Spiritual Mastery As An Avoidance Of Vulnerability

By  Raphael Awen

The path of spiritual mastery or attainments has been basically useless to me for several years, other than to often trip me up in comparison or self judgment games.

The thing was, I used to be able to muster some impressive consistent self discipline and regimen, set goals and stick to them, and that way of being in life doesn’t let go easily, even as it collapses at the same time.

I don’t think I’m alone in this by a long shot. I think what I’m feeling personally is more of a reflection of what the masculine is coming to terms with now as consciousness itself shifts and changes.

Mastery served us well for a time to come to know our power. It moved us from an inferiority complex, but now threatens us with a superiority complex. Both however are non-relational and both are non-vulnerable, and both don’t actually have mastery over anything in the bigger picture of what we really want and need.

At nineteen, I went out jogging every single day for over a year, without missing a day, rain, snow or shine. How I felt didn’t matter, other than holding onto this feeling of I can do whatever I set my mind to. I thought at the time that I’d do this for the rest of my life, because with each passing day, my record of achievement was getting bigger, better as well as harder to lose.

That’s the thing with attainment and spiritual masteries. They are like rolling a stone up a hill that will one day succumb to gravity, and the higher up you roll the stone, the greater its velocity and path of destruction to your self perception and who knows what else when it gives way to nature, as it is sure to do one day.

Men particularly have been so addicted to doing the right thing and the good thing, the thing that once did have meaning, purpose and even connection, with love, life and nature, that they naturally fear letting go of. It matters less how noble the thing, just heaven forbid that you should be without some animating thing.

How could something so good lose its value over time?

If all this mastery and attainment grasping is becoming an old way, is there a new way that wants to come in its place? I have my ideas and answer to this, but do you have a sense of your arising truth around this?

Maybe mastery was just a placeholder holding us as men in a place of being mastered over, until we were ready to enter a whole new dimension of mystery, coming to know our power through the doorway of vulnerability and transparency?

Paul talked about the ‘schoolmaster of the law’ being over us until being introduced to Christ consciousness, which is more about being changed in core nature. Was he already hinting at this two thousand years ago?

It seems the old way of gaining mastery was really about gaining mastery over our vulnerability and never having to be transparent. We were holding a suppressive lordship over ourselves.

You may still be feeling like a millionaire holding some masteries, but I’ll bet life isn’t supporting you any longer to naturally sustain that. All the millionaires and billionaires of today are finding it harder and harder and super costly to effort sustaining those holdings.

These feelings are coming up for me today as I have an opportunity to have a session later today with a dynamic man and big soul who has a heartcry unfolding. I could feel some tension inside and went inwards to feel what it was about.

I connected with all of my inner masculine aspects of me from this life and other timelines that I feel living in me differentiated and unique, and asked their reactions to meeting with a man.

Here’s the pieces that came back to me in dialogue with them. (It feels good to get to the underlying push and pull and where and how it lives in parts of us and their needs. Now, we don’t try and fix the fade on one mastery with another mastery campaign somewhere else.)

“I don’t like men who speak their truth as thee truth without acknowledging their belief system that gave birth to those truths. They don’t feel safe or kind.” Marvin

“I don’t feel comfortable being around men who energize their spiritual mastery or attainments. It doesn’t feel real to me. If they are onto something, I feel stuck in a comparison game or left out. Mastery just hasn’t worked for me in decades. The mastery path as we’ve known it feels non relational and non vulnerable.” Wayne

“I’d like to serve men again. I feel trust that we know we won’t hurt or harm without care and kindness, but I also know that we and you and us are going to need to be awake, ready, in our stance, on our game, with our truth, not letting reactions get internalized. Men are looking for a mirror of truth.” Arthur

“You have a magic in you, Raphael, and that gets to come out and serve and be given when you simply be you, transparenting whatever you are feeling. I like serving men because then we get to dance in the magic and be around other mens magic too.” Charles

“What an opportunity to feel the heartbeat and heartcry of men, instead of dominating or controlling them. They aren’t / we aren’t that complex in some ways. We just want connection, meaning, and purpose” Lionel

Thanks for reading, especially as a man, and maybe as a woman, you can feel this as the masculine polarity inside of you and one that is or is wanting to transmute into these new directions?

I’m curious!

