Tag: emotional process

Feeling & Processing Current Events With The Inner Child

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by Kalayna Solais

As I went into meditation this morning, members of my Star Family were right there waiting for me and for a very precious part of me, especially.

I’ve been closest with my Star Family aspects from Sirius over the last few years. I think in some ways this is because, well, they are feline and look like “lion-people” so that makes them easier to let in for my young parts especially, but also, they are among the groups that have been working the closest with humanity. You may especially feel them nearby, energizing love and support to you around “Lion’s Gate” every August 8th. They’re also accessible because they’ve been where we are now and they understand the Ascension process well from their own experience of it and of the sacred yet often ‘bliss-messy’ steps along the way.

My Sirian-Lyran (that’s a sort of ‘star being name’ I’ve been offered to call them as it encompasses their origins) aspect named Ineerah and her masculine counterpart named Ortho wanted to connect with me and with my Inner Child, Lilly. They have been feeling her and MANY Inner Children a lot lately with everything going on. The Inner Child seems to be THE seat of sensitivity and deep reactions to what is going on right now, alongside the deep soul rumbles that everyone is feeling as the ‘collapse’ happening around us in different ways is very reminiscent of other timelines our souls all know very well (which our Inner Children are also impacted by to some degree).

Ineerah and Ortho wanted to connect with Lilly and feel her in this heightened sensitivity to the world. She is (as they always seem to be) very empathic and even a deep layer of all of us who feel we are ‘healers’ in some way.

Just yesterday I felt deep tears with her about the ‘meanness’ of others, not just towards her, but towards each other. She doesn’t like the judgements everyone has of one another and the harshness too. She doesn’t like how intense parts of people can be about ‘rules’ and ‘health regulations’, especially while she feels all of this is about SO MUCH MORE than a ‘virus’. She hasn’t felt much about what’s happening/not happening in our world right now and is actually quite happy to hear that animals are returning to places like Venice and that China’s skies are clearing. She hopes for a better future, just like all of our Inner Children do. And in that, they need presence, especially OUR presence. And, they need a voice. But, their voice cannot be heard, let alone land, in a world that remains as chaotic and out-of-touch with the real heart of things and their own individual hearts too, as has been true up ’til now.

This is what my Sirian-Lyran Star Family told her this morning, in light of this,

“Lilly,  the world is going through what it needs to right now so that you and parts like you can come out and feel safer. You WILL feel free to love and let in love in new ways as has been very unimaginable sometimes beyond your soul family connections. We know how much you ache to love and to have it be as simple as that… adult relationships, as you’ve noticed, are so complicated sometimes, but in a world where you get to be you, in all of the magic that’s within you, you get to be part of the celebration of what’s coming. You and all other parts like you are a light at the end of a very long, dark tunnel! And there’s nothing you need to DO to BE this, you just simply ARE this.”

They’re emphasizing to me now to share that our Inner Children are not a ‘solution’, but they are a ‘result’. Meaning, they are not (though sometimes this happens) meant to be actively ‘used’ as a means to an end by other parts of us to ‘solve’ issues on this planet or in our relationships, pressing on and using their hurt and pain somehow instead of healing it, which can only happen if/when we scoop them up and hold them close as us, ourselves. Their ideal alignment is with love and deep soul and heart freedom and they are freed up by the work you do with other parts of you and within your soul healing as well. They are not the labour pains of birthing the new reality, yet they ARE a new reality, especially as their essence of innocence, empathy, and trust in the Divine get to be re-discovered and unearthed.

In all of the sensitivity arising in just about everyone right now, whether it’s showing up mostly as fear, or sadness, or even excitement about what’s possible after all of this is over, it feels important to remember that this sensitivity was always there, just buried in busyness, which is now falling away. The real feelings of the heart can no longer be medicated or hidden in the same ways now that the outer world has been ‘locked down’. This can lead each of us into many deep processes yet these feelings are all meant to bring us into our truest anchoring from within of the New Earth that is in the middle of birthing into our reality.

If you feel ready to try and be with or even meet your own sweet Inner Child, you can try this meditation from Jelelle Awen to help you get in touch with them: https://youtu.be/L_bpgyIuYds

And, as always, my beloveds Jelelle and Raphael are available for 1:1 sessions if you would like to receive some mega-hearted love and support at this time: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions ❤

Much love from my heart and parts, and Star Family too, to yours!

