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The Holy Trinity Of Our Inner Relationality

Published on by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments
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Through each tattered layer of what I once held so dear
What I used to cling to for the safety from fear
In order to hide the pain of keeping myself so small
I learned that I was so much more than what I had the nerve to see
The constant voices inside that sold catastrophe like it was never in doubt
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The claim that I would never be enough, so why even try
The bully pulpit of what was right, moral, and acceptable.
They were not mine, but echoes of the collective disposition to keep itself contained from
truly loving, losing, and learning.
I felt the inner dissonance.
The rub inside my hub
The core of what life was meant to feel like, not look like.
I was convinced to follow the road most traveled until I saw myself hanging on the cross
of its dead end post.
— reflections from my 3D/4D Self

The greatness of our being lies not in what we have accomplished but what we have felt,risked, and let go of in order to create the courage to do so.  We are all a part of this ever expanding depth of love consciousness.  No soul is immune.  We just choose the level of resistance or surrender.  The 3D self has much at stake in this process and needs the all compassion and holding we can muster from our awakening 4D self with the guidance and love from our Higher Self.  It is a Holy Trinity of inner relationality that serves our destiny and desire to live in the fullest expression of our being, even if we can’t fully feel or see it yet.

This is a sacred relationship and one that is an ongoing one that offers many gifts to creating a New Earth by transforming 3D and not transcending it.  It is taking what was learned and applying it through a new lens of 4D transition to an unknowable but highly desirable Heaven with Gaia. It is choosing to heal our pain to feel our Joy.

 

 This Saturday @ 11:11am CST is the SoulFullHeart Group Call where Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be introducing the 3D Self through the SoulFullHeart Process perspective. Go to this link for more info: https://www.facebook.com/events/110934986279085/
On Sunday Sept. 17 is the second SoulFullHeart Experience Live Stream event. More info here>https://www.facebook.com/events/1273156469462294/

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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Make Up Your Own Spirituality!

Published on by Raphael Awen1 Comment

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By Raphael Awen

So you sit down with a little self-assignment to write the first 10 things that come to mind if you were to make up your own Spirituality, unedited, it doesn’t have to make sense to anyone but you, it doesn’t have to draw the masses, it just needs to be spontaneous and from you….go….

(You might want to write your own before reading mine, and share your results in the comments later below)

1. Get real or go home
2. Victims not welcome
3. Shit or get off the pot
4. I love you
5. I hate you
6. See the biggest picture you can
7. Want like there’s no tomorrow
8. Drop the role
9. If you’re happy with lesser things, good for you, I was too, until I wasn’t and I loved it and needed it while I did.
10. Love yourself first

Then, poof, there appears in front of you, the world’s ‘Registrar Of New Religions’, and he tells you that you can only have 3, so you have to turf 7, and he closes his office in 5 minutes, and he needs the last 2 minutes to lock up. You’ve got 3 minutes. Go. Just 3 of the above 10.

1. Get real or go home.
2. Want like there’s no tomorrow.
3. Love yourself first.

You hand in your 3, and he says ‘I’ll submit this application for you, but you will need to sit down and write 1 paragraph for each of these 3 and submit it through my mail slot before leaving today or your application goes nowhere’.

You sit down to write. No pressure or anything right? You feel the world has needed a new religion for a god-awful long time, and now, it’s all hanging on some further words of explanation!? You write some further explanation, while wondering if this isn’t a really bad idea.

(Again, you may want to write your own before reading mine, and share below)

1. Get Real Or Go Home: If we could just get truly honest with ourselves and with one another, there may not actually be any higher enlightenment than that, or any form of enlightenment that you cannot access through radical self honesty.

2. Want Like There’s No Tomorrow: If you are anything, at your deepest core, you are a ‘wanter’. Denying this is self suicide, and then you are of no use to anyone, including yourself. You can’t sell a dead man a cup of coffee.

