Surrounded By Love

By  Raphael Awen

We are so surrounded by love, full of love, made of love, that we needed the ongoing experiences of stepping outside of it, and then returning to it, as a way of perfecting perfection.

Love was willing to create a deficiency of itself, a shadow partition to cordon off some of its overbearing light to afford itself; and you and I actual experiences of this love.

We couldn’t experience love were it not for a deficiency of this love. Love couldn’t flow if love was the all in all, filling all things to the full. Flow and experience required a vacuum, something missing. Love ventured into an experiment with experience, for experience was another thing it couldn’t know, feel or have inside it itself.

Every desire, anxiety, joy and fulfillment that moves and shapes your life is part of this vacuum.

Love ventured into the business of lack and harm and wounding because any step outside of itself would require an opening, a portal, a wound.

We live and carry these wounds. They are our greatest challenges. We carry them personally, in our relationships with ourselves, with every other we’ve ever known or will come to know, and we carry them collectively. These portal wounds are everywhere. They not only remind us of our seeming separation from love, but also invite us to return to love at any moment. The access to this love is beyond instantaneous, for not even an instant is required to make its connection. It just is. You are it. You never lost it.

The duality we find ourselves in is the way home. I am, therefore I want. I am, therefore I am vulnerable to not having my genuine needs met or fulfilled. I am, therefore I am afraid. I am, therefore I need.

To not have need is to not exist in this experiment of experience. You get to be needy. You get to admit your vulnerability. You get to feel how deeply you yearn for fulfillment. You get to admit what you like and what you don’t like.

You get to return fully to the love that you are, where all the costs and outstanding liabilities on this balance sheet of duality will be reconciled.

You and I literally are this reconciliation, as well as the separation, both.

Love to you and through you,

Raphael Awen

SoulFullHeart.org

Pic above: Jelelle and I got to enjoy 3 magical sunny days on the coast here in Portugal last week, while making the trip to pick up Raianna Shai from the aeroporto.

Please consider joining us for our intimate and upcoming group call Saturday, November 7th. Sign up info in the comments below.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

Come Into The Light Of My Heart: Message To Your Shadow Self From Your Divine Self

By Jelelle Awen

To your Shadow Self from your Divine Self:

I seek you out now

I invite you out now

I search for you now….

not to judge you

not to hurt you

not to persecute you….

Yet, only, to invite you out into love.

What you hold and store,

what you have kept hidden,

what has been so long guarded,

what has been wrapped up tight….

can now be opened, revealed and healed.

There are gifts in your secrets

There are truths in your mysteries

There are treasures in your troves.

So long you have been

in the fog of what is purposely forgotten

made invisible behind a thick veil..

and now these barriers can be lifted through the gently powerful forces

of forgiveness, self acceptance, worth and compassion.

Rather than be afraid of you

or wanting to avoid you,

I am in awe of you

I am curious about you

and I can patiently hold space

as the trust between us grows

to allow a loving mutual ground of growth.

Come out into the light of my heart

and you can become once again

the love that you truly ARE.

Love,

Your Divine Self~

Please join us for a group meditation call with a sacred exploration into your shadow on Sunday, November 7th at 5:00pm Portugal time/12:00pm EST/9:00am PST. You can join us live and receive the recording by whatever donation you feel to give (usual is $10 CAD) at soulfullheart.org/shop or paypal.me/jelelleawen. More info at soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions and https://www.facebook.com/events/171567888429264

Here’s a video with Raphael and I talking more about the group call and I read this message as well:

We also offer powerful and loving space holding during 1:1 sessions for shadow exploration and integration. More info at soulfullheart.org/sessions

The Courage To Align In Heart And Soul

When the soul and heart do not feel aligned, it becomes noticeable to us in many ways. There is a struggle to remain in joy and even in physical health. The lights dim and the clouds roll in. There is a feeling of loss and disempowerment. This can even fall into the neighborhood of victimhood if we really let it. Lots of evidence to convince ourselves otherwise.

