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Messages from the Sun Of Warmth, Changes, Light, And Love

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I lay down at the sun’s altar of sand and sea, receiving its gifts of coded energies and language in the light. I feel its warmth beaming down on me in varying degrees with subtle shifts in heat, intensity, and frequency from day to day. I take in the messages through my hungry skin, through my purifying pineal gland, through the stones I place near me, through my crystallizing and transforming cells, through my opening and healing heart, through my expanding and waking UP soul. I feel much gratitude to the sun (and the cosmic sun too) for what it GIVES and GIVES of life, of light, and of love.
This is what I hear when I listen and receive as I lay in the sun and I wanted to share with those of you on this fast track of ascension and awakening for which the SUN seems to be a primary source of collective support, Universal activation, and galactic connection to create changes both inside and outside….
The sun’s warmth says to us, “Trust that life is GOOD. Trust that life is based in LOVE. Trust that life is WARM. Trust that life will return to warmth, goodness, and love even when it FEELS (and may need to be) temporarily cold or hard. Trust that THIS warmth is the essence of YOUR heart and soul too.”
The sun’s catalytic energy says to us, “You can GROW. And you don’t HAVE to suffer anymore. Feel ANY aspect of your life that is leading to suffering. Feel the deeper reasons WHY. Feel the power that you have to change whatever it is from INSIDE of you. To Feel and heal. To be with the aspect of you that is attached, that is sacred, that is settling, that is suffering. BE with this inside and the OUTSIDE will change. You will BECOME this change as more and more SELF love overflows moving you from suffering and into love.”
The sun’s NOW presence says to us, “NOW is the TIME. NOW is the time to change the INNER to experience the GOLDEN EARTH, 5D REALITY, that you most WANT and desire. It IS now. Your inner grids are preparing to support this new experience of reality. Your DNA is arising to recode you to this new frequency. You inner matrix is dropping so you can see more clearly your bigness. Your inner veil is lifting so you can remember your soul legacy and connect with your other lifetimes. NOW you can BE all of this.”
The sun’s light says to us, “You are meant to SHINE. You are meant to TURN ON your beacon. You can turn it from inside of yourself with self love that then SHINES it out to others. You become like a light house for yourself and others, your beaming heart helping to navigate the rocky waters and the sudden storms. You become a way shower, shining the light in the darkness for yourself and others to find your way back again to the light.”
The sun’s love says to us, “PURE Love is the ONLY constant. You can return to it over and over. You can lay in it, soak it in, feel it FILL you up again. You can use it to raise your frequency to a higher rate and pitch and tone. You can experience it with your guides, which you BEcome more and more over time. You can experience PURE love more and more in relationship as you draw those that reflect this to you AS you. You can experience the PURE love that you ARE and have ALWAYS been…..infinite and constant as I am.”
Photo is of the SUN yesterday here in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico….
Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Becoming A 5D Sacred Human. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Celebrating Eight Years Of Sacred Union Experience

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Eight years ago, I joined my intention to his….in the moment and for all moments that followed that would be in mutual desire and resonance. On some level, it all felt like a whirlwind….started dating in July and married by March (after knowing each other for a couple of years) having already moved through two major geography changes finally JUST settling in Canada when we married. And, the collapse of our whole social and spiritual world by leaving (being asked to leave, told to leave or not be together because we were deemed to ‘codependent’ although only together three weeks!) the spiritual group we had both been part of for three and four years.

Our courtship was the highest highs of desire moving through, my body calibrating to what it feels like to REALLY be wanted by a man and my heart letting in what it feels like to REALLY be cherised by a man. AS I was also going through a dark night of letting go of ALL the souls I had been close to for more than five years in the group. Ups and downs, bittersweet, and yet, always was he there for me, over and over, in complete devotion and utter eagerness to be together.

Those ups and downs have settled over the years as we found our way together through many changes and transitions yet, always, arising our way through it in union. We took our wedding rings off last year, feeling like it had been other parts of us (going by our birth names Wayne and Jillian) who had exchanged those rings even as the core of us was there. We felt so different after years of parts work, being in the crucible of sacred union together that had burnt away so many layers, letting go of incomes and geographies and just about everything there was to let go of other than each other.

We even felt that the significance of this day was a memory from the past and we were arising in the NOW together. Yet, I do feel in my heart a tenderness for this day, this anniversary, and where we were at that time and who we have been through the years and who we are arising into now as Raphael and Jelelle.

Our usness keeps expanding as we do and keeps vibrating at a higher frequency at all levels and in all areas – sexually, emotionally, spiritually. We are more and more connecting other lifetimes together (energizing NOW) such as in Atlantis (a couple of those) and also our star BEing aspects. Very little conflict between us, fewer words needed, more soul connection…

I feel we are counterpart souls to each other, which I prefer to the twin flame paradigm. I will be writing more about this in the future as it digests and arises for me and as I experience it deepen with Raphael. I can feel how our relationship could feel like a fantasy or idealized, yet it is not, it IS very real, and we have had to go through the dark together to illuminate the light and the love yet that was always there. We have had to commit to awakening and to our own personal process OVER everything else, including the relationship. The goodness overflow in a relationship can only deepen and grow if the partners are committed to their OWN growth first.

