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Leena Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, writer and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

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Leena Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, writer and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

You…
Disintegrated.
You disintegrated so you could reintegrate through your integral integrity.
You…
Relinquished.
You relinquished your innate connection to utter outer and inner beauty in order to bring it all back in to you once again.
You…
Forgot.
You forgot so you could remember all the members of your own humanity and that you are all, in fact, one.
You…
Redeemed.
You redeemed yourself once for all you held in anguish for the sake of a life linked to fear and not love.
…all the potential power you’ve held and hold now has never
Ever
Gone anywhere.
Will you seek again in earnest what it was you once sought
before you relinquished to disintegrate and forget all you ever were?
Your redemption is now.
Will you let go so you can let it in?
Will you chastise or rise?
Will you breathe through the love lungs given you or will you hover in hatred over all you’ve named as wrong?
As always the choice is forever yours,
and as always,
we watch,
and wait at your arrival gate,
with all the love you can imagine
and all the promise of a renewed you to be.
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Leena Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, writer and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com
By Jelelle Awen

We are sitting in the courtyard in front of the Akashic Library. The courtyard is surrounded by trees, grass, and flowers. Everything is incased in a golden light, the perfect lighting that I recognize from higher dimensional frequencies as the visible light spectrum expands beyond what we experience in third dimensional or 3D reality. Archangel Metatron is ‘sitting’ next to me yet I still can’t look directly at him for too long as his frequency is so high and intense.
He is pure white light. He is presenting himself to me in his grandfather form, long white hair and long white beard. He knows that it is comforting to me and easier for me to take in his teachings when he is in this form. What his actual form is (way up in the 12th dimension) feels like would be impossible for me to even imagine or resonate with.
He wants me to be as current and transparent as possible in sharing with you what he is teaching me. The floods of information and teachings coming from Archangel Metatron are quite full in the moment. He wants me to claim it as him and to be more comfortable with offering myself as a channel of his and where my teachings are originated from as an aspect of my higher self embodiment process.
“Everyone is a channel,” he says to me as we ‘sit’ on a bench in front of a particular stunning tree that looks like an Oak tree but doesn’t feel like one as it is emanating a very strong rainbow colored aura. “Every soul has the capacity to channel and bring forward energies of higher dimensional beings such as archangels, spirit guides, ascended teacher frequencies. You are ALL sourced from It, so of course you can channel It.”
“I have about five questions that I want to ask you about that, Metatron, but I’ll start with this one. What do you mean when you say that we are sourced from It?”
He shows me an image of the Flower Of Life (image attached to this post), sacred geometry, for which I am becoming more familiar recently. He communicates to me in the form of shapes sometimes and especially during energy healing can use triangles, tetrahedrons, or his cube to move through my auric field to clear it out.
“The Flower Of Life is found in all major religions in the world in some form, the story of creation. Google it if you need to know more about its history,” he says, with humor in his voice. One of Metatron’s favorite expressions seems to be, “Google it!” He seems to find the Internet an amusing and amazing source of information and so it is.
“Anyway, the Flower of Life shows how everything originates from the center point. This center point has been called the Void, the Nondual, Big Bang, many others things. I like to call it Divine Source. Divine Source is All That Is Ever Has Been and Ever Will Be. And it is also No-Thing At All. It is Infinite Love, Infinite Awareness, and Infinite Possibilities.”
“I can feel the resonance here as this is what I have been feeling for awhile that each of us ARE Infinite Love in our essence and that awakening is about remembering this,” I say.
“Yes,” he nods at me in happy agreement. “You’ve had an intuition about this provided to you by your higher self and connecting with higher dimensional guides like me. You’ve had tastes of this Infinite Love essence in moments as you raise your vibrational frequency and mostly because of your work to heal your emotional pain body. The emotional pain body, which is created out of traumas experienced in third dimensional or 3D reality, is the biggest drag on your and everyone’s consciousness ascension.”
I’m starting to feel dizzy with all the questions I have and also because what he is offering validates my own focus and the work I offer to others through SoulFullHeart. Before I can respond or ask a question, he continues on:
“Let’s go back to the Flower of Life and my origin story, shall we? So, Divine Source is the source of all existence, which you can see demonstrated graphically in the Flower Of Life. Its energy pulses and surges in a very high dimensional space, you could call it the 13th dimension if you wish. I like the number 13 for many reasons, so we’ll use that. You can feel Divine Source, yet you cannot have a relationship with it as it has no duality or relationality.”
