Full Moon Codes Support BEcoming Our Service Of Love Selves

By Jelelle Awen
I felt the energies of the full moon starting to beam down last night, woken up in the night by Her illumination. I was able to drift back to sleep listening to soothing music as I wanted to take in more of what She had to offer into my unconscious mind/heart/body.  I can feel how today, April 29th, is a good one to go INward, open up to 5D and higher journeys, open up to feelings, open up to realizations/revelations and inspirations!
 
I am feeling so grateful and blessed in this NOW moment of love coming up from within and coming UP to be shared with others in service through SoulFullHeart, nearly every day with sessions and/or an Unity Meditation call or a radio interview. I am grateful for this NOW moment of BEing invited to step up and share, as we all are who have been awakening to who we really ARE as love.
 
These powerful full moon codes are supporting us becoming our service of love/5D selves! They offer Divine Feminine support for integration after so much Sacred Masculine activation energies from the sun recently. It is the important integration process (letting in) that allows us to truly change and transform into our Service Of Love Self in more and more moments! The more deeply we have embraced the integration phase, the more we can bring all those light codes into our every living cell, emotional bodies, and chakra vortexes.

I feel these Divine Feminine codes saying:

Go in, feel and heal, make yourself ready, and share in the overflow of the love that comes as a result.

THIS is the reason we are gifted with the guidance, with the vision, with the goodness AND the pain, with the lessons that come out of struggle…to serve love. THIS is the reason we are gifted with ascending and remembering more sense of the higher frequencies of our Metasoul/Higher Self soul source consciousness.

THIS reason, to serve love as our highest purpose and calling….THIS reason wants to rumble through your life and offer changes to the how and the why and the way you have lived. THIS reason wants to invite you to complete relationships that don’t serve love yet instead distract you, suppress you, shrink you. THIS reason wants you to claim what you most WANT and DESIRE and DESERVE in union with others and with yourself. THIS reason wants you to claim your soul gifts, express your soul gifts, feel and heal the karmic binds from other lifetimes that suppress you and block you and keep you hidden.

Love can only be served more purely from a heart that is healing and IN JOY from that healing, from light that shines from being with the dark, from what is revealed from being with shadow. Love can only be served more purely from a self that is being deconstructed, dismantled with love and by love, to reveal the self that is NOT driven by unconscious wounding, material gain, and self image but rather is pure in its motive to serve love in all moments, including to self.

THIS service of love from an increasingly PURE heart and soul is the invitation to embody your sacred humanity.

THIS is what the Universe, Divine Source, your guides/Metasoul Aspects, your star families, your soul families are waiting for you to BE and to do.

THIS is what you have signed up to do and why you are here in the NOW at this moment of great transition, turmoil, death and rebirth, of collective and galactic awakening and growing!

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Much love to and with you as we BEcome our service of love selves in this Now!
Jelelle Awen
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Join us for a free unity meditation call on Wednesday, May 2nd at 2:00pm CST: More info here: https://www.facebook.com/events/1895682390725143
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Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of four books about Ascension, awakening, and emotional body healing. Jelelle offers a 90 minute one on one bridging session with her over zoom for $55 USD min. donation with women and with Raphael for men…more information here. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about our NEW SoulFullHeart process programs, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.
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The Role Of Your Inner Protector

by Kalayna Colibri

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Artwork: The Wanderer Above the Sea of Fog by Caspar David Friedrich

A voice inside that tells you to be careful, and may even encourage you to have your guard so ‘up’ that relaxation feels impossible. A feeling of complete or nearly complete distrust of anyone, maybe even without much explanation or logical reasoning. A heightened sense of needing to protect yourself, that in some ways you may be so used to feeling that it becomes unconscious when it comes up and it comes up so automatically most of the time. A sense that there is a lot ‘out there’ to be wary of in terms of 3D dangers in your everyday life, but also in terms of ‘psychic attacks’ and ‘influences’.

This is the experience of having a sharp and astute Inner Protector, always at the ready, always standing at the helm, always on the lookout. There isn’t much room for feminine softness in this picture if you are a woman, or vulnerable sharing of your inner world if you are a man. There is a sense of finding ways to be in control of the situation you’re in, no matter what, even though underneath that you may feel the rumblings of actually feeling quite the opposite most of the time. In women, this energy tends to express as quite masculine, sometimes calling itself a ‘goddess’ or ‘warrior woman’. In men, this energy tends to express as overly ‘masculine’ in a way that is direct without heart, and penetrative without feeling. In both camps, there is so little vulnerability accessible, that it can feel impossible to feel anything but defensive in interactions with others.  Maybe when you are at home alone can you finally let this guard down and just be… yet for those of you who have families or a husband or wife, maybe this guard never really drops or relaxes to make room for a real ground of intimacy and love transaction with others.

