Tag: awakening journey

Becoming: A Poem

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by Kasha Rokshana

Maybe it’s readiness
That draws the curtains on our fate.
And maybe readiness has never been about
anything missing,
wrong,
or unmastered.

Maybe readiness has always been about
Now letting in
All the love there always is to receive,
being willing to go in
and feel
Where, how, why
Certain pockets of our being,
Certain parts within our heart,
Certain aspects of our vast soul
Put aside love as any possible answer
To any pain, ache, or desire.

Maybe…
Maybe it’s the vulnerability
Of humbly feeling unready
That brings in the openings we crave and cave into?
Perhaps it’s mostly in our humility,
Our willingness to start all over again,
Our ability to feel it all,
Where we feel our Divine calling to love
And be love
To experience deep and soulful romantic love
To draw to us our fated encounters,
Our synchronized alignments,
And our most beloved unfolding
Into everything we are
And are now ready to claim
…And be claimed by.

The Divine, the Great Love that holds us steady
through the tumult.
The energy inspiring our growing centres,
Encouraging, always, our deepening trust in all there is to endure,
Brings us homeward to ourselves
In ever-unexpected ways
Through waves of grief, fear, longing,
And yes,
Grace too.

We are everything
Rather than nothing.
We are aliveness
So much more so than deadness.
We are alchemy brewing and moving
Even in our toughest, tightest, flattest,
and most uncertain phases.

We are readying, steadying,
Living into
The greatest fates we could imagine
With every shake and quake of our hearts
And awakening of our souls
Into a new reality
Blossoming from the depths
And caverns
And crevices
Inside the inside of everything we are
Everything we ever were
And everything we are yet to embrace
In our ready, open, aligned
Becoming.

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Inner Discovery, Outer Changes: Truly Embracing Your Bigness

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by Kasha Rokshana

There are a couple of truths that I’ve lived into and that I’ve supported others in sessions to live into, and they are:

In a world at ‘war’, the only place you can end it is within.

In life circumstances that are abusive on ANY level, the only place you can reconcile that is within.

And then, another even bigger truth, is that there’s a potent invitation from the Divine and your Divine Self as you live into this. This invitation is to take outer action, rooted in the deeper inner work/remembering/healing processes within your clearing heart and soul soil, and rippling out into your life circumstances.

This doesn’t mean joining the ‘war’ that others insist on living out from their own inner worlds, for that self-righteous energy you’ll inevitably become doesn’t serve you or them and will always end in a stalemate (I’ve lived this one out a few times!) and/or some slight openings in your relationship that won’t last unless they are truly on the same page of doing some dedicated deep-diving inside.

It seems like it’s somewhat controversial to offer that not only setting boundaries but sometimes choosing to leave inherently non-resonant relationships of ALL kinds is actually GOOD for you and for them. You weren’t ultimately meant to live only in these grounds which will always lead to battling somehow or a reality of ‘pushing against’ on some level, even if it’s mostly energetic and not so much outright anymore.

The role of the ‘awakener’ or ‘red-piller’ of others is one rooted not in your inner peace or sanctuary but in parts of you that are afraid to be alone and in surrender to the unknown, to experience that biting (yet also alchemical) loneliness and fear that can really hurt and drop you, truly drop you, into what’s REAL inside of you and in your life. Whenever I’ve taken on this role with others, there’s been huge resentment on all sides and a self-centered ‘holier-than-thou’ energy that I had to realize was about tugging on those around me rather than truly loving them. It was about trying to arise into my own bigness and be seen by them rather than letting them go their way as I go mine.

This letting go of your end of the rope is where your real mission and sense of purpose can stem from, as you allow the space to recover from what parts of you once thought of as ‘normal’. The karmic layout of these relationships completes when you, as your awakening/integrating Divine Self, decide that it’s done. So often this is left unrealized, yet it’s the most powerful ‘NO MORE’ you could say on behalf of yourself and all precious parts of you, plus any Metasoul aspects from other lifetimes at play.

I KNOW how difficult this is, as the vitriol and clamour you can draw out of those you are now saying ‘no’ to is painful to take in, revealing the deeper and more accurate reality of your relationships… you see where you have been shrinking to fit in order to keep up appearances or allow a connection to go on and on with some growth happening at times perhaps, yet now the dynamic has run out of ground and you (and they) need something else.

