The Power Of A Group Healing Merkaba

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Yesterday the five of us met for our monthly SoulFullHeart group circle. It is a time for us to check-in with what is currently moving inside us, share journaling, have parts felt, and seek guidance and facilitation in our processes and mateships. It was a beautifully powerful day of high vibration discussion of where SoulFullHeart is headed, what arising digestions are taking place on multiple levels and dimensions, and how we can best serve love to and with others.

We are feeling so much moving in the collective and within ourselves that is contributing to new timelines and heart openings. Being in physical proximity creates a group merkaba that intensifies the amplitude of the love frequency throughout the cosmos. You can feel it as we enter into feeling space and deep questioning and intuitive responsivity. The atmosphere in the room raises up exponentially and the outside world feels like another planet.

When in group space the heart chords among us are strengthened by the challenges and the vulnerabilities that arise from sharing and intuitions of others. Kalayna and I felt through an emerging and deepening metasoul Roman lifetime together that has elucidated so much of our past dynamics together. We were able to get guidance and support for what we are experiencing that has opened us up into new layers of our Usness. The energy that is created between us a couple. We explored a new arising aspect of our sacred humanity we are calling the Gatekeeper and the power and significance they hold to our healing and soul embodiment.

Raianna vulnerably shared about her process in her post where she had a deep emotional movement and new profound clarities around the relationship to how our parts relate to each other that created so much relief and going on places in her healing. You can read about it here.  Raphael and Jelelle digested their own process around the recent energy upgrades and how much that is shifting the way we relate to food and what real nutrition is for our arising light bodies. More digestion of the desire to bring in more of our 5D capabilties and sacred humanity while feeling what the emotional blocks are to this deep desire for manifestation and contact.

This is what we are living almost every day. This is the high-octane fuel that we experience together and would love more hearts and souls to be a part of when the time is right. It is raising the frequency of each of us individually and as a group that beacons out into the collective. It is a magical time that is usually followed by deep integrative sleep and surges of creativity. We believe this is the way we have always meant to interact together. It is the way we want all people to experience in true sacred unity. It is not THE way, but A way. One that has so much to offer the power and gift of your sacred humanity.

 Kalayna Colibri and I will be talking about our experiences with SoulFullHeart and what it has meant to us both individually and as a couple in our Live stream event coming this Saturday at 11am CST. More info here:https://www.facebook.com/events/1508742299214244/

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Understanding Why You May Settle, Shrink And Stay Safe: Connecting With Your Inner Protector

By Jelelle Awen
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That which you settle for is that which you will draw MORE of. When parts of you settle, you are telling the Universe that what you currently have and are experiencing is enough for you. Even if another part of you (your higher self coming into your consciousness) feels desires and passions for more…more love, more intimacy, more fulfillment, more soul passion expression…..if you are settling in ANY area of life for less than that, you will draw more of it until all parts of you are truly done with less and lack.

This can be confusing to navigate until you can acknowledge that there are different parts of you that want different things, have mixed feelings and resistances, and are in often direct polarity to each other. To just say that ‘you’ want something and have a desire for more is actually only half of the picture (or less as often parts make up most of our conscious personalities until they are differentiated.)

One part of you (usually what we call in SoulFullHeart the Inner Protector) is ‘in charge’ of keeping you safe and out of harm and from getting hurt. The Inner Protector has been tasked with this since you were a young child as you were too innocent, pure, and vulnerable for the 3D world and the harsh and polarizing energies here. If you also experienced abusive frequencies as a child, then the Inner Protector had to be on ‘double duty’ to protect you. This Protector is reticent and fearful for you to have MORE love in your life as you might lose it and suffer more hurt. Really, it relates to you like a reluctant, over worked teenager would, tasked with watching over a bunch of kids (you). It doesn’t much care what your desires are for change and transformation, as it’s main goal is to keep you safe (despite yourself, it would say.)

