In this thirteenth video of our 31 day video series called Deepen 2022, SoulFullHeart Teachers/Co-Creators Raphael and Jelelle Awen share about the Metasoul, the individuated source of your soul and all of the fragments that project from it into other lifetimes/timelines. We explain how the Metasoul is non-linear, beyond time, and accessible in the Quantum Now through a bridge created by your Gatekeeper. Connecting with your Metasoul aspects in an ongoing, intentional way allows for mutual karmic and trauma healing, gift exchange, and quantum upgrades.
We also talk about how the current Matrix narrative is triggering the separation wounds in our Metasoul and the collapse lifetime experiences (such as Atlantis and Lemuria) as well. Metasoul access in an increasingly conscious way allows for you to digest what is occurring with this narrative in a deeper way and navigate choice points with more clarity as well.
In the meditation, we are once again joined by the supportive frequencies of Divine Mother and Father as we meet up with your Gatekeeper in their Metasoul portal access ‘realm’ (usually represented by a cavern with many tunnels leading off of it.) With your Gatekeeper, you tune into and enter a lifetime that is most needing your attention. You connect with a Metasoul aspect, begin a dialogue, and start the process of quantum healing.
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Aurius and I were inspired on a visit to the Abbey the other day, to gather some video of the grounds, with the intention of offering a meditation/transmission from our hearts and the heart of Avalon, to yours.
The video though, as with any alchemy that starts with one idea and turns into something rather different yet much more fitting, turned out to be better suited to become a simple (yet profound) walkabout set to music. You’ll see Aurius and I taking in the trees, fish, water, sacred stones, yet you won’t hear us say a word about the Abbey itself or what we’re feeling as we go. The energies and Gaian codes speak for themselves, especially set to the music we selected for the video. (You’ll see links to the full music tracks in the description on Youtube).
It felt appropriate to set this video to music that helps transport you to the energy of these grounds where there is a long lineage of Christianity/Catholicism and yet too, Paganism. We have felt the Essenes/Magdalenes here as well and other energies that offer so many deep soul places to explore when you’re here! Connect in with the tree, daffodil, and other Gaian codes as Aurius and Kasha show you the beauty of this very sacred place.
We hope that this is a meditative and sweet experience for you, though it may also stir up some discomfort and shadow too, as these grounds are deeply sacred and offer centuries of shadow AND light energies from the different religious/spiritual practices and overlays there.
Much, MUCH love from Avalon! ❤ Kasha & Aurius
Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.
James Elphick and I took a trip to Priddy, Somerset, yesterday here in the UK, in Somerset county. There is a saying in Priddy that the locals know, “As sure as our Lord was in Priddy.”
After being here in Glastonbury these last months, I was quite interested to learn of the many ‘legends’ of Jesus visiting here often during his life and especially as a boy. I was interested in him being taken here on trips with his uncle Joseph of Arimathea, who was not only a wealthy trader in tin and other metals that were mined in Priddy and surrounding areas, but Joseph was also probably the equivalent of the Jewish government’s ‘Minister of Mining’.
Now, you won’t find much in the traditional Bible to directly support these claims, but you can cite plenty of Bible references to corroborate the claims, if you will. If you expand your lens out to the ancient scrolls discovered in 1945 at Nag Hammadi, you get a lot more of an interesting picture.
Central to this expanded picture is that Jesus, or Yeshua as he was known in his own language, was in love and married to Mary Magdalene and had children with her. That didn’t fit with the Christian canon of scripture that was compiled in the 4th century and it had to be screened out to fit a tailored narrative. A narrative that only controlling men seemed to need and undertake, but also consciousness itself seemed to need to go through this veiled phase of awareness. We are, like consciousness itself, in a phase now where we are lifting that veil.
I was especially opened up to this larger story through reading Anna, the Grandmother of Jesus by Claire Heartsong. I deeply recommend her book if you are wanting to open up to this expanded story of Yeshua’s life, his mother, his grandmother, his mother’s uncle Joseph of Arimathea, and what’s known as the ‘Magdalene way of the rose’ that Yeshua was immersed in and devoted to.
But, back to my day yesterday. After reading Anna, Grandmother Of Jesus and coming across the many places here in Glastonbury that are significant to Joseph, Yeshua and the Magdalenes at large, I wanted to venture to visit Priddy, just a few miles from here in Glastonbury. Now that we recently purchased a car, the opportunity arose. I needed a bit more driving coaching from James getting used to driving on the left side of the road and the right side of the car, like they do here in the UK.
