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Lost And Found And Lost Again…

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By Raphael Awen

So I go to grab my passport a few days ago in order to head to the bank, and it’s not where it belongs.

Shite!

I think back to where I used it last and that would be a couple weeks back when we had to go get our van back from being towed after I parked it where I shouldn’t have. Another anomaly.

I recall producing my passport at the government office to pay the fine, but I recall getting it back. Could I have left it in Pablo’s car? Pablo was the miracle man we had met recently that took us on the tour to get the van back, who had a ‘friend’ at ‘Transito’ at the government office building. I pull out my pendulum to ask it for some help. Is the passport in the apartamento? No. Didn’t think so. Is the passport in Pablo’s car? No. Shite. Where else could it be? Is it at the towing yard possibly? I couldn’t recall producing it there. Big YES! OMG, could it be? I get the phone number from the receipt and call the yard. I recalled a sweet young woman working there. I think I recognize her voice. ‘Hola, mi nombre es Marvin’ I say slowly (my name on my passport). ‘Ahh’, she replies, ‘tengo su pasaporte’. Big relief. Gabriel and I make the trek back there to pick it up the next day. Bingo. Passport is back. All good.

Well, it was all good for about less than an hour.

We went from the towing yard to the mall to do some shopping. We stopped to get something to eat, and I reach for my man purse and it’s not with me. Shite! Only now, it’s the passport AND the wallet! I left it in the bathroom stall draped over the tissue dispenser not 10 minutes prior. I run back to the bathroom. I recalled a bright looking young man entering the stall as I left, but he’d be gone by now. I look under the door to find the stall occupied and so I wait. The guy takes a while, so I wait some more till he’s done. I check the stall and it’s gone. Of course it’s gone. Double Shite!

I take a deep breath as I think to check in with customer service as I head for the bathroom exit, when in walks the bright young man carrying my murse…all intact, relieved to have found me! I reward him with some pesos that he accepts, and walk away not quite believing my good fortune and not believing I could have been so careless? Or was it care-free? What planet am I living on? …redoing my teen phase of life?

I joked to Gabriel when I returned smiling to find him in the food checkout that my karma must be all paid up in this department!

I’m not exactly sure what the moral of all this story is, but it feels like it has something to do with life reordering our worlds through chaos, and through manageable death and rebirth cycles. Jelelle and Kalayna couldn’t believe my story when we got back home saying I’m the last person to ever lose or misplace something. While that’s been true for me historically, it felt like it was obviously only true for a previous version of me. I strategically learned a good survival skill, but life and the universe wants to swap these out for some new ‘thrival skills’ based in trust and abundance, as it gave me an opportunity in this chaotic run of circumstances to loosen my grip on these fear based rigid rules of what being a ‘responsible’ human is.

Can we see that any chaos that comes into our lives is not meant to be a self-punishing cycle, but instead is a beneficial synchronicity of a loving universe? Can we see and feel life wanting to give us what we need even when we can’t see it or feel it as such?

Another question that came for me was ‘Can you imagine a world where losing your valuables would be the last thing to worry about because no one is in any kind of lack?’

Can you and I begin this task of letting-in this super-abundant universe into our emotional bodies as a way to virally infect the human race with this abundance ‘bug’?

It only takes one as we are all one and only one.

Raphael Awen
www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Jelelle Awen and I, Kalayna Colibri and Gabriel Heartman have our next group call this Saturday if you’d like a taste of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life…it’s a magical portal into a brave new world.

Event details are here: https://www.facebook.com/events/271320303342295/

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Awakening To The Cults We Find Ourselves In

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By Raphael Awen

Every last one of us has been deeply enculturated.

We’re left with taking responsibility for the cults we find ourselves in.

The first cult we were subjected to, by our own choice no less, was the cult of ‘the individuated out from divine source’. This cult left us with a kind of bi-polar disorder of on one hand fearing being returned to source against our will and having our individuality taken from us, and on the other hand, fearing not being able to ever find our way back to oneness source, left in a hell of separation and individuation forever.

