A Wrap-Up

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By Leena Colibri

 

When it’s not a game anymore.
When the pieces have fallen out of place
And out of reach…

 

When the tides turn red and violet
With desire and spirituality
Both
That will be when I surf
Those waves of radical, changing material.

 

That will be when you can catch me
Turning to you
Within me
Within you.

 

I went to that place today… You know the one.

 

The question marks fall from your mouth
As you realize what you see
Is not what you hear In the furnace that burns
Inside your head.

 

Experience will teach
Will scar
Will tattoo
And I will be there to bring it all back inward
To a place where I can digest it

 

And you are welcome to the party
As usual
Whenever it comes to you
On feeling winds
That blow down your carefully placed
House of cards.

 

I don’t know if you’ll know me
When this phase is through,
But I do know
That the truth…
It lingers on and comes back.

 

I may not come back.

 

But rest assured I didn’t open you up for nothing…

 

Did you?

 

 
 
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 Leena Colibri is an apprentice facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.

It’s Ok To Not Be Ok: Giving Yourself Permission to Feel

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By Jelelle Awen

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By Jelelle Awen

I am sitting in the back seat of my parent’s car. I am looking out the window, my head turned away from the chaos in the front seat. I am looking out the window but I am not seeing any of the landscape. The tears that slide down my cheeks are silent. I have learned to cry without sound from many years of practice. I cannot completely numb my reactions to the tension, the negativity, and the hate that fills this car, that staggers from him and crawls from her. It has sharp teeth, harsh words, energy that cuts to the bone.

Part of me tries to protect me. Put up a shield. Put up a barrier. Create a bubble of light space around the growing girl. Tries to turn off the tap on the tears that flow from the pain of feeling like I do not belong. The craziness of feeling like this is not my family, cannot be my real family, not my soul family, not my family of heart. So eventually the tears go deep in, get buried, and my other feelings as well. And the part of me that protects my heart breathes a sigh of relief as a possible crisis of self revelation is avoided.

It starts so early, our conditioning to suppress our feelings, our emotional reality, and what our actual reactions to situations are in the moment. Through this conditioning and the pain of not being able to be real, we have to develop aspects of us that can fit in with the non-feeling environment around us. It is a necessary self defense mechanism. It just seems to happen so naturally and organically.

The message of, ‘It’s NOT ok to NOT be ok” is so strong in our culture. The conditioning around not expressing our feelings starts so young when children are first told not to have tantrums or to cry. Tantrums feel to me like releasing the unfelt emotional energy of the parents and the surroundings. We tantrum and then we reach a stage where, to get and keep love in the form of approval, we develop parts of us who become very good at suppressing what we are feeling. And parts of us who become very good too at form fitting our environment to not draw attention to ourselves and our vulnerability.

I described a scene above that encapsulates so much about why my defenses developed the way that they did. In my process through SoulFullHeart and previous subpersonality process work that I have done, I have ‘gone back’ to these moments of extreme hurt and pain through the aspects of me who became stuck there.

I sat in the car with the part of me that holds hurt and I felt her tears with her. I became the loving adult, heart filled with support and permission to feel, that she didn’t have at the time. And this version of me, no longer needing to be quiet or suppress her tears, could lean into this adult version of me. She could be felt and the pain from this moments and other moments like this could heal. And, I could become more current to myself.

To be able to go into places like this painful scene with parts of me has needed to be negotiated with the loyal and protective part of me. This has happened through a growing sense of trust that I will be able to ‘handle it and hold it’ and that it is safe to release it and feel it. Over time and development of our authentic self (or what we call the ‘SoulFullHeart Self’) protective parts of us begin to feel that they can relax their strong protection of us which can come in many different forms and energies. Through conscious negotiation with them, we can open our heart up more and let others in more deeply, also sharing ourselves more vulnerably and authentically. This leads to more experience of love transaction inside of ourselves and with others.

Through the SoulFullHeart work, you reach a place where you no longer really want to be around people who or in many environments where you can’t BE authentically with your feelings or express them in the moment. Or, you choose to stay home or go to a secluded spot in the woods…..somewhere you can feel yourself. It becomes the ultimate priority over ‘fitting in’. We have created a place and space inside and then as expressed in our community where it is truly OK to NOT be OK.

Sessions with us are just a practice ground for this dedication to yourself, to feeling, to being not OK if that is what is real, to be with the parts of you that resist feeling and why, and to be supported by someone else for it. And, eventually, this regular practice moves into and influences your choices in every day life in a natural and organic way where you are desiring to be authentic with those you are in relationship with and in whatever soul purpose-based vocation you are serving love through.