THIS is how you leave the Matrix of false light, false Mother/Father connections, etc. and can begin to reveal and heal how you’ve been a part of this dynamic from within you, where your own false light has lived. This is the ground where you can let the real Divine in, however that resonates for you. And it’s in this void where the truest Soul Family/Tribe connections can arrive and arise, for you’re now more in their frequency and no longer enabling your own suffering OR the suffering of those who know they are losing the parts of you they have known you as and asked you to stay fused to.

Arising into your true bigness is what this is about and as you TRULY do so, you sever the cords and unspoken contracts between yourself and others which are meant to either find new ground (for the sake of their own bigness awakening too) or dissolve completely (also for their sake and not just yours). You choose to walk away and move into your most authentic expression that ‘they’ will probably never get, nor perhaps are they meant to. Maybe that’s the toughest pill of awakening to swallow, to see through the once precious illusion of what has been let in as ‘love’ yet now you can start to see what living into and embodying love is truly about.

This does include walking away from government bodies too, not just your most intimate relationships. Your culture/country can also be said ‘no’ to, or at least the energies of it that aren’t resonant. You’re also invited to go against the grain of what’s normal or expected, choosing your places of rebellion as they fit and arise for you in your growing inner fire and truth.

This process may not suit everyone at this time as it really does have its own timing, yet it does feel so essential to feel into during this time of death and rebirth on the entire planet, let alone in your own precious lifetime… the dying, when it’s surrendered to, becomes the fertile soil from which the buds of the NEW Earth can be seeded and sprouted. With this dying comes a new way of LIVING that needn’t only be a pipe dream.

You don’t have to feel alone or unsupported in any of this as you open up to yourself and the Divine in a new way… if you resonate with what I’m offering from my own experience of this and what I’ve seen move in the processes of others, please feel free to contact me for a 45min intro call that’s free of charge so we can feel together if this process, way of life, and soul and heart community of SoulFullHeart may be a fit for you and you for it/us. You can find more info here: soulfullheart.org/sessions

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

All Current ‘Death/Rebirth’ Cycles Are Necessary For Awakening, Disclosure, Ascension

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by Kalayna Solais

So many souls are exiting the planet at this time. They’re leaving legacies as they go and inviting investigations into deeper and deeper truths as well, especially when their deaths are suspicious. They’re choosing (even if it looks like they didn’t choose because their lives were ‘taken’) to leave during this time especially when more of the underbelly of our culture and the underground machinations of our human world are coming to light. They’re not coming along for the ride on this plane for the rest of our current phase, and are choosing instead to assist through another. I really get this sense of how it’s all about strong soul choices and being drawn to transition into an energy that is able to assist with disclosure, which is a huge part of our global awakening and ascension, and the process of digesting it as well.

To me, this is what ‘death’ is meant to offer, whether it’s a death and rebirth cycle in your own life and healing process, or a transition into another phase as a soul without a physical body. Both shed a consciousness that isn’t needed in the same way anymore. Both require space for mourning and grief for those impacted by our soul’s choice, and in the case of a life phase change, our parts need this same space to mourn and grieve what was lost so they could truly be found, felt, and healed. 

What we’re experiencing globally right now is death and rebirth and the awakening that affords us all. It’s both beautiful and terrifying as our parts digest it all and our Metasouls ping around the unfolding because it’s so similar to what they’ve experienced in other lifetimes of war and collapse. 

I feel that some souls right now are awakening into polarities and it’s just as sacred as awakening out of them. Energizing what you are and are not, even if it’s not taking into account the whole picture, is a play out of your individuality journey and sometimes you’ll find yourself in contention over this and maybe this is new. Maybe it’s good that parts of you are advocating for something they feel is righteous or a Metasoul sister or brother of yours in another lifetime is walking out and trying to resolve some karma through YOUR lifetime. This is necessary for a phase and IS an essential part of awakening and ascension for many. This is what then leads to more desire for peace inside and out, but a peace that doesn’t cost you anything and instead is authentic and organic and so deeply rooted it can’t really be shaken.