“Divine Source decided at some point that it wanted to experience different fractals of itself and, also, that it was bored,” he says. “Maybe not bored, but definitely I get the feeling that It wanted something to witness and live through. It wanted to get to know itself through a different expression than Its vast Infinite Love-ness. So, it created some first degree fractals of itself. These are the archangels, like me. Archangels are ‘tasked’ with holding back the intense energy frequencies of Divine Source. We act as pillars to contain the energy, hold it back for it would ‘wipe out’ all of creation if it came through. It is both great destroyer and great creator.”
“Ok, I see how that is represented on the Tree of Life as the first circle there,” I offer, pointing to the Tree of Life image that has appeared before us in the air.
“Divine Source then split off all Beings from the Archangels, just like the Flower Of Life shows. It is not a linear splitting off but rather a circling outwards, like shown here. In addition to the Archangels existence in the 12th dimension, we also respond to the heart cries and needs of all the fractals that split off after us. We can be in all places at all times as time and space are not real for us. We archangels are also what you been calling the Metasouls. Of course, I love that name, Metasoul, as it contains part of MY name and also because it perfectly captures the energy.”
What he is offering rumbles through me. Already, being a healer and teacher, I can feel how this perspective could serve people in their ascension process.
“Yes!” he exclaims. “You are already feeling the ramifications of what I am offering. Since all human beings originate from the 13 archangel Metasouls, you are fractals or projections from us. Therefore, you can learn a lot by identifying which archangel you most resonate with, connecting with us directly, and claiming your Metasoul origins connected to one of us. EVERY sentient being comes from one of the 13 Archangel Metasouls as every being comes from Divine Source. There may be others that could be considered archangels but let’s stick with 13 because, again, I like that number. Angels, ascended masters, spirit guides, are all higher dimensional fractals off of the 13 archangel Metasouls.”
“How does the higher self fit into this picture?” I ask.
“Your higher self is another fractal, a higher dimensional one, usually from the sixth dimension. It vibrates at a higher frequency from the 3D one that you live in and experience life from every day. Your higher self is a soul fractal deposit that you left in a higher dimension to guide you in your way. One key aspect of the ascension process is about raising your vibrational frequency to eventually embody your higher self consciously within your human body.”
“Ok, yes, I have been aware of that one for awhile now. I’m sure there is a connection here, but since you tend to be non-linear, I want to bring it back to the point for which we started, which was about channeling.”
“Yes, of course! Thank you for keeping me ‘on task’, Jelelle! Many souls have the capacity to channel higher being consciousness and ‘hear’ the messages. As I said, this is nothing special since ALL beings come from the Archangels and Divine Source ultimately. Yet, often, the person channeling these energies has to go unconscious to bring the energies through. Or their channeled messages sound and feel strange, not human like, and fewer of the relational tones of warmth and compassion. This is because their higher self is not embodied inside of them. Their human-based bridge to the higher dimensions, which is through a healthy heart, is blocked and clogged from pains and traumas.”
“You said earlier, Metatron, that healing the 3D emotional pain body is key to embodiment of the higher self because that raises the vibrational frequency enough for the higher self to come in. This is also what allows the channeling of higher dimensional beings and hearing their voice (clairaudience) and seeing them (clairvoyance), yes?”
“Yes, but also the integration of your Metasoul fractals (those fractals that split off from the same Archangel source) that exist across spans and eras of ‘time’ helps with raising vibrational frequency and embodiment of the higher self. As you have felt for awhile, Jelelle, it is both the healing of the heart AND the soul which leads to ascension, enlightenment, transformation, healing….whatever you want to call it.”
“This is the work we are doing in SoulFullHeart, yes, and you have been expanding that out lately with access to Metasoul portals in the Akashic library that we can access to connect with our soul legacy and other lifetimes. But that feels like a topic for another writing.”
“Yes,” he says, smiling his bright, bright LOVE grin at me. “There is much more to offer about the story of creation, the connection to Archangels, and Metasoul healing, but we’ll let what I’ve offered today go in for now. We don’t want to blow any fuses, do we?”