3. Love Yourself First: All attempts at putting others first are only pathetic attempts at hiding the fact that all we can do is put ourselves first. If I truly love another, it is because profoundly I have come to love myself and have overflow that is my funnest fun to share.

You fold your paper, with your name on top, and pop it through the mail slot. Now what? My god, you didn’t know the registrar dude was going to pop out of no-where. What if this new religion gets ‘approved’ and ‘installed’ somehow? Couldn’t it have used a bit more time and thought, maybe even some deep meditation, or even a retreat? How many eons might a new religion hold sway over the masses? What big thing did I miss? Oh, God, I didn’t even get the golden rule in there…

You walk out through a park out front looking to digest a bit more of what just happened and the Registrar guy is there looking all casual and approachable now for some reason. He sees your look and tells you that you just launched a new universe of reality into existence and you are at the center of it. He goes on to explain that every single religion, or spiritual practice is simply made up every day by the people living them from their deepest insides, the good, the bad, the beautiful and the ugly. You look back quite somber feeling wondering if you got it right or not, and he tells you ‘don’t worry, it’s as easy to change as it is to make up, actually, the hard part is getting people to see that’s what they are already doing, and always have been’.

You take that in for moments in the now casual easy quiet but alive energy between you and this registrar guy, when you realize you just met a part of yourself that simply wanted your attention…

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com

In SoulFullHeart, we offer a way to connect with every part of yourself, from the part of you who may want to a write a new world religion, to the part of you who wouldn’t touch any such thing with a 10 foot pole. We are currently offering a free intro session conducted by myself or Gabriel Heartman to help you feel into where SoulFullHeart process may be wanting to take you. More about that here: Soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

My beloved, Jelelle Awen and myself are also hosting, sharing, and leading a guided meditation about the 3D self this September 9th at 11:11am CST. Details here: https://www.facebook.com/events/110934986279085

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Love Has Already Won

Published on by Raphael Awen4 Comments

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By Raphael Awen

Until you accept that every want and every desire is coming ultimately from love, you are unable to see the forest for the trees.

Even the so called evil desires for self-gratification, power, control, destruction are all part of love’s reality that provide contrast and comparison for love to be seen and known for what it is.

Our deep rooted fears of imprisonment in a matrix that we cannot escape from stem from this staggering oneness in love that we are inescapably embedded in.

Our collective and personal attempts at hate, evil and greed are only escape attempts from this essence we are. Existentially, we have a need to press the boundaries, test the edges, and to see what actually is or isn’t. We simply cannot believe the immensity and power of love that we are informed from and with.

Looking at the big trees standing so strong before us of our separation, our tendency for war, our corporate greed, etc. only obscures the forest of love that these trees have their place and rightful lease in; the forest of love. There is only one forest.

This picture is equally true inside of you. You wouldn’t claim to be all love as far as every motive and act is concerned, would you? There are the parts of us who are in conflict with other aspects of ourselves who must control, suppress, dominate, obscure, hide, be disintegrous, and manipulate with an agenda. There are other parts of us who would of course work hard to keep these aspects hidden even from our own acknowledgment, let alone being called out by others.

But these very aspects of our being are also sourced and rooted in love. There is no other essence in the universe for them to be coming from. They are only doing and being what made perfect sense to them to find their way in the service of love to protect, to manage, to survive in the context of life as they know it and experienced it. Our being chose the experience of the convincing illusion of not-love as a way to come to terms with the love that we are.

The war is over. Love has already won. It wasn’t really a war actually, as there was only one Sovereign behind this war playing both sides to the middle; the center of everything; the center of love. Parts of you just don’t know it yet.

And herein lies the meaning of what we call life.

Life is simply a story of you, me, along with every last bit of super intelligence finding this out for ourselves; for our varied selves; the parts of us marooned on distant islands, loyal to their posts, hunkered down for the long haul who never got the memo that the war is over; that the war was never even a bona fide war in the first place.