Your Inner Protector has so needed to be there. In all of those interactions you had as a child, it began picking up on strategies other Inner Protectors were using, ways to control you and other parts of you, while also perhaps controlling others, however, whenever possible. Feeling offended or the need to defend against something that has been said or someone who you’re interacting with is so often a knee-jerk, automated sort of reaction from this part of you. This part has needed to be this way in a world that encourages either intense defenses and fear for one reason or other, or the complete dropping of all protection in order to access sexual or etheric experiences that you are told you are ‘supposed to’ get to. You may gravitate towards peak experiences like taking Ayahuasca or Peyote or other less natural drugs, or workshops and retreats that get you out of the normal day-to-day grind in order to elevate above the protection and find something different. The protection can be a veil on different levels of your being, wanting to keep you from feeling, from accessing YOU and your parts in a deeper way, which would lead to a more profound awakening experience.

As you heal, the need for a strong Inner Protector lessens and dissipates. Impenetrable walls and defensive reactivity turn into healthy, porous boundaries held with love and self-worth. The Protector changes form, helping you to transform as well, allowing for greater, sweeter intimacy with self and others that may challenge you in good ways at times. Ultimately it’s a process of letting more love in, for that is really what the Inner Protector is afraid of… love flowing into you and permanently changing all that it has worked to maintain up ’til now.

If you would like to perhaps try and meet your Inner Protector, you can listen to this SoulFullHeart group call and also try the meditation:  https://youtu.be/yP0OmxcSScc

If you feel you’d like to venture further into this energy, we offer ongoing sessions and a profound process around getting to know and healing your protector and other parts of you: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

From my heart to yours, sending lots of love to your Inner Protector and all they’ve held and continue to hold… ❤

 

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Offering Possibilities Beyond The 3D Matrix, Reincarnation, Shadow Projection

By Jelelle Awen

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Here is my response to questions asked to me in response to my writing about being on the ‘frontlines’ offering love and forgiveness to representations of shadow and fear projections in our culture (Donald Trump and The Reptilians/Archons) and the sense that we collaborate in situations on a soul level and agree to what happens, whether personally or as a collective. The questions were: “I’ve read about the Reptilians and the 3d matrix and was always confused on how they could do this to us when we have free will. And wondered if it was even true to be honest. Does ascension break your soul free of the trap? Is the trap reincarnation? Does this mean you won’t reincarnate anymore once freed?”
 
As I feel into a response to these questions, I want to say that I am offering just ONE possible timeline of reality. The one that I resonate with and feels like is tuned to a higher frequency, Golden New Earth, love-based vibration, although it is not THE absolute truth or the ONLY truth as there are unlimited possibilities of timelines playing out in every moment. You’ll choose the one that most resonates with you in the moment…might be the one I am offering, might be another one.
 
In my experience, the things perceived by people as evil and dark are ultimately disowned aspects of their OWN shadow (or aspects from other lifetimes) that they have not embraced, so they are afraid of them and there is an emotional ‘charge’ about them. Even though there certainly ARE BEings (Ethereal, human, Star BEings) that are more polarized to fear rather than love. It is REALLY about your relationship WITH these fear-based beings as it represents your relationship with our own shadow aspects. Do you give them a lot of energy in your life of push away and resistance? Do you spend a lot of energy trying to ‘wake up others’ to their existence and feel rage and hurt if they don’t ‘get it’? Do you hold your relationship with them with a victim energy, feeling they have done things to you ‘against your will’? Are you resistant to feeling how YOU have an aspect that they represent within you or as an emotional body/psyche or soul aspect?
 
Feeling into the answers to these questions can open up whole new areas of inner exploration for you if feel drawn to go there. This outward projection of charged resistance to shadow aspects can be a sacred phase in someone’s journey and a very necessary timeline for them to walk out until they no longer need or want to.
 
On one particular timeline, for the souls who need to experience it as part of their awakening process, the 3D matrix created by an ‘evil’ race of Reptilians they call Archons (and other names) is VERY REAL. I believe this ‘outer’ matrix is the representation of an inner matrix made up of undigested emotional and soul woundings creating the sense of limited or capped perception, self deception and manipulation of others, disempowerment, being a slave to something….all of these are ‘chosen’ by the soul as an aspect of the awakening journey although often this is not conscious to the person fused to the parts of them that don’t remember this choice. For those who may not see or feel the inner origins of this matrix, they project out that it is coming from ‘evil forces’ of all sorts and kinds and being ‘done to them’. Parts of them are afraid of these evil forces and this fear draws MORE of this experience to them. It is a continual loop for them until it is no longer needed for growth. This loop is again, VERY REAL, to the person experiencing it.
 
