5/5 Portal Inviting Higher Perspectives, Compassionate Self-Love, Care Towards Others

by Kasha Rokshana

This 5/5 portal day feels like a brand new day and also a BIG digestion opportunity for whatever got shaken up for you during the recent eclipse, solar flares, Beltane passage, etc. It’s been a huge wake-up call on all levels, feeling passion being ignited/re-ignited toward deeper self-care, moving out of dissonance and into more resonance, inside and out.

More truths have been popping out and yet also even more manipulations that disguise themselves as ‘truths’ have too. The solar activity has really been intended on some level to help us SEE clearer, especially through heart-based eyes, what it is that’s true for all of us personally and what needs to be let go of (or let go into).

I feel the invitation to all of us today, to enter into the bigger, broader, more 5D-based perspective on everything that we’re all moving through right now, and that perspective always reminds me of Divine love and the encouragement to feel all there is to feel.

I’m personally digesting my own desired shift to a higher gear, not only in really letting the Divine’s perspective on everything in more, yet also in my own ways of inhabiting my sacred human body-vessel and feeling even more landed in my own heart for others. Genuine care feels so good, even when it hurts to do so. It’s vulnerable yet powerful to go here, and even more vulnerable and powerful to feel where care hasn’t been felt or offered towards myself or towards others in deeper ways.

This 5/5 feels like a point of celebration, sobriety, clearing, and empowerment, all at once somehow… new perspectives are so possible and the shifts we’ve all been craving are imminent if we’re ready to stand in our truths and honour our inner work by making consciously held changes on the outside… even if/when they are very challenging at times to feel into, let alone follow through with!

As always, I feel there is SO much support that today represents and amplifies for each of us on our individual yet shared journeys… and we are invited to keep asking for the guidance, digesting it inside of ourselves, and make those choices that we could only make if we felt Divinely supported and loved.

MUCH love to you today on this powerful 5/5 day!
Kasha

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Kasha Rokshana is a Divine Feminine Love Ambassador, SoulFullHeart Women’s Facilitator, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about space holding sessions and free 45-min intro calls, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

The No Man’s Land Of Our Collective Grief

By  Raphael Awen

If we take a step outside of this most challenging polarity moving through us right now as a species, we see where there’s something none of us really comfortable feeling.

If the anti injection people are correct, then there’s a wave of destruction and fear that is already here and scaling up at a pace we can only guess at.

If the pro experimental injection people are correct, then our sovereignty and autonomy is best left in the hands of a governing body who are better equipped to lead our lives.

Either way, we are giving up something of such huge proportions. I don’t think there’s a single one of us yet who’s felt the deepening scale of this.

Raging at it, or turning over and accepting it feel like two polarized ways of starting to work through it, but there’s still a huge no man’s land that I haven’t seen anyone step into.

In that no man’s land is something to feel.

Trying to describe it almost does it a disservice, for it can only really be felt, not described. But it has something to do with mourning and grief on a scale we haven’t known in this life.

Life as you and I knew it is changing rapidly, daily and minute by minute. Something big is dying and not returning, regardless of which side of the issue(s) you find yourself on.

People on both sides of the polarity believe they have spared themselves from some personal suffering. ‘According to their beliefs’, as Yeshua would say, ‘so be it unto them’. Beliefs are such strong personal reality creators, but they only go so far.

There’s a shared reality that whether it’s recognized or not, is happening. That reality is the shared boat we are sailing in. The hole in your end of the boat IS actually an issue to me. There’s only one boat, even as we are afforded individual bubbles within that boat, but OUR boat is sinking.

We all chose to be a part of this transition, and to give up a quality of an old life to be a part of anchoring in a new life. Whether you are injection injured, (and my heart breaks for you if you are) or out promoting getting the next booster, we are going somewhere.

There’s somewhere we won’t be returning to.

That change calls into question every plan, every intention, every purpose, every sense of meaning. All of it is up for continual revision as we sort through what can and does feel crazy making and disorienting.

Nothing makes sense in the old way. In the interim, we’re all grasping for the new way that isn’t quite here yet.

