Intense 2020 Completing As Dark Night Matrix Revelation Continues Into 2021

By Jelelle Awen

As 2020 comes to a completion, there is a sense of the intensity that this year has been for all of us. There have been life changing and unprecedented shifts, transitions, and revelations for humanity as a whole. Most of these shifts have been about disclosure and revelation of the Matrix 3D reality and the trap/confines/manipulative programming it has offered.

The bars of the prison cell have been revealed this year to more and more souls…..even as the reality of the door to the cell ALWAYS being open has been offered as well. This year has showed us the false light of the matrix, its artificialness that we have all grown up under….even as our every cell and souls have yearned for and eventually seek out sources of REAL light from the Divine. This year has also been about a constant invitation to feel the Divine purpose holding ALL of it (no matter how crazy and arbitrary and even unfair it has seemed) and to continually surrender into trust in that purpose. And to also move out of polarized ‘us against them’ thinking and see/feel that we are ALL children of the Divine ultimately with each of us playing their ‘part’.

Those of us oriented to spiritual realities, subtle energy realms, and altered states of consciousness beyond 3D have been TRULY challenged this year to trust these states, lean into them and tap into them even MORE than 3D reality. We have had to dig in deep to our soul’s connection with the Divine and access the bigger picture…in order to understand and digest the craziness of 3D narratives. Soaring at the eagle’s eye view has never been more important…even as we open our hearts to feel the cries of the world and our own.

For me personally, this year has offered me both my deepest wishes coming true (such as finally living in Avalon with my community!) and continual invitation to let go of timing and how I thought those dreams would manifest and unfold (such as wanting to have been here months sooner, no longer being able to travel easily in the mission-based way that I had planned). Perpetual surrender to the Divine and coveting self intimacy with parts of myself and my soul has been my lifeline through making many major life changes, with even some significant ones happening right in this moment that I will share about soon.

These are times where our Divine Self MUST show up eventually to hold parts of us in reaction….or we are lost and veiled in fear, darkness, suffering, and self punishment. Some souls still need to choose this fused state as is their sovereign choice. This year has shown all of us where we are on the spectrum of embodiment of our Divine Self as we have had to truly ‘walk our talk’ in the sense of our spirituality needing to answer real life dilemmas and challenging situations.

It feels like 2021 will continue to offer more process of Dark Night for many souls before opening out into True Light realities. The New Earth timeline manifests/sprouts from within our consciousness before it can become our daily lived-in reality as a collective (which may be many years away still). There will be much to ‘ride out’ again in this next year and times where it will feel like it is quite dark, especially related to the mass rollout of their ‘false medicine or cure’ that those of us with expanded senses can see is truly poison for the light body with a hidden agenda around its availability.

It does feel like we choose to come here during this time of Dark Night moving into True Light, even to experience all of its ups and downs…the possibilities of sacred humanity truly rising was just too special and tempting to pass up. We are here to serve love within ourselves and to those souls who will be in so much cognitive and heart dissonance/shock as the veil lifts on all of this.

As I tune in here to the heart chakra energies of the beautiful planetary consciousness known as Gaia from Avalon, I can feel the blueprints for sacred humanity’s arising resurrection reality within Her. She holds this, as does our awakening DNA, our soul’s consciousness, and our Divine Selves. I feel our access to these energies will also be more fluid in 2021, as the veils lift and the Dark Night Deepens in certain ways, so are we all then ‘freed’ to go somewhere new.

Much love to you from Avalon as we complete this bliss mess year of 2020 and move into 2021.

Love,

Jelelle Awen

Here is a video where I offer more about this Dark Night moving to True Light process: https://youtu.be/n_RwhuQx7v4

More information about 1:1 sessions, group call events, writings/books, our online community at soulfullheart.org

I choose this photo at the Glastonbury Abbey to represent 2021 as there are the ‘ruins’ of the Matrix around us even as the light of a New Dawn is coming in.

My Heartbeat Aligns With Avalon

by Kasha Rokshana

My heart pulses in time with the heartbeat of Avalon.

The steady, activating flow of masculine.