I am starting to feel a familiar pressure at the top of my head and third eye/forehead area which usually means that I am at the full point in terms of letting in new consciousness frequencies and ideas…..it does feel a bit like ‘blowing a fuse’ but in a good way.
We smile at each other as he begins to fade from my vision and I start to drift into the deeper sleep that allows for integration of these ideas into my BEing to be formed later into words to share with others.
To be continued…..
Jelelle Awen is an 5D ascension teacher, channeler, writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.

“Only From The Heart Can You Touch The Sky,” Rumi
The light is so bright I feel like I need to squint my eyes, even though they are already closed. The light is coming from him, it IS him, and it seems to invite me to remember that it is always what I am made from and of too. It’s been four months since I briefly connected with Metatron, an archangel from the higher 11th dimension. At the time, I hadn’t even fully remembered his name or what his purpose and gifts are to others. I hadn’t remembered yet what a gift he has been to my soul and how deep our connection goes.
This time I am crying, I feel the love that he is, and I can see his facial features too where last time I could only hear his voice. He looks like a thinner santa claus. He looks like the traditional God picture with a white beard and long, flowing white hair. There is nothing stern or formidable about him, even as he is very powerful and vibrating at an extremely high frequency.
We are meeting in the Akashic Records, a place in the astral plane that has the look and feel of a very bright, spacious, and beautiful library. The Akashic Records is so familiar to me, I feel comfortable there. There are arched windows on my left, twenty feet high at least and there doesn’t seem to be a ceiling in the traditional sense. There are ‘files’ or books for every soul stored in there, along with all the wisdoms and knowledge of both the collective conscious and unconscious. I’ll share more in the future about accessing the akashic records and your own file, walking through the portals to access your Metasoul brothers and sisters.
Metatron wanted to meet me here as it is a halfway point in vibrational frequency between where he normally dwells (too high for me in the moment) and where my frequency is at most times (hovering between 4D and 5D). I can feel the intense recalibration, detox, and upgrade process that I have been in the last months and how my frequency is much higher now to be able to connect with him. Yet, still, the tears come without body reaction at all, no runny nose, just waves of reunion, soul recognition, letting in love that is pressing against places in my heart that are still learning to let it in.
Metatron tells me that he appreciates my tears. He says that he loves my heart. I step through a portal or doorway that he opens for me of one of my other lifetimes in Atlantis where I was very focused on studying the mysteries, working with intense energies of the Earth and the cosmos. I was not much in my heart it feels like even as I was working with vey strong energies. I already know from my own soul legacy exploration that my soul theme has been around healing my heart, embodying my emotional reality and relationity as a priority this life over my spiritual development. This was my primary focus for many years even as spiritual awakenings, connection with guides and the Divine, energy healings still happened. I am here this life to heal my heart and to open up and integrate the soul consciousness from this heart enlovened place.
This has not always been an easy journey with an intense dark night of the soul period when I left a spiritual group which deeply felt like and was my soul family and my soul passion work. Many times in my life I have turned away from intense development of my soul gifts in order to go back into my heart, into my 3D pain body, into my emotional wounding. This time, I am taking my heart with me as I ascend and I am inviting others to do the same.
A moving and transformative process rolled out next with Metatron that I am still digesting today, yet that deserves its own space in another writing.
I feel a lot of support from Etheral Beings and our higher selves to bring this message to you today. The message is to not leave your heart behind in your awakening journey. You cannot really anyway. The hurts and pains remain and they show up primarily in relationships with others. I feel this is why so many healers and spiritual teachers struggle in their personal lives to embody and transact what they can access in the spiritual domains. Often this leads to a dis-integrity around what they are projecting from their leading edge of being and what their actual daily life is like from their trailing edge (where the wounding is.) This transaction is blocked by aspects of them that are still protecting them, protecting their heart, caught up in moments of trauma from childhood and from other lifetimes.
You can clear the channels to remember and integrate your soul gifts and even soul purpose, yet if you do not have access to your heart consciousness (which only becomes available as you go into and heal your shadow, your subconscious, and aspects of yourself) then you are not able to infuse it with the deepest gifts of your humanity, your compassion, your sensitivity, and most importantly, your vulnerability.