The Protector is just FINE with settling, especially in relationships, as to want more is just too risky. Another way this settling of the Protector can show up is in withdrawing from social and relationships completely and being in a lone wolf phase. This can be a sacred phase of reboot when you are pulling out of 3D relationships, especially, but lingering too long here then leads to suffering which leads to isolation, acute loneliness, despair, and even suicidal feelings from other parts of you that NEED connection with others. It seems crazy, but the Protector would rather you (and other parts of you) feel ALL these emotions then to risk you getting hurt again in relationships, especially if there is ACTUAL soul resonance in them. Even if your heart and soul are awakening and aching for more love, more intimacy, to serve love, etc., your Protector (and other parts too) can be countering these desires going out to the Universe by keeping you stuck and settling OR isolated and alone (which is still a form of settling actually.)

I am sharing about this from my own experience of my Inner Protector and how this energy shows up…and also from seeing and feeling this dynamic in many other people over the years in sessions. The key to moving this in order to DRAW the more that your Awakening Self wants is through negotiation with your Protector. To feel and hear and get WHY they are concerned, scared, and resistant to this movement. There are always good reasons for this protection, usually stemming from undigested childhood trauma yet, also, from other lifetimes. Just because you cannot consciously remember (or maybe don’t want to remember) these traumatic incidents and events doesn’t mean that don’t impact your daily life in the now. These traumas and karma dramas remain stuck there and energizing STRONGLY, even if you are not consciously as aware of them. To offer compassion to these woundings and the parts that hold them is what moves them through the increasing awareness and consciousness and separation too.

We’ve spent the last couple of months in SoulFullHeart designing and creating a specific process to navigate this ground with you through weekly sessions with one of us (me, Raphael, Gabriel or Kalayna) to get to know your 3D self that is still anchored to 3D life through these undigest emotional places to begin negotiation with them in order to shift into MORE love in all areas of your life. We also connect with your Inner Protector, Inner Teenager, Inner Mother/Father, Inner Punisher/Critic, and Inner Child. Plus, there is a 4D self/soul awakening path and process that opens out after that the 3D self focused one where we go into all kinds of fascinating and interesting places within your Metasoul to heal on a quantum level LIFETIMES worth while you receive the gifts of soul consciousness expansions.

We provide you with specific writing and reading processes to engage with every week, so you can lean into that with a sense for you (and parts of you) that you are being held by something and headed somewhere. I am very proud of this process as it is the result of 15 years of personal dedication to awakening and specifically emotional body healing integration with spirituality. Also, it was created out of witnessing hundreds of people engage in this kind of parts work emotional body integration process over the years. I know of no other program or process like it as it is truly unique and progressive. You can read more about the process and our free intro session here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess

Here is more to read about parts and Metasoul aspects too: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

To change ANYTHING on the outside first begins from the transformation on the inside. It cannot change otherwise. The strong ascension energies that are available right now are here to support and hold space for this inner journey. To make it safe and filled with lots of love to GO where it has previously felt too frightening, foggy, or unknown to go inside of ourselves….at the emotional body level AND the soul. With this inner connection with parts of yourself, you find that you are no longer settling in ANY areas of your life. A sense of MORE is how you feel inside as you feel new flows of self love open out from within.

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond.

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Conversation With My Spine: Day Two- The Turbulence Of Calibrating To Love

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In this exchange with my spine, I refer to my daemon, or soul protector/guardian. It is the 4D aspect of us that is connected to our other metasoul lives. They are a big part of the healing process in SoulFullheart that can also be linked to the bleed through many feel as the veil has been thinning and lifted. A connection with this aspect can assist in huge movements and clearings of the energies that are still stuck in other time dimensions. You can read more about them here.

M: Good morning, Spine. How are you feeling for talking some more? I had a great feeling about where this could all go for both of us.

S: Yes, I am. I felt some great place and energies we could ‘tap’ into together.

M: You just started where you left off.

S: Yeah. It is good to keep this thing a little loose around the edges, man. When a spine gets too stiff and rigid…well, look what happens.

M: Point taken. I can feel where a part of me has been a bit tense with all the changes going on for me personally and then you add in the cosmic theater and it gets to be one big alchemy party.

S: There is a lot going on for sure. There is a lot of rebalancing happening. The prior grid structure that you were linked up to via the spine is in major dissolution. It is dissolving. No longer able to maintain its former control hold. You have many metasoul lives that had been connected to the Paintrix and they are looking to you to lead them into a new world without it. It is a turbulent time for this awakening and that can show up in all kinds of physical (i.e. emotional) manifestations.

