May The ‘Force’ Of Love Be With You

Love is a power. It has a force. A volition and a trajectory. It has a purpose to attend to whether it is active or passive.

Love is a gentle breeze and a torrential storm. It stirs, it clarifies, and it calms. Love hurts, Love heals, Love exalts.

So where does the ‘force’ of Love take you today? Is it inside? Is it outside? Does it lead you to tears, to fears, or to cheers? Does it invite you to claim, to move, to lay, or to wait?

Love calls us to listen and to respond. To feel where the desire, worth, and creativity are wanting to take you. To courageously make those difficult choices and find that power we buried deep inside. So far in fact we forgot we even had it to begin with.

This Love is what draws us closer to our truest most essential nature. It connects us to those that we are meant to commune and divine with. It shakes the tree and bears new fruit if we sovereignly permit it to do so.

May this ‘force’ be with you always and in all ways. May it be your guiding light, your biggest advocate, and your most challenging teacher. May the force of Love lead you into the shadow cast by your greatest light.

The process of inner work is what leads us to how we relate to this power of Love in all its varied and dynamic ways.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Relation-ships – Me, You and Us

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By Raphael Awen

Every relationship that we enter, that we chose to remain inside of or that we choose to leave, has powerful effects on our souls healing journey.

Yesterday, I met with my sister, Brenda, after not having almost any contact for the past ten years. It was meaningful for a part of me to receive a mini update on my mother, two other siblings, my former wife, two daughters, nieces and nephews and even my own grandchildren whom I haven’t met, as well as more distant family.

In 2009, I chose to largely break off contact with family. I always felt and still do feel that what I was saying no to, was to meet inside of family gatherings where my own changing views of life, and particularly my leaving of Christianity were not welcome as part of the conversation. I also couldn’t expect any of them to be okay with any kind of demand on my part for them to be curious and genuinely interested. What moved for me recently was a desire to be accountable for any hurt I caused in my abrupt departure from family.

I came away from our coffee shop reunion feeling quite a bit of mixed emotions. I had an expanded sense of how all of us in this human experience gravitate to or away from relationships has so much to do with a deep wound we carry inside, mostly subconsciously of our feelings of having lost connection with the Divine, how we were birthed out of a bliss oneness place into individuated consciousness that leaves us with a deep residual separation inside and outside that we are left to integrate. This feels to me like the true hero’s journey, coming back into remembrance of our true essence, that we never actually left or lost any of our divine essence, but rather were given the perception of loss, as a deep wound, that when and as we heal from that wound, we grow into even more than we were in our original state of bliss and oneness.

On a more human level, I felt how ten years had gone by with my family, and how it was hard to see from my perspective where much in terms of growth had changed emotionally or spiritually. I know that’s a judgment on my part, but one I can’t deny. While in connection with family, I was constantly tugging on them to see beyond what I felt were limitations on growth. Even while inside of Christianity, I was constantly jumping camps and switching loyalties all in an effort to break out of something and to break into something more that my soul knew was there. I grew tired of that tugging and so did they, understandably. I get how each of us has a different clock speed setting for our growth, but yet, I believe that this too is something we can consciously shift if we desire to. We awaken to how much parts of us are allowing or disallowing in terms of our growth. We are not victims of fate, or of the Divine, but rather, parts of use the perceptions of victimhood, to govern the pace of our growth.

It was difficult to chose to leave the family circle, to face some of their angsts, to engage or not to engage in communication. I knew I needed and deeply wanted community in my life and I still know that. Community, at heart, I’ve been learning has to do with our kindness, acknowledging that despite our very real differences, that we are still of the same kind. Both are true. We are one, yet we are individual. We have resonance and we have dissonance in relationships. We came here to have that juice.

I am left with a deeper digestion that the relationships we keep and how we keep them is something profoundly sacred for each individual. Some relationships are given to us for the growth we will encounter in leaving them. Ultimately, every relationship we enter, we will leave on this earthly plane. Knowing and feeling that, we are invited to be present in the present with the present of what we have now – to hold it with reverence for the Divine in all of us. This is why we have funerals, a place to return to feeling for the reverence of all of life. We enter the feeling of death to more fully enter the feeling of life.

