Celebrating Sacred Union/Info About Our Next Group Transmission

By Jelelle Awen

Your loving hands bring me back to me,
my woman’s heart widens to receive and give,
in this moment between us,
in this slowly arising dawn…..
it feels new, it IS new,
Even as it is ancient too….

~ For Raphael Awen and for the possibilities inside every heart, soul, body and mind for sacred union within and with a beloved mate…..

Love,
Jelelle Awen

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Join Raphael and I for our monthly group transmission live or to receive the recording on Saturday, October 12th at 10:00am PDT for $15 CAD donation. We will be offering teachings, meditation, and a sound healing with crystal sound healing bowls to help activate your light body, bring in any galactic/ascension codes in your ‘field’ and raise your frequency for deeper embodiment to receive inner and outer sacred union!

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Picture of us taken at Salt Spring Island during our recent Equinox Gathering by Saralyn Bliss

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Dear Love,

Dear Love, 

 

Who and what are you really to me?

How to I authentically and honestly relate to you?

What lures me and repels me so? 

So many questions that can only lead me on a quest. 

A quest to open the doors that remain closed to you. 

 

I have experience you flood my house

Set my world on fire

And send me to the moon.

I remember how you have broken me open

And invited me to see what I really didn’t really want to see

 

You have felt like a bully, a beacon, an enemy, and a teacher 

To the varied parts of me that have their own relationship to you

But how do I Gabriel see you? 

What does this man’s heart want and need from you? 

 

I want to see you how you see me

I want to feel the breath of your wildness down my spine

I want to hear the whispers and the shouts 

That guide me to places previously feared

I want to touch your sesuality and ecstasy

And taste the sweetness and realness 

Of that which that courses through you

 

I need to stop playing games of hide and seek 

And walk upon your secret garden 

And sow my seed upon your fertile ground

The seeds of my desire, my purpose, my joy

 

I need your help to shine the light upon the places

You have not been permitted to enter

To open up those up so I can let in the love that is meant to find me

To see the world and myself through those very eyes

 

I feel ready to be consumed by you

Ready to be seen by you

To be transformed and moved by you

Even as I feel a quake when I say that

 

This is my meditation

My daily prayer

My devotion to your embodied promotion

*****

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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It’s Ok Not To Be OK: Feelings As A Portal To Your Multidimensional Self

By Jelelle Awen

It’s OK not to be OK….putting down the masks of OKness or being positive all the time. Being vulnerable to show what is really going in your heart. Sharing your tears, your fears, your concerns, your pain with those who can feel you. Being real with what parts of you are feeling and reacting to in every moment. This self permission space allows the feelings to BE, to be felt, and eventually to heal.

Why do we need to receive this self permission to feel? The 3D world operates on the suppression of vulnerable feeling. Analyzing feelings rather than actually dropping into the emotive ground of them. Numbing and drugging our feelings with ‘anti-feeling’ drugs such as anti-depressants, anti-anxiety, etc….relating to our emotions as if we need to go into battle with them. As if they are diseases and illnesses that need a cure. As if they are evidence of our brokenness.

Your feelings offer a story, an important telling of what parts of you have experienced in 3D reality and what may remain emotionally undigested. They tell a soul story too…often from other lifetimes even, BIG emotional charge there sometimes, that is waiting for bridging and to be felt and held and responded to.

Your feelings provide a portal to deeper understanding of yourself in this life..and in other lifetimes too. They are a portal to your multidimensional experience of reality in so many timelines going on all at ONCE.

There is so much social lack of acceptance around feeling ourselves and being REAL about what our feelings are. Even in spirituality, there can be so much focus on the light and the positive that transparency and integrity (that come from being REAL about what you are feeling) get lost and covered over. Abuses of self and others occur then in ‘spiritual circles’ with emotionally immature teachers perpetuating toxic cycles from using spiritual frequencies to cover over their own woundings.