There is a cloud that is setting over the collective. An ongoing war of the Mind, the Heart, and the Soul of humanity. A truly epic time to be here. Each of us are affected by it differently. For some it is part of a karmic recapitulation, for others it may be a soul awakening and unification. A stark reality that illuminates what are the most important things to us. What is it that we truly need and want, and well as what is our deeper purpose?

We may not fully know how all those things align in time, but going into the Heart is where we find your truth and your deepest need. This will inevitably bring you to a crossroad and a precipice. It is where we have to “screw our courage to the sticking place”, though hopefully not in the same Shakespearean use of the phrase.

It will take a lot of collective courage to turn this ship around. For each of us to find our voice, our purpose, and our power. This is a time where social ties are unraveling and resorting themselves. This comes with a lot of grief yet can be transmuted into gold when it is felt through with each wave, even when we may doubt at times we have made the ‘right’ choice.

That choice can only come from deep inside. From a place that is found in the dark and the unknowable, but infinitely felt and held by Love. If we want to truly arise in that New World, we must go through our own inner ‘hells’ to get there. We must also connect ourselves with those that are doing the same in resonance. With all the energies that are out there we can use all the support we can get.

So this goes out to all of you that are finding your way back to your truest and bravest selves. You are paving the way for others to follow.

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Exploring Your Depth & Full Expression Through Your ‘Shadow’

by Kasha Rokshana

What lies in the depths of your ‘shadow’ is so many things, so many energies. Suppressed rage, passion, desires, distaste, mistrust, and fears are all a part of the package… yet so are other hidden compartments that hold access to your deepest soul gifts which haven’t been safe to express, and also your ‘truth’ which you’ve likely been encouraged (or demanded) to keep to yourself. Any energy that hasn’t felt ‘safe’ to come out, whether born of the dark or the light or anything in between, can live in the deep caverns of what we call our ‘shadow’.

Our shadows are meant to be our ‘bass tones’. They are the instruments in our inner orchestras that hold the bass line and beat intact. Without those honking tubas and heavy drumbeats, “the bottom falls out”, as my high school music teacher would often say. What we’re left with is the tinny screeching of the higher octaves being played by themselves without anything to ground them back to the true melody line. Higher-frequency energies and dimensions don’t make any sense, at least not for very long, when the bass/shadow/inner darkness is left out of the mix.

This metaphor applies the other way around too. There is no ‘alto’ without a ‘soprano’. The higher frequencies you have access to can support the shadow journeys, to retrieve whatever has been hidden there, for however long. Sometimes this shadow exploration is so sticky, so challenging to move through or beyond, that it can feel as if we’ll stay there forever once we land there. This can make the journey intriguing or intimidating, yet every reaction or hesitation you feel is valid for different parts of you and is all an important part of the journey itself.

There is a middle ground available of negotiation with yourself… with your parts and soul aspects, especially your Gatekeeper who has been watching over your Metasoul and either bringing in or preventing your soul journeys specifically, and your Inner Protector who has been allowing or disallowing your connection to different parts of you. The ground of journeying into your shadow with your Inner Punisher alone is a process that takes a lot of time, space, and love to unfold. The soul journeys into your shadow have a timing all their own. All of this requires ongoing inner negotiation, a deep and solid commitment to showing up, and a profound desire to love absolutely everything within you no matter what it looks like, the impact it has had, or how it might change your life to go there.

Raphael and Jelelle will be offering a guided meditation group call this coming Sunday, November 7th, focused on Shadow Exploration. Even if these are grounds you’ve been exploring for a while, or if this is fairly new to you, this guided meditation call may offer you a new perspective, a beginning place, or an entryway into deeper waters.

Attendance is by donation and if you can’t make it live, you can still receive the recording in your email.

More info/details about this call and how to donate here.

Wherever you take your own shadow journey, the invitation from the Divine to be held and supported in it is always with you. With everything shaking out in the world today, there has never really been a riper time to dive into your own depths of feeling, expressing, and discovering.

