Navigating The Confluence Of Change

Just now recovering from one of the worst ‘flus’ in a long time. This tends to occur for me when going through lots of life changes at once. I have also recognized that it was at the confluence of the last 9 days, 9 months, and 9 years. Very catalytic and life-changing cycles all ending at one point. BOOOSH!!
It felt like I got hit by a Mack truck with symptoms all over the map, head to toe (including the teeth…a part of me needs to say.) I could feel how much my poor body has held this life and clearly in other lives. I have become more aware of it but this particular convergence really highlighted it.
I have come across so much darkness and suffering in myself and my soul over these cycles. I have also found more light & love than I ever expected to be privy to in one lifetime. This can be a challenge for the body to integrate in such a short period of time. I experienced myself differently during the past SFH Equinox gathering in a way that I haven’t fully assimilated yet. This brings up its own shadow/fear/excitement response. It needs to come up if I am going to continue to serve Love those I am meant to serve.
I saw my power. My gift. My desire to serve others, crossing territory that, in some ways, my soul has spent a millennia in. I felt the uniqueness of myself as a man, however I choose to define that. I have a sacred role. Not out of a duty but as a passion to create bridges into the New. I felt a growing closeness to and love for my feminine that continues to blossom everyday. I don’t know how I could do this without her.
I found a feminine star seed that I am just starting to tap into that I feel as a priceless gift to bestow upon me when the time is ripe. There are codes floating all around waiting for their landing pad. This is an exciting new frontier for all of me. The coming together of the Dark codes and the Light codes. They all have a role to play within us.
I am releasing a lot of my past relationship with Kalayna which has been a big catalyst for this rumble. So many gifts that I have been mining from the letting go. One being a revived relationship with my inner teenager and feeling his energetic bind with Mom that needed more purging.
On the physical level, a big detox of all the drugs, alcohol, and smoke that I consumed up until I started this journey 9 years ago.
Thanks for taking this in with me. I needed to unpack this a bit for myself and yet I felt to share as it may serve in its own way. It is both a personal chronicling and a shared experience.
We are all in a time of great change. How we are with those changes greatly influence how we move through them and where we land on the other side.


Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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Energy Update: Body Toxicities And Clearings Coming Up As Supermoon Energies Increase

By Jelelle Awen


You may be feeling these incoming Supermoon and Eclipse codes coming into your body already! This could be flushing up, bringing up, and purging up what needs to be let go; clearing toxicities out of your ‘every living cell’, as I’ve been offered this ascension process is doing and offering. I am hearing from people that they are having more intense experiences of FLU symptoms, nausea, sore throat, energy/heat surges and flashes, headaches and overall body pains and tensions, ‘INfections’, congestion, and more since the first Supermoon at the beginning of January.

The pattern of experiencing this physically often goes along with cosmic events, such as portal and gateway openings, to reflect what is happening in our inner cosmos too. Yet, the upcoming Supermoon, the second one this month, plus an eclipse is A LOT of Divine Feminine energy to digest into our energy fields and, therefore, for our bodies to receive too.

These Divine Feminine frequencies are coming in to offer illumination and revelation. She is holding the space for deaths and rebirths, transitions and shiftings into the new, exposure of shadow frequencies in hearts and souls and bodies to receive healing under the light of love. This process seems to include what has been ‘stored’ in the bodies and in the chakras (which are intimately connected to the body and all of its organs and cells as we ARE energy.) I share more here about these Supermoon codes in this recent energy update:

Our bodies are the densest aspect of our BEing by necessity as they form our ‘earth suit’ of survival here. Your Inner Protectors can ‘fuse’ to your physical bodies, as they are supported to do by 3D conditioning. This part of you can often feel that they ARE your body without much connection to your more expansive consciousness. This over identification creates a layer of resistance and fear that is sourced within your body.

