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Celebrating Pre-50th Birthday W/Beloveds

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By Jelelle Awen

After quite a full day of responding to the responses to my post yesterday, welcoming dozens of new followers and friends to my page, setting up some intros and sessions…I THEN got to go to a pre- 50th birthday celebration party with my beloveds!

My birthday is actually next Wednesday, June 1st, but we celebrated early as a group because Raphael and I will be out of town on vacation next week to visit the coastal town of Nazere, Portugal. We haven’t been to the ocean since October, so we are def looking forward to taking in the negative ions and ocean codes there, plus just spending some sacred time alone together to bond and connect. Nazere has the highest and biggest waves in the world, although not this time of year!

It was so lovely to be honored last night by such an intimate circle of souls who resonate and know me SO well. Every gift, whether material or not, was just so perfect. My daughter Raianna Shai made me one of her stunning macrame creations that I proudly put on immediately! Bey Magdalene gave me a beautiful pashima scarf and other sweet items.

The highlight was Gabriel and Kasha singing me a song that they wrote about me! My goodness that was a lot to let in, I cried through most of it and then felt a flood of love afterwards as well. Letting in, breathing, letting in, crying some more to let in.

I really feel like I am rebirthing into a New me, esp with this ongoing fasting that I am doing that seems to be purifying my whole being and opening my heart up quite wide. Cellular cleansing and rewiring is going on, along with necessary detox too as my body upgrades.

I feel truly blessed and grateful for my life and those beings in it! And for YOU too, taking in these words and images, and celebrating along with me! ❀

Love,

Jelelle Awen

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A Reflection Of Me

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Birthdays are interesting days. Parts of us have interesting reactions to them. They want to run, hide, enjoy and celebrate. From an essential point of view, every day is a birthing day. We get to arise new into our BEing and make a mark onto the world and into ourselves. We can create, learn, and grow from all our experiences and relationships.

Yet, on THIS day, third dimensionally speaking, we began a quest and a journey where we chose to forget this essential remembrance in order to find our Selves again. We demarcate a point in spacetime to reflect, appreciate, and honor life itself. For me, it is letting in time to love myself and this inner world of parts and Metasoul aspects that are a part of this healing and leading quest that I have chosen. It is also about giving thanks to those that have been an intimate and integral part of it….my beloved soul family and those that have been a part of this wild ride of ascension.

Today I am honored to be in a sacred union romance with Kalayna Colibri, who has been a beacon for my soul and heart for six years now even when we were just β€œfriends”. She is the Queen to my King and for whom I am madly in love with. She has never ceased to call to my bigness as well as seeking her own. A part of me has called her the one he never saw coming, but somehow I knew different.

I have known Jelelle Awen for almost 30 years now, which seems to span lifetimes and dimensions. She is the one that showed me life when parts of me only saw suffering. I have died and come back to life many times from her vision and remembrance of who I am when I was too confused to do the same for myself. She is a mirror of my bigness and that frankly scares the shadow out of me! A true gift to me every single year.

In this quest of the Sacred Masculine, there has been one man by my side in this feminine offering. Raphael Awen has been a template of a father, brother, teacher, mentor, guide, and King. He has gone deep into all relationship with a courageous vulnerability that stirs the heart and defies what we as men are used to seeing from the collective and for that, I am forever changed.

My daughter, Raianna Shai, has shown me that Joy is the natural location of Soul. Her unique soul, ever since she was a wee one, has always been on a course to bring this Joy to others in the world, even when that joy has been met by heartache and challenge. She is far more than a daughter, but a teacher and a reminder of what our essence truly IS.

And then there is all of those that have been a part of this experiment and journey called SoulFullHeart. The courageous hearts and souls that have gone into the Deep and continue to do so. You are inspiring and amazing and I am honored to have you all a part of my life. I have much gratitude for all the people that have been followed my words and been touched by them. Your reflection and letting in is a daily gift to me as well as a joy and honor.

So on this day of a personal Earth birthing, I celebrate you and me together. Now let’s go eat cake on our behalf!!!

Love to you all and thank you again for all you ARE.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.


For Jelelle’s Birthday: To Jelelle Awen, As We Celebrate YOUR Day!

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by Kalayna Colibri

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For all that you hold and have held…

Thank you.

For all that you’ve been through, moved through, found your way to the other side through…

Thank you.

For your courage to be human AND spread your wings too…

Thank you.

For the beauty you are, that you have and that you add in every moment to this world…

Thank you.

For the realness and reality of your truest being, the messy, the light, the shadowy depths and the highest reaches of hallowed sweetness…

Thank you.

For your depths of creativity, your sacred feminine alchemy, your vulnerable, mesmerizing leadership…

Thank you.

For all those times of bringing me back in, bringing me your truth, opening your heart to more love and holding difficult though necessary boundaries that have helped both you and I grow SO much…

Thank you.

For your constant templating, your reminders of how to love and advocate for yourself…

Thank you.