Talk about having all the bells and whistles of having been in what feels like a harmful cult! Our hangups, anger, hatred and dysfunctions suddenly make a lot of sense. Could anything be more painful than losing your awareness of your true identity, leaving you and I out begging life for any kind of substitute scraps of survival forms of love that can be had?

Eventually, as we come to take responsibility for this first cult and the many other cults that we’ve wandered into and find ourselves in, we come to discover that while it most deeply feels like we are separate and separated, we never were. We come to see that we are in fact as close as we ever can and will be, and all that is awakening is only a realization of what IS, and not any kind of attainment of anything that isn’t already.

We are left with the task of attaining what already is.

We need all the dramas of life and relationship as the story and culture setting to get us to the moral of the story which is LOVE, not as an injunction to dutifully ‘be more loving’, but as a dawning awareness of the essence of what you and I already are and always were, leading to just simply and truly being the love that we are. The only injunction we’re really left with is ‘just be yourself’.

The deeper awareness in all of this that WE CHOSE this as the soul beings we are, calls us to feel all there is to feel in reaction to our present awakening. Only now can we begin to feel these roots of all of our dysfunctions and querks both related to being human, as well as related to being birthed into being a soul. Only now can we begin to feel and take responsibility for our true awesome power.

It’s like we’ve travelled to a far country, with strange language, weird food, and customs. We don’t know how to be here and we don’t know where to find what we desire as familiar love. When we do find something that feels familiar, that feels like family, we often find that the comfort it once gave no longer does. Our deep inborn hunger for love calls us on to seek new forms and experiences of the love that we are. We find ourselves again invited into new forms of cult and culture, given our bents for attachment and our needs for love. Now, we can take conscious responsibility for what we choose and for what we most deeply want; a new culture of love.

We didn’t come here for any kind of instant fix. You were never broken in fact. If anything, you were fixed in love and wanted to unfix yourself being the explorer of the infinite love that you are. You and I came here having it all and we couldn’t help ourselves but to want more. We came here for a process. We came here for relationships. We came here to feel and heal all there is to feel.

Raphael Awen
www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

If you are up for MORE and ready for some new feeling of all there is to feel, and some healthy enculturation, please join us this Saturday for our next SoulFullHeart group call:https://www.facebook.com/events/271320303342295/

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Is It Safe To Want More?

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By Raphael Awen

‘Is it safe to want more?’

‘Can I actually have what I most deeply want?’

‘Isn’t gratitude for what I have the opposite of wanting more?’

These questions repeatedly come to anyone who chooses to awaken their emotional body? They came to me again last night as I felt another layer of what I so deeply want.

To learn of deep abounding beauty that you don’t normally experience is to subject yourself to longing and despair that you don’t currently have that in your life. It takes big courage just to awaken that far. To then set out to obtain that deep beauty as your living reality is to call on resources of courage and choice that will surely be tested and tried moving forward.

How much easier and understandable it is for the masses to choose to remain asleep to desire. In moments, you are tempted to choose the path of the masses if you had any inkling that it could actually work for you.

You know you are here for more. You know that’s ‘just what is’ in your relationship to life. You also know any spirituality that offers the killing of your desire in the name of ‘overcoming attachment’ won’t work for you. You want more and you know it.

But life doesn’t actually offer you any kind of unconditional guarantee that you will obtain the desire of your quest for more, in exchange for your willingness to want so deeply. What life does offer you however, is the opportunity to embrace, and be in the aliveness of your desire for more. This is where the meaning is felt and found. I am a living breathing ‘wanter’.

I get to be in want.

I am a lover of love and love is so infinite and so multi-faceted that in surrendering to being in love’s want, I am sure to always be wanting something more than what I currently have, as beautiful, and even super-abundant as my current reality may be, and may go on to become.