When we arrived in Priddy and parked the car, we noticed a different feeling space immediately of rest and tranquility. We took a stroll on the main road through town and saw a sign pointing to the village church and school. We came upon a playground filled with children at break time and we were struck by how playful and alive they felt. It didn’t feel anything like a city playground. There was just grass, a few trees and a soccer ball, but these children in their school uniforms felt like they were from another dimension somehow. Both James and I commented on it to each other. Right then, as I was taking a picture, a young boy ran after the ball and mid stride, he rolled into a full somersault as he chased after the ball.
That may have been the highlight and lesson of the day. If you’re going to chase after something, be sure you are having fun while you are doing it.
We entered the church of St. Lawrence, built in 1352, and took in a sweet feminine energy in the pictures of children and especially an artist’s portrayal of Jesus as a boy that was really striking and touching.
This morning I felt deeper into my soul’s connection with Joseph Of Arimathea and experienced that it was quite easy to connect with him. As we ‘conversed’, I was able to see how in his high place and office and wealth, many people projected onto him a kind of having it all together that really wasn’t the case. Those people who make an etheric connection with him may want to gain access to his secrets of wealth and he said this was also exhausting to be seen through this lens of having it all.
He told me he actually longed many times to be a commoner like the many who came to him wishing to be relieved from their everyday lives. He told me about the hardships of being in the money and wealth grids. How that necessitated a kind of hard energy and control in the marketplace that just was the reality in that time and place. His redemption was being able to channel his wealth into supporting his larger family and he said that without this, he would have gone completely over the deep end.
Joseph also told me of his joys of having Yeshua as a boy as his travel companion, one like no other. He told me that the boy I watched on the playground yesterday take a somersault on his way chasing after the ball was totally what Yeshua was like. He made everything and everyone around him come alive in such a way that no one could figure out where he got all of his free and alive energies from.
I’m feeling a desire to continue to open out and explore this connection further with Joseph and Yeshua. There feels like a lot to go into there, especially within our Magdalene community here in Avalon/Glastonbury.
Do join us for tomorrow’s group call: I do hope you can join us this Sunday, March 14th at 5:00pm GMT/UK time/noon EST for our sacred sexuality group call with teachings and sharings from me and Jelelle (transparent and open ones too!), a guided meditation with Yeshua and Mary Magdalene and group participant sharing as well. You can join us by donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen.
We will be real about wherever we are in the moment around the process of sacred sexuality…not in some exalted, idealized, and bypassed state, yet in the raw and messy (and often blissy!) ground that exploring our sacred sexuality within and with others offers us!
Much love, Raphael
Raphael Awen is a Sacred Union & Sacred Masculine Bridge, co-creator, teacher, and Facilitator of SoulFullHeart. Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc.
I had such a beautiful, awe inspiring, and just plain glorious experience this morning that I don’t really know HOW to share about it, yet I feel inspired to try as it might serve as a beacon of possibility experience for you and wherever you are in your ascension journey. As I shared yesterday, the energy waves downloading from the Lion/Lioness energies were tumbling me, shifting me…inviting me into merging timelines and more experience of the non-linear reality OF reality (beyond the 3D fixed time picture.) I felt downloads and upgrades happening without a clear sense of tracking much or being able to share about it with any clarity (which sometimes is the best kind of sharing and where the ‘most effective’ teaching comes from as the mind gets out of the way!).
As soon as I went within and closed my eyes this morning, I felt an energy shift UP that I recognize from connecting with Metatron, high frequency guides/aspects, Star BEings. I was in a room without walls, felt like a grand ballroom or, really, a queen’s court. Standing at the front of the ‘room’ with a penetrating regal manner was a gorgeous looking and feeling lioness/humanoid with bluish skin. I felt her immediately as my Metasoul sister/guide/other lifetime aspect from Sirius. I have been interested and curious to meet my Metasoul aspect from Sirius especially with the portal opening and alignment with that planet at this time. It was ‘on my list’ and I just waited for the right time, trusting the Divine timing around it.
She introduced herself as “Sela” and the name reverberated through me as the familiar reUNION feelings of connecting with another aspect of my Metasoul brought up deep tears of joy mixed with sadness. Sela’s presence was queenly, regal, calm and graceful…everything that I wish to be and even feel to be in some moments as more of these higher vibrational frequencies of queen come into my this life body from integrating aspects of myself. She was very clear and wise, speaking to me immediately and directly. Sometimes, the messages are foggy or unclear, yet hers was very clear to me as was the whole experience that followed.
