The Courage To Feel It All

If you’re willing to feel into the source of your depression and anxiety, rather than medicate it down, or cover it over, you are a rare and brave soul.

You are choosing a very courageous adventure and journey with some difficult pieces and some very outstanding realizations and embodiments that even most spiritual people are adverse to, whose spirituality is part of the necessary ‘management’ of their ‘condition’.

Where did we get the idea that one who has depression or anxiety has something wrong with them? Your humanity was birthed out of your divinity and then veiled from that divine source. Of course, you would feel something about that; a loss; a trauma at a deep core level. Of course, you would have attachments and traumas to things and relationships in your past.

Feeling into the deeper source of loss is entering a portal that feels very scary, like you will be swallowed whole, made completely powerless, unable to even effort the pain management scheme any longer that has sort of worked up till now, back into total loss and darkness.

Why would anyone choose such a journey?

Short answer – simply because it’s the next piece of growth for you, where nothing else affords any growth or meaning.

Many, and by far most, are nowheres near that place. If you are, it’s going to feel like going it alone, which is a big part of the initiation and your personal individuation.

It is your deepest service to the collective, as an explorer of consciousness, as a lover of love.

You are this big of a soul. Time now to build your sanctuary of deep personal and divine connection.

What else is there really and truly worth doing, especially at a time such as this?

You are the bright, bright, bright light of god.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

The Great Disillusion Before The Great Awakening

Before any Great Awakening there is a Great Dissolving of Illusion. The things that used to be the stalwarts of our ‘reality’ suddenly show themselves to be nothing more than the tools of the magicians and strings of the puppeteers. The shadows of Plato’s cave are seen as nothing more than projections of the spell-casters.

This Great Disillusionment is met with varied responses somewhere among the spectrum of Grief. The collective, as a whole, has been duped, doped, and dehumanized. The clear awareness of this must be felt fully in order to respond truly, with courage and purity of heart rather than visceral rage or righteous indignation.

These only lead us back to the beginning even as it makes parts of us feel better that they ‘did something’. It is about fully feeling all of the stages until we get to the core of our humanity…our Compassion and Forgiveness. This does not throw out Justice but rather humanizes it.

We are all being herded into camps with different labels. Vaxxed, unvaxxed, masked, unmasked, conspiracy nut, or sheeple. All of this is a way to dehumanize us into this or that. When we categorize and classify ourselves we have separated ourselves from each other.

That doesn’t mean that we just deny our own truth and needs. We may have to no longer be associated with people that do not align to our deepest clarity. That can be done with compassion for oneself and for others. We can hold unconditional love while holding conditions for our relationality.

I have been guilty of this righteousness in my past. I understand it. I fall prey to it at times when a part of me needs to rage or feel better about itself. But I do hold it as a part, and not as my whole. I go back to it and feel where it’s truth lies and where it needs love, not judgment.

This is part of our own humanization process. To feel ourselves as a basket of parts that have all sorts of feelings and judgements. These parts and aspects need our attention, not just our projection. It is hard because how we may feel about others is reflected in the way we feel about ourselves. This is the Greater Awakening. The one that happens when you look in the mirror and into your own darkness and fear.

My purpose here is to help us all remember that we are Human. We all have shit buried in our DNA, in our past, and in our soul history. We are scared, frightened, and confused. We are also powerful beyond what we have been conditioned, programmed, or veiled to see. It is that humanity that steers us out of this sacred mess and into a world we have long forgotten we came from.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

The Covid Generation

What must it be like to be a child/teenager/young adult in this maddening world we are staring at? There is a whole generation of youth that are being altered, or altared, by the force of our own collective insanity. 

It deeply disturbs and angers me that the external symbol of our own inner innocence is at the dictate of a collective adulthood that has made such a mess of this planet. I know there are so many parents that are beside themselves with frustration, rage, and disbelief that any of this is happening all in the perverted notion of ‘protecting’ them. 

They are a casualty of a war that has been waging for a long time. A disintegrity gap more than a generational gap. If we were more attuned to our own innocence and well-being, we as adults would find that our humanity is inextricably linked to theirs. Just as we have cut ourself off from Nature, we have cut ourselves off from our Youth. 

