Author: Jelelle Awen

I am a long-time healer, teacher, student, and facilitator of souls and hearts. My awakening journey really began in my early 30's in 2004 when I started a process to connect with and integrate parts of myself from this life and other lifetimes/timelines as well. I have been engaged with and offering 'parts process' work ever since then! I also awakened over the years to my multidimensional spiritual gifts, capacity to be a bridge to the Divine Feminine especially, galactic ambassador abilities, and intuitive empathic capacities to 'feel' the emotional body, energy chakras, and soul field. I offer 1:1 sessions with women, group facilitation and teaching experience with me through a monthly group transmission over Zoom with Raphael. More information about virtual and in person sessions and groups with me at divineselfembodiment.com I am also a writer, Soul Scribe and author of five books: Free To Be 5D: Navigating Ascension From The Inside Out; Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension; Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality; And Keep Waking Up!: Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond. All are available now as PDF, ebook, and print editions at divineselfembodiment.com/books. My writings can be found on divineselfembodiment.com and my facebook and IG feeds.

Abundance Unity Begins From Within Your Metasoul: Messages From Sirius During Lion’s Gate

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I had such a beautiful, awe inspiring, and just plain glorious experience this morning that I don’t really know HOW to share about it, yet I feel inspired to try as it might serve as a beacon of possibility experience for you and wherever you are in your ascension journey. As I shared yesterday, the energy waves downloading from the Lion/Lioness energies were tumbling me, shifting me…inviting me into merging timelines and more experience of the non-linear reality OF reality (beyond the 3D fixed time picture.) I felt downloads and upgrades happening without a clear sense of tracking much or being able to share about it with any clarity (which sometimes is the best kind of sharing and where the ‘most effective’ teaching comes from as the mind gets out of the way!).
 
As soon as I went within and closed my eyes this morning, I felt an energy shift UP that I recognize from connecting with Metatron, high frequency guides/aspects, Star BEings. I was in a room without walls, felt like a grand ballroom or, really, a queen’s court. Standing at the front of the ‘room’ with a penetrating regal manner was a gorgeous looking and feeling lioness/humanoid with bluish skin. I felt her immediately as my Metasoul sister/guide/other lifetime aspect from Sirius. I have been interested and curious to meet my Metasoul aspect from Sirius especially with the portal opening and alignment with that planet at this time. It was ‘on my list’ and I just waited for the right time, trusting the Divine timing around it.
 
She introduced herself as “Sela” and the name reverberated through me as the familiar reUNION feelings of connecting with another aspect of my Metasoul brought up deep tears of joy mixed with sadness. Sela’s presence was queenly, regal, calm and graceful…everything that I wish to be and even feel to be in some moments as more of these higher vibrational frequencies of queen come into my this life body from integrating aspects of myself. She was very clear and wise, speaking to me immediately and directly. Sometimes, the messages are foggy or unclear, yet hers was very clear to me as was the whole experience that followed.
 
She offered me a very validating message that had deep personal meaning for me and went in on waves of love. Her reflections were then supported with every Metasoul aspect that I have connected with coming into the circle and offering me love. I was just awe struck by how their energies filling the space with so many different textures of consciousness and possibilities for humanity as we bring these into our fields more and more in a conscious way. The nature-based goodness of Lemuria as represented in Rae-Na, my Lemurian aspect. The wisdom and awe inspiring technology of the Arcturians in Binkh. The lessons and energetic powers of Atlantis in Mareeka. The choice points and transformation of the Reptilians in Shana. And many other beloved aspects too…
 
This is not ‘past’ at all or in our ‘history’….these frequencies live in us, in our Metasoul, like petals of our flower, we are all connected to these frequencies within us in a VERY personal way. One of the messages I received today was the importance of this Metasoul picture as it offers us permission and invitation to really GO INTO our soul’s legacy, to heal on much deeper, quantum levels than we have ever been able to before the karmic pains and woundings that live there. This Metasoul focus goes heart in heart with our emotional body/this life healing process and one serves the other and blend and weave beautifully together.
 
I got the very visceral sense of support and interest that BEings from these civilizations and timelines have in what is happening in our now. Sela offered that Sirians also have gone through many phases in which they were battling against themselves and others and understand how challenging this transition from 3D to higher is that we currently making right now. They are here to serve us, help us, and support us. As are all the others too. It seems that the more open we are to the INNER connection to these aspects inside of us and the integration of our galactic self…the more we can access the incredible resource of support that they can provide us. There were many other messages and pieces to this experience that I will share in future writings too. 
 
The sense of the abundance that is unity and the unity that is possible in abundance is moving through my heart in this moment in huge waves. AND, this is moving through from inside of me to me and not dependent on any other person..although it is hugely supported by others and sometimes we SO need a guide to help us navigate this inner terrain (as I did for many years and provide for others). This is the wonderful, empowering aspect of all of this! Access to this heaven is within you. Heaven HAS to start from within you as you cannot experience it without that increasing experience of unity abundance that arises from feeling ALL that needs and wants to come up to receive your love.
 