She offered me a very validating message that had deep personal meaning for me and went in on waves of love. Her reflections were then supported with every Metasoul aspect that I have connected with coming into the circle and offering me love. I was just awe struck by how their energies filling the space with so many different textures of consciousness and possibilities for humanity as we bring these into our fields more and more in a conscious way. The nature-based goodness of Lemuria as represented in Rae-Na, my Lemurian aspect. The wisdom and awe inspiring technology of the Arcturians in Binkh. The lessons and energetic powers of Atlantis in Mareeka. The choice points and transformation of the Reptilians in Shana. And many other beloved aspects too…
This is not ‘past’ at all or in our ‘history’….these frequencies live in us, in our Metasoul, like petals of our flower, we are all connected to these frequencies within us in a VERY personal way. One of the messages I received today was the importance of this Metasoul picture as it offers us permission and invitation to really GO INTO our soul’s legacy, to heal on much deeper, quantum levels than we have ever been able to before the karmic pains and woundings that live there. This Metasoul focus goes heart in heart with our emotional body/this life healing process and one serves the other and blend and weave beautifully together.
I got the very visceral sense of support and interest that BEings from these civilizations and timelines have in what is happening in our now. Sela offered that Sirians also have gone through many phases in which they were battling against themselves and others and understand how challenging this transition from 3D to higher is that we currently making right now. They are here to serve us, help us, and support us. As are all the others too. It seems that the more open we are to the INNER connection to these aspects inside of us and the integration of our galactic self…the more we can access the incredible resource of support that they can provide us. There were many other messages and pieces to this experience that I will share in future writings too.
The sense of the abundance that is unity and the unity that is possible in abundance is moving through my heart in this moment in huge waves. AND, this is moving through from inside of me to me and not dependent on any other person..although it is hugely supported by others and sometimes we SO need a guide to help us navigate this inner terrain (as I did for many years and provide for others). This is the wonderful, empowering aspect of all of this! Access to this heaven is within you. Heaven HAS to start from within you as you cannot experience it without that increasing experience of unity abundance that arises from feeling ALL that needs and wants to come up to receive your love.
Today’s experience and ongoing flood of goodness energies into me is my gift for being open to feeling it ALL…the aches, the pains, the sorrows, the shadows, the losses, the completions, the tiredness, the tears, the fears, the knots, the binds, the set backs, the frustrations. Plus, all the goodnesses too! To feel it ALL and bring it into the light of our hearts and into LOVE….and the gift in return IS love that is self generated, pours out from growing self worth, and is Infinite in what it offers you from you BY you!!
Raphael Awen and I will be digesting and sharing about the current ascension energies, the Metasoul and parts process/way of life, that we offer during a live group call on Saturday at 11:11am CST. We’d love for you to join us: https://www.facebook.com/events/141617019749771
Our suffering so often comes from violent choices.
Violence is chosen when parts of us decide to bury themselves, to bury their pain, covering it up, numbing it out, putting makeup on it, pretending it either doesn’t exist, or in some cases hiding it in plain sight through sabotage of this relationship or that job or through self-harm in the form of addiction of any kind.
Violence is chosen when parts of us decide to see the world as personally oppressive, racking up reason after reason, building a case for their victimhood, making it inevitable that an intense push-away always becomes necessary and the world feels like ‘us’ against ‘them’. As we assuage the battles within, there ARE times sometimes when we receive violence and abuse or aggression from others and DO need to advocate, to turn away, to all-out walk away from what needs to collapse for the sake of our self-worth and also at times our survival. Sometimes this has a violent playout and fallout. If this situation lasts, there is likely some deeper violence still happening within, because this relationship on the outside represents a battle raging on the inside. It is a climate that your parts have gotten used to… and have not learned how to be or even imagined how to be anything different towards each other.
Violence is chosen when parts of us hold rigidly onto ways of seeing and feeling others. In some cases, parts don’t want to feel others’ perspectives, or, would prefer to feign compassion rather than be in the process that allows them to feel genuine compassion for the first time. This serves as a numbing of the self. It is a focus on keeping the victim inside alive and pushing away the budding King or Queen of heart and soul. It is also violent when we try to press our point of view on another who isn’t ready or doesn’t want to take it in. It is violent too, to use aggressive energy behind our words and point of view. These examples are another way to become numb to the needs of others and the ways in which they need to walk out what they are walking out, without name-calling or unfair readouts. This is a hard thing to avoid doing when we have so much tension inside from us to us and part to part… this does move over time though and is so important to keep feeling as it comes up.