Being my counterpart, Raphael is like me yet NOT me and it is the beautiful blend of masculine and feminine that offers SUCH growth and mirror for our own inner union.

So I celebrate a love today that I am SO BLESSED to experience and have been so blessed to experience for these 8.5 years…..thank you to Raphael Awen my king, my BEloved, my cocreator, my love for sharing this life of serving love together.

Photo was taken on our wedding day eight years ago in a small studio apartment in West Vancouver….Ah newlyweds, although we are STILL like this!

By Raphael Awen

3 countries, 5 cities, a couple towns and and year and a half on an off grid ranch. Those are are bit of the outward journey of my 8 year marriage with Jelelle Awen. And it hasn’t stopped by any means…

Today is our 8 year anniversary! Happy Anniversary Beloved.

We didn’t set out to choose change for change sake, but rather to choose love and showing up for the rigours of relationship. At the outset, we knew the idea of hiding in any kind of ‘long distance relationship’ was not a question for us and that meant choosing between 2 countries, 2 career paths, etc. from the beginning. The epic choices to continually choose deepening love and to let go of the barriers to love continued, and continue to unfold right in this moment.

The place for settling and the need for some predictability have been met internally, rather than externally. Through finding, feeling and healing parts of ourselves who hold our resistance to love, we both have found a way, individually to live inside of a settled heart of love for ourselves, that only then are able to transact freely and deeply with each other. Quite surprisingly, this has made the external changes and choices arise quite naturally and navigably (if that’s a word). Even with me getting banned from the US at the border in 2009 and having to change our plans on a dime was met with a grace and a way through. We didn’t ‘have to’ leave country and career behind again in 2014, but the awareness was that another epic choice was right for us individually and as a couple. Our soul purpose deepening individually and our greatest adventure as a couple we knew lay in that choice. It was up to us. We could take it or leave it. We took it, and there hasn’t’ been a single regret.

We also knew from the outset and still know that we couldn’t make any kind of commitment to one another to ‘be there for each other no matter what.’ We couldn’t guarantee that then for each other and we don’t attempt that now. Our commitment to each other is predicated on our commitment to ourselves first.

I honour and celebrate this magical unfolding this day and every day as much as I am able. And, truth be told, and truth be tolled, it’s a tall order, and one I’m very glad to be tasked with…🙂

Happy Anniversary Beloved…

 

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

An Inner Fireplace, Going Within, BEing with Self

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A day spent yesterday of being with me, relaxing, feeling mellow, being more inward than outward, moving some lower frequency/subtle toxicities through…not my usual JOY and high energy frequencies yet these are good days too actually! A ‘recharge’ of the love batteries from going inside which leads to offering more in overflow to others, especially for our group call today and right NOW in this moment of shared creativity.

There are times where self space holding is not specific or something big to process, yet just a sense and commitment and desire of BEing with self. A true desire to BE with self, not an ‘obligation’ or ‘should’, but because there is NO ONE you would rather be with than yourself. Making space for self and not ‘giving out’ too much. Feels like an incubator space created for one that we can return to over and over again!

I was an only child growing up and also a ‘latch key’ kid and my birth parents didn’t get home often until late. So, I had glorious hours to myself after school and these were my moments to BE with self, to play pretend, to dance, to sing, etc. Sometimes I played with friends or hung out with others, but mostly I cherished this time to myself as it was for and with ME and it helped me digest the intensities of the day and from the dynamics of my birth family. In this way, I believe I chose to be an only child in order to build up this container of sense of gloriousness about self time. I rarely have experienced being lonely this life because of the sense of a rich inner world that has bubbled over into my life.

In 3D, everything is outside. There isn’t an internal incubator because everything vibrates from outside of self. There is no ‘there there’ inside and the inside is like an empty chamber yet with ping pong emotional reactions clashing around (largely unconscious) and soul karmic frequencies simmering and bubbling (again, largely unconscious). There isn’t a strong self love and awareness fireplace to hold the fires that come up and so ALL of what comes up in self gets burned in the process. There is smoldering fires and ash everywhere inside of the 3D self.

The outward focus then is seeking for things to entertain constantly, to divert constantly, to control constantly, to numb constantly in the 3D self as conditioned by a 3D world. It is a constant search by the 3D self for the NEXT activity, thing, person…that will maybe even provide ALL of these aspects of entertainment, control, diversion, and numbness. So much of 3D cultural expression is based on this unground NEED and, really, obsession with outside distraction.

A big aspect of 4D awakening is the awakening to SELF and the glorious pleasure of creating and experiencing a growing self fireplace and incubator. And less and less NEED for outside distraction, numbing, and diversion. You are more just content with what is inside and going inside through meditation becomes the entertainment ground with vast rich terrains opening up inside of you. Not used for distraction though but actually in order to feel, in order to heal, in order to grow, in order to INtegrate the soul.

The 4D self has ups and downs, deaths and rebirths, discoveries and integrations, yet it is held in a CONSCIOUS and AWARE context of growth and awakening. THIS is a big difference from the 3D unconscious letting life just happen and being reactive consciousness that draws drama after drama to be victim to. The 4D self more and more feels how everything that you experience OUTSIDE of you is a reflection from INSIDE of you.