Today’s experience and ongoing flood of goodness energies into me is my gift for being open to feeling it ALL…the aches, the pains, the sorrows, the shadows, the losses, the completions, the tiredness, the tears, the fears, the knots, the binds, the set backs, the frustrations. Plus, all the goodnesses too! To feel it ALL and bring it into the light of our hearts and into LOVE….and the gift in return IS love that is self generated, pours out from growing self worth, and is Infinite in what it offers you from you BY you!!
 
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Raphael Awen and I will be digesting and sharing about the current ascension energies, the Metasoul and parts process/way of life, that we offer during a live group call on Saturday at 11:11am CST. We’d love for you to join us: https://www.facebook.com/events/141617019749771
Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Energy Update: Increasing Non-Linear Reality Processing, Metasoul Emotional Bleed Throughs, UPgrades

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Whew energies!!….here but so NOT here…there but NOT there either. Here and there and everywhere….words FAIL! Yet, I feel the trust in it ALL and so many higher BEing aspects/guides coming in every time I checked in and ‘slept’ and drifted (couldn’t DO much else) for awhile today, most of the day. The linear tracking of things is mega difficult too, so I kNOW to surrender to that and just drift if drifting it is and don’t try to really DO anything much.
 
I was in swirls of sacred geometry today, received beautiful messages and downloads from Metatron and my Arcturian guide/aspect Binkh (who I hadn’t connected with in awhile and it was so GOOD to feel her and the other Arcturians who are actively around for support right now!)….yet, I can’t remember much of it at all other than that the Metasoul is a flower with all of our other lifetimes like petals connected to each other and NOT in the past at all! Maybe I can share more about that one later as it digests…..I felt it all this go IN beyond my mind as I ‘handed over’ the process to my higher self/guides/aspects…..UPgrading, sorting, boosting, shifting going on.
 
The emotional body of our other lifetime/Metasoul aspects is getting so thin now and their ‘bleeding through’ timelines are SO emotionally backed up and want us to hold space for them. I spent much ‘time’ with Mareeka, my Atlantean aspect that I’ve shared about before, who is now in the ‘new world’ and misses Atlantis terribly with much to process for her around leaving behind loved ones who will ‘go down’ in the Atlantis falling timeline. She is a pioneer now, in a new land, bringing a new way….which is very much a theme of my metasoul. I brought her into my heart space and we landed there together, collapsed together, cried together. Again, the mind can’t really GO here, so I let the emotional body lead in these moments and the higher heart as that is the frequencies most needed to respond in these moments.
 
I ate only very light raw foods today and mostly smoothie as heavy digestion didn’t feel like a great thing, although the grounding of SOME food was good and recommended by Binkh. She didn’t recommend complete fasting due to the ‘light headedness’ that these energies can bring in. You may find that foods that have been comforting may not provide it anymore and what hasn’t been that appealing might become way more so with strange new cravings! Meat, dairy may become completely indigestible to you now as you FEEL more through unity consciousness upgrades the animal’s consciousness and soul.
 
The Lion’s gate has swung open and the gifts are coming in…the mind can’t get it, can’t track it, and parts of you may feel tense, anxious, or concerned…yet, if you can BE with all this and connect directly to the energies that are in reaction, you can BE with it. The BEing with it is key as I don’t think much of ANY of this can be tracked or analyzed or actually understood and is even being done!
 
Much love to YOU in the transition, the UPgrading, and the remembering! Here we BE in this together!
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

“Whatever You Need, You Will Be Offered”: Lion’s Gate Abundance Unity Codes And Letting Them In

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These are two photos taken recently here in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico (no photo altering or enhancing) of the codes available during sunset and sunrise…a wonderful range of energies from FIERY FIRE alchemy to soft tranquility! All frequencies of unity abundance!
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“Whatever you most need, you will be offered.” It felt like Ascension Christmas yesterday as the Lion/Lioness gateway 8.8 aligned and opened…..bringing in cosmic and galactic support and Infinite Love that is still felt and meant to be on the personal and intimate level for awhile. The codes and their messages that I shared about yesterday seem to be primarily about unity abundance are an invitation, not necessarily a guarantee or a promise. The invitation is to increasingly trust that whatever you most need in order for your higher self/soul coming into your body and higher heart capacity to SERVE love will be offered to you.
 
How much you receive of these codes, how much you LET IN this invitation, how much you can say ‘YES’ to what your soul purpose is here….ALL that is up to you and the parts of you that may be resistant, in lack, and understandably just plain TIRED or SCARED or both. All of the reactions that come up to letting in love (which is what these codes really ARE) is sacred and the more you can BE with the reactions and the parts of you that have them is the degree that they can transmute this fear energy into receiving love.
 
