You Are The Royalty That Creates your Own Reality

ByΒ  Raphael Awen

We see now how reality is a totally created thing. We sure see it in the main stream, which is just that, a stream that conjures up a reality.

The word reality has a strange original connection to the word royalty. The Royals are the ones who can dictate reality. The secret is that you are the royalty who creates your own reality. And the next secret is that you are already doing this every day, every hour, every minute. When you get real, you get royal!

This isn’t something you need to go meditate in a cave alone for 13 years to attain this super human capacity. You are this by design and always were.

The powers that be have known this since the beginning of time. Time now for you and I to assume our own forgotten power, to allow to arise an ever new reality to broadcast from who and what we are.

There’s never been a more leveraged time like now to face and take responsibility for this creative force that you are.

Got anything else worth doing?

Raphael Awen

(The Pic above is from the area we are camping in, in Portugal this summer)

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

No Return To Normal

ByΒ  Raphael Awen

There is no returning to normal from here going forward.

Hoping to return to normal is a big part of what keeps people compliant, asleep and underneath that, very deeply scared.

There IS a shit ton to be concerned about, if not scared about, that is if you’re willing to take an honest stock of what we are being faced with more and more with each passing day.

We are in the middle of a population reduction, medical eugenics experiment in the form of the bioweapon, falsely referred to as the va((ine, being foisted upon us by some of the darkest forces imaginable, who are much higher up than the slime bucket psyborg politicians who are held hostage to be the face of this agenda.

I’ve shared a lot in my recent writings about how love is the ultimate source of everything, including even this heightening duality at hand. It all came from love and it’s all returning to love. That’s the bigger picture and context that all this is happening in, in my view. There is no battle between good and evil that is pending an outcome or a winner. Love hasn’t won, because love never entered any battle.

But the shit is still flying, while this duality drama has its way in consciousness and in you and I. The pending winner or loser here and now, is you, even as you cannot ever be separated from love and ultimately, can’t lose. Both are true.

Your future, your soul purpose, what really matters to you in this life at hand is very much at stake, very much pending an outcome.

How long will you allow others to make up your mind?

How long will you falsely put others before yourself at your own expense?

How long will you create your own suffering in the name of kindness?

Choice fast becomes the real currency and ultimately the only currency that matters, making you agile to respond to this abnormalized world, to take the journey that your soul orchestrated for you to take.

What choices are before you now?

How do you tell the difference between soul guidance and simple anxiety about the future?

I believe that if you ask for divine guidance, you have it available to you. Even your anxiety about the future can be an indicator and a part of the guidance as you embrace a choice and feel how acting on that choice either heightens or relieves the anxiety.

Then what makes the biggest difference I’ve learned is getting to know the part of you who’s holding the anxiety. When you do this, an anxiety problem becomes an anxiety solution, a portal to a much bigger you, and a portal to an oh-so-much brighter universe.

Thank God for your anxiety! Let it tell you of its fears and desires. Let it become your sacred friend. Let it transmute as it gets felt and loved in your heart space.

What else have you got to do that could even begin to compare? What else might you do that would even begin to add up as a contribution to the world around you?

Raphael Awen

(The pic above is from our camp here this summer in Portugal)

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Relationships Provide The Ground For Our Learning And Growth

ByΒ  Raphael Awen

Every relationship we have and their unfolding circumstances, whether with another person, or a thing or an institution is the ground of our learning, our growth.

Relationships are our spiritual teacher, that we can either tune into to our gain or ignore to our loss.

We were born into duality, the world of good and bad, desirable and undesirable, and that is what creates experience.

Experience calls for preference and choice. Experience is also the ground of our joy and our irritation. Without experience, we wouldn’t grow, there would be no need for growth as we would be in a world of full attainment, quite possibly bored as hell at the same time.

Would pure joy be pure joy if it was the only mode you are capable of, if there was nothing to compare it to, to help define it as desirable?

The human experience is one of polarities and dualities. Many seek to avoid this by pursuing a β€˜nondual awakening’ as a kind of spiritual attainment and making that a medication to help them avoid the feeling and learning that duality wants to teach them. Yes, duality was born out of non-duality, and non-duality may well be our our upstream reality and higher essence, but we chose to be here in duality, so the invitation is to be here now, where we are, receive the learnings and expansions that we could receive no other way.