Jelelle Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information. 

 

The Hearth of My Opening Heart

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By Leena Colibri

 
 

Tremors move from your heart space to mine.
An overflow. A love place.
A warm hut with a burning fire.

 

I seek to understand what I cannot yet,
what I may not ever,
what I may know in spite of myself.

 

There is a garden behind the heart door.
A secret wooden manifestation of many years of collapsing memories and ever-arising lessons.
Love waits for me there,
with more surprises,
with tourniquets,
with salves,
with the ointment of new life and renewal of my essence’s light.

 

As the door creaks open wide,
I feel the dust fall from my shoulders, into my healing palms Where I can see it.
Where I can feel it.
Where I can touch its textures and hold it close
As it cries full tears of rippling red shadow pulses and black and blue figures dusty in their own rite
Peeling off the once invisible armors they treasured for so long.

 

Disarmed yet newly anchored in the safety of my own now opening heart
I rest amongst the silk cushions and wait by the roar of the fireplace
Until you come knocking.

 

After filling your pockets with your own dusty past and present
And rimming your heart with the sugar-coated candy of a caramel-filled chocolate,
Bringing your sticky-sweetness out to be tasted,
I will meet you here, my love.

 

In brightness and darkness, with sweets and savories I will wait.
I will work.
I will pry my heart open first for me,
Then for you,
And together we will find the fumbling and not-knowing
To be the greatest fun we ever had
And the biggest challenge we have ever faced,
And the greatest dragon we have ever owned on our own, Together, and with the Divine.

 
 

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 Leena Colibri is an apprentice facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.

Sacred Femininity and SoulFullHeart Woman Video With Jelelle Awen

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What is sacred femininity and SoulFullHeart Woman?

In this video, SoulFullHeart teacher Jelelle Awen talks to SoulFullHeart apprentice facilitator Leena Colibri about her perspective on the individual and collective expressions of femininity, which are actually mostly masculine in expression due to emotional and soul congestion blocks that form into subpersonalities or parts of us.

This dynamic can lead to women ‘self mating’ with this masculine side of themselves in expressions of warrior princess, priestess, and matriarchy tones, covering up the deeper feminine expressions of vulnerability, softness and stillness. Jelelle also offers the importance of sacred feminine templating from the Divine Feminine-Mother and to heal from wounded masculine templating from our primary female caregiver.

The arising of the authentic feminine is also an invitation for men to establish conscious connection with their inner femininity. Jelelle has facilitated female teens and women (and men) for several years and written three books about sacred femininity and her experiences with the Divine Mother. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about individual, couples, and group sessions with Jelelle and, for men, with her beloved mate Raphael.

Premise 21: Perfect Makes Practice!

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By Raphael Awen

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Welcome to the LAST day of this 21 day SoulFullHeart Magical Mystery Premises Tour.

I’m hoping all the mystery and magic of this tour opens out in a big way for you and I together in this last day together, like a grand finale of heart and soul fireworks somehow.

Today we explore the Processes and Practices Premise.

It goes like this:

“It is important to engage in regular (ideally every day) practices and processes to awaken your SoulFullHeart Self, including creative visualization meditation, journaling and verbal dialogue with your parts, sessions with your SoulFullHeart Facilitator, and chakra cleansing.”

But, you may well object, practice isn’t always fun or one’s first choice of things to engage in. I get that. We tend to have a big should and discipline energy around anything calling for practice. I’d like to see if we can begin to turn that around for you with this final tour day together in these words.

We’ve all heard the saying that ‘Practice makes perfect.’ I’d like to offer you a revision, or as we like to call it, a ‘reframe’, on that to ‘Perfect makes practice.’

You see, in your deepest essence, you are already right now as perfect as you ever will be. You can’t actually become anymore of the anythings that you desire spiritually. You were born out of perfection into perfection, as a soul, as a body, as a spirit, as a human. You can actually feel this frequency of your own perfection if you tune it in (and here comes the practice part) and practice it a bit.

You see, you can only practice what you are. You cannot practice to become. Practicing to become leaves you deflated and in a self-reliant limited picture.

Here’s an example. I’ve lived in Mexico for the last 2 years and have picked up just enough Spanish to transact the essentials. I’m no where’s close to conversational. In fact, a complete Spanish sentence trips me up, whether I’m hearing it or trying to patch it together to speak it. But the Spanish I speak, I speak with reverence and heart. When I transact words and meaning with the locals, there is a different frequency to it than the deadened use of language that all native speakers of any language tend to exude, where the miracle of linguistics languishes. So, in one way, I’m totally stumbling along, but in another way, because of my need, my open heart, and childlike willingness to be childlike; love transacts. So, I say, proudly, that I speak Spanish ‘muy bonita’ – very beautifully. But I’ve dropped off from doing much Spanish lessons, so how can this be seen as any kind of advocacy for practice?

