Tag: grieving

The Death Of Our Formal Normal

Published on by Gabriel AmaraLeave a comment

The Rome and Titanic of our former collective institutions, the ones we collectively agree upon to keep them afloat, are all under fire and sinking. Government, health care, education, finance, real estate, defense, economics, supply-chain…the list goes on.

There is an ongoing hospice going on and there are different reactions to it. It is like the stages of grief- denial, anger, negotiation, depression, and acceptance. Where each of us is at means different ways in which we are relating to the current situation. The soul knows what’s up. Our emotional consciousness is just trying to catch up to it all!

This can bring a lot of suffering as well as some feelings of empowerment. Different parts of us come forward to manage the situation the best they know how. The deeper question is what does your soul feel is its truth? Not THE truth, but IT’S truth. It’s genuine sense of what lies underneath all this rumble and rubble.

This may not even apply to the global situation, but rather your own personal and local circumstance. Whatever it is that most impacts your ability to feel the Divine and your own soul. To feel the Eternal Love that holds the space for the drama AND the joy. I am more and more feeling like an outside observer while also feeling the impacts in my Higher Heart on the collective soul.

I am reminded that we are awakening. This process is not a painless one. It is wrought with turbulence and challenges. These are the fodder for our own liberation. They are the initiations that we all signed up for to help steward Gaia back into Her glory state. To re-member ourselves back to our original sacred humanity.

It takes a lot of patience, courage, compassion, and self-focus. It takes support and letting go of all that does not serve that vision. While the external may be in its death throes, your internal is its birth pangs, as long as you give yourself the environment it needs to flourish.
You are held. You are supported. You are the light of what comes next.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

How You Leave One Phase Of Life Determines How You Enter The Next

Published on by Raphael Awen1 Comment

By  Raphael Awen

The changing season of the year causes us to yearn.

Whatever was left unfulfilled of summer desires, now falls into our personal composter to be transmuted into yearning. Yearning in turn takes us into new places as it seasons our appetite to trust again, to desire again.

I’ve always had most of my biggest life changes occurring around this time of year. This year is no different as we find a new place to settle in Portugal and break camp from our camping experience this summer in Northern Portugal.

If life is anything, it is an adventure where the advent and joy of new things invites us to let go of old things. This involves grief, mourning and letting go, all of which wouldn’t be a thing were there no attachment.

Of course, you were attached!

You had a really cool thing going on. It was the best you ever knew, quite possibly beyond what you even dared hope for. Now, it’s coming to an end. The only real ‘attachment disorder’ would be the inability to mourn the detachment.

If life is an adventure, then it is a series of attachments and detachments, of joys and sorrows. The ones who live the deepest lives are the ones who can let in the deepest joys and the deepest sorrows.

How you leave one phase of life determines how you enter the next. If you cannot grieve the loss of something that you truly loved, you’ll be hampered to allow another really good thing that will only end up compounding your unexpressed grief. This becomes the flatlined life we see passing itself off as normal all around us.

Life wants to utterly surprise you again, but it also doesn’t want to do that if it will end up being to your demise and unnecessary suffering. You get in shape for the next surprise if you are able to enter your yearning, being willing to truly want, being able to truly feel what you gained and what you lost.

You’re human, and humans get to grieve, because they also get to attain the coolest shit. Your courage and strength is found in your welcoming of the adventure.

Be with the parts of you who are afraid to grieve. They know that grieving lets in the next adventure and they understandably need digestion of the last adventure before they can go on to the next.

Raphael Awen

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Jelelle and I went to Píodão yesterday, here in central Portugal.  An ancient town all built out of the local stone. For the travel bug in you, here’s a sweet article on Piodao: https://portuguese-american-journal.com/travel-life-in…/

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Honoring & Grieving As We Complete Our Sacred Union Relationship: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Mar 25, 2019)

Published on by Kasha RokshanaLeave a comment

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

It’s been a week of digesting some waves of letting go and letting in… featured this week is a piece by Jelelle Awen and Raphael Awen too, as they transparently and vulnerably share about the completion of their 10 year marriage and beloved Sacred Union. In this writing, they share their appreciation of each other and what they had, even as they walk out a deep letting go of the romance. Their experience of Sacred Union is a powerful template for a new way to be in relationship and in a romantic bond. As Jelelle writes,

“We always held our sacred union as a moment by moment choice….not like a ‘death till us part’ vow…..not something that would bind and tie as in 3D marriages. Yet, rather we entered into each moment transacting with the bond between us that would arise to serve love to each of us…..or wouldn’t. To be in a sacred union like this is to feel always that something is ‘at stake’ even as it becomes more and more comfortable to be truly vulnerable and intimate with each other. This kind of sacred union asks you to always keep deepening the sacred union within you in order to be able to transact it with each other from a place of overflow. And sometimes, too, it also asks you to commit to that inner sacred union with complete devotion and focus for a phase of time.”

There is much NEW on the horizon as well, as Jelelle and her daughter Raianna Shai plan a major relocation to Europe in the coming months with a focus on serving love in different geographies. More details on this as it unfolds.