~ R ~

Our online portal is one gathering place for the new. You can find it here: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Big heartfelt acknowledgement and thank YOU to Gabriel Amara for leading this charge with me while we surrender to divine timing for more men in the room.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for community engagement, exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/ for a monthly subscription of $22.22 USD

Bearing The Burden Of Love’s Unsolvable Mystery

By  Raphael Awen

💚 Realizing that all of your awakening is only ever but a measure is humbling. Then realizing that infinity bears no measure is more humbling still. 🏄🏻‍♂️

We are all in the awakening and we are all in the slumber. Love is playing with us, dancing with us, wanting to come to know itself through us, knowing that it never will and never wants to because of its own infinity. It just does what it does for the joy, reverence awe and wonder of it all.

Love invites you to meet with it there, in the unknown, in the surrender, where every mistake is an infinite success, where every pain is the source of unspeakable healing.

You bear the burden of love’s unsolvable mystery.

You can’t be solved or fixed because even your belief that you needed fixing is all a part of this mystery of being.

This being that you are; infinite, pretending with your measuring tape; omniscient, pretending to be missing a memo; omnipresent, pretending to be in one place at one time; omnipotent, pretending to be lacking something, ALL is love at play.

You have lots of awakening to do, but not for the attainment of it, for it literally gets you nowhere.

But when you get there, you won’t ever want to go back, and you won’t want to stop dancing with this love moving through you.

Xo,

~ R ~

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for community engagement, exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/ for a monthly subscription of $22.22 USD

Feeling The Portal Of Aging W/Grace Rather Than Fighting It

By Jelelle Awen

I had one of those beautiful, expansive and celebratory days with Raphael yesterday beginning with making love in the morning, a long, much needed walk in the gorgeous mountain valleys near us, and celebrating the passionate expression weave that came through in our Beltane livestream. It was an opening out after both of us going inward to feel despair and heaviness of a mostly karmic sort together as I shared about recently. It felt like an exhale too after so much being activated by the recent energies coming through in the solar flares, eclipse, and more.

This goodness seemed to push up some more ‘oil’ to feel, as it so often does for all of us. I was feeling today with a new inner mother part of me named Hera (yes after the wife of Zeus) about the aging process for women and all that it brings up in terms of self consciousness, insecurity, feeling like you don’t matter or ‘count’ or are invisible somehow, and ‘fighting’ aging rather than embracing it.

My birth mother would ‘battle’ these signs of aging with everything she had and would be encouraging me to do the same if we were still in relationship together (which we haven’t been by my soul’s choice for over ten years now.) She would probably be encouraging me to use the ‘tools’ now at our disposal such as fillers, plastic surgery, hormone replacement therapy, and more. So I feel this emptiness in any template for aging gracefully and naturally, in the culture and in my own experience.

I have always been more the holistic and natural sort of soul. With my medicine woman and priestess roots being so strong in my soul, there is a sense of connection to the natural and the pure as being the most beautiful and resistance to anything inorganic, chemical, and invasive. Even with this strong soul grounding, I could feel in this part of me how the programming and conditioning to feel unworthiness as you age is ingrained at a cellular level.

This is becoming more heightened in me as I turn 50 next month. To my soul consciousness age really means very little and my soul ‘eyes’ do not even see it or notice it, especially in others! Yet, to my conditioning and to this part of me, there is a meaning in moving out of my 40s. And the physical signs of aging are being noticed more too now as my metabolism slows and I gain a bit of weight even while I continue to eat quite light, do yoga and other exercise. Also, I am experiencing more gray hairs, wrinkles, more sagging skin and the period cycles with hormonal dips that are becoming more intense yet also more sporadic as I move into the deeper stages of perimenopause.

I started to feel as I let Hera cry it out with me this morning that Divine Mother wants to wrap us both up with love in response to this. I could see/feel Mother Mary coming forward and just holding us both with so much sense of our beauty and grace. It started to go in and I am also blessed to be able to share all of this vulnerably with my beloved, my daughter, and my precious community and be felt by them in it too.

The aging process and our relationship to it really has been so hijacked by the matrix to idealize young beauty and suppress the wise woman beauty and wisdom from coming through. I can feel what a powerful ‘force’ this wise woman is and how much she is missing from our culture. There will be lots of interesting things to feel and teach about this feels like as I continue to experience it myself.