We find lots of duality right inside of ourselves, one part of us posturing to be seen a certain way and dead scared of operating out of that familiar mode and another part of us desperately wanting to just drop-the-fucking-role already!

Can we embrace this duality within, and become an ambassador to each part of us and get to know them and their realities without making one right and the other wrong?

It’s about reconciling our dualities in this way, not eliminating them.

All stress can be traced to the garden variety of lying that we all participate in, needing to seen a certain way; having it together in a way that doesn’t match the actual reality within. This stress becomes more like a psychosis the longer it is ignored and not faced.

Facing it however, with choice, with love, with curiosity and an opening heart brings us into realms of experience we never thought possible. It changes everything.

Raphael Awen

(The pic above is from nearby our camp this summer in Geres, Portugal)

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The Sacred Choices Before You Now.

ByΒ  Raphael Awen

Part of me is feeling glad and excited for the meltdown of life as we’ve known it playing out every day now.

Something in my heart and soul told me something was way off decades ago when I felt pushed reluctantly into adult life. The adults were sweeping shit under the rug on every hand like there was no tomorrow way back then. I tried at times to participate, but felt repeatedly called to something different, as well as just plain shit at participating or succeeding in the shitshow.

This has been one big anticipated meltdown, for such a long time. As a young man, I recall the verses from the book of Revelation about ’no man being able to buy or sell without the mark of the beast in their foreheads or wrist, with the added injunction of β€˜let him who has wisdom count the number of the beast, which is 666’.

Eventually, I came to find that my beloved Christianity, that helped me awaken in many ways, was just about as in the ditch and co-opted as anything else.

β€˜They’ have been wanting to get this show on the road for a long time and now it is truly showtime. The acts are lined up, it’s all or nothing. There is no turning back. We are in a birth canal.

It’s not the only show however on the stage. Great darkness is always contrasted with great light while we are in this phase of contrast. Love is actually funding both sides of this apparent war between good and evil, with a grand agenda at hand.

The agenda is you and I, and everyone around us waking up to more of what we are. There isn’t actually and ultimately a β€˜they’ and an β€˜us’. Even the sleepwalkers and zombies surrendering to the altering of their DNA in a kind of Stockholm Syndrome response of welcoming and helping their oppressors are all part of this great staging, and are a part of love’s unfolding story.

You can however choose what polarity you’d like to be a part of and cheer on, from wherever you find yourself now, but you can’t actually separate yourself from the other side. There’s only one container, and there’s no compartments or sides.

I’d actually be quite scared right now as events reach fever pitch if I believed that good was raging a do or die battle against evil, where everything good could be lost forever. Love hasn’t actually won or lost. It never entered the battle. It only staged the battle for its own expansion of itself into the infinite awareness and abundance that it is.

It can’t stop itself. It wants more and won’t stop at anything to have this more, not at the expense of anyone or anything, but only at the aggrandizement of itself, to itself, of the ALL of which you and I ARE.

That’s the bigger picture, and It breeds a ton of relief in me. I feel sorry for those posted out on the edges of darkness or the light who believe that life and love are actually at stake. Coming to this realization is where our unity and our forgiveness can come into play. Love is willing to pick up the tab for it all.

But the shitshow is ramping up now every day, and parts of you are forced to make choices. Expecting life to remain the same might be the most debilitating influence upon your wellbeing.

You have sacred and very grounded choices to make that your soul knows well what they are. You don’t need my prescription or anyone else’s, whether you should do this or that. You know. You’ve always known.

It’s time to let go of following others’ prescriptions, unless you are part of the show that’s staging that necessary part of the contrast. You can prescribe your own medicine.

The vaxxed are fast becoming the vexed, realizing the lies they were fed and subjected to, as they come to terms with what is being proven to be lifelong alterations to their well-being. We’ve been vaxxed with so many things and realities for so long, long before the vax at hand. All of those games were necessary to precede the plot the plotters have prepared for this hour.

