Just finished with moving into a new place with my beloved Kalayna. There were some ‘obstacles’ along the way that made it bumpy at times. These practical annoyances really can shine a light on what we need to feel as we shift timelines.
When we awaken, we are recognizing the vehicle of one timeline is running out of gas. There is a realization that what we have been in relationship to no longer fits the compartments we have set up for ourselves. This can take the course of years, or hit us square between the shoulder blades in a short compressed moment.
You can either stay within the confines of that worn-out, yet comfortable creation parts of you have so diligently maintained, or you can choose to expand the scope of what life is really wanting you to heal and claim. The choice can be maddening for the parts of you that have clung to the safety and known. A game of emotional, spiritual, and mental table tennis being waged among the inner court of your sanity
To fully shift a timeline it means going through all the areas of the emotive body and feel all the parts that were tucked inside closets and underneath the beds. Letting go of all things that cannot come with you to the new. It means hitting some turbulence along the way because there was so much invested in the old. So much doubt from parts that life could ever be good in the way we had only dreamed of.
It is a rumble and a quake. A rattle and a shake. But it is also an adventure and a renewal. It is an opportunity through chaos. When the difficult parts are moved through with deep feeling and sacred love transmuting, you can begin anew in a larger domain of being. You get to place your acquired strength and gifts into the wide-open spaces of your new digs. One with fewer walls and more real love.
Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual menβs and womenβs facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Β Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
Feeling done, burnt out, saturated with information, ‘truths’, knowledge, read-outs from others… does this feel familiar? Does part of you feel sometimes like they want to ‘chuck Ascension out the window’ along with your own healing path, or maybe at least take a very conscious break from it?
Maybe you’ve holed up in front of Netflix recently with a bucket of gummy bears or a liter of ice cream, watching something that parts of your more ‘spiritual’ connections (in your life or virtual life) would judge as being ‘unsacred’, ‘vapid’, ‘non-essential to awakening’.
That feeling of, ‘I don’t want to do this anymore’ is just as sacred, meaningful and alchemical as picking up another book, following another blog, taking in another video on Ascension, expanding your consciousness, healing your wounds. Sometimes you have to pull out of what’s been surrounding and saturating you in order to regroup and recharge, and also find what ‘truths’ out there most resonate with your own. Maybe you’re actually not supposed to resonate with what’s out there, at least not right now, because you most need to resonate with what’s IN HERE… in your own heart and soul.
You are a human being with a wealth of experience in this life and beyond. You have so much knocking at your door and there is a clamor going on in the spiritual healing world, with this path pushing another path out the window, internet ‘trolls’ looking to cut someone down who is expressing their own perspective through bitterness they have inside from their own burnout perhaps, and just a ton of information to take in and dessiminate for yourself.
It feels like it’s quite often the Inner Protector or Gatekeeper part/aspect of you that gets the most saturated or even fed-up with the efforts and seeking of other parts of you, the pursuit of your soul purpose, healing, etc. They feel ‘done’ with answers that perhaps don’t deeply resonate or that try and bypass this part of you that is there trying to protect other parts of you and quite often doesn’t deeply trust the space holder, teacher, therapist, or even skilled psychic you’ve been leaning into. Negotiating with this part of you along the way, helps you ground in what you’re being taught or told into your heart and soul in a way that is real for you and not simply just given to you by another.
Ultimately, the spiritual awakening/Ascension path is about rediscovering your own expression of your Divinity, your Divine and sacred truth of your own soul’s path. Seeking for what I have been calling “outside-in” answers like readings or energy sessions without “inside-out” work also going on, like finding your own truth, the truths of your parts, the negotiation with your Inner Protector/Gatekeeper and what they’re actually ready for you to access or not, will cause this burn out experience because the work you’re receiving needs to live INSIDE of you, otherwise you’re not likely to feel truly empowered to make the choices and take the steps you need to take in order to access your next pieces of alignment and feeling truly lit UP by your emerging strength of connection with the Divine within AND outside of you.
Your burn out is an opportunity for a reboot inside. To sacredly take a break if necessary from consciously taking in any offerings or healing paths at all and to simply BE. Feeling is the deepest path to your renewed sense of aliveness, even and especially if the feeling is that parts of you just want to “veg the ‘eff out” for a change!