Some of the GIFTS being offered in these codes are to serve you in an increasing sense, awareness, and higher heart intuition around feeling into these questions: what is abundance to you….inside and out? What is unity to you…..inside and out? What is nourishing to you? What gifts you and your soul? What gifts do YOU have to share and offer that contributes to unity abundance? And, also, what ISN’T abundance, unity, and feeling like gifts to you? What do you want MORE of and LESS of?
 
These are simple questions, yes, and maybe you feel that you are ‘beyond them’. Yet, in my experience, most people may not ask themselves even these basic questions as it is challenging to go within. To go deeper in the exploration of these questions is to connect with the part(s) of you that is resistant or protective or modulating love and then ask it WHY it feels resistant to these things. Or to connect with a Metasoul aspect/other lifetime aspect that is experiencing lack/angst/trauma and then integrate them into your world so they can feel with you into new possibilities of love.
 
This is what BEing, ascending, awakening, is about….this inquiry and seeking to understand and FEEL yourself to allow more higher love frequencies into your heart and your body. This self exploration and BEing real with self is a very important aspect of unity abundance as it creates these frequencies FROM within and then draws the experience of them from the outside in relationships. Without the deepening of this inner unity abundance, whatever comes from outside will be deflected and modulated….not able to be fully received until you are WITH the parts of you that just can’t let love in fully yet….and of course you have parts of you that can’t, we ALL do…this is our JOURNEY here, to feel and heal this…..from within and also together.
 
“Whatever you most need, you CAN receive”…..this empowers you to feel both what you most need AND what you can actually receive and what the gap might be between the two and WHY. A fascinating exploration into the inner depths of your inner onion that the Divine is eager for you participate in as It gets to come along TOO!
 
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Raphael Awen and I will be digesting, teaching about, and offering a guided meditation to active these Unity abundance frequencies during a group call this Saturday if you’d like to join us (and we’ll be sharing the teaching/guided meditation portion afterwards on our You Tube SoulFullHeart Channel): https://www.facebook.com/events/141617019749771
or soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls
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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Lion’s Gate Offering Unity Abundance Activation With Archangel Metatron

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Lion’s gate opening today 8-8 and it feels, on some level, like Christmas for those of us tracking and feeling the ascension energies. Christmas in the sense that something NEW and exciting is happening in this now on both the outer and inner cosmic levels. Christmas too in the awakening and expansion and BIRTHing on a deeper level of the higher heart, Cosmic Christ Consciousness Heart, inside of us and collectively.

You may be waking up this morning with a sense of anticipation and even can’t sleep because there is this feeling of goodness and CHANGE coming in. Feelings of GIFTS coming in from the Universe to enliven, enrich, and ultimately transform us all. These gifts, it seems, are being offered to those souls who MOST need them….whether long on the awakening path or just begun or haven’t awakened yet. For ALL of us, there is a BOOST of our desires, our alchemy, our passions, our clarities in the codes coming in.

As I tuned into the energy of this gateway and asked Archangel Metatron about it, the main piece I received was that it offers a ‘Unity Abundance activation.’ The Unity activation is from within primarily…an invitation to unity between each of our aspects and parts WITH each other. The unity within of masculine and feminine healthy frequencies to move out of wounded and congested expressions of the wounded matriarch and patriarch that have played out for so long. The unity offered as we become conscious of our Metasoul/other lifetime aspects and bridge to them ourselves and WITH each other. This bridging is what heals the polarity within our soul field and our emotional body. Polarity exists between opposing energies that have not yet found or discovered the unifying energy of LOVE that unites all things together.

Unity within is offering LOVE to yourself primarily and firstly to those parts of you that most NEED you. Some examples of inner, fear-based polarity that can create push-pull and suffering experience of life are between the Inner Punisher part and a corresponding shame part/reaction. The Punisher-Shame reaction INside can then be projected outside onto others and suffering loops firmly fixed in place as this runs on unconscious cycles. Another example is between Metasoul/other lifetime aspects that are working the same soul theme/CORE wound healing yet from seemingly opposite angles. An example is a Metasoul aspect that is deeply religious, such as a Priest or Nun aspect….and a Metasoul that is deeply connected to Goddess worship such as an Avalon Priestess, etc. Being a love ambassador to these aspects and ‘getting in between them’ allows for the opposing energies to find common ground within your heart. This is the process of inner unification that we offer in our SoulFullHeart sessions and community: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/services.

Activation of Unity frequencies as offered by the Lion’s Gate opening is also about connecting the ‘Me’ to the ‘We’. Even as you are engaged and focused on your own Me healing and transformation, so you are feeling the impact on the We collective. The Unity activation offers a deepening realization around the important of ‘healing the healer’ in order to serve love from overflow WITH others. Rather than offering from martyr or self sacrifice, you are serving from abundance that flows from within, self love currents and self worth flows that flood the banks of your emotional body. You are at a saturation point of love for which you will naturally turn within when something inside you needs your attention, trusting that the service outward will flow out from this when you are filled UP again.