How much interference do you need to choose your own power? How much playing by others rules do you need to make up your own game? If you’re going to create your own game, what would you want it to be about? How much do you need to lose to take up the sacred power of your own choice, the one thing that no oppressor anywhere can take from you?

Your soul chose to be alive here in this dimension for this culmination of the times. There’s nothing more powerful than you choosing you, your truth, your prescriptions, your yes and your no. It will cost you dearly, but it will pay you back a hundredfold and more.

If there’s anything else out there that feels more appealing for you, then that’s for your soul to play out, for some good reason, and love will hold all of that too, regardless of how much I might cringe to see you walk that out. You don’t answer to me or anyone else. You answer to you.

The green light before you will lead to the next one. The red lights will also be a part of the guidance. You get to choose how proximal you want to be and for what reasons. You don’t have to convince anyone of anything either if that feels like a trap, or simply not your definition of fun. Every soul knows and is playing out their sacred script.

Everything is changing. Love has birthed all of this. It’s unstoppable. The bigger catastrophe was you and I being expelled from the Eden of the divine bliss oneness bliss that we were (and actually still are in individuated form). The β€˜catastrophe’ at hand is the coming back together of what has been separated.

The darkness is willing to be passionate it, willing to look maniacal and even plain stupid in their participation. How willing are you to fly your own colors for this coming together?

I doubt there will ever be a drama this big on this planet after this one. This changes everything. It may even get a bit boring. If you want a piece of this action, then choose it, however that looks for you!

Much love to you as you walk out your sacred and profound part of this grand story.

Raphael Awen.

The pic above is from yesterday here in where we’ve been guided to, in Portugal, as part of where we are meant to be and want to be to ride out the birth canal we are all in and share.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Divine Mother’s Guidance On Being

ByΒ  Raphael Awen

Are you able to feel good about yourself before and without doing anything to feel good about yourself?

That’s the question a part of me is entertaining today.

It has always felt good to this part of me to be achieving something, moving some kind of index forward. There’s been a bunch of layers of indexes upon indexes that I’ve used in my life, a whole dashboard of levers and dials to monitor, control, respond, and ultimately, receive a reward from.

At one time, it was things like home improvement or business building. More recently, it has been more spiritually and emotionally oriented to something akin to a higher level of personal improvement, attaining a higher level of consciousness. I can see and feel however, where I’ve been still beholden to the old orientation of feeling good about myself because I did something positive.

β€˜It’s all still doing and achieving’ this part of me says!

Learning how to be centered, in joy, grateful, or whatever other prescription one can come up with is still a prescription, a means to improve one’s condition or fate, and thus feel better about oneself.

Problem is though, now, that efforting in order to feel better about myself is fast losing its appeal and natural seeming effortless energy, and has been for some time. It used to work quite well. It appeared it would hold me for life. It doesn’t anymore. To this part of me, it has felt like a slow and ongoing death. Now, however, it’s beginning to look and feel much more appealing.

What could an alternative look like? And how would I relate to that alternative without trying to β€˜apply’ it, as another more sophisticated kind of personal improvement that promises me something, leaving me squarely in this same old predictable, safe and shrinking territory?

What would moving from a life of expectation and knowing to a life of the unexpected and living in the unknown look and feel like?

As this part of me asked Divine Mother this morning more about this ongoing dilemma, the response came back.

β€˜Doing and achieving was a way that you could justify receiving love in the past. It was all love, but you just couldn’t accept it without giving something in exchange to feel worthy of it. You received the love in the form of some improvement and that always felt good.

β€˜There was nothing wrong with that, it’s just the phase you needed to go through, complete in order to be ready to enter this next phase.

β€˜Life is always improving you could say, but it β€˜does’ this effortlessly by allowing both death and rebirth. Life allows inbreath and outbreath, increase and decrease.

β€˜What is before you now is the opportunity to simply let in the love without equating it to any deserving of it, or to any earning of it. It is a graduation that you can’t graduate with, or measure, or set a timer to. It simply is because you are.

β€˜Receiving this love is akin to feeling worshipped. Feeling yourself receiving divine love and grace, flowing to and through your being because that is who and what you are, in your deepest essence of being. Worthy. Not because you did anything, or demonstrated anything worthy. Not an exchange. Not a transaction.