Awakening beyond the polarity picture is NOT often easy, especially with how much contention there is around and inside of you, until you can find the genuine desire for this to shift in your inner world. There are numerous parts to work with if you want peace and deep inner love flow that overflows to others. There are numerous Metasoul aspects to work with too, who also need this experience of something new, without the same cycles of recapitulation of endless battles and war over differences that aren’t even real at the end of the day.

This is the gift that death in the physical and in our healing and ascension phases offers… illumination that leads to awakening. This phase on our planet in this ‘year’ called ‘2020’ has offered us all so much to feel into when and as we choose to. It’s a sacred time of messiness and chaos leading us to whole new ways of being if the steps can be taken from within.

Love,

Kalayna 

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about FREE consultation calls, space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Go With Reverence

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by Kalayna Solais

Wherever you go, go with reverence.
Whoever you meet, meet with reverence.
Whatever you celebrate, celebrate with reverence.
Whatever you consume, consume with reverence.
Whenever you go inward, go inward with reverence.

Reverence is the answer.
For with it, there is sacredness in all things and beings.

And at the end of the day, perhaps this is the biggest bridge back to Love Consciousness, into the peace of New Earth, into the Heaven-within of 5D.

Love,
Kalayna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Remember And Be Comforted, Starseed: A Transmission From Our Galactic/Star Family

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By Kalayna Solais & Our Star Being Family

 

Your humanity is catching up

to what your Starseed soul never forgot

and longs to be a part of again

but never could NOT be a part of…

Your tears,

They remind you of WHY

you are here.

Not to suffer

But to heal.

Not to be alone as you feel all you feel

But to recall that at all times

the room around you is ‘full’…

Of BEings

of energies

of LOVE consciousness

That could never forget you…

or itself

or the humanity that embodies it

even as that same humanity may

try and turn away.

 

You are polarizations expressed

through love encoded,

you are ‘enslaved’ only to the mind that perceives it

and the heart that doesn’t remember

what it was created to rediscover.

 

We serve to remind

To nudge

To bring you Home

through the portal of YOU.

 

That same YOU that longs and aches and beguiles and charms

and finds its way

and falls

and trips over everything within its own being

on its way to flying once again

with wings enfolded

but never cut off.

 

Starseed being…

though young you might feel,

and in human form, you may be,

you are a ‘seed’ planted,

encoded with rich life to share with all

who also remember their codes

of infinite life

ultimate love

and vast swathes of consciousness bands

frequencies

tuned in when chosen

like songs selected for playing

for evoking

for remembering…

 

Remember, Starseed…

We never left.

We will always return

as you remember that we are here

as tangibly as you are here

though intangible to the mind that created the barriers

out of necessity for acclimating here and now.

 

Starseed, you’ve nothing to fear…

Infinite BEing, experienced and versed in Love,

Though dissonant the energies, as the purging of your world continues,

know that the infinitesimal is also the infini-optimal,

that the changes longed for are forming

and the phase of harsher ‘truths’ arising

serves the advanced, ascended awakening

of the masses of humans being reinitiated

into the sacred mysteries

of they themselves

and the Universe that they are infinitely part of…

 

With immense love,

and deep witness…

~ Your Star Being Galactic Family of Vast Cosmic Origin

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Beltane Sacred Union & Soul Alignment Activation

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by Kalayna Solais

Beloved that you are,
When the smoke clears
on life’s regulating ways
and gives way to the undulating meadows
of new love’s first spring,
there I’ll be
standing in the light
of the sun shining above me,
firm in the ground I walk on
yet lightly walking toward your ready stance,
singing a song
we will both remember.
In Beltane’s past, my love
we dined and danced
and brought together our intertwining
everythings
to mingle in the love light
of the divine masculine and feminine dawnings.
In Beltane’s new arrivals, love
we’ll linger long
in embraces for only us to feel
in the eye of the mind’s connection
until the refreshing breath
of a crisp and ripe chapter
brings us closer
in all elements of this life’s wanderings.
In myself I stay here for you, love
finding more treasure long buried
to show you
in vulnerable ownership
echoing the also deep claim
you have inside of you for you.
The winds of change
and graspings of renewing tides
grip at our thrown-about clothing
to move us closer
to the edges
that keep US alive…
Together we will meet, my beloved
and there we will find
what we have been searching for…
a counterpart
not to bind, but to bond
not to cling, but to sing
not stifle with duty
but to bring out with bounding life’s alterations and celebrations…
of each new movement
here…
Bring your mountains out to greet the new day, love
and see the power of our sunshines mingling
on a new insatiable appetite
of a love reunited
in a way that was agreed to
long ago and yet NOW too.
Even NOW I make a vow to you,
to be all the more loyal to myself
and dedicate overflow to you
to what we will create together
in our messy masses of alchemical baths
and swooning passes.
Love, when we do meet again
here
I will dress the moon in your honor
and harness the sun’s rays for your Kingdom to come
and our world that is being reborn…
On this Beltane celebration day,
As I ache for you
I prepare that place in my heart
that is you-shaped
where you already live…
and that place in my body’s life
where your essence will connect
so much
oh, so much…
with mine.

