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Welcoming In Your Sacred Inner Homecoming

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by Kasha Rokshana

Through being born into this Matrix, we are taught to be concerned, always, with the opinions that surround us. We end up scattered, shattered, divided inside. This division has created ‘parts’ that formed in response to this mandate to always look outside of us for answers, for the modeling of ‘best behaviours’, for learning how to be compliant or even how to rebel properly, and certainly for any sense of ‘home’, belonging, or reconnection with the Divine. 

It has been such a huge part of my personal process over this last decade to truly bring ALL of that back inward, to follow the threads of pain that have led to parts of me, and to then untangle those threads from other parts and find integration over time. These pain threads have been complex, not straight forward, and also have been co-created and maintained by outer relationships, jobs, etc. They have also been tugged on and at times entangled with the threads within others and their own parts, making the sorting out a process of what’s mine and what’s someone else’s quite messy in moments. 

The only way I’ve been able to deeply address and heal the pain and parts has been by bringing them back inward, to my own heart, to the home/nest I’ve been creating and cultivating there for so long, which now also overflows to others in 1:1 sessions as I hold space for other women’s own parts to come forward and their own inner ‘homes’ to be created.

There is always an invitation to create this inner heart and soul home inside of you and so much support being offered for that from the Divine within you, from your Metasoul aspects, from Star Family, even from all the beings in your inner world also known as ‘parts of you’ – though many of them may have a really hard time letting in that this home within is even possible at first, as they’ve had to have so much outer focus for so long. 

The codes of Homecoming that are steaming in these days are an opportunity to re-code what it means to truly take care of yourself, your body, your emotional and spiritual realities, and not only within you… they are also supporting you to draw to you those resonant relationships you’ve maybe only dreamed of, or only experienced virtually so far. If there’s a resistance or reluctance in your heart toward truly embracing your beloved online relationships in the physical, there are very likely some parts of you that feel afraid perhaps of the cost to your life as you’ve known it… for nothing ever changes us like letting love in, especially love for ourselves and especially, also, saying ‘yes’ to love’s flow as it moves between us and others in ways unpredictable. 

My beloveds, Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be leading a group call this coming Sunday, Oct 16th, that will be focused on these Homecoming Codes – letting them in, feeling what they mean for you personally, and connecting to your inner ‘home’ in a deepening way. The call will be by donation as always, and held over Zoom. If you’d like more info, visit soulfullheart.org/events. 

So much love to you and with you as you feel into these Homecoming Codes and what they mean to you at this time!

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

How Spirituality and Growth Differ

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By  Raphael Awen

Growth and becoming spiritual can be far from the same thing.

Growth is hinged on the quality of your intentions and responding with your deepest courage and integrity to the choices before you, in the sacred life before you as you currently know it.

You can become quite spiritual through a long list of practices like meditation or yoga. But the practice doesn’t determine growth, but rather the why behind what you are doing, irregardless if it’s meditating or feeding the dog.

We’re invited now to sift through our intentions, which is the real leverage point of our desired growth. Clinging onto or coveting spiritual routines and attainments can actually be detrimental to our growth.

Sort the intent and you may just find that everything you choose to do in life is equally spiritual. Then you can literally do whatever you really want and find growth traction, and be having too much fun in the process to be beating yourself up with another spiritual discipline. 💚

~ R ~

This pic came from this weeks wonderwalks in the area here.

#raphaelsphotonics

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

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Manifesting Your Dreams And Inner Negotiation

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By  Raphael Awen

Manifesting your dreams begins with just that; manifesting your dreams.

As in looking at them, feeling them, negotiating with any and all parts of you who might feel uncomfortable with those dreams…

That business kind of negotiation will turn preciously personal as you feel and get to know the parts of you and their reasons for preferring a life lived with suppressed dreams.

I’m living in a life I could only dream of some years ago. Constantly, life is again asking me to feel into the deeper dreams that are in my heart and soul field.

None of us really need to go looking for our soul purpose. It’s always been encoded inside of us. If it feels hidden or unknown, that’s because parts of us have needed it that way. If other parts of are longing for growth and discovery and deeper embodiment, then that’s all within our power to embrace.

This gets us beyond gimmick spirituality and into the territory of deep live and die surrender into aliveness, passion and letting every moment be a part of an enlivening frequency.