We came from infinite source ‘having it all’ and yet we wanted more. So we came here, to be in lack, and want, to feel all there is to feel about this paradox. I am The All out wanting more.

I do get to fully enjoy every fulfilled desire along the way. I get to be in gratitude for both my wants AND what my wants have brought me. Every attachment that I ever clutched onto for as long as I did, be it a healthy or an unhealthy attachment, was really for me simply LOVE, in the way that it was, for the time that it was. It may no longer be love for me as I move on to deeper experiences of love, but that doesn’t mean it wasn’t deep and abounding love in the way and time that it was.

In fact, everything that I ever wanted and will ever want is simply love. Love is the source of all. I’m told that you and I can have all that we are ready and willing to let in, AND, when and as we are ready for it, we can have it TOGETHER too, in community.

How’s that for a deal? How’s that for a new world order? You and I get to be the deepest experiencers of love as we are willing to be in love’s deepest want.

 

Audio recording of this blog post in Raphael’s voice is here:

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Qualified By Immaturity

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By Raphael Awen

‘It is not your maturity that qualifies you to your next growth step in spiritual or emotional maturity, but rather the willingness to admit and feel your immaturity.’

These words come to me as I feel through a wrestling angst I felt in my field yesterday. Why the absence of peace or centredness? Why the reactive state?

My truth is that you and I didn’t come here to know centered bliss and love. We already know that. That’s already ours by right of soul birth individuation from Source. We were willing to give that up to enter a process of need, and angst and deep desire to find our way to something even more than bliss and oneness. Bliss and oneness, as great as it was and is, we found made us bored and lonely ultimately, and we chose to surrender to an insatiable hunger for more, being the creator gods that we all are.

It is only through our dissatisfaction and need that more can be found. Oneness and bliss, love and light doesn’t actually provide the movement that darkness, angst, pain and desire does?

So what is your need? What deep darkness have you dialled up this life and where does it want to take you?

What is the opportunity of your present immaturity?

Raphael Awen
www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Leaving Credibility Behind

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By Raphael Awen

Come with me for a moment, leave the world of the so called ‘credible’ behind to feel the world of the ‘IN-credible’…

Imagine for a moment that planet earth is likened to a single grain of sand, and then imagine that, for each and every of the other grains of sand on planet earth, that there exists another earth-like planet in the cosmos…watery, inhabited and abounding in life. One for every grain of sand!

Start with a pinch of sand…that’s countable, right?… bit of a challenge, but doable. Then try a tablespoon. Jump to a wheelbarrow of sand, and then to a sandbox full. One earth like planet for every single grain…. No wild way any of that’s possible, let alone one for every grain of sand in the earth!

But who’s to say?

Our minds are quick to point out that we don’t have any ‘credible’ science to back up such a notion (which actually isn’t accurate as new science is in fact emerging to strongly support this), but I invite you to FEEL this idea first with your heart and let your mind follow. Does it FEEL possible? Does it FEEL desirable? What about the opposite; that we on planet earth are the only ones ‘here’ in the cosmos…does that FEEL desirable or even possible to you?

Credibility is so far from all that it’s sized up to be. Something that’s ‘credible’ simply means that it is a ‘truth’ that has been given its stamp of approval by someone or some group, outside of yourself, who took it upon themselves to grant such accreditation, as a correct truth or a right truth for you to believe in. ‘Credibility’ is the world of mutual agreement where you are offered a false sense of belonging in exchange for suppressing your own truth. That if you believe what you are told is true, you won’t be frowned upon by the group or by these self declared gods of ‘Thee Truth’.

The truly IN-credible is the world where what you believe and see and feel as YOUR TRUTH is authorized from withIN you, from your own heart. Where you are the author. Where you are the creator….where the seeing that leads to believing is the seeing that YOU see through your third eye of true sight. The world of the INcredible is the world where you assume full power and full responsibility for what you believe and why.