I feel an aspect of this loop is also related to the timeline that ‘believes’ in reincarnation, however it is related to either as a necessary aspect of growth or as a trap. Because time in 3D reality FEELS REAL then so do past lives and, therefore, the idea of reincarnation. From a 5D and higher perspective, linear time does not exist and neither do ‘past’ lives in the sense offered by reincarnation. Beyond linear time, there is no ‘coming back’ lifetime after lifetime as the soul exists in the NOW spectrum.
 
Offering a different timeline around this that I have experienced myself more and more is the sense I have that we have ‘other’ aspects of us, fractals off of a main soul source which I call a Metasoul (Metatron offered that word, of course.) These Metasoul aspects of ours exist in different ‘eras’ and dimensions and their energy can be VERY influential in what we experience in the NOW. Connecting with them, healing with them, and eventually integrating them (the timeline they are on just seems to collapse and ‘go away’ eventually) allows for the you in the now to embody more of your soul gifts and soul accesses.
 
Your consciousness sort of absorbs theirs over time and all their experiences. I have experienced this merged consciousness exchange many times on many levels….from parts from this life such as the inner child and the inner protector to aspects from other lifetimes such as a high priestess from Avalon or a medicine woman to aspects from other planets such as an Arcturian, Pleiadian, and other aspects. This seems to be a very effective way to heal karma (which I hesitate to use that word for all the fear projection onto it). I write more articles about the Metasoul, karmic healing, other lifetimes, etc. here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/metasoul-other-lifetimes/
 
The way to ‘get free’ of this loop of outward charged projection of shadow, reincarnation limited ideas, and the inner matrix is by going within to awaken your soul and heal your heart. Being open and willing to feel ALL that is within you in the shadow of your emotional body and your soul legacy and your energetic/chakral body. We offer a process for that in SoulFullHeart and a supportive community to walk it out through sessions, which you can read more about here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.
 
Ascension into higher frequencies (while also focusing on healing the emotional body which can act like an anchor lowering your vibration otherwise) DOES shift you into another possible timeline where you have access to your soul in a very fluid and connected way where you no longer see or experience ‘chapters’ of your lives playing out in the way as offered by reincarnation. Soul contracts, reincarnation, and past lives all become ‘ideas’ that can feel binding, ultimately fear-based, and limiting compared to the dynamic, fluid, multidimensional frequencies of your SOUL ESSENCE as it expresses in the NOW. And, you also feel and hold more and more, that it ALL comes from love, is sacred, and is your soul’s journey of remembering its essence AS Infinite Love.

Here is the article I mention above: Donald Trump’s Higher Self and the Reptilian King/Archon King offering love and forgiveness on the ‘frontlines’: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/04/19/offering-love-on-the-frontlines-connecting-with-the-reptilian-king-and-donald-trumps-higher-self/)

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

A Gatekeeper’s Plea

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By Leena Colibri

Could you love me…
if I showed you the scars,
the wings that aren’t pretty?

 

…maybe they never were…
but I can’t tell anymore.
I’ve forgotten what they look like.
I’ve forgotten how to see them.
I’ve forgotten that there is a mirror
and that that mirror can exist in an open human heart.

 

Can you see tears on my face?
I can’t feel them anymore.
My cheeks are numb.

 

Has life smacked me down or have I?
Has it all been as violent as it feels to me? Who is ultimately responsible? Am I? Are you? Is God?

 

Am I a product of my own faults? If I am, will I ever feel remorse? Could I ever feel remorse?

 

Did the war end or just ebb?
Why am I able to talk to you?
Why are you able to feel me?
Am I dying?

 

Did the soldier I was give way to an angel of peace?
Am I acting out of what was and is no longer?
Or is it all just beginning again and this is the calm before the storm?
I certainly don’t feel calm.
And I certainly do feel the storm…
In fact it is all I can think about.

 

Why can I suddenly see you?
Do you see me?
Are you pretending, as you have before?

 

Are you ready to believe that I am wounded?
Are you ready to believe that something beyond “me” is wounded?

 

All I am is questions,
a quester on an unending quest,
finding no answers, just more questions…
but for the first time,
I am asking them out loud and I am not afraid to let them fall from my lips and drift over to you, and into an unknown love that I no longer fully trust…
but want to…but want to again…as I did before.
As I did before the war. As I did before the battles I was partly responsible for starting.