And I feel this is true for men as well who may not have as much judgement on them physically as they age, yet have their own internal pressure built up around their competency, adequacy, relevancy, performance, potency (esp sexually) etc. And relationships/sacred unions aging together too is an interesting ground as well as Raphael and I shift into a deeper ‘hotness’ expression of sexuality that is more and more soul based even as it grounds in the physical. Rather than going flat or dead, we seem to be moving into more depth of intimacy together.

Mostly, I am FEELING this aging process as a portal to experience my soul and Divine feminine self within my body. Not to fight it, yet rather to embrace it…..allowing the full range of feelings that come up around it along with continuing to take care and love my body in the ways that I know work for it. And I want to help heal this fight against aging collectively and to offer a new template in the mother/daughter templating relationship too around it.

We will be doing a group call about the aging with grace process for our online community portal members on Sunday, May 22nd with more info about that coming up soon. You are welcome to join us there to connect, share comments, read the many personal/vulnerable sharing there and also to join in our group call. Membership details at: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

I also am very open and desirous to feel into and process this with other older women going through this, as I have in session space in the past as well. It is a mutual discovery even as I can feel the Divine Mother channeling my heart in nourishing ways for us both. More info about 1:1 sessions with me at soulfullheart.org/sessions.

Also, if you’d like to meet your Inner Mother (or Inner Father) you can find guided meditation videos to do that here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y…

Love in tenderness as we all experience the process of aging together,

Jelelle Awen

Wake Up Call: Beltane & Ascension Energies Update (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

In this video recorded live on May 1st, Raphael and Jelelle Awen transmit the fire and renewal energies of Beltane/May Day to put out a powerful wake up call to the masculine, in both men and women. This soul fire of passion and truth is fuelled in us by the recent solar flare activity, planetary alignment, black moon solar eclipse and overall increasing Ascension energies.

Raphael especially shares a message to the masculine about how high the stakes are for him and that there’s never been a time quite like now where both the need and the opportunity to align with your truth and allow it to change your life are both present.

We share about how so many souls are willing and able to do the ‘inner work’ yet often ceiling out when it comes to making difficult life choices that require bringing their truth, upsetting others, moving out of previous configurations, letting go of ‘sacred cows’, etc. We then share about the benefits of negotiating with parts of yourself in order to pop through this ceiling that caps your bigness, soul fire, and growth.

So many trajectories from this life and others are wanting to come together and be felt and responded to in this life. Forget ‘healing’ and ‘working on yourself’ if you only want some relief from all the attendant problems that arise from choosing half of yourself. The craziness of the times we are in, that is manifesting inwardly and outwardly, invite you to get real, get really real, with yourself, and then take the self loving and negotiated steps to out that into your world. It’s all a portal that your soul has set up.

You’re not starting a war, but ending a bunch, though you can’t do this without ruffling more than feathers. Short of showing up for your truth and your choices, you really leave yourself in a hopeless and alone place. No one can help you and you are of no help to anyone. You are in fact choosing a slow suicide. Which brings us to the vulnerable need we all share to belong, which interestingly enough seems to have a lot to do with why we stay stuck for the time we do as well as a lot to do with how and why we would undertake such life altering choices when we’re ready to.

You can read comments that happened during on the livestream on Jelelle’s facebook feed: https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen

Here is a recent energy update from Jelelle about the Beltane/Eclipse energies brought up new karmic healing grounds in our sacred union: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2022/05/01/energy-update-beltane-eclipse-opening-karmic-metasoul-timeline-portals-in-sacred-union

We also invite you to join us to become a member on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others in a meaningful way. Membership is $22.22 USD a month: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

For more information about a free intro call to find out more about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, visit http://www.soulfullheart.org/sessions

The Virtues Of Virtual Community: An Update On Our Online Social Platform

I am very excited with what almost feels like a manic high, but also feels grounded into a bunch of heart and soul journey coming together into a nexus point that’s been tempered with many lows.
I wanted to share this post with our audience here on Facebook which I also shared in our private online Mighty Network group yesterday called The Soulfullheart Portal. https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Jelelle, myself and Gabriel and Kasha got together the day before yesterday to discuss and feel together more about how we’d like to approach and give structure to the Soulfullheart Portal and online community we’re creating.