My reverence for the Spanish language and willingness to be in child’s mind around language and letting life bring it to me on what many would call a snail’s pace is actually a surrender to not trying to ‘conquer’ the language. Anything conquered is by definition deadened, tamed, and stripped of its wild essence. I don’t want to speak Español muerte – dead Spanish. I want to speak Español viviendo – living Spanish! I’m actually working on relearning how to speak alive English. I want reverence and awe over a mental fluency where heart is diminished. My deeper practice is this reverence.

Let’s take this a step further. Perfect Spanish already exists. It’s a linguistic miracle born of indescribable creative life forces that is still being wave formed (tongue wagged) out into existence. I’m a part of that perfection life force that created Spanish for god’s sake! Not only am I a part of that, I AM that perfection. I cannot be separated from the creative life force of all living things….nada. So, then, I AM this perfected (and ever being perfected) Spanish out learning how to put 5 Spanish words together.

Both are true!

I AM all attainment that is out attaining. I AM all learning that is out learning. I AM all fire that is out seeking to consume and be consumed. I AM all Love that is out yearning for love.

That is practice. That is process. It is thee most stunningly alive way to live. Anything short of it isn’t actually living, as life itself is out learning. I practice what I am. I don’t practice to become. I do practice however to deepen my experience.

And it’s never over. The practice never ends. If Mozart stopped practicing, what would we know of him today? My sense is, is that if we could interview him today, he’d say he fell way short of ‘knowing’ music. The more one practices, the more one sees what there is more to know or learn.

So, how does this tie into SoulFullHeart? SoulFullHeart is a particular and ever expanding bandwidth frequency being generated, anchored and offered by a handful of people who are pretty much intoxicated with it. We’ve identified the practices and processes that are mentioned in this premise that are seen as key portals into this frequency that we are really keen on expanding. You can read more about them on our website at soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

If this resonates for you, I invite you deeply to hang around, and when and if you’re ready, to contact us about next steps. It is a way of life we are offering and not a therapy. So on one hand, some deep thought and feeling are in order, and on the other, you can also jump in and give it a try. There’s no signing your life away here, but simply engaging more and more as it self-verifies for you. Again, our sessions page is here:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you so much to every single one of you who took in this 21 day premises tour to whatever degree that you did. I feel like you are a spaceholder for this arising simply by having digested these premises into your heart. Again, thank you!

You can find all of my 21 days here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/categ…/soulfullheart-premises/

I’d love to hear about your digestions and unfolding interest and any questions too.

Heart hugs to you….

Raphael Awen is teacher, co-creator, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.

Premise 20: Accepting both light and dark inside of ourselves leads to balance

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By Raphael Awen

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Welcome to the 2nd last day of the 21 day SoulFullHeart Magical Mystery Premises Tour.

Today’s premise is both a stick of dynamite and a sleeping lamb, and we need both. It’s about the polarities that are present in reality, and even in what we call God, but so personally avoided and denied in spiritualities, faiths, politics (if that’s of any interest) and especially in our relationship to ourselves. Here’s the premise.

“The universe is made up of polarities. Balance is gained by accepting both light and dark-shadow in the Universe and inside of ourselves rather than suppressing the negative or rejecting it as not coming from the Divine.”

When we begin as I did in my life with a deep Christian worldview that God is only and all light, then we have to relegate all darkness to an enemy outside of God. It of course follows then to be ‘godly’ as we strove to be, we needed to ‘overcome’ the darkness inside of ourselves, as well as to embody only the light as much as possible.

This picture finds ground in our heart whether in Christianity or just in common sense because of the portion of truth that lives there. Human decency and even healthy self-interest lead us to kindness, care and respect over hatred, bitterness and anger. We have a deep inborn and innate desire to grow towards the Infinite Love that is the source and only root of all things. But all that doesn’t mean these ‘negatives’ don’t live in us, the universe, society, or the gods we fashion. Half a truth is still a lie.

When we come to accept that we all have a shadow and that there is nothing ‘wrong’ with our shadow, so much moves in our growth and personal healing path. While we deny or suppress the shadow, and strive only to get to know our light, we actually are only half human. Half humans are insane humans, who dine on half truths.