In this growing lived-in truth is empowerment, is the completion of feeling like a victim and life is happening to YOU. This is the growing sense of trust and surrender to your connection with All That Is and Divine Source. This is the transition into the frequencies of unity-yet-individual consciousness that is 5D and beyond where the self is revealed through the peeling and burning away with self love ALL the layers of persona, self image, and 3D conditioning to REVEAL and REMEMBER the soul that is a fractal from Divine Source in human expression as Infinite Love….

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Five Reasons Why It Is Challenging To Set Healthy boundaries

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The process of boundary setting and perhaps taking space in relationship or breaks is an important one related to our ascension process and arisement of our 5D self as every relationship we are in is an energy exchange. It is a key aspect of growing and arising into our soul self as every energy we engage with is a reflection of us. This process of sorting through relationships and setting and BEing boundaries is an aspect of the transition and awakening into your 4D self.

I feel setting a healthy boundary with someone in a relationship as being about the sense that we can no longer be in relationship with them or we need space from the relationship because it isn’t healthy or self loving for us to remain or because we just don’t have the reSOULance value ground to BE in relationship any longer (even as love remains). A ‘porous’ boundary would be one that is open to being changed if the person changes or if the ground of the relationship becomes healthier through inner healing work, soul awakenings, or shifts and choices that happen.

Every boundary has a door, just as every fence has a gate. Healthy boundary setting can be done with an open heart, with love and compassion for both the person and ourselves, and before the relationship reaches high levels of toxicity or codependency that is harmful to both sides. This is challenging in our culture, however, and most people struggle a lot with this and how to BE with it.

Why is it so challenging to set boundaries with people in relationships, even when the level of abuse and toxicity is obvious to us? There are many possible answers to this question that could be applied in a universal way even as every individual situation is different.

1) One of the reasons it is so challenging to set and BE in healthy boundaries is because most of us received no modeling on how to do or be this with our caregivers AND we weren’t ‘allowed’ to set any boundaries with our families prior to adulthood.

We are such sponges, absorbing all the energies and emotional tones of our families as we grow up. By the time we are teenagers, we are so filled up with these tones and energies that part of us begins to rebel against what we had no choice in absorbing, which is a form of boundary setting. Some of us continue this rebellion until adulthood and eventually our boundary setting with family may end up being a complete push away or break from them for a phase of time or for life. Most of us are not invited to set boundaries with our family members and we wouldn’t anyway because of our food and shelter needs that they provide.

3D conditioning is that we are required to deal with whatever we are given or however we are treated without advocating or defending ourselves and without the opportunity to say, ‘No’. So, we learn how to live with what we inherited and the cost to the expression of our authentic self and the development of the ability to set boundaries out of self love is hugely impacted. Basically, we literally have ‘no idea’ how to set healthy boundaries because we didn’t ‘see’ and ‘learn’ how to do it from our families.

2) This leads into the second reason, which is that we don’t have enough self love or core self worth to lead this navigation of boundary setting. In SoulFullHeart work, core self worth is something that emerges after much processing with the parts of us who don’t find us worthy and yet are tasked with protecting and defending us, such as our inner punisher-critic, our controller-protector, our inner matriarch-patriarch, etc. These parts of us have developed as internal voices and energies inside of us because of the energies and tones we took in from our caregivers.

It is actually an aspect of our self-defense structure to develop these parts of us that keep the messages running that we ‘are not worthy of love’ or ‘are unlovable’ or ‘are crazy’ or whatever the message is. These parts are actually trying to keep us safe by knocking us down first before someone else does (which is what happened in childhood) or before we get too ‘big’ and do unsafe things. I know this sounds strange, but over eleven years of working with people in subpersonality work, I have seen this over and over again. And, of course, I have felt this in myself. Without an innate sense of core self worth and self love, it is very difficult to say ‘no’ to unhealthy frequencies. Saying ‘no’ means that we are saying ‘yes’ to what nourishes us and that we feel that we are worth it.

3) Boundary setting can be challenging because we don’t know which ones to set and which part of us is doing it. Sometimes it can feel like we are setting healthy boundaries because part of us has said ‘no’ to something or a relationship and is shutting it out, but it actually IS necessary for us to go into it or it could lead to our next growth place to go into it. Parts of us (the protector-controller again primarily) actually like saying ‘no!’ but it can be misdirected and misplaced. This part of us can say ‘no’ to people who are trying to help us by no longer enabling us or by bringing us a tough truth that we don’t want to see. Or this part of us can say, ‘no’ to changes that we need to make or tough conversations that we need to have that could bring conflict and more changes. So, this can be a confusing ground to navigate and asking, “Which part of me wants this boundary and why?” is a very important one.

4) Boundary setting can make us look ‘bad’ or ‘not nice.’ For the parts of us that care about our self-image or how others perceive us, it can be very uncomfortable if we are judged by the person (or others) that we are setting the boundary with as mean or not nice. We are so conditioned in our culture around ‘being nice’ and that it is a ‘good thing’…..even as most relationships, if you go deeper, have a layer of toxicity and falseness in them that has nothing to do with being ‘nice’. Many people would rather preserve the self image of being nice even with someone who is NOT nice with them and actually treats them badly. This behavior pattern has usually been strongly modeled by one of our parents or both of them.