Most Protectors seem to be ‘based’ in the third chakra or solar plexus/belly area or personal will chakra. The third chakra can be our main 3D energy processing chakra and we are now moving into processing energy/reality through our higher heart, which seems to be a blend of the fourth or heart chakra and the fifth/throat chakra. As the third chakra is receiving new codes of healthy self empowerment and surrender to the Divine, toxicities come up to be removed, often manifesting in nausea and even vomiting. As the higher heart starts to receive energies, it can seem like it is ‘burning’ too and the lungs kicking up and coughing up toxicities as well.

It does seem to help soothe the body to connect with your Protector directly to feel what their concerns and fears are about the ascension process. OF COURSE they may feel attached to 3D life and the processing grounds through the body that they have become familiar and comfortable with. Inner negotiation with this part of yourself can OPEN up more surrender and trust to the process and lessen the body symptoms.

Connection to the deeper feelings coming up in your emotional body that then manifest as body reactions also often gets to the ‘deeper’ causes. Rather than just writing all body symptoms off as ‘part of the ascension process’, being open to feeling what is going on and BEing with it allows for them to clear and move. I share more about this in my video about relating with your body during ascension:

Other things that seem to help soothe these symptoms of code integration and detox are connection with the Divine Mother/Divine Feminine guides through meditation; listening to high vibrational solfeggio music; cleaning your chakras and activating your ascension chakras; feeling what your body wants to eat and what it no longer can tolerate; taking in sunshine (more codes yet it seems to help with integration as you surrender to letting them in); and grounding to Mother Gaia through a grounding cord connection. Here is a body ascension soothing meditation that I did with Mother Mary that people have told me helps them relax, surrender, and fall asleep. One of my facilitants recently had oral surgery and said that listening to it really helped her recover faster and hold space for the process of body healing:

There is an aspect of this body detoxification and purging that is JUST part of the ascension process. It represents ALL the toxicities we have taken in living in 3D reality; all the densities and layers that parts of us have needed to create and cling to in order to survive here. Holding with surrender and curiousity what is manifesting in your body, even as it is temporarily uncomfortable and even painful, allows for a self loving space for the experience and the eventual INtegration.


Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

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Releasing Body Traumas At The Cellular Level During Ascension

By Jelelle Awen


I spent the first days (maybe weeks) of my life inside of a incubator. I was six weeks premature and had underdeveloped lungs or specifically small air sacs. The incubator provided the controlled environment I had left early in order to begin an incarnation during one of the potentially most tumultuous times in human history. The fact of my early birth and time in the incubator are aspects of my life story, yet, I had previously relived the emotional reactions I felt during that time during a process group many years ago: fear, powerlessness, and a strong desire to go back ‘home’.

This last week, with my lungs in an agitated state and a deep cough, my body took me back to this time when I was newly born with fragile lungs. I heard the whoosh of the machines near me and the muffled sound of the nurses’ voices. Occasional hands would come in through the openings and sooth me or take me out of the incubator for feeding and cleaning. What I had not previously remembered were the light beings around me, brightness outlining angel wings. I had not realized before that I came close to death (maybe my mother never told me or didn’t know). The Ethereal Beings were there to offer that I needed to stay to live out my purpose on Earth….I had ‘a lot to do’.

I could feel the memory of this newborn experience living in the cells of my body, in my DNA, which as it is upgrading in the ascension process is letting go of the memories stored within from my lifetime as a carbon-based human being. I also felt this week the memories stored at a cellular level from fifteen years of cigarette smoking. I started when I was 17 and quit nearly 13 years ago now, yet the damage from so many inhalations of nicotine and other chemicals seems to live inside of my cells: in their memory. Over the years, I felt the emotional pain that drew me to smoking and, also, the biggest motivation of all, which was a means to escape daily life for a few minutes and have peace to myself. This week, I am experiencing the cells purging the memories of this repeated damage.

I’m sharing these experiences because they illuminate for me an interesting aspect to the physical phases of the ascension process. This process is about raising our vibrational frequency to experience a higher consciousness and filtering of reality that is more in alignment with our essence as Infinite Love and from a Divine source. What does it actually mean for a body to become a crystalline body or Christ Consciousness/fifth dimensional (and higher) body? None of us actually know, although many are experiencing the transition to it.