I have created SoulFullHeart with my soul mate Raphael as a reflection of my focus on my heart first and the gifts it has given me of experiencing life from a place of really feeling it, really being relational with others, and in such a meaningful and nourishing relationship with him. SoulFullHeart leads to many soul awakenings and is quite catalytic and effective at it because of the way it starts with the heart first, works with the protection that it is there, and offers self empowerment for you to lead the way.
In denying the heart, you may soar higher in the skies of the soul, yet you will experience more light then heat and somewhere, deep inside, the pain goes on screaming for your attention. To remember our essence as Infinite Love is to embrace that which has been formed from fear, all aspects of ourselves, and our heart most deeply of all.
By Raphael Awen

Golden Earth Now.
Feel those 3 words for a moment.
What do they stir on your insides?
I feel golden earth is real. It’s a place. It’s a dimension. It’s a dwelling place…and you can validate it for yourself. And, sadly, you, and only you can exclude yourself from knowing it as well…but why would you want to?
The realm you live in now, the one you are aware of, that you have no doubt exists, that doesn’t seem in any way to require any faith to see as real…..I’m going to ask you to rethink, refeel…
New science is proving that the world around us that we feel as real has the properties and experience that we feel it to have precisely because we see it and feel it in the way that we do. We’ve become really good at it, so good in fact that most of the time it appears seamless. Let’s call it 3D reality.
If there’s one thing that 3D living leaves us with, it’s unanswered desires, aches and a hunger for something more. If you disagree with that idea, can I ask you why you are reading this article? Even the desire to disagree is a desire to contend, to fill a need.
It all points us to something. That ‘something’ is profoundly true and it can’t be contained in any one of our religions, spiritualities though they all point to it. It’s bigger than that.
At the danger of diminishing it (in my own perception at least) I relate to this something by the name of Golden Earth. Naming something is always a dangerous thing as labels can so be used to minimize awe and wonder, but this is equally true of everything.
Golden Earth is here now. It actually exists in its fullness and entirety inside of every single atom of your and my being. There is actually very credible science for this, and yes, it changes everything. The divide between science and the mystical is evaporating.
If this heaven is a future hope that is real, it actually can’t be true unless you can access it in the now. If the hell that many live in, (and I’m deeply sorry for any deep pain that you may be living through right now) in the present moment is real, that reality is only real to the degree that it’s opposite of much greater glory is also real.
Even our pains and our distractions point us to our pure centre of infinite love and connection for ourselves and every living thing, time and space.
And God forbid that you spend another moment reading about this at the expense of feeling it inside of you. In glorious fact, if you forgot I existed and the world around you currently clamouring for your attention, and instead placed your awareness on this inside of Golden Earth Now inside of you, and let it find its way in and through you, that orgasm of your being would be your greatest address of your deepest response-ability to your world around you.
I’m going to go back to my own orgasm now, and leave you with a song that comes from a Christian source.
I invite you to feel past that label and see if it opens you out. This song captures the feeling of letting go of deep karmic pain in order to let in, and I’m feeling that so many need this is a first step to enter their own Golden Earth Now reality.
Just be re-membered to the fact that all this song is speaking to is all you. The river, the water, the lord is all you….
Enjoy, and thank you for joining me in a stunning orgasm of heart and soul and reunion….
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.
By Raphael Awen

From my heart to yours during this Christmas season…
If there ever was a time that the line from the Christmas song “O Holy Night” seems to apply so deeply, it feels like now.
“Long lay the world in sin and error pining…….”
Many of us are embracing a time with family or friends at Christmas as a way to escape the pain and disconnect that surrounds us on all sides in our world. We deeply know another reality is possible, but collectively, at least, we haven’t found it yet.
And regardless of the bliss you may have found and that you treasure personally, some aspect of it isn’t complete until that realization of bliss or joy rings through every heart in consciousness. And that alignment with life and love itself that you (or what you call you) have found also doesn’t mean it lives in every part of you. Love, by its very nature, wants to find its way into infinite realization into every nook and cranny of our beings, our world, our solar system, and all the ones beyond.
Could this dark night that we are collectively going through somehow be the ‘O holy night’ that we have long pined for?
I’m going to ask you to come with me on a few minutes journey into some words and heart that, if we feel it together, can be a profound awakening of love in the world.
I’m going to show you that the Christmas story is both the most real story and completely made up story at the same time. I know that doesn’t sound possible to our ears, but I assure you, anything less than this realization is part of the ‘Sin and error’ that we’ve been pining in, and what has buried our hope.