I have not been the parent/guardian of a school-aged child for some time now as mine is finding her way in her mid-20s. Yet, I feel regardless of our parental experiences and circumstances we are all a part of that collective guardianship and leadership. We have to step up and wake up to the ways in which we as adults have both fought for and failed the upcoming leaders of this civilization. 

What kind of world we wish to live in is inherent in how we treat and lead ourselves and thus our youth. It is about connecting to the child/teenager within to sense how they would feel about living in today’s world. What would they want/need us to be and do to bring about the kind of works they would want to live in that is not rooted in the prefabricated world of media, politics, and technology? 

I would love to hear what life has been like for your children as they have navigated this past year and a half. It would be a way for me and those that read it to connect to this vulnerable and precious part of our human family. Thanks in advance for sharing whatever you feel to. I will do my best to respond to all those that share. 

Much love to all as we keep making our way back to the Love we are all born from.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

The Cult Of Love & Truth

I have to admit that it has been quite an adjustment to living in a bigger city in a new country. It has not been the culture and people of Portugal though, as there is a kindness and warmth at the heart of this beautiful part of the world.

The deeper adjustment has been to the collective response to C-vid that has been most difficult to adjust to. I would say, without reservation, that 90% of those I see outside are wearing masks. It is quite the contrast to Glastonbury where it may, at worst, get to 40%. This is just outdoors, mind you. And those that do not have them over their face, have them pulled down under their chin, as if to signal that they are part of the program at least. Can’t fault them as long as it is visible, eh? 

We have only been snarked at a couple of times, so there is a ‘bygones be bygones’ sort of thing going on, but not wearing them inside is an absolute no-no. No ‘exempt’ cards here, thank you very much. Some may bite at me for being compliant, but being in a host country while trying to find sanctuary does not lead me toward rebellion at the moment. It is a ‘pick your battles’ scenario. 

I feel I landed here in this situation to teach me a few things. The first is how sensitive I really am and how much nostalgic, travel romance a part of me projected onto coming to this classic European city. Kind of like a pre-pandemic wet-dream for a part of me. I would be pinching myself that I was actually here if I wasn’t caught in a nightmarish overlay around this historical location. 

Now I am pinching myself to see if I am actually on Earth. The land of human beings getting on with life and some perception of liberty. And maybe that is the next lesson. Maybe this has all just revealed how unfree we have actually been. The unabated mask-wearing, along with unquestioned injection inflection, are visual signs of what was lying underground all along…the programming of our own demise. 

Humanity has become Insanity in this New World Disorder, while being convinced it is the most humane thing to do to cut oneself off from the life-blood of existence called Air. I get that this is not a revelation as it has been part of our awareness for over a year now, but to see it so starkly right in front of me with so many has been quite the thud in my soul. We are literally in a dystopian novel and it is up to each of us individually to rewrite this thing from the inside out. 

This Cult of C-vid is ramping up and seeking new members each and every hour of each and every day. It is the largest of its kind that the world has ever seen. It pales in comparison to any Qanon group, and even THEY battle with each other! So who’s really the domestic/global terrorist? 

The Cult of Love and Truth will find its way. It actually encompasses the C-vid cult as it is the container from which we are hewn. This is a mass ‘individuation inoculation’ that may have a drastic illumination point. God, I hope that I am wrong. I will eat the feathers AND the tar just to get back to Reason and Love. (Okay, maybe not that severe as I do love my digestive system, but you get the hyperbole.)

The Cult of Love and Truth must start from within and then from our choices. The choices of where to live, who to be connected to, how to treat ourselves and others while we are sorting this out. Humanity is bifurcating. Splitting up into sects. I feel we are going through this for a much bigger reason than just some control agenda that can’t actually be bigger than Love Itself. 

It is up to each of us to feel what that is and keep feeling and healing our way there. Put on your own oxygen mask first as a beacon to what is authentic and real to you. Let them follow suit rather than trying to shame or debate. Just Be Love. The rest will fall into place however it is meant to. 

Love to you on your continued journey.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

The Choice To Choose Is Sacred

We are in a timeline of choice. There is no being neutral anymore. Polarity isn’t just about This vs. That in a confrontational way, a battle heartset. It may simply come down to making a choice and living into it.

