Through your heart, you feel the pulse of all life, the love for which all is made…..the portal to compassion.
Through your soul, you remember the stars, your star family, your star seed origins…..the gateway to reunion.
Through your heart, you become self loving and self accepting, love overflowing…..the flow of goodness.
Through your soul, you awaken to your mission and purpose in being here, sharing your gifts…..the service of love.
Through your love, you heal the karmic binds within and with others, the patterns of learning and lessons…..the cycle for growing.
Through your love, you reclaim your sacred humanity, your origins as an aspect of Divine source…..the reason for existence.
Jelelle Awen is an 5D ascension teacher, writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.
There are so many ways we are conditioned to feel what love is. Life becomes an endless quest to know real love and to feel it lighting up the unknowable, puzzling hallways of our sacred human hearts. I feel like anytime we try to encapsulate it, or say we’ve finally earned the Phd that tells us we are experts at knowing it, we still miss the mark to some degree. To try and know it, would be like trying to tame it…and how does one throw a rope around the wind? Perhaps the truth is that to find a deep and conscious experience of love we have to first discern what love is not…
And yet…
What is love “not”?
I cannot tell you that it is one thing and isn’t another.
But I can share with you, that from where I’m sitting right now, I feel my heart brimming over and can also feel what it is trying to put it all back in the glass for another day.
That, it feels like, is where the work is for me. It is an arrow pointing to what feels like nowhere specific but it is a piece of a treasure map. That treasure map is what makes me, me. The me that I am right now, and the me I still feel present even when I feel that I am also you…
Love wants to be the magnet powering our compasses. It wants us to more and more often choose it over anything else, especially for ourselves first. If we can’t feel when and where our choices are leading us to less and not more love in our own lives, then how can we help others find their pilot light of love in their lives?
Love is what bonds us, not what binds us, though the binds come from love too. Love is our truest roots and our widest wingspans. It is that which we can likely never fully understand, but it IS what drives us onward, upward, homeward. It IS, as we ARE… in all our pains and joys.
I can feel my fences and defenses. And I know that love loves me anyways. And that no matter what, it will find its way in…and often in ways I would never have expected.
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Leena Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, writer and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com
It is the busy season here where I live in the resort town of Puerto Vallarta, Mexico. It is my first season here experiencing this as I spent the last two winters in Mexico at a remote ranch about three hours from here. I haven’t been to the ocean to swim in awhile as my focus has been very inward, lengthly periods of meditation, and then expressing and serving SoulFullHeart outwardly mostly through writing. Today, Raphael and I both felt a desire to take in the detoxifying ocean waters, float on our boogie boards while meditating, soak in vitamin C in the form of sunlight.
I was amazed as we walked along the main beach in town, Los Muertos Beach, how many people there were located in such a small space, clustered tightly together in beach chairs in front of Oceanside restaurants and beach clubs where you spend a certain minimum amount of pesos in exchange to sit at the ocean, have food and drink delivered to you while vendors come along every few seconds to offer you items to buy.
The intensity of the energy of all these people about blew me over. Every person I made eye contact with felt as if they were suddenly inside of my skin. Not only could I feel them (which as an empathic healer is the norm) I felt like I WAS them. I admit that it scared part of me because it was intense. I could feel their emotional reality, like I was looking out of their eyes at the world. I could feel their pain, I could feel their desires. Oh, and they seemed to be so full of both! They are here on vacation, so much desire for goodness and wanting to experience the best things in life for them: ocean, fun, sun, food, drink.
I pulled my aura in as tightly as I could to my body, which can help when feeling a lot of intense energies around you. I turned my focus to the aerating energy of the negative ions in the air and the rumble sound of the waves crashing on the shore. I sent as much love and light as I could to every person that I became joined with.
We walked to the very end of the beach which is our favorite spot as it is cut off by hills on two sides and the energy is good there, the water is clear, and the waves are sometimes mellower. Plus, there were about 95% less people there and only a few vendors. My heart opened up as I had some space to breathe, go in the water with Raphael, soak in the sun, watch and feel people from more of a distance on the shore.
It was amazing to me to see how many people felt comfortable in high density frequencies, literally crammed in with so many other people. It seemed to be more comforting to be externally focused and surrounded by distractions. This, to me, is a good, relatable example of third dimensional or 3D consciousness. It is the sense that going along feels better than being different. It is more comfortable to go outward then go within. It is reassuring to be in crowds of people. The energies that were very overwhelming to me were acceptable to their 3D selves and even comforting.
