Rushing Heart, Patient Soul, Aching Body

by Kalayna Colibri

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Hurry, soulmate, hurry here…

Though the rush is only in my heart

and my soul that knows no waiting, says,

 

“Meet me in this place as soon as life readies you,

and the ripening of old personas prepares them to fall away,

baring only the branches of your truest self

standing naked as an apple tree in winter…”

 

I remember you as I remember me.

I feel the lifetimes of scarcely feeling one another

yet knowing each other just the same,

though fears and avoidance called us apart

in geography and deeper claim

of everything we wanted to have…

 

I’m not missing you this time around, love.

My dance continues as you gaze in the windows

with your higher self at the helm of your dreamworld.

…it’s not a dream though.

Everything you see, feel, touch, taste, smell

is me

is us

is what we’re here to have and create together…

 

I will NOT miss you this round, love!

You will know my lavender call and rose-light glow

of timeless age and accustomed wisdoms

bringing in love-dance energies,

calling out your realest name…

 

Our bodies will know the exploration

of the deepest caverns among flourishing wild flowers.

My femininity longs for the touch

of a masculinity found through the yin of him…

the feeling-space container of a long unbidden love force

now unleashed and unbound.

 

I won’t remain un-found by your searchlight

streaming outward

reaching into the places inside my honeycomb tresses

and vines of sacred unity.

 

We will speak of it all, love!

Of those things we’ve tried and tested

and consciousnesses that have bested us

so far.

It’s a strapping down into a straight-up bolt

of lightning fire creator gifts

launching our ways into the worlds of now

and the expeditions of all kinds

inside these places we have still to rediscover.

 

I’ll lie awake and think of this, love!

Only this.

Even as I serve and move forward and bring it all back inward.

In these dark nights on my own

and yet not alone.

With the firm grasp of imaginings dawning and breaking

upon the body, heart and soul

that waits and creates for you…

to bumble out a careening new way

WITH you

inside US

and into this endless upward thrust

of upending, ascending existence! ❤

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Come WITH Me, My Love

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Come with me, my love
Down the spiral staircase of my heart
Into the garden of my humanity
Bear witness to it succulence
It´s uniqueness
It´s burned and broken places
Come with me, my queen
Along the paths of weathered words
And the trails of new beginnings
Water the wilted with your loving care
Ignite the growth with your fiery passion
Will you follow me into the unknown?
Into the cauldron of our being?
Will you dance with me among the golden lilies
As well as the prickly cactus and forest ablaze?
Will you join with me in the exploration of our sacred sexuality?
The slow caress of my hands
Upon your beautifully sculpted, divinely feminine curves
The electric sparks that leap off our tongues
Setting fire to our chakras one by one.
When we reach the gateway of our heavenly union
Will you come with me?
May I come into you?
Into your atmosphere where you shine and fly?
Into your hidden and protected caverns?
The places where few have been allowed to tread
Into your luscious and sacred garden?
I will not pluck your flowers
Or step on your sprawling vines
I will sit patiently for you to join me.
To share with me you tales
Your stories of adventure
….of agony
….of strength
….and weakness
I will etch them into my heart
Weave them into the tapestry of us
Though they belong to you and you alone
They share a sacred place in between you and me
Come with me, by beloved
As far as we both were meant to go
To unravel the mystery of who we were meant to be

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Sacred Unions Vs. Scared Unions W/ Raphael and Jelelle Awen (Video)

In this one hour introductory talk to Sacred Union given during the Divine Masculine and Feminine Rising Summit, emoto-spiritual teachers and soul mates Raphael & Jelelle Awen look at, and more importantly, FEEL, the specifics that define and contrast a ‘Sacred Union’ from a ‘scared’ union. The actual current ‘transactability’ of the relationship in heart, soul, mind, and body grounds providing nourishment to both partners is key over what the ‘potential’ or ‘capacity’ of the bond may be. This transactability in the ‘Usness Ground’ rumbles through with wave after wave of transformation within the bond that reflects the ‘Sacred Union with self’ that is happening for both partners.