This may be the vaunted Singularity. The moment when you have to choose This OR That, and then be on your way with its unfolding mystery. I am choosing Love. I am choosing not to offer my physical body to a nefarious agenda. I have chosen that adjective because that is what it is to me.

I am not going to deride anyone who has offered themselves in their own sovereign choice to do so. I will not be a part of that programming. I choose to stay in compassion while being passionate about my choice (which isn’t really a choice to me in the end, but for this I will let it be one.)

My purpose for being here is to embody my most natural, authentic, divinely-aligned human being. I am here to serve that in whatever way that is meant to be for others. I am here to keep unraveling and defending that permission to be Free, Real, and Loving. I am here to be a beacon of fresh air and a fresh start.

I have been in the process of leaving the Matrix for a long time. It is ongoing. It is not about living apart from the World in a cave, or battling against it, or undermining it. It is about unraveling from it from the inside so that I can serve its eventual transmutation into its original state of Grace.

I wish to be in a community of others that also choose the same. I wish to be a part of a beginning while sacredly giving space to AN end, not THE End. An end of suffering, an end to neutrality, an end to battle.

This takes the time it takes for each of us to choose. One way or another. There is no wrong choice as they all inevitably lead back to Love. It is how we live out that choice that makes a difference. It is that heart energy that lights the way for all that is to come.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Energy Update: The V. Bioweapons Agenda & The Lemurian Invitation Into Soul Initiations

by Jelelle Awen

Message from Ruma, Inner Earth Lemurian:

A grid generated by the V. Bioweapons is very real. This grid is energized by every soul who has chosen the V. at this time of bifurcation. The electromagnetic field of those who receive it is altered and their broadcast frequency becomes an amplified one of the Matrix. DNA and RNA is altered as well and, in many cases, permanently distorted to serve the programming agenda of the dark ones or the Cabal or the New World Order, as you call it.

These V. Bioweapons have been very specifically designed using galactic technologies that your 3D doctors do not understand yet or know how to counteract. Even those who designed them do not fully understand how they will alter the human anatomy at the cellular level.

Many souls who came here karmically to serve during this time are trying to explore and discover what herbs and plants could reverse the damage created by these bioweapons. They are on the right track yet the soul must very much WANT to live on emotional and soul levels that requires a consciousness that most likely wouldn’t choose the shot in the first place.

Many souls are now in the process of dying, their cells turning on each other in a heightened auto immune. Understand that this truly is something they have chosen on a soul level. To be part of this dark experimentation in order to wake up humanity. Although they are not usually conscious of this, their Higher Self holds this truth for when they leave the body and the Earth Plane and can remember again.

Much compassion can be felt for these souls whose ego and 3D selves are having an acute experience of suffering and also of being ‘betrayed’ by those they put their trust in. The lesson of not trusting external sources of power is a challenging one. Yet, rather than pity these souls, you can also hold how they are serving humanity’s ascension and their own soul growth by going through this experience….as painful as it is for parts of them.

We cannot directly intervene in what is happening nor prevent it from running its course. This is very challenging for us at times as we do vibrate at a higher frequency than the dark ones that have possessed the surface of Gaia and hijacked humanity since the fall of Atlantis. This frequency offers for us to love and forgive even these Dark ones and see them as a sacred part of the Divine’s plan.

Yet, we are also always rooting for and in support of you on the surface. You are a projection and reflection of us…children and offspring of us and of the Atlantians. We hold the remembrance of the Golden Age of humanity that we lived for million of years on the surface of Gaia.

Remember that the Dark Ones have been in control for only a small amount of time compared to your sacred human legacy. They are temporary, a test, and a challenge that we have all trust humanity will overcome.
Ask us for support and we will be there. Seek our guidance and we will advise you. Connect with our energies in the purest and wildest forms of nature that you can find. We have activated many 5D girds around the surface, especially near the vortexes of mountains, that activate the 5D template within you.

As you accept our initiation, this will require you to give up and let go of what does not support your 5D seeds from being watered. At this time of heightened bifurcation, this is more important than ever. It may become not safe for you to be around those who have received the V. Or be around those who are still under the spell of the Dark Ones. Cities will be very challenging as the V. Grid amplification increases…cities are the battlegrounds of this covert war.