Nothing changes a heart like a story can. In one way, what you are is a story who is out seeking a story to understand your story. We seek others who align with our story and our lives and we are changed through others colliding with or resonating with our story. Everything of love and hope and joy and peace that I believe in and live for can rightly be said to be nothing more than a story, albeit a true one.
Because something is a story, doesn’t mean it is anything less than real as real can be. If you ever felt deeply moved from a novel or a movie, it is because the energy of the story resonated with the story of you. You and I are walking stories, seeking interpretation while the climax and plot are still unfolding into unknown infinite possibility.
For a big part of my life, until my forties, I subscribed to the Christ birth story as being a literally true story. I would have said then that this may be called a story, but it’s a factually true story that really happened. That’s the way my consciousness was moved by it and felt it to be real. It brought me genuine tears and love. My feeling-based interaction with the story satisfied any quandary over the opposition from people claiming it wasn’t real. That’s the power of a story…it creates deep feelings and emotions that go way beyond a mental debate of whether it really happened or not.
But I’ve since come to the painful intersection of other stories colliding with my literal-Jesus-Christ-birth Christmas story as offered and sanctioned by the Roman Catholic Church, extending all the way down into present day Christianity. It began some time prior with the eroding conviction that God himself had protected the bible from any human tinkering. I was then introduced to the now very widely known and easy to see reality that prior to the Jesus in a manger story as being literal and unique from 2000 years ago, there were, in fact, many other birth of Christ stories. Okay, but so what, you may say, the devil always tries to counterfeit the real?
Well, these other very pagan Christ birth stories came from several different cultures and religions in times thousands of years prior to the Jesus birth story. Horus, the sun god of Egypt, or Mithras of Mithraisim along with several others (Krishna, Osiris, Dionysus, Adonis, Attis) all come up with stunning similarities. We find (and bear with me, this partial list goes on) that these mythical Christs are also not only born of a virgin, but also on the same date, or the nearby solstice of December 21st, fathered by carpenters, attended by wise men along with bright shining stars and manger births. The Christ child in some of these other stories went on to have 12 disciples, be a saviour, be crucified, and resurrected.
My God, I could hardly believe what I was undeniably seeing. An atheist leaning brother-in-law from my previous marriage had once mentioned the book, (right in the middle of our living room, no less), ‘The Pagan Christ’ by Tom Harpur and back then, the very title was anathema to me and my ex-wife. I was very surprised a few years later to have my world expanded by that very book.
I had to simply shelve the whole thing and seek to find my own way. I still felt a god connection but didn’t want to be around anyone any longer who claimed to have it all figured out. It’s a bit ironic, because from where I sit today, I still, you could say, ‘believe in God,’ but this god/God, itself/herself/himself/source energy field, is the one actually trying to ‘figure it all out’ and it’s doing this through you and I through ongoing infinite discovery and expansion, and with all of us as fragments of it.
So, why then did the literalist Christians of recent fame get the corner on this story and why? The Christ story as it existed in mythology was a powerful story that many ascribed to, but left in its mythological form, it offered the Roman authorities of Jesus’ day no control over the people. For control, a literal story was needed, and one that was rolled out by Roman authorities. It was rolled out in strategically time appropriate/ripe stages long after Jesus’ death.
The man, Jesus, was made into the one true manifestation of the long, and through many channels, prophesied coming Christ. It began with the apostle Paul who had hardly any use or interest in the man Jesus, and complete disdain for his actual followers and sought only to fashion Jesus into this one true literal Christ. It is a lie of truly epic proportions, and interestingly (but this is a story for another time, see ‘The Event That Created Created Christianity’ by Eric Zuesse for more) the evidence for thee event that created this version of Christianity is contained irrefutably in the very writings of Paul in his letter to the Galatians. Long and winding story short– Jesus of Nazareth rolls over agonizingly in his grave that his life and teachings could have been used to construct a lie to keep souls in stumbling darkness.
This is all coming to light in our times now. What we (many of us at least) simply found so hard to see before is now revealed in plain sight. One of the tenets of literal Christianity is that once you accept Jesus as your personal saviour, you’re good to go. Literally. You’re ready for the afterlife, now that you successfully handled the one and only purpose for your supposed single incarnation.