They will be teaching about this LIVE, offering a guided meditation to connect with the sacred feminine and masculine energies INSIDE of you and the higher self of your sacred union mate, and facilitating individual sharings during a group call on Saturday, May 13th at 11:11amCST. More information here: https://www.facebook.com/events/1320873934656373/ or here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls

Below are some more notes from this one hour session at the Divine Masculine and Feminine Summit from April 30, 2017:

Looking at Sacred Union through the SoulFullHeart lens offers a huge difference between a ‘SCARED’ union and a ‘SACRED’ Union. A couple being invited into a Sacred Union will experience a rumble of a death of the old, while being offered a rebirth of the new if they are willing to choose it mutually. The false/3D self and its present attachments to geography, career, income, and self-image are all challenged in this catalytic invitation into new ground.

A Sacred Union continually deepens in TRANSACTABILITY in the relationship in body, heart, mind, and soul domains. Many in ‘scared’ unions by contrast relate to the potential or capacity of the bond or their partner as a hope for one day, which leaves them suffering unhealthily in the present, as is often the case in what is called ‘Twin Flame’ relationships.

The ‘Usness Ground’ is the 3rd entity of the relationship that explodes in nourishment for the individuals when both partners are deepening in love with self that is then naturally mirrored in the bond. The couple don’t actually ‘work on the relationship’ in this way as the relationship arises naturally and effortlessly as a byproduct of each person’s work with self.

This work with self is done through accessing the subpersonalities in the emotional body that we all have that hold our defenses and blocks to love. A ‘scared’ union is one where the parts of the couple are in lock-step agreement around mutual defendedness that keeps the bond within certain bandwidths of flatness and deadness.

Sacred Union ‘Codes’ are now coming in through the sun and the Divine giving us a huge boost to stimulate our DNA with the desire for, and access to Sacred Union. These codes support our self-to-self work in the goal of healthy mateship. You can find our blog article here on Sacred Union Codes: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/04/27/sacred-union-codes-coming-in-invitation-into-sacred-unions-with-self-and-a-true-mate/

And here is a related awesome recording of the group call we did together on Sacred Union that included a guided meditation to meet your Inner Protector: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4y4XjZAfjw8&t=1988s

Raphael’s Bio: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com…

Jelelle’s Bio: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/about-jelelle-awen

Sessions with Raphael and Jelelle: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com…

Raphael’s Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/raphaelawen1

Jelelle’s Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen

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The Inner Dance of Sacred Romance

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INside every MAN lies a Queen to his King.  A Goddess to his God.  For any MAN who seeks sacred romance the journey begins in his own heart.  An active engagement to find Her among the settled ashes of the old relationship to WOMAN.  For she is not of that mold.  She has no cage yet is the container for the arising King to shine.  This is new kind of hunt, one that doesn’t seek to dominate, but rather to integrate.  One that experiences the union first INside in order to set the ground for what can transact on the outside.  

This has been referred to as Heiros Gamos, or the Sacred Marriage.  More an external ceremony that represents what happens internally.  This inner mating gives birth to your Self.  Your inner belonging and self-love that cannot be taken away, unless by your authority.  This union fills you with your own worth, power, and desire as a MAN.  You feel your own goodness, vulnerability, and sensuality.  It courses through you like electric pulses and flowing water.  This sends out ripples that cannot go unnoticed by the one it is intended for.  

Feel Her come in and out of your field like a dancing flame and a wind swept leaf.  Let Her command your attention to that which is unattainable.  Unknowable.  Smell the sweet scent of lavender and jasmine.  Sense the grace of her movement and the softness of her touch.  Let it enter you and enliven you.  Taking away the edges and straight lines that can get too rigid and tight.  Take flight into Her grounded chaos and stellar flight.  Beauty is elucidated and never held static.  She is always arising, shifting, dying, and birthing,  She is alive with the passion of presence.

Bring to Her your desire for MORE.  Your passion to feel your own core masculinity shine by the reflection of Her vibration.  Your need for growth and Self-knowing.  The awakening of your soul gifts and to feel the glorious ecstasy of Her portal to heights unknown.  Build your castle within to honor Her presence INside you… as YOU and for YOU.  She is a gift to your evolving Self, your sacred emerging MANhood.  She is always there but you must woo her and pursue her.  She will make it all worth it.  