The healing of the collective Metasoul line is coming into the now too as the veils thin and reveal more and more the fluidity of time. Timelines merging and unifying together brings in a unification of previously compartmentalized realities and civilizations such as ‘ancient Egypt’ and Lemuria….Atlantis and Egypt as well. The gifts of this integration are obvious as the ‘best’ of these civilizations can be offered and shared while the trailing edge woundings and shadow play outs can be healed.

Moving into 5D frequencies brings a sense of abundance on ALL levels…love overflow in the forms that most supports the service of love in the specific ways that we are each meant to serve it. Again, this is mainly an inner activation as love moves through and invites us to feel the lack and scarcity in our emotional bodies and in our Metasouls to come into FULLness again. It is from this fullness place that you can abundantly share with others your gifts and service of love. The angsts and frustrations move into trust and surrender.

Metatron is offering that you can bring these Unity Abundant codes into your BEing if you want to amplify the effect. Go within into meditative space. Visualize a space of pure, white light. Ask to connect with Archangel Metatron, who feels and looks like a ‘thin Santa’/father figure. Ask to receive the Lion’s Gate codes through your stellar gateway chakra/your ‘personal sun’ (about two feet above your head) from the Great Cosmic Sun/center of the Multiverses. Feel these energies move through all of your chakras, through your body’s every living cell, and ground out again into Gaia through your Earth Chakra (about a foot below your feet). Bring these energies in as many times as you feel that you want and need to. Hold space for any emotional reactions that are pushed UP from this, although, mostly you will probably feel rejuvenated, boosted, enlivened, and expanded OUT. You can draw these energies in anytime today and for the rest of the ‘month’ as it is especially strong, pulsing, available to ALL.

Metatron says also, “You are the LIGHT. You are the LOVE. You receive what feels like is from outside of you in these ‘cosmic energies’ what is actually already INside of you as your essence. These codes activate that arising of dormant love and light. You are Unity already too. It just feels like separation exists inside of you. Yet, you become unified again as you let love IN and you share love too with others. You feel how the abundance of love unifies you WITH other and you are no longer separate in those moments of love’s exchange and transaction. The more you transact in this unifying abundant energy from within, the more you can share it with others.”

INjoy your Ascension Christmas gifts from the Divine in these Lion’s Gate energies and let in the love that holds whatever comes up in response to receiving it on this blessed ‘day’ of our journey together!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

August Lunar Eclipse Energies: A Pause With An Edge

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Opportunity beacons in the possibilities of serving love to yourself, with others, and for the Divine in every moment even the ‘down’ moments of emotional upheaval and purging out and UP. You are being invited to open to the possibilities that come from what has previously been unknown becoming known, seen, and felt as it emerges out from darkness and into the light of your heart.

Like the eclipse happening in the now/today, the brightness of the FULL moon temporarily/partially obscured by Gaia’s shadow and then becoming visible again, so a you to you unveiling occurs when the dark appears to partially block your light. In this blocking, you feel where you still have to go and want to go and are being invited to go inside of yourself.

A pause with an edge, that’s how these energies seem to feel. The edge is an invitation to feel the edges within and what gives them fuel and where they are sourced from…which parts of you feel them and why, which Metasoul aspects feel them and why. The pause is a taking the space, holding the space for this process lead by a deep curiosity about You by You.

The edges and instability of this now seem to also be about all this cosmic activity happening to accelerate the collective process and then integrating into that collective. Those of us on the leading edge of this all (some of us BORN awakened even) are so sensitive to these energies, although the full dose of them is ‘not meant for us’ in some ways. The full dose of these energies is for those tipping over point souls, who are about to awaken and have signed up to in now. These souls need these extra doses to give them a boost and extra motivation to wake up and begin the process of coming home to their souls again.

Tempering the energy dose may be self loving right now for you if you are long awakened. Tempering by BEing in nature, connecting to animal guides and animal pet friends, grounding the ‘extra’ energies out a grounding cord and into Gaia, maintaining boundaries around dramas that other souls just need to play out right now. Feeling intuitively what is calling for your attention and passion and what can ‘wait’ until the energies have settled down a bit (when they do.) Maybe not a time to make major life decisions and changes, even as clarities may illuminate for you during this temporarily down and dark time.

Magic can be downloaded from these energies, yet filtered through your higher chakras and higher heart and higher self coming into the body, so it lands in a frequency that works for you. My guides/aspects are offering that this tempering and filtering can be helped and supported by your guides/aspects if you just ask them. If you have quite a bit of backed up emotional body energies to feel, then it may be unavoidable to go through the life circumstances that will push this up for you to trigger, digest and heal it. As I recommend to those who are drawn, our parts work process and community can support you through this too if you feel ready to let that in: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/services.

I already feel writings coming about the Lion/Lioness gateway tomorrow on August 8th (and already happening for those in the Southern Hemisphere) and have been digesting with Metatron what this portal offers related to the emotional body and Metasoul healing process. There is a sense of writing often during this intense energy month of August as I have been and connecting what is happening in the cosmos to the inner cosmos….as I have been sharing my personal process around this and also digesting with many of you what you are going through in the comments section on my FB page. You can read all my writings in August so far here.