No matter what… you can trust that your soul is integrating all of the work it has led you to do and inhabit and that it will lead you, in your own sacred/Divine timing, to your next steps for your own healing and your sense of your individual truth, Divinity, and essence of love that you inescapably ARE. β€
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Still some slots still open for next week if you’d like some support/guidance on your next steps out of your burnout, connecting with your Inner Protector and/or other parts of you, connecting with Metasoul Aspects, or anything that arises if you’d like to connect for a Bridging Session with myself (for women under 35), Jelelle Awen (for women over 35), Raphael Awen, or Gabriel Heartman for men and women: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session β€
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
In love, there is no “failure”… even though at times life gets messy, timelines collapse, and new ones are called into being.
With love, there is infinite space for the exploration of your pain and bliss, your “past” and “present”, your soul and your heart… without agenda, without need for pomp and ceremony, without anything more asked of you than pure feeling.
As love, you make choices in every moment, every timeline… and not one of them can ever be judged as “wrong”.
The love you have, the love you serve, the love you ARE… all bring to you infinite awakenings, ever-embracing light, and riveting darkness experiences that bring to you more of your power, your essence, your healing… the integration of all that has been “dis-integrated” and the remembering that in love, you are not what you’ve believed you are, but so, SO much MORE… β€
Waves of infinite love to you on this Full Strawberry Moon day β€ π
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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.Β Β VisitΒ https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
We only struggle with attachment to lesser things, because of our loss of familiarity with the greater things that we once knew, but struggle to remember.
Most of us have no conscious recall of those greater things, and those of us who do, must be patient with what feels like a very slow pace to a part of us who just wants to βfully remember already!β Yet, the evidence is plain; only someone whoβs suffered loss could attach to and treasure so intensely things that donβt really nourish.
Whether itβs a relationship with friend, mate, or family, or an attachment to a geography, or a house, or a career, we increasingly feel it as a stuck place that wants to relate without the intense attachment if we could only find a way to loosen up.
This kind of tight gripping that doesnβt allow much room for breathing, is further proof that we suffered some loss that polarized us to this over grasping in relationship.
Why canβt we relate with an open heart, willing to let come and willing to let go? Why canβt we long for things and be okay with them coming or not coming, with them coming sooner or later? Why do we need to have it now and why do we need to preserve it from loss or change at all costs?
As I was going about my day, one day this week, I was aware of a sadness in my field. As I lay down to rest and feel into it, I felt a distinct young part of me longing for return to something lost. Tears came from several parts of me inside wanting to open out past some internal barrier of forgetfulness, wanting to see and feel clearly just what is this loss. As I shared with Jelelle later, she offered to hold some space for this part of me, and I was quite surprised by what came next, as some of the deepest tears that Iβve ever known rolled out. I was taken back to my boyhood town and a knowledge that something magical occurred there with starbeing contact, that was then later closed down as I needed to enter a phase of going all into 3D life, Christianity, marriage and family life.
I was able to see again how my later life stages and roles of exemplary and motivated Christian, husband, father, and self employed contractor were all motivated by a subconscious seeking to return to a bliss that was lost. I was able to feel some subconscious motivation even affects all of my relationships to this very day.
This kind of remembering and the digestions that occur in these moments have been happening more and more for me as I awaken. This requires a willingness to feel and go into pain and sadness. The expectation that awakening should be βbeyond sufferingβ or just be bliss all the time is a deterrent to our actual awakening.
I believe all of us have this longing to return to bliss in one form or another, and even in several forms inside of us. As we garner the courage to get in touch with it and the strength to consciously hold such great longing and desire, it is in this βrelationship withβ that we werenβt able to have before, where some magical strides occur for us in our growth.
We get to be here and we get to feel every feeling there is to feel. We get to feel every part of us holding trauma, whether something so stark as sexual abuse or something so off the radar as this loss of our source bliss from which we came.
Feeling is the tipping point. Feeling is the graduation point that harvests the purpose and intention of why we surrendered to our human experience, as well as why we surrendered to our perceived separation from the divine experience.
It is in feeling the sorrows where we find the direct portals back to our joy, and to our indescribable essence as infinite love.
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.
Every part of the whole contains the whole. Without you, the whole would be incomplete.
You are wholeness that has been made into a person, or personified. You are consciousness that has been channeled and breathed into an individuated human being. You are part of the divine and you are all of the divine. Both are true. The divine chose to express as you and through you.