Violence is chosen by choosing to eat foods that are violent to the planet and/or to our bodies. I don’t offer this as a piece to feel shame over, but rather something to just feel into. It does feel important to let this in and to make new choices, feeling the parts of you that have resistance to this along the way, so that they can come with you and not feel as if THEY are experiencing violence against THEM, as this dynamic can happen too…
Violence and revenge in different forms have become a strong underpinning in our cultures worldwide. It is a way to see war as an option, protests as the only means of revolution, and aggressive, ambitious efforts the only way to be ‘successful’.
A reLOVEution can be and IS so different than this… than even those subtle twinges of wanting to fight fire with fire in some way. There is a way that we can stand up for ourselves through boundaries and vulnerability that doesn’t need to result in withholding love in any way. We can find a way to teach ourselves new ways of being in life and in LOVE without committing any sort of violence, suppression or oppression inside.
This is as much an ongoing process for me as it likely is for you too. I have had many years inside of a process of peeling back the layers of inner violence and battles and even recently have felt a Metasoul aspect that still lives in the era of Women’s Suffrage in the UK. Really intense timeline, that one. Talk about fighting fire with fire! She and I have been able to feel that there IS an alternative to these violent means of ‘fighting’… feeling how bringing vulnerability is actually the key to deep inner and outer change. She is still being convinced of the truth of this, as she understandably lives in an intense time and hasn’t really seen this in action, but she is trying and that is enough for me to feel something MORE wanting to come and be inside of me and thus from me to others too. I actually feel her helping me write this piece today… it’s helping her digest her reality and new possibilities that are arising for her and for others.
A new, violence-less horizon is calling, wanting to help us end our personal and collective suffering… how deeply you are able to heed this call is a very personal choice and it feels like any healing of this on any level of your being is a fantastic start!
LOVE to you, fellow reLOVEutionary!
Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visitsoulfullheartwayoflife.comfor more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
Timelines merging, veil is SO thin, and what has been called ‘past lives’ is NOT past, yet these energies are in the now. There is so much bleed through of other lifetimes that then triggers our emotional body reactivity and ‘hidden’ woundings. It creates a ricochet effect that can be confusing and intense. These eras and legacies and civilizations (Atlantis, Lemuria, Avalon, etc.) are energizing and ALIVE in the now. The mind (and part of you) might want to make them the ‘past’ so that they don’t have as much impact and influence as they actually seem to on your experience of reality and your emotional reactivity and outward manifestation.
Our definition of what is ‘real’ and ‘reality’ is being hugely altered, shifted, and turning upside down from what 3D has said and taught that it is. Our hearts ‘get’ it as they are not linear and they feel every moment as the now….they get stuck sometimes in a moment or scene and need us to help them move beyond it again, to become fluid again…to free up the flow of love, compassion, gratitude, and goodness. Our hearts are what is needed in this now, with so much crazy making (this is a TRUE mind fu*k! reality) realigning of our realities.
Energies of Atlantis are coming in and offering us a storyline to go down that comes alive with our openness to feel and heal it with the aspects of us that are living it out. The ‘fall of Atlantis’ is a wound in our personal and collective consciousness. We are experiencing this in deeply personal ways in our processes in SoulFullHeart, and Raphael and I too in our relationship. There is the Raphael-Jelelle timeline of usness experience and there is the others, the counterpart matings and pair bondings that span planets, species, and timelines. The Atlantis ones seems to be the most intense with themes of sovereignty, separation, power struggles, matriarchy vs. patriarchy playing out. Sorting through what is what through the terrain of the heart with the higher mind helping too (yes, I believe there is a higher vibrational frequency of thought and that the mind is not bad, just can vibrate at different levels of consciousness). This can be a tricky process with self love and compassion AND for other needed to hold the space.
This can feel like a ‘soup’ to navigate yet the process of parts work and metasoul aspects helps in such a huge way. It provides a life line and a heart line too….and a soul line too actually. It is the way we live our lives and what we offer others too, and how we led yesterday during an all day group session with some very touching and important and DEEP process happening for all that were there!
Be open right now to what has previously been labeled as ‘impossible.’ Be open to letting in energies of what you may have felt were not ‘relevant’ or ‘in the past’. Open your heart to all the aspects that need you…..even if (and especially if) they exist in another timeline. As you are open to this and curious, you become more able to ride the waves, experience the gift of them, and integrate it ALL into your wholeness expression.
Entire planets blowing up, others nearly being destroyed with mass exodus to new planets…..Atlantis crumbling and drowning, Lemuria sinking into the sea…..these images have been moving through my consciousness lately. I am receiving writings from others that help fill in some of the picture, along with visions offered during meditation while also accessing my own soul’s experience of these timelines.