Eclipses seem to offer a shift in the ordinary and, if that is needed, a reboot of the energy system connected to the lunar frequencies and especially if your metasoul has a legacy of moon worship. As always, these cosmic happenings illuminate the extraordinary in this process of ascension, claiming, BEcoming our higher self in sacred human form!

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

BEing Real, Riding The Emotional Waves

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Raphael and I in San Sebastian, Mexico

I was feeling tiredness yesterday and today I am feeling in glow and flow….softer, surrendered, open. This is how the waves of energies seem to impact and invite us to ride our own inner waves of emotional body waters, especially in this now of August 2017 and Lion/Lioness/eclipse frequencies. I was with the tiredness that came from some recent situations (growing pains in the best way as our community grows) plus what was DEEP in the collective Metasoul (and mine too) from those of us choosing to lead in so many different expressions and ways in so many timelines and realities (as so many of you shared about yesterday too in resonance). We need to feel this bone and soul deep tiredness at times, be willing to BE with it because it is REAL and we serve ourselves immensely and the collective in our feeling of it.

It was fascinating to me yesterday that sharing from that tiredness, yet, also offering the ultimate choice of love (as being with that tiredness IS a choice of love), I then received probably the most response I have on any of my facebook posts in terms of the amount and volume of comments, likes, and sharings. I so appreciated the vulnerability in many of the comments and the PURE love and appreciation for me and what I am leading and sharing as well. It was overwhelming to be honest and I did some checking in with my guides and Metasoul aspects for support to hold it, let it in, and respond to it and to take my next steps into leadership….moving into the new for myself and away from experiences of the past with ‘crickets’ in the room and very little response. Because I have engaged in much egoic/false self deconstruction work through parts work process and many death/rebirth phases around offering my gifts, there doesn’t seem to be a self image-based version of me grabbing onto this attention, yet rather I feel a ‘beyond personality’ energy inside of me (the higher self coming into body) that responds to serving love…..AND trailing edges/echos of parts of myself that get kicked up and triggered at times too (although this is not much these days.)

It really struck me again how there is so little permission in our 3D culture to feel, to be real…and this seems to have translated to our spiritual/awakening culture as well, although I do feel there is an increasing waking up to this bypassing of emotional reality and the cost of it. The ultimate cost is in what then doesn’t get to feel the light of your love…..creating a shaky foundation for which MUCH energy is needed to keep it all intact to maintain the appearance of being shiny and bright.

I can only share and teach and lead and BE what is emotionally authentic for me…this has taken MANY years of feeling what is not authentic and the parts of me that create these not real frequencies and why. I cannot pretend to be light, high, and UP if I am not. Or spacious and kind if that is not what parts of me are feeling. That doesn’t mean that I get to kick out or abuse or project at others….I hold myself responsible for my emotional reality and its impact in a very deep way (probably more than most souls can even track and at micro levels after many years of parts work.) I don’t feel this realness disqualifies me from leading or teaching, yet, rather is the new grounds of qualification for leadership in New Earth….realness, vulnerability, self permission, NOT pretending to be strong and brave, NOT being a warrior who ‘toughs it out’ yet rather to be soft, open, and also REAL about what we are feeling when it isn’t soft and open. This New Earth leadership empowers every soul to BEcome a leader of themselves, inside, and most importantly at the emotional body level where there is often the most immaturity and unhealed woundings.

The permission I am offering here is what I feel the Divine is also offering us ALL. For so long parts of us have played in this 3D experiment of pretend and get by, worn our masks, and followed the rules. THIS is what is collapsing now as those of us in heart and soul resonance are rebelling against this control system and fake matrix. The rebellion phases can have a lot of RAGE pushed up in them, outrage and necessary advocacy as parts of you say ‘no’ to so much of what they were served and conditioned in.

Another phase seems to be surrender to the Divine yet still with DEEP commitment and sense of the New Earth vision and to living it out in the Now. Not as a future goal or when some grand event happens where everyone ascends at once….yet rather a commitment to the process of it, to the every moment of it, to the ups and downs, to the highs and lows, to the dark and the light. A commitment to the mess of it and to the beauty of it too…..the bliss mess of it. This commitment, really, is to yourself AND to the collective too and that you’ll stay with the process and ‘in the room’ as it all falls apart and is reborn again.

This commitment is to love and the ongoing service of it…NOT just in the good moments yet, rather, in ALL moments. This is a BIG commitment and I feel how so many of you take it seriously and your own processes first of all. Things ARE shifting, New Earth is here in the now, and our commitment to love is offering us the gifts of experiencing the returns of goodness more and more in our daily lives, as we are meant to.

Thank you for BEing on this journey with me and for your choice and commitment to love. I am HONORED and so appreciative that you are HERE!!!