We offer you both sobriety and hope today. Understand that life as you have known it no longer exists, which is ultimately a good thing for humanity. It will feel very harsh at times yet this transition is held with much love by your Divine Mother and Father. Go within to receive love even as you make outer choices that lead to your self preservation.

You hold humanity’s hope within you. This is a responsibility that you accepted before this life. This is an honor and requires self responsibility and much courage. Move into the unknown in new ways and your soul will answer you, as will the Divine, as will we your Lemurian family.

Sending you love from within Gaia,
One of The Inner Earth Lemurians ambassadors Ruma with Jelelle Awen

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Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For information about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators Raphael Awen/Gabriel Amara/Kasha Rokshana, virtual group call events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

Nature’s Constant Support Of Us & Our Healing, Especially During These Escalated Times

by Kasha Rokshana

Nothing transforms you so effortlessly as nature/mama Gaia does… We’ve returned to Porto for about a week before heading back to camp full time and I feel like something core within me is shifting that I’ve been working to shift for years now, especially as I humbly walk out this transition.

I think what I was always craving was a return to nature in a deeper way, which is a return to my own nature. A way to feel what is natural for me and what has had to be ‘put on’. I’ve looked at so many layers of self-image and wanting to be ‘this’ or ‘that’ and especially seen/received as ‘this’ or ‘that’ over the last few years.

True confession… Aspects/parts of me have never really fully gotten over that and there’s still more work to do around it, yet I feel even more trust that the work continues even without me consciously realizing it. This is especially true as I continue to immerse in nature and respond to/template from her…

Nature lays naked before you and upgrades as she upturns. She turns herself inside out, moving her healing along in ways both attractive and unsightly, yet always with some underlying grace, pace, and love flow.
Nature moves onward, always. She is always changing. She is always moving with the times and not against them, though she will push back too if she has to. It’s up to you if you choose to roll along with her or continue to try and master or dominate her, just as parts of you have tried to do with themselves.

These last 9 days of being deeply immersed in nature with my beloved and my nearest and dearest companions, has awakened a ‘wild child’ within and also a deep, core sense of well-being in this intense world. Something is emerging that is much more aligned with nature and the natural self.

This is the place I want to serve from, from the true heart of my raw and earthy Priestess, emotional human woman, and sacred feminine embodiment in everything that means.

Because now more than ever, we need leaders who are willing to look into mirrors, find their hearts, be willing to be wrong, stand for the love and deep evolution/Ascension of humanity, and hang onto context so that we all have something to lean on.

I cannot stress enough the power of having your feet in a flowing river and putting your head under a (small) waterfall; the power of having dirt under your fingernails from raking and clearing your campsite, the insects that visit and others that seem to ‘invade’; the rawness that gets to emerge from you as you come to embrace and explore it all.

The bigness of the ‘you’ that emerges from these experiences that is indeed big enough to hold and respond to it all, to yourself, to those who are ready to hear and learn from you, and to those who are there to share life and love with you in an intimate and healing way… Is worth every moment of discovery and uncovering.
Nature is calling out your true nature and instinctual self too. Gaia is with us all in all of our processing, pain, and movements. She is holding our hearts and our hands yet can only meet us where we are ready to meet Her… Where we are ready to truly meet ourselves.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

SoulFullHeart Museletter: July 3, 2021

The energies of the ongoing C*VID narrative continue to bring through lots of leverage for our individual awakening experiences. These experiences of realigning with the Divine, letting in our guidance, and following through with what we feel to be true and real, is a monumental task in some ways and so very important. In this issue’s featured article, Jelelle Awen offers a bigger picture view of why it’s so important, perhaps more so now than ever before, to truly live into our Divine guidance as we navigate everything that we’re facing in this ongoing Matrix peak and collapse.

In this issue you’ll also find some new articles from all of us, digesting our experiences of visiting Avebury Stone Circle and a crop circle too in the UK a few weeks before we all left for Portugal. A few articles also share about what we’ve been feeling and letting in as we land in Portugal and things heat up considerably around C*VID and the j@b.

