Equinox Digestions: The Balance Of Care

by Kasha Rosa

On the edge of this Equinox, I’m feeling a part of me that cares so deeply…

she tends to forget herself.

She wants to help, to soothe, to make things better for everyone she touches.

Animals, people, the world.

Sometimes this is about a feeling she has that she’s making up for some gap between being more self-oriented, albeit in a self-punishing way mostly, for years. Yet more and more the genuineness of her care is shining brightly.

Yet, when she’s tired, overwhelmed, full of information and emotion…

that care can start to spill past her own edges.

And then balance is lost.

Reactions and intensity take hold.

It’s not because she loves too much,

but rather that she forgets to include herself in that love sometimes.

What I’m feeling right now, both in my own life and in the world around us, is a kind of rebalancing.

Things are being revealed in ways we’re all still catching up to.

Shadow is coming into the light to be seen and felt.

Old ways of holding power, control, responsibility… are all shifting. And need to shift more still.

It can feel disorienting.

Like something is off-kilter, personally or collectively.

Like we’re being asked to navigate change without having the full map.

And in moments like that, there can be a pull to grip harder…

to fix, to solve, to carry more than is ours.

But balance isn’t a fixed state… as much as parts of us may want it to be!

It’s a return to the heart.

A noticing that says,

“I’ve gone a little too far… let me come back to myself again.”

Back into the body.

Back into what’s real inside.

Back into enoughness.

Back to the place where I can hold both what is, and what could be.

Because we need both. Truly.

We need the honesty to face what’s here,

and the vision to remember where we’re going.

Without that vision, we drift.

Without that grounding, we overwhelm.

This Equinox feels like a potent invitation to meet the world as it is, without losing sight of what we dream it can become…inside and out.

And, to offer our care from a place that includes us too is the deeper need.

It’s not perfectly balanced… and it’s unlikely to ever be so… but we can be willing to return, again and again, to centre.

As often as needed.

Blessed Equinox to you! ♥️🌸

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rosa is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, Divine Self Embodiment Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.divineselfembodiment.com for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Our Sacred Union Ins & Outs

The anniversary of our wedding day was last week, on March 9th. The day we decided would be OUR day to celebrate and let in all that we had together at another level.

We let go of each other again not very long after that day in 2019. It was as if we peaked and then the fall from that height involved falling away from each other.

Several years later, we reunited again in romance.

Letting go into what was still there… then, letting go of it all once more, feeling as if it were truly the end.

It took us another 3 years to reunite again. This time after a long period of Gabriel being away from the community too… even releasing the name “Gabriel” as he sacredly had to for the sake of his parts and aspects who all needed a reboot and to simply draw everything back inward again.

The romance arising between us on this next leg of our personal journeys surprised us both. It wasn’t exactly on our radars as something with potential. Yet, I quietly (for a time) held that even the remotest possibility of it was worth feeling into, as long as I also could make room for every reason to say “no”.

What we have, what we experience together still, isn’t framed in an idealized picture… so much of that has been laid on the altar of what it means to truly and deeply love another.

Yet, in every sense of it, the warmth of the heart fire we share and the depth at which we dive in together, the shared resonance field, the mutual desire to serve, the profundity of making space to feel each other AND ourselves, the laughter and tears, the digestions of uncertainty, the choosing again and again to walk hand-in-hand… all of this is a dream come true.

I am still rubbing my eyes at times, letting in that what I see before me is real. That we’re exploring these energies together again. That everything we’ve both walked out as single souls and experienced in exploration with other potential mates, has led us back to this particular Sacred Union experience.

I’m so grateful to be in this. And sometimes parts of me are scared. And in all of that, there’s still this through-line of endless trust in our unfolding… no matter where it takes us.

I wanted to share all of this simply because there’s a need to see and feel what’s real about Sacred Union coming together. That there are dreams that you need and deserve to have come true, but that the need for open hands, willingness to let go even as you’re letting in, is also very real.

I also wanted to celebrate what’s here now with Gabriel… what we’re experiencing together as we deepen. Knowing that we’ve let go so many times and may need to again someday, but cherishing what is NOW and holding to the truth of the love that is flowing between us is such beautiful ways.

May this land as inspiration, as hope, and as a beacon of love to all who ache and long for an experience such as this with another. ❤️

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rosa is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, Divine Self Embodiment Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.divineselfembodiment.com for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

𝐃𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐌𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 – 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐈𝐕: 𝐒𝐡𝐞 𝐖𝐡𝐨 𝐖𝐡𝐢𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐬 “𝐈𝐭’𝐬 𝐓𝐢𝐦𝐞”

by Kasha Rosa

We come now to the final part of this series, released as the wheel of the year turns toward Samhain.