The steady, responding flow of feminine.

Within Her arms I feel a new wholeness,

Coming together as she shows me the pieces

Still strewn about by separation trauma-drama.

I feel the whispers of Her sacred Wells

The clarion call of Her Tor

The magic of Her trees and hills and lookouts

All serving the purpose of service itself,

Planting seeds in ready hearts.

I feel the cleansing offerings She bestows upon us,

Of English roses and wild things,

Her birds, her squirrels, her surprising visitors.

All reminders of a magic preserved here, always…

All reminders of the magic of opening your heart

All reminders of the alchemy of inner discoveries

All reminders of the process that it must be to truly, deeply heal.

She awaits with tender gaze

And self-worth.

She awaits your echo to Her heart-call

The one that pings and rings in places yet unseen inside, perhaps.

She awaits the time, the space, 

When Her INvitation is heard

To return to your heart.

The one that aligns with your Divinity AND humanity,

As you open

As you surrender

As you ask for Her support.

My heart pulses in time with the heartbeat of Avalon.

And through Her, with Her, held by Her,

Is an ever-flowing love that moves into the All

Through any hearts that beat the same… 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Energy Update: Full Moon 2020 Year End (Video) | Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

Energy update: This is a video that I filmed here in Glastonbury/Avalon in the early morning (as it can be challenging to sleep during these energies!) offering an energy update about the full moon frequencies coming in right now to complete this MEGA transitional year of 2020!

These full moon energies offer a Divine Feminine space for reflection, digestion, and integration of what you’ve felt, experienced and been through in 2020…for many of us, it has been A LOT. The ‘void space’ between Solstice/Christmas and the New Year offers a natural pausing for this.

I also share about the transformational cycle that is going on for all of us individually and collectively ongoingly/repeatedly of moving from false light to dark night to true light…and how you may be experiencing that for yourself and in response to the collective process around it.

I offer too how you may feel to navigate this digestion space and let in the full moon codes with parts of yourself, soul aspects, and in your energy field/chakras.

Much love to you on this last FULL MOON of 2020!

Jelelle Awen

If you feel a calling to move from the often necessary lone wolf phase (which can turn into a dark night/suffering ground if prolonged too long) into more soul family community experience and connection, we would love to have you join us for rich and real conversation on our SoulFullHeart Portal at Mighty Networks https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co

Information about 1:1 sessions with me for women and with other SoulFullHeart Teachers/Facilitators, group call events, books/writings and more at soulfullheart.org.

The Gift Of Choosing YOU On Christmas Day

by Kasha Rokshana

Last Christmas, I spent the day ‘alone’. It was my first Christmas Day ever in which I was not a part of a family or community. I was separated from my SoulFullHeart soul family, in a very necessary Dark Night phase of going inward, learning to hold myself and my parts/Metasoul aspects in a whole NEW and much deeper way. I also had many NEW awakening experiences around just how beloved I was to the Divine and how much my soul loves and trusts the Divine in return… even when being invited to go through something so challenging on all levels.

It wasn’t that I didn’t have invitations to be with anyone else that day… I had colleagues invite me to things from the different jobs I had. Yet, even in the love flow I had with them, I knew I needed the day to myself. I knew I needed to be in my own company, to ache and bake and claim what I really wanted to experience in soul community within and outside of me. I knew this would be challenging for my parts, especially the young ones, yet it was something I had to show up for as a sacred mama to them. 

I knew I needed to keep feeling who and how I wanted to BE in order to draw it to me. And, I knew that this desire to change and heal on a deeper level than ever before had to be genuine in order for it to happen and in order for me to draw the soul and heart connections I knew I needed and wanted. It wasn’t long after that, that I reunited with my SoulFullHeart family and the reconciliation began. 

Now, this year, so many dreams of mine have come true… I’m living in Avalon, a heart and soul home that I’ve longed to come to for many years; I’m with my community of beloveds and we’re deepening our relationship together in countless ways, and I’m living into my soul purpose embodiment of Divine Mother in my own unique frequency in a more solid and expanded way. Also, our little community has been expanding with more soul family draw while here in England and that is HUGE to feel and let in!