It’s OK not to be OK…..if you had been told this, offered this in childhood rather than the 3D message of “Get over it. Don’t be so sensitive. Stop crying”…you could have naturally learned how to hold space for your feelings and the parts of you that feel them. Instead, parts of you learn to protect and defend your feelings. To turn the judgement of your feelings inward and develop a punishing energy (an Inner Punisher) that carries the message inside of your unworthiness.

Then, you are called eventually to become the loving and accepting parental energy (fuelled by the Divine) that you probably did not have. Your pain calls you to this. Your pain offers where there still remain places inside that need your love.

The most amazing high frequencies of bliss and joy find MORE room is made for their arising when the deeper pains are being felt. When no feelings are being denied, there is no energy going toward suppression, no energy toward transcendence of feelings. Then, this energy is freed up and your heart space opens for yourself, for these parts of you that need you, and bliss can flood in again eventually finding rich, grounded soil in your open heart.

Trusting the flows AND the ebbs, the natural cycles of closings and openings. Trusting and being curious about the reasons that your tears exist, the reasons that your pains exist, and the mirror they are offering you OF you. The Divine, especially Divine feminine frequencies, WANTS you to feel yourself and all that calls your heart to respond to it. Divine love supports this process of not being OK, being real about it, and the dive in exploration of it too.

The Divine wants the pains of the 3D experiment to be felt and moved as more of Its essence can be let in…..which is actually YOUR essence as Infinite Love returning to you as a felt reality the more and more you are willing to feel what is real.

Here is a guided meditation to transmute traumas by feeling them with love: https://youtu.be/H20_fT-tKYg

Love,
Jelelle Awen
1:1 sessions available with SoulFullHeart Facilitators RaphaelGabriel and Kalayna : soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Join Raphael Awen and I for our monthly group transmission live or to receive the recording on Saturday, October 12th at 10:00am PDT for $15 CAD donation. We will be offering teachings, meditation, and a sound healing with crystal sound healing bowls to help activate your light body, bring in any galactic/ascension codes in your ‘field’ and raise your frequency. More information here: https://www.facebook.com/events/467546737430726/

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Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Your Truth Leads You To What Is Honest

Telling our truth and being honest with ourselves can sometimes be two different things. 

Our truth can come from multiple sources, or parts, within us. They may be aligned or in conflict. Truth has power behind it. It can have a force that cleans house and resets the furniture. It has its own volition that is meant to offer a portal into who we really are, even if it seems contradictory. 

When we get honest with ourselves, something else happens altogether. We are seeing ourselves fully. We get to a core place that has a sobriety and a wider/deeper look into our hearts and souls. The pain, the selfishness, the judgement, the fear. When we get honest, not just truthful, we have dug in deeper to pull out something more lasting, more embodied. 

Honesty makes us transparent and responsible for our truth. When I felt to purge my FU’s two days ago, what was I honestly doing? Was I just dumping my stuff or was I genuinely feeling guided to share my humanity? Was a part of me looking for an argument to test the waters of this new ground inside of myself or was there just a desire to be more real with myself and others? 

I feel there is a bit of truth in all of it. That is my honesty. Looking and feeling my truths holistically. It gives me doorways into myself and also the pulse of those that responded. I definitely noticed that women mostly responded. That could reflect my own inner feminine looking for my masculine to arise more in the space. It felt like the masculine in the collective feminine was asking for men to do the same. Just get real, bro! 

What is real for me is such a varied and dynamic thing. Right now I feel softer than I did yesterday, but the caldron of truth still burns. It is meant to integrate into me so I can be more honest. How that comes out will shift and change over time as I feel the deeper layers under the anger and feel the part of me that has been suppressed. 

This is not necessarily new territory for me, but mostly another layer of growth that is looking to express and serve those that it is meant to serve. It is one that I feel we can all relate to, whether we feel ourselves to be easily honest or if it is difficult. What I want to explore next is the ENERGY by which we share our truths. That frequency does illuminate a lot about how we honestly feel underneath the words themselves.  