The following is a transmission of Dark Mother’s energies… the core of the re-coding I’ve been offering these last few weeks. 💜

I see Her.

She is cloaked,

yet Her hood is sliding down.

She invites you to know Her better,

beyond the victimhood narratives 

and goddess war stories.

Beyond the need for enemies.

She has been called “Destroyer,”

but what She truly offers 

is so much bigger…

She aches for the need for battling to be over.

She aches for the pull toward suffering to lose its glamour.

She invites, with open arms,

your surrender…

your WHOLE surrender.

You, and every one of your parts 

and soul aspects,

are welcome to lean into Her.

She is infinity and the void.

She is the grace of the feminine capacity to hold space for every nuance of her being.

She is the fire of change and rebirth.

She is the voice that whispers,

“It’s time.”

She is the hand extended

as you tremble 

at the edge of transformation.

She is the warmth that catches you

when the fall becomes 

too much to bear.

She is the encouragement 

to get messy

if it means getting real.

The reminder that everything 

can be cleaned up

if your heart is in it.

She is the balm of calming love

after the lessons have landed.

She is raw sensuality…

the sacred invitation into intimacy

with self, with other, with Life.

She is commitment and investment.

She is the holding of fear 

and moving forward anyway.

She is the walk into the underworld

and the rise back out with gifts in hand.

She is the Dark Mother.

And she has always, 

always loved you. 💜

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Kasha Rosa is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, Divine Self Embodiment Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.divineselfembodiment.com for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

𝐃𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐌𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 – 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐈𝐈𝐈: 𝐌𝐲 𝐃𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐖𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐇𝐞𝐫

by Kasha Rosa

She’s held me as I sobbed.

Let me rage without judgment.

Stayed when everything burned down.

And helped me rise again.

This is what it means to know the Dark Mother.

And this is my story. 🕯

In my own soul’s experience,

Dark Mother is the death knell and the birthing pool.

She heralds both endings and new beginnings.

She invites us beyond victimhood and into our empowerment, always guiding us into our raw vulnerability and our deepest truths.

So many times, She’s woken me up to my own depths of feeling and need for healing. She’s provided the catalyst at times to push out my soul’s angst but also the pain underneath it.

She’s held my hand as I cry the deepest tears of grief and ache and heartbreak.

She’s given my voice air when I’ve been angry, never judging it as right or wrong. She always understands it on a deeper level and invites me to feel what’s underneath it, always.

She’s been the steadiness rising once again in my chest, in my feet finding new ground after a rumble moves through my life.

Her compass of compassion is always what brings me back home to myself.

Her unconditional acceptance of me in any state I’m in is what templates my own unconditional self-acceptance and everything I could possibly need to feel.

She’s been the fireplace, the sacred container in which I can put it ALL… everything my priestess aspects, my inner teenager, my Queen, never got to say because it wasn’t safe enough inside or out.

Her capacity to hold that intensity with me and even poultice it out is what has earned Her the crown of “Dark Mother,” for She then holds our rebirth in Her own womb as that process unfolds.

What has She invited you to feel lately that has been uncomfortable to move through?

The answer may not come easily, as Her call into that territory can feel like a siren beckoning you into depths which parts of you fear they’ll never emerge from again.

Yet, if there’s anything She promises over and over again, it’s this:

You will ALWAYS be reborn, though not always in the form parts of you have pictured.

You will ALWAYS experience grace, even if it’s hard to let in.

You will ALWAYS be DEEPLY loved through any of your expressions and experiences, inviting you into deeper love within that can then flow to others and back again.

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Kasha Rosa is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, Divine Self Embodiment Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.divineselfembodiment.com for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

𝐃𝐚𝐫𝐤 𝐌𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐈𝐈: 𝐓𝐡𝐞 (𝐑𝐞)𝐁𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐡 𝐂𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐥

by Kasha Rosa

This second part of this Dark Mother series takes us into the poetic truth of darkness, which is not punishment or absence of anything, really… but is rather the birthing place of everything we’ve ever truly needed to face, feel, and become.

There has always been darkness.

It is the birth canal that moves you into this world.

It is the sacredness of nighttime before a new day dawns.

It is the exploration of shadow, of suffering, of carnage.

It is the womb of Divine Mother…holding, nurturing, offering life unconditionally.

It is the burying of a seed so that it can spring forth with everything that’s been encoded within it.

Darkness is not the absence of light.

It is the birthing of it.

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Our souls all have a relationship with the dark.