You are free to believe whatever you want to. You are free to believe whatever you feel to. You no longer have any need for being ‘right’. You get to be wrong in fact, and change your mind and heart as often as you wish or need to. You get to invite others who are ready to explore their own truth to feel you as you explore yours. You get to live from your curiosity, rather than what you think you know as any kind of final truth. You get to let the world of not-knowing lead you to a truer and deeper ever unfolding kind of knowing, where even that ‘truth’ is again surrendered into deeper still realms of knowing what you never actually knew.

The only thing stopping you from taking this power of yours AS YOURS is the degree of your own unmet need to belong to something outside of yourself. What will ‘they’ think and what will ‘they’ say about me if I don’t agree or sign on with their deal? Are you ready instead to entertain the feeling of belonging entirely to yourself? Only as you belong to yourself are you able to truly share yourself with others. You cannot share what you do not own. Conforming in order to belong can’t actually provide any lasting sense of belonging, as you have not actually entered yourself into the circle, but instead only a caricature of you that pretends to believe and see the world in a certain conformist way. As they say in football, ‘you have no skin in the game’.

If the picture of our single planet earth that we were taught to believe is everything, as far as inhabited planets are concerned, is actually only the tiniest piece of a much greater thing, then we are brought to an awe; a surrender; and a curiosity of truly staggering proportions as we stand before that greater thing.

Then we also see that that ‘greater thing’ is also what WE ARE, as we share in the essence of that awe-filled reality regardless of the size comparison of our ‘known’ world to the unknown cosmos. Essence and ‘The All’ permeates all and vice versa.

We are brought to reverence.

We are brought to child-like wonder.

We are brought to LOVE.

Raphel Awen
www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Want some help with living into your truth? I offer personal spaceholding to men and women along with a magical process of transformation through getting to know and feel parts of yourselves at a price and a pace and rate that works! You can read more about that here:www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions and here:www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

We Get To Be Wrong

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By Raphael Awen

We get to be wrong.

The challenge we face when considering the popular idea that ‘we create our own reality’ is feeling, if this idea is true, how undesirable aspects of our present reality are our own creation, which in turn makes us wrong.

Parts of us may be ready to admit that they need and are willing to change, but often can’t get beyond what they feel is ‘taking the blame’ for the way things are now.

To accept blame is to admit wrong. To be wrong is to be unworthy of love, as only the right are worthy of love, as love is given to those who earn it by ‘right’ of their own righteousness…right?

Wrong!

We’ve had it all wrong. You were actually right all along, but became convinced you were wrong. So then, you were wrong about being wrong, when you were right all along.

It actually doesn’t matter any longer who is right and who is wrong, except to those, whom just like we did, must yet live their lives like forensic accountants avoiding blame at any cost, and must continuously lay the blame at someone else’s door. We all needed our time in the wrong to move us to where it did.

To those of us now awakening to this new reality that we are all-right; that we are love; and that we are worthy of this love that we are; there is a celebration of arising deep self-worth based in true self-love where we can now ‘afford’ to be wrong, where we simply couldn’t before.

Now we come to see and feel the very empowering feeling that only the one doing it wrong gets to take responsibility for doing it right, where the rightness and wrongness doesn’t actually mean anything anymore, in terms of blame, but now instead points to huge opportunity.

You created your own reality on the outside that perfectly matched how you felt about yourself on the inside. You come to see that this ‘create your own reality’ idea is something you’ve had down pat for a long time, but just didn’t know it, as you had it working in reverse to where you choose to move it now.

So, if you can now freely be wrong, what would being freely RIGHT look and feel like to you? What picture of new creations can you see and feel in your imagination as your new arising reality?