Maybe, parts of you are asleep because their bored. Maybe parts of you have laid off from dead and boring spiritual practices and disciplines and dogmas because they ARE boring. The aliveness has been bored out of them and you and has left a gaping hole.

Thank God for that hole, because if you can address it, that hole is your salvation. Short of entering this void and beginning again to feel your dreams, it’s highly unlikely that anything desired or meaningful is going to show up in your life.

But this hole, combined with the power of your choice, is the one thing that changes every other thing.

Where are you? What are you doing? What are you needing? Are we meant to connect further somehow? I welcome hearing from you.

I help souls get on with their dreams. 💚🌹🏄🏻‍♂️🙏🏻

~ R ~

#raphaelsphotonics

This photo was taken yesterday from our equinox gathering of 8 souls here in Portugal spending some time together being nurtured in nature. At a time with so much death being amplified around us, it feels gods to breathe in life, love and Gaia’s sustaining goodness.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for community engagement, exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/ for a monthly subscription of $22.22 USD

Scarcity Is Just One Part Of The Play

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By  Raphael Awen

Scarcity was needed to see and feel the underlying fullness and abundance that underlies everything.

Fear was needed to elucidate deep abiding trust.

As the fullness and the trust comes into your being more and more, as you awaken to the fullness that IS and that you ARE, you have less and less need for the scarcity and fear to lead your discovery.

As I tuned into Golden Earth this morning, I was greeted by the words, ‘There’s nothing to make happen here. Everything that needs to happen is already happening.’

Then I felt into the impulse to deepen this understanding inside of me, to open it out, which in itself, is another impulse to make something happen, isn’t it?! Then I felt this impulse to write about it, which I’m doing now! Dang it!

I know I’m not out of the woods on this one. I’ve lived a long time in the land of doing, achieving, of effort and reward.

But the invitation I feel, if I’m not quite ready to fully shake this impulse to do something, or to achieve something, is to let in this awareness, that there’s nothing that actually needs doing, or achieving.

If that’s true, then I’m left in the land of play. Play by definition is doing things for the fun of it, which is about as close as I can imagine as to why the divine does anything.

It’s all a play. And the parts of us who made it anything more than that, in terms of labour and scarcity, are all ultimately also at play. They’re just playing out necessary illusions that contribute back to the homecoming and reconciliation that you and I ARE.

Until,…. the characters in our play, (and what characters they are!), tire of the play.

May they each find waiting for them a deeply curious and open heart to land in, when their world has become so much less than the fun it once was. May they find an abundance of love and rest inside of your heart home.

Love, ~ R ~

#raphaelsphotonics

The photo above was taken playing with shooting pics of the roadside weeds at sunset here in Folques, Portugal.

The term ‘weed’ denotes something so abundant that it has no value, so it’s not noticed or wanted. In Golden Earth, the streets are rumored to be paved with Gold, and strangely, the pavement doesn’t go missing. It’s everywhere. You can take it or leave it. But people would wonder about you having piles of pavement stored in your basement, wouldn’t they?

Weeds become Gold, and Gold becomes weed. Wasn’t their some weed we all smoked back in the day called ‘Acapulco Gold’ as I recall? 💚😊

Much love,

Raphael

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for community engagement, exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/ for a monthly subscription of $22.22 USD

The Liability Of Reliability

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By  Raphael Awen

We’re at a place now where honorable traits can fast become liabilities.

I had a dream last night where an old friend from my past, who, if he was known for anything, was known for his reliability, his willingness to sacrifice for others in need, his expression of care. Underneath it all, though, was a big resistance to change, and I suspect, the garden variety fears of embracing his next growth into his bigness, that we all face.

I can feel where he an I, in other lifetimes, were side by side in these kinds of changeless codes of honor, especially in service of a King. It became a deeply embedded safety and way of being in the world.

In this life, I managed to embrace deep change sooner than he, and that made for the end of our friendship, but not our larger soul connection. Who knows what lifetimes he may have done the same for me?

Isn’t this true of all of our relationships? The part about our larger soul connection?

We are all players in each others learning and growth grounds, and so much of that happens by comparison. In comparison, we get to see ourselves, feel ourselves, embrace and try on new ways of being in life, in love and in this world, and even in others beyond this one.