Love is knocking on your door today, official signed and sealed memo from on high in hand. You are inescapably and completely love. The post war reality is now to embrace every part of yourself for whom this is not yet true and find ways to accustom them to this new reality as they are ready, willing and wanting.

Raphael Awen
soulfullheartwayoflife.com/services

Join Jelelle Awen and I in two hours at 11:11am CST for our first LIVE stream, Q & A, teaching, sharing…..high vibe, opening hearts and souls frequencies! We’d love to receive your comments and questions and respond to them in the moment….It’ll be on our SoulFullHeart way of life FB page: https://www.facebook.com/soulfullheartwayoflife/?pnref=lhc!

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Walking Through The Necessary Death And Rebirth Process

Published on by Jelelle Awen4 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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Has the death aspect of ascension been validated enough? The necessary process of letting go of the old, the dying, and the mourning that accompanies it? I feel this aspect of the process deeply in myself as I have experienced it so often over the years/lifetimes, in my own Metasoul, and as connected to the Universal soul/Divine Source too. Rebirth CANNOT happen without death, as nature and Gaia show us and remind us. Just wanting the rebirth and the ascension without the necessary death process is to limit the infinite possibilities that TRUE transmutation brings.

More and more recently souls (and their 3D selves) are just needing to share with me that they definitely feel like their worlds are collapsing, their lives are changing so much, and it feels like they are dying. And, I feel this with a deep compassion as the Divine has offered to me so many times….not able to take the pain away, yet validating that YES, this is the process and you’ll ultimately be OK. In a VERY significant way, your world IS collapsing…..the 3D world anyway and the 3D self that has formed in so many fragmented aspects is too letting go, unanchoring, and this feels hugely like dying as the energy transmutes to a higher frequency.

What has previously been and felt alive….what has been kNOwn as a LIFE…..is going through death throes as the soul’s higher frequencies come through, shine through, and rumble through. These parts of you feel sad and lonely and like no one else in your world ‘gets it’ because, in many ways, they don’t. Those people so beloved to you in your 3D life (and even to your 4D transitional self too) are suddenly not able to resonate on the same ground as you. You are speaking now a foreign language and are forgetting the one you used to be so fluent in. You are compelled to attend inner funeral services that they don’t see the reason for. You are becoming a ghost to them even as you become so much CLEARER to yourself.

I am shown by the 3D self scenes of rubble falling from previously solid ceilings…..ash thick in the previously clear air…..blazes lit to clear the access away. The 3D self wants to be felt in all this letting go and change and it NEEDS to be. You can provide so much comfort to this part of you as it falls and tumbles and loses so much. As your 3D self is negotiated with and felt by you, it can so much more easily let go with MUCH less resistance and fear. More love can flow within your BEing to hold space for this process!!

The beautiful thing that seems to be happening right now is that the gap between the dying and the rebirth is shorter and, in some cases, happening in the same now. The old is being let go WHILE the new is coming in and there is very little ‘time’ left then to mourn. This also seems to be true the more 5D self or higher self coming into your body that you have within you AND the more you have surrendered to the death and rebirth process and already let go of what needed to be let go of. Then, trust grows inside of all of your parts that whatever is being released will be replaced by something BETTER that is based in love and reflection of your soul and service of love here.

In SoulFullHeart, we offer sweet comfort and connection to your 3D self and help you to form a bridge inside with this energectic frequency that has had to survive here and is going through so much adjustment and change. A free intro session with Raphael Awen or Gabriel Heartman gives you a sense of where ongoing, weekly sessions with a SoulFullHeart facilitator would take you in this process of inner connection. Raphael and I are also hosting, sharing, and leading a guided meditation about the 3D self this September 9th at 11:11am CST: https://www.facebook.com/events/110934986279085 or soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls

 

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about a FREE intro session with a SoulFullHeart facilitator, group calls, videos, retreats, etc. 