While in this half-human state of our personal suppressed shadow, we flail about being buffeted by others whose shadows we can’t see. Who we have and esteem as friends, mentors, and teachers, and to whom we even bestow the beloved name of ‘family’ alike are then also others who are polarized to this shadow suppression. We can’t see and feel the degree of toxicity that is alive and well and effecting us deeply, let alone effectively set our boundaries in regards to it. When we can’t own and take personal responsibility for our own shadow, we are left out from seeing and dealing with 1/2 of reality.

People and teachers drawn to the non-dual often have this suppression of the shadow as a motive ground for their draw. The polarities of light and dark are after all deep dualities. How I feel this reconciles is that duality is birthed out of non-duality. Non-dual oneness needed duality as a way to get to know its infinite nature. It birthed us as soul beings, and individuals, expressions of both duality and non-duality. If that’s not a pretzel, I don’t know what is, but it is our magical essence that we are here to grow, learn and heal. You already have it in essence and you have yet to enter it in experience.

Here, until we come to terms with this pretzel, one can feel as they get deeper into their existential healing a deep anger at God, or the universe for being subjected to such flights of fancy. Where does one file anger at God or the universe if they can’t recognize a shadow in themselves?

A whole human is a balanced human, knowing, feeling, and healing all that is in their light and their dark. Now, we no longer need to polarize to dualizing Christianity or non-dual Oneness teachings as a way to escape the shadow and polarity that is in the very fabric of the universe, and that resides in all of us. (not just Donald Trump)

The shadow by its very nature is difficult to see, for it is after all the shadow. How SoulFullHeart accesses the shadow is by getting to know parts of ourselves as subpersonalities that are invested in our dark, rather than our light. These are precious parts of us, that hold our very equilibrium of being intact. We cannot root them out with an exorcism in Jesus’ name, or an Ayahuasca trip to oneness. We feel them and get to know them in an act of profound self love and self intimacy. I don’t know of a better way to end our relationship with this half human expression that currently is both so popular, as well as collapsing in our collective consciousness.

If you’d like to work directly with myself, Jelelle Awen or Sequoia Heartmanas a way to begin your own SoulFullHeart process, please check out our sessions page here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

It is so exciting to feel people finding their own inner dynamite and their sleeping lamb both in their sacred autonomy.

Also, I welcome your comments, and even more so, your questions. This subject touches on so much that I didn’t attempt to explain, but left room for your quester to question, and hopefully for us to find a deeper way together.

Raphael Awen is a teacher, facilitator and co-creator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.

Premise 18: Communal Living In SoulFullHeart Community Offers Deepest Path To SoulFullHeartenment

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By Raphael Awen

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Well, today’s premise writing should prove engaging, for many it will be controversial, but for you, I hope it makes your heart dance. Welcome to day 18 of the 21 day SoulFullHeart Magical Mystery Premises Tour.

The premise is called the ‘SoulFullHeart Community Premise’ and it goes this:

“SoulFullHeart communal living arrangements at a sustainable sanctuary offer the deepest path of SoulFullHeartenment.”

Our western and industrialized societies are so marked by a deep isolation and anonymity, and loneliness. There is little ground to be authentic or to practice authenticity in such a separated society. We feel we don’t matter and for good reason, in many ways, we don’t. Social media wars in comment boxes are a good evidence of this deep angst in our modern way of life. We’ll even take quarrelling as a means of connection. In our current technological society we have more means to connect than we’ve ever had, yet meaningful connection feels to be in the shortest supply it’s ever been in.

But on the other hand, most of us are not drawn, consciously at least, to something that we would call a ‘communal living arrangement’ either. So, what might this be about?

SoulFullHeart offers that since it was in our first experience of communal living arrangements, namely the family, or whatever semblance thereof, where our wounding occurred, it makes a ton of sense that parts of us would work hard to never again get in a situation so vulnerable and so painful. With these wounds left gaping and unhealed, any kind of personal relationship becomes too big of a challenge to find true intimacy in. We again settle for crumbs and call that enough.

But as we get to know, feel, and heal the parts of ourselves that were wounded deeply in our family of origin dynamics, we find that we can’t heal in isolation. Our wounds didn’t occur in isolation and our healing doesn’t either. We actually find that we need relationship as well as want deep relationship and meaningful connections as expressions of deepening self love.

SoulFullHeart goes further than just highlighting the need for meaningful connections to advocate for a communal living arrangement of sharing life together. Without a communal living arrangement, we are simply left too isolated and separated to find the healing ground we need for the deeper processes of the SoulFullHeart healing path. How that communal living arrangement looks and feels is an ongoing discovery as well an ongoing experiment that changes as more people are drawn.

Currently, we are four of us living in a single residence in Puerto Vallarta. The single residence part of it is more about what our budget can afford. Much more ideally, we see separate living spaces for people and couples with shared meals and projects in a communal space, and this will, of course, become necessary as we grow and more people are drawn to join us.