*****

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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Questing With Our Questions Into the Quantum: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Sept 30, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

This week, we celebrate the end of September and the beginnings of October. The fall season is taking hold and with that comes a whole slew of new/renewed questions we can ask within. A few of these questions SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator/Co-Creator, Raphael Awen, addresses in the leading article this week. He specifically brings up the questions of infinite possibilities, the life you’re living now which may feel like it is in some sort of stasis, and how we can relate these questions to parts work, which we offer through SoulFullHeart sessions:

“How did infinite possibility get swapped out for infinite impossibility?

Could it be that this has everything to do with parts of ourselves who have so mastered the art of creating the world they actually want, albeit a small, narrow and safe world, while other parts of you so ache to break free of this pattern persistence in your life?

Has one powerful part of your being scripted your life with a scripture of its own, and you are just now awakening to it; through your feelings of confinement, through your desire to break your unquestioning allegiance to this scripture; through your desire to awaken from what feels like the bad dream that another part of you feels your life has become? And to let the chips fall where they may?”

There will be an online Group Transmission led by Raphael and Jelelle Awen in October. The focus of this group on Saturday, October 12th at 10am PDT is to learn more about the light body activation process that is ongoing as our carbon-based, 3D conditioned/programmed physical bodies transition into crystalline, living on prana/light energy bodies. The process of this seems to come in phases and cycles of detoxification of 3D chemicals and toxic food digestion energies along with activation on cellular, DNA, levels. They will especially focus on what the best fuel as food is for the light body to support its transition.

Jelelle Awen and Kalayna Solais will be leading another virtual women’s group towards the end of October. The focus of this SAFE group on Sunday, October 27 2019 at 10:00am PDT over Zoom is to provide a continuing conversation about what the sacred feminine is and isn’t, plus the process that is needed (both to let in and to let go of) for more embodiment of the sacred feminine. Jelelle and Kalayna will teach about sacred feminine embodiment from their own years-long exploration into it through working with women in session space….plus, working with parts of themselves (both masculine and feminine), Metasoul (soul fragments) from other lifetimes, and the Divine Mother as a beloved template and bridge.

On Tuesday, October 8th at 6pm PDT, join Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman in person for a FREE guided meditation and sharing circle! They will lead you in a powerful, high vibrational guided meditation. Raphael and Gabriel will be leading the guided meditation, as they have for people around the world in session space and through video sharings on metaphysical websites and on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube channel.

There will be another online Group Transmission coming up in November with Raphael and Jelelle Awen. The focus of this group on Saturday, November 9th, 2019 at 10:00am PDT is to learn more about the Ascension codes that are coming in through cosmic energies (from sources such as our Sun, the Great Cosmic Sun, other Planets/Galaxies, etc.) and from Gaia and Inner Earth as well. We will also talk about what codes ARE and how to bridge to your personal experience of them as images, sounds, number sequences, etc. We will also talk about the parts of you (such as Inner Protector/Gatekeeper) that need to negotiated with to bring the codes into your field through the crown chakra and what the fears/resistances can be to doing that stemming from other lifetimes/timelines.

We will be having another four-day community gathering this December 2019 for the Winter Solstice. The gathering starts at 10:00am on Wednesday the 18th of December and goes through 5pm on Saturday the 21st (each day’s events are from 10:00am until 5:00pm).

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

There are several new articles and audio blogs this week from Jelelle Awen, Gabriel Heartman, and Kalayna Solais. They include energy updates digesting the September codes and energies as well as what is coming through very recently, as well as some vulnerable personal process sharings meant to inspire and support you on your own journey.

Raphael, Gabriel, and Kalayna offer 1:1 90min Bridging Sessions to help boost and digest your Ascension process and feel with you what your next steps are towards your highest timeline possibilities.