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart facilitant, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

Practical Ascension Vlog: Emotional Area Personal Process Sharings

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by Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri

In this video, SoulFullHeart Facilitators, Teachers and Sacred Union mates, Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri, share from their personal process paths in the emotional area of life. They talk about what some of the major themes were inside of themselves as they began their SoulFullHeart process and what emotional themes led them each to this path.

Kalayna and Gabriel have been on their individual SoulFullHeart paths for over 6 years. They have made the decision over and over again to go inward, discovering different parts of themselves that were up front and in the shadows, with a willingness in their hearts to continue looking in the mirror. This is challenging to do, especially in a world that has us conditioned to look outward for answers, ‘fixing’ and healing.

An essential aspect of the emotional process in SoulFullHeart is feeling and being felt in a safe and held environment while receiving reflections from a Facilitator and space-holder who has been there and who continues to do their own work ongoingly. The emotional intimacy experienced inside of yourself and inside of this relationship with your Facilitator and the SoulFullHeart community too, is one that offers deep healing and a soul and heart bond that is free of grabbing or tugging, yet is loving in a profound way that has not often been templated or experienced before.

In other videos for this area, Gabriel and Kalayna will be talking about specific parts of you (inner protector, inner punisher, inner teenager, inner mother/father), who and what they are, where they come from, and what their pain can be and often is about, and what your process with this part of you could look and feel like.

If you have any questions or comments, you can leave them in the comment thread here or find us on Facebook (just look for Kalayna Colibri and/or Gabriel Heartman and/or SoulFullHeart Way Of Life!). You can also email soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. 

 Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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The Leading And Trailing Edges Of Our Awakenings

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by Kalayna Colibri

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Each and every time you have an awakening experience, though they are coveted and desired and often long-awaited and worked for, these experiences also carry you into a greater unknown. The whole idea of awakening is to shake something up inside, whether it moves your frequency up or drops back in inward into parts of you that need you more than ever. Sometimes awakening experiences bring us both in tandem. Sometimes we call this, ‘leading edge’ and ‘trailing edge’ in SoulFullHeart. ‘Leading edge’ is the experience of true and pure love awakening and deepening inside and feeling your actions, words, expression of you coming from a higher, less reactive and more expansive place, and ‘trailing edge’ is the opposite, or what can feel like the opposite; the parts of you coming up in reaction to the expansion, trying to close the gap between it and them, sometimes flooding you with their lower frequency wounding and reality. The main bridge between the two is consciousness, awareness that this can and will happen and that your job as an arising authentic self is to be an ambassador between the two, not negating or dismissing one or the other, yet bringing them together somehow and letting the newfound expansiveness inside to become the bigger container for the smallness, the pain, the existential terror.

I remember being quite young and awakening to angelic frequencies and love. My birth mother had given me a gift that Christmas of my first deck of Angel cards. They were simple yet sweet, not created by any well-known author or speaker. I was in my early teens at that time, or just about anyways. I remember playing with them, exploring them, reading the little book they came with. I did as the book instructed and asked a question I believe, or simply asked for guidance. I did a little spread of the cards and picked them up to read the other side. The messages that came through hit a chord of resonance inside my heart and soul, both. I felt a rush of energy move through me and suddenly felt Angels, what I called ‘my’ Angels, surrounding and encouraging me. The love I felt was so exquisite, I believe I even had tears… I remember too, that the book suggested dowsing as another method of reading the cards. I grabbed a necklace of mine with a small ring on it – a ring that had a nickname of mine etched into it and was too small for me to wear, so I had put it on the chain instead. I held it out in front of me, above my palm, to ‘tune it in’, asking it which direction it would turn in to mean ‘yes’ and which way would mean ‘no’. To my surprise, oh my God, it MOVED!! Woah!! The rush of adrenaline and excitement that followed I can’t explain in words, but it felt so powerful and I felt so powerful to be holding this tool in my hand!