One of the pieces I’ve been feeling is the invitation to lead with transparency as we go, invite your input, rather than create some big program that we think will be what people want and will respond to, launching that, and then being with the result which is often less than we hoped for, and quite possibly underwhelming for members as well. I so welcome your thoughts in the comments below.
It’s so interesting to feel deeper into who it is that would be drawn to the SFH Portal, and to me in the moment, I’m particularly feeling the lone wolf energy in people who know what they don’t want, what they can’t resonate with, and how that can feel like most everything that’s being offered out there. They’re left with a lot of despair to try and live life with. I know that from my own experience.

I also know that anything that is driven by a lot of hype and salesy energy, only feeds that despair, and yuck inside. Add that to the ever so rapidly changing world we find ourselves in and that’s a supersized side of despair with that yuckburger!
What we are seeing as a collective is the whole internet is rumbling around the ideas of ‘creators creating content and building audience’ from which to leverage something, usually money, to the missing community, real community, where real needs get met and real connections are made, meaningful connections.

How many people would like to toss their devices and laptop for the sheer boredom of the thing, but feel trapped to do life without the need to be online. Online with what? OK, maybe that’s not one or the other, but I bet you know what I’m talking about. How many have bailed on Facebook for instance?

Jelelle and I are feeling to do a livestream and talk openly about these pieces soon, but asking your input and telling you what we’re thinking in the meantime felt good too.Here’s a couple specifics of what we’re seeing and learning:

We’re seeing that having a paid community, as in a monthly subscription makes for way higher engagement over a free community. This is true for communities in general, but seems to be particularly the case for us.

Many have seen our offer to join the free portal as it stands now, they’ve clicked the join button, answered the question, been sent their approval, but haven’t actually joined. So that feels like what’s going on there is about people having a feeling of ‘oh, this could be a good thing’ and click, and then largely forgetting about it. If they do go on to actually join, we see that many members then don’t engage, load a picture of themselves, etc, and their membership is not much more than being a member of many forgotten groups on FB. I don’t mean to be negative, but I do need to look at and feel what doesn’t excite me. And I don’t think it does anything for members that do want a warmer, more engaged, interactive community.

I’ve been that kind of disengaged member myself, which really isn’t a member of anything, but a member of something boring, and depleting like most of the internet for that matter. No judgment on you or I for contributing to that, but the yuck is an opportunity to ask what we really want and why.

So that’s a big one we see, is that a paid subscription is a big part of creating something different. How do you feel about that?

We had been seeing a free portal up till now and then later offering paid community based courses to the membership as a place to rally deeper engagement and as a way to generate income for ourselves, but this is now changing too to seeing and feeling how people don’t really want all the content that course planners create. We have created so much content on our website, blog and youtube channel and engagement there is so small compared to what we want, desire and need. But people don’t want content, they want community is what we are learning. I don’t want content. I want community.

Anyways, there’s lots more energy and emotional transparency to share around this and that feels best to save for more updates soon, but I wanted to ask your input as we go as that would help us continue to sort and evolve.

Mostly, we want a place where people really want to be, where they come alive, where they invite their friends, where they grow and are challenged, where they feel like they’ve entered a NEW world, that they could even justify paying for, exchanging for the goodness. A world of a bunch of content, even really good content (like ours) is NOT that world however. Something different is needed.

Can you feel the itch we are scratching?

Thank god we’re still a tiny group on a new impulse and can sort as we go.

Xo, Raphael 🙂

(Further to this update above is that we have now as of today changed the membership offer from free to $22.22 USD per month. If you’ve been around us long enough to know you’d like to go further in deeper intimacy with us and growing community, please head over to https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/ and join in. I hold every single member as a sacred gift and an opportunity to share our gifts as well.)

Raphael Awen is a Sacred Masculine Love Ambassador and Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheart.org

Energy Update: Beltane/Eclipse Opening Karmic Metasoul Timeline Portals In Sacred Union

By Jelelle and Raphael Awen

Energy Update: My goodness, wow, there is a lot to feel and coming up in response to/activated by all these celestial ‘events’ and energies!

For the last two days, I’ve been in a deep karmic ‘tunnel’, feeling, seeing, and experiencing energies from another lifetime heavily overlaid on my own and just BEing with them and the soul aspect who feels them. Allowing lots of tears, physical tiredness and need for rest has been so important, plus lots of processing/sharing time with my mate Raphael too.