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Jelelle Awen
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The challenges of this journey of transitioning into New Earth are immense and ‘going it alone’ is an aspect of the old paradigm and lone wolf phase. We are here in SoulFullHeart for support, guidance, community, empowerment, love if you are ready to receive and give:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/services

Raphael Awen and I are hosting one of our heart opening group calls this Saturday to digest all the influxes in ascension energies and how to be with that on an emotional body level through our parts work process:https://www.facebook.com/events/141617019749771

 

Tiredness Feelings As We Choose To Lead Love

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By Jelelle Awen

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I’ll admit that I feel tired in this moment. I feel tired from this transition into the new for which it seems in moments SO many souls are still in the old. I feel tired from creating bubbles ‘around me’ in so many moments and ways as I try to bring my high vibe frequency to environments and others that block, distract, and resist them. I feel a tiredness from almost 15 years of seeing, being, and feeling reality so differently from mainstream consciousness, especially from the parts perspective which many souls cannot seem to let in or accept even as it offers SO MUCH healing and transformation. I am sharing this tiredness with you in this moment as I imagine you can resonate with this feeling on some level and I do feel it is being pushed UP in those of us in the lead here so that we can feel it and just BE with it.

For those of us who have chosen this transition, time in this now, and especially to lead and show the way through it….. there is an inherent weariness in the momentum it takes, the inner push that still has trust and grace…the ENERGY we need to tap into in order to lead AGAINST so much opposition without going to battle. Rather than pushing against or fighting or contending, it is so NEW to be inviting with love and to be vulnerable in that invitation…..over and over and over again and feeling it land in some hearts and not others….mostly NOT others, yet the numbers are growing slowly it seems.

It is easy to go to battle actually as this we have known as a species and is our comfortable legacy unfortunately of this current timeline. It is easier to go to rage, to tap into the OUTrage in the collective consciousness and push it out at others, compare and contrast to others, put others down, and judge without love too…I feel many doing this, even and especially those in the current lead. Or to go to the mind and to analyze and dismiss or transcend feelings and being vulnerable and just focus on the cosmic aspects of ascension. Ah, yet, it is so understandable and I feel vast compassion for us from the Universe, our higher self, guides/aspects, star BEings as we sort this all through!

Over and over, I’ve received the message from these ‘higher’ sources….. “We are so in awe of you and your species and what you are doing and being right now! This is SO challenging what you are bringing and showing and feeling in the face of so much oppositional energy. There is so much to heal, so much to face, so much to BE with. Your tears and your fears are sacred and precious and we ADMIRE them greatly! Do not feel less than us or compare to us. We are here to inspire you, yes, and serve you to arise. Yet, we are LEARNING from you with great curiosity in our hearts around how you will walk this out. And, we are here always for you when you need us!”

Sharing this message with you in this moment is providing a rush of love inside of me and the tiredness inside and the parts of me that are tired. I feel more rest coming in as I DO feel the support that is there for me and for us all. I feel the trust that lives inside of me from so long being challenged and challenging myself and getting the response of love every time.

I choose love. I choose love in this now. I choose to share and BE even as I am real about what is going for me in my emotional body and soul in the moment. I choose the HONOR of leading myself in this way and for those souls who feel a resonance with this and me, I feel grateful for your coming along on this journey with me. I choose my heart and the healing and feeling of it above all else as its energy is what leads into the unknown and holds the other frequencies that need its attention and care.

I feel the energies that are here to support this choosing of love and have been ramping up for many years, especially in the last months. The choice of love is becoming more visceral, acute, and real for so many more and I feel the possibilities that this opens up every day!

I choose love…..how about you?

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Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com
Join us for a dynamic and heart opening group this saturday where we feel into what it feels like to be in the ascension process and share around that from our hearts: https://www.facebook.com/events/141617019749771

Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Heavenly Energies Invite You To Feel Your Heaven And Hell From Within

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By Jelelle Awen

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Heaven is Now. Heaven is within you. It lives in the capacity of your every moment to experience it AS heaven. It lives in the potential to experience yourself AS heaven. It lives in the choice points of love over fear which bring this heaven frequency into your consciousness with your every loving choice.

Feeling what is your heaven and what is NOT and making choices toward your heaven is the process of ascension. The heaven energies are inviting you to this feeling ground place in all your bodies (emotional, spiritual, energy, social, physical). As you let these heavenly energies IN, you are moved into visceral experience of what lives inside you that doesn’t resonate to this heaven. You are face to face and heart to heart with what has been necessarily lower, denser, and needed to put on to fit in with the ‘less than’ heavens all around you.

I live in heaven as now for ALL of my moments. Even those that are painful or difficult are not less than heaven because I bring them into the heaven of my heart and LOVE them as such…..and they move eventually into heaven frequency with that love. My painful or raw feelings (and aspects) don’t ‘bring me into hell’ because I choose to hold space for them and feel them and BE with them as my heavenly self. Because I embrace these energies as beloved parts of myself and honor my emotional body AS deeply as all my other bodies, there is no resistance to BEing with these frequencies. There is no fear in me toward them and so no push away toward them.