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Vulnerable Sharing From A Moment Of Deep Tears

by Kalayna Solais

Crying in the moment and I can’t 100% track it, what’s going on behind the tears… but, I thought I’d share and see what is coming through my heart in this moment. Take you along with me. 

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Sometimes there is just so much sadness that comes up in me. It’s not always linked to what I’ve gone through or am going through now. It’s not always connected to an inner process.

Sometimes it just IS. And there are so many layers to it… some of them mine, some of them not so much.

The deeper I feel it… the more I feel the sadness of a part of me coming up, but a sadness in my soul in a ‘Cries of the World’ kind of way, too.

My empath has been becoming even more sensitive than ever lately. The sense of needing the same masculinized protection inside has been healing for years. It’s time to have a more exposed, feeling, feminine heart that doesn’t need protection but needs to vulnerably share and deeply feel.

Beginning new things is always something sensitive for the younger, very feminine parts of me that care so much about being liked, being accepted, doing well… and also care SO much about others, about helping others heal, about having resonant relationships where there is genuine care, and about seeing this world we live in becoming more gentle, more open-hearted and caring, more compassionate, and ultimately much, much safer to live and breathe and emote and LOVE in.

There’s still a lingering sadness in my feminine that my last relationship is over. There’s still a way that it’s just HARD to see the growth that couldn’t happen while we were together. And there’s still so much confusion as to why this has been true. I can feel this aspect’s confusion though… her pain around relating to men in general that some of it stems from and how this relates to her relationship to my masculine inside.

When it comes to men, it’s just been SO hard to try and become what she isn’t in order to get loved, feel wanted, and belong to the man’s world. Often this has meant sacrificing something of herself for the sake of the relationship and keeping it kosher. And over the last couple of months of inner process between her and my masculine aspect(s) I’ve become more awakened to how this dynamic has lived inside of me. How he has caretaken something in her which has kept her small and how she has not been able to vulnerably invite him to actually feel her and meet her halfway in any area so that they can feel each other and really, genuinely BE together in collaboration, mutual respect for each other’s bigness, and LOVE.

So there’s that going on in this ‘now’ moment. And it doesn’t need solving or resolving… just more feeling. There’s definitely some other layer of this inner relationship coming up for me to tenderly feel with these aspects, more push-pull towards each other.

Some of the tears aren’t mine, so there’s that layer too. I don’t mind moving the ‘Cries of The World’ through my heart though. I actually feel honoured when I feel them and when I feel others and their genuine pain. This doesn’t plague me or bother me. The ‘Death Doula’ inside of me can be with the mourning and the sadness and even the frustrations. The frustrations through, because I don’t have many of my own anymore, especially in my masculine aspect, quickly move into the more vulnerable feelings of sadness that are beneath them.

Questions of “Why isn’t there more love flow in this world yet and heart warmth too?”; “Why are Disclosure people so intense still and not seeing how any focus on warfare exacerbates the problems instead of moves it all into new territory?”; “Why aren’t more souls choosing to REALLY go inward yet?”

As I feel my heart ask these questions, I know the answer already… “It’s not yet time… but it will be eventually. And the only thing YOU can do is keep going inward, keep feeling, keep sharing, and keep growing and healing, as you also respond to those who ARE ready”.

So, there it all is… different raw layers coming up on this early, EARLY Friday morning. 

I don’t often share this way because it seems to draw caretaking from others sometimes. I’m sharing this today to show how I process, the different layers I feel going on in so many moments of deep feeling, and I trust that what is meant to resonate and support your own process, will. 

Thank you so much for taking this in as you feel to for yourself. 

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Sacred, Healthy FU

Sometimes we just need a healthy dose of ‘F You’. I feel it coursing through my body this morning not sure of its origination. Maybe all this feminine work is gurgling up my repressed masculine. An aspect of my masculine that is fu**king tired of being good, nice, and higher frequency. I have done much better since my earlier days when I would be less than transparent about what I was truly feeling. Mostly the ire would be inward directed toward myself. It still does to some degree but not as much as before.