Deep profound deaths and rebirths are something that we can enter here in the course of our lives, without needing to wait for us to leave the body. I recently went through the most heart rending completion of my relationship with Jelelle, where we ‘broke up’ and have since magically found our way back to the deepest of reopenings, where the magnitude of the pain of loss only compares to the magnitude of joy on the other side. Losing my relationship with Jelelle also seemed inextricably intertwined with the losing of my beloved SoulFullHeart community that has been my family for the past ten years. It felt like history repeating itself all over again. I could also feel Metasoul aspects of mine who know the pattern of excommunication and we’re still stuck in their suffering loops and reactions around those dramas. Feeling these Metasoul aspects and helping them shift felt like it gave me a big gift in this dimension to go to my next places of growth.

I feel how we are all being invited, when we find our heart breaking, to let it break open, to parts of ourselves, to the Divine, and to one another – not with duty and obligation to old caretaking ways of being, but with love, transparency and our deepest desires leading the way.

This is the journey we signed up for; gain and loss; joy and sorrow, even the inevitable of hurting others and being hurt.

We return to our divinity as we return to our humanity only to find there is no difference.

I also see how we, at a deep soul level, don’t actually leave any relationship even if we break off contact or interaction. Our souls are so much bigger than what is or isn’t currently happening on the earth plane, conducting business for our growth regardless of how much of it we can see or feel, or from what paradigm we are consciously coming from.

Much love to each of you in the one family that we all are!

Raphael Awen
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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

The Need For Discernment AND Connection In Spiritual Healing

BS detectors are on High…but so is the desire for community, resonance, and support.

This is the message I got last night after Kalayna and I held our second in-person group meditation circle here in Victoria. It was an intimate gathering of hearts and souls that expressed their desire for deeper connection and context. While the focus of the meditation was the ascension chakras, we couldn’t also help to bring in the heart as the center point for any and all explorations.

This inevitably leads to the protective and defended layer that lives and breathes in all of us to one degree or another. The Inner Protector, individually and collectively, feels to have a very focused BS detector. They will not be lead into disingenuous territory not matter the “qualifications” of said organizer or leader.

This is probably the most important aspect of this work. The deep desire to serve must be precluded by the deep desire to see and heal the shadow. It is not shadow hunting as much as it is being aware or being brought mirrors of any energy that may feel out of alignment with the sanctity of genuine, compassionate service and leadership. In other words, light work is shadow work.

The deepest reflections and validations we can get from others are the ones that come from those who have this detector/protector on High. Now the detector could be turned on so high that nothing is able to get in and that has its own process.

When I talked about this last night there was a resounding collective nod that showed me that this is a big thing is the greater collective. It was a sign from the Divine to keep bringing the vulnerability and the realness to the table so that Love has a chance to be seen and served from within and in service of others.

We got very warm and genuine appreciation for the held space and the grounded heart-centered energy. It was a new level of service for us both and we felt a glow of joy that we got to bring our passion and love to others who were in need. Our own reflection and service of Love is why we are here.

If you are feeling a need for similar grounded and heart-open space to explore and heal through some deep layers, we are available for one-on-one bridging sessions. Your BS detector is honored and deeply needed in this quest for connection and support.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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What Is The Violence Telling Us?

The latest attacks in Sri Lanka have left another gaping hole in the heart of our collective humanity. I could feel my own initial numbness to it as “just another day in the news”. I really didn’t want that to be the case, but it can be hard when tragedy seems to strike in so many different places. I don’t take in too much of the details as I can get be a lot to let in, yet to feel what it is that is going on in our world, in our Heart.

We can’t help but to be affected by each of these acts of violence. They shake something deep inside of us even if we are not paying attention. Our soul knows what is happening. There is an underground river of despair that runs through our shadow. This despair can foment into so much need for resonance. Anything that makes one feel that they are not alone. There is a community that forms around this wound, this need for acceptance, purpose, and empowerment. The manifestation of this level of violence is a reflection of this depth of this pain.