Resistance, push away, fear, shut down, numbing, diverting, edgy or angsty without feeling the true vulnerable source underneath of the PAIN is a version of human hell. You create this hell when you don’t bring your heaven essence into feeling it ALL. When parts of you disconnect and block you from being with your own feelings, this is a kind of hell too as you are disconnected from your own heaven source. It doesn’t matter what is going on outside of you related to this heaven or hell sense as it ALL originates from within and is filtered from within.

Many souls could be ‘dropped into’ my life and may find it much less than heaven. Some of the conditions in it may not work for them or parts of them at all or they just cannot let in the love and intimacy frequencies that I experience inside of myself, with my beloved sacred union with Raphael, within community, with others that I serve as teacher/guide. They cannot let in the heaven of it or see or experience it that way because they cannot feel that about themselves.

This happened recently actually with a soul who chose to come here to live near us in community and then could only see and experience it as a ‘living hell’ even as it is OUR heaven. Parts of her could not bridge the gap between the 3D and 4D frequencies from inside and in her emotional body to create and experience a heaven here with others vibrating in higher self love and love with other 5D frequencies. She had to ‘go back home’ to where it felt more comfortable to parts of her, return to frequencies she had become more used to even as her soul and higher self were consciously very unhappy in this ‘hell’. This was a sacred choice for her on her journey and we ‘let her go into it’ even as we hold an open invitation for her (without lowering our own frequencies to ‘save’ her) to resonate and BE with us in the future when/if she is desirous to.

As you find and BE in your heaven within more first, you find that can take that anywhere with you and in any situation that you are in. You draw more heavenly situations and outside reality as you live this more inside and as you make choices related to relationships, geography, soul purpose expression that reflects this heaven inside. If you experience hell or frustration or unhappiness or lack in your outer world, so this is a reflection of this going on in your inner world and esp. sourced in your emotional body.

These heaven energies coming in through this current Lion/Lioness Portal and eclipses is inviting you into your inner heaven. They offer a taste and experience of heaven frequencies. They really are….even as they invite you to feel the hell inside in response to them. This is the aspect of the journey that just IS and what you signed up for as a soul here. Your higher self coming into your body more and more trusts this and kNOWs that it can only come in more as you surrender to this process as you let in more and more of the heavenly love that you already ARE!

Jelelle Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.com
We can support you to access your inner heaven and inner hell in order to transform, heal, BEcome…through private sessions, group calls (one is coming up this saturday), retreats, community:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/services

Trusting The Ascension Process, Leaning Into The Divine Feminine

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By Jelelle Awen
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Trusting the process, trusting yourself, trusting the curiosity that comes up in response to ALL that you are feeling and starting to see and BE. Trusting the arising into the new that wants to rearrange your life WITH love. Trusting the draws and urges that may turn your previous life UPside down.

Trust the process…….This message comes through clearly today as the intense Lion energies seem to be calming down and settling in just a bit….maybe to allow us a breathing in and an exhaling out again before it picks UP again. Always does a Divine grace orchestration seem to modulate the flow of these catalytic energies so that it is at a rate and pace that we (and parts of us!) can bear. These energies are not meant to ‘blow us out’ or ‘take us down’ even if they tumble us a fair bit or bring up hard things to feel and be with. Especially if you are WITH the Divine in the process and surrendering, then you can experience how nothing is being done to you….yet rather with you and with so much care and love FOR you.

I feel something soft, comforting and feminine always there too. She is more mysterious and elusive and you may need to connect to Her consciously to feel Her. So much focus can be given to the masculine activation of this ascension process….the pushing up and the purging and UPgrading. So much trying to understand and locate what is going on. Yet, too, the feminine HOLDS the space for the process and invites us into not knowing. She is the mother that gestates the baby just in Her BEing of stillness. She is the mother allowing you to form and shape and grow while just loving all that you are and forgiving all that you are still too scared yet to be. She is the reminder that you are enough just as you are in this moment while holding all the potential and capacity of what you could someday become.

The feminine also brings you out of the mind, if parts of you have a tendency to go to the lower vibe frequencies of the mental body that want to kNOw, sort out, analyze, prove it all, track it and locate it. I feel that this mental activity is a block to flowing into feeling and the emotional body and to the intuitions of the higher chakras that allow creativity and ‘unexplainable’ experiences. It can block the emotional body awakening that wants to be felt and allowed. This can be a challenge for men, especially, as so much conditioning supports this mental body filtering. The masculine inside of women (the Inner Protector energies) can revert to this too and question what is coming through or spin out in obsessive thinking loops. There seems to be a connection to the Archon and fear-based Reptilian fusion experiment too where unhooking and unplugging from these frequencies can help with letting go of the mind more. ALL of this exploration of mind needs to be held with much love and not ‘against’ the mind energy as that is what allows it (and the parts that use it) to let go.