SoulFullHeart Museletter: Highest Timelines Possible

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This week was an explosive week of clarity around what we are as an emoto-spiritual offering.  A whole expansive structure has been illuminated and is in current development and refinement.  It has been an infusion of some masculine structure within a feminine intuitive container.  Here is an excerpt from the featured article by Gabriel Heartman that encapsulates this vision:

“SoulFullHeart offers a very unique feel and vision about ascension from an emotional and spiritual framework.  We are currently creating a major vision and heart curriculum for the process that we offer that is unlike anything we have seen.  Over the next several weeks and beyond, we will be writing more specifically and clearly about what SoulFullHeart is and isn’t.  We will be focusing on what we feel are the 7 Key Areas of Life that affect our transition from 3D living to 5D experience.  We will also be differentiating the difference between the 3D, 4D, and 5D selves and their frustrations/desires with the seven areas of emotional, spiritual, mental, social, physical, financial, and environmental. Future group calls will have a particular focus in these areas and how they are viewed through those lenses.”

Featured in this week’s article are lots of new writing that takes multiple approaches but is focused on healing our inner world to help up let in more and higher frequencies and timelines.  A great digestion by Jelelle Awen about the epic month of August and all the energies that were intended to infuse us with moving from the old into the new.  Feeling our way through every step. Raphael Awen rumbles his relationship to men and his desire to feel the fire that lies inside that is meant to bring about great change and passion. Kalayna Colibri offers us that worlds exist beyond our limited vision because we have not allowed ourselves to feel anything bigger and how we can heal our way to something way beyond what we are currently living in.  If there was a summary of this week’s writing it would be: Highest Timeline Is Here.

Don’t miss information about the upcoming Live Stream with Raphael and Jelelle Awen this Sunday at 11:11am CST.  PLUS, new recordings and information on our new 30 minute free intro calls!  We love to share our love to you and would enjoy to receive whatever heart donation you feel that resonates with our offering.  You can go to our donation page for more info on how to donate.

http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations

Thank you so much for your interest and support for SoulFullHeart Way of Life!

Here is the link to this week’s museletter:

http://mailchi.mp/7af2f5ce9ae1/soulfullheart-weekly-museletter-soulfullheart-introduces-free-30-minute-sessions

 

‘Master, What Must I Do In Order To Ascend?’

Published on by Raphael Awen3 Comments

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By Raphael Awen

The Student asked the teacher ‘Master, what must I do in order to ascend?’

The teacher replied ‘The entire universe is ascending all on its own super intelligence. You need only sit on your ass and do absolutely nothing and you will be most sure to ascend’.

The student paused long enough to suggest to the teacher that he had respectfully pondered his reply, and then came back with another question ‘Master, I have done nothing at times and I find myself plagued with boredom. Can you tell me how I might avoid boredom?’

The teacher again responded forthrightly ‘You must act upon all of your desires. Find out what you really want and pursue that to your heart’s desire. This is why you are here. Boredom is simply your heart calling out to you to pursue what you want’.

Now, the student was perplexed at the opposite advice given to him inside of minutes from the same teacher. He truly pondered much longer this time and then in deeper reverence for both himself and the teacher, he asked ‘Master, you have advised me contrarily for my 2 wishes. For my desire to ascend, you have told me there is nothing I can do, and for my desire to avoid boredom, you have told me that I must act on what I desire. Can you help me reconcile this difference so I will truly know peace?’

The teacher replied curtly, ‘Had I known it was peace you sought, I would have sent you on your way and not have advised you at all.’

The student edging towards being offended, said ‘But Master, can you explain this to me? Isn’t peace of mind and heart what we all seek and need?’

The Master turned and made deep eye contact with the student this time, paused to the point of becoming uncomfortable, and then replied ‘If it is peace you seek, you are of no value to me. I have long let go of my expectation for perfect peace, and instead live in the honest tension of what I really want and what I don’t yet have. This is the only kind of enlightenment that I am aware of that is available to be had. I find myself ascending and my deepest needs getting met by being around people who want desperately to have fun; who are not at peace without it; and who have accepted that this is truly the funnest fun.’