A distinct piece for us with the four us though has been living from a single pot of money. That is probably the biggest challenge as well as the greatest gift to our healing journey to work out all the rigours that this entails emotionally. For me personally, this is an amazing time as primary income for our living expenses have come from Leena Colibri‘s and Sequoia Heartman‘s on line work teaching English as well as Jelelle Awen‘s SoulFullHeart facilitation sessions. I’m having a time of letting in being supported by others to pursue what is my deeper calling as a SoulFullHeart teacher after letting go of a career and livelihood in Canada. Somehow, we feel that until a community can share money, some bedrock of community hasn’t quite formed.

There are others beyond the four of us that we are currently serving through sessions who if they choose to continue in the SoulFullHeart healing path, we see and hope for them to be naturally being drawn to community living. We feel the desire for community is something actually native to all humanity, even as we work our separation issues and necessary individuation healing growth as well.

Then, we see that a sustainable sanctuary is what we feel to keep our hearts set on. Two years ago, the four of us purchased a plot on an off grid ranch in Mexico where we lived for 18 months, busy with gardening and natural building until just 11 weeks ago. With Leena and Sequoia leaving a bit earlier than that as they drew English teaching jobs online. Our needs for money to live on and a call to serve SoulFullHeart’s unfolding drew us back to living for now in the city. But our vision remains clear for a sustainable sanctuary. We see our present industrial society as going through a slow collapse and are ready to make sudden changes as needed.

It’s so interesting to feel deep changes in the core of what we feel life is about, what a community is, how healing occurs, and all of that timed with the demise of industrial society. This should make for a awesome ride if we can open our hearts, dare to want what we want, and hold a space for it to arise.

That sacred space and that sacred something we want from it we call ‘SoulFullHeartenment’. It’s a term we made up obviously and so is the essence of it. It’s something different than awakening or enlightenment and something different than a therapy or healing modality, so we took the liberty to make up a new word for the thing we took the liberty of creating! Or maybe with a bit more humility, we could say that we felt the Divine wants to create through us.

But then, the Divine isn’t distinct from us in another way, so we’re back to something that looks like surrender, yet without abdication of desire and embodiment. We are all called I feel to live out our dreams and desires fully, not suppress them in the name of any misguided spirituality. For us, that’s about a communal living arrangement.

You can read more about what SoulFullHeartenment is about as I discussed it early on in another premise here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/premise-2-mature-the-ego-a…/

This is a big deal, isn’t it? Many people we share about SoulFullHeart with of course ask us what is it with our ‘community living thing’ with some noticeable reservation. We understand where that’s coming from as we’ve wrestled with our own conflicts together as well as needs for individual space and autonomy.

If this rings bells and sets off an orchestra inside you, I’d like to, and we’d like to, get on with building just that together. The doorway in though isn’t socializing. It’s more about learning a new way of being truly social and we offer that through sessions in person or over Skype as we seek to integrate more and more towards this picture of community. Our sessions info is here…..http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thanks again for your interest and curiosity.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information. 

Premise 19: Chakras Offer A Direct Link To Physical, Emotional, and Spiritual Health

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By Raphael Awen

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‘God Morning’ to you and welcome to day 19 of the 21 day SoulFullHeart Magical Mystery Premises Tour. You can read my other writing on the premises here.

Today we get all up into Chakras.

If you heard about them before or not, I trust the energy we share together around them today will be alive and magical, because the chakras are nothing short of pure magic.

Here’s the Chakra Premise:

“Chakras are energy centers and living organisms with a direct link to physical and emotional health, linked to the wider spiritual makeup of things.”

There are 7 main chakras located in all of our bodies ranging from our pelvic floor to the crown of our heads. These chakras (I prefer the ‘sh’ pronounciation, but some use the ‘ch’ sound as in ‘chalk’) are energy processing centres. The first people who ‘saw’ them, saw them as spinning wheels and thus the word chakra was used as it simply means ‘wheel’.

It’s important to begin with seeing yourself, your being, as outside of what we call the ‘body-mind’ five physical sense perception. If you are reading this, then that is exactly what you are doing. When you ‘see’ yourself, truly see yourself, you see yourself beyond the body or the mind. The statement that you are ‘more’ than your body or your mind is a bit misleading. It’s actually closer to you have a body and you have a mind, with the ‘you’ in this statement is a ‘you’ of pure energy.

The body and the mind are simply holographic projections of this source energy that ‘you’ are. You can shoot selfies 24/7 and still not get this. The self is pure energy and yes, that energy shows in a photo, but that face is only and ever a manifestation, not the deeper thing behind the thing. We are collectively getting so hungry for a deeper picture of ourselves and today, I’m going to offer you a deeper reflection.

