, into our Sacred Humanity and all that this new phase of humanity entails… ❤

With you, in whatever mourning processes you may be going through, as I am also in the various layers of mine…

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

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The Flower Bud Of The Opening And Healing Heart

by Kalayna Colibri

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I wrote this poem last year on this day… it represents so much to me, about the process of different parts of me, waiting and wanting to emerge, feeling hesitant to let me be in my bigness that includes their bigness too. I feel the ever-opening heart that only opens more with realness and vulnerable feelings of where, when and how it is hard to be open to love… 

I am publishing this today, to feel and honour your process as well as mine. Maybe something in my words and energy here will invite you to feel your resonance with the process of opening up the heart that I am sharing about. ❤

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I feel my heart’s openness 
bloom and close
like a hesitant yet aching flower bud.
Yet so young though quite old
I find a solace somewhere in the unknown
and a restlessness too
that points out the grey
yet colours the night
with radiant rays of blue and gold.

The seeking of a heart that rumbles
and never really sleeps
nor needs to
for the other-dimensional sights and sounds
are the ones it is always tuned to
and the songs it always plays
on a heart-si-chord of gold and white light.

Perhaps the words flowing out
have still a place to land
in another hesitant flower bud
who also dreams to paint the sky
with the radiance of its very being
and its very courage of existence,
like a banner to all others
who long to be touched
by what they cannot see or understand
with a learned mentality
and years of seeking and not discovering.

This flower’s bud will soon find its aperture
that reflects its growing wholeness
and perfection
in the light of all that was once seen as grey
and all that was once felt
as the bleeding of a day
that simply refused to dawn.

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.