This Metasoul aspect of mine (as we call them rather than ‘past life’) is named Lorna, a powerful Avalonian High Priestess who walked away from her position for many reasons in her lifetime, yet mostly to follow the call of her heart in mateship with Raphael’s metasoul aspect ( a Christian king named Lionel). Of course, this union was ‘forbidden’ and they hid in the shadows with their affair….longing for each other yet not able to ‘be together.’ This is a reoccurring theme for Raphael and I over many, many lifetimes and what we came here to heal together this life. The priestess and the king, being in different ‘worlds’ yet our twin/pairbond calling us to connect and heal the separation wound there.

Being able to be together and be in our power/gift expression together is the opportunity we’ve chosen in this life. It is A LOT to let in and even nearly 14 years later, we are still in this process together of inhabiting this.

As is the case in truly non-compartmentalized sacred union in which we are in constant physical/emotional/mental connection together yet also individuating, this invitation to have and be in what we haven’t gotten to be in before brings up all kinds of things to feel such as grief, distrust, insecurity, fear of loss, desire to control/grasp, unworthiness and much more.

During this powerful Beltane/Union passage and supported by the Black Moon eclipse energies (along with the recent planetary alignment and ongoing solar flares), Raphael and I went into this lifetime together (which isn’t in the ‘past’ at all yet occurring in the Quantum Now), dropping into the energies of Lionel and Lorna and facilitated a feeling/bridging to them. They ‘get’ to be together in their lifetime too finally and get to lead together, seeing where that takes them. Their union fortifies and supports the union between Raphael and I too, opening up a gift exchange. Left unfelt, their resistances and fear creates blocks to intimacy and deepening for Raphael and I.

I feel to share this tender process as it is the best example I can offer of the kinds of energies you may be experiencing and emotions too, yet may not always know or feel a ‘way’ to be with them. There is a massive lifting of the veils happening where the previous amnesia we have had about other lifetimes and soul themes is dissolving. Whether you are in sacred union right now or single, your soul is inviting you to heal the separation wounds within you and in your experience in order to move into more union on all levels.

I do love this SoulFullHeart process so very much for what it allows to be opened up and felt in a specific way that also has such depth and possibility to it. If you’d like to hear more about our process recently as a couple and more about SoulFullHeart as well and if it might be a deepening place for you in community and sessions, you can join Raphael and I in a livestream on FB on Beltane, Sunday, May 1st at 5:00pm GMT/12:00pm EDT/9am PDT. The recording will be available on our feeds to watch anytime along with here on this blog and on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel.

We also share more about our personal processes and respond to your movements/sharings too on our private online community called the SoulFullHeart Portal….creating a safe community space online to support each other, deepen, challenge, and grow together. You are welcome to join us there for a $22.22 USD monthly membership as an exchange with us: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

The energies of the eclipse bring up and out these timelines/lifetimes and it’s HOW we are with them that can make a big difference in our experience and what we can leverage from them. I so love truly being able to dialogue with, feel, and grow with these soul aspects and parts of myself, over years sometimes, and in an ever deepening way. Not just in a one time regression session, yet in a truly relational way that is ongoing.

Healing the separations that create and feed our fear…moving into more union within and together…THIS is why we are here in this life where so much more is possible than ever before!

And Raphael’s comment on this post:

“This must sound like a complete dream to so many, a real dream, but a dream nonetheless, to have this kind of feeling access to other timelines.

It might feel quite ‘attained’, but my personal experience is more about the guts it takes to be willing to feel and digest all there is to feel in these karmic bonds and binds, and how they are expressing in the current of our current. It did take deep process and choice, but for a soul who’s ready to go here, my truth is that you will be surprised how immediate the openings are and how you will be graced and paced by love and the divine to hold it all.

Feeling this pair bond yesterday took me into some deep tunnels of despair feeling Lionel, which resonates so deeply with the despair inside so many men right now. It’s all connected and it’s all asking to be answered.

If you’re feeling that you need to stay on top of things if you’re going to be a resource to others, I’d invite you to think again. We are in this ride together and there are things to feel that feel like hell, and it is through those hells that you get relieved of the pretense of being something you are not and it is through those hells that you get truly empowered to be of useful and profound service for what is at hand now.

There’s lots more shit to come and unless we drop our roles, we’re going to just plain suffer deeper and deeper. If we are ready to go deeper, there is, I’m convinced (much of the time) that there is so much goodness awaiting us. That is not only my hope, but my daily ongoing experience.