The student took this in deeply and in the space opened out by the teacher’s words and heart, he again found his tongue and said ‘You have blown my mind today, but so opened wide my heart. Can you tell me how I might live my way into more of this kind of enlightenment you speak of, Master?’

The teacher replied ‘Yes, you must now become your own Master. You are your own sovereign establishing your own heart kingdom. You have no one to report to or to surrender to, but yourself, as well as no one to blame for the outcomes of your life. If you have fun, it is up to you. If you are bored, it is up to you.’

‘Thank you…’ replied the student, stopping himself just short of adding the word ‘Master’.

The teacher replied ‘And just one more thing before you go…’

‘Yes’ answered the humbled student.

‘Stop asking teachers for their answers as a way to deflect from taking responsibility for your own life, and to deflect from owning your own truth. If you continue this practice, you will most surely not ascend any time soon, and it will be boring as the prisons of hell itself’ added the teacher for good measure.

The student knew to pause here, nod, rather than speak his acknowledgment and to go on his way.

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com/services
(Regular buses departing Pleasantville for the ride of YOUR life: free intro sessions, group calls, live streams and more.)

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

How To Hire And Fire A Spiritual Teacher

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By Raphael Awen

Those words may sound like a 3D approach to something sacred, but in my emerging sense of it, no dimension is more sacred than the other, or higher or lower as we like to differentiate them from our 3D perspective.

Prior to being an emoto-spiritual teacher, I was a painting contractor, and I see a lot of similarities between hiring and firing a contractor as I do in hiring and firing a spiritual teacher.

First off, no expert gets to serve anyone by the authority of their expertise or attainment. There isn’t actually any authority to be found in expertise or attainment as far as transaction between 2 parties is concerned. As a painting contractor, I got my authorization to serve from the homeowner, having earned their confidence to be able to address their need. I claimed expertise and the desire to address their need, yes, but the authority to serve came from them. I had something they wanted, and they entered an exchange with me.

When for whatever reasons, they came to prefer the services of another, their attention was drawn elsewhere and so was the inherent authorization to serve them also withdrawn.

When you find yourself being drawn to a resource, be it a latest author, a counsellor, a mega-church, or a shaman in Peru, or a dentist for that matter, you are deepening in authorization to be served, while you are exchanging energies, and thereby confirming the next step in deepening process.

This, like any relationship can be, and often is, a big honeymoon experience that ends in hurt feelings and slamming of doors as either party projects images onto the other that aren’t accurate as each other’s shadow gets to come out and play, and wreak some havoc.

While the 3D self is very quick to claim victimhood in these situations after having been ‘swindled’ out of money or time, the higher self chose and even orchestrated and drew the harm experience for its growth and evolution into more of the love essence that it is.

From a higher dimensional perspective, we are now now being invited to feel a deeper consciousness about what it is we are being drawn into and why, as we let ourselves reach out to a resource around us. We are also being asked to feel deeply what it is that we really want, and this makes us more vulnerable, not less.

I’m offering and developing SoulFullHeart work because I believe it is the best thing out there, hands down. If I believed any differently about another kind of work or spiritual paradigm, I would go embrace that work deeply and offer that. This is my claim of my expertise, my heart and my passion. At root, I want to serve people for whom anything less wouldn’t be enough for them. This isn’t ‘all are welcome’ like a sign on a church door. This is all are loved, yes, but in order to go deeper, we need to meet on the ground of what we both really want, and why, and to let that form the projectile of the relationship.

We’re all being asked to quit pissing around and deeply go into our chosen spiritual choices and practices. For many, that will mean blowing themselves right out of a given spiritual attachment. I embraced Christianity so deeply this life that my press through the front door found me facing the back door much sooner than part of me was prepared for, and herein lies the fear of changing this much, at this pace, and finding yourself on the outside, feeling alone and having to look deeply within.