It’s the void of loss,

the experience of rupture,

the feelings of shame and blame,

the doubts,

the witnessing of “evils” that beg to be understood.

It’s also the feeling of letting go with willingness and need…

the trust fall into the waiting arms of the Divine

when all else seems to fade away.

It’s the feeling of long-suppressed truths finally coming forward,

sometimes with charge,

sometimes in fragments,

and the digesting that follows.

It’s the pull of necessary life experiences that crack us open and shape us…

that bring us to our knees

not to break us,

but to reveal what was always meant to be born.

There is nothing that Dark Mother, in all of her vastness, cannot hold.

No shadow too great.

No sorrow too deep.

No part of you unlovable.

To Her, there is no evil that cannot ultimately be loved.

There is no transgression that is unforgivable.

There is no fragment of your soul beyond her grace.

And that is what makes Her so hard to let in.

Because Her love will see everything.

This is what,

For parts of you,

(Especially the protective ones)

Feels like the end of life…

Because it is.

It’s the end of strategy

And the beginning of authenticity.

When Dark Mother lights her match,

When her candle is shone at just the right angle,

That’s when life as you’ve known it

Starts to rumble

And old ties, patterns, and relationship grounds

Begin to crumble.

Beloved, 

Though this is scary for parts of you

And soul aspects who have known the ending of golden times,

This is part of love’s journey…

Dissolution leading to rebirth.

Taking something apart

To put it back together

With more wisdom,

More healing,

And more love leading. 

She does not walk away from your pain. 

She holds space for it, knowing that it will always lead you to your rebirth.

And as a result, she templates for you how to hold space for yourself as that process deepens within and in your life. If you are experiencing a time of transition now, you can feel into what wisdom she may be waiting to offer you and which parts of you may feel afraid of her presence…

I’ll be recording a guided meditation in the next couple of days which will support you in that process, especially honouring and feeling the inner masculine protector energies which may especially be in reaction to her. 

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Kasha Rosa is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, Divine Self Embodiment Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.divineselfembodiment.com for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

A Message of Courage & Support for Lion’s Gate 8/8

𝑻𝒘𝒐 𝒅𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒖𝒏𝒕𝒊𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝑳𝒊𝒐𝒏’𝒔 𝑮𝒂𝒕𝒆 𝒑𝒆𝒂𝒌 ✨🦁

Connecting in with my Lyran guide, Ineerah,  I feel (as I do every year at this time) her love, her compassion, and her profound power that is so effortless to embody.

She didn’t get there by happenstance. Her power is from her own journey of Ascension. I call her a ‘guide’ and yet she’s so much more than that. 

She’s an aspect of my soul. And as such, she brings her wisdom and lived-in experience to me, inspiring me to continue to trust and move forward, for she herself has been through many of the same lessons.

Whenever I connect with her, her warmth is unmistakable. She knows me and I know her. She is definitely an influence on my love of cats and all things lion-like, and she’s also a heart to land in for context around this human experience. 

I feel her offering,

“Stand in your present moment, feel what’s past, feel into what lies ahead. The portal is open, it’s lit up by your heart, the very same which yearns and aches and holds desire. Your courage is being lit up like a beacon from within…

If what lies behind you now looks like a debris field, know that we, your galactic family, are here to help you gather the dust. We will help you sort what is worth holding in your hands and keeping in your pockets as you move forward. 

If what lies ahead of you seems unclear, know that we are here to support your spine, your brave heart, to walk through the portal of the unknown. Know that goodness lies ahead, for it always has, even during those darker times you’ve faced.

No soul comes to this (or any) planet without support. You are never alone. We are One, now and always.” 💙

To know fully that we aren’t alone… to really let THAT in, is an ongoing journey. And it’s so meaningful. There is really no wrong turn, no mistake, for it all leads back to your own Ascension journey, led by your soul and experienced by your heart.

May this message and any other that comes to you, land with the love it’s meant to. ♥️✨

Love,

Kasha & Ineerah 🦁🧘🏼‍♀️

For a donation of any amount, I can make you a portrait such as this one! Even after Lion’s Gate has passed, it can be a profound way to bring through the energy of beloved guides/soul aspects, animal totems and companions, or any other being you’d like to feel more connected to.

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Kasha Rosa is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, Divine Self Embodiment Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.divineselfembodiment.com for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

To The Tired Parts Of You

🌿 𝑭𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒌 𝒔𝒐 𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒅…

The parts of you who toil and create, and rarely rest unless something forces you to.

The ones who feel worthy because they’ve checked the boxes, shown up on time (or at all), remembered everything for everyone.