We are experiencing food craving changes and appetite shifts. This is leading to more and more people choose being vegetarian or vegan, eat more organic vegetables, no longer eating processed foods, as they connect eating certain foods with a raised or lowered vibrational frequency. We are getting headaches that are beyond just some pressure in the head and that feel like things are actually getting rearranged inside of our skulls which, in a way, they are. The pituitary and pineal glands especially are getting rewired and expanded. You can almost hear them crackling with new energetic strands being wired up. I have seen mine forming new crystal structures that look like snowflakes. They become the new processing center for the new Crystalline human, along with the heart chakra.

There are the ascension flu symptoms that I’ve been experiencing lately which I now feel, as I shared, is actually the cells letting go of memories of illness and damage. We can’t take these denser frequencies ‘with us’ and so they need to be moved out of the vessel to continue the rise in vibrational frequency upward. I recommend thinking about what might be stored in your body’s cells, what memories of 3D life might you need to heal and release? There doesn’t seem to be ‘time’ when it comes to cellular memory, so even the earliest childhood experiences of physical trauma are stored.

The sense that I have about all this, and what I have been offered many times by my guides, is that this is all part of a sacred process. This sacred process has been given to us as a gift by Gaia herself who is ascending already and our hostess is inviting us to come along. It’s a process provided to us by star beings who want to exist with us in a collaborative world on a Golden Earth. The discomfort of purging, releasing what no longer serves, moving beyond the old to embrace the new….it is all worth it in the dawning of a new beginning, new reality, with new bodies in a new world made of love.

Jelelle Awen is an 5D ascension teacher, writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit for more information about sessions, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.

Ascension Flu Offers Opportunity To Go Within

By Jelelle Awen


Ascension flu has been making its way through our home. Not surprising considering how much upgrading, shifting, and transformation is going on for both Raphael and I. Every day in the last month is seeming to bring new clarities, altered states, awakenings, intense connections with Ethereal beings….big shifts both personally and in our relationship.This is what it feels like the increasing electromagnetic energy fluctuations of 2017 are offering ALL of us.

On one level, it‘s the typical flu with runny nose, congestion, cough, fever, overall tired feeling. Yet, felt from the perspective of ascension, you can get a sense of the sloughing off that is going on….letting go of old frequencies, congested frequencies, to continue to rise up into higher dimensional spaces. The cells of our bodies are changing at the DNA level and with that a flushing out of toxins that have been stored for life.

Always, when the body doesn’t feel well, is there an even deeper invitation to go within, hold space for yourself, feel what is going on inside. My creative output of the last month has been a lot, the words just come and come with the next project and piece arising before the last one is complete. Always from joy, not obligation, does this creativity arise and is just fueled by the recently more robust response from those of you who have taken in my writing with such resonance and love.

I can feel in my heart chakra, in my chest, that I have taken in some heart cries and aches of the ‘world’…maybe because I’ve been posting about sacred romance and the longing runs so deep in our collective consciousness AND unconsciousness. Also, fourth chakra congestion is about letting in more love. This I can feel for myself and I hear Metatron offering, “Yes, Jelelle, you serve love and you give and you share AND also you let in and receive too. It is a flow, a circle, a reciprocal opportunity.”

I feel like I have been letting in this new reality of response and yet, of course, there is the adjustment that is at a deeper level, a tendril here and there of unworthiness or just a sense of surreality about what it feels like is coming for me personally and for SoulFullHeart…..a phase of growth and goodness, of new involvement and drawing more souls to engage and co-create with us.

So, with this FLU (Filaments Lighting Up!) I am going within, creating a little cocoon inside and letting in self love and care (plus the wonderful love of my beloved) and Metatron, who is a bit impatient to keep creating with me (now we are to write a book together of our dialogues with each other!) and yet, he seems OK to wait, letting this one ride out. He has about four books that he wants me to start reading anyway!

There is certainly nothing glamourous about this aspect of the ascension process, yet it feels sacred none-the-less and an important adjustment and realignment to the new consciousness and body upgrades coming in!

Jelelle Awen is an 5D ascension teacher, writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit for more information about sessions, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.