Staying stuck though, isn’t where our souls want us to be right now.

It’s time to embrace the changes before us. What might feel like reckless abandon to a part of us, wants to be lovingly, and step by step, negotiated inside of us; feeling each part of us and their needs and reactions to the changes before us.

The improvised beatitude for this time is ‘Blessed are the flexible, for they shall not be broken’. I’d add to that, ‘Blessed too are the broken, for they are open to healing’.

So, it’s all good in the larger picture. The larger picture is a picture of love being all there is, where everything in being reconciled to itself and every part is found to be aspectual to that love. The love of all, with all, and through all.

The love you are. The love I am. The love we are.

~ R ~

#raphaelsphotonics

This photo below was taken from last week during a visit to the Coimbra University here in Portugal. The expression of the architecture, both in its achievements and its message feel to be about values from times long ago, as buildings all around in contrast are just succumbing to the relentless graffiti strewn on them by a generation in deep change, and a necessary rebellion.

Feeling these architectures though, can really be a time travel experience into our Metasoul of lives lived in these energies, lives that are actually still being played out in the now, that await our feeling reconciliation of them, into our healing and expanding hearts.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for community engagement, exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/ for a monthly subscription of $22.22 USD

The Assignment Of Letting In Goodness

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By  Raphael Awen

I love you, too! 🌹

Total day of magic and goodness, today! Almost to the point of being tired and cranky because of it. 🫤

Letting in goodness is a big assignment for us all.

Nothing is ever all perfect in a world of duality, but my life together, now 14 years with this being feels as close as it could get oftentimes.

Part of that realization was because of feeling through and being with a contraction between us the day before, that again opens out new ground together.

Thank you, Jelelle, for needing me, wanting me, and for all that you are. 💚🌹🏄🏻‍♂️🙏🏻

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for community engagement, exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/ for a monthly subscription of $22.22 USD

Entering The Portal Of Our Growth & Embodiment

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I’m getting a personal and private download about you as a masculine being in your life as you know it right now. (It also happens to apply to all men, but I invite you to see if fits for you personally…)

There is before you, percolating, bouncing, calling for your attention – in the circum-stances of your life, standing in circumference around you – a portal. In the drama playing out in your life right now, there is what amounts to either a big block or a big portal, depending on how you relate to it.

Like a henge of standing stones, you may know and sense something profound was intended in these constructs of these circumstances, yet, it’s unknown and mysterious at the same time as to why they are here and where they might take you, depending on how you respond to them.

This portal is an offer to go to your next places of soul growth, human embodiment, and healing of wounds. This portal also wants to yield to you the soul gifts that were intended for you. Gifts that you’ll never know unless you consciously receive them.

These circumstances can either close in on you to shut you down, or they can be embraced, negotiated with, owned, and entered into, to allow yourself to be taken into your next soul growth and human embodiment, bringing both endings and beginnings.

The circumstances are so tailor made for you, and are so ready to shape-shift as you relate with them, rather than avoid them.

A difficult and humbling piece in all of this is that we never get free of these growth portals, in the sense that a current part of you may feel bothered by the challenge before you. The courage and humility you respond with now won’t actually be any different than the courage and humility that will be called upon years from now. It becomes easier and more natural for sure, but not something we get beyond in this life.

So a question arises, that deserves your heart attention; do you still want to continue on an awakening journey if the challenges cease? What if the challenges actually increase instead? I know, that’s not very good marketing, to kill the false hopes, but I feel how you’ve been fed and are now fed-up with false hopes and the emotional charades of a false-light spirituality.

Something more is wanting arise in your heart, soul and body. Something more is wanting to radiate out from you. Something more is wanting to be shared and partaken of together in community of soul family and awakening brotherhood.

Regardless of the shit flying overhead, you have a choice and choices to make.

How you respond to that choice is what allows you to sanely navigate the storm without regrets in the end, and even to endure deep loss with self love and love for all others involved. You can even make a wrong choice and it will be transmuted into the right choice in the end if it’s made from this kind of heart opening and humility.

There is a real hopeful outcome to embrace, but it’s not exactly relief in the way parts of us have related to just wanting relief. Real relief brings new growth and new challenges. In some ways, the storm picks up. That can’t be denied.