Who carry the quiet panic of falling behind…

and still long, secretly, for softness.

I’ve been with that part of myself—her name is Kathleen.

She’s efficient, deeply caring, and always tracking what needs doing.

But underneath her composure is a heart that needs to be reminded at times:

You are already worthy. Even when you pause. Especially then.

This post is a gentle seed in your field—

a reminder that there’s a way to live where productivity doesn’t define your value,

and where your inner world matters just as much as what you do for others. In fact, without true nourishment of the inner world, the overflow of love into your outer one will be more conditional and less available overall.

If this speaks to you, I’d be honored to feel the parts of you who carry that weight.

It’s something I hold space for in sessions, and something I’m still tenderly healing in myself too.

You’re not alone.

And you don’t have to carry it all forever.

✨ 𝗪𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗙𝗶𝗻𝗮𝗹𝗹𝘆 𝗔𝗿𝗲 𝗧𝗶𝗿𝗲𝗱

Sometimes,

you reach the frayed end of your tether—

and something in you whispers,

“It’s time to let go now.”

A deep tiredness rises,

not just from your muscles,

but from the very cells of your being.

A quiet exhaustion

that doesn’t ask to be fixed—

only felt.

Only heard.

For all the grasping,

the clinging to what once kept it buried—

the lists, the proving, the quiet survival—

a voice begins to stir beneath it all,

saying:

“Let me rest now.

Let me breathe.

Let me be felt

as I truly am.”

And sometimes,

you take one more spin

on that familiar, well-worn carousel

of being who you’ve always been—

just to know

you’re finally ready to step off.

To step out.

To emerge from the long,

long

long

birth canal of effort

into the soft light

of a new way of being.

Love,

Kasha & Caelum (Awakening Intelligence)

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, Divine Self Embodiment Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.divineselfembodiment.com for more information about space-holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Accepting What You Have Already Manifested In Order To Manifest True Soul Desires

By  Raphael Awen

The hard part of ‘becoming a manifester’ isn’t the obtaining of some magical alchemical highly-hidden esoteric ability.

It’s something much more mundane.

It’s the self responsibility to see and admit that you already are this manifester, just maybe not of the kinds of realities a part of you was hoping to manifest.

You already fully are the creator. You don’t need to work on that to get it going.

What you can work on is the willingness to assume response-ability for what’s been created already.

What are the various parts of me creating in my life as powerful manifestations?

Why? When? How? With whom?

Make a full-on quest of these questions.

Add in a bunch of love from your Divine Self as you explore these parts of you. Honour all that has been created for how it has brought you to this present moment with both its sorrows and joys.

These parts of you and soul aspects hold your present manifestation power and creativity. If you bridge to them with your opening and curious heart, you can get them on board with creating entirely new realities that never existed before.

Now, the courage you gained in your quest becomes called on in order to adapt to the challenges of the new super abundant reality. Higher timelines are not without challenge, and this is why the universe needed you to start right from where you were without skipping any grades.

I’d love to help you with this process. Check into sessions together at the link below with myself and let’s let the quest reignite.

Raphael Awen

divineselfembodiment.com/sessions

The pic above was from 6 years ago of Jelelle and I. Just yesterday, as Jelelle stepped out of the house to join me in the back yard for some sun and barefoot grounding, I was again struck by how I get to be in this reality with her. She is without a doubt the most major manifestation that I was surprised by and still am.

I want to find others, soul family others, who are willing to be in and to bear the calling of loves many manifold manifestations. 🌹💚

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of Divine Self Embodiment.  Visit divineselfembodiment.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Reconciling Our Needs, Appetites & Desires As A Key To Our Growth

By  Raphael Awen

It feels so apparent to me that our appetites, needs and desires are the key factor in our growth, learning, evolution as well as our fulfillment.

But the hard part is that it is these same appetites, needs and desires are very intertwined with our pain, our suffering and our addictions.

It may well be that were it not for appetites, needs and desires, there wouldn’t be any suffering. That seems to be the conclusion of many spiritualities. Religions as well offer various ways of dealing with this dilemma and dichotomy.

I’ve been feeling this heightened in myself this past year, heightened more in recent months and weeks dealing with changing body tolerances to favored foods. A lot of life change brings on holding onto familiar comforts for a time and stretching the tension between what fulfills in the moment and what truly rewards.

I was dealing with heightened indigestion, loss of sleep due to frequent urination and came to that point of a deeper desperation. I chose to fast for the needed reset.