This has ALL been quite a lot to show up for continually in 2020. It’s been a lot to be with the goodness of it all too while the world continues to move through its own Dark Night experience. It’s been a year of many invitations into profound inner shifts and processes while so much in the outer world burns… 

If you are a soul who isn’t currently connected to soul family, who has chosen like I did last year to be alone and be in your own sacred ‘cave’ time of inner initiations and being held by life through them, know that there’s a light at the end of the inner tunnel…. and that this light can only be lit by you with the support of your Divine Self and your own authentic connection to the Divine Mother/Father. Going inward while continually opening your heart outward is a challenge yet it’s one worth being with every step of the way. 

You are loved and held in your sacred loneliness and also in the fears that arise in parts of you toward really being with that or even opening their hearts to others on the outside again. 

Christ/Magdalene Consciousness is here, has always been here, and is waiting to birth through you in perfectly imperfect ways…

Merry Christ-Consciousness-mas ❤ 

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Open Your Heart To Your Inner World, Then Open Your Heart To The Outer World

by Kasha Rokshana

You respond differently to your outer world, the more you genuinely respond to your inner world. More compassion, more tears for what’s moving in the collective, more feeling of it through your caring heart, is what opens out…

It’s actually more challenging to ignore the cries of the world than it is to let them move through your heart, especially as you feel, hold, and eventually heal the parts of you that have not wanted to really see it or haven’t been able to see it and feel it beyond their own suffering (yet)…

If we are to truly open up the gates into the Age of Aquarius, we must choose our hearts, our connection with our own Divinity in a way that doesn’t bypass yet fully embraces the dark and the light within and respond to it in our outer world too.

For many of us, the fear-based consciousness that is peaking in our world is not ours to share in… yet, without choosing to care about it, feel how it’s churning and burning around us, we miss an opportunity to embody love and become the love ambassadors we came here to become. ❤

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Crossroads At The Conjunction Solstice

I admit that I do not have a lot of ‘this life’ knowledge of astrology and astronomy to get the full breadth of what this upcoming Solstice/Conjunction means from those set of glasses. I FEEL the epicness of it. I feel it in myself and what has been happening around me in community, in others processes, and my own journey of Becoming.

In all of that, I witness great opporTUNEity. An attunement to what we truly are as sacred humans, not just pawns in a sycophantic chess match of fear. In the beginning of this whole drama that is playing itself out, I could feel a sense of a bifurcation. At first, it came as some literal, external process but of course it is really just a projection of what is happening within each of us.

I have been feeling a ‘crossroads’ or ‘forks in the road’ in my meditations. One that is paved with Fear, and the other with Love. The Fear Path is one that is clear and yet subtle at the same time. On that path, I see Guilt as a huge influencer in decisions and choices. Guilt keeps us from really choosing what is in our best and highest interest. Another influencer is Unworth. Do we feel that we are worthy and deserving of Love and all it wants to invite us into in our courage, desire, and inner knowing?

As we move into and through these con-junctions, the support and the intensity both increase. We are supported to make choices, yet parts of us can struggle with them. Choices of letting go of old patterns of relating to others, ourselves, and the world. When we get to the root of our needs and wants, the choices become clearer and the rumbles get louder. We are called into choosing a road, grieving the old, and trusting in the uncertain New.

What I feel the Conjunction brings us is the Courage to go into the Unknown of Mind and the Known of Heart. The clearer we are about what serves our heart and soul, the clearer we are about how to serve from that heart and soul. Fusing to our smallness, our fear, our unworth will amplify the suffering. It is time to go into the birth canal of our choice and feel the fear along the way.

We are leaving it behind by feeling it. Grieving with it. Dying and birthing with it. Love is both a death doula and a birth doula. I have been bridging this within myself from part to part, aspect to aspect through Divine holding, connecting with Yeshua, and leaning and learning from my community. I see and feel the future inside of myself. I can taste this Golden Earth when I turn off the static and tune into Soul. It lives Here Now within each of us.