Even the Lone Wolves seek audience.

We are a global community in need of feeling loved. Feeling like we belong to something greater even if that ‘love’ shows itself as violence. We have something deeply guarded in all of us that finds its way to the surface in one form or another. No policy, sanction, or security measure can heal that. It can mitigate it but not truly transform it. The only power we have is Love.

It is healing locally to shift globally. Nothing gets more local than you. What lies in each of us that is seeking our love? What violence still resides inside? What does Love truly mean to you and/or parts of you? Getting away from the chatter of the news cycle, the despair, and the rage, gives us a chance to go within to feel where Love still has its work to do.

I feel this as a sober reminder to myself that there is more to feel. More timelines that are recapitulating and recycling back onto the world’s stage for remembrance and reconciliation. Where do I live in all of that? What is still afraid to be seen in fear of retribution? This is the deeper work of our personal power and responsiveness to ascension.

Heaven is felt into, not fought for.

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Earth Day Energy Update With Guided Meditation

Connecting with ‘Gaia Consciousness’ is a ripe topic for the day as we celebrate ‘Earth Day’. In this live stream hosted on Facebook, Kalayna and Gabriel offer an energy update and a digestion of what it means to be in collaboration with Gaia as a big and powerful consciousness and reflection of ourselves.

They offer their perspective on relating with Gaia as an energy that is taking care of Herself/Itself and does not actually need us to ‘fight’ for Her/It. How parts of us relate to Gaia is how they relate to themselves and this is where the true transmutation of our ways of life that have involved taking and in some cases misuing many resources from Her/It can happen on the heart and soul level withIN.

They also lead a sweet and powerful guided meditation part way through, that leads you into connection with your ‘5D Gaian Self’, an aspect of you that is deeply connected to Gaia that can begin to integrate with you as you continue to heal the barriers or blocks to this connection within.

This video was live on April 22, 2019.

Gabriel’s writing that he shares in this video: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2019/04…

Kalayna’s guided meditation to connect with Mother Gaia in a more detailed way: https://youtu.be/pBmywUP8GvI

 

Gabriel’s writing that he shares in this video: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2019/04… Kalayna’s guided meditation to connect with Mother Gaia in a more detailed way: https://youtu.be/pBmywUP8GvI

Message From 5D Gaian Self On Earth Day

Dearest Stewards of Earth’s Ascension,

You are here at a very special and unique time in Earth’s galactic history. She is one of many planetary consciousnesses that are on the precipice of a great transformation and evolution.

Gaia, as She is belovedly referred to, already exists in its crystalline blueprint. It lives and breathes in each one of you in the stores of your Gaian DNA. You are Her and She is You. Just like how the trees are interdependent and symbiotic, so thus are you.

You exist as a microcosm of Her complexity and beauty. What you see afar is what exists within. What you feel about Her is what you feel about yourself. If you feel she is in need of saving, where is that reflected in you? If She is treated with disrespect, how does that happen inside of you?

This is an opporTUNEity to feel and see yourself in a much greater vision. Your personal stewardship IS Her stewardship. You birth Gaia through healing your own beloved polluted waters. Through treating yourself with the same respect and admiration you give to Her.

Connect with the beating heart of Gaia’s compassion and trust in the cycle of death and rebirth. She knows this one well. She can catalyze, transform, and integrate it all with majesty. She is equipped and has chosen to hold this space for you and with you.

Do not worry about Her, for she is taking good care of Herself and Her beloveds. Those that are no longer in physical form have a place in another dimension. The very one that is trying to be embodied by your choices and courage to bring light and love to the shadow within.

Thank you for taking these words into your earthly human hearts.

– transmission from my Gaian 5D higher self Aerius

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Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Loving UP Your Body-Vessel

by Kalayna Solais

It has become so important to love the body beyond any measurements, beyond any sense of “not good enough”, beyond any shame once held by parts of you about looking this way instead of that way.

For years parts of me have judged and battled with my body and body image. They have especially struggled with accepting my legs, which have always been bigger, and my tendency to yo-yo a bit in my weight.