5) It’s challenging and nearly impossible to set boundaries with others if we haven’t set them with parts of ourselves. This is a crucial aspect of parts process work: learning when to set a boundary with a part of us when we identify and feel that we don’t want their behavior to continue because it is isn’t self loving. We literally have to set a boundary with them as the 5D arising Higher Self sometimes in order to be ‘bigger’ than the part of us. For example, we feel love for the inner punisher even as we set a boundary with this part of us to stop beating us down with self judgments. Or we have to say ‘no’ to certain things which parts of us use to keep us numb to our deeper feelings. Our growing 4D and 5D self learns to do this in a loving way that is both strong and open. When parts of us feel this energy of healthy boundary setting arise in us, they lean into it. They have been waiting for it our whole lives and parts of us become relieved because finally an ‘adult’ is home to say what is nourishing and healthy and what is not.

Boundary setting transforms relationships, either by closing them down for a period of time or by opening them up to something new. In my experience, both sides benefit from healthy and porous boundary setting, even if one side is leading it (which is usually the case.) Boundary setting doesn’t have to be a ‘one time’ thing in relationships with a dramatic declaration and big fallout, although that is often what happens if it hasn’t been done consistently.

In healthy and authentic relationships, boundary setting is something that is being talked about and negotiated, something that just happens organically and, in an intimate relationship, sometimes several times a day. And, it is porous…meaning it shifts and changes based on the current conditions. It can be porous if both people are working on healing their hearts through subpersonality work and if they are dedicated and committed to serving the LOVE in the relationship. And it feels like in relationships that are mostly based in 5D consciousness frequencies, boundary setting is not even necessary as the Oneness connection and soul ground flows between the relationships in most moments.

Letting go of what doesn’t nourish us in relationships (or in ANY area of our lives), allows us to let in what really DOES….it makes space for more LOVE to arise inside of us and in our lives.

 

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Moving From kNOwing To kNOWing

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In the awakening journey, in this process of ascension…..it becomes more and more about what you kNOW rather than what you kNOw. This is more than just playing around with capital letters. I kept getting offered this over and over and now it has become a sort of mantra to invite us beyond the mind. kNOWing comes from higher guidance, soul wisdom frequencies, reSOULance, weaving in with the higher/Christ consciousness heart openings. kNOWing is the 4D transitional self and the emerging 5D sacred human merged and embodying with higher self frequencies relating with life through exploration, through curiosity, through risking into the unkNOWn in every moment.

kNOwing is the 3D self, leading with what the mind has learned, analyzed, digested, filtered and packaged. Non-vulnerable and rigid, kNOwing caps the frequencies of joyful magic that could and can arise in ANY moment. With kNOwing, nothing can arise or surprise as it is ‘figured out’, its essence drained of possibilities through the figuring and defining.

kNOwing creates a resistive frequency relationship to life and love.

kNOWing creates an open frequency relationship to life and love.

You’ve been conditioned to kNOwing by a culture that cultivates this frequency as a safety bandwidth. Changing your frequency to kNOWing happens through negotiation with the 3D self, through letting go of what is safe and known (what has become just TOO comfortable and isn’t offering growth anymore.) Letting go of what numbs and dulls and flattens everything into the kNOwing space. Letting go of the mind more and more and moving beyond it, in relationship WITH it yet the soul and heart are leading.

Like this picture so beautifully shows, moving into the kNOW is letting go of the comfortable connections sometimes too and risking to leap, to fly, to lunge off of a cliff and into Infinite Possibilities. A deepening connection, a personal sense of the Divine Source waters the frequencies of inner kNOWing, not book kNOwledge. This HAS to happen inside FIRST, over and over, in a loving self held space (and with a spaceholder too in phases) creating safety INSIDE that also allows room for trust to arise in the unkNOWn on the outside.

This safety and trust inside makes the jumping off the cliff feeling movements on the outside bearable, enjoyable or INJOYable. It is an internal YES that then can move downstream to the external YES to the kNOWing possibilities in every moment…..

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

“I Want To Come Along”: The Transition From 3D to Crystalline Light 5D Body

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Energy Update June 2014 Light Body

I am connecting with THE BODY, my ascending body and the collective ‘body’ of those of us who have chosen ascension as our path and process. I am connecting with this universal experience of body, this human body vessel and temple, this fleshy form, that we’ve all agreed is the vehicle of our walking around life. Yet, this body is changing. It is growing. It is calibrating higher, vibrating higher. It is shifting from carbon to crystalline. It is transforming from being anchored in 3D to transitional and awakening 4D (integration of the astral body) and into 5D.

This is a HUGE process, a big deal as a marker in the evolutionary cycles of our species. Our souls can fly with our astral self (as I am now calling our dream self, or self beyond the body in one aspect or layer of fourth dimensional consciousness), yet our bodies have not been able to come along. Our souls can soar into 5D consciousness, especially during Near Death Experiences (NDEs) and taking of peyote, ayahuasca, etc. Yet, again, the body is ‘left behind’ because its frequency has been too dense, too connected to Mother Gaia in a primordial way to ‘come along’ with the soul’s vibration.