I took in a 30 minute launch video the other day of the new IPhone 7. Here is a piece of truly astounding technology and human achievement that we are all collectively so stunned with that we are still trying to catch up with. The launch event wasn’t so much a sales presentation as it was an ‘awe’ event. The presenter was a middle aged, slightly overweight guy in a turtle neck because a sexy blonde here would have been a distraction of the energy.

Well, I want to tell you that what you have in the 7 chakras inside of you are a technology that is stunningly and astronomically beyond what we’ve come up with any scientifically discovered technology. You have in you these 7 energy processing centres that both receive and broadcast energy 24/7. They are the life force in your being, and, if and when they shut down, your body shuts down. In fact, every physical body issue you deal with has and is a direct expression of what’s going on chakrally for you. (or not going on). Inside of your chakras are found a coded energetic representation possibility (think hologram like the new bank cards have) of everything playing out in your life, past, present and future. These are your divinity out dancing connected to the universe and all the multiverses that we all are and are apart of. Universes of infinitesimal beauty and bounty.

This begins with a willingness to see and feel the chakras through the eyes of the imagination, no different than if you were to imagine a mental picture of a favourite food. If you can see an ice cream cone, and go on to see and feel everything about it, and not only see it, but start to have your mouth water over it….now your feeling it,…now you have entered the etheric domain of ice cream cones.

Feeling the chakras is identical to this. You see them and feel them through self permission and the imagination, not some spiritual ‘woo-woo’ attained ability. Here, you don’t need any science to prove something you can internally feel and verify. Out here beyond the denser seeking of proof, is where the magnitude and grandeur of the chakras reveal themselves.

The first chakra or Root Chakra holds all of your grounding to the earth, and all that physicality entails. Your daily physical needs are managed through this energy processing centre.

The second chakra or Sacral Chakra holds all of your creativity and Sexuality and is fittingly located in the genital area. Every human has deep creative forces and sexual energies living in them. The personal fulfillment they experience or don’t has to do with these perfectly functioning energy centres in the body. Even if the chakra is burdened down and functioning poorly compared to its potential, it is still channeling energy exactly as it was designed to, connected to the soul and personal will of the individual, as well as the universal will.

Next ‘up’ is the 3rd chakra or the Power Chakra located in the gut area. Here is the seat of personal will. Universal will is gargantuan, but it never exceeds personal will where the individual is concerned. Choice and desire are key. Any spirituality that wants to brand choice and desire as part of some unholy picture of the ego are a specific energetic wavelength frequency that is currently being processed in the Power Chakra of the individual holding that belief, and showing up in deadness in your spiritual life. Here we see belief itself as being so much more than mental concept and giving way to feeling. The imagination is what is alive and well here, even if subconsciously. Life is manifesting depression in exact concert with what is going on Chakrally, in this case, acute disempowerment.

Then comes the 4th, or Heart Chakra. Here is where all the very heart of the universe itself either expresses or doesn’t to one degree or another. When this Chakra is in its healthier expression, it isn’t difficult to both give and receive deep nourishing love. What’s going on relationally is in direct correlation to what’s happening chakrally. Want to draw a soulmate? Want to leave toxic relationships? You do that in your chakras first. You heal your way there. Your heart chakra stream needs and wants to flow to every part of your being, as well as to the other chakras, as they are all interconnected.

The 5th chakra is the Throat Chakra. Here is where your truth, where all that you currently are is encoded into sound vibration, some audible, some not, and flows out into the soularium in which we all swim, as well as into everyday life. I say “all that you ‘currently’ are” because your potential being is currently expressing as one ‘current’ (or a subset) of possible expressions. The throat chakra is literally holding the reins of how your life is ‘currently’ showing up.

You see now how when we get into these upper chakras of the heart and beyond, we are getting into layers of awareness that are beyond body-mind reality. It is in the development of these chakras and their attunement or activation that our personal frequency of being goes ‘higher.’ This is a completely new and ever-being-renewed relationship with life itself.

The next chakra especially opens this out, as the 6th chakra, located in the forehead, is the Third Eye Chakra. Here is the seat of our intuition, seeing with the third eye that can see all of this we are speaking to. All of the ‘Clairs’ here come out to play. Clairvoyance, Clairaudience, Clairsentience. You don’t need to be a ‘Psychic’ to be psychic. You only need to let your third eye open, and get attuned to feeling life through this dimensional unmistakable energy.