Well, if you really need something to do, you can work on the fruit of the spirit –good works, because that’s a good thing and God likes that. Or, if that all lacks some juice for you, like it did for me, you can get into the power of the Holy Spirit, and seek out deeper manifestations of gods power. I can honestly tell you that within literal Christianity, I have never seen more corruption and shallowness (up close and personal at least) of heart and soul than within the leaders who most strongly push the signs and wonders, Holy Spirit etc. agenda. The power is real, but is being used for the overall agenda of literalist Christianity…, control. God is out to control, using final authority, and we’re just rooting for him. True godliness.
This shadow expression may look alive and well, but is actually falling apart at the seams in our day. It’s been a long time coming.
‘Long lay the world in sin and error pining’ now takes on a different meaning doesn’t it?
What might this all mean to you and I this Christmas?
Literalist Christianity is now being seen as the story that it is, whose time and purpose is now completing, and people all over the world are exiting their role in the story. It was a necessary story, but now a much larger story is sweeping over us that is calling us to a renewed vitality and role.
Who Jesus was and what he advocated for and taught is a far cry from what we are left with in the gospel accounts written many decades after his death, and overlaid writings by the deeply anti-Jesus Pauline writings. Jesus knew the real goods on the divine purpose in the very fabric of the universe itself that calls us to raise our consciousness of love and its desire in the world.
Our Christmas carol goes on:
“Til He appeared and the soul felt its worth
A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn.”
What is appearing now, in a way it hasn’t before, is a wave of Christ Consciousness that lights up the grand scale of the utter indescribable worth of the individual soul.
You are an actual soul fragment of God. God won’t no more rest with you being tormented in hell for an eternity than it would rest with you being outside of its full love revelation for a millesecond. You are the point of the whole deal. You are the reason for the universe. And you are the saviour of the world.
As long as you see yourself as anything less, you magnify the very purpose of the creation of space and time, which isn’t a bad thing, but there is a higher thing. You and I came here to remember and to awaken and to inhabit deeper and deeper expressions of our God-laden-selves.
This is the ‘yonder breaking new and glorious morning’. It literally knows no bounds, unending rejoicing.
The song goes on:
“Truly He taught us to love one another
His law is love and His gospel is peace
Chains shall He break, for the slave is our brother
And in His name, all oppression shall cease.”
There is only one story that unites all man-kind, along with every other kind, and that is the story of love. Here, that story is told through the lens of the Christ story. It is this story of love that introduces hearts to love itself. The story is the gospel that God is utterly at complete and total peace with ALL. That includes you, me, every part of me, Trump, the devil, all the extra terrestrials and all the angels in between. You and I are this ‘God’ coming to know this ‘God’, and we are already at peace in our highest expression, and are just in process of coming to terms with what we are.
What comes next is the ceasing of all oppression. Much of the oppression in the world is centred around fossil fuel energy, food control and the sick-care industry. There already exists waiting in the wings the technology and ability to deeply address super-abundantly everyone of these ills. (See the movie Thrive on you-tube if you’d like to doubt your doubts on any of that.)
But we actually don’t need to wait to enter our own personal golden-earth or fifth dimensional consciousness for everyone to be on board. It’s here now and very available. In fact, for all of us to go here eventually, the universe needs you to go there first. And the universe won’t actually rest until every last one of us find our way back to our true soul home.
Talk about a high calling.
There isn’t anything that compares.
In fact, every portrayal in every story ever told or depicted throughout all time attempts to get at and under this deep knowing deep in our souls that we have eternity in our hearts and an infinity of love to explore that.
This is the very true story, offered through one lens,…that consumes every other story!
So what’s left?
“Fall on your knees and hear the angel voices!
This is the time of our dear saviour’s birth …”
Noel, Noel, Noel! Rebirth! Rebirth! Rebirth!
Much love to your heart and mine…
Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.
By Jelelle Awen

Many intense days of body adjustments, realignments, DNA activating, frequency upgrades. I have been in a personal cocoon space to hold it all. I feel like this is all so important, this ascension process, and yet I already knew it somehow. I am remembering it. I have been ‘receiving’ messages, higher dimensional messages for many ‘years’ yet I never have called myself a ‘channeler’. Why? Everything has been so within. That is what has felt natural. Making a relationship with energies inside and calling them ‘parts of me’ has felt natural and yet, not, at the same time. It has felt temporary. A temporary way to connect. Because, ultimately, I am WHOLE as you are a WHOLE.