Feeling and adopting this as your truth, as your reality, that you are so inescapably, safely and magically tethered into this lifeline of love, you are now free to roam into any domain of your life that feels like it lacks love.
The fear melts away as you with curious and open heart reach out to every part of you that comes into your awareness that lacks this awareness of love. No darkness can extinguish this light. No seeming absence of love can dis-acknowledge this presence of love. You now reach out into every domain of your consciousness, both in inner feeling states and in the outer circumstances of your life, to establish this dominion of love.
Going inward or outward makes no difference, as both contain the whole here as well, and both reflect each other magically in the same way. The more we examine their apparent distinction, the more we see and feel their oneness.
A dis-ease in the body draws our attention to a dis-ease in the heart. An external battle makes us aware of an internal battle just off our radar. An absence of anything externally calls us to realign and reawaken to the fullness of everything internally.
We are magical beings beyond description! This utter fullness of being, this inescapable wholeness of being is what gave us the courage to venture out into the illusion of something less-than. We ventured our total more-than reality on a less-than illusion, in order to become even more than the fullness that we already were.
We are love becoming more, and we are doing that through our individuated human consciousness being expression, at least for the moment. Who knows how many more being expressions await us to inhabit?
Breathe in and feel how inescapably you are contained by love. You are from love and to love. You are by love and of love. You are with love and missed by love. You are love-in-wanting to happen, and love-in-waiting to happen. You and love are one and the same.
Go be in love!… happily happening!
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.
Every last one of us are multidimensional, meaning we exist on more than one plane. Most of us however are not aware of it, and those of us that are aware of it, are left in a place of wanting, even craving to open our awareness of these other states of being into our more normal waking consciousness.
We become more and more like true explorers, filled with curiosity and wonder. How did we arrive to even being aware on and of ANY level, let alone these unexplored levels? How can we open ourselves further and faster to what wonderworlds lie before us?
One piece I feel that answers these QUESTions is feeling how prone we are, and understandably so, to normalize phenomenal experiences. When you first learned to walk, it was celebrated and photographed. But when was the last time anyone or yourself took notice of this incredible ability of yours to walk? If you pause for a moment to contemplate how amazing it is that you can walk, that you are a physical being, who came from a single cell, all the way to possessing the ability to walk, an awe and wonder reopens that was closed off by this need we have to normalize wonder.
I guarantee you that when we all find the ability to teleport, we will after not too long, be kind of ho-hum about it. Itβs just what we do. Your ability to walk is no less amazing than an ability to teleport, itβs just that one has become common to us and the other hasnβt.
It seems we need to do this normalizing of phenomena to be able to navigate the phenomena. Weβd be like total stoners if we couldnβt. But being like a total stoner is an option we can retake to ourselves when we are ready to re-enter the awe and reverence of the thing that we normalized. Wanna get totally stoned?…just consider that other dimensional beings would consider it really cool if they could bump into walls, while we on the other hand we would consider it really cool if we could walk through walls. Itβs all about what weβve normalized and made familiar.
If this is true, then your ability to bump into a wall is really amazing stuff and no less amazing than the ability to walk through walls. Itβs about our need on one hand to leave the realm of awe and wonder long enough to alchemize desire and curiosity to expand our dimensionality, and then to re-enter that world of total awe and wonder. This dimension is really cool, but what about all the others that I donβt begin to know? Moving from normalcy to the abnormal, from the familiar to the unfamiliar, seems to be the anti-gravitic device that allows us to travel to realms beyond the one weβve been tethered to.
Boredom and ho-hum is what we use to anchor us to a given dimension. Awe and reverence is what we use to awaken us to attempting our first steps in new dimensions.
The universe is so inviting you and I out to PLAY. The universe is a total child at heart, and doesnβt begin to know where all this is heading, but so wants to find out. It wants to find out through you and me.
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.
The Solstice can be felt as a tipping point. A spiritual fulcrum. This is the day when one cycle ends and another begins. There is a moment when ‘sun sits still’…the meaning of the word ‘solstice’. Depending on your inner geography you may be looking to activate and claim. Make new choices that reverberate in the outer physical domain. Or you may be guided to go within, to connect, and to just feel.
Either way, you are moving into something greater when you chose to ride the wave of your heart, whether in pain or passion. Staying in suffering loops are no longer a part of the path. You get to decide what it is that you need and deeply deserve. THIS is the time to go all IN or all OUT. What is it that you are being summoned to feel in this sacred tipping point? What is giving you joy and what is no longer serving you? Invite the energies of this Solstice to support you in your deepest need and desire.