Welcome to Ascension!

This is what you came here for. You don’t have to go it alone any longer than you do need to, if you are willing to want and need and ache for what it is that you really want.

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com/sessions

I invite you to check into SoulFullHeart deeply if it’s energies call to you deeply. I don’t actually want to serve paltry interest. I want to serve your arising passion, heart and honest vulnerability. We offer a free intro session and in exchange we ask you to confirm your interest and respond to 3 simple questions. Then we go from there, finding and feeling more of what it is that we both most deeply want, together. Let me know if you are interested in the free intro and why. I look forward to hearing from you. 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Gifts Of Consciously Connecting With Our 4D Self And Other ‘Lower’ Vibrational Aspects

Published on by Jelelle Awen2 Comments
By Jelelle Awen
I went shopping yesterday with Raphael Awen, still sort of ‘dropped into’ the energy of a part of me. This part of me is named Jillian, my birth name and the name I started to go by when I began my awakening journey many years ago. Jillian is what I would feel to be my 4D self aspect. In SoulFullHeart, we see the 4D self as the part(s) of us that is in transition, going through death and rebirth, awakenings and dark nights…the energy inside that is integrating the 5D and higher frequencies that are coming in into our physical and emotional bodies and into our lives. The 4D self is the pre-transformation caterpillar AND the butterfly that emerges out of the cocoon……transformed and yet ever transforming too.
 
We feel a part of us in SoulFullHeart as ‘dropped in’ when we consciously bring their energy forward and let them speak through us, sharing their feelings and reactions. Rather than just becoming these emotions, we ‘hold space’ for them to come through ‘as a part of us’. There is a difference in how this feels inside as there is more sense of trust, the bigger picture, and more visercal sense of connection to the love that is holding it all. Rather just ‘fusing’ or ‘becoming’ a reactive, emotional state, we feel the separation between us and this reactive energy. We gain this separation or de-fusion through connection with the 3D and 4D aspects of us AS parts of us, forming a relationship, choosing names.
 
I am still amazed at how distinctive the energies and frequencies of parts ARE as they come through. As I dropped into Jillian yesterday to talk with Raphael when he sweetly invited her out, I felt how her energy is different than mine as Jelelle. It is very familiar to me after many years of connecting with her and has gotten softer and more trusting. Jillian has some fears, concerns, wounds, issues as a result of experiencing the intense transition we are undergoing from 3D to 4D to 5D and what she has experienced of this through this life and other lifetimes too. Jillian is the energy within me that is vulnerable to these changes and feels them acutely inside herself and toward others too. Thank the Divine for Jillian as, really, she connects me to my transitional humanity and reminds me how difficult this transition can be. When I feel compassion for Jillian inside me, I can then feel compassion for ALL souls and what they are going through in choosing to be here now during this intense phase of transition.
 
Before recent situations that have ‘triggered’ Jillian into my awareness again, I have been feeling quite non-reactive, centered, in high frequencies mostly and anchored in 5D or higher often as Jelelle (my soul name or 5D self). Yet, to stay there and bypass what my emotional body is feeling on my trailing edges (as represented by Jillian) is not what I am here to do, be, or lead. I could use my access to high vibe soul frequencies and Metasoul aspects to transcend Jillian’s feelings, but then I don’t get the gifts of what she is here to offer me nor the integration of her energies into mine.
 
Becoming conscious partners with our 3D and 4D aspects allows for an organic integration that is held with much love, even as it requires challenge and boundary setting at times from our 5D aspect too toward the defensive and emotional energies these parts of us have become and taken in. I don’t feel that we can actually ‘leave behind’ these denser frequency aspects of our being nor are we meant to…yet rather to feel and integrate and be with them. I think much suffering can occur in the denial of these frequencies inside of ourselves (and abuses of others too) and so many gifts from the willingness to bridge with them.
 