I got this way from what I feel I came into this world with. A soul history of guilt, shame, and despair. Well, the clouds of those energies are starting to finally lift and leave my field and what is coming up is the energy that it had always suppressed. The anger, the ugly, the raw.

So I avoided it my whole life in order to f**king care-take my mother who instilled me with fear and anxiety about life and other people. A fear that if I got too real that she would drink herself into oblivion. F You!

I avoided it with my father out of an existential fear as a boy that I would not survive the following five minutes afterward. F You!

I avoided it with my sister out of protection of her own rage toward life and a scalding criticism of my masculinity. F You too!

I avoided it with my step-father lest I got the stoic shut-down or a call to the mental hospital. And my step-mother for her rage against anything that came out of a man’s mouth that might be construed as anti-woman. F You both!

So from there the relationship to any man or woman was a combination of all these things. I was drawn by women who wanted the nice guy in their life for once, but then would lose interest when that very thing became not enough to sustain or interest. I need to say ‘F You’ to that too! I have my own ‘F Me’ in that to own too. I was a coward and couldn’t get to my f**king truth to either complete or move the relationship deeper. So in purgatory I sat.

With men, I feared getting into an altercation and being called out as a list of unmentionable words that cut to the core of my unworth. I was only in a fight once and it just took one punch and that was it. I projected my father onto many, if not all of them.

Well, f**king no more. I feel this part of me tired of that shit. It may get a little ugly at times but I guess it is better than managed. I am over-experienced in apology so that won’t be an issue. I need to work on being less apologetic even if I am in the ‘wrong’ for a period of time. THAT, to a part of me, would be progress, believe it or not.

Thank you for taking this in if you did. I feel changed already inside of me. I feel many of us could use a healthy ‘F you’ to help clean out the masculine pipes so feel free down below. I feel it is the most spiritual thing we can do if it authentic and real.

*****

Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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Energy Update: Star Seed Activations As We Move Into 10/10 Gateway

By Jelelle Awen

Energy Update: Star Seed activations and upgrades are happening in response to these increasing surges of energy that we experienced especially in September and now ongoingly into October. We had some strong SOULar storms in September which can increase polarities in Gaia’s atmosphere and ours too….allowing us to see, feel, and heal the polarizations that have played out from being in 3D reality versus the more porous frequencies our soul is used to as a Star Seed. 10/10 through 11/11 offers a gateway/portal opening to these galactic frequencies too.

The upgrades recently are connected to our upper or Ascension chakras, specifically the Stellar Gateway or Personal Sun (as I call it), Soul Star, and Causal (back of head). These are chakras that fewer souls are aware of beyond the main seven. These chakras are like the branches of our energetic tree, with the seven main ones forming the trunk, and the root base chakra system extending down to Gaia.

This upgrading causes the head and neck pains as the Causal Chakra (which is where our Reptilian Brain Stem dissolves to be upgraded into our galactic/sacred human one). These are similar to sleepy DNA strands that are now coming awake and into our awareness. Connecting with these consciously, cleaning and activating them, allows for light languages access, communion with your star family, and very importantly healing of Star Seed abandonment wounding so that you can receive the supportive gifts of your star family. Connecting with them allows for a lifting of the veil so you can remember your galactic nature.

Here is a guided meditation that I did to activate these chakra vortexes: https://youtu.be/6cv-bzIAY8E

I feel that we are ALL Star Seeds as humans here on Gaia….our DNA is a galactic soup of genes from many species from many planets formed together over millions of years. Revealing this mainstream will be an aspect of disclosure once it is felt ‘safe’ in terms of collective reaction. We are ALL hybrids in this way with some of us having more distinctive star being DNA/genes from others. Those of us with more star BEing DNA are being woken up ‘early’ to lead the way and help others adjust to the galactic awakening that NEEDS to happen as an important aspect of the Ascension process.