We are presented with challenges as this ascension train continues on its foretold path. Those challenges are met from the inside out and then put into practice in this training ground we have all co-created. What a spectacle of Love when you can see it from that perspective! We are all seeking love even in what may feel in the darkest of times. There is support in so many ways for you to reach for should you feel the need. Consider myself and SoulFullHeart as one of those. This is what we have come here to do and be in this world.

Sacred humans rising and loving.

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Gabriel Heartman is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator and Collaborator.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

SoulFullHeart Avalon Updates: Issue 5

We are excited to announce that on Monday Dec 21st, for the day of the Solstice/Conjunction, Raphael and Jelelle will be hosting a group call on Zoom that you can donate to attend live/receive the recording. If you decide to join our SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, which is $14.99 USD/month to join, you can attend this call without offering an additional donation. You can find more information about all of this in this Update, and you can also visit soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions for more details as well.

This issue is quite full of new videos, including an energy update from Jelelle where she digests the incoming energies from the Solstice/Great Conjunction. You’ll also find new writings and audio blogs from all of us.

You can take in the new Update here.

May this powerful portal be as magical for you as it is catalytic…

With love,

~ The SoulFullHeart Community

Winter Solstice/Conjunction Energy Update (Video) | Jelelle Awen

Energy Update!! The energies leading up to the Winter Solstice/Conjunction have been intense…some of the strongest that I have felt before! In this video, I share an energy update with my sense of the energies going on as we head into the Winter Solstice and Conjunction of Jupiter/Saturn event on Monday, December 21st. I describe how you may be experiencing these energies on emotional/physical/chakral levels as they are ‘preparing’ you to move into a New Age for Humanity’s Ascension.

There is a sense of masculine energies moving from wounded expression into sacred masculine expression collectively and within our inner masculine through a forgiveness process. I also share about the Matrix collapse that is going on and how these Solstice/Conjunction energies support ongoing disclosure and unplugging of more souls.

Take extra care of your heart, soul, body, and energy fields as we prepare to move into an accelerated timeline of Ascension!

I also share about the Winter Solstice/Great Conjunction group call on Monday, December 21st at 5:00pm GMT/12:00pm EST/9:00am PST and how if you become a member of our online community SoulFullHeart portal, you can attend/receive the recording of this group meditation transmission call on the inter Solstice Monday, December 21 for FREE.

More info and to join the Portal/offer payment at https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co

If you want to just come to/receive recording of the meditation call transmission to digest/activate during the winter solstice/great conjunction ushering in the Age of Aquarius on December 21st 5:00pm GMT/Noon EST, you can offer a donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen with more info at: https://www.facebook.com/events/20440

This is my Deepen 33 day series that I mention: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

I’ll be releasing a new guided meditation to music to help ease the integration of these energies, yet here is one I’ve done previously to offer soothing: https://youtu.be/PnfHIkziOo4

For information about 1:1 sessions, go to soulfullheart.org/sessions

Love from Avalon,

Jelelle Awen

Solstice/Great Conjunction Energies Offer Rebirth Process As We Shed ‘Old’ Ways Of Living From Deep Within

by Kasha Rokshana

Energy Update: 2020 has been a birth canal. It’s felt quite tight and constrictive, even restrictive at times. It’s brought to light the huge polarities that have dwelt deep within our systems, inner and outer, and have informed the function of our daily lives…

Many souls have chosen to pass away during this time. It’s less so because of a ‘malevolent virus taking their lives’ as it has been about a soul’s deeper choice as to whether or not they want to stay in the birth canal presently on Gaia. Even the system of ‘sickness’ is one that has been with us for so long, that it can be challenging for parts of us/Metasoul aspects of ours to feel the bigger picture around what’s happening and why… Not only for the pieces that are hard to digest yet need to be realized, but the pieces that offer more air and love to let in around it all too.

All of our belief systems have been squeezed and in some ways, penetrated too. These systems have been there for centuries, planted here in our 3D Matrix by the energies of beings from Saturn, in many ways. We are still one with these beings and have been a part of the co-creation of everything that is now being pushed against. We are not ultimately victims to what’s happened to us as it really has happened WITH us, and we do get to choose the healing required inside in order to move beyond it and open up to love on a deeper level… Even with the process of feeling and healing the trauma we have walked out also being very real and takes much time and grace to flow with.