I don’t know any other way to be with it, other than to feel this surrender to what is, open my heart to being further activated into this care for myself and our beautiful collective that would choose such transition through such confusion as a planetary group soul’s higher choice and service to the divine’s unfolding of itself through us.

WE chose this. WE created it. The polarity is of OUR creation. When you accept that, you get baptized into being a YOU in service of the WE.

You get to care. You get to feel. You get to mourn. You get to weep the tears others aren’t ready yet to weep. You even get to thrive in love as you take part in honoring the death all around.

You get to be in the real moment that is here now.

And in that moment we see that the deeper our polarities, the deeper our shared reality.

Raphael

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for community engagement, exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/ for a monthly subscription of $22.22 USD

Spiritual Mastery As An Avoidance Of Vulnerability

By  Raphael Awen

The path of spiritual mastery or attainments has been basically useless to me for several years, other than to often trip me up in comparison or self judgment games.

The thing was, I used to be able to muster some impressive consistent self discipline and regimen, set goals and stick to them, and that way of being in life doesn’t let go easily, even as it collapses at the same time.

I don’t think I’m alone in this by a long shot. I think what I’m feeling personally is more of a reflection of what the masculine is coming to terms with now as consciousness itself shifts and changes.

Mastery served us well for a time to come to know our power. It moved us from an inferiority complex, but now threatens us with a superiority complex. Both however are non-relational and both are non-vulnerable, and both don’t actually have mastery over anything in the bigger picture of what we really want and need.

At nineteen, I went out jogging every single day for over a year, without missing a day, rain, snow or shine. How I felt didn’t matter, other than holding onto this feeling of I can do whatever I set my mind to. I thought at the time that I’d do this for the rest of my life, because with each passing day, my record of achievement was getting bigger, better as well as harder to lose.

That’s the thing with attainment and spiritual masteries. They are like rolling a stone up a hill that will one day succumb to gravity, and the higher up you roll the stone, the greater its velocity and path of destruction to your self perception and who knows what else when it gives way to nature, as it is sure to do one day.

Men particularly have been so addicted to doing the right thing and the good thing, the thing that once did have meaning, purpose and even connection, with love, life and nature, that they naturally fear letting go of. It matters less how noble the thing, just heaven forbid that you should be without some animating thing.

How could something so good lose its value over time?

If all this mastery and attainment grasping is becoming an old way, is there a new way that wants to come in its place? I have my ideas and answer to this, but do you have a sense of your arising truth around this?

Maybe mastery was just a placeholder holding us as men in a place of being mastered over, until we were ready to enter a whole new dimension of mystery, coming to know our power through the doorway of vulnerability and transparency?

Paul talked about the ‘schoolmaster of the law’ being over us until being introduced to Christ consciousness, which is more about being changed in core nature. Was he already hinting at this two thousand years ago?

It seems the old way of gaining mastery was really about gaining mastery over our vulnerability and never having to be transparent. We were holding a suppressive lordship over ourselves.

You may still be feeling like a millionaire holding some masteries, but I’ll bet life isn’t supporting you any longer to naturally sustain that. All the millionaires and billionaires of today are finding it harder and harder and super costly to effort sustaining those holdings.

These feelings are coming up for me today as I have an opportunity to have a session later today with a dynamic man and big soul who has a heartcry unfolding. I could feel some tension inside and went inwards to feel what it was about.

I connected with all of my inner masculine aspects of me from this life and other timelines that I feel living in me differentiated and unique, and asked their reactions to meeting with a man.

Here’s the pieces that came back to me in dialogue with them. (It feels good to get to the underlying push and pull and where and how it lives in parts of us and their needs. Now, we don’t try and fix the fade on one mastery with another mastery campaign somewhere else.)