Yet now……NOW the body is ascending TOO. It is coming along, doesn’t want to get left behind. This is what THE BODY is telling me in the moment, “Don’t leave me behind! I want to come with you!” Dimensional shifts are about shifts in consciousness yet, also, there IS a shift in what you experience as your outer reality as well…..as what is inside is what you experience then outside. Experiencing 4D conscious states and higher INSIDE of the body is a new experience and seems to mostly be bridged through meditation and going on multidimensional journeys for which the body comes along and ‘holds’ the awakening experiences.

In our 3D relationships with our bodies, we BECOME our bodies. Our 3D selves ‘fuse’ to our bodies and so every symptom, every experience, every emotion, every thought, seems to become trapped INSIDE of them. All of this trapping and fixation on the physical level creates dis-ease, illness, injury, unhealthy, toxicity, being overweight, sexuality issues, addictions. All this trapping of consciousness inside of the body doesn’t allow any breathing, any release, any energetic movement to happen, any cleansing, any POSSIBILITIES beyond the body.

THE BODY says, “I’m exhausted of this approach. I can BE SO MUCH more. I want to soar with your soul too. I want to be as crystalline as your chakras are becoming. I want to be as healthy, vibrant, and non-toxic as your healing heart is becoming. I want to experience the multi-dimensions. I want to travel to the stars. I want to flow in sexual and creative energies that come from Divine Source and spiritual inspiration.”

Yes, this ascending body WANTS a lot. If we can feel this wanting and desire of the body to ascend WITH us, then we can respond to bodies from this higher frequency with self love and self care. This means that our ascending bodies will cycle through sleep differently than we are ‘used to’ and sleep ‘patterns’ will be interrupted. Sometimes our bodies will be needing A LOT of it for the calibration and crystallizing process. Sometimes they will be needing VERY LITTLE for so much new energy is moving through, becoming light, feeling like a caffeine buzz moving through our veins and through our bones. Sometimes our bodies will need ‘crash naps’ to reboot the consciousness, turn the conscious mind off, and implement a new frequency. The more flexibility we have in our days and in our nights to allow these fluxes and changes; the more we can flow and move with them letting our mind relax and surrender into them.

The ascending body is shifting around food needs too. The 3D body sought out comfort because so much was trapped INSIDE of it that it was looking for any kind of relief. Comfort often meant foods that weren’t good for it, that weren’t healthy, that actually made digestion harder and the body feeling not as vital. The 3D body, run by our 3D selves, then made ‘choices’ that caused dis-ease and illness and that were out of alignment with our soul frequencies. Because the 3D body was cut off from the soul (not completely but enough), it was ‘alone’ in a 3D conditioned world that pushes toxic food, that keeps our body vibrational energetic frequency low. The 4D body is awakening as the 4D self is transitioning and learning, educating itself about what is healthy and what is not, about what is conscious eating and what is not. It is usually the 4D self that chooses not to eat sentient beings/animals anymore as the soul can’t reconcile the killing frequencies of it anymore. Food as necessary fuel is the 3D body’s mantra. And the 3D self ‘uses’ food as a numbing drug. The 4D and 5D body will probably need less food as it will run more and more on energy of higher vibrational love frequencies.

THE BODY doesn’t want to numb or be drugged anymore. “NO more chemicals please. NO more processed foods. No more drugs and things produced in a laboratory please,” I can hear it pleading to us. It seems to understand if we are in transition around this and it is patient. Yet, also, it is eager to feel vital fuel running through all of its systems that run so brilliantly on their own day after day and year after year. THE BODY especially wants us to awaken to our soul’s ability to use gifts from Mother Gaia and from our accesses to energy in order to heal it. We can help our bodies, especially in 4D transition and conscious integration of some astral frequencies into the body, by remembering our energy gifts and connecting with our chakras, cleaning them, making them as real as our physical body, caring intensely about their health and well being. And, of course, seeking out resources for health that are provided by Mother Gaia through herbals and supplements.

Oh, none of what is offered by THE BODY is an absolute. There are not ‘rules’ that you need to follow. The main thing the ascending body seems to want is communication and connection WITH you, to not be ignored, to not be resisted, to not be battled. Unhealed unworthiness in the 3D pain body creates a self punishing frequency related to the body. Healing this core unworthiness through inner work (such as what we offer in SoulFullHeart space holding sessions) frees up frequencies of worth to CHOOSE better things for the body and to create a relationship with it that is based in self love. Also, connecting with and healing the aspect of you that holds self punishment and self critical frequencies can hugely shift this process into worthiness-based grounds as well.

Connecting with your ascending body puts you in emotional resonance with it and so what ‘happens’ to it (all the symptoms of ascension that everyone talks about) are felt and negotiated and navigated with deep self love, care, and awareness AND with trust in the overall process as a gift from the Universe. THE BODY wants to be held with love and to come along into the frequencies of Infinite Love for which your soul knows and IS. And it seems as if we get to experiment with this process. We get to have all the gifts that can come along with it as offered by our newly glowing, shining, and loved up bodies as the vessel for experiencing it.

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Exploring Arising Sacred Femininity Poem And Healing Offerings

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The inner feminine, for both women and men, waits to be noticed and yet, once felt, she can no longer be denied.

She is made of the stuff of our deepest heart vulnerabilities, tenderest feelings, penetrating stillness, and magical stardust expressions.