Love,

Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

Shadow Exploration Guided Meditation Group Call w/ Raphael & Jelelle Awen: November 7th, 2021

by Jelelle Awen

“The shadow is a tight passage, a narrow door, whose painful constriction no one is spared who goes down to the deep well.” ~ Carl Jung

Your shadow – or that which is currently not conscious to you – often contains aspects of you that have been disowned, put away, judged, rejected, protected, forgotten about and suppressed. The shadow is not evil or harmful, yet it can contain ‘backed up energies’ that have been judged as not appropriate such as rage, shame, suicidal thoughts/tendencies, sexual impulses, and more. In this backed-up unconscious state, these shadow frequencies can bleed through in patterns of destructive behaviors toward yourself or others, suffering loops, heaviness and depression, anxiety and panic attacks, addictions, and much more.

Also in shadow can be your soul gifts, soul purpose clarities, and your ‘power’. There are always ‘good reasons’ for this putting away into shadow based on conditioning you’ve received from 3D life and even other lifetimes/timelines, in addition to undigested traumas and karmic patterns.The Ascension process invites you to uncover, feel, and integrate your shadow aspects with love, compassion, and curiosity. Rather than bypass the shadow, it is about embracing it with self-love and Divine support. It seems very timely to be exploring it with so much of it coming UP in our collective right now!

Raphael and I will co-host a Shadow Exploration group meditation call over Zoom on Sunday, November 7th, 2021 at 5:00pm/17:00pm WEST (Lisbon, Portugal timezone)/12:00pm EST/9:00am PST. Gabriel Amara and Kasha Rokshana also join us to share their experience of the meditation, along with their own personal deepenings in shadow exploration.

We will talk about how we define the ‘shadow’ and how the SoulFullHeart process opens up access to these previously inaccessible and veiled grounds through a gentle yet powerful negotiation with your Inner Protector or Gatekeeper. The Inner Protector and Gatekeeper are hesitant to go into the shadow as they don’t want you (or other parts of you such as the Inner Child) to become overloaded and overwhelmed by these energies as they come through. Through a negotiation with your Divine Self leading, the Protector will then allow you to connect with these shadow aspects as needed, from this life and other lifetimes, in a way that is empowering and manageable. We will also share about our personal experiences with deepening grounds of shadow exploration from this life and other lifetimes over the last 15 years together as a couple and as individuals in our processes.

During this group call, we will provide a guided meditation journey in a safe energetic space to meet or connect with your Inner Protector/Gatekeeper. We will then go on a ‘deep dive’ into your consciousness with powerful and proven imagery/visualizations that allows for new revelations of whatever wants to come through of your shadow to connect with you. We will also repeat ‘recoding’ affirmations as mantras, together as a group and with the Divine, that assist in this exploration and healing.

You can receive these frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us about what you experienced during the meditation and receive feedback/next steps of integration from us.

This group is open to the public and to anyone over 18. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy/money exchange of whatever donation you feel to give ($15 CAD is the usual amount). You can purchase the Zoom link to join us live for the group and receive the recording through your email at soulfullheart.org/shop

Or you can purchase it here through PayPal: paypal.me/jelelleawen and we will send you the Zoom link and subsequent recording via email. Please make a note that you are purchasing the November 7th group and check that your email associated with PayPal is current.

More info at https://www.facebook.com/events/171567888429264 and soulfullheart.org/grouptransmissions

Love,

Jelelle

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For information about 1:1 sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group call events, writings/books (including Jelelle’s latest Free To Be 5D), and videos, visit soulfullheart.org.

Samhain Energies, Thin Veils Reveal Desires For Unity Inside & Out

by Kasha Rokshana

As we continue to move through this Samhain season, we feel the veils thinning and lifting on our worlds both inner and outer, revealing needs parts of us have buried and longing that lives in our souls, especially for reunion… for the experience of Sacred Union within and with a beloved, for the experience of no more separation from the Divine, and for the experience of finally landing with Soul Family – beings who will transact deep love and nourishment with us and share in our penchant for growth too.