β€˜Your sexual fantasies have often had this dream at root of them, being worshipped in this way, where an other can convey onto you sheer joy and pleasure simply because of love and life. In this you can recognize your wiring for this kind of experience.

β€˜Life and love wants to dance with you, play with you, focus on you, share with you, draw you into pleasure, into its more. This is the new phase before you.

β€˜The old lays dying all around you. The new arises right in the midst of it all. Allow it to greet you and usher you into the life you’ve always dreamed of, and into who you always were, are and will be.

Much love,

Raphael Awen

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The pic above are part of the the view from the campsite where Jelelle and I seem to settling into for the summer, living into adventure and unknown and new things to learn and feel, along with old layers to shed as well. Our beloveds arrive later this week and next! Gabriel Amara Kasha Rokshana Bianca Gieber

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

The Courage To Feel It All

If you’re willing to feel into the source of your depression and anxiety, rather than medicate it down, or cover it over, you are a rare and brave soul.

You are choosing a very courageous adventure and journey with some difficult pieces and some very outstanding realizations and embodiments that even most spiritual people are adverse to, whose spirituality is part of the necessary β€˜management’ of their β€˜condition’.

Where did we get the idea that one who has depression or anxiety has something wrong with them? Your humanity was birthed out of your divinity and then veiled from that divine source. Of course, you would feel something about that; a loss; a trauma at a deep core level. Of course, you would have attachments and traumas to things and relationships in your past.

Feeling into the deeper source of loss is entering a portal that feels very scary, like you will be swallowed whole, made completely powerless, unable to even effort the pain management scheme any longer that has sort of worked up till now, back into total loss and darkness.

Why would anyone choose such a journey?

Short answer – simply because it’s the next piece of growth for you, where nothing else affords any growth or meaning.

Many, and by far most, are nowheres near that place. If you are, it’s going to feel like going it alone, which is a big part of the initiation and your personal individuation.

It is your deepest service to the collective, as an explorer of consciousness, as a lover of love.

You are this big of a soul. Time now to build your sanctuary of deep personal and divine connection.

What else is there really and truly worth doing, especially at a time such as this?

You are the bright, bright, bright light of god.

*****

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

SoulFullHeart Museletter: July 3, 2021

The energies of the ongoing C*VID narrative continue to bring through lots of leverage for our individual awakening experiences. These experiences of realigning with the Divine, letting in our guidance, and following through with what we feel to be true and real, is a monumental task in some ways and so very important. In this issue’s featured article, Jelelle Awen offers a bigger picture view of why it’s so important, perhaps more so now than ever before, to truly live into our Divine guidance as we navigate everything that we’re facing in this ongoing Matrix peak and collapse.

In this issue you’ll also find some new articles from all of us, digesting our experiences of visiting Avebury Stone Circle and a crop circle too in the UK a few weeks before we all left for Portugal. A few articles also share about what we’ve been feeling and letting in as we land in Portugal and things heat up considerably around C*VID and the j@b.

We created a couple of new videos for you from our time in Avebury and the nearby crop circle that showed up while we were in that area too.

You can subscribe to our Museletter by visiting our website: soulfullheart.org or taking a look at this issue via this link and clicking the β€˜subscribe’ button at the bottom of the page: https://mailchi.mp/91f946ab5af9/soulfullheart-museletter-an-important-time-to-tune-into-divine-guidance?e=e10cd5f26e

Much love from all of us!

~ The SoulFullHeart Community

A Time For Sorrow And A Time For Joy

By  Raphael Awen

A time for sorrow and a time for joy. Collectively, it feels very much like we are entering a dark night of sorrow and loss of life.

As we mourn the loss of life that we are now being faced with on an unprecedented scale from the experimental jab designed to reduce population, and come through the necessary reactions of fear and anger and waking up, we come to a threshold of sorrow and mourning.

Beautiful beings of all ages, on all continents, of all genders, full of life force are dying. Many are being permanently injured. The jabbed and the un-jabbed are being faced with affronts to their immune systems on a scale that can’t be known or measured.This means that life as we’ve known it is all up for profound reconsideration. 

Like the patient who receives a prognosis of a very short lifespan, what made sense yesterday, doesn’t make any sense now.