Raphel Awen
www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Want some help with living into a new reality? I offer personal spaceholding and a magical process of transformation through getting to know and feel parts of yourselves at a price and a pace and rate that works! You can read more about that here: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. You can make a one time donation to SoulFullHeart at https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Cracks Of Authenticity Let In Real Love

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There is a moment in our lives when it all just hits the fan. The way we used to interface with the world no longer has any juice left.  The cracks in the facade start to weather, and you just can’t roll with things the way you used to.  You can’t be false. Then the only thing you can really do is shut down, go crazy, or start being honest with yourself.  This is where life gets real and that can be difficult to this part of you that has protected you and tried to find love the only way it knew how.  But it is tired and it is looking for You to come into the picture and help put it all in “order”.

When it is time to let go and get real, it can be a very uneasy process.  There are so many tricky places and conditioned responses that can send us in a wild goose chase for our golden egg of authenticity.   There are painful obstacles and trip-wire sabotage.  Yet there are also glorious movements that bring the walls down and bring in the light of real love from the core of what we truly are.  These times of deep emotional upheavals are like love magma that is looking to surface and coat the pain of what was unfelt.  With a deep spirituality, you can be held during these times by something greater than the pain.

It is going into our emotional wounding that actually gives the spiritual body its depth and meaning.  It is not at all separate, but intrinsically connected to our emotional body. We can live very content emotional and spiritual lives on the surface, but when we consciously choose to enter into something that goes to the core of our BEing we find that we have only just begun to become aware of what we really are and can be.  But as with any real growth comes the price of deep feeling and the transaction of real love.

I can feel the next layers of what eventually needs healing in my emotional body that only comes when divine timing and situation has coalesced to bring that to my awareness.  It can generally take you by surprise and create reactions that are just so perfect for where we need to go to grow.  I have times feeling a part that doesn’t want to “go there” only to assure it that what lies on the other side is more goodness and more love.

This process of emotional and spiritual maturation can be very challenging and difficult to navigate on ones own.  It is being held and guided by others, in community, that serve this very rewarding pathway.  You may find yourself in times of deep personal process that needs a bigger You to show up to, but know that is all part of what is being given to you as a gift for further deepening of emotional and spiritual consciousness.  Knowing there is Love on the other side is what keeps you going and growing.

To feel more about what this the burgeoning new way of life may have to offer you, I invite you to attend our next SoulFullHeart group call this Saturday at 11:11 AM CST.  We will be offering teachings about bridging to your emotional body and your spirituality and a guided meditation to connect with your emotional body (plus individual sharings): https://www.facebook.com/events/271320303342295

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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What Love Wants

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I want you to feel free my beloved

Free to be real, to be vulnerable, to be open

Free to be cautious, uncertain, and afraid

I want you to be able to let in more, not less

To let in that you are desire and desired

That you are alive and living

That you are right and not wrong

I want you to remember your value and worth

Your beauty and sensuality

Your capacity and ability

I want you to trust that you ARE lovedust

That it cannot be taken from you

Only hidden and buried

I want you to know that I know it is hard

That true and pure love can burn and hurt

That it can pierce and collapse

All you thought I was, but turned out I wasn’t

I remember how you never got what you needed

What you wanted

What mattered the most

And I remember how you needed that to remember

What you truly are

I am not going anywhere

For no matter where you go

What you do

I…will…be…there

Always

Fovever

Patient

Persistent

 

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Moving From Timelines To Heartlines

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When we find ourselves moving from head to heart, from thinking to feeling, timelines become heartlines.  There is no perfect timing other than right NOW.  When we have the capacity and the willingness to hold whatever comes our way emotionally and spiritually, what needs and wants to be felt comes right through our door, even when parts of us question the timing as being too fast or even too slow.  

It is so easy for our mind to place circumstances into some prescribed or contrived box of what makes “sense”.  This sensibility can bring some safety and comfortability to a part of us, but it does not offer us the grist of uncertainty and unknown.  Our protective part is programmed to avoid collateral damage and will look for any solution to this predicament.  This can only serve to cut off the growth ground that we came here to experience and cherish for all it was meant to deliver us.  