Maybe the deeper relief a part of you is hoping for in the relief of circumstances is the soul relief in finally stepping into, and no longer avoiding your larger soul choices? That would be a profound relief, but on a whole other level.

You can show up to feel each part of you and their reactions to the polarity in the circumstances at hand. That’s why it’s a pretzel, because parts of us are attached to opposite outcomes or desires. And before we use that word ‘attachment’ in a negative way, let’s feel how boring and empty of a human being you’d be without any ‘attachments’, and how useless to others around you, except possibly is dressing up that old false god of being ‘so spiritual’.

Forget about friendship or romance. Forget about being alive, really. Without any attachments, I can’t locate you, or actually have a relationship with you. You’re not actually here.

Don’t ‘zero-point’ out your humanity in your embrace of your divinity. They both want to fire at the 100% mark. That’s 200%! Arithmetically, that’s 200 parts per 100…, huh, that’s makes no sense! Exactly. It’s better experienced than explained. There is no separation actually between your humanity and your divinity unless you create one for yourself. (Which we all did, and do, so no judgment there) 💚

Love to you as you sit in the center of your standing stone henge of circum-stances and embrace and transmute what lies before you – whole universes of magic await you.

Back story to this photo:

This photo was from this early morning here at the Golden Beach, Albufeira where Jelelle and I feel so grateful to have the opportunity to take in the sun codes here, spending a few days, on the 2 year anniversary of our departure from Canada!

How we frame what we are surrounded by composes what we see and that then in turn effects our next choices.

Beauty can so be overwhelming to us, leaving us disempowered, separated from the beauty, reminded of what we don’t have, can’t have and won’t have…, unless we change the frame around how we are seeing and feeling the beauty around us.

What if the beauty is a mirror? For men, I’d ask you, what frames of beauty do you struggle to take in?

Does it show up in pornography? Is it in over energizing achievements that once nourished you, but no longer do? Is it in the pretense of spiritual achievements or status that leave you separated from actually partaking of meaningful personal enduring relationships? Is it in amassing money, but feeling more and more personally bankrupt as you do so? What if all these things of beauty are holding not just a message for you, but also a means to change your life?

What if the darkening skies above you of addiction, in whatever form you are facing it, are actually this sacred portal, awaiting your awakening choice to enter into to see what wants to come next for you?

*****

Raphael Awen is a Sacred Masculine Love Ambassador and Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheart.org

Lion’s Gate Invitation To Emerge Into Infinite Possibilities & Infinite Love

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by Kasha Rokshana

To move out of tight-feeling places, smallness, feelings of being stuck and stagnant, takes oomph and even a ROAR at times. I feel this Lion’s Gate is inspiring this movement in myself and others, this desire to launch off a springboard and leap into the air of infinite possibilities and infinite love.

Something becomes so normalized in our Matrix connection around feeling small and the layers of this take so long sometimes, so many years, so much processing, so much deep feeling to move through. We’re conditioned to believe that ‘this is as good as it gets’ and then parts of us can become very afraid to imagine anything more is possible. Scarcity is God. Abundance is something you can only wait and work for and it may not even come to you. Unworthiness is the foundation upon which your ‘house of life’ has been built.

I’ve been feeling my Queen aspect quite a lot lately and feeling a new sense of my inner masculine King as well. They’re showing me their stuck and fearful places and where they haven’t connected deeply together, along with what they both desire to become. They are heading toward a reconciliation within themselves, with each other, and with me, plus also with the Divine which is a connection they both want to embody more. They want new levels of collaboration together without pushing or prodding, just mutual evolution and dance with their own wishes and desires. My Queen dreams and my King makes it happen. And well, maybe sometimes it’s meant to go the other way too where my King is the dreamer/visionary and my Queen can help birth it into being. I feel how they want to have a new level of maturity around this together and truly stay in the room now without suppression or fear… and I humbly feel how that’s in process for them both and not yet mastered.

This Lion’s Gate seems to really be supporting us all to move out of the Matrix at a new level, yet with honouring of the sacredness of the smallness-settling/settling for suffering too. Feeling our inner dynamics between parts/aspects is a way to do this that really brings it all inward, takes responsibility for what’s been created in the outer world, and begins to turn the ship around. There’s nothing to leap over or to make wrong in the process of feeling it all and feeling why parts of us have been ok with that being their only possible reality. Yet, maybe now it’s time to feel into the steps that can be taken to move out of it more.