For ALL of the double vision led NEWnesses of incoming rumbles that lead to sweeter lands and waters for true soul and heart substance and sustenance…

Thank you.

For all of the hugs, the reflections, the sessions, the guidance, the LOVE…

Thank you.

I feel as if I couldn’t thank you enough for all that your heart and soul have been and signed up for and walked through with me, with us, and on your own too. There’s no word beyond β€œthank you” in our spoken language, yet LOVE seems to be the one that surpasses it all…

So in love, with love, for love and by love… I LOVE you and LOVE that we get to share LOVE and grow in LOVE together.

Happy day of your human birth into this lifetime and this dimension, Soul, Heart and Energy BEing, Jelelle Awen! ❀

Letting In Love On Our Birthdays

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Compassion flows the strongest from self love, not self sacrifice.

Note: This is a series of blog entries sharing experiences and conversations I have while meditating and opening myself to the frequencies of Kuan Yin, a female form of a Bodhisattva or enlightened, ascended teacher and face of the Divine Mother. To read the first in this series, please go here.Β 

By Jelelle Awen

I am diligent, repeating my β€œMa Om” mantra and touching parts of my body, imagining Kuan Yin merging with me. I particularly hover my hands over my seven chakras, which are whirling centers of energy in our etheric or subtle body. I grip a rose quartz in my hand as that is the stone that holds the energy of the Divine Mother to me.

I feel the warmth of Kuan Yin’s presence and her voice, bright in my head, saying, β€œHappy Birthday, Jilly Bird!”

I am a little surprised by her enthusiasm about my 44th birthday. β€œIs it happy? I mean, is it really anything?”

β€œIt is a celebration of you! I celebrate you!” She enthuses at me.

β€œBirthdays are an illusion, aren’t they?” I ask, ever trying to be the good student.

β€œIn the sense of….there is no time, yes. In the sense of……you being born and dying every arising moment rather than just being born in one moment, yes.”

β€œYes, and in the sense of numbers of years on earth being meaningless to reflect true maturity.”

She smiles her soft smile at me.

β€œIn previous years I have felt a young part of me, my inner child, become very excited about my birthday,” I say. β€œShe would want to feel special and she wanted attention. This year, she feels content inside of me and, in some ways, like this day is the same as any other.”

β€œBirthdays offer a space to receive appreciation, recognition, and well wishes. You want these, don’t you?”

I don’t have to think about this for long. β€œOf course. Although sometimes it can be a struggle to let it in.”

β€œYes, a struggle. This is what to feel today, Jelelle. On your birthday. To feel letting in love into your heart.”

At that moment, I feel a surge of warm energy in my fourth or heart chakra. It radiates out, like the sun, like a stone dropped into a pond rippling soft waves in all directions.

I feel the capacity to let in love expand with Her energy and Her encouragement.

I also feel how compassion has to start with myself before it can truly overflow to others. Letting the love and appreciation I receive on my birthday from those people most intimate with me creates an overflow that can then go to others. This is the true way that compassion flows the strongest……from self love, not self sacrifice.

I carry this feeling of letting in with me as I check my emails and my facebook account. I am brought to tears a few times by the outpouring of love and appreciation that I receive from others, especially those in our SoulFullHeart community.

And, I feel in this where my heart is more comfortable still giving out then letting in. Even after years of being in a marriage with a mate who showers me with affection and attention. Even after years of receiving gratitude from students who I serve and have served. Even after years of feeling connection with the Divine Mother and the exquisite sense of being loved by Her as a beloved daughter.

The process of letting in and receiving love is an ongoing one and I believe a much harder energy to inhabit than giving love. It is a wonderful practice though, on our birthdays or any other β€˜normal’ day.

~

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine and union facilitator, soul scribe, waySHOWer, galactic love ambassador, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author ofΒ Β Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And BeyondΒ and an upcoming book to be released on June 1st,Β Sacred Human, Arising Wonder.Β VisitΒ soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.Β Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings atΒ https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Sacred Re-Birthday

Published on by Gabriel Heartman

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By Christopher Tydeman

In each of us, we hold a sacred human seed. Β An embryo, if you will. Β There is not one person that does not have it, as we are all a part of All That Is. Β Our destiny is to manifest, give birth, to this divine child within us.

Yesterday was my birthday. Β I reread my blog from last year and felt the emotional place I was in. Β It was a time of major change in my life, as it is again this year. Β Last year I was birthing into a new relationship with myself, SoulFullHeart, a mate, and the Divine. Β This year the same statement is true, just on a deeper ground. Β Last year, I was letting go all I was. Β This year I am letting in all I am.

The birthing process in SoulFullHeart is not a simple task. Β It can be a very trying time for the part of us that is resisting the Divine flow of growth and change. Β The level of pain is equal to the level of resistance. Β A part of me says, β€œYou make it sound like torture!” Β This is not a physical pain that I refer to, but an emotional period of letting go and letting in.