The voices and energies that I have ‘heard’ and experienced of the Divine Mother, Magdalene, Kuan Yin, Yeshua, Metatron, Divine Father, Star beings, Morgaine and others from Avalon, Guardian Angels, Daemons-Soul guardians…these energies have somehow come from within. I am starting to remember this now. The ‘travels’ to other dimensions, Avalon, Golden Earth (fifth dimension), and beyond have felt like they are from within my own landscape, which is as big as the Universe.
My mind is trying to digest what my soul already knew. My mind hurt all day trying to understand. My soul felt and feels at peace. The portals are within, the stargates, the high star councils, the star beings. All exist INSIDE. This is simple. And it is from this place that I have guided others to come from….inward, within….only from themselves can awakening, remembering, ascending arise and not from anyone else. It cannot originate from anyone else.
My mind is often looser, and it wants to loosen more. To let go of linear and perfect words, to let energy flow through me, even if it doesn’t make mental and linear ‘sense.’ To be free to let the energy flow that is from within me, the energy flow of (more and more) PURE love.
I have long felt I was a love ambassador. Yet, my mind thought thoughts that it was from me to others….me to star beings, me to humans…now I can feel that it is me to me that the ambassadorship Is. Me to me and because we are not separate, me to me is me to you. You to you is me to me.
My mind wants to know if this is ‘right’, the ‘right’ approach and feeling. Yet, it just Is, so it is what is remembered and, therefore, right. I don’t want to judge right and wrong anymore, or dense versus porous or awakened or not awakened. It is not what we really ARE, only what the mind has filtered us to be.
Letting go of judging, I had to be with the inner judger inside, be an ambassador of love to my mind and ego’s judgments. ‘Ego’ and ‘Mind’ can be judgments too, maybe new words will come to describe these energies, which are just energies of not remembering.
I feel grateful for what is flowing through. I want to jump in joy, my heart does. There is still much to remember but going within, inside, is natural for me. So, there, I am discovering what I am again. What I have always been. What I will more and more reawaken into….and YOU will and ARE too….
Jelelle Awen ~ co-creator, teacher, writer, love ambassador
soulfullheartwayoflife.com
By Jelelle Awen with Yeshua
Be in the world, not of the world…..yet care for the world. ~
You are in the world, bring your heart with you, feel your surroundings and those who call you into connection. You are in a human body, bring your health to it, feel your embodiment as sacred and the desires that flow from it. You are in a culture, bring your celebration of it, feel how it impacts you and forms you.
You are not of the world, it is not a reflection of that which you are really made and ARE. Participate in the world even while remembering that you are not just it…not your name, your occupation, your body, your income, your home, your history, your culture. Remain with some separation from it so that you can retain the essence of what you ARE as Infinite Love.
You are care for the world, bring your compassion with you, feel the tears of the world and those cries that call you to respond. Serve love as the greatest gift for yourself, others, and with the Divine God in all Its glorious forms, including YOU. Remember to respond to fear with love, not more fear, and you offer a new possibility to each moment. ~
Jelelle Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about awakening and healing sessions with her.
“Wanna wrestle?” Love asks, “it’s no fun without you”.
“Don’t I already?”
“When you want to stop, when you would rather not, when you are tired, just tell me.”
“Does that mean you’ll go away?”
“Only the human who can ask this in earnest gets any sort of answer that could satisfy them. I do not satisfy on command, but seek to satiate myself and my needs first.”
“And with me that comes down to wrestling right now?”
“…if you would like.”
“But is that what you want, Love?”
“Perhaps. If it is what part of you wants.”
“…I like you, Love. I feel my parts are feeling some liking of you too.”
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“…can we go slow?”
“…of course, Loved one. Though I can’t guarantee that I won’t still win!!”
“You’re on!” “…Love…I think I want you to win.”
“Good. I was right about you then. But I still want to be matched. I still want us to challenge each other. I still want to work to find my openings in you, just as you seek to find more of me. We will get there, Loved one. If we can just keep going. I know I want to keep going more rounds with you.”
“Me too, Love. Me too.”
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Leena Colibri is an apprentice facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.