Parts of me have judged themselves for eating emotionally, for continuing to make food mean ‘love’ somehow. They have struggled so much over the years with relating to food more so as survival and even something not as necessary as we are taught it is.

Even in this world of spirituality and Ascension consciousness, there is a tendency for parts of us to judge the body for not yet being ‘light body’ worthy or for going through the many changes and shifts it needs to go through as we continue to transition into crystalline forms.

The body reflects the emotional reality, always, and this manifests in so many different ways, giving us so much valuable information to be with and digest.

These judgements come often from an Inner Punisher part inside of you that is concerned about sticking out, about you inhabiting your leadership, about Ascension on all levels.

For more about the Inner Punisher, here is a video from Jelelle where she also leads a guided meditation to connect with this part of you:

They criticize and poke because it means love to them somehow. It helps them feel empowered, ironically, because in the judgements of self is a defense against judgements from others. A preemptive strike within that hurts you first before someone else can hurt you. Wow. It might sound convoluted but if you really feel this one, it’s very true, and often unaddressed or felt through with love and self-compassion. The Inner Punisher does not respond well to more punishment… this energy can only transmute with love.

Here is a guided meditation co-created by Gabriel and I, narrated by Gabriel, that you could use as another tool to connect with this part of you:

This part is so ingrained in our 3D Self that it’s become natural to feel the punishment that becomes a white noise in our lives, always sort of there yet so naturalized we hardly notice how much it’s bringing our frequency down. This is so one of the major pieces that needs to shift into love in the 3D Self before this Self, this version of you, can really start to integrate and move into higher frequencies consistently.

I’m sharing this photo today because it hallmarks a new beginning for me and an outing too.

I no longer want to subscribe to the adage of needing to look a certain way and I don’t want parts of me to feel this way about themselves either.

I no longer want to hide how my body looks because it doesn’t comply with typical beauty standards.

I suspect my body will continue to go through more changes through my own personal Ascension process and to truly be IN it without feeling like I have to force it to be one way or another in order to be worthy of anyone’s love let alone my own, is my deepest intention in this moment.

Our bodies are part of our Ascension journey… to honour and love them UP, even as they are now, is so, so important.

Much love to you and YOUR beautiful vessel too! ❤

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

The Challenge To Let In Love

Photo courtesy of https://unsplash.com/@marigard

By Raphael Awen

‘The biggest challenge you will ever face in this life is the challenge to let in love.’

These words came to me many years ago from a trusted teacher, and I’ve often taken this encapsulated sermon in a sentence from a mental file to reflect on it. I still do believe it to be true.

What dawned on me today though, on this resurrection Sunday, is an addendum to this sentence, and pardon me if it doesn’t quite fit in a sentence so simple as the first one, but the awareness that came is that for there to be a letting in, there would need to be a letting out.

Like breathing, we take in oxygen, transmute it, digest it, and then release and expel carbon dioxide. Trying to remain in a continual letting in mode, without surrendering to a letting out mode, would limit the letting in very quickly, making the original challenge to let in love feel all the more impossible.

If that’s true, that letting out is equally important as the attempt to let in; and that letting in can’t actually be separate from letting out, then what might the letting out look and feel like?

And as I tune in beloved guides, what comes to me in a gush of a big out breath of awareness is that we are being invited to trans-parent this love in-breath into a vulnerable willingness to be seen and known for what we really are. Am I able to to let you (any and all others in my life) see me for who I really am? This washing away of these false gods of upholding self image require so much time and energy, and prevent me from letting in another drop of real love. The letting in pushes up a profound need for letting out.

If that’s all true, then the question comes up about where to practically apply all this as a practice. It can be very relieving to immediately put this into practice in your relationships with anyone, whether a deep intimate or a store clerk, yes, but what comes to me is the invitation to apply this all internally, me to me.

Where are parts of me struggling to gasp in another breath of real love and then are being prevented from letting out its effluent. What has not been trans-parented into the light of day between parts of myself? Where have parts of me been allowed to remain in suffering in the absence of my deeper heart bridge to them?