Trusting the process……..this is leaning into the BIG picture and context of ascension as a collective experience, connected to the sense we are going through this (on varying levels and degrees) as a species moving into our sacred humanity and into embodiment of everything higher in all our bodies…physical, emotional, mental, chakral/spiritual/energetic, social.

This is a surrender to the masculine and the feminine aspects of this process and how ultimately they are seeking balance from within you through expression AS you.

Trusting the process may also be inviting you to seek and ask for support from others as space holders, teacher, waySHOWers, and within community too. This has been crucial to my ongoing, deepening trust in the process….I have needed many space holders, a couple beloved teachers and lived in community for many years too, which I co-lead, teach, facilitate, and offer to others. All of these ‘outside’ resources ultimately reflect you to you and help to deepen trust in yourself for however long or deep these connections go.

Trusting the process, yes,….the moment by moment walking this out and BEing with it too. Allowing change to move you where you need to go next. Most of all, trusting the love that holds it all and YOU!

I have a tender place in my heart for this guided meditation that came through with Mother Mary that offers comfort, soothing energies for all the bodies during the ascension process….many people fall asleep which is so OK as it goes in as it meant to and sometimes the conscious mind has be UNconscious for it to go in!

https://youtu.be/nkTbTJBBlHE

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Living Out Timelines, Bridging The Gap Of Emotional Immaturity And Soul Bigness (Video)

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By Jelelle Awen

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I was in another timeline most of the day yesterday….you may do and BE this more than you consciously realize. I was – on one level – ‘researching’ and exploring into a shift in geography for our community and possibilities around that. It was a ‘future’ timeline in one way yet, also, I could feel, sense, taste, kNOW, what it would be like to live there. I was IN it and living it. Also, I was in the complete unknown related to ‘how’ this would happen even as some pieces of possibility seemed to be coming together.

I spent ‘time’ BEing this and then….I let it go. I have let it go today and maybe it will come back to me or maybe it will go on and unfold. I feel as if I have already lived it out anyway. The old way of manifesting and alchemizing has to do with ‘force of will’ and ‘making things happen’. The old way is dependent on money and often lots of it to fuel the way. The New Earth way is about energies coming together, sharing coming together, resources coming together and the timeline arising because it is meant to in the bigger picture. I am surrendered now to this bigger picture of serving love and find, also, that letting go of any of my own attachments to it WHILE feeling my own desires is a big aspect of this deal now. Also, I am arising into what it means to be a co-leader of a growing community where collective needs ARE, more and more, reflective of my personal needs and desires too.

I can’t put into words how to BE this way around it….this is what has arisen from inside after many years of working with aspects of me that had been conditioned by 3D reality in frequencies of lack, sacrifice, anxiety, tension, over self sufficiency, control. All these frequencies lived inside me and in parts of me and in my metasoul….still do. And the process is to keep feeling them, keep BEing with them, connecting to them in the best way that I know which is through parts work and metasoul aspect work. To BE and allow these energies to flare up and then move out. To let my higher self frequencies to come into this physical body and illuminate the now moment.

The energies really have been so intense it seems the last few days, pressing down in the ways that I’ve described in other writings. This pressing down has created a heaviness in the body and a sense of being ‘very sleepy’ or just ‘out of it’. And, we are ‘out of it’ in terms of 3D reality and it can really be felt during energy flux UP phases like now. This out of it-ness may extend to your emotional body too with the purges and surges of lower frequencies coming up as I described yesterday and even drawing of these fear-based frequencies from others in the form of conflicts, tensions, passive aggressiveness, and even outright attacks. Trust that anything that comes is a mirror for you and not ‘against you’ even if you don’t want it in your field anymore. Trust with love and set boundaries from there that you feel that you need to.

I feel a heartline extending to ALL of us from our higher selves and angelic aspects/guides, who are right there surrounding us and offering help. The degree that you can feel this support and help is related to how ‘fused’ to your lower frequency aspects that you are. This fusion creates a sort of defensive energetic shield that their love can’t penetrate. Allowing control to run or anxiety or rage without holding it and BEing with it can push your support team away from you and even into the ‘other room.’ or even farther away. Bring ALL of you in closer and what you are feeling and your loving guides/aspects can come closer too and HELP you hold it with you. Your higher self and angelic guides/aspects are amazing heart healers and want to help you with this important work of healing the emotional body.

Anchoring into your heart line even as you surrender to the ‘out of it’ reality can allow a flow UP and in and out with what is coming in to support our continual global awakening and your continual awakening too. Allow into your reality the timelines into the new that want to unfurl before you….riding them ‘out’ even as you detach from them. BE with all that is coming UP and coming in and coming out with LOVE as it is offered in so much love!

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I felt inspired to offer a video today as a digestion of these ‘megamonth’ energies of this August (already!) and how these frequencies offer a connection and bridge to your emotional body and realignments on all levels, to fill in ‘missing gaps’ in emotional maturation….. Offering much love to you and with you during this intense time of transition into BEcoming our sacred humanity..higher self with our higher heart in our higher/light body….

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Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond . Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.