~

Art by Oshuna

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Kalayna Solais is a Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator & collaborator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

About SoulFullHeart Facilitator/Teacher Kalayna Solais (Video)

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This is a video I put together to introduce myself in some more detail… I already share about my journey in other videos and writings but not usually in this way. I’ve created this video to support my bio already on the SoulFullHeart website: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/aboutkalayna

I write regularly for this blog and also frequently publish videos of audio blog recordings, guided meditations, process digestions, and more along with my husband/Sacred Union mate, Gabriel Solais, and my other beloveds.

I have much intention and desire to serve love as I continue my own healing and Ascension journey and this is always being refined, purifying, and deepening.

In this video, I introduce myself and some pieces of my journey to where and who I am today. I awakened very young, around the age of 12-14, and shortly afterward I started to dream of ways to serve love and help others heal as I also sought after my own healing. I do my best in this video to summarize some of the highlights of my journey to date yet, of course, there’s always more to share and I warmly welcome any questions or comments you may have!

Much love! ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Rebooting From ‘Spiritual Burnout’ To Find Your Own Truth

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by Kalayna Colibri

Feeling done, burnt out, saturated with information, ‘truths’, knowledge, read-outs from others… does this feel familiar? Does part of you feel sometimes like they want to ‘chuck Ascension out the window’ along with your own healing path, or maybe at least take a very conscious break from it?

Maybe you’ve holed up in front of Netflix recently with a bucket of gummy bears or a liter of ice cream, watching something that parts of your more ‘spiritual’ connections (in your life or virtual life) would judge as being ‘unsacred’, ‘vapid’, ‘non-essential to awakening’.

That feeling of, ‘I don’t want to do this anymore’ is just as sacred, meaningful and alchemical as picking up another book, following another blog, taking in another video on Ascension, expanding your consciousness, healing your wounds. Sometimes you have to pull out of what’s been surrounding and saturating you in order to regroup and recharge, and also find what ‘truths’ out there most resonate with your own. Maybe you’re actually not supposed to resonate with what’s out there, at least not right now, because you most need to resonate with what’s IN HERE… in your own heart and soul.

You are a human being with a wealth of experience in this life and beyond. You have so much knocking at your door and there is a clamor going on in the spiritual healing world, with this path pushing another path out the window, internet ‘trolls’ looking to cut someone down who is expressing their own perspective through bitterness they have inside from their own burnout perhaps, and just a ton of information to take in and dessiminate for yourself.

It feels like it’s quite often the Inner Protector or Gatekeeper part/aspect of you that gets the most saturated or even fed-up with the efforts and seeking of other parts of you, the pursuit of your soul purpose, healing, etc. They feel ‘done’ with answers that perhaps don’t deeply resonate or that try and bypass this part of you that is there trying to protect other parts of you and quite often doesn’t deeply trust the space holder, teacher, therapist, or even skilled psychic you’ve been leaning into. Negotiating with this part of you along the way, helps you ground in what you’re being taught or told into your heart and soul in a way that is real for you and not simply just given to you by another.

Ultimately, the spiritual awakening/Ascension path is about rediscovering your own expression of your Divinity, your Divine and sacred truth of your own soul’s path. Seeking for what I have been calling “outside-in” answers like readings or energy sessions without “inside-out” work also going on, like finding your own truth, the truths of your parts, the negotiation with your Inner Protector/Gatekeeper and what they’re actually ready for you to access or not, will cause this burn out experience because the work you’re receiving needs to live INSIDE of you, otherwise you’re not likely to feel truly empowered to make the choices and take the steps you need to take in order to access your next pieces of alignment and feeling truly lit UP by your emerging strength of connection with the Divine within AND outside of you.