We created a couple of new videos for you from our time in Avebury and the nearby crop circle that showed up while we were in that area too.

You can subscribe to our Museletter by visiting our website: soulfullheart.org or taking a look at this issue via this link and clicking the ‘subscribe’ button at the bottom of the page: https://mailchi.mp/91f946ab5af9/soulfullheart-museletter-an-important-time-to-tune-into-divine-guidance?e=e10cd5f26e

Much love from all of us!

~ The SoulFullHeart Community

Back To The Natural Self

Being out in the city the last couple of days has made me acutely aware of an obvious fact. There is a hijacked, conditioned/constructed world and a natural, organic one. This is what the bifurcation feels like to me. A delineation between two (and also infinite) worlds.

As I have been digesting my own inner world the past few days, I can feel where I have had conditioned fears/reactions as well as natural ones. It is interesting to get a sense of the difference as it can lead to a deeper understanding of ourselves and the worlds we are a part of.

This whole pandemic is rooted in the conditioned/constructed domain. It was created. There is no doubt about that anymore in my heart, mind, and soul. Had we (as a collective) been more rooted in our Natural consciousness, there would be no issue here. We would not be playing ‘God’, but rather being Love.

I feel more aligned than ever to what my nature is messaging to me, not what the Construct is trying to convince me of through fear, smoke, and mirrors. To be able to function in some ways, I do participate in the charade as needed to the degree that I must to get a particular need met (such as a flight or to get some food.)

This participation is always under review and change as I continue to detach from the Old World and transition into the New. What is important to me is my own awareness of my internal emotional and spiritual guidance. Where is it feeling okay and where is it not? Am I in a conditioned response or in the seat of my own love power? It is an ongoing process and evolution.

I want to lead myself, and others, back into this forgotten natural world. The world of instinct and intuition that my beloved Kasha wrote about yesterday. I want to keep unplugging from the delusion we have found ourselves seduced by, not with spite or malice but with Love. Anger is necessary in the waking up process, but only keeps us looping in the long-term.

By connecting and feeling the parts of us that are still in the Construct through trauma, conditioning, and fear, we get to love them back into their natural states of compassion, discernment, courage, trust, and innocence. We each are The One. The Neo of The Matrix. We are Divinity incarnate.

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

A Time For Sorrow And A Time For Joy

By  Raphael Awen

A time for sorrow and a time for joy. Collectively, it feels very much like we are entering a dark night of sorrow and loss of life.

As we mourn the loss of life that we are now being faced with on an unprecedented scale from the experimental jab designed to reduce population, and come through the necessary reactions of fear and anger and waking up, we come to a threshold of sorrow and mourning.

Beautiful beings of all ages, on all continents, of all genders, full of life force are dying. Many are being permanently injured. The jabbed and the un-jabbed are being faced with affronts to their immune systems on a scale that can’t be known or measured.This means that life as we’ve known it is all up for profound reconsideration. 

Like the patient who receives a prognosis of a very short lifespan, what made sense yesterday, doesn’t make any sense now.

At first for many of us, the rumbles will be disbelief. The comfort of our familiar life and the threat of change will be like the people sailing on the Titanic. Who wants to get in a cold lifeboat at the direction of some fear monger when the ship still looks and feels so much better, and so indestructible and has the guarantee of so many experts.

Personally, having landed in Portugal this past week, having threaded a needle, arriving here without a demand to quarantine or a test, I feel my heart breathing into this grief. Reading about the injuries and deaths and the expectation of a huge rising tide of more of the same feels staggering as I ask for guidance about the set of my sails now. What matters now? What does service look and feel like now? What does a fear based self preservation response look like that seeks to minimize personal loss look like?

All of us strangely are being asked to give up aspects of life as we’ve known it, and be participants in this death. The refusal to let something die will only speed up its demise.

New life is coming and it comes through death. Mourning is what allows the reconciliation to be expedited in you and those around you.

(The picture above is taken this week from sitting on the banks of the Minho River that forms the border with Spain here in Northern Portugal. The opposite bank is Spain. The setting made for a really good place to feel what’s asking to be felt now.)

Much Love,

Raphael

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/