I am working a lot with the Star Seed child aspect within me and in sessions over the last year, which is the more porous expression of the more 3D-based Inner Child. I have identified this part as holding the energy of feeling abandoned by star family, like they don’t ‘belong’ here on Gaia and with their birth families. They very often struggle to fit in with others at school and don’t like the constraints of 3D school systems. They can draw bullying from others, more 3D-based children as a reflection of their abandonment wounding, which just amplifies their feelings of not belonging.

The Star Seed child aspect can range in ages in every moment….from very young to older. The amount of visitations with Star BEings that you signed up for (especially as a child and if you are a Galactic Ambassador) can lead sometimes to more trauma and even terror for the inner child related to connecting with star family.

If you have experienced unexplainable fear of the dark, full blown panic attacks/acute anxiety in your life, etc. this is most likely connected to visitation experiences during a child that you didn’t know how to digest afterwards. Connecting with your Star Seed child aspect can help them to digest these traumas (esp the abandonment one) and hugely help to transform the panic and anxiety into trust, and depression and even suicidal thoughts/feelings into creative flow/soul gift expression and genuine joy in being alive. Feeling and healing your Star Seed child can also activate their Crystal Child frequency, which steers and powers your Merkabah or light body vehicle.

The draw and pull to meet and connect with your Star Family is most likely increasing for you lately, as it is meant to. They will meet you ‘in the middle’ in whatever ways they can….showing up as animal guides and Angels is a common way. They will visit you most often in dreams and in meditative states as there is no real need for visits in the physical anymore as our and Gaia’s frequency rises. Most of them vibrate too high for our density here anyway to appear in the physical.

We SO need the support of our star families as we move forward in this Ascension process. They provide the bigger picture for us, Divine love frequencies of trust and surrender, and connect us to our roots and coming home feelings. They can merge with us and give us tastes of Unity Consciousness. They actually help us BE HERE MORE in embodiment too as we accept ALL aspects of our multidimensional consciousness rather than reject any of it!

Here is a guided meditation to connect with your star seed: https://youtu.be/p3_E642aYyQ

Love,

Jelelle Awen

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Join Raphael Awen and I for our monthly group transmission live or to receive the recording on Saturday, October 12th at 10:00am PDT for $15 CAD donation. We will be offering teachings, meditation, and a sound healing with crystal sound healing bowls to help activate your light body, bring in any galactic/ascension codes in your ‘field’ and raise your frequency. More information here: https://www.facebook.com/events/467546737430726/
Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Questing With Our Questions Into the Quantum

By Raphael Awen

In a quantum world of infinite possibilities, why is that we find ourselves all too often seemingly locked into one possibility? Why does that one possibility seem to persist ‘ad infinitum’ – to infinity, without end, with little hope of desired change?

How did infinite possibility get swapped out for infinite impossibility?

Could it be that this has everything to do with parts of ourselves who have so mastered the art of creating the world they actually want, albeit a small, narrow and safe world, while other parts of you so ache to break free of this pattern persistence in your life?

Has one powerful part of your being scripted your life with a scripture of its own, and you are just now awakening to it; through your feelings of confinement, through your desire to break your unquestioning allegiance to this scripture; through your desire to awaken from what feels like the bad dream that another part of you feels your life has become? And to let the chips fall where they may?

And what would you propose to alter this trajectory that you call your life? And which part of you would be in charge of alterations?

Maybe some kind of a more powerful self help kind of agenda is needed, where a campaign of mandating a new world order for yourself is the order of the day? Maybe a trip to the bookstore is in order?

Is there even enough gas in the tank to carry this whole agenda forward? And if there was plenty of gas in the tank, do you actually want to undertake that initiative and see it through to its desired end? Is there another part of you who could care less about this new initiative, and even seek to sabotage it?