Your own patterns, if you’re anything like me, may have to do with money earning and a huge mountain to climb around stability being accessible yet also using your own creativity to keep that moving along even if you do need to lean into being an ‘employee’ of some kind for a while. They may also have to do with wanting to feel more centred in the infinite possibilities of life and of love, to feel like no matter what, you’re drawing to you what you need to experience to keep you moving beyond even the most subtle suffering loops about anything… relationships, work, soul purpose expression, geography, etc.

I feel humbly like I’m learning about this all over again in a way, and I welcome that because to me it’s always interesting where these layers take me and what I learn about myself through feeling them. Without suppressing my shadow and my own parts’/Metasoul aspects’ resistances to Divine surrender and timing, I get to feel what else I and they want, desire, need. I’m afforded the opportunity to dream anew, even when there’s mourning that’s needed too…

There’s so much for us all to launch into now, to see about our soul patterns and this-lifetime patterns too. The wounded visionary is just as real as the elevated one. The wounded healer is just as real as the centred one. Your parts are just as real as your integrated wholeness. There’s so much we’re invited to just drop-in and feel, to fall in love with even in the tightest moments and the most tearful waves of grief. I feel so much desire to move beyond any settling for suffering… and I truly hope, that on whatever level you need to right now, you feel that for yourself too.

Love,
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Divine Love Transmission Through Sarah McLachlan’s Song, “Angel” (Video)

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by Kasha Rokshana

Whenever I hear, sing, feel this song lately, I feel not only my own soul’s heartache and hope for what’s happening in the world, but I also feel the Divine holding out its arms in invitation to all who are ready to let in more love and support at this and any time.

I felt to share this song with you in my own voice (a very vulnerable thing for parts of me!) and I truly hope that the message/transmission of Divine love lands deeply in your heart, parts, aspects who may be suffering or simply feeling a ton right now.

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc.

‘Can You Come Out To Play?’ An invitation from Marvin, Raphael’s Inner Child

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By  Raphael Awen

What would it take for you to come out and play again?

I know deep down, you really want to. But something has you to itself right now.

Is it a sadness that the joys you once had so much fun with are gone now?… And you don’t know how you could ever have that much fun again?

Or is it that you can’t see who would want to be with you and have your kind of fun?

I’m not trying to figure you out. You’re way too big of a being to be figured out. I just want you to come out to play again when you are ready to.

I do feel something for you, if you’d let me share it with you?

I can feel that life as you once knew it changed somehow, and you knew some really cool joys in that old life, but that life dried up and went away. You found something really, really cool, and now it’s gone. Now, you’re sad, and that’s okay.

I think I know something else too that I’d like to share with you if you’d let me. And that is that when people lose things like you lost, they don’t actually let themselves feel what they lost and how sad they actually are. They keep their tears inside. I did that for a long time. It’s like we don’t arrange and attend the funeral. I think I know something too about why we tend to do that, that it is about how we are afraid the tears will swallow us somehow, and we will be no more.

If that’s true, then it means people do actually want to come out and play again, I mean, if they are afraid of being no more, right? Because being no more, would mean never to ever play again.

What if life is trying to bring you your next kind of play that really is your kind of funnest fun, but you aren’t sure you are ready to risk losing again?,…because you haven’t seen how losing isn’t as sad as it seems, if you let yourself be sad, then the sadness moves, and you get to come out and play again…

You didn’t have to find the play that you once loved so much. It found you, and fun is trying to find you again.

I think that’s just the way it is. People are afraid to be sad because they aren’t sure they are ready just yet for their next fun, their next play.

It’s okay if you don’t think so. That’s just the way I do. I can be sad with you, if you’d like me to…., to feel what you lost and then maybe we can share tears together, which is one kind of play I like to have whenever I need to.

I’ve lost lots of things, but I always find that new things are wanting and ready to come in.

(From the beloved younger part of me called Marvin)

Raphael Awen

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Pics below are from Jelelle and I’s recent trip to Nazaré on Portugal’s silver coast.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 
The SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for community engagement, exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/ for a monthly subscription of $22.22 USD