As you do unto Her, you do unto WOMANkind. This shifts the old dynamic collectively and She can’t help but to notice.  You are a light of tender heart, brave soul, and passionate lover.  You seek Her NOW for you are filled in your own BEing for it can’t help but to want to MANifest itself in this physical dimension.  Like a reservoir ready to tear down the dam.  It cannot, will not, nor does not wish to be held back any longer.  It is ready to find its counterpart other to enter into the unknown dance of Sacred Romance.

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Sacred Union Is Calling And Inviting Us To Respond With Love

By Jelelle Awen

 

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It is lying in bed with him, my head on his chest…the perfect fleshy pillow seemingly shaped just for me. It is sharing, always sharing, what is moving in my heart and my soul for it to land in his accepting embrace. It is so many early mornings of this, where I land in self AS I land in him AS I land in our Usness.

It is THIS sacred union that brings me into self, introduces me to self over and over as it CALLS me into a higher self version to serve love from the overflow. It is THIS calling that my heart responds to with vulnerability. It is this calling that my soul responds to with awakening. It is this calling that my body responds to with longing. It is this calling that my mind responds to with inspiration.

It is the feminine form of me leaning into the masculine form of him. The polarity and duality dance of our gender-based edges merging and BEcoming and touching and entwining. The dance that creates and alchemizes a NEW energy that wouldn’t be possible without each of us as the partners and creators. My side and his side and then in the middle where our energies meet is this union…..two “I’s” coming together to create a “We” without losing our sense of self.

It is the letting go of the conditioned IDEAS of relationship, romance, and union….letting go of the templating and modeling that we received. Letting go of what doesn’t serve the love to move between us and LETTING IN the essence of us that BEcomes the love more and more. The inner father and the inner mother held and identified and felt so that we can arise beyond these roles into the frequencies of TRUE king and queen BEloveds.

It is THIS queen inside of you that is waiting, ready, growing, choosing. She is getting her inner nest ready to receive these tones of sacred union into her world. She is responding to what FEELS like what she most deeply wants and letting go of ALL that IS not, even as it can be so painful to do so. She is inviting sacred union of self into her life to overflow this energy of invitation OUT to her mate, as her inner frequencies of self love increase so does the strength of HER beacon.

It is THIS king inside of you that is pursuing, activating, growing, choosing. He is getting his inner kingdom ready to hold these tones of sacred union into his world. He is activating around what FEELS like what he most deeply wants and letting go of ALL that IS not, leading the necessary completions or explorations. He is inviting sacred union of self into his life to overflow this energy of invitation OUT to his mate…..as his inner frequencies of self love empowerment increase so does the strength of HIS beacon.

It is this sacred union for which we are ALL being invited to explore, to join, to feel, and to experience. The explorations of our inner unions of feminine and masculine and the OUTER expression of it from one awakening heart, body, mind, soul WITH another in the service of love with love and BY love.

Please join us for a group call this saturday, May 13th at 11:11amCST withRaphael Awen and I exploring this ground of sacred union through teachings, a guided meditation (to connect with your sacred feminine and masculine frequencies within and with the higher self of your sacred union mate), and individual sharings:https://www.facebook.com/events/1320873934656373/ or soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls

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Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book,Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

Our Symphonic Reunion

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Through the misty waters I see your shore

The banks of your once hidden palace

The veil has become thinned

Through the clearing of our once wounded hearts

I stand upon my gallant ship with treasures unsold

It was a time for me to lose and find myself once more

To remember all that I had left behind

Yet never denied

I fought my battles and learned many lessons

But it is time for a new adventure

A new embarkation to a sensual destination

Where the wild winds of ember flows

Into the starry night sky of the distant unknown

May I step closer to you with my hand stretched out?

To hold your gentle caress upon my love pulsed chest

May I bring my You-starved lips upon your silken rows?

To taste your rose petal laced skin

Along the highway of your sweetly browned silhouette?