In each of us, we hold a sacred human seed. Β An embryo, if you will. Β There is not one person that does not have it, as we are all a part of All That Is. Β Our destiny is to manifest, give birth, to this divine child within us. Β It is always striving for this as a plant is drawn toward the sun. Β It will not be denied. Β Does that sound like fate? Β It does to me, but the rate of that growth and the choice to bloom rest solely in our sacred authority.

There is a Divine paradox in that. Β I have a destiny, for which I won’t be denied, but get to choose how and when I want that to unfold. Β Fate and freewill. Β When we are awakened to this truth within us, there comes a time when we have to make a challenging choice. Do we resist this growth and stay stuck in our painfully protective shell, or do we move through a temporal pain (or β€œpane” as in window pane) to be born into a bigger more expansive place, with more air and more light?

The scary part is that we have no clue what lies on the other side of that birth canal, just as a baby doesn’t when they exit the womb. Β In that moment there is the Mother, our Mother, who is waiting with Her blanket of love to wrap you up and help you feel it will all be okay. Β You are surrounded by others in a soulful-hearted family who have been there too, and will welcome you into your reality and emotional consciousness with open arms and hearts. Β This is your first sacred SoulFullHeart birthday. Β Welcome home.

Β Christopher Tydeman has been embracing the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life off and on since August, 2010. He is a SoulFullHeart facilitator-in-training, author onΒ this blog, and he hosted theΒ SoulFullHeart Experience Radio Show.Β For more information about the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, visit soulfullheart.com

A SoulFullHeart Birthday

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By Cristian Tydeman

When I was a kid, my birthday was a day in which, for one 24 hour period, I was the star.Β  I took center stage and everyone else was my supporting cast.Β  It felt good to be recognized and acknowledged for just being me.Β  So much so, that I remember telling people it was my birthday, just to receive those accolades.Β  A cheesy grin would be painted on my face.Β  β€œIf it could only be like that every day, for everyone,” says my young Christopher part.Β  Words of angelic desire, from the lips of a child.

As I got older, the feeling around my birthday was that it was β€œjust another day”.Β  I appreciated the phone calls, the cards, and the gifts, but somehow the magic just wasn’t there anymore.Β  Or I just couldn’t let it in.Β  The focus of the birthday became the number and not the pats on the back and the sweet cards from my daughter.Β  Somewhere along the way, I didn’t feel I was worth it.Β  Or at least a part of me didn’t.

This is hitting me pretty hard in the moment.Β  This feeling that, out of all the days during my life, a part of me couldn’t let in love for that ONE day.Β  A part of me couldn’t enjoy the beauty and joy around him.Β  The same letting in that I allowed as a child.Β  I had become desensitized to my own heart.

But this birthday was different than any other.Β  Today I let in the love from those that I love the most.Β  So much so, I found myself crying in the middle of my classroom as I read emails from my new SoulFullHeart family.Β  My young Christopher, wanting so desperately to be with them and eat cake and ice cream and be sung to.Β  β€œNo gifts, Cristian, just love, please,” is the only thing he can say with tears in his eyes.

The tears are of longing and ache to be there with them, but also of letting go.Β  Letting go of the family he used to spend his birthdays with.Β  The birth family where the birthday memories began.Β  Yeah, we got cards and a gift from them.Β  There is love behind them that we acknowledge and are grateful for.Β  But it is not the β€œlove” that neither I nor he desire.Β  It is a β€œlove” for an old me.Β  The sentiment being sent was that β€œno matter who you are we still love you.”  It seems like a sweet gesture, but that is not good enough anymore.Β  I am not swayed by guilt anymore.Β  I want a family who will feel me AND my parts. I want a family who will shower my young Christopher with love and praise.Β  I want a family who will lovingly challenge us without the bite of criticism, judgment, or faithlessness.Β  I want a family who I have a common ground with. Β A family we can learn from and respect by their own example.Β  I choose a SoulFullHeart family.

I am grateful for all my birth family provided for me.Β  They are why I am here, becoming who I am.Β  I drew them for a reason, and my time with them has been completed, at least for the short term.Β  If they so choose to go into their own hearts, and heal their own shadow, I would be there greeting them with open arms.Β  Until then, this may be my last birthday in contact with them.Β  Hence, the tears.

On the flip side, there is newness.Β  A re-birth, if you will.Β  The uncovering and discovering of the REAL me.Β  The ME that has been repressed and suppressed for far too long.Β  The ME that is the head of this household I call my SFH Self.Β  The ME that is the space-holder and lover of all my parts, especially my dearest Christopher.Β  They have a new father to lean into.Β  A new family to be supported and guided by.Β  As for me, I have a new love blossoming and a new NOW to create with her.Β  I have a rekindled love affair with the Divine in all Her beauty and grace.

Hello everyone.Β  Today is my first birthday and my name is Cristian.

Note from Jillian: I made this photo collage for Cristian to celebrate the day of his birth and his emerging birth into himself. Seemed appropriate for this post.:)

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