After this happened, I ran to tell my mother and sister about what I had experienced. Part of me felt a bit shy about sharing, slightly worried about it being invalidated, but too excited to let that in at the time. I shared with them and my heart sank… there was an ounce of validation from my mother, who was exploring some areas of spirituality outside of the Catholic church I grew up in along with me, yet she couldn’t let it in deeply and didn’t ask any questions about it. My sister just sort of looked at me, I recall. I think she said something like, ‘that’s cool’. As my first experience of an awakening, without having much knowledge of what awakenings even were at the time, this sort of set the tone for any of my other awakenings that followed. I do not fault either of them for their reactions… their parts weren’t sure what to do with any of this and they probably both had fear and maybe even comparison come up. What I was doing was not ‘normal’ and I think it actually reflected their own capacities back to them, which of course parts, especially Inner Protectors/Gatekeepers who are busy trying to navigate the dense 3D world, tend to have big reactions to, as it isn’t exactly safe to be outside the norm in most cases.

Nonetheless, this birthed a whole world of spirituality for me. It validated so much of what I had begun to read about in different books by spiritual authors. I feel a young part of me sharing all of this, as she was the one who primarily ‘drove the bus’ on my spiritual adventures for many years of my life. Eventually, this part and I needed to separate from birth family and many other relationships altogether, as the lack of resonance hurt and also wasn’t serving my continued openings and my desire to deeply heal.

What followed was many years of seeking and searching. Being very naturally emotional and reactive and not having a container for it, no matter what spiritual path I/part of me tried on for size. I came close to some version of ‘parts work’ through one particular author and speaker who I even studied with for a while and this path was what then led me to SoulFullHeart, which I now teach and facilitate today. It took me a long time to realize that I needed to bridge to my emotional world, not try to put it away. And in truth, my parts weren’t ever going to let me do that anyway!

Every awakening I’ve had has been a mixed experience of up and down, sometimes at the same time, as I can feel my emotional body and also the wounding in my soul trying to catch up with the higher frequencies pouring in and watering my heart with so much love and dawning awareness. I invite you to feel where and how your own emotional body needs to catch up to your own awakenings and openings… to feel how your relationships currently surrounding you serve or don’t serve you along the way is an essential part of awakening and growing and healing. Every new vista invites us all to feel deeper where and who we are as well as who we want and need to become. And, they also invite us deeper into love, so we can better serve love, especially to others who truly want and need us to and are ready to let in their own capacity for the same!

Love to you in each and every moment of your awakening journey… know that my love and the love of many go into these places WITH you! ❤

Come explore the 7 Key Areas Of Life with Gabriel Heartman and me in our new vlog series called Practical Ascension! The playlist of all of our videos so far can be found here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvInP1AB__TzXykZythfad8i

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Reflections For This Winter Solstice, On The Service Of Love

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by Kalayna Colibri
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Holding space for others is a precious gift that ultimately gives you back to you…
 
After holding space for a beloved SoulFullHeart facilitant today, I feel lit up. I feel reminded of my soul purpose. I feel supported by guides and the Divine, yes, but also by my own divinity, my own arising Sacred Human self that is consistently and intently healing, weighing anchor in those areas of 3D reality that parts of me may still hold on to, accessing more and more authentic soul and heart expression and gifts within, that have always been there though perhaps dormant and waiting for their time in the sun. I am lit up by my own sense of service of love in a personal way that came out of the session today, yet by my facilitant’s own soul and heart passions as well, which were in direct collaboration with my own the entire time, in a very palpable and powerful way and were such a key part of the sacredness of the space held for her and her parts.
 
It all reminds me of why I hold space for others. And that the service of love is not meant for us as healers as a way to become and then remain all-powerful Masters with all of the answers, no matter how high we may ascend or what frequencies we may have the blissful pleasure of accessing. I offer this healing path because I too am on it and in it. I too am healing. I too, on some level, need the frequencies of my facilitants as much as they need mine. I need the reflections that service of love offers to me and I take them into my heart, trusting what they offer. Trusting that they offer just as much as any current Ascension energies, kick-ups, upgrades, or integrations.
 
Who are we if we aren’t serving others to realize their own gifts, their own access, their own awakenings? Who are we to each other, if we aren’t feeling deeply those parts of us who want nothing to do with ‘people’, who resent others, who compare and criticize partly as a way to keep you small, but also to diminish the power of love within others too? I feel reminded today, of the importance as a healer, Facilitator, WaySHOWer, teacher, to continue going IN as the number one priority and to continue making and holding space for that…. and then, sharing that space too. It’s as important to cultivate the love within as it is to share it, not for validation (though sometimes parts of us need that) yet because it’s MEANT to be shared in the name of the exponential service of love.
 