We are seeds that were scattered and sown; leaves blown off the branches of the sacred Soul Family tree.

It was a deep and brave soul choice to come here, to experience being scattered, to let go as we let in, to let it be when we don’t come together as deep and resonant Soul Family just yet, yet to be in the alchemical ache of that experience too. To learn to say ‘no’ to what has caused suffering in our relationships rather than the growth and nourishment we need is an expression of this ache and can create a void experience as we let go to truly let in what we want.

There’s an empowerment that’s seeded in all of us to return ever-deeper to ourselves but also to each other in new ways.

For now, parts of you may still be feeling scattered, tattered, torn… weather-worn from experiences and changing inner seasons as you move through the difficulties. This is meant to be a temporary yet necessary experience, as you find that sense of reunion first inside, then outside, with your own soul, heart, parts, and the Divine as the number one priority.

This is the power and depth of inner work, why it’s important. It’s a reunion inside so we can experience it on the outside and be ready to let it in.

Healing of separation is not only coming, but already here.

We have only to keep saying ‘yes’ to the journey, to keep moving into it rather than letting the fears lead that would rather we move out of it’ll try to numb out the deep and necessary ache.

There is a beautiful being, Raianna, who herself is rejoining us as Soul Family here in Portugal soon! And we also have this blessed experience with another Soul Family member, Bianca, who has been here with us for several months now and keeps on deepening her own process of letting in reunion inside and out. This experience of being with these beloveds, my Sacred Union beloved Gabriel, and Jelelle and Raphael, is a growthful challenge and a deep blessing. 

I know more reunions for ourselves and others are inevitable… and it can’t be denied how much work it is to actually keep letting it all in and showing up for it, let alone to draw the experience of reunion in the first place. 

Blessed Samhain season to you and your own revealing soul aches and desires being revealed through the thin veils. ♥️

Love,

Kasha 

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

SoulFullHeart Museletter: Oct 22, 2021

The season of Samhain/Hallowe’en is upon us and the thin veils are helping us to feel ourselves and our souls anew. There’s no doubt that this time of year can stir up a lot inside of us and also spur us on into a deeper sense of soul purpose and passion too, even if there is a lot to feel in the meantime.

This issue of our Museletter features a NEW guided meditation from Jelelle Awen, featuring an appearance by Mother Mary, whose energies are very active in this small village in Portugal where we are currently living. This meditation helps to relax and soothe the physical and emotional processes that you may be experiencing, partly due to the thin veils, and also due to the ongoing process of awakening and healing that humanity as a whole is going through. It’s truly a balm of love for your heart and soul to take in.

There are some new writings from each of us this week, including energy updates and other sharing that may stir your soul and remind you of the Divine love supporting you. Jelelle also mentions in her recent writing that she is back to offering 1:1 sessions to women over 35.

You can read this most recent issue of our Museletter here.

If you’d like to subscribe to receive our Musletters in your email inbox, you can scroll down to the bottom of the Museletter itself and click on “subscribe”, or you can subscribe on our website, soulfullheart.org.

Lots of love to you!

~ The SoulFullheart Community

Dear You…

Dear you…

What comes up from that deep well of your soul inside of you can feel like so much to hold sometimes.

It can feel like you’re going crazy trying to understand it.

It can feel like your heartbreak is so soul-deep that you’ll never overcome it or move through it; like you’ll never see the shoreline for the waters that surround you, that feel like they are drowning everything inside of you.

So, how is it that you’re still swimming, still breathing, even when it all feels like it’s rising above your head?

There’s a voice, whispering, telling you of your strength, even if you cannot consciously hear it; even if all other voices (many that aren’t actually yours) tell you that you aren’t going to make it (because they never did, did they?).

You’re writing a new story for yourself now, especially as you feel and begin to heal the parts of you that have been formed from so much Matrix trauma, so much birth family legacy and influence, so much 3D conditioning that has been layered over top of your big, big soul and naturally open heart.