At first for many of us, the rumbles will be disbelief. The comfort of our familiar life and the threat of change will be like the people sailing on the Titanic. Who wants to get in a cold lifeboat at the direction of some fear monger when the ship still looks and feels so much better, and so indestructible and has the guarantee of so many experts.

Personally, having landed in Portugal this past week, having threaded a needle, arriving here without a demand to quarantine or a test, I feel my heart breathing into this grief. Reading about the injuries and deaths and the expectation of a huge rising tide of more of the same feels staggering as I ask for guidance about the set of my sails now. What matters now? What does service look and feel like now? What does a fear based self preservation response look like that seeks to minimize personal loss look like?

All of us strangely are being asked to give up aspects of life as we’ve known it, and be participants in this death. The refusal to let something die will only speed up its demise.

New life is coming and it comes through death. Mourning is what allows the reconciliation to be expedited in you and those around you.

(The picture above is taken this week from sitting on the banks of the Minho River that forms the border with Spain here in Northern Portugal. The opposite bank is Spain. The setting made for a really good place to feel what’s asking to be felt now.)

Much Love,

Raphael

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

We are now offering our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a private virtual gathering place for sharing exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal for a membership fee of $14.99 USD a month: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

From Stone Circle To Crop Circle: Messages & Seeds Of Divine trust & Ongoing Support

by Kasha Rokshana

On Monday, Jelelle, Raphael, Gabriel, and I set out for our second visit to Avebury Henge, the largest ancient stone circle in the EU, which we had been planning for a while. We had planned an overnight trip together so that we could take our time at Avebury and then see what arose for the next day. None of us were very clear on what we wanted to do or were being guided to see, we just felt that Avebury had more magic to offer us since our very first trip there at the beginning of our time in the UK.

Avebury

Well, it turned out to be a major gateway into the new for us… the deepening invitation into Divine alignment and trust as we make our way into our next phase in Portugal. It was sweet, tender, comforting, and grounding to touch the stones… not so activating as it was the very first time we visited. We are more calibrated to these lands now, it seems, and we’ve definitely gotten the soul discoveries, awakenings, and healing experiences that we came here for and to serve love from.

On Tuesday we were on our way to what we thought would be our next destination visiting Uffington and the White Horse etched into the hill there… but then came an intuition from Jelelle to check out Crop Circle Connector. We had been hoping and praying that since we were staying where crop circles usually show up this time of year, we would be able to go to one while in the area… well, as soon as I checked online, there was a crop circle waiting for us about 34min from where we were! It felt surreal at first, yet the reality of the adventure, the brand new experience, set in quickly and everything inside of me felt excited and ready.

Shaw Hill Crop Circle – the one we visited

Finding the coordinates for the circle took a bit of effort, and when I did finally find them, there was a tiny ache of doubt in my heart that they would work out in the end. Even though they seemed β€˜verified’, there was a small fear that for us, for some reason, they wouldn’t work, and the magical experience that we all wanted to claim wouldn’t come true.

Well, that’s sort of been my experience of life lately, even though I’ve had such deep trust in the Divine and in life that has truly led me through many challenges and into very new experiences, synchronicities, and a magical rediscovery of my very own soul. So much tension has had to move through my physical body, manifesting in pain that had me in tears. Completely locked up were my muscles, fascia, joints. I’ve very consciously been holding this process of moving from tension into trust… a trust that has to go deeper than ever, as the unknowns of living in the growing intensity of peaking global fear and reactivity as the Matrix continues its collapse needs to be navigated.

I felt my Star Seed all lit up though as we entered the field, and I knew she knew that our connection to Star/Inner Earth Mu family would lead us to it, even when doubts would creep in.

I eventually started walking directly behind Raphael who I could feel had a strong intuition he was following on where to go. I could feel my god-baby self toddling along behind his, ready to discover magic. Sure enough and soon enough, we arrived… and that feeling was like a WOOSH of energy passing over the body! Relief, validation, and a reminder that trust and intuition are key, all waved through and over me at once.

The gently lain crop looked like ocean waves and rivulets rolling through in perfect harmony. They were bent but not broken. An outer will had been applied to them, but they had collaborated and not fought against it. Harmony, yes, that’s a great way to describe their energy.