Jelelle will be facilitating an in-person group session day here in Victoria, Canada on Saturday, April 6th from 10am – 5pm PDT. During this monthly group session day, you get space to share what your current process is and receive feedback and reflections from others. We will lead a guided meditation to bring in high vibrational energies to support Divine connection and emotional feeling too. You will also have the opportunity to receive energy healing as well if that comes up in your process.

There are new articles and audio blogs this week from Jelelle, along with Gabriel and Kalayna Solais. There is a theme this week of grieving, letting go and letting in, learning how to be with your parts and be real about the pain coming up while also letting in trust in the bigger picture and support from the Divine. There are also several energy updates to take in.

Jelelle, Gabriel, and Kalayna (Kalayna is available to serve women 30 and under) offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD minimum donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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The Profound Experience Of Grief

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

by Gabriel Solais

Grief is a profound experience in the wake of Loss.

It opens the heart to the bedrock of our humanity and our divinity. It can be where the two join hands. Ultimately in our highest heart and soul essence, there is no loss, just a death and rebirth, a transmutation of energy.

Of course, the circumstance and specifics of the loss can be quite jarring and extremely painful. To lose a child or other loved one in a tragic way holds so much energy than if it were in a natural one. Tragic grief is one that has so many dimensions to it that needs the time and space necessary to be as real and expressive as possible.

Grief is held by parts of us for so many reasons. It can be an inner child or teenager, inner shame and guilt, rage, and/or hurt. It is held in our SOULullar memory as another lifetime in our Metatsoul that may have multiple experiences of that same circumstance playing out.

Holding the grief as a part of you, even as you are in the throes of the pain, helps to offer love to it from a different place as opposed to being the grief itself. You can move with it. Love it. Learn from it. Grow from it. It is actually a gift as it opens the heart into realms that were previously hidden and unconscious.

You can arise out of the ashes of grief with a renewed sense of surrender, acceptance, purpose, and self. You can feel yourself as divinely connected to Source, and even the expression of Source Itself. It is not meant to be a suffering loop or to be glossed over with any numerous distractions.

The fear of getting sucked up by grief is what keeps the pain in place. That is another protective part not wanting you to feel any more pain than you already have in this and other lives. That is tender to feel and yet is also important to negotiate with this part how much you really want and need to feel and heal, once and for all.

This experience may be the most alive that many of us have ever felt. That is the gift in it as well. It offers a permission to feel all the pent-up rage, hurt, rejection, and existential pain. It is cathartic and transmutative.

So as we focus on the joyous side of being alive, there is also the sorrow side that gifts us what joy truly feels like in contrast. And for that, we honor it and love it just as we would any other emotion that helps us to authentically feel our humanity.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s Facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Allowing Your Mourning To Open Your Heart

Published on by Kasha Rokshana3 Comments

by Kalayna Colibri

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There are different life phases where a mourning process of some kind sets in. Parts of you can feel overwhelmed with grief… sometimes wanting to lash out, sometimes wanting to simply cocoon in until the storm passes, and maybe the two of these are combined in some moments too. Life can feel ‘cruel’ to parts, especially as it is often so hard to try and see the bigger picture holding the process you have found yourself immersed in, sometimes without much warning at all.

What I feel to invite now, is for all of us to feel it and be with it. Let it move into you, feeling it through, being in the tears. Parts of you need this ‘time’. They need to simply be held. The time for reframing for them and moving on from the suffering of it into more context and ultimately a deeper trust in love, life, self and the Divine too will emerge naturally, especially if the rawness is felt first. 3D reality has conditioned other parts of us to want to stymie the whole process of mourning and grief and they have deeply taken that in and held it as the only possibility. Even some spiritual practices encourage ‘letting go’ as the number one priority, yet ‘letting love’ is what comes first… letting love in to do its work, which comes into the heart, illuminates and presses on the bumps and bruises to allow the feeling to come in and flow out, which ultimately brings us the gift of deep healing and a naturally arising sense of joy and trust on the other side of it.

Ultimately, mourning of anything or anyone… any relationship, any life phase… is a process of alchemy. It is a process of creation and recreation in an extremely powerful way, as all movements within the heart truly are. It is an opportunity to allow in compassion as the mourning churns and moves and eventually fades, too. Compassion for the person or thing or perhaps beloved pet you are letting go of. Compassion for the life they led, the phases had with you, their needs for the next phase of life or death or anything in between that they now need to be with and live into. This is perhaps one of the most challenging things to feel for parts of us, yet it is the place where I feel we are ultimately guided to by pure love frequencies, as we feel everything that’s NOT compassion first, as well as the deep mourning and sense of loss in parts of us.

What truly moves us into our next phases and places is ‘e-motion’… our feelings rise and fall as they need to and this is what maps out the terrain of our next growth points and places of deeper inhabitation in our lives. It is often a very powerful sojourn into the unknown of life that launches us into our most profound awakenings and healing. This is what leads us, by the heart, into our Sacred Humanity and all that this new phase of humanity entails… ❤

With you, in whatever mourning processes you may be going through, as I am also in the various layers of mine…

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.