Fourth or fifth dimensional consciousness (4D and 5D) is represented in the desire for physical and energetic space. Being drawn to spaces that offer some ‘breathing room’ where you can be with your own energy and check in with yourself. The choice of where to sit on the beach seems so simple in one way but it also can be telling. I have sat in the beach chairs by the restaurants before and I probably will again, just not when it is so busy and also when I am less sensitive and opened up as I am right now during this time of intensifying energies that are integrated and vibrational frequency upgrade into deeper 5D realities. Or maybe when more of these energies integrate and I can beam out love without feeling overwhelmed.
I am not judging without love any of this or the people as I offer this example to illustrate the difference in the vibrational frequencies of 3D, 4D, and 5D. I wanted to weep at both their desire AND their pain. I wanted to weep with compassion for them and for myself and even as I felt different from them I also felt deeply connected to them and KNOW that we are all ONE. I am not an elitist about ascension. I want the entire human race to all raise up together our frequency to compassion, peace, love, non-violence, embracement of our soul gifts, etc. I often feel as if we cannot if even one of us is not and yet, also, I feel at the same time, how it just isn’t what some souls will choose or are meant to choose. And, their journey and choices are as sacred as mine or any one else’s.
Being inside of others and them inside of me like I experienced today is an aspect of the awakenings into Oneness that are happening for me more and more. I admit that it is going to take time to get used to some of this even as it has been many years of this process. I also feel, as many others do, that the energetic frequencies of Gaia, the sun, and even the solar system are amplifying everything immensely, which has an impact on our sensitivity and capacity to feel others too. Overall, I feel grateful for the experience as it allowed me the opportunity to truly feel how connected we all are even with our individuality and the opportunity to teach on the dimensional frequencies from a relatable place. I’m left with a sense of the connection that all of us have to each other even as we can seem so separate in other ways.
Jelelle Awen is a writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.
Starting in recent weeks, every night has carried with it an intensity in my heart, energetic field and body. I feel as if I am surrounded. I dream very intense, very real-feeling dreams. I also feel energies moving up and down my body, both on the inside and outside. My sleep is often interrupted as these energies move through and there is a feeling of my bedroom being very full of beings, energetics, shapes, colours, and the imprints of the dreams I’ve been having that feel more like walking something out than anything intangible. I don’t always remember every detail, but I do keep the feeling of it all within me, and quite often, as I do right now, I feel “cleaned out” by morning somehow.
I remember having a dream last night that felt personal and global. I was moving through a romantic relationship that wasn’t deep but for part of me was “enough” simply because he gave me “just” enough attention and affection. I was in the process of leaving the bond because I had plans to move somewhere far away and we knew we wouldn’t be able to continue our relationship. At the last minute though, I wanted to change my mind about leaving, even though my gut and heart both said that I actually wasn’t deeply satisfied by this bond anyways and was actually ready to move on from it. It felt as if I was trying to deny my destiny. When I tried to tell him about changing my mind and wanting to stay with him, he had already detached from me and I was already fading from his life and awareness. Just before I woke up I had been trying desperately to get his attention again. This feels like a pattern I’ve lived out in a few relationships but also, it feels like this is what is happening or about to happen in relationships of all kinds. We are entering a time during our ascension as a species, where relationships of all kinds will be challenged. Letting go with full hearts and appreciation for what was is what’s being asked of us now even as we also learn to be with ourselves in the grief and pain of separation. We can never truly be separate and whatever is real between souls and hearts cannot disappear forever, but not everyone or everything will be able to come with us on our very personal, yet somehow deeply connected, journeys of healing Ascension.
Relationships are a major thing for us as humans. We are meant to be social and for many of us, our hearts consciously long for community and of course, deep romantic love. Each and every tie we have to a person or even a habit or animal or object is something to feel into now as we continue our process of purification and remembering who we really are as part of Infinite Love. There is no end point to the Ascension journey but there seem to be specific markers that guide our way. Feeling any restlessness or doubt in our relationships or maybe even body symptoms when we are around certain people are very strong indicators that we should consider reevaluating and feeling what it is we really want to experience inside relationship with others. Many of us will be challenged with having to move through layers of doubts around our own self-worth and even the beauty of our essence. Letting these doubts surface and making space to feel them is sacred as it aids us in our forward movements that bring us healing and help us move out of 3D consciousness.
There is an invitation that I feel with softness in my heart as I bring this to you. The shifting times we are living in do not promise an easy ride, though they do want us to feel where the letting go is most difficult for us. It often is not a simple process, as I’ve experienced myself. The more aligned we become in relationship to ourselves, however, the easier it is to see and feel what a truly sacred relationship is and we can begin to draw those who are our true soul family and soul mates. Nothing anchors our healing and ascension more than having loving, non-codependent support around us.