Our heartline exists in the HERE and NOW.  A new situation arises that is almost antithetical to what our mind had assumed or expected.  Our ‘mind’ of course really being a part of us that is more mental and protective.  From our heartline we are invited to feel the possibilities, the fear, the anxiety, the joy, and any other emotion that comes up in response to what is actually occurring in real time. This can be rooted in this and or any other “hearttime”, as opposed to “lifetime”.  What triggers us is all part of a larger NOW tapestry that spans the timeless and spaceless.  It is all a part of the larger Cosmic Heart that is out wanting to feel itself in all possibilities.  

These present tense heartlines send out echoes into the vastness, and timelines become dotted lines that are more projected possibility than set in stone reality.  This concrete feeling comes from our more mental and conditioned parts and aspects of our Selves that still haven’t made it into the fluidity of BEing and trust.  I feel myself still healing my way there one day at a time.  One experience and choice at a time.  Whether it is from my leading, authentic edge, or my trailing, more wounded edge.  

The biggest piece is to trust that there is enough You to navigate this even in the hard times.  This is possible when you are able to separate yourself from the more conditioned and protective parts of you.  In SoulFullHeart we do this through journaling with our parts and having them land in those who have been through the same process with their own parts.  This helps to create the separation needed to hold these reactions in the most difficult of times.  You can then feel and navigate new heartlines as they arise in real, NOW time.  It takes the “time” it takes and are only given the crucibles of new experiences when you have enough You to be with them, even if it does seem like you can.

So here is the end of time as we have known it, and a birth of a new NOW.  One that keeps us in an ever expansive awareness of change and a trust in what it is wanting to birth and invite us into.  It is both exciting and challenging, until it just becomes our new `normal`.  If you feel the transitions of new timelines and are looking for more NOWness with others that are experiencing and exploring the same, I invite you to feel into sessions and feel where our heartlines come together.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Weathering The ‘Perfect Storms’ Of Life

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The perfect life conditions offer us the ‘perfect storm’ to feel what we need to feel.

Parts of us pop-up like pop tarts in a hot toaster, when life offers us the right circumstances, the necessary temperature, for them to come up and out. If parts aren’t ready to ask for you to feel them, you won’t be able to tap into their reality. It’s like waiting for apples to ripen on the tree before you can pick them. A premature picking of unripe fruit does not encourage the digestive system to flow. So too with the digestive system in your emotional body…

This perfect storm of emotional reactions surfacing that were once well-buried or ‘handled’ differently (or not at all), are a tidal wave that can feel like overwhelm and craziness, yet sooner than you realize you wash ashore on a new beach, where you feel and meet a NEW you and feel more joy than before, more settled inside of yourself than before, though your heart may still feel raw for a time. It’s a process of becoming BIGGER than the fears and the resistances, by going through them, feeling them, being with them, not BEING them or all-out transcending them.

You couldn’t have come here to this place of intense feeling inside of you without life lining up the path for it. Even when you feel knocked off balance and like everything is akimbo, this is actually the perfect gift to get to know something deeper inside of yourself, to love yourself more on the other side of deep-seated tension and reactivity. There is a trust that is built inside of you, that can weather these storms and in fact may jump wholeheartedly into them, trusting where they are taking you next.

During these intense waves of feeling as if we aren’t in control, that something or someone else is driving the bus, you might want to write it off as an ‘entity’ or it being imposed on you by ‘bad energies’ or ‘Archons. It’s not that these things and beings and energies don’t exist, but they can be used by parts of you as a scapegoat for something you need to take responsibility for inside of you and something that actually wants and needs you to go IN and feel what’s going on on the inside, not on the outside…

Life’s ‘perfect storms’ rock the boat in a huge, impactful way, and yet even when parts may feel shipwrecked, it really is just another path to your ultimate wholeness and healing and your triumphant return to the love that you are. ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.