You are offered only what you can carry. You are given a mirror only for what you can look at; what you have the power to see, digest, and even heal.

To opt-in for the feeling-way, the way of the heart, as a means to reconcile the many layers of necessary falseness, is humbling but also freeing.

It is an empowered sense of surrender even in your most disempowered-feeling times.

It is a tender way, always, to welcome in Divine Love and Support.

Dear you…

It is time to awaken and remember that the bright shoreline is just as real as the rough waters; that you know this terrain in ways you don’t yet realize; that even in the highest of highs and the lowest of lows, you will always be given what you need… and no more than you can possibly carry.

Love,
Your Divine Self

Take in the recording in Kasha’s voice

*****

Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The Social/Spiritual Divorce

The current social bifurcation happening is like a global messy divorce. A spiritual Brexit. We all have had emotional investments in each other’s worlds and that brings up a lot of grief, fear, and anger.

When it feels like the ‘other side’ is getting more of the assets, then there is a push back and a need to fight for what is rightfully ours. In this case, it just happens to be what we have called our freedoms.

Our freedom to speak with feeling and reason. Our freedom to move. Our freedom to connect. Our freedom to breathe the air Gaia gifted us with to survive and thrive. Our freedom to our own healthy choices.

When these freedoms that we took as inalienable are systematically withdrawn and politicized, we are forced into a choice point. We cannot sit ideally by anymore. The question is what is that action? What is the feeling?

That can lead to a lot of rumble inside. It can lead to social friction and loss. It can lead to moral high ground and righteousness. It can lead to civil disobedience or internal confusion. No matter what we are all being faced with choices. Those choices draw lines. Those lines create worlds apart.

So now it is like we are living in the same house with the kids during these proceedings. What world are we going to create going forward for us and them? How do we navigate this divorce and still maintain Love and sanity?

I feel these are deeper questions for each of us to be answering at the core of our heart and soul. What is it that you really need and want from the inside out? What is your sacred purpose in this ongoing, unfolding drama?

This doesn’t have to be a question to suffer over. Just one to explore. One to feel through one day at a time with compassion and with passion both.

Divorces are change. They are a sign of growing and birthing. They are a death and an illumination. This is a time for each of us to truly see and feel ourselves in ways we may have never known.

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.

Mining For Love Coin

“Those who have the gold, make the rules.” I heard this a lot growing up. It was just one of those hard realities that I was told I had to accept (according to my early influencers) in order to have the life I wanted. The question was, whose life was it that I was wanting?

Later, I realized I wanted the Philosopher’s Gold. That prized possession of sacred understanding that could lead me out of the doldrums of my inner struggle for outer need. If I could find that ‘answer’, then that would be worth more than all of the physical gold in the world.

Yet, the quest for that Holy Grail of Knowing was like a dog chasing its tail. Then, there was just Feeling. Going to the heart of the matter, not the mind over matter. It was in this place that I came upon a world full of hidden treasure that had currency. It had a stored wealth that led to more health. More power of Presence and of choice. I got to choose my reality by simply feeling my reality in all its shades and hues.

In all that is currently happening, the most valuable and sustainable wealth is not gold, bitcoin, information, or righteousness. It is the brave, real, and healing heart. It is the way we see and feel ourselves outside the deluge of dissonance. It is about connecting to the Lover’s Gold. The raw material of our humanity and our spirituality.

While the physical, material economy is being shaken up like an Etch-A-Sketch, our emotional economy is searching for a stable place to invest its reality into that which is not dependent on external forces, but rather inner guidance and Divine holding. It seeks a Sacred Trust Fund to deposit all its fears, its doubts, its rage, and its power.

This is what many of us are being guided to focus on. Mining for Lovecoin. That self-generated and soul-seeded gift embedded at the core of our birthright. We are born with the power to create, to destroy, and to Be this very brave and powerful kind of Love. What we see and feel in front of us is what leads us to that very gateway of vulnerable transformation, conscious responsibility, and a transparent exchange of our gifts with the world.

*****

Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.