This is the resurrection we are invited into – that is here now. He is risen. She is risen. The fall has given way to the rising. You are the beloved and the beloved is you. A sacred romance awaits like you’ve never seen or heard tell of.

It’s a story that only you can tell awaiting your authorship.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.

Notre Dame Burning – Invitation To Feel Your Own Death/Rebirth Cycle: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (April 15, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

Many intense energies moved through this week, encompassing the fire at Notre Dame Cathedral and beyond too. Featured this week is a piece from Jelelle Awen, digesting a message from Divine Mother surrounding the Notre Dame fire. Her message involves letting in the sobriety of our own ongoing death and rebirth cycles as they unfold. Divine Mother also offers a reminder to make whatever your reactions are to the fire and events surrounding it, personal:

“FEELING what comes up in response to this event, making it personal, leads to the next discovery places of self and soul…..which is where it really starts to get interesting, cathartic, and useful.

I feel much love and support from the Divine Mother today to help those that need it to digest this event…..and the ongoing support from Her that is just THERE as needed and asked for. “

Join Gabriel and Kalayna Solais for a guided meditation and sharing afterwards, held here in Victoria, BC! They will lead you in a powerful, high vibrational guided meditation to connect to, activate, and clear your Ascension Chakras as well as meet your Inner Protector. Your Ascension Chakras are instrumental in helping you download and integrate your connection with your Metasoul/other lifetimes, Galactic/Star Family, and the incoming Ascension codes and energies. This experience may offer some specific details or pictures about the steps you’ve taken so far and your next steps within your personal journey of healing and Ascension.

Monday April 22nd is ‘Earth/Gaia Day’! While we are invited every day to honour and feel all possibilities of collaboration with Mama Gaia, having one day in particular that is dedicated to Her and witnessing Her process of Ascension is a powerful opportunity to align more with Her in a conscious way.

This live stream will be hosted by SoulFullHeart Facilitators/Teachers Gabriel and Kalayna Solais. It will feature a Q&A digestion of the energies coming from and to Gaia at this time and how you can choose to be with them in your personal Ascension process, as well as a guided meditation to tune you into your own relationship with Gaia and how She can influence and guide your ongoing process alongside Her.

Tune in LIVE via Kalayna’s Facebook feed or watch the replay on Facebook and YouTube (SoulFullHeart Experience channel).

Plenty of new writings are here to take in this week from Raphael and Jelelle Awen, Gabriel and Kalayna Solais, and Raianna Shai too! These writings include energy updates and personal process sharings, as well as more digestions of the recent Notre Dame fire.

Jelelle, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities. These sessions are available for $55 USD minimum donation per session. More information can be found here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

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Full Moon Message: “Your Arising Aligns With Mine”

By Kalayna Solais

Said the Full Moon to its Witness, “your arising aligns with mine”.

“But how?” the Witness asked. “How can I arise as you do, with the splendor and beauty of a thousand colours at once and none out of place? To be worshipped and seen as you are though you are so still and simply ARE who and what you are?”

“Each time I rise,” the Full Moon responded, “I do not doubt that my shadows will too, that my light will sometimes be dimmed by a power not my own and a will I do not control. Yet, I trust, I surrender, I humbly rise still. First within me, then in front of you, whether or not you choose to take me in.”

The Witness paused for a moment, having never heard this before or felt the Full Moon in this way. The invitation as palpable as the winds that blow and herald a rapid change of season.

The Full Moon continued, “we are the same, you see. We have different roles, yet here we are, here for reasons sometimes unknown yet lived out just the same in a dance we often cannot name.”

And with these words, the Full Moon glowed with wonderous yet effortless energy. The Witness wondered at Her beauty as the message landed deep within.

“It’s time,” the Witness whispered, “to light up, to love it all, to be as I am and to allow it all to arise along with me… Shadows and light… For a purpose beyond my own. Yes, Full Moon, I have heard you… And will arise with you for the rest of my days as long as the strength within arises too.”

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.