“I don’t like men who speak their truth as thee truth without acknowledging their belief system that gave birth to those truths. They don’t feel safe or kind.” Marvin

“I don’t feel comfortable being around men who energize their spiritual mastery or attainments. It doesn’t feel real to me. If they are onto something, I feel stuck in a comparison game or left out. Mastery just hasn’t worked for me in decades. The mastery path as we’ve known it feels non relational and non vulnerable.” Wayne

“I’d like to serve men again. I feel trust that we know we won’t hurt or harm without care and kindness, but I also know that we and you and us are going to need to be awake, ready, in our stance, on our game, with our truth, not letting reactions get internalized. Men are looking for a mirror of truth.” Arthur

“You have a magic in you, Raphael, and that gets to come out and serve and be given when you simply be you, transparenting whatever you are feeling. I like serving men because then we get to dance in the magic and be around other mens magic too.” Charles

“What an opportunity to feel the heartbeat and heartcry of men, instead of dominating or controlling them. They aren’t / we aren’t that complex in some ways. We just want connection, meaning, and purpose” Lionel

Thanks for reading, especially as a man, and maybe as a woman, you can feel this as the masculine polarity inside of you and one that is or is wanting to transmute into these new directions?

I’m curious!

~ R ~

Our online portal is one gathering place for the new. You can find it here: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Big heartfelt acknowledgement and thank YOU to Gabriel Amara for leading this charge with me while we surrender to divine timing for more men in the room.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for community engagement, exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/ for a monthly subscription of $22.22 USD

Bearing The Burden Of Love’s Unsolvable Mystery

By  Raphael Awen

💚 Realizing that all of your awakening is only ever but a measure is humbling. Then realizing that infinity bears no measure is more humbling still. 🏄🏻‍♂️

We are all in the awakening and we are all in the slumber. Love is playing with us, dancing with us, wanting to come to know itself through us, knowing that it never will and never wants to because of its own infinity. It just does what it does for the joy, reverence awe and wonder of it all.

Love invites you to meet with it there, in the unknown, in the surrender, where every mistake is an infinite success, where every pain is the source of unspeakable healing.

You bear the burden of love’s unsolvable mystery.

You can’t be solved or fixed because even your belief that you needed fixing is all a part of this mystery of being.

This being that you are; infinite, pretending with your measuring tape; omniscient, pretending to be missing a memo; omnipresent, pretending to be in one place at one time; omnipotent, pretending to be lacking something, ALL is love at play.

You have lots of awakening to do, but not for the attainment of it, for it literally gets you nowhere.

But when you get there, you won’t ever want to go back, and you won’t want to stop dancing with this love moving through you.

Xo,

~ R ~

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. 

The SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks, a virtual gathering place for community engagement, exclusive content from us such as energy update writings and guided meditation videos, plus community forum threads with topics and groups that you can read, join, and contribute to as you want. You can join us at the SoulFullHeart Portal here: soulfullheartportal.mn.co/ for a monthly subscription of $22.22 USD

Feeling The Portal Of Aging W/Grace Rather Than Fighting It

By Jelelle Awen

I had one of those beautiful, expansive and celebratory days with Raphael yesterday beginning with making love in the morning, a long, much needed walk in the gorgeous mountain valleys near us, and celebrating the passionate expression weave that came through in our Beltane livestream. It was an opening out after both of us going inward to feel despair and heaviness of a mostly karmic sort together as I shared about recently. It felt like an exhale too after so much being activated by the recent energies coming through in the solar flares, eclipse, and more.

This goodness seemed to push up some more ‘oil’ to feel, as it so often does for all of us. I was feeling today with a new inner mother part of me named Hera (yes after the wife of Zeus) about the aging process for women and all that it brings up in terms of self consciousness, insecurity, feeling like you don’t matter or ‘count’ or are invisible somehow, and ‘fighting’ aging rather than embracing it.

My birth mother would ‘battle’ these signs of aging with everything she had and would be encouraging me to do the same if we were still in relationship together (which we haven’t been by my soul’s choice for over ten years now.) She would probably be encouraging me to use the ‘tools’ now at our disposal such as fillers, plastic surgery, hormone replacement therapy, and more. So I feel this emptiness in any template for aging gracefully and naturally, in the culture and in my own experience.