She offers a balm to the hurt places, a softer edge to the hardness, and a capacity to infinitely hold what needs to be held.

Uncovering Her is to understand and feel all that is NOT Her as she cannot really be known or owned.

Uncovering Her is to become intimate with the masculinity that has needed to protect and hold Her.

Uncovering Her is to open to the frequencies of the Divine Feminine, of Mother Gaia, and surrender to Her flow, allowing Her energies to provide a sense of the feminine tones that have been suppressed.

Uncovering Her is an invitation to choose your own healing over all else.

Uncovering Her is an invitation to choose love over all else.

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I am so honored to offer the arising and birthing of the next phase of the SoulFullHeart Woman, an exploration into the grounds of sacred femininity or how the NEW 5D sacred human expresses in female form through the SoulFullHeart process ground. Sacred femininity is an arising mystery, a journey into the unknown and in my personal experience and holding space with women over many years, the MAIN ground for healing is to feel what is NOT feminine and embrace it, love it, and integrate what remains that is authentic. Here is more about SoulFullHeart Woman:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/soulfullheartwoman

I and Kalayna Colibri offer this exploration of sacred femininity through space holding sessions for women….women around and under the age of 30 (especially those who identify as being indigo, crystal, rainbow souls) with Kalayna. ANYTHING can happen that serves love in these remote (over zoom) or local sessions here in Puerto Vallarta. We hold space for connection with aspects of your heart and aspects of your soul (multi-dimensional from your Metasoul or soul group line and from other lifetimes) bringing about mega healing and transformation; energy healing to activate, clean, energize your ascension or higher vibrational frequency chakras; guided meditation and connection with higher self, Ethereal guides and aspects, Star Being aspects, and whatever else arises in the moment that needs supportive love spaceholding! More about sessions here.

We weave through the seven key areas of life (emotional, spiritual, mental, physical, social, financial, and environmental) and through the lens of the 3D, 4D, and 5D self. More about the seven areas of life through the 3D/4D/5D lens.

I am also hosting a SoulFullHeart Group Call for women on April 15th with Kalayna’s contributions too. I can already feel the Divine Feminine frequencies that want to flow through to you through the guided meditation and the richness of possible arising intimacies through personal sharings from any of you who would like to. More about this call here:https://www.facebook.com/events/210818762733437/ or http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls

To the celebration of the feminine and HER time coming in the sun, inside of our hearts and into flow with ALL that Is. ❤ ❤

Photo is me and Kaylana at the beach here in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico….connecting through the third eye/sixth chakra….

 

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of an upcoming book, Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Body Changes, Interrupted Patterns, Collapsing Timelines, HUM energies during ascension

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Mega interrupted sleep ‘patterns’ for the last few nights for me. I can sleep for about three or four hours, then I am awake for several hours, crash nap, and then repeat again. I can connect this to a late afternoon tea or some chocolate, yet, it feels deeper then that and more about connecting to something BIGGER that is happening in both the COSMOS and personally. Before I knew the ascension vocabulary of ‘jumping or dissolving timelines’, I would have called what I am feeling as ‘anticipating change’, feeling changes coming on an intuitive level, and feeling the ‘rumbles’ of change coming for me personally, my beloveds, SoulFullHeart, and the world at large.

Yet, this isn’t anything NEW as change is the ONLY constant and we’ve been in transition for many years, both personally and globally. There is a HUM though, a feeling of something pulsing and alive, that wants to MOVE us on to the NEXT and the NEXT. Energies that want to move us on to whatever other place we are meant to be both inside of ourselves and what we experience as outer reality.

I can feel the sleep changes (crash naps for a few hours in the ‘middle of the day’ are newish too) as an aspect of the ascension process and actually a welcome disorientation comes where the mind can’t ‘track’ the days and nights as well and it ALL starts to kind of merge together, which is kind of the goal of ascension after all. The light body, the crystalline 5D body for which we are transitioning into more and more, doesn’t probably need the same amount of sleep as our carbon-based denser body did.

I already feel that our relationship to food will change significantly too with much less solid food needed and mostly vegetables and fruits when we do eat. Many of us can and will ‘live on light energy’ most of the time and go days without eating. This is not that radical as we ARE energy and made up of energy so it all we really need in another way is energy, although preparing and eating food can be so wonderful of an experience. It feels like we will get to choose when we want to eat. Our body weights will be natural and healthy with no extra fat as fat is needed only as an anchoring into 3D reality. A very necessary one at times, yet also, one that densifies us ultimately.

Back to the HUM….I’ve been asked what it means to experience a ‘collapsing timeline’….and today, as I was digesting wonderful openings and changes for some of us in the SoulFullHeart community, I had this sense of these changes feeling ‘surreal yet natural.’ This is a good way to describe a timeline collapsing…it feels surreal as in ‘better than my known reality before’ yet ‘natural’ in the sense of just fitting with essence and soul or higher self. Being open to timelines collapsing and shifting is really about being open to that ‘anything CAN HAPPEN in ANY MOMENT’…this is tapping into the realm of Infinite Possibilities for which we ARE in our essence as a fractal from Divine Source.