This conjunction with Saturn and Jupiter feels like it reflects to us the humility that humanity is being brought into, held in our death and rebirth by the Divine and our Divine I AM Selves. We are simultaneously seeing the restrictions placed on us by what we have believed to be true and the ‘rules’ we agree to abide by, which are showing themselves to be nothing more than the ‘great and powerful OZ’… a game of smoke and mirrors to keep us in fear, as a last gasp attempt to keep us from remembering the love that we are and are here to serve.

We are being shown with every wave of awakening and realizations, just how much healing there is to do. It’s humbling, yet so doable and deeply supported by the Divine. We are being asked to keep propelling ourselves through the birth canal and out the other side. This takes some pushing at times, yet even the pushing can be held with deep love of self and others along the way. Without learning and leading with compassion, care, and forgiveness from the inside out, we are not fully stepping into our potential to really unite within and with others and we aren’t really giving ourselves the chance to truly become different… to embody love in our Sacred Human way.

This death and rebirth is such a poignant healing opportunity if we are ready to let that in and lead all our fragmented parts and soul aspects in this process. This Great Conjunction happening on the Winter Solstice, the change of seasons into a more Yin and inward time of year in this hemisphere, brings around even more opportunity for deep inner shifts that our outer world then reflects back to us. This is a very powerful time, showing us all of our potential to do harm and also to do good… to become much better beings in this Universe, with healing and opening hearts and awakening souls integrating together inside of each of us.

Much love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Winter Solstice/Conjunction Group Meditation Call FREE When You Become A Portal Online Community Member

A Christmas/Solstice gift from those of us at SoulFullHeart! From now until December 21st, if you become a member of our online community SoulFullHeart portal, you can attend/receive the recording of our group meditation transmission call on the Winter Solstice Monday, December 21 for FREE.

Portal membership is $14.99 USD per month (you can cancel anytime) and is definitely turning out to be a warm, inspiring, vulnerable, lively, activating ‘safe’ place to be online with resonant souls. I admit that I am proud of how it is developing and it has become a place for me and all of us to share more personally and vulnerably off of social media as well if you are curious about that. More info and to join the Portal/offer payment at https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co

Let us know if you would like to pay via paypal at soulfullhearts@gmail.com.

If you want to just come to/receive recording of the meditation call transmission to digest/activate during the winter solstice/great conjunction ushering in the Age of Aquarious on December 21st 5:00pm GMT/Noon EST, you can offer a donation at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen with more info at: https://www.facebook.com/events/204407741239050 and soulfullheart.org/events.

Comments from Portal members:

“The portal has been a wonderful experience and I highly recommend it. I especially like the intimacy, the ease, the positivity, the connection, and also being away from the din and distractions of Facebook. I hope to see everyone there!”

“I do LOVE the portal, for all the reasons you mentioned. Also funnily enough, the more I work with my Inner Punisher and the more unanchored from pain/suffering/self-punishment/shame he gets, the less drawn I am to FB as I’m increasingly notice the hostility here and a sense of it being not safe. The portal is SO warm and has helped me already in my deepest process yet, with many inside and corresponding outside rumbles and collapses, as I was able to share in real-time and get real-time responses, reflections and guidance. Multiple times. THAT alone was worth the $14.99 to me. I’m also super excited about the women’s only private group on the portal which feels like it is so needed for me personally as it is yet even more private and safe than the general portal. Everyone is sharing their processes on there as well which is so helpful and supportive to my own process and for locating myself. The portal is a huge gift, thank you!”

“Lovely to be here and I agree it’s great to be in a safer, more peaceful, online space.”

NOW feels like a powerful time, as we enter into the Age Of Aquarius and acceleration of Humanity’s Ascension, to be in resonant soul family bonds that support your deeper explorations and healing into self and soul!

Love,

Jelelle Awen

More info about 1:1 sessions, group call events, writing/books and more at soulfullheart.org