I have always been more the holistic and natural sort of soul. With my medicine woman and priestess roots being so strong in my soul, there is a sense of connection to the natural and the pure as being the most beautiful and resistance to anything inorganic, chemical, and invasive. Even with this strong soul grounding, I could feel in this part of me how the programming and conditioning to feel unworthiness as you age is ingrained at a cellular level.

This is becoming more heightened in me as I turn 50 next month. To my soul consciousness age really means very little and my soul ‘eyes’ do not even see it or notice it, especially in others! Yet, to my conditioning and to this part of me, there is a meaning in moving out of my 40s. And the physical signs of aging are being noticed more too now as my metabolism slows and I gain a bit of weight even while I continue to eat quite light, do yoga and other exercise. Also, I am experiencing more gray hairs, wrinkles, more sagging skin and the period cycles with hormonal dips that are becoming more intense yet also more sporadic as I move into the deeper stages of perimenopause.

I started to feel as I let Hera cry it out with me this morning that Divine Mother wants to wrap us both up with love in response to this. I could see/feel Mother Mary coming forward and just holding us both with so much sense of our beauty and grace. It started to go in and I am also blessed to be able to share all of this vulnerably with my beloved, my daughter, and my precious community and be felt by them in it too.

The aging process and our relationship to it really has been so hijacked by the matrix to idealize young beauty and suppress the wise woman beauty and wisdom from coming through. I can feel what a powerful ‘force’ this wise woman is and how much she is missing from our culture. There will be lots of interesting things to feel and teach about this feels like as I continue to experience it myself.

And I feel this is true for men as well who may not have as much judgement on them physically as they age, yet have their own internal pressure built up around their competency, adequacy, relevancy, performance, potency (esp sexually) etc. And relationships/sacred unions aging together too is an interesting ground as well as Raphael and I shift into a deeper ‘hotness’ expression of sexuality that is more and more soul based even as it grounds in the physical. Rather than going flat or dead, we seem to be moving into more depth of intimacy together.

Mostly, I am FEELING this aging process as a portal to experience my soul and Divine feminine self within my body. Not to fight it, yet rather to embrace it…..allowing the full range of feelings that come up around it along with continuing to take care and love my body in the ways that I know work for it. And I want to help heal this fight against aging collectively and to offer a new template in the mother/daughter templating relationship too around it.

We will be doing a group call about the aging with grace process for our online community portal members on Sunday, May 22nd with more info about that coming up soon. You are welcome to join us there to connect, share comments, read the many personal/vulnerable sharing there and also to join in our group call. Membership details at: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

I also am very open and desirous to feel into and process this with other older women going through this, as I have in session space in the past as well. It is a mutual discovery even as I can feel the Divine Mother channeling my heart in nourishing ways for us both. More info about 1:1 sessions with me at soulfullheart.org/sessions.

Also, if you’d like to meet your Inner Mother (or Inner Father) you can find guided meditation videos to do that here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FZWeBviA18Y…

Love in tenderness as we all experience the process of aging together,

Jelelle Awen

SoulFullHeart Museletter: May 2, 2022

Blessed Beltane to you! The fires of this Beltane/May Day, coupled with the intensity of the solar flares and so on, have brought so many souls to the precipice of deep change inside and out, with so much to digest, let in, and let move them too.

Featured this week is the latest livestream/energy update with Raphael and Jelelle Awen, where they share their recent processes between them that were supported by the cosmic influx of energies. They also offer some very powerful energies of passion to let into your masculine, whether you are a man or a woman, and feel what your personal truth is on a deeper level. Raphael in particular shared a lot about what he feels moving through the masculine at this time and what the Divine invitation is for them too.

There are also another video this week from Raphael and Jelelle as they offered another livestream/energy update recently around the extremely rare planetary alignment that just took place, the eclipse that was upcoming, etc. 

Kasha Rokshana was featured on a recent episode of the Starseed Network’s podcast where she was asked about her personal journey of awakening and integrating into the SoulFullHeart community and process. She was also asked questions about the SoulFullHeart perspective on various topics, such as humanity’s ascension process and modern day spirituality. You can take in the audio of this podcast on this Museletter. 