So then, of course, with all this exciting anything can happen-ness, sleep doesn’t seem as important even as it CAN BE critical to allow for the conscious mind to rest, the astral self to go explore, the integration of other lifetimes, the body to go into calibration and integration mode. I feel a trust in the moment in my body kNOWing what it needs for itself, rest and sleep will arise WHEN they are needed, and it is my mind that fixates on ‘missing sleep’ or ‘not getting enough’ or ‘interrupted anything’. The mind tracks life through segments and counting down of moments where the soul and higher self just flows in the moment by the moment for the moment. Why does being awake at 3am feel any different than being awake at 4pm, since both of these ‘markers’ are illusionary and made up anyway? To the soul, these distinctions don’t matter because they aren’t even REAL.

The HUM is also in the cosmos. It is the waves of PURE love raining and washing over us from the great central sun, center of the Universe, and radiating out of our sun in the form of light codes in the sun rays, which I’ve been taking in a lot of lately. It’s like the Universe is on a caffeine buzz, which feels both surreal AND natural. Momentum is the texture of the HUM too, a beat that is both relentless AND patient as it invites us to come along and also to keep UP with it. It invites us to ‘come along’ inside of ourselves, surrendering to the bigger picture and our higher selves, as we become more and more THAT surrender and THAT HUM in human form.

Love to you and our sleepless and crashing nap states both…..and feeling the HUM together….

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of an upcoming book, Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human.

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

March Equinox Energies Offer Balance And Surrender

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The equinox is today, March 20th – the beginning of spring for those in the North and the beginning of autumn for those in the South. What are the energies of this ‘day’ offering us, even as time, dates, months, seasons are illusionary from a 5D consciousness? As I feel into this, I get an image of the yin/yang symbol inviting us into the discovery and feeling sense of balance, of Oneness, of feminine and masculine frequencies in polarity dance with each other. Equal sunshine and equal nighttime darkness in balance is the EQUI-nox.

Balance from a 3D perspective can be about things remaining the same or safe or known. Balance may be ‘achieved’ through control with an underlying tone and tension of anxiety. Balance may be seen as an ‘ideal’ and anything ‘off’ or more extreme or coming from shadow felt to be wrong. It feels like the ideal of balance can be used by the 3D self to numb out stronger emotions and suppress what doesn’t ‘fit’ with that ideal. This can be a tricky ground to navigate as the strategic or 3D self or unawakened ego can use what actually does create an authentic sense of balance inside as a numbing and bypassing of feeling and healing deeper emotions and awakening frequencies that want and need to come out during the process of awakening as you move into more 4D consciousness states. Things that can be ‘used’ in this way to numb are meditation and yoga, for example.

Balance from a 4D and beyond sense is about becoming more in tune with your authentic self, at peace with self even in the midst of great changes, both internally and externally. A sense of balance is openness to feel ALL of your feelings, to make space for them, and not make any of them bad or wrong. It is the exploration of what is you and what is NOT you from a soul expression sense. It is about feeling One with others even as relationship shifts and completions are embraced. It is about coming from a place of deep BEing and stillness from within to respond to the necessary doing in your life and making choices and taking actions that support this balance. It is about embracing the inner feminine AND the inner masculine with honoring while being open to healing the wounded expressions and/or suppressions of both.

Balance from a higher dimensional perspective also has something to do with surrender….a trust that the content and experiences of life are being held by something bigger, by the soul, by the Divine. It also seems to come from a sense that the power comes from within us and yet, also, true power is sourced in Divine Frequencies of PURE love. Surrender offers balance because, ultimately, it is all being taking care of, we are right where we need and want to be, and life is unfolding as it ought to. Surrender is the sense that we are not victims yet great CREATORS of our own realities in alignment with the Divine. We can then ‘let go into’ this feeling sense and it changes and transforms how we respond to life situations and what we draw and manifest as well.

This equinox also serves as a ‘marker’ for the ascension process, the ongoing experiment of moving humanity and Gaia from frequencies of third dimensional reality into 4D transitional awakening and into fifth (Christ Consciousness) and beyond. This marker (even though, again, time is an illusion) offers a placeholder for a process that often feels so much beyond the mind, beyond time, beyond tracking, and happening more and more ‘off the track’ where our minds can even go or our conscious state can even be part of. This ‘day’ offers a beginning, an invitation into newness, an invitation to feel where you are in your life and what feels like is moving into more reflection of your soul and what needs to shift and change to reflect this more.

I keep getting also this image of a flower bud emerging out of a bed of snow and ice. Searching for the sunlight, aching for warmth, wanting to shake off the cold and the wet and the blankets of cold that dampen. This bud feels like the emerging 5D self, the human self merging with the higher self. This bud has been ‘baking’ all winter, even in the cold, even in the rain, even in the stormy conditions inside and from the ‘outside’ to. This bud is searching for a water of love to continue its growth and to bloom into the full grown magnificent FLOWER that it is. This bud is needing the warmth of self love and self care and self discovery.

The ices melt, the sun comes out, the rains stop in an experiential way through ‘weather’ at this time, yet, also, this process happens from within as well. The sunshine of PURE love is offering all of us an invitation to discover what remains frozen inside of us, what remains stormy inside of us, what remains off balance inside of us, what remains not in surrender inside of us. To discover and to hold with MUCH love and embracement all that is dark and that is light. To lead with vulnerability with ourselves and with others to open up our hearts that much more to frequencies of unity and connection inside and with others. To risk for the experience of MORE love. To lovingly protect the bud of sacred humanity that is growing inside of you with reverence and awe and patience. To experience more and more that you ARE infinite love returning to love remembering love.