M: I feel the largess of that picture and can see why my soul protector got a bit overwhelmed. I see a dam that has held back all the realities of my soul and the cracks are opening up to holes in my felt consciousness. My daemon (soul protector) has been acting as the foreman on this operation and is sounding the alarm bells.  

S: Lol! That is a perfect analogy. I don’t mean to laugh in judgment. It just clearly demonstrates what it can be like for some. He needs to be relieved of the duty and the feeling of responsibility. Lots to navigate and the picture is not as severe as he may make it out to be. There is a lot of self-love around letting in these lives and how to be with them.  

M: I feel your compassion for him and what he has held. That is a whole new avenue to walk down with him day to day. Feeling it all in the moment as these lives begin to bleed into waking consciousness. This whole experience has really helped me to feel the wounded masculine energies that are held in the spine. The restructuring of the spinal code if you will.

S: Yes, most definitely. There is a whole lot happening at the quantum/galactic level that is beyond the consciousness of your knowing mind. What is important here is to feel what is happening with your heart and intuition. This moves WITH the current of Love and the old system was trying to work against it, but was really an actor FOR it all along. I think you can sense what I mean. There are actually no bad guys here. A grand story that is experiencing itself. The spinal restructuring is akin to seeing that there was another story undergirding this one all along and that creates a bit of a shock to the system.

M: This is getting out there, man. Whew! I want to see about bringing this closer to home….to the heart.

S: Yeah, totally. I can get locked into the mental picture sometimes as I too am in recalibration mode. You have much to feel with the part(s) of you that have been invested in the old way of being in the world. It is another personal awakening phase, but this is an awakening into something less tangible and more fluid. It is not getting to locked into “this or that”, but following the intuitive sacred heartmind and getting lost in the flow so that you can’t even begin to track mentally. This is presses against a control mechanism that is built-in for safety and protection. Keeping the gig going. You are being asked to realign the spine to the heart instead of the brain. 

M: That is a weird picture, but I get what you mean.  

S: I can sense that. The literal interpretation makes no biological sense. This is the new wild frontier partner and there is a new sheriff in town and his name is Lovie McLovin.

M: Seriously….I think it is time for you to get some rest. That was just awful, yet somehow funny.

S: You giggled. You can’t hide that. I am feeling a bit better apparently. Getting my goof on. That is a sign of realignment to the flow of being. Okay, let’s call it for today. I have enjoyed this. Not sure what we said but it felt good.

M: Yeah me too. Time to let this all integrate with a sandwich and a massage.

S: Now that just sound weird.

M: Oh, geez. Here we go….

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Reconciling Our Soul Stories As We Heal and Grow

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Being invited into more love. More goodness. More Self.  It is all right there for us to embrace and embody.  It is not some fairy tale that we live, in this moment, in abundant joy.  We ARE it.  Even when you feel less than it, you are in it.  Always. So how can that be if we feel less than that feeling of joy?

We have all been through much as souls this life and others.  We are coming to terms with all that we have experienced. For those that have chosen to partake in this grand ascension of humanity, we are being asked to balance the books, so to speak.  What in the shadow part of our ledger are we needing to reconcile? To feel? To forgive ourselves for? To let go of? Can we let in the light and love side with reverence and awe? I feel a grand accounting happening for us all.  It is not a “good” or “bad” reconciliation.  That feels too elementary to me.

We are being asked by our Divine parents to grow up and grow open. Leave the chains of suffering behind and fully inhabit our true gifts.  But to do that we need to take responsibility for what is real inside of us.  To own that we are the ultimate creators of our experience.  I have felt intense waves of thought patterns that translate into a lowered frequency.  I have felt fear and self-judgment wanting to find some way into my being.  Without having a conscious way of holding or releasing these energies, it can be so easy to project them onto something else outside of us and fuse to the din.

These energies are a part of a story.  My story.  The one that I am creating in this moment in multiple lives and dimensions.  I feel the Metasoul aspects of me that need to be integrated into my open human heart.  To be felt in their brokenness and weariness.  To change the timelines with them and invite them into greener pastures.  Into more light. This is the reconciliation.   The maturation of our hearts and souls into a new dimension of responsivity to what is moving through us in real time.  From this experience of our fractiled selves we pick up the pieces and bring them back into wholeness.  We remember the gifts that we had long forgotten were ours from the beginning.