There are many new writings this week, including more energy updates/digestions, invitations to feel if perhaps joining our online portal/community (soulfullheartportal.mn.co) may be a fit for you, and other pieces about personal process movements and what’s moving in the collective.

You can find our current Museletter here: https://mailchi.mp/[xxxxxx]/soulfullheart-museletter-wake-up-call-beltaneascension-energy-update

If you’d like to subscribe to receive our Museletters and other announcements in your own inbox, you can do so on our website: soulfullheart.org, or you can scroll to the bottom of this issue and click “subscribe”. 

Much love from all of us!

~ the SoulFullHeart Community

Wake Up Call: Beltane & Ascension Energies Update (Video) | Raphael & Jelelle Awen

In this video recorded live on May 1st, Raphael and Jelelle Awen transmit the fire and renewal energies of Beltane/May Day to put out a powerful wake up call to the masculine, in both men and women. This soul fire of passion and truth is fuelled in us by the recent solar flare activity, planetary alignment, black moon solar eclipse and overall increasing Ascension energies.

Raphael especially shares a message to the masculine about how high the stakes are for him and that there’s never been a time quite like now where both the need and the opportunity to align with your truth and allow it to change your life are both present.

We share about how so many souls are willing and able to do the ‘inner work’ yet often ceiling out when it comes to making difficult life choices that require bringing their truth, upsetting others, moving out of previous configurations, letting go of ‘sacred cows’, etc. We then share about the benefits of negotiating with parts of yourself in order to pop through this ceiling that caps your bigness, soul fire, and growth.

So many trajectories from this life and others are wanting to come together and be felt and responded to in this life. Forget ‘healing’ and ‘working on yourself’ if you only want some relief from all the attendant problems that arise from choosing half of yourself. The craziness of the times we are in, that is manifesting inwardly and outwardly, invite you to get real, get really real, with yourself, and then take the self loving and negotiated steps to out that into your world. It’s all a portal that your soul has set up.

You’re not starting a war, but ending a bunch, though you can’t do this without ruffling more than feathers. Short of showing up for your truth and your choices, you really leave yourself in a hopeless and alone place. No one can help you and you are of no help to anyone. You are in fact choosing a slow suicide. Which brings us to the vulnerable need we all share to belong, which interestingly enough seems to have a lot to do with why we stay stuck for the time we do as well as a lot to do with how and why we would undertake such life altering choices when we’re ready to.

You can read comments that happened during on the livestream on Jelelle’s facebook feed: https://www.facebook.com/jelelleawen

Here is a recent energy update from Jelelle about the Beltane/Eclipse energies brought up new karmic healing grounds in our sacred union: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2022/05/01/energy-update-beltane-eclipse-opening-karmic-metasoul-timeline-portals-in-sacred-union

We also invite you to join us to become a member on our private, online community SoulFullHeart Portal on Mighty Networks for sharing, asking questions, and connecting with others in a meaningful way. Membership is $22.22 USD a month: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

For more information about the SoulFullHeart quantum healing process, Jelelle Awen’s latest book Free To Be 5D, videos, and events, visit https://www.soulfullheart.org.

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The Virtues Of Virtual Community: An Update On Our Online Social Platform

I am very excited with what almost feels like a manic high, but also feels grounded into a bunch of heart and soul journey coming together into a nexus point that’s been tempered with many lows.
I wanted to share this post with our audience here on Facebook which I also shared in our private online Mighty Network group yesterday called The Soulfullheart Portal. https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/

Jelelle, myself and Gabriel and Kasha got together the day before yesterday to discuss and feel together more about how we’d like to approach and give structure to the Soulfullheart Portal and online community we’re creating.