Maybe it’s just perfect to be feeling this and offering it too on this day of Winter Solstice… a day that feels like it offers us all a reminder to go inward, to continue to feel, to BE with ourselves as we desire to BE with each other. There’s a portal in the hearth of your heart today, that is inviting you to feel the service of love you are called to and the steps to embodying that, which may sometimes be messy, yet are also bliss-y on the other side of all of the sacredly held feeling spaces where parts of you can Metasoul Aspects too can finally land and become as real as they are ready for and need to become. ❤
 
 
If you feel ready to explore the different parts of you and to take the next step of your journey into deeper service of love, starting with YOU, my beloveds and I are here to serve and support and you can book a free 30min intro session with one of us if you feel ready for that: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions If you are interested in sessions with me, at the moment I am serving young women around and under the age of 30.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Allowing Your Mourning To Open Your Heart

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by Kalayna Colibri

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There are different life phases where a mourning process of some kind sets in. Parts of you can feel overwhelmed with grief… sometimes wanting to lash out, sometimes wanting to simply cocoon in until the storm passes, and maybe the two of these are combined in some moments too. Life can feel ‘cruel’ to parts, especially as it is often so hard to try and see the bigger picture holding the process you have found yourself immersed in, sometimes without much warning at all.

What I feel to invite now, is for all of us to feel it and be with it. Let it move into you, feeling it through, being in the tears. Parts of you need this ‘time’. They need to simply be held. The time for reframing for them and moving on from the suffering of it into more context and ultimately a deeper trust in love, life, self and the Divine too will emerge naturally, especially if the rawness is felt first. 3D reality has conditioned other parts of us to want to stymie the whole process of mourning and grief and they have deeply taken that in and held it as the only possibility. Even some spiritual practices encourage ‘letting go’ as the number one priority, yet ‘letting love’ is what comes first… letting love in to do its work, which comes into the heart, illuminates and presses on the bumps and bruises to allow the feeling to come in and flow out, which ultimately brings us the gift of deep healing and a naturally arising sense of joy and trust on the other side of it.

Ultimately, mourning of anything or anyone… any relationship, any life phase… is a process of alchemy. It is a process of creation and recreation in an extremely powerful way, as all movements within the heart truly are. It is an opportunity to allow in compassion as the mourning churns and moves and eventually fades, too. Compassion for the person or thing or perhaps beloved pet you are letting go of. Compassion for the life they led, the phases had with you, their needs for the next phase of life or death or anything in between that they now need to be with and live into. This is perhaps one of the most challenging things to feel for parts of us, yet it is the place where I feel we are ultimately guided to by pure love frequencies, as we feel everything that’s NOT compassion first, as well as the deep mourning and sense of loss in parts of us.

What truly moves us into our next phases and places is ‘e-motion’… our feelings rise and fall as they need to and this is what maps out the terrain of our next growth points and places of deeper inhabitation in our lives. It is often a very powerful sojourn into the unknown of life that launches us into our most profound awakenings and healing. This is what leads us, by the heart, into our Sacred Humanity and all that this new phase of humanity entails… ❤

With you, in whatever mourning processes you may be going through, as I am also in the various layers of mine…

Kalayna ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Being With The Inner Punisher/Critic

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by Kalayna Colibri

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‘Parts work’ is one level of what we offer in SoulFullHeart. It is the foundation of our healing practice and path. It is what inspires us to keep going IN… into ourselves for more nourishment and love that comes from this work, and into relationships that will always be a reflection of our inner universes. There is so much inside of each of us as humans in transition, learning to remember who we really are. We are fractured to a certain degree because we have needed to become this way in order to cope with 3D reality and the heaviness of what we came here to grow through and alongside. We ultimately cannot really be fractured or broken or anything BUT whole, yet, ask any part of you and they will likely say that this is their experience of life – separation, disconnection, suppression.

There are so many parts of you that call to you in this work. One of the most powerful ones to work with is the Inner Punisher/Critic. This is the part that is so prickly and often hard to be with… the hardest part to really love, for they throw so much at you and at others too in order to keep love out. The more love you let into your life, sometimes the harder they clench their fists. They are so often afraid. Afraid of letting go of the comforting discomfort of how they feel about you, about others, and ultimately about themselves. They judge harshly, starting with you, and sometimes act stealthily, hiding themselves somehow, often amongst the din and cries within you.