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Leena Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, writer and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com
There’s a place inside of hesitation, of pause, where parts of us feel uncertain that a life that feels better could actually BE better…
There are feelings and pictures, offering possibilities of what it could be like to live beyond our usual picture of what is “normal” for us, giving us a sense of what life could be like if we could move beyond our feelings of competition, comparison, self-doubt, self-criticism, and deep unworthiness to be loved and even deeply respected to the point of reverence. We often play out the same scenarios over and over again, with different actors but similar energy and lines of speech. This self-sabotage has become known, and though we dislike it, there is something familiar and uncomfortably comfortable about it.
This is an intense aspect of the experience of what we call the 3D self – The “you” you have likely known to be you for all or most of your life. Perhaps at times you’ve questioned where this conditioning and these thoughts come from and have made efforts to heal them once and for all. On your very sacred and personal path of ascension, this 3D self can be challenging to move through, yet the invitation is always there. Much of this process moves us beyond the mental and into the realm of the heart. There isn’t much to “figure out” or even understand in this place of 4D and 5D reality… it just is, as you are, and always have been….
The journey to embracing what could be beyond the reality you have held as real is laid before you.
There are doorways you can choose to walk through that offer you a higher vibration for your way of BEing. There are paths that facilitate a deeper relationship with yourself and help to illuminate these choice points of where you can enter a higher dimension by way of claiming an acute expression of your as yet misunderstood and under-held power.
In SoulFullHeart, we are here to serve you, should you feel ready to make the space for your own movement beyond 3D reality as you have constructed and known it to be…
We are living in a time when the worldview we have subscribed to and identified with seems to be turning upside down. All the systems and beliefs our 3D self has held onto so dearly are coming under review with new energy and information making their way into the body collective. Our own personal attachments to the 3rd Dimension are being highlighted for us to feel as the ascension moves on in its own volition. As more and more of the collective begin to wake up to this, the rate of pace feels like it will pick up in an exponential fashion. This is where tensions will run high and conflicts may begin to be more common. Environmental shifts may follow.
But rather than seeing it through the lens of the 3D self, we can feel it through the greater context of the 5D heart. This is where things are turning right side up. We are coming back into alignment and into our more authentic crystalline/light nature. This world is literally upside down from the 3D perspective. Abundance instead of scarcity, cooperation instead of competition, No Time instead of linear time, Love instead of Fear. So for the 3D aspect of us, these are tumultuous times. Death is on the horizon and it can’t be stopped. But from the 5D perspective it is an Emergence. A time of glorious opportunity and thrival in relation to what we have experienced over the millennia.
This is a time of compassionate self-love and contextual understanding. We need to be loving and educating ourselves through alternative media and our own relationship to the guidance within us. The more you can go in and feel, heal, and release the more loving the transition will be. There is also support and guidance in heart to heart contact. That is what SoulFullHeart has been called to offer. An ark into this new territory. We live it everyday and are here to serve those that feel life is getting bumpy and need a passage through and want to be in connection with those that feel the same.
I feel golden earth is real. It’s a place. It’s a dimension. It’s a dwelling place…and you can validate it for yourself. And, sadly, you, and only you can exclude yourself from knowing it as well…but why would you want to?
The realm you live in now, the one you are aware of, that you have no doubt exists, that doesn’t seem in any way to require any faith to see as real…..I’m going to ask you to rethink, refeel…
New science is proving that the world around us that we feel as real has the properties and experience that we feel it to have precisely because we see it and feel it in the way that we do. We’ve become really good at it, so good in fact that most of the time it appears seamless. Let’s call it 3D reality.
If there’s one thing that 3D living leaves us with, it’s unanswered desires, aches and a hunger for something more. If you disagree with that idea, can I ask you why you are reading this article? Even the desire to disagree is a desire to contend, to fill a need.
It all points us to something. That ‘something’ is profoundly true and it can’t be contained in any one of our religions, spiritualities though they all point to it. It’s bigger than that.
At the danger of diminishing it (in my own perception at least) I relate to this something by the name of Golden Earth. Naming something is always a dangerous thing as labels can so be used to minimize awe and wonder, but this is equally true of everything.
Golden Earth is here now. It actually exists in its fullness and entirety inside of every single atom of your and my being. There is actually very credible science for this, and yes, it changes everything. The divide between science and the mystical is evaporating.