If you made it through the gauntlet of all these questions, there’s still more questions. What would the desired end game even be, after you arrived at your envisioned new world, assuming you’d even know when you had in fact arrived there? Being free of an unwanted limiting dynamic in your life is great, but is that enough of a picture of a new life?

If you really did your homework and visualized what your ‘there’ would look and feel like, then the question comes about what would you do following your arrival at this desired place, once your ached and longed for bliss becomes your everyday normalized waking reality?

Maybe, a part of you, unbeknownst to the you that you think of as you has thought through all of these questions quite deeply and silently come to the conclusion that it’s just not worth the effort. Maybe this part of you reasons that a better or best life, somehow without fail, becomes normalized, taken for granted, neglected, and ends up in unfulfillment. Why not settle then for the life we have now, rather than reach for great heights, the great heights of which only to make the fall into despair that much more painful?

I believe life and love are asking us to feel all of these questions that have gone on in us somewhere, but haven’t been made conscious. We haven’t yet consciously been introduced to the parts of us who have scripted and created the life we are presently living, and then from there gone on to dream, negotiate and script a new reality based in the divine play of infinite arising possibility.

Only as we take up this deep quest consciously, with a higher self embodiment of us leading the way and playing host to all the parts of us who have been in conflict, can we sanely take our next steps into life and love, or step out of bed in the morning.

My world wants to be recreated into ongoing recreation – play, where the end game is an ever changing game without limits, where awe, reverence and wonder is a never ending arising reality, only to be overshadowed by one greater.

I believe; even more than believe, I FEEL the Divine, in its curiosity is wanting to create and play this game through you and I, inseparably with itself. We have been invited. The invitation is sitting on our desk.

If you are feeling and conceiving such a possibility, you are like the man Jesus spoke of who happened upon a field that contained a hidden pearl of great price, who went out and sold all that he had to then go and purchase that field.

The field is the quantum field of divine play in infinite possibilities! The field is your life. What are you ready to sell to raise the funds to redeem your life from the one possibility it has slipped into to restore it to the infinite possibilities that you ARE?

Raphael Awen
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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Saying Hello To The Feminine Within

The one thing that feels universal about our humanity is our relationship to our masculinity and femininity. In my past and current processes I have been in an exploration of this very thing within myself. It has been one of the most illuminating parts of my journey. It has not been all of it, but has been a good portion of it. 

When I am out in the world I feel the ebbs and flows of these energies moving within and outside of me. Merging, conflicting, dancing, resisting, and hiding. Really fascinating! As humans I don’t think we can ignore this polarity that is staring at us right in the face. It has so much influence on how we relate, create, love, and hate. 

I have come in closer intimacy with the complexity and simplicity of this dynamic within me. As a man that was always in some confusion about my own masculinity I am coming to terms with what that means for me personally as I become more familiar with my feminines. Yes, plural. 

We so easily just want to make it one thing, like ‘my feminine side’. Very general and obtuse. But what if was more specific and acute. What then? What comes up to feel something inside that has its own perspective and needs? Its own voice and passion? 

The same could be said about our own Inner Child. Tapping into their voice, their needs, their passion. Now a step further. What about an Inner Feminine Child? This just goes on and on! My point is that we are much more than ‘this’ and ‘that’. We are composition of so much more than we have allowed ourselves to be open to. Of course this goes into our celestial beings as well! 

As a man, this journey is one that feels pretty important and alive. It is a journey that can help to rumble the foundations of the patriarchy by our own willingness to face what we have kept in our shadow. Our relationship to the feminine parts and aspects of us that have been sequestered for a very long time. 

Let us be like the prince that woke up Snow White and see what she has to offer us in our heart, our intuition, our sexuality, and our masculinity. She is ready to be connected to and yet fears being rejected once again. Let us feel what we fear the most about her so we can begin to heal this global dynamic once and for all.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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