When we entered the centre point, there was a toroidal, spiraling pattern created by the gently bent crop. It culminated in the absolute centre where the energy was strongest. We all paused to sit in a circle around it and feel what we were being offered in the moment. My Inner Earth Lemurian aspect, Myren, came forward with a message to share about the sweetness and innocence of desire for magic and the trust that actually can feel quite natural. Trusting the guidance while also taking care of yourself, feeling yourself, along the way.

Crop Circle glow!

I felt her and my Star Family, especially the Pleaidians who it feels like helped create this circle, validating the experience of doubt and tension along this ongoing journey of unplugging from the Matrix we were born into and are meant to help collapse with love. I felt them honouring the leap-of-faith that is required to remain here on this planet while also reaching for the higher-dimensional experiences we also need to continually let in. I felt how much love and support we are all being offered, always, and how they leave these works of art as a transmission and reminder of that ongoing support.

It’s comforting to feel that, isn’t it?

I feel all of this and so much more still integrating from the experience… the codes offered by such a creation are both subtle and obvious, as they go into us on so many levels at once! It feels as if they offer us all such personal messages that we need to hear and feel, yet also they offer such global and collective ones that can be interpreted in many different ways.

We have access to such healing and love, and we have only to ask for the support to help us let it in as it seeds something new from deep within us that can only grow, bloom, and spread with proper care.

Love to you, with you, always…
Kasha

***

Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

From Self-Created Smallness To Embodying Your Vastness

The pain can come from being small. From learning to act small and conform to the smallness around you. The suffering comes from their projection of smallness onto you and the acceptance of this that then becomes your reality….and theirs too. It is a co-created agreement to be and remain in smallness.

The smallness is the 3D agreement of filtering. It makes up the veil of amnesia and the belief in it keeps the veil in place. The pain comes from the long term fusion to this sense of smallness as the truth of who you are. It comes from the forgetting of the truth of your VASTNESS.

Parts of you form to support this smallness picture. These parts of you repeat the message of it over and over in self punishing tones and voices. The unworthiness message battles your body, your emotions, your spirituality, your choices….whatever can be picked on or is vulnerable to attack.

This punishing frequency forms layers of protection and guardedness over your innocence. Your innocence becomes covered over with shame and feelings of wrongness. Your trust in life and yourself gets layered over with distrust. Your sense of goodness about yourself becomes buried over with unworthiness and self hate.

These parts of you feel then that they ARE unworthy, are shameful, are wrong by their very nature. So much suffering in this usually unconscious looping of the punisher part and the corresponding reactions of shame in the younger parts of you. This is a well oiled and fuelled system inside designed to keep you small, created to cap your growth, and reinforced to maintain itself. It is designed to keep you protected, even if it is limiting.

There is not some evil force of aliens or demons or negative entities or abusive spiritual teacher that keep this personal hell in manifest form from within you. This is not being done to you BY others, even as it can very much feel that way. The others in your life that reflect and reinforce this smallness picture are there only to offer you a reflection of this inner polarized state for it continue to come into your awareness….over and over again if necessary until you wake to it as being sourced from INSIDE of you.

This is a self created smallness that your soul chose for good reason….until it is the time and phase to complete it. Only you can realize when that time is and only you can end it.

You end it by bringing love to all the parts of you that have felt so unworthy, including the parts of you that punish, judge, attack, and shame you and others. You separate from these parts in order to have a relationship with them and not just become them in their routinized reactions.

This creates an increasing sense of your goodness, of your worthiness and….of your vastness. This inner ambassadorship to all frequencies inside of your BEing connects you to the truth of your bigness again. To your innate goodness again. To your innocence again.

Who ARE you? You ARE Infinite Love in human form….arising into your bigness expression for the service of and because of love. Any picture less than that is ripe to be loved into this infinite love realized manifestation state again.

Welcome back to the VASTNESS of you….love can show the way!! ~

Message from the Divine, Star Family Guides/Aspects, Angelic Aspects, ALL of your parts that ache for something NEW that is based in love……..

*****

Jelelle Awen is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador and Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheart.org