The memories of our distant Now come rushing back to front

The days of earth and beyond the sky

Collide in a symphony of blended merging

A knot of perpetual entering and leaving

The sweet motion of our thunderous revolutions

Sounds of the calling of our inner soul’s yearning

Are echoed from the highest peaks to the forest floor below

The rise and fall of our joy of reunion

And the fear of losing it all once more

We stare into the deepest silence of our tear filled doorways

Into the vastness of our Oneness

That contains the passion of our Twoness

Into the space of No Time but This Time

This Me in this You

That You in that Me

We feel dusk drawing its shutters to this moment

For it is time to return to the place we find ourselves in waiting

In claiming, in loving ourselves back to this moment

When we meet each other again

Only this time much closer than the time before

In this soon to be speck of time

I tell you that I am Here with you Now

There is no distance that separates us

For I claim the space between us as no space at all

Until we meet again in the middle of our soul stretched bridge

Where the portals of our hearts are opened once more

I leave you with my crown as a gift of my claim

That you are all that I have been dreaming of.

 

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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To Be With A King Man

By Jelelle Awen
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What is it like to be WITH a king man, a vulnerable man, a man that pursues with ALL of his heart, a man who holds space for himself and ALL the feelings that come up inside of him? This is what I felt moved to share today……what it is like to be with a king man from a queen woman’s perspective experiencing our USness ground with Raphael for nine years in sacred union. I felt moved to share what it is like to be with a man opening out into the capacity and potential that I feel ALL men have inside of them….like a seed just waiting for the water of SELF love, SELF worth, and PURE love with and from the Divine to grow and to bloom!

To be with a king man is to feel him cross the space toward you with clarity and with desire. To feel him CLAIM the exploration between you into deeper grounds of intimacy than either of you have EVER known. Raphael crossed the space toward me shortly after we met many years ago. We were sitting in a local Starbucks in Ashland, Oregon, and he rolled out his attraction to me after being around each other during two recent seminars connected to the spiritual and emotional healing group we were both part of. I felt the goodness of him IMMEDIATELY, his big heart and his immense capacity and purity. Parts of me weren’t ready for all this then and the ground between us (as lush as it was) wasn’t transactable between us yet as also he was just out of a 23 year marriage and leaving Christianity and his whole social world behind. He then brought his attraction again to me several months later and I again ‘turned him down’ as it didn’t feel like the timing was right for either of us.

A few years later, the timing was right for both of us and Raphael AGAIN risked to cross the space to pursue me and to claim an exploration between us. NOW I was open and ready for him. On our very first date, he literally cleared the restaurant dishes out of the way when we were done eating, reached out across the table and grasped my hands in his for the first time. The rush of love and desire that moved through me feeling his skin against mine, the tender yet passionate way he held me and US….offered all I needed to ‘KNOW’ about our love and the possibilities of where it would take me. A few moments later, he reached over again towards me and we were kissing passionately on the sidewalk, not caring who saw us or witnessed!

To be with a king man is to feel cherished for ALL aspects of you and their expression grounds. Raphael has wanted me passionately as a physical woman from the beginning. Other men in the past wanted my soul frequencies or my spiritual gifts or priestess frequencies….Raphael could feel all those capacities but also he CRAVED my BODY deeply too! That craving continues to this day…..he notices and comments on every bit of clothing that I put on my body and feels a visceral physical response to what I wrap my body in and the way I physically move through space. He FEELS my physicality and responds to it in an alive way. This is SO important as the body is our precious vessel here and the tones of cherishment and desire coming from a king really light up our queenly self worth and goodness and also help to heal inner punisher and critic energies inside of us that we’ve received from birth family and our 3D culture.

To be with a king man is to feel that he is holding his OWN emotional process and soul growth and physical health. Raphael holds space for himself firstly and primarily. He ‘goes in’ when he needs to in order to feel what needs to be felt or experienced. Yet, also, he is very respectful and responsive to my intuitions and sense of what might be going on for him and even to guidance that comes through me. He leads his OWN process though, so it isn’t about me taking care of him, or being on his ‘side’ or making sure that he grows or about trying to change him. That movement is happening on its own inside of him and it overflows into our USness ground. This allows me to ‘relax’ and be with myself and my own process and to also respond to our USness too.