Your burn out is an opportunity for a reboot inside. To sacredly take a break if necessary from consciously taking in any offerings or healing paths at all and to simply BE. Feeling is the deepest path to your renewed sense of aliveness, even and especially if the feeling is that parts of you just want to “veg the ‘eff out” for a change!

No matter what… you can trust that your soul is integrating all of the work it has led you to do and inhabit and that it will lead you, in your own sacred/Divine timing, to your next steps for your own healing and your sense of your individual truth, Divinity, and essence of love that you inescapably ARE. ❤

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Still some slots still open for next week if you’d like some support/guidance on your next steps out of your burnout, connecting with your Inner Protector and/or other parts of you, connecting with Metasoul Aspects, or anything that arises if you’d like to connect for a Bridging Session with myself (for women under 35), Jelelle Awen (for women over 35), Raphael Awen, or Gabriel Heartman for men and women: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

Practical Ascension: 7 Key Areas Of Life – Financial Area Personal Process

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by Kalayna Colibri & Gabriel Heartman

In this second video on the financial area of life, SoulFullHeart Teachers, Facilitators and Sacred Union mates, Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri, offer their unique perspective that is based on their own personal processes in this area. This area is one that parts tend to have the most reaction to and therefore it is an excellent area in which you can explore who you are now, have been so far in your life, and who you’d like to be as your process deepens.

The financial area challenges you, like all other areas of life, to feel what you are truly worth and what it is your most deeply want. As Kalayna and Gabriel share in this video, the process in this area is one with many steps and layers as you wade through, feel, and negotiate ongoingly with parts of you that are invested in it in one way or another.

In her personal sharing, Kalayna talks about layers of entitlement that parts of her have had around money-earning or being able to somehow automatically live a life dedicated to her vocation as a healer and have that be the main source of income. Her process has been one of digging deep within to feel and be with the parts who have held this energy of wanting to skip the step of finding financial stability that could provide her with the means to truly invest a growth process that she very much needed. She offers that parts have deep conditioning around what it means to have to work a “3D job” even while you are having profound awakening experiences.

Gabriel shares about his personal process with moving out of a 13+ year career as a tenured elementary school teacher and the dwindling nest egg of savings that part of him had great attachment to and anxiety around. He offers some key pieces to feel around the idea of letting go of 3D-based money-earning and savings from a 3D-based job or career in order to let in the new possibility of earning money with the intention of deepening your awakening experiences and helping them integrate into your life, not dampen them or try to shut them out.

Both Kalayna and Gabriel are part of the emoto-spiritual conscious community of SoulFullHeart, earning income as online ESL teachers online while also earning donation money through their work as SoulFullHeart Facilitators. This money that they earned is shared among the core Facilitators and Teachers and somehow they have found their way in this picture for almost five years now!

If you’re curious to learn about more about how SoulFullHeart digests and feels money and true abundance, you can take in any or all of these videos also from the Youtube channel:

SoulFullHeart Group Call – Money, Abundance, Soul Purpose, Guided Meditation

Conscious Community & 5D Money: Day 30 – 33 Days W/Jelelle Awen & Raphael

SoulFullHeart Patreon Page Launch, Conscious Money, Gift Exchange

And there are many audio blogs too!

There are also many articles written about this topic here on the blog. 🙂

Kalayna and Gabriel work for a company called VIPKID. If you’re interested in applying, they’d appreciate if you would use Gabriel’s referral link and code:
Link: https://t.vipkid.com.cn/activity/popup?refereeId=1395340&refersourceid=a01
Code: 00TWNG

If you have any questions about the application process, please feel free to contact Gabriel directly: gabriel.heartman@gmail.com

7 Key Areas Article w/Questions from the website: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

If you have any questions or comments, you can leave them in the comment thread on Youtube, here on the blog, or find us on Facebook (just look for Kalayna Colibri and/or Gabriel Heartman and/or SoulFullHeart Way Of Life). You can also email soulfullhearts@gmail.com

More on Gabriel and Kalayna:

Gabriel’s bio:
http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/about-gabriel-heartman

Kalayna’s bio:
http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/aboutkalayna

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. 

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