I am so glad to be in the resolution of these timelines with you, Jelelle, and all of our discovered Metasouls. I believe that is what all of us are doing one way or another in the long run, it’s just about how much someone is ready to feel now and at what pace that makes the difference in our joy/suffering.

I know there is a TON of divine support to all of us who are willing to feel and heal on this level.”

Much love to you during this illuminating passage!

Jelelle Awen

More info about sessions, online community, events, books/writings at soulfullheart.org.

My Journey, Humanity’s Ascension, Soul Community | The Starseed Network Podcast | Kasha Rokshana (Audio)

In this episode of The Starseed Network Podcast, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator and long-time soul community member, Kasha Rokshana, shares with host Saule Ilona Vaida about her personal awakening, healing,  and self-discovery journey. She shares about when she met Raphael and Jelelle Awen for the first time and how her ongoing journey in the SoulFullHeart process/way of life has transformed her from the inside out, which has helped her draw a Sacred Union mate as well.

Kasha and Saule also digest the ongoing Ascension process for humanity and the healing of the Divine separation wound, along with finding fulfillment in your emotional/spiritual healing journey and being true to yourself, your parts, your heart AND soul. 

You can follow this podcast on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/thestarseednetwork/

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/5I9q2RMyA89sicqeqsYASf?si=e0d6e7a5d38849a9

Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-starseed-network-podcast/id1585215487

Google Podcasts: https://anchor.fm/saule-ilona-vaida

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Energy Update: Rare Planetary Alignment Offering Balance & Healing of Polarities

By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: There is QUITE a powerful ‘planet parade’ (as it is called) going on now as Venus, Mars, Jupiter, Saturn and the moon are in visual alignment with each other in our early morning skies. From our perspective here on Gaia, they form a nearly straight line that is visible this week for about one hour before sunrise.

The most common alignment is when three planets line up on one side of the sun for many days out of the year; followed by four planets about once a year while five planets aligning happens every 19 years. All eight planets in alignment occurs once in about 170 years.

This event happening now with four planets aligning with the moon is an extremely rare and unique planetary event with the last time this occurred being over 1,000 years ago! Also, on Saturday, Venus and Jupiter (the two brightest planets) will be seen very close together in a conjunction. Saturday is also when we will have a ‘black moon’ partial eclipse of the sun.

Raphael and I will be sharing more about this planetary alignment plus eclipse energies and how you may be experiencing them, how to digest/integrate them during a livestream here on FB at 5:00pm GMT (London)/12:00am EDT/9:00am PDT. You can join us live to ask questions/leave comments and watch the recording whenever you’d like on our feeds and you tube channel.

This planetary alignment brings into visual transmission a sense of balance within and in the cosmos. While so many of us have been feeling the intensely chaotic and penetrative energies of the recent solar flares (and the sacred masculine energies they offer), this alignment seems to offer a contrasting grounding frequency…..an assimilation of the energies that been churned up, starting from within us.

A balancing of our inner feminine and masculine energies, healing of polarities in those inner relationships leads to the experience and embodiment of union. Union with a sacred mate, union with friends/soul family, union with our soul fragments in all of our many lifetimes, union with the Divine. The polarities are honored as are the differences, yet there is an invitation to heal the separation experience that is ongoing.

It is easy in these days of Matrix peaking/revelation to get ‘lost’ in polarity, being charged and angry, fighting and protesting, caught up in contentions. ‘Controlled opposition’ and division are being seeded in nearly everything that is being shared in the ‘mainstream’ consciousness right now.

Healthy conflict can lead to more union and vulnerability if held in a sacred and safe container for it. Finding your way through the previous knots and binds of fear (esp in a sacred union relationship) can be so nourishing! Yet, many souls have very few of these sacred and safe containers for this kind of transact available on the outside in their relationships nor cultivated on the inside.

Creating this safety place of inner alignment happens as we feel and hold space for the polarities, the messes, and the charges that come up and truly HONOR them. Rather than just allowing them to flood out and ‘attack’ OR react from a place of feeling attacked that is unconscious, you are centered within yourself and with the Divine in FULL heart held consciousness of what is going on within you.

This planetary alignment seems to bring some peace and rest to our bodies and soul fields as well. A calming after the recent chaos of activations and upgrades!

Raphael and I will share about this inner unification/healing of separation process on Saturday and also invite you to take into more connection through our videos, writings, sessions, online community, group calls, etc. with info at soulfullheart.org.