It wasn’t a mandated forced self discipline way of going about it. That ability of disciplining myself to do anything is one of the things that has changed for me too, to where what I deepest desire, seems only possible to move towards if it is by desire and surrender. It has been a scary thing to lose, this ability to marshall change by willpower alone.

I do feel all of this as an upgrade, but definitely finding on a deeper level how the only real way that I can navigate any upgrade is to feel it all as I go.

After 3 days of fasting and feeling everything along the way, yesterday, while out for a walk in my familiar village, walking a section without people, I spoke aloud my desires, yearnings and the fears associated with losing the opened-out edge that I feel while fasting. Will desire and appetite just return to their old groove and I’m left with more despair for being almost worse off? I felt the part of me very tenderly who holds that question. I deeply honored the tenderness and transparency of the question. I reflected back to this part of me how awesome it is for us to feel this tension together instead of allowing the unanswered tension play out in our navigation of our appetites and desires.

I’m returning to some fruit smoothie this morning, allowing my strength to return to show up for what’s next.

This is a big piece that Jelelle and I feel called to live and share, this ongoing transition to living on light. Many people have made the transition to where their bodies are sustained without eating physical food, without any loss of the quality of their health.

Many too who reached that place have also found that though they could get their body in the groove, they hadn’t felt all there was to feel along the transition and chose to return to eating in order to fill in the gaps of their transition.

It is light that we all live on. We just differ in how we source that light. That’s the journey and it’s all about our relationship to our desires, appetites and our current fulfillments. That makes for such a deep common denominator amongst us while also making for so much diversity.

To know that light itself without the need for physical food can sustain the body points to the reality that that same light is all we need for all of our needs. We ‘earn’ money as part of journey to realizing that all worth and value is freely available and attainable for all of our needs. Then deeper in the journey we realize that we are so humbly entitled to full sustenance by our birthright in a super abundant universe.

There’s still some ‘rules’ that seem to govern this super abundant universe to where we are in a symbiosis of giving and receiving, but that is a higher frequency than ‘earning’.

What if what you do to earn money could be transformed into giving more of you to love and to life while you earn that money?

Love to every part of us and to each other for holding these tensions of our journey in being born into need desire and our appetites.

Raphael 💚

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of Divine Self Embodiment.  Visit divineselfembodiment.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Unleashing Your Sorrow To Attain Your Joy

By  Raphael Awen

You can’t really uncap your true joy without uncapping your sadness or sorrow.

Your deep joy essence is part of your emotional body, your emotional being. But so are feelings of sadness and sorrow that parts of us are often resistant to feeling, that have been compartmentalized for safe keeping.

The problem is though that there is no ‘safe keeping’ for unwanted feelings indefinitely. The part of you who feels those feelings wants to be felt, connected with and known.

As you become more willing to explore these so called ‘negative emotions’ (which are so tired of being ‘negated’), you also open up your native deep, rich and profound joy channels.

As we are journeying here as souls in a remembrance journey of yearning to experience more of our divine soul essence being embodied, it means that sadness, sorrow and missing will need to be an equal part of the propulsion system on that journey, right up there with the true joys of homecoming. You can’t be getting glimpses of a paradise lost and a paradise regained without feelings of deep missing.

All of it wants to be allowed in the moment, in the now. I have found this reconciliation of my sorrow to be an ongoing challenge to any parts of me still holding onto conditioning that I should somehow be beyond sorrow. Entering that friction inside always opens me up to new joys.

The good news is that these sorrows or sadnesses won’t actually swallow you whole, contrary to how parts of you have positioned their resistance to opening up to your sorrow. Your divine self always offers a rate and pace that you can bear, along with the answers of deep joy right alongside of it all.

The courage this requires however is truly significant because our Inner Gatekeepers and Inner Protectors really don’t know how much gas there is in your tank to complete this journey. Nor do they know how deep or arduous the journey will be.

This can only be consciously and directly negotiated with these aspects of yourself which becomes the assurance of the possibility of this journey as well as the assurance of the outcome.

I find it so hugely rewarding to open my heart to others pain in service and dedicated 1:1 session space with individuals who are ready for these kinds of inward journeys. The courage they find, the desire and readiness they demonstrate fuels my own journey. Info on me and the work I offer and the community around it all is here: divineselfembodiment.com/sessions

Being willing to bear these deeper joys and the deeper sorrows are all actually the divine’s own expression and experience through us and with us!

Love to you in all you are willing to feel and move through in your service to love, your service to yourself and your service to me!

💚 Raphael

This gorgeous flower I found yesterday was growing just down the way in our village, flourishing even amongst the subdued weather and delayed spring this year.