All of this is accessed consciously through our imaginations. We have it all in our inner Akashic records.  The DNA of our souls experience.  I feel like a little pod floating around my inner galaxy ready to give love to all the carbon that has been there as a way to experience this dimension.  The crystal palaces within start to shine and glisten with new hope of a new human on a new Earth.  The joy starts to come back.  It starts to fill the empty spaces where there was once fear.  A hum starts to reemerge inside my body and I feel higher and lighter again.

The soldier of another life lets go of his orders, his need to march on, and his compulsion to strategize and  mentalize.  He is looking forward to going home.  To reunite with the love of his life in a paradisaical valley of evergreen and wildflowers.  The gift of persistence and dedication remain, but in a flow of choice and stillness.  An example of wounded masculine energy that finding his way out of the trenches and into the gentler and yet passionate lands of the sacred.  He has reconciled himself to this new life and will only come out for the pursuit and loyalty of Love.

Okay, so I had no idea where this was going and it all feels so perfect to me.  Writing from where my heart and soul is wanting to go.  This is new for me.  Not having a particular direction or certainty of what the heck I am writing about. I like that. Something arose for me and it is a beautiful example of what I experience in SoulFullHeart.  It is a magical world that has all the makings of an epic movie directed by you for an audience of you.  Oh…and you get to help heal the collective on top of that! Not bad for a day’s “work”.  🙂

 

This Saturday at 11:11am CST on Zoom there will be a virtual group call to digest all the influxes in ascension energies and how to be with that on an emotional body level through our parts work process: https://www.facebook.com/events/141617019749771

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

 

 

Non-Linear Time As An Invitation To Quantum Responsibility

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Linear time has been a hard one for my 3D self to let go of.  It is still necessary to keep track of “time” as I, like us all, have responsibilities that are connected to it.  I am healing my way into a more fluid relationship to it, but it can be a challenge.  This becomes so much more pronounced when I feel this in relation to soul history. I can feel the aspects of me that are so entrenched in this idea that things have already happened and cannot be changed or shifted.  It energizes a very hopeless and fearful reality that can bleed into my own consciousness as Gabriel.  This can be a bit crazy-making at times that only serve to lower my frequency and enable a timeline that is really not desirable.  

It has been suggested that we must “ride out” these waves and let them pass through us like a major weather front.  Or maybe we just find other means to bypass or transcend these “negative” emotions and only stay in the lighter half of our being.  There is so much more at play here that we are being gifted access to.  We are being given the opportunity to directly feel and heal our “past” in the Now and the karma that has been attached to it.  It is not so much spending years with these aspects but feeling the core of what is keeping them in a suffering loop and offering or open hearts for them to land in.  It is also about helping them to see another way of being that can shift the “timeline” that we are on together.  

When we see time in this way, that all things are occurring in THIS moment, and is not weighted down with concrete shoes, we arrive at an opportunity for Quantum Responsibility.  We are such powerful creators and not hopeless victims.  None of our aspects are.  We GET to remake this thing!  We are being offered this by all of our guides, angels, and star being selves.  They are looking to us to help co-create something new together by realizing we ARE both sides of the coin.  We are US and THEM.  All in this moment…right now.  

So as we go through our day we are also signing treaties, fighting wars, giving birth, inventing new technology, traveling in space, and losing and falling in love.  With an awakened sense of Self we can be with these lives and choose to be with them in a way that serves both us and them.  We may fall into a difficult time and just need to collapse into something and that can be supported with guidance and self-love.  We can also connect in sacred space that is more created.  No rules just feeling.  

What feels important is that we assume this role with a sense of Divine purpose and invitation.  We don’t have to be so serious about it that is consumes our life, but hold it as a daily feeling journey that brings more healing to our hearts and souls, and effects the the greater whole of our current NOW.  We are on the cusp of some great movements collectively and it all depends on our own personal willingness to feel it and shift it to a timeline that is more desirable than the one you may find yourself in.  It does not happen overnight but can happen exponentially more when intention and choice are made conscious as often as possible. 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.