Their feelings about your body, your relationships, your job, YOU and any aspect of your life, become normalized frequencies inside of you. It becomes normal to think of yourself in certain ways and you may not even catch the vitriol that comes from you towards others, even in the form of ‘friendly’ teasing, that really has a bite underneath it. After working with your Inner Punisher/Critic in the many layers they come with, your desire to be around any energy of criticism, ‘funny’ or not, especially from you to you, diminishes in a big way. Often it is these harsh inner frequencies and judgments that bring friends and birth family members together. It is familiar to feel this way, so the idea of questioning it may feel ludicrous at first. Yet what if something more were possible in all of your relationships and especially in how you feel about yourself?

The Inner Punisher/Critic can be hard to stay in the room with. Often when you begin feeling them directly, they hurl insults at you, rolling out pages and pages sometimes of how they feel about you and about your life. As your outer world reflects your inner world, you begin to see and feel how this energy has leaked out to others you interact with and informed your approach to yourself and to any area of your life. It can play out in themes of workaholism, exercising only for the sake of your self-image and ‘how you feel about yourself’, and abuse (the definition of which deepens as you work with this part and begin to heal these frequencies of self-abuse, however they show up).

The journey to genuine self-love must involve feeling the Inner Punisher/Critic. This energy cannot be transcended, only transmuted. The work and the room you must walk into inside yourself in order to start being with this part is worth it. It becomes like holding a kicking, screaming teenager who just needs to find their tears of release from all the energy they’ve held and the life molds they are struggling to fit into. This part does soften and change eventually. Yet they really need your help to motivate them with love, with an ongoing promise that you will be there for and with them, and that you will always hold that they are so much more than this job they have given themselves for very good reasons.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

A Love Poem From Your Emotional Body

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by Kalayna Colibri

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I dance on the edges

of the insane.

 

I notice what others

refuse to.

 

I bring out that which is deemed

illogical

irrational

crazy

by a mind conditioned

to a way of seeing

hearing

sensing life,

using only the 5 physical senses.

 

I cry aloud

inside the body,

in organs abused

and a skin misused.

I ring the alarm

of

‘I’ve been here before’

in ways

that aren’t always caught

in the net of the mind.

 

I want all that love

I know is there…

and in here.

 

I want to be seen

but more so to be felt.

 

I want to be heard

Not simply dealt with,

and I want to float with you

not be buried below you.

 

You can transcend me

but only until

my cries for your love

become louder than the medicine

you’ve taken so diligently.

 

I am not delicate

though I am sensitive.

I am a rose

but the thorns are from you.

I want to be touched

and held by the ready,

and I want to be raised up

with all you’ve pretended

I’m not part of…

 

Take me with you,

make me beloved to you,

for I am a powerful force

that wants not to overpower

but to cleanse and clear

all of the unhealed

unclaimed

soul and heart luggage

of your nomadic and wandering

wonderings.

 

I am that emotional body

you hear about

but seldom see

as anything that needs you.

I hold those parts of you

that absorb it all

and store the data within

that decodes your most sovereign path

to the healing and enlightenment,

enHEARTenment,

you most deeply,

profoundly

seek.

If you take me with you

in me you will find

all of the love

you’ve ’til now left behind.

 

So please,

feel it all

and bring it all back inward

to that place

where I can become as sacred

as your sweet times of exploration

in all other domains

of your amazing

emotional

physical

spiritual

incredible

being.

 

Let’s dance together

on that edge

where life makes no sense

and love makes all the sense

you may never have thought

you were worthy of before.

before.

 

Let’s create a new ‘now’

well beyond the known

and what was once ‘real,

to enter a new reality

of wholeness

only ever dreamt of

in dreams most others

have a deep fear of having.

 

In infinite love,

Your sometimes hidden

but always present,

Emotional Body.  ❤

 

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Life Changes Bring Chances To Feel What Needs To Heal

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by Kalayna Colibri

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In these moments, on these days, there isn’t much to do but surrender to the tornado and trust that you WILL land somewhere soft and grassy… these times of upheaval actually press us upward AND onward, while encouraging us to go inward.