To be with a king man is to be called into our own growth and process as women. It invites us to open our own hearts wider to match the man’s vulnerability in every moment. It invites us to feel the masculine protector aspects of us as women that guard our sexuality, our vulnerability, our femininity and to negotiate with these energies to be more available for ourselves and for the union. It invites us to KEEP waking up and to keep growing. It invites us into the conscious duality dance and all its richness of experience that flows from within us and then into union WITH him! It invites us to experience in visceral way, a real and grounded way, our expression as Infinite Love as reflected to us through the heart and soul of our king man mate!

One way the potential to BE a king man can be realized is through the SoulFullHeart way of life and process that we offer connecting very directly with aspects of the self that arise from the emotional body and integrating soul aspects from other lifetimes as well through space holding sessions, group calls, and community support. Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman (another king man!) are hosting a men’s group call this saturday for the exploration into these king man frequencies through the SoulFullHeart perspective: https://www.facebook.com/events/1257237587706349/

Also, join us for a SoulFullHeart group call about sacred union on May 13th with a guided meditation and teachings offering sacred union frequencies and activations: https://www.facebook.com/events/1320873934656373/

 

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book,Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Flight of the Angel King

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Spread your wings my Gaia born angel son

Release those weakening Earth worn binds

That keep you anchored, torn, and done

Feel the lift from within your effervescent spirit

That sings loud and proud of your childhood days

Where the only things that truly mattered

Were the things that mattered not

Taste the bittersweet tears of moments passed

Of the pain that was buried deep inside

The part that protected you from receiving more

Than what you could dare to bare.  

You have been saved for this particular time

This unique love sworn moment

To inhabit all you were meant to be

In the quest for the infinite sea

Join in union within your battled scars

The mating call of your deepest desire

The road less traveled yet traveled far

To the greatest heights of the Heart´s burning fire.

Take that golden chalice my glory sown king

To the shores of your not so distant brothers

Shine the destined light of days yet still forgotten

The time when love reigned and beauty retained

Call to your heavenly and star crossed Queen

With the poems of your deepest passion

The song of your strengthening yet still fragile heart

That opens the gateway to a universe henceforth unseen

This is your only duty, my son

The only reason to BE

Open that magical door of your once hidden heart

To days of unknown treasures and uniting the souls of HE.  

 

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

WITH You: Poem Celebrating Sacred Union

By Jelelle Awen

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WITH you, I feel the female, the feminine expression, the yin vibration
that activates in response to YOU

WITH you, I taste what ‘can and could be’ for ALL sacred unions, the potential and capacity of this magical dance

WITH you, I span to the stars, touching galaxies again, returning to my cosmic roots

WITH you, I feel SO cherished for the human woman I have chosen to BE AND for the vast SOUL that I AM

WITH you, I am desired in every arising form, in every change, in every transmutation that moves through me AS me

WITH you, I remember that I cannot be alone yet have chosen separation in order to experience this dance of duality

WITH you, I find ME….in the flow of our USness, I remember that we are ONE and yet not the same

Jelelle Awen….for Raphael Awen
Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc.

The Tug of Love

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You desire, wish, and sometimes physically ache for Love with another

It is encoded in our human heart and every cell in our body

But to call on Love is to call on You

To be ready, but not prepared, to show up for all that arises in each moment

For there is no planning true love

The fire of this passion and want can be met with meeting that INside

The swirling cauldron of your own Self Lover´s Love

Along with the fear that it is actually on its way

And the fear that it may never show up

It is all part of the terrifyingly majestic dance

That enters your world without warning and sets you ablaze

To find yourself opening up the hiding places

The ones only you visited or never knew existed.  

It can be a tug of war this tug of Love

This precarious tightrope of exalted dizzying heights

At the edge of what lies under the chasm of complete unknowing

The difference between falling and flying

Is how much you trust in your own ability to let it in

And give it out

The courage to see yourself in your Glory as well as your Fury

To trust that Love kNOWs better and everything that you thought yourself to be

Will no longer BE the same.  

As you have the chance to experience something Rarified

Undefined

…and Intensified by your own willingness to surrender to its calling.  

 

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com