One of the pieces I’ve been feeling is the invitation to lead with transparency as we go, invite your input, rather than create some big program that we think will be what people want and will respond to, launching that, and then being with the result which is often less than we hoped for, and quite possibly underwhelming for members as well. I so welcome your thoughts in the comments below.
It’s so interesting to feel deeper into who it is that would be drawn to the SFH Portal, and to me in the moment, I’m particularly feeling the lone wolf energy in people who know what they don’t want, what they can’t resonate with, and how that can feel like most everything that’s being offered out there. They’re left with a lot of despair to try and live life with. I know that from my own experience.

I also know that anything that is driven by a lot of hype and salesy energy, only feeds that despair, and yuck inside. Add that to the ever so rapidly changing world we find ourselves in and that’s a supersized side of despair with that yuckburger!
What we are seeing as a collective is the whole internet is rumbling around the ideas of ‘creators creating content and building audience’ from which to leverage something, usually money, to the missing community, real community, where real needs get met and real connections are made, meaningful connections.

How many people would like to toss their devices and laptop for the sheer boredom of the thing, but feel trapped to do life without the need to be online. Online with what? OK, maybe that’s not one or the other, but I bet you know what I’m talking about. How many have bailed on Facebook for instance?

Jelelle and I are feeling to do a livestream and talk openly about these pieces soon, but asking your input and telling you what we’re thinking in the meantime felt good too.Here’s a couple specifics of what we’re seeing and learning:

We’re seeing that having a paid community, as in a monthly subscription makes for way higher engagement over a free community. This is true for communities in general, but seems to be particularly the case for us.

Many have seen our offer to join the free portal as it stands now, they’ve clicked the join button, answered the question, been sent their approval, but haven’t actually joined. So that feels like what’s going on there is about people having a feeling of ‘oh, this could be a good thing’ and click, and then largely forgetting about it. If they do go on to actually join, we see that many members then don’t engage, load a picture of themselves, etc, and their membership is not much more than being a member of many forgotten groups on FB. I don’t mean to be negative, but I do need to look at and feel what doesn’t excite me. And I don’t think it does anything for members that do want a warmer, more engaged, interactive community.

I’ve been that kind of disengaged member myself, which really isn’t a member of anything, but a member of something boring, and depleting like most of the internet for that matter. No judgment on you or I for contributing to that, but the yuck is an opportunity to ask what we really want and why.

So that’s a big one we see, is that a paid subscription is a big part of creating something different. How do you feel about that?

We had been seeing a free portal up till now and then later offering paid community based courses to the membership as a place to rally deeper engagement and as a way to generate income for ourselves, but this is now changing too to seeing and feeling how people don’t really want all the content that course planners create. We have created so much content on our website, blog and youtube channel and engagement there is so small compared to what we want, desire and need. But people don’t want content, they want community is what we are learning. I don’t want content. I want community.

Anyways, there’s lots more energy and emotional transparency to share around this and that feels best to save for more updates soon, but I wanted to ask your input as we go as that would help us continue to sort and evolve.

Mostly, we want a place where people really want to be, where they come alive, where they invite their friends, where they grow and are challenged, where they feel like they’ve entered a NEW world, that they could even justify paying for, exchanging for the goodness. A world of a bunch of content, even really good content (like ours) is NOT that world however. Something different is needed.

Can you feel the itch we are scratching?

Thank god we’re still a tiny group on a new impulse and can sort as we go.

Xo, Raphael 🙂

(Further to this update above is that we have now as of today changed the membership offer from free to $22.22 USD per month. If you’ve been around us long enough to know you’d like to go further in deeper intimacy with us and growing community, please head over to https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/ and join in. I hold every single member as a sacred gift and an opportunity to share our gifts as well.)

Raphael Awen is a Sacred Masculine Love Ambassador and Co-Creator/Teacher/Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Healing, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheart.org

Energy Update: Beltane/Eclipse Opening Karmic Metasoul Timeline Portals In Sacred Union

By Jelelle and Raphael Awen

Energy Update: My goodness, wow, there is a lot to feel and coming up in response to/activated by all these celestial ‘events’ and energies!

For the last two days, I’ve been in a deep karmic ‘tunnel’, feeling, seeing, and experiencing energies from another lifetime heavily overlaid on my own and just BEing with them and the soul aspect who feels them. Allowing lots of tears, physical tiredness and need for rest has been so important, plus lots of processing/sharing time with my mate Raphael too.