If this heaven is a future hope that is real, it actually can’t be true unless you can access it in the now. If the hell that many live in, (and I’m deeply sorry for any deep pain that you may be living through right now) in the present moment is real, that reality is only real to the degree that it’s opposite of much greater glory is also real.
Even our pains and our distractions point us to our pure centre of infinite love and connection for ourselves and every living thing, time and space.
And God forbid that you spend another moment reading about this at the expense of feeling it inside of you. In glorious fact, if you forgot I existed and the world around you currently clamouring for your attention, and instead placed your awareness on this inside of Golden Earth Now inside of you, and let it find its way in and through you, that orgasm of your being would be your greatest address of your deepest response-ability to your world around you.
I’m going to go back to my own orgasm now, and leave you with a song that comes from a Christian source.
I invite you to feel past that label and see if it opens you out. This song captures the feeling of letting go of deep karmic pain in order to let in, and I’m feeling that so many need this is a first step to enter their own Golden Earth Now reality.
Just be re-membered to the fact that all this song is speaking to is all you. The river, the water, the lord is all you….
Enjoy, and thank you for joining me in a stunning orgasm of heart and soul and reunion….
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.
You are awakening and asking questions about yourself, your soul purpose, what you really want in and from relationships. You are looking around with an opening heart and curious soul, wondering if the people currently in your life can come along. You start testing the grounds of these relationships to see if they sustain or if they run out of room to move. You may find that others, even beloveds, are not awakening in the same way that you are. You begin to realize that their journey is different from yours.
This is led by your fourth dimensional (4D) awakening self and can be a very painful and challenging process for your 3D self as what was previously nourishing is no longer experienced in the same way. Your needs are changing as you are changing and awakening. You go through a push-pull with others, perhaps even tugging on them to come with you. Perhaps they tug on you to remain the same. Yet, at some point, you probably realize that you cannot change them, only invite them to come along. And if they don’t, you reach a place where you have to let go and trust the deeper love that exists at the core of all relationships. In the core is Oneness and none of us can truly be separate from each other, even if we choose not to be in relationship transaction together.
As your consciousness shifts to higher vibrational frequencies of love, the type of relationships that you are drawn to and that you draw changes. Your 3D self sought comfort, while your awakening self (4D) seeks challenge and growth in relationships. Your 5D self or higher self as it becomes more embodied within you seeks for union while remaining an individual soul spark of consciousness.
Romantic relationships shift greatly too. Perhaps your heart is still hurting from past wounds and hurt experiences within relationships where your 3D self was most in ‘charge’. Your relationships were more about healing karmic binds from other lifetimes (that are still happening) then about transaction of love frequencies in the moment. You are still feeling the energetic binds and cords that run between you and your former partner(s). Feeling leads to healing, mourning what was and what couldn’t be and what isn’t enough, letting go of the possibilities in order to let in what your awakening self really wants and needs.
As you transition into fourth dimensional consciousness and awakening, it begins to become a priority to heal yourself, to love yourself, to mate with yourself first and foremost. You woo yourself, date yourself, give yourself what your previous partners couldn’t. You connect with the aspects of you that need parental love, your inner child, your inner teenager. You find and draw resources outside of yourself to help with this healing of self. You find and draw a soul family community to help with this healing and loving of self, such as what we offer in SoulFullHeart. You discover union within, the masculine and feminine inside, and heal the drifts and splits that exist there.
On this self loving journey, you may then draw a new mateship. This mateship is based on heart, soul, and body connection. This mateship feels both familiar and also is stunning in the new avenues and vistas that it opens up in you. You are creating inner safety first and foremost, so it feels safer to be vulnerable in this new bond. You are able to express your sexuality more fully as you are opening up sexuality inside of yourself and feeling more and more your own desirability.
The biggest shift is how you feel your soul engaging in the bond. There is a higher ceiling and higher context for the relationship, less content and conflict. It is important to you to be a sovereign individual and it is important to be in union, both. You can more hold this seeming paradox inside of yourself and within the relationship. Your partner is also committed to their own self healing, to their own awakening process, to ascension. Together, you unite and yet, also, you are individuals that need and claim your space for yourselves and your own processes.
As you move into 5D consciousness, your relationships deepen and you feel at a fundamental level how everyone is YOU and YOU are them. Previous triggers and reactions, competitive feelings or comparisons are dropped. You are in the moment in your relationships and you are current with whatever reactions or feelings may still come up from parts of you. You feel moved by the beauty that is every sacred human, wherever their ‘level’ of consciousness is. You are discerning about who you want to be in relationship with and probably have fewer intimates than many acquaintances. You are discerning about the energies that you take in and are involved with, inviting others to be in your higher vibrational frequency with you rather than lower yours to make them comfortable. And your heart and soul are a beacon drawing others to you as you step into your soul bigness and your gift expression and the reason that you came here this life. As you embody your higher self (5D) more and more, you step into serving love as your highest purpose and are not attached to how it manifests and with whom, even as you love deeply and fully in every moment.