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of an upcoming book, Becoming The 5D Sacred Human. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

 

Being ‘Fast Tracked’ Related To Ascension And Awakening

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Wonderful afternoon unfolding, just arising from one thing to another, sitting in the sun, sharing tea and veggie sandwich at a cafe, no rush, just moving along to the next place and the next, taking our consciousness with us…..enlivening conversations with my two favorite angelic earth men on the planet Raphael and Gabriel. We talked about how it feels like we are all being ‘fast-tracked’ …those of us on this journey to ascend and heal and BE healers offering to others.

We feel this in SoulFullHeart as our personal processes are speeding up, quantum healing in moments, mega soul and heart healing happening fast, and continual creativity and ideas for offering and serving love. We are being fast-tracked because it feels like an intense phase is coming up with many of the old structures of the old timelines collapsing and falling away. Those of us, like you who are reading these words, with healing gifts will be very much needed. Those of us with a heart to serve and give will be in very much demand. Those of us called to serve love will be very busy it feels like.

Part of the fast-trackness is claiming of your soul gifts and their expression, being bold to offer who and what you are, seeking to learn and train and grow so you can offer more, being wiling to feel the self image attachments that may come up and heal them, being willing to feel the unworthiness feelings that come up in parts of you and heal them. Finding wayshowers to offer a path and process perhaps that you can be part of and offer and serve love through (that is available through SoulFullHeart as a facilitator by the way, if you are drawn to that as it feels like we will be needing more souls to serve as SoulFullHeart facilitators in the future).

I have felt for many years the sense of collapse and recognized too that sometimes only through collapses and completions can the new be born. Out the ashes arises the phoenix……this phoenix is the NEW sacred human. Some souls will arise into this, those of us who have been feeling this for maybe many years and on this awakening path for many years. Or maybe you have just ‘popped’ recently into awakening through intense awakening experiences that came about seemingly ‘suddenly’ (although orchestrated by your higher self all along). I am hearing of this ‘sudden popping’ from more and more people who seem to find themselves transported from 3D and into 4D and even into 5D and higher dimensional states in some ways very quickly.

The eclipse coming up soon feels important as a ‘marker’ in time (even though time is not real); a placeholder to feel how we are entering a new phase of intensity in this intense year of 2017. What you have lived with that comes from a lower frequency will no longer be able to be justified or tolerated. Relationships that are being held onto out of safety will collapse. Jobs that don’t serve love or your higher purpose will fade away with new opportunities coming to you. Geographies that don’t speak to your soul will ‘run out of ground’, inviting you to explore and find new terrains, perhaps connected to a conscious soul family community. Soul mates/counter parts who ‘signed up’ to be in ascension will find each other more easily and things will probably progress FAST between you, no longer with years to ‘get to know each other’…..you probably won’t want to wait anyway!

I feel for the human body as it is stretched and reconfigured as it is fast-tracked too. As it is outfitted in a new ‘suit’ of crystalized energy to replace the carbon ‘bodyprint.’ This can bring body pains, body discomforts, body flus and body rashes, sudden congestions as the body shifts into a higher frequency. Recognizing when these symptoms are an aspect of the ascension process can help…sometimes the pains are ‘old’ objects and structures that your soul has held onto or are being energerized in past lives suddenly dissolve and leave some residual pain behind. They are like scaffolding that is no longer needed or a vestigial organ that has ceased to serve a function any longer. This happened for me yesterday as my reptilian brain stem dissolved (I wrote about this today in an earlier post.) Head pain can be the pineal gland growing and shining and turning ‘ON’ too.

Self love is so important during the fast-track. Going within to find your grounding with Mother Gaia and going without into nature to connect with Her too in a conscious way. Going within to connect with angelic guides, spirit guides, star Being selves (even Archons-Reptilian selves, as I offered earlier). Going within to breathe, to center, to clean and protect and activate your chakras. Going within to feel parts of yourself and their emotional reactions and digestions to ALL of the changes, especially your 3D self that has been comfortable and secure in 3D life and maybe even comfortable too in the last ‘vestiges’ of that old life, content in the rubble of the old life.

Much love is available from so many sources to help those of us who are being fast-tracked…..from my heart to yours, I extend my most precious gifts of service and exploration of the sacred feminine to women who feel drawn to experience a women’s group call with me on April 15th (more about that here: https://www.facebook.com/events/210818762733437/) and Raphael is announcing a men’s group call soon plus our ongoing group calls (nearly every weekend now). OR an individual SoulFullHeart session with me (or the others) for support, energy healing, SoulFullHeart process work, ascension guidance, higher self connection….oh so much magic happens in these spaces!…and LOVE too. More about that here:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

Love to you fellow fast-trackers….see you and feel you as we zoom through the timelines and multiple dimensions and collapsing and changing realities and experience of the self….. looking for love, resonating in love, BEing with love and offering/serving love….

 

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of an upcoming book, Becoming The NEW 5D Sacred Human.
Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.