This Metasoul aspect of mine (as we call them rather than ‘past life’) is named Lorna, a powerful Avalonian High Priestess who walked away from her position for many reasons in her lifetime, yet mostly to follow the call of her heart in mateship with Raphael’s metasoul aspect ( a Christian king named Lionel). Of course, this union was ‘forbidden’ and they hid in the shadows with their affair….longing for each other yet not able to ‘be together.’ This is a reoccurring theme for Raphael and I over many, many lifetimes and what we came here to heal together this life. The priestess and the king, being in different ‘worlds’ yet our twin/pairbond calling us to connect and heal the separation wound there.

Being able to be together and be in our power/gift expression together is the opportunity we’ve chosen in this life. It is A LOT to let in and even nearly 14 years later, we are still in this process together of inhabiting this.

As is the case in truly non-compartmentalized sacred union in which we are in constant physical/emotional/mental connection together yet also individuating, this invitation to have and be in what we haven’t gotten to be in before brings up all kinds of things to feel such as grief, distrust, insecurity, fear of loss, desire to control/grasp, unworthiness and much more.

During this powerful Beltane/Union passage and supported by the Black Moon eclipse energies (along with the recent planetary alignment and ongoing solar flares), Raphael and I went into this lifetime together (which isn’t in the ‘past’ at all yet occurring in the Quantum Now), dropping into the energies of Lionel and Lorna and facilitated a feeling/bridging to them. They ‘get’ to be together in their lifetime too finally and get to lead together, seeing where that takes them. Their union fortifies and supports the union between Raphael and I too, opening up a gift exchange. Left unfelt, their resistances and fear creates blocks to intimacy and deepening for Raphael and I.

I feel to share this tender process as it is the best example I can offer of the kinds of energies you may be experiencing and emotions too, yet may not always know or feel a ‘way’ to be with them. There is a massive lifting of the veils happening where the previous amnesia we have had about other lifetimes and soul themes is dissolving. Whether you are in sacred union right now or single, your soul is inviting you to heal the separation wounds within you and in your experience in order to move into more union on all levels.

I do love this SoulFullHeart process so very much for what it allows to be opened up and felt in a specific way that also has such depth and possibility to it. If you’d like to hear more about our process recently as a couple and more about SoulFullHeart as well and if it might be a deepening place for you in community and sessions, you can join Raphael and I in a livestream on FB on Beltane, Sunday, May 1st at 5:00pm GMT/12:00pm EDT/9am PDT. The recording will be available on our feeds to watch anytime along with here on this blog and on our SoulFullHeart Experience You Tube Channel.

We also share more about our personal processes and respond to your movements/sharings too on our private online community called the SoulFullHeart Portal….creating a safe community space online to support each other, deepen, challenge, and grow together. You are welcome to join us there for a $22.22 USD monthly membership as an exchange with us: https://soulfullheartportal.mn.co/feed

The energies of the eclipse bring up and out these timelines/lifetimes and it’s HOW we are with them that can make a big difference in our experience and what we can leverage from them. I so love truly being able to dialogue with, feel, and grow with these soul aspects and parts of myself, over years sometimes, and in an ever deepening way. Not just in a one time regression session, yet in a truly relational way that is ongoing.

Healing the separations that create and feed our fear…moving into more union within and together…THIS is why we are here in this life where so much more is possible than ever before!

And Raphael’s comment on this post:

“This must sound like a complete dream to so many, a real dream, but a dream nonetheless, to have this kind of feeling access to other timelines.

It might feel quite ‘attained’, but my personal experience is more about the guts it takes to be willing to feel and digest all there is to feel in these karmic bonds and binds, and how they are expressing in the current of our current. It did take deep process and choice, but for a soul who’s ready to go here, my truth is that you will be surprised how immediate the openings are and how you will be graced and paced by love and the divine to hold it all.