That is the process that we offer in SoulFullHeart and also how we live our daily lives. We start the process during weekly sessions by feeling into with you how your 3D, 4D, and 5D self are expressing in the seven areas of life…it can be very illuminating! There is more in this article about that and we’ll be sharing a group call we did on Sunday about this soon: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions
 
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

You Can Have What You Want

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By Raphael Awen

You CAN have what you want.

If there is any catch to this, it’s this: You CAN have what you want. Yes, you read that correctly. Actually having what you want is what scares the crap out of us, and subconsciously keeps us at bay from drawing what we most deeply want.

You and I both may say “Oh, I’d drop this dump in a heartbeat if I could afford a nicer place”. But thinking and feeling that we are limited because we can’t afford a nicer place is a perception coming deeply from the 3D conditioned self. From a 5D perspective, there is nothing that doesn’t belong to you. There is nothing that is off limits to your pleasure and enjoyment. If your and my 3D experience is going through some experience of lack, that is because we dialled that up.

Lack is a very rare and precious thing from a 5D perspective. You can’t find it just anywhere. You need to dial it up in a 3D world and reality and enter a weird thing called the time, space and material reality in order to experience and learn from what it feels like to taste and be in lack.

There are things you as a soul just can’t learn, being the infinite abundance that you are, without a forgetting and remembering experience. You are actually seeking to be born into what you already are and always were.

Which is kind of cool when you think of it. Becoming a millionaire or has got be way more fun than just being a millionaire. It’s the process we are seeking, because it is in experience that we have these ‘birthing into’ experiences that make us more than we were, and even more than we infinitely at present ARE, if your mind can grok a piece of that. You already are infinite love, but in a process of forgetting and remembering that you are infinite love, you become more than infinite love. Infinite love that doesn’t know and feel that it IS infinite love, is of no felt value. It is worth everything, but it has no identity, no healthy ego yet to go about and strut its stuff.

You are the hottest stuff the universe is made of, and the fact that you are able to dial up a shitty apartment is utterly astounding to the 5D consciousness that also lives in you. Holy f*ck. It’s all so holy in fact, that no polite or impolite language can take away from it or add to it.

You already are having from a 5D perspective exactly what you want. If a better apartment on a 3D level is what your 3D self is wanting, then you have some negotiating to do with your 5D self, because YOU are the only one pulling the levers here. You’ve got some lessons to finish up.

Where this gets really interesting is to systematically and methodically open the door to getting to know and feel your 3D selves, your 4D selves and your 5D self.

We set out to do just that through SoulFullHeart process and I’d like to give you a taste of a piece of our curriculum that we work through in early session space with facilitants. It’s an awesome blend of heart opening, intuition, the imaginarium ALONG WITH a system, a method, a discipline… The feminine and the masculine blend as a vehicle to take you somewhere. Get ready though, it’s a bit of a long article and video that will only secure your heart and soul attention if you are ready for it, meaning you may well have to negotiate with your 3D aspects just to be able to get into this. It will take time and heart and It will change you, as it has and continues to change us.

The article and video offers a self guided aspect that we wanted to share with people for free to let them feel into if committing the time and money to working more directly with a facilitator and regular committed SoulFullHeart process is something that calls to them.

Here is that article: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

I am really curious to hear how it lands in you, and to digest it further with you when you are ready in a free ½ hour intro session that we offer as a bridge for people feeling into deepening process together.

Raphael Awen

…and if you’d like to connect with our energy tomorrow on our group call around Sacred Union that Jelelle Awen and I are leading, here are the details for you to do that here. It’s gonna be good…, they always are when deeply interested people like you show up with heart and desire.https://www.facebook.com/events/254241058395276/

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

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I Want To Shake Men

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By Raphael Awen

I want to shake men.

I want to yell in their face ‘Why are you here!?’ and ‘What in the hell is it that you want!?’… even if I piss a few men off in the process.

I want to yet again shake and awaken myself.