Love to you!

Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: Fear/Trauma Cellular Clearings w/Ongoing Solar Flares, Planetary Alignment & Upcoming Eclipse

By Jelelle Awen

Energy update: Major cellular clearings this week of fear, trauma, programming, conditioning, and separation wounding going on with these ongoing solar flares, planetary alignment and the upcoming eclipse! This is a messy, sometimes scary, crazy making, and DEEP activation time for many of us.

The VERY large sunspot complex that is now Earth facing erupted twice in quick succession today April 25th, producing an overlapping pair of M1-class solar flares, according to spaceweather.com. Solar flares bring in a sudden, high frequency of plasma/photonic light/radiation at once along with sacred masculine activations….and there have been dozens of them (including a few of the most powerful X class flares) recently.

Raphael and I offered this recorded livestream sharing more about solar flares and the sacred activations/effects they offer:

The planetary alignment of Saturn, Mars, Venus, Jupiter and the moon (along with the upcoming conjunction of Venus and Jupiter coming on Saturday) offers visual alignment to feel what has been out of alignment. Each planetary body has a consciousness frequency that we can tune into in certain ways to receive the messages/insights/upgrades from as well while connecting to these energies within us.

We’ll be sharing more about the upcoming partial solar eclipse and what it offers us with Raphael and I doing a livestream on my Jelelle Awen facebook feed about it on the eclipse day Saturday, April 30th at 5pm GMT/noon EST and you are welcome to join us for that to leave comments and ask questions.

Many of you have been sharing about feeling an increasing intensity in emotional and physical reactions especially during this last week with all this cosmic activity. You are NOT alone in this experience even if those around you aren’t as conscious about being impacted by them. These are powerful energies coming into our inner and outer atmospheres, inviting us to move into more alignment of our Divine Self, Divine Union, and Sacred Union.

I feel that this it is not about being victim to these energies and a quick ‘oh that’s why I feel this way’ response or ‘blaming them’ for what we are going through. Yet rather to USE the reactions that come up in response to these energies to learn more about yourself, feel it, and even understand WHY it is coming up in the way it is. They offer another portal of growth if we move out of resisting them and into embracing them.

When I felt a particular strong wave of fear and anxiety moving through at 3am recently, I felt an immediate bubble of Divine love surround me to hold it. I let it move through me and connected with the part of me feeling it (as I am practiced to do for all these years). This part of me needed some immediate reassurance and comfort, letting the Divine ‘help’ her in that moment.

Yet, I also recognized later that a bubble of karmic fear/distrust was moving out of the ground of my relationship with Raphael to allow more masculine leadership/passion expression from him. Trusting this expression (which came out very powerfully in his post yesterday) is the ground of our growth together as we come into more union around our leadership passion expression AND our passion for each other, which has often been separate/polarized in many lifetimes. There is much more to share about this later from our ongoing deepening with each other in brand new ways for our souls in this life!

Allow your Divine Self to respond to whatever you are feeling and your soul can then expand your awareness, lift veils, and guide you to the specific connections/bridges needed within you. This opens up more trust, joy, and movement out of the fear and into love again. The defensive/egoic parts of us often want to hide, bypass, avoid, or transcend the ‘mess’ in favor of the bliss. Or to look for easy answers and solutions for why it is going on. OR to continue rounds of suffering around it all, keeping us alone, isolated, cut off, and in flatness.

We can now be a bigger presence in the room with these scared yet sacred protective energies with us, bridging to a Divine support that can comfort and activate us.

Love to you as go through this bliss mess ride,

Jelelle Awen

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Masculine Energy Update: April 24, 2022

By  Raphael Awen

‘What can be shaken will be shaken’ and that’s pretty much everything.

If you thought you could create an unshakeable life, I imagine that you are either humbly and willingly reconsidering that presupposition or you are simply being forced to reconsider it.

Every electron that makes up every atom in every cell is in an oscillating push and pull kind movement. It is energy in motion and it’s trillions of times over just inside of your body alone. The solar rumblings that are going on are a macrocosm of the microcosm. You have your own ‘coronal mass ejections’ and solar flares happening inside of you on the quantum scale trillions of times over. You are not only affected by the sun, but you are affecting the sun as you are in quantum entanglement with all consciousness.