 

Where am I?
How can you hear me?
Why do you even want to?

 

I could be your essence.
I could be that spark inside you.
I could be a part of all you are outside and inside your body.
I could be a part of everything in the world while also only a speck of dust on this great plane of existence.
I want to be with your essence…
I want to be with the you that could lead me Home.

 

Please…
take me Home.
 

*Find out more about connecting with your daemon/soul guardian here*
 
 
** Leena Colibri is an apprentice facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.

Premise 20: Accepting both light and dark inside of ourselves leads to balance

By Raphael Awen

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Welcome to the 2nd last day of the 21 day SoulFullHeart Magical Mystery Premises Tour.

Today’s premise is both a stick of dynamite and a sleeping lamb, and we need both. It’s about the polarities that are present in reality, and even in what we call God, but so personally avoided and denied in spiritualities, faiths, politics (if that’s of any interest) and especially in our relationship to ourselves. Here’s the premise.

“The universe is made up of polarities. Balance is gained by accepting both light and dark-shadow in the Universe and inside of ourselves rather than suppressing the negative or rejecting it as not coming from the Divine.”

When we begin as I did in my life with a deep Christian worldview that God is only and all light, then we have to relegate all darkness to an enemy outside of God. It of course follows then to be ‘godly’ as we strove to be, we needed to ‘overcome’ the darkness inside of ourselves, as well as to embody only the light as much as possible.

This picture finds ground in our heart whether in Christianity or just in common sense because of the portion of truth that lives there. Human decency and even healthy self-interest lead us to kindness, care and respect over hatred, bitterness and anger. We have a deep inborn and innate desire to grow towards the Infinite Love that is the source and only root of all things. But all that doesn’t mean these ‘negatives’ don’t live in us, the universe, society, or the gods we fashion. Half a truth is still a lie.

When we come to accept that we all have a shadow and that there is nothing ‘wrong’ with our shadow, so much moves in our growth and personal healing path. While we deny or suppress the shadow, and strive only to get to know our light, we actually are only half human. Half humans are insane humans, who dine on half truths.

While in this half-human state of our personal suppressed shadow, we flail about being buffeted by others whose shadows we can’t see. Who we have and esteem as friends, mentors, and teachers, and to whom we even bestow the beloved name of ‘family’ alike are then also others who are polarized to this shadow suppression. We can’t see and feel the degree of toxicity that is alive and well and effecting us deeply, let alone effectively set our boundaries in regards to it. When we can’t own and take personal responsibility for our own shadow, we are left out from seeing and dealing with 1/2 of reality.

People and teachers drawn to the non-dual often have this suppression of the shadow as a motive ground for their draw. The polarities of light and dark are after all deep dualities. How I feel this reconciles is that duality is birthed out of non-duality. Non-dual oneness needed duality as a way to get to know its infinite nature. It birthed us as soul beings, and individuals, expressions of both duality and non-duality. If that’s not a pretzel, I don’t know what is, but it is our magical essence that we are here to grow, learn and heal. You already have it in essence and you have yet to enter it in experience.

Here, until we come to terms with this pretzel, one can feel as they get deeper into their existential healing a deep anger at God, or the universe for being subjected to such flights of fancy. Where does one file anger at God or the universe if they can’t recognize a shadow in themselves?

A whole human is a balanced human, knowing, feeling, and healing all that is in their light and their dark. Now, we no longer need to polarize to dualizing Christianity or non-dual Oneness teachings as a way to escape the shadow and polarity that is in the very fabric of the universe, and that resides in all of us. (not just Donald Trump)

The shadow by its very nature is difficult to see, for it is after all the shadow. How SoulFullHeart accesses the shadow is by getting to know parts of ourselves as subpersonalities that are invested in our dark, rather than our light. These are precious parts of us, that hold our very equilibrium of being intact. We cannot root them out with an exorcism in Jesus’ name, or an Ayahuasca trip to oneness. We feel them and get to know them in an act of profound self love and self intimacy. I don’t know of a better way to end our relationship with this half human expression that currently is both so popular, as well as collapsing in our collective consciousness.

If you’d like to work directly with myself, Jelelle Awen or Sequoia Heartmanas a way to begin your own SoulFullHeart process, please check out our sessions page here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

It is so exciting to feel people finding their own inner dynamite and their sleeping lamb both in their sacred autonomy.

Also, I welcome your comments, and even more so, your questions. This subject touches on so much that I didn’t attempt to explain, but left room for your quester to question, and hopefully for us to find a deeper way together.

Raphael Awen is a teacher, facilitator and co-creator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.