The 7th Chakra is your Crown Chakra located at the top of your head and holds all of your connection to the universe and the divine, or your divinity, your connection with higher beings and guides.

Wowzers! You’re such hot stuff! Just as you are right now! You have unlimited potential playing out inside of you because you are an expression of infinite possibility and infinite love. And it’s all up in your chakras. You are a universe of technology that makes an iPhone 7, as freaking cool as they are, look like two tin cans and a string!

This is a world of exploration that wants to unroll into your life, and I invite you to the SoulFullHeart window into chakras because it’s a unique window that encompasses everything we’ve been exploring in the other premises together. Jelelle Awen has a great place to start in this article about activating, protecting, and cleaning your chakras:https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/chakra-activation-cleaning…/

You and I are linking chakrally in this moment feeling and digesting an energy that is moving us and changing us. That’s beyond any kind of California Cool! If you’d like to embrace some more of that and this energy of awakening, I’d like to serve that in you through sessions together. Our sessions page is here http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions with all you need to know.

Only two more tour days together….bummer!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information. 

Heart, Soul, And Body Connection Transaction Leads To Sacred Sexuality

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My heart, soul and body are lit up and warm after making love with my beloved mate Raphael….I feel as if all dimensions of me have been ignited, enlivened, and yet a deep stillness and calm floods my being.This feeling of afterglow often lasts for many hours afterwards too. My heart is held and claimed by our union…My body is adored and cherished by myself and by him…my soul is met and matched and welcomed in communion with his. We fly to other dimensions and yet we dwell in the most physical of places too. And, over the years, this experience of polarized yet somehow perfectly fitted sacred sexuality is deepening and widening….not dissipating or going ‘flat.’

Sacred sexuality…two words that stir the heart and ignite our imaginations. It can feel conceptual, this ‘idea’ of sacred sexuality, yet, in my experience it is a frequency that is much beyond the mind. It is a frequency that arises in purer and purer forms related to the degree of depth and healthiness in the grounds of connection that are transacting in the relationship – heart, soul, and body grounds of relationality.

As the heart grounds of transaction in the partners deepen through consciously purifying through emotional work (particularly healing and integrating of shadow aspects), the intimacy anchors the frequencies in the fourth or heart chakra. WIthout this grounding, the exchange may become too transcendent and there can be parts of us that are not really letting in the love that is flowing. We also advocate for a monogamous connection, a real claim by a king for his queen and vice versa, in which to explore these frequencies as it offers the most safe space for the heart to be deeply involved. The most impactful aspect of the capacity to open the heart is a radical self love and healing process, such as we offer with our SoulFullHeart path.

As the soul grounds of transaction in the partners deepen through consciously awakening through soul healing work (especially from other lives and soul legacy themes), the soul context enlivens and energizes the frequencies in the upper chakras. Kundalini and other tantric energies can move and weave between all the chakras of the partners. We have experienced that we can ‘see’ and feel ourselves as the golden white filaments of energy that we actually are beyond the body-mind during sacred sexuality. This makes all of the body part on body part exchanges very interesting and beautiful! Without this opening up of soul frequencies, the sexuality remains limited to the physical and body dimension.

As the body grounds of transaction in the partners deepen through conscious health through body healing work (especially embodiment processes such as healthy lifestyle and food choices), the body connection grounds the frequencies in the physical plane and to the earth. Without this opening up of healthy body frequencies, the transaction may become too floaty or transcendent.

I want to add that a key aspect of this capacity to transact in heart, body, and soul frequencies within sacred union for women is the healing and reclaiming of our feminine inside…..working with, loving, and healing the masculine aspects and masculine templates that we have received from our family, social and cultural (even collective unconscious!) conditioning. This applies to men as well as claiming and being with feminine aspects and energies inside themselves creates a transaction ground of more vulnerability and openness.

Even without a partner, these three grounds of relationality can be greatly healed and awakened as a single person. In fact, it is the inner ground that then overflows to the outer. The union with self leads to an enlivened experience of your own desirability and self worth. These tones go out to the ‘soularium’ where your heart, body, and soul partner is waiting to respond!

Jelelle Awen is an 5D ascension teacher, writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.

Premise 17: You have a mind, you are not your mind

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Welcome to day 17 of the 21 day SoulFullHeart Magical Mystery Premises tour.

I’m not quite sure if I should be out writing today, feeling not quite all here mentally, but in a way that feels really good. The stranger part is that today’s premise is called the ‘Beyond Mental Premise.’ How fitting.

Let’s see where we end up and as long as I have a few designated drivers just in case. And no, it’s not about a drug-induced high. 🙂

Today’s premise goes like this:

“We have a mind; we are not our mind.”