The preciousness of parts of you can be forgotten in the everyday shuffle and the ongoing dreamings of what you want to experience, be, have next. The emotional and spiritual pain and distrust that they hold can become buried, even in a life that is genuinely good. The gift of these ‘tornado times’ is that they can surface and be felt again, healed deeper, brought with you to that new place the Divine so wants to take you and IS taking you, even if you can’t feel the surrender or see the ground beneath your feet at the time…

This is the ongoing offer, invitation, love we are granted and flooded with. This is what is represented by intense weather patterns that do somehow shift around something inside of us and also reflect the storms inside of us.

As hard as it can be and often is in these moments of poignant and pure feeling, there is always a Divine hand being held out for us to grasp onto, that encourages the authentic YOU to hold a hand out for the parts that are struggling in their fears and suffering in their pain, seeing and feeling the worlds – their worlds – that are collapsing in so many ways, while they reach out for a ‘more’ that they need reminding is not only possible, but already here…

In this bittersweet time of movement… of upswing and downturn… we learn to shift the gears into place, taking all of our precious cargo of self and soul with us. Bringing it all to that ‘Promised Land’ within, that does want to take us to all that we most deeply want and work to feel worthy of. 

 

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 In SoulFullHeart, we are now offering a free 30min intro session where we will talk with you about the process in more detail and feel with you where we could go together. If you’re curious about that, you can visit our website for more information: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions and/or contact Gabriel Heartman or Raphael Awen to schedule one with one of them. 

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Sacred ‘Mess’ Of Your Healing Path

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by Kalayna Colibri

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“Come follow me, and you will find your mess” – a biblical quote reframe, as offered to me by Yeshua

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There’s a light up ahead, held by someone who has done much work. Someone who beams a beacon of hope and love and possibility. Their energy invites you in and also invites you to follow them. They don’t energize being ‘better’ or ‘holier’ than you, they only seem to energize that they are somehow ‘ahead’ and want to vulnerably lead you into more possibilities, healing and growth for yourself.

Maybe you choose to follow because the warmth of the heart cord between you is incredible and familiar and not like anything you’ve ever felt before in this life. You want to be near this person, relate closely with them, and yet you can’t quite relate to them yet. They feel ‘close’ to you in a sweet sense, yet they almost feel like something that isn’t from this world. How could that be? They certainly seem human enough. You conclude that somehow they ARE human, just living in a different sort of dimension than you’re used to. Wow. THAT’S interesting because the dimension you’ve been living in feels old, stale, essentially loveless to you more and more these days as you continue to awaken to the universe within and outside of you.

As you continue to follow this person up ahead, you feel the infusions of light and love that they offer. You feel too, the realness they hold about their personal reality – how they or parts of them feel or are reacting in given moments. You can feel them holding this reality as sacred, though sometimes the energy feels intense to parts of you that you haven’t fully felt yet. What they offer to themselves and to you seems like ‘love’, but it’s a different love than you’ve experienced, as most of the time those around you refuse to be ‘real’ or current with what they’re feeling or experiencing. Or, on the other hand, they dump energy and emotion on you and in the space they hold with you, feeling like a victim and playing a victim’s role, effectively and skillfully drawing up a case that backs up their claim to perpetual victimhood. You’ve never had this contrast be illuminated for you before and it stirs something inside of you. Parts of you may start to feel victimized to this new frequency of love that is so illuminating, as it shows you too the ways in which you have been and held this same energy of co-dependently being in relationship with others and not deeply maturing emotionally, though you may ‘seem’ mature to most others in your life. You are experiencing how this love is holding up a mirror for you, and wow, there’s actually quite a bit of shadow there to feel!

This being you chose to follow encourages you to keep feeling it all. WHAT?! I have to FEEL it all?! You begin to feel a part of you is getting overwhelmed by the volume of what there is to feel, and you feel a bit surprised by what is still there that you thought you had healed by now. You feel the weight and the mess of it all… the entanglements within your relationships, past and present, the knots living inside of your heart and soul, the shadow pieces and parts of you popping up now to be witnessed, felt, held, healed. It’s a lot. Sometimes it feels like ‘too much’… and your new leader invites you to just ‘hold on tight!’ while the winds whip by and through you, inviting you to step into them despite the swirling chaos inside of you.