Every consensus reality that we’ve created in relationship to purpose, meaning, identity, money (exchanging ourselves in the world), romance, all of it is rumbling like never before. And it is crazymaking for our conscious minds to attempt to sort out as our conscious minds are not trained to handle this degree of shaking.

There is often nothing to do but surrender to the ride in the unknown and trust as best you can. Something from beyond our normal waking consciousness is going to have to meet you to sustain you in order to not overly suffer through this legitimate and inescapable suffering.

Take the practice of ghosting for example, that’s becoming so the norm in dating and in the workplace where recruiting is concerned. These are Titanic like behaviors of people who intuitively know that the ship is sinking, that there really is no tomorrow worth trusting in and that the default agenda is to get the most pleasure out of the immediate moment because that’s all there is. Do it at anyone else’s expense because me and my pleasure is all that matters. As nasty as that behavior is, it’s also part of the rebirth. These old masculine structures are emitting a heart cry for a death doula to assist them in completing the arc of their usefulness in our consciousness evolution, and so even the densest of hearts and souls respond to this heartcry.

Love never has allowed unanswered suffering to sustain, but love has not been afraid of allowing suffering to spike. We are in a spike like never before that is connected to, amplifying as well as answering all previous spikes.

Consciousness is reinventing itself, and it’s doing that through you and me, in your life and mine as we know it. Naturally, we feel it first as it affects how we feel as individuals, our personal life as we know it, how we feel today, but we are invited to feel it in the collective and here is where we find some answer for a balm to soothe the craziness we feel inside.

For me, in times like this, it often arises in an out of nowhere kind of feeling, of feelings of loss of wellbeing, meaning, purpose, rest and trust. I will consciously be able to feel how I have so much to be grateful for, but in these moments, I’ve lost all conscious feeling tones of that expanded gratitude. Instead, it feels gross, contracted, fearful, anxious, and hopeless. All is falling apart. There is a me there who can hold it with some self love around the experience, but the experience in moments can and does feel like it is almost all there is.

I’d love to take a poll here at this point and ask if you know of other spiritual teachers who’d be willing to admit this kind of reality inside. How many students and teachers are still busy in their ghosting worlds creating and cocreating these crumbling structures? Their purpose is just as sacred as mine, but theirs is stuck in a hell of a suffering loop if they are still busy selling wares on Titanic’s shifting deck; bullshit like how to turn your spiritual offering into a six figure or seven figure income. Six or seven figures of crumbling shit I might add!

My point is that everything is being transparented. By that I mean that everything that has been hidden is in process of being revealed. The big darknesses and the little ones. It’s not a morality police kind of revealing though. It is rather a revealing of finding and seeing how we are all one. What we do to an other, we do to ourselves. What ‘the one’ goes through, we can’t escape feeling it. Your unshakeable reality will be shaken to the place where the only salvation will be in getting real.

Getting real with yourself, with the divine, and with others. It’s the only mirror in which you will be afforded a picture of yourself that will be of any help. And incidentally, YOU do matter and how YOU fare does matter. It’s not about getting over yourself. It’s about getting into yourself and coming alive and feeling how your thrival is inextricably connected with mine and everyone else’s. If you want to survive this shaking, let alone thrive in it, you’re going to have to figure out a way to give your deepest gifts, and those gifts are about getting real first.

And herein shall also be your greatest service. Even the darkest darkness like the current holocaust injection agenda and dominations over humanity are all a part of love’s unfolding story. Love has cooked up some cliffhanger plots that outdo anything we’ve ever seen written before, but this is the level of meltdown that is currently going on.

You see, your soul, your higher self, doesn’t see your comfort and survival in this 3D domain through the lens of your conditioned 3D self parts of you. These beautiful beings helped and help you do 3D as you’ve needed to, but now their vessel has been breached, they are at fatal threat until you can answer and reconcile what it is that you really want, and THEN, move towards it in some way.

I’d like to invite you to take such a step in joining our online free portal at https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/. I’m being called to gather like hearts and souls into a resonance space to support one another, get to know and interact with one another and move forward through the craziness together. It feels like it’s either that or lay down and die. I want the former. How about you? I’d like to invite you not just to join me in this portal, but to invite others as well.

Lots more to come from life, from love, from this crazy ride. Let’s plan accordingly.

Raphael

(Photo taken by Tosi Philippe on April 22, 2022 )

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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