I don’t want your or my settled niceness. I don’t want your or my spiritual adeptness at the cost of our passion. I don’t want your adaptation. I want to see and feel your rawness….because I so want to see and feel more of my own.

As a man, there is a way that you represent all men, and even ARE all men. When you settle, we all settle. When you choose not to feel, you set a far reaching agenda for all men.

There is a also a way that you are surrounded with every ounce of love and resource that exists…. And to significant degree, you are immune to all of it, because you are afraid.

You are afraid of your own truth. You are afraid of what you really want. You are afraid of your own passion. You are afraid of none other than yourself and the journey called your life.

It’s not necessarily true for all of you, but it is true for a part of you. And until you get in touch with this afraid part of you, you have not even entered your own kingdom, let alone made any claim over it. Until you enter your own sovereign kingdom in this way, you are on the edge of amounting to little more than a bad example, which in the universe’s economy is still considered a lot, but is it enough for you?

Everything in your power, but yet nothing in your realization…that is, to write home about, the home that you came from.

I’m surprised a bit at the edge in my words today. They are directed at myself as much as they are shared with others. I want to advocate for my truth, in my own kingdom, the land of my own sovereignty, and be matched by other kings of heart. This is finding a new agenda for manhood. This is finding out why and what our gender polarity is all about and our relationship to the opposite gender.

It begins with owning all that’s going on inside for you, as best you can feel it and describe it, and then to find the boy inside and relieve this boy who yet only knows hiding all he feels. There is very serious work to do. There is getting real with why you are here and what you really want. To not see the cost side of this ledger only means you are not here yet. If life as you currently know it is structured around disconnect and hiding, then any forward movement inward will have a one to one correlation with a necessary deconstructive movement outward, that you are going to have to begin self-lovingly negotiating, as soon as you are ready.

This is the heart passion that lives in painted moving swirls on the walls inside of my truth, and the fire colours that colour the underside of the clouds that float through my skies. This is my own parallel dimension where I must be while we as men sort out our next going on place together. BUT, if you don’t want your shit, I don’t want you. I can’t really want you until you want you. Not anymore.

I used to need men to validate my own subconscious need to hide. Then I got really curious to the point of being possessed about my own need to hide. I entered the domain of my own hiding and to this day, I still am. I’m reporting from my own cave, now transmuting into an infinite portal to so much more than I can’t even describe. Truth be told, if I hadn’t felt into my own fears heretofore, I simply wouldn’t have the balls to go any further in what is on the docket now.

But I really don’t want to do this and be this alone, because I don’t have to. I am called to lead and I feel more and more resolved around leading. The payoff for me in serving other men to awaken to their own true power is getting to be around other infinitely powerful men. Truth is, as I said, I’m going to need it and I’m going to need them if what I’m seeing in front of me concerning my own yet still to be inhabited power is real.

So my love of you is unconditional, but my want of you is very conditional. I’m asking for more of you because I’m looking for more of me. I can love you from a distance, and even weep a broken heart for you from a distance, but to enter sacred domain together, I need you and I to come together on mutually awakening terms, awakening and attuning to what it is that you really want.

Now, if you are ready for it, there is a bus leaving for the destination of more of what you really want. You may not like this bus, but you need to find one you do like, or drive your own, because all men, and even all species are waiting for you to choose the destination of your more.

No pressure, and all that! 🙂

I love you and I need you and I want you!

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com

We are currently offering a free intro session (to men and women) for those considering entering regular session space with us. If you are interested, let us know and we’ll send you some things we’ll ask you to read and a few questions to respond to, to further help you see if this is or isn’t what is calling you. More details on that are here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

We also have another group call around Sacred Union that Jelelle Awen and I will be leading this coming Saturday and these always are amazing to be a part of. We ask for a minimum donation of 11 USD over paypal, and then we send you the link to join in over Zoom Web Meetings. The details are here:https://www.facebook.com/events/254241058395276/ and we would so love to have you join us.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit  www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

Return LOVE in money form: https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheart or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.