This is what it means to be on a path where you find that ‘mess’ within. That ‘mess’ that you learn to love as you trust that it’s leading you somewhere NEW. Amidst the mess, you get to decide whether or not you want to continue walking into it. You get to decide in every single moment, what you want next. And you get to decide whether or not you really trust this process and are ready for it.

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In SoulFullHeart, we don’t hold a grandiose or lofty picture of who we are as spiritual and emotional teachers, leaders and facilitators. The work we’ve done and continue to do is challengings and sometimes downright hard to be in, though the payoff is incredible, as the growth and consciousness expansion is exponential. If anything we are here to guide you if you can lean into what we offer and embody.

Choosing to be around us in any way or form offers some sort of challenge to your being, just because of this way of life we embody. Choosing to be with us here in community, well, that pushes up even more… yet your readiness is something you get to gauge in every moment, even as ‘mess’ comes up from within and seems to be playing out outside of you too.

Following any sort of spiritual and/or emotional healing path should push up quite a bit inside of you. Even if you are not drawn to SoulFullHeart, whatever path you may choose will very likely give you a lot to feel and heal. There is no way, in my experience, to avoid or fully transcend what we signed up to heal in this life. Embracing our messes, no matter where we are in our path or what teacher(s) or leader(s) we may choose to follow or learn from, gives us this gift of finding our way to deeper and deeper decisions about the playout of our lives and how and who we most want to be.

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

A Fireplace For Your Fires In These Ascending Times

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So many intense reactions can be surfacing during these ascending times.  You may be conscious of their root, and possibly not.  They may live on the inside as repressed truth, or may find themselves playing out dramatically on the outside.  Either way fires are being lit as Love’s match stick makes its way into our lives.  It wants to burn away and spark UP.  Shed and renew.  Find out what is really going on in that Human heart of yours.  I see an inner landscape of multiple flames that range in small bush burnings and others as 4-alarm blazes.  This is the geography of our emotional body when left out of our own INtrospection and exploration.

Heaven knows how much I remember that.  I could feel it viscerally and was in so much desperation to find that inner fire extinguisher.  It was too smokey to see the writing on the wall that said, “In Case Of Emergency…FEEL”.  Back then, to feel meant to get burned.  It meant to go through some intensity that was not part of the desire of just maintaining some false sense of  “this too shall pass”. Not truly understanding that this was all part of the way to get to something more peaceful and less flammable.  What I really needed, and did realize it, was a fireplace to contain it all.

I am expanding on an analogy that has been used in SoulFullHeart before.  Not sure where it originated but it felt like and apt reminder to all that is happening on an energetic level.  The fireplace is the process of parts work and the intimate community that supports it.  As these fires arise and burn, the process itself is activated.  It lends a safe place for the fire to burn AS its energy is felt and released.  The fireplace can be a space-holder, a sacred relationship, your authentic self, and ultimately Life and the Divine Itself.

It is having the trust ground form withIN yourself that life is not out to get you.  That you are not a victim and that we are ultimately creating our circumstances to reflect what needs to be felt to make room for more.  It is wrapping a context around the content of the fire itself.  We suffer when we stay too long in the contents of the blaze until we become consumed by it.  We will get burned.  That may be unavoidable.  But within this container there is a time and space for this healing.  It doesn’t burn your house down.  Rugs may get scared, couches get discolored but you are left intact with another lesson, and more room to let the love that you ultimately want in the door.

We have spent so long without this environment to let our parts feel the safety and importance of this alchemical burn.  It was just too scary as we have hurt and been hurt in the process of forgetting and remembering.  It takes time to get used to for sure.  To convince the protective part of you to really feel it is safe enough to explore these fires and even light them on purpose.  To feel trust enough that regardless of the hurt and pain that may arise, a healing balm of Love is right at our disposal.  This happens in negotiation and making one courageous leap of faith at a time until it is just the way you live your life and the fires turn into passion, not pain.

If you feel interested in feeling into this fireplace called SoulFullHeart and what it can offer your deepest needs and passions, visit here.  There are so many energies coming in that having someone to feel it with you along the way provides a sane and safe place to digest it.  It is also a call to create a large community of love-hearted souls to expand this family and bring in even more frequencies that we could possibly imagine on our own.  We are going to need to do some serious remodeling of our heart space, and the fireplace that lets it all in.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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