It seems this is a phase of FEELING and BEING with the trauma that is in our Metasoul line by aspects of us that are experiencing these collapse timelines in the Now. With the overall lifting and thinning of the veils of amnesia, we can access these ‘memories’ with much more clarity and feeling sense then we could before.
These memories of planetary implosions and civilizations ending is in the cellular memory of our collective unconscious. It lives there inside of us, pulsating and vibrating at a certain frequency until we become more conscious of it, elicit it, connect to the parts of us in our Metasoul that ARE experiencing it.
We are invited to feel that these events didn’t happen in an ancient past, yet rather as time becomes less and less linear in how we relate with it….are happening in the present. This is not ‘ancient history’, as so many people offer. It is not something that happened 500,000 years ago or 1 million years ago or even 15,000 years ago, even as that can be hard for our minds to grasp and understand as we receive so much conditioning in 3D reality toward linear time.
Collapses of the old are an aspect of the death and rebirth process of awakening. they are an important aspect of ascension, whether they are happening on a global, planetary level or in our personal lives. It is necessary for that which has become outgrown, outdated, served its purpose, to no longer BE and to make room then for the NEW. We choose to experience this through our Metasoul in many different scenarios and expressions. This can be very difficult to reconcile without conscious connection and healing around it.
‘Bleed through’ from these others lifetimes is happening at deeper levels right now as the influxes of light and love support us to hold space for this soul exploration. These other lifetimes can bleed into our present life without us understanding WHY some of the emotions we are feeling or ways we are seeing the world or how we are experiencing relationships with others are there. Aspects of us in other lifetimes can feel like victims, be very highly traumatized, feel large amounts of guilt and shame and responsibility related to the ROLES they are playing relate to these collapse events. These undigested feelings and karmic binds then come through to influence and impact our experience of present day reality and our emotional responses too.
Our Metasoul aspects MAY be playing a major role in the collapse of civilizations. These aspects of us wear both hats; they are on both ‘sides’. This helps us to feel that no BEing is truly EVIL, just able to embrace and express more degrees of fear or love in any moment. As we connect with these ‘shadow’ aspects in our Metasoul line, we become more compassionate toward these expressions in this life. We can relax the ‘good against evil’ pictures, the need to ‘go to battle’ (even for love) against others, and we can more FEEL where the expressions of outer violence comes from and is ultimately rooted INSIDE in unworthiness, fear, disconnect, and undigested pain. As we understand and LOVE the expression of the demonic, we can more authentically and purely embody the angelic.
Without consciously connecting to our collapse experiences from other lifetimes, we can project ‘collapse scenarios’ onto our present world. The 3D timeline IS collapsing in many ways as more souls de-energize and raise their consciousness beyond it. Yet, the picture of worldwide collapse of industrial systems leading to scenarios of mass starvation and death CAN BE greatly influenced by unfelt collapse experiences in our soul legacy. This sense of ‘doom and gloom’ can also be planted there by fear-based BEings who have agendas toward creating these scenarios. This planting finds fertile soil in the unfelt and undigested trauma experiences from our souls.
In SoulFullHeart, we offer a process to connect with your Metasoul aspects during spaceholding sessions in a way that allows for mutual healing, gift exchange, and even complete ‘recreation’ of timeline experience around collapse. We negotiate with your soul guardian/Inner Protector aspect first to ‘allow’ access to your Metasoul line and your soul aspects, as often they are usually fiercely guarded and protected until we are ‘ready’ to remember.
I have been connecting recently with Mareeka, my Metasoul aspect who lives during the time of Atlantis falling. I experienced the ‘fall’ with her, collapsing rubble all around us and drowning in tidal waves of water. It was very intense and, then, I was guided by Archangel Metatron that we could ‘change the timeline’. I helped Mareeka let go of a relationship that was no longer serving her (with a Metasoul aspect of Raphael’s actually). I empowered her so that she could ‘escape’ the fall of Atlantis before it happened (which she felt was just her ‘fate’). We changed the timeline and she is now sailing on her way to the ‘new world’ and a different outcome. It will be very interesting to see how this impacts my present life experience of reality!
If time is not linear and if everything we experience is our creation, then it seems that we CAN alter ALL timelines and move into Infinite Possibilities of experiences from there. Imagine if more and more of us did this and we were able then to heal events such as the ‘fall of Atlantis’ from our collective cellular memory and collective emotional body? I feel this IS possible or at least this is the timeline that I am offering to those of you who resonate with it. As we remember our way back to Infinite Love, we can feel and heal the impact of the collapses that were necessary along the journey, yet no longer reflect who we really ARE.