Healing into Abundance, Joy, and Service of Love is what you came here to partake in. Let that be your guidepost.
Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual menβs and womenβs facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Β Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
When the Sun, Sol, Soul, goes into stasis, stillness, stops; Solstice…
This is probably the best example of what it feels like to hold space for a part of you.
When you go still, when you stop all vibrations coming from you, when you stop generating any noise; in that moment, you can hear and feel and see all the noise, vibrations and sounds that are around you, or βin your fieldβ without being them.
You are holding still space.
Whatβs cool about this, is that a higher self version of you, which YOU also ARE, is the one that can go still. This higher self you then holds the space for the parts of you that canβt go still in that moment.
You donβt have to stop the noise. You just need to be willing to stop to hear the noise.
In the stillness, hear and feel all the nuances of the waveform sounds coming at you. A jackhammer from construction or birdsong in a nearby tree – go into it. Whatβs under the noise? What is there to feel? Feel your emotional landscape in the same way.
Then notice in the stillness, what moves or happens as a result of your alchemical stillness. What shifts in your presence as you let go of consciously holding still space and return to the focus of tasks or goals?
Imagine that. Things happening in the stillness, and as a result of the stillness! Of course it is, because even complete stillness is sourced in love, which isnβt still or passive in any way.
Love is in hot pursuit of you, and not in any ambivalent βIβll be here when you areβ kind of stance towards you. Love is aching to connect with you, heart, soul and body.
Stillness is the voice and vibration of love that you can enter as your birthright, as often as you wish, where you can stay for as long as you like.
Happy SOLSTICE day!
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.
Growth occurs naturally. Itβs built in. You have to go against nature and really work at it to slow it down or stop growth.
And even then, there really isnβt any such thing as stopping growth, because ultimately all steps backwards become steps forward, as we digest them and they become composted into our next growth trajectories.
However, parts of us can sure suffer in this illusion of efforting trying to hold back our growth. You are a growth Superman, a growth Wonderwoman. You came here to grow, even if by nothing else, than learning how to relate with your own power to attempt to resist growth.
So how could we self lovingly become more aligned with our built in native growth wiring? How could we spend less on efforting resistance and instead allow ourselves to be in more natural easy flow?
For those of us who consciously ache to grow, how could we settle into more native trust and rest around our growth?
We know it would look like more trust and rest, less anxiety, more childlike Joy and stuff like thatβ¦., but how do we βgetβ there?
You get there by wanting it. You get there by holding the QUESTions. βBut, how do you βdoβ THATβ, you might well ask?
My truth is that the only real way to do that is to feel the part of you who doesnβt want to grow, who wants to stay stuck for its own reasons. Open your heart with curiosity to the parts of you who have their own valid reasons for resisting growth. What you learn and discover in getting to know these parts and their motives is that they are coming from love as they know it and feel it.
This is a strange feeling to go into feeling the part of you who doesnβt want to grow as this exercise becomes a supercharged entry into your deepest growth.
The solution isnβt overcoming your resistances to growth, but rather embracing them. Now, we find and feel how the resistance was necessary to growth and even part of the natural cycle.
Even a seed has a necessary hard and impenetrable shell for the time that it is needed to take it to the next place.
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.
I am being filled with new wonder and appreciation lately for how powerful a creation frequency are the words coming from our mouth. And then feeling how itβs not just the words coming from our mouth, but quite possibly even more importantly, the words processed internally that donβt need any physical volume to be just as powerful, if not more, in shaping the reality we live in.
Then when you couple this understanding with no longer using it to overcome or pave over unwantedΒ emotions, but instead reaching out in words to the parts of ourselves who donβt feel very keen on a positive thinking/positive speaking exercise, then this really goes somewhere.
I had embraced this message quite deeply in my 20βs and then let it go because it was being related to so mechanically and the inevitable βword policeβ showed up internally as well as in our social circles. The entire understanding hit our emotional growth ceiling, if you will and it just kind of floundered.
Now, itβs time to dust this awareness off and feel what wants to rise from those ashes.
βI am the bright, bright, bright light of Godβ.
βI am superabundant love and bountyβ.
βI have full access to every good thing imaginableβ.
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Check out our programs: FREE, PREP and DEEP, for a new and profound going-on place in your spiritual and emotional journey at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.
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