This may feel ideal, what I am offering here, yet this has been my experience with Raphael, and within SoulFullHeart community. It is also the experience of a growing number of others too. This really feels like what we our capacity is to inhabit as sacred humans within relationship as an expression of the Infinite Love that we ARE. We are moving from separation into union. We are moving from feeling apart to feeling joined. We are moving from relationships formed by wounds to relationships formed by health, a deeper resonance, and soul connection.
This could be your journey or perhaps it already is, and a sacred one it IS with every experience along the way a blessed one offering much teaching and much learning. Offering much, much LOVE to hold and guide it ALL.
Jelelle Awen is an ascending teacher into 5D consciousness, Divine guide-scribe, and co-creator/teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.
Raphael and Jelelle Awen having an expansive conversation about healing, awakening, life, love, service, working with aspects of self…..this new video captures the energy of that exchange as they digest recent shifts in our focus due to our own continual awakenings and realizations. If you have been curious or drawn to their energy through words, watching this video will offer more a sense of who they are and how they interact with each other. And, they talk about what sessions with facilitators and our SoulFullHeart process offers you to serve your awakening and ascension process. More about sessions, etc. at soulfullheartwayoflife.com.
This is the description of this video:
Spiritual teachers and soul mates Raphael and Jelelle Awen invite you into their living room during one of their thought provoking morning conversations together about healing, awakening, transformation, and ascension. In this video, they offer the importance of integrating soul and heart aspects of yourself (including the 3D self (ego) and aspects from other lifetimes who are still ‘alive’) through the process they offer called SoulFullHeart. They also discuss how Ethereal beings that we experience as ‘guides’ (angels, ascended masters, star beings, etc.) are also fragments or aspects of our soul and what they call the “Metasoul”. This identification and integration of these aspects during sessions with a SoulFullHeart facilitator allows for an increase in your vibrational frequency, heart vulnerability, soul awakenings, chakral openings, and overall experience of more joy, goodness, love, and higher consciousness filtering of life. You get to bring your sacred humanity ‘along with you’ as you experience higher and higher dimensional realities.
Words are finding me this week. Words to match energies that are flowing strong after going inward to discover and integrate more of my essence, more of my inner wisdom, more my soul’s expressions that span no ‘time’ or fixed place. I have been ‘picking up’ pieces of my soul and human fragments for many years and recently the depth of breadth of this has expanded even more into the galactic realms. The biggest shift has been a sense of how it ALL originates from within and a deepening of looking inward rather than ‘out there’ for answers.
Validation for me over the years has primarily come from within and what I can viscerally experience for myself. Sometimes, then, too, I go looking for information to validate the experience, but usually I don’t as it isn’t the mental body that is leading here, but intuitive and heart-based wisdom. I am feeling how the energies that I have called ‘guides’ in the past have all been aspects of me and I am now embracing them as such. A star being named Binkh, I am now feeling is my star seed self, Archturian, and connecting with her is giving me access to a much expanded consciousness where time and space do not exist, my galactic roots, healing of trauma from being ‘abducted’, etc.
I have a relationship with her in a dualistic sense and I also AM her as well. I feel that eventually her energies will integrate into me, influencing and changing my outer personality to inhabit even more of my higher or Divine self. What I have experienced as Divine Mother and Divine Feminine frequencies in the past, such as Magdalene, Kuan Yin, Kali, Cassandra, etc. have been integrating into me since 2010 when I was reiki attuned. I felt them as ‘guides’ and as the ‘Divine’ and, yet, also, they were aspects of my soul frequencies or Metasoul. They are also archetypal, meaning available for all and living within the collective unconscious (more on all of this in future posts.)
As always, this personal shift also flows into what I lead and teach through SoulFullHeart, which is a fluid process and energy that shifts with every consciousness that puts their personal love, attention, and consciousness to it. More on that to come too and on our website atsoulfullheartwayoflife.com.
My growing sense is the importance of the journey within, the journey to remember who we ARE as Infinite Love, to awaken the Universes that live inside of us, and to continue serving love in whatever forms call to us.
These are the words that have come this week to me in various blog articles, all of which are posted at soulfullheartblog.com:
Divine Self Embodiment Blog (Formerly SoulFullHeart) 