The very term mental illness is grounded in our collective mental illness. It’s the minds way of trying to reconcile a world without feeling. The mind needs to be grounded in feeling, but alone it can never get there. Without feeling, the mind goes nuts. Then it goes to insane lengths to reconcile a world void of feeling. People that are recognized as functional and well adapted people are essentially people who are at present reconciled to their mental illness with a societally accepted and ‘co-signed’ mortgage on their true sanity.

You have a mind, but you are not your mind.

Most people cannot fathom the essence behind these words. The mind is so in the forefront of navigating life and has been for so long, that parts of us have no other sense of identity or reality apart from the domain of the mind.

Who you are and what you are is so much more than the computer that is doing your 5 sense calculations for you. You may claim to believe what I am saying and agree deeply. But this alone doesn’t mean you live outside of the almost total mental domination and control of the mind.

Belief is a function completely of the mind.

Feeling is the function of the heart. The heart has ways and means the mind knows nothing about. An easy test to see if something is a feeling vs. a belief is to see where the tears are. You may pat your heart while you speak your beliefs, but without movement expressed in tears and vulnerability, you are still squarely in mental territory. Another easy test to see what’s of the mind vs. the heart is to feel where someone’s words do not match their energy.

The smiling clerk asking to help you is usually so dragged out in anxiety and the toxic corporate environment they work in that the offer to help is something most of us tend to instinctually avoid or at least manage carefully as we engage. The energy doesn’t match the words. We’ve become so accustomed to this however that we are truly surprised to find and feel the unmistakable difference of when someone’s words and energy actually do match. We want to make them our new best friend. Jelelle and I experience this often as our energy does match our words, at least as far as we can feel.

Truly living from the heart is so shut down in our conditioning, in how we were raised and in our collective agreements about what relationality is, that access to the heart is almost all but completely sealed off.

This dire view of relationality as it exists now is a bedrock premise of SoulFullHeart’s offer. If it is too negative for you or bleak, I can simply say that this work wouldn’t be for you. We are not in any way about finding positive thinking solutions or spiritual ‘love and light’ practices or outlooks to bridge this deep ache and gap in what it feels like to be a human being on the planet at this time in our collective evolution.

Facing into this stark picture of where we are at without any denial mechanism to lessen it is the only grounded place from which one could healthily choose to get in touch with and thereby feel and heal the wounding they are carrying. The mind and the parts of us identified with it will not yield their dominance easily, no matter the degree of suffering.

It’s important here to feel that the mind and the parts of us identifies with it are not bad or wrong. They are simply doing the best they can.

I recently watched a popular teacher offer that in order to meditate effectively, one had to recognize the mind as being like having a monkey in your car while you are trying to drive. Not just a monkey he said, but one on drugs and one that had just been stung by a scorpion. No other way around this, he offered, but to simply get the mind to eventually shut up through repeated meditation. Can you feel how barbaric we’ve become in our drug dispensing solutions to medicate (including using meditation practice) rather than face our wounding?

SoulFullHeart instead sets out a path of getting to know and relate with the parts of ourselves that are stuck in the identity and prison of the mind. This is done through a heart open ‘template other’ that we refer to simply as a facilitator whose own work at opening their own heart makes them energetically and emotionally present and porous that no other certification or mental attainment can offer. Without this energetic and emotional presence, parts of us trapped in the mental domains simply cannot be elicited from their suffering. They can spot a fake with ease, and simply won’t respond. Why leave what feels like the best thing going to them?

Over time, once our parts experience, feel and come to trust reality adequately beyond the prison of the mind, it is so natural for them to be open to true creative play and imagination that comes from the heart and third eye. Now, the mind as the saying goes, can finally become our servant, rather than our master.

The other critical piece in SoulFullHeart’s picture is the arising authentic self, which we call the SoulFullHeart Self, who can show up consistently for the parts of us who are fused to mentally navigating life. This sovereign self, an inner reality, vs. an external spiritual practice or group, is the only way this can be healthy and sustainable. The answer is ever and only you. Read more about subpersonalities and the authentic self here:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/soulfullheart-subpers…

SoulFullHeart’s bold claim is only about helping you find that you.

I invite you to feel these words as deeply as you can. If you’ve read this far, I trust you have been. Let these words move you. Let them help you find your tears.

And if you’re ready for a bold action step of reconciling your words with your energy, contact us to explore a first free session together. Sessions are the doorway into SoulFullHeart if you are feeling to explore more. First session is free and very affordable after that.http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thanks again for taking the premise tour. I am nothing short of honoured to have you along.

Raphael Awen is teacher and facilitator of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.