Feeling this pair bond yesterday took me into some deep tunnels of despair feeling Lionel, which resonates so deeply with the despair inside so many men right now. It’s all connected and it’s all asking to be answered.

If you’re feeling that you need to stay on top of things if you’re going to be a resource to others, I’d invite you to think again. We are in this ride together and there are things to feel that feel like hell, and it is through those hells that you get relieved of the pretense of being something you are not and it is through those hells that you get truly empowered to be of useful and profound service for what is at hand now.

There’s lots more shit to come and unless we drop our roles, we’re going to just plain suffer deeper and deeper. If we are ready to go deeper, there is, I’m convinced (much of the time) that there is so much goodness awaiting us. That is not only my hope, but my daily ongoing experience.

I am so glad to be in the resolution of these timelines with you, Jelelle, and all of our discovered Metasouls. I believe that is what all of us are doing one way or another in the long run, it’s just about how much someone is ready to feel now and at what pace that makes the difference in our joy/suffering.

I know there is a TON of divine support to all of us who are willing to feel and heal on this level.”

Much love to you during this illuminating passage!

Jelelle Awen

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The Arising Of The May King

The Horned God comes into union with The May Queen. He sets his sights, opens his heart, and commits to the bond through his own need for growth and creation. A powerful and sacred coming together that begins on the inside and extends on the outside.

I did not have much connection to this day in my past, but it as become an increasing profound and beautiful day of honoring the masculine and feminine sacred union as well as our relationship to Mother Gaia and Her gifts of Spring and Summer. It has triggered feelings of inadequacy in my past with Kasha as she has had such a deep experience and relationship to it. Yet, as with all triggers, they are gateways to our deepest fears and rewards.

I can meet the wounded masculine within and hold space for his healing and arising into his own May King. The masculine that can show up to all of the ebbs and flows of the stillness and fire of the Divine Feminine May Queen. The King that can be in his own truth as well as meet his own shadow and vulnerable parts that are still in hiding and integration. This is no small task. It is a life-long journey that is both challenging and rewarding.

I have been fortunate to have been in intimate relationship as well as community to help reflect and mirror both my arising King and wounded man. They are always in orbit of each other and offer both solace and gifts. On this day, honor them both, as well as the feminine within me that has guided me to let in the union I share with my beloved, Kasha. This had to start from the inside from me to me first. I had to feel ready and worthy enough to go into the depths of vulnerable intimacy, as challenging and scary it can be.

I felt to share a poem I wrote years ago as a call to my Queen before I knew that it was Kasha all along. Many Beltane blessings to all both in and out of union:

Come with me, my love
Down the spiral staircase of my heart
Into the garden of my humanity

Bear witness to it succulence
It’s uniqueness
It’s burned and broken places

Come with me, my queen
Along the paths of weathered words
And the trails of new beginnings
Water the wilted with your loving care
Ignite the growth with your fiery passion

Will you follow me into the unknown?
Into the cauldron of our being?
Will you dance with me among the golden lilies
As well as the prickly cactus and forest ablaze?
Will you join with me in the exploration of our sacred sexuality?

The slow caress of my hands
Upon your beautifully sculpted, divinely feminine curves
The electric sparks that leap off our tongues
Setting fire to our chakras one by one
When we reach the gateway of our heavenly union

Will you come with me?
May I come into you?
Into your atmosphere where you shine and fly?
Into your hidden and protected caverns?
The places where few have been allowed to tread
Into your luscious and sacred garden?

I will not pluck your flowers
Or step on your sprawling vines
I will sit patiently for you to join me.
To share with me you tales
Your stories of adventure
….of agony
….of strength
….and weakness

I will etch them into my heart
Weave them into the tapestry of us
Though they belong to you and you alone
They share a sacred place in between you and me

Come with me, by beloved
As far as we both were meant to go
To unravel the mystery of who we were meant to be.

May this May Day open you out to the gifts of this season and these celestial constellations,

*****

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Gabriel Amara is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for both men and women. Visit https://www.soulfullheart.org for more information about sessions, group calls/events, videos, community, etc.