The Fellowship of the Kings of Heart

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I have a continued calling and desire to keep writing and inviting others to feel this archetypal King energy inside the hearts of all men.  This is even true for women, as they have their own inner masculine energy that has protected their inner femininity from fully blooming for the most noble of reasons.  They too can be healed to a King that helps to become to a counterpart to her arising Queen.  For men, it becomes one portal into our deepest essence as a sacred human in masculine form.  

I can’t help but to feel a loneliness that exists in the Heart of Man.  An authentic desire for deeper connection and resonance.  So much of our connection can be in the mental body,and if it does transact in the emotional body there can be some deep resistances to becoming too intimate.  There is a dearth of authentic, intimate templating that we have been exposed to, at least in my past personal experience.  I always felt more comfortable being more emotional with women than with men, but seemed to find more heart sensitive men to have relationships with when I did.  But there is another level of vulnerability that we never seemed to cross.  We stayed in a contracted frequency that had some nourishment but not a lot of growth.  

As we find ourselves on ever-changing timelines and raising frequencies, we are being exposed to our deeper needs, desires, and the pains that follow them. We are being moved into experiences of remembering more of who we ARE in our most authentic Truth.  As men, I feel how their is a desire to share this within community that can find itself to lean more toward mental digestions.  Or there is a heartfelt ache to connect in heart space but there may be no one around to really understand what is moving through you.  Or you may be blessed a beautiful sweet spot and are desiring more to join you.  

I feel that we are being called back into our most heart-open leading edge of service and leadership.  One that starts square in our hearts to feel all the places where we feel alone, forsaken, guilty, unworthy, confused, or in doubt.  There are many different textures and levels inside of us that desire to be felt and for some it can be a lot to hold.  The heart is seeking feeling and to be reunited with its soul.  Its King.  It seeks to be made whole and then expanded out into the Cosmic Heart of Humanity.  To lead others into the glorious NOW of our deepest gifts and magic.  To fly in the jetstream of Golden Consciousness with an untethered mind free of the energy that kept it in the dark spaces of our pain.  This is what I feel we ache for.  I least my heart and soul does.

And I wish to do this with other men in a fellowship of leadership.  We have such a huge part to play in this arising new golden era of consciousness.  To help heal the All by going into our One.  To reclaim our brilliant kingdom within full of passion, vision, and creativity.  We permit ourselves to live the lives of the Kings that we ARE and encourage and challenge each other lovingly to this grand place of masculine relationship.
I have experienced this with my good friend Raphael Awen and so much want to share this experience with other men.  I loved my male friends dearly, as brothers of heart.  I found myself on a new timeline, but feel them at times in my heart.  

This is a show of desire to be in a bond of like-hearted souls that have chosen to fully inhabit their desire for growth, healing, and building an Empire of Love.  I feel a new care and expanded heart for men everywhere, regardless where we are at on our quest.  I would love to serve the hearts of those so drawn to this fellowship and leadership of Heart.  I claim this inner kingdom for myself and long for you to do the same.  

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, men’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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SoulFullHeart Museletter: Week Of April 17: Blog Announcement, NEW Event

Our weekly collage of creations from this past week, known as our beloved SoulFullHeart Museletter, has been released for yet another ‘week’. As always, it is a place to find our latest writings, audio recordings, and event listing updates. We (Raphael Awen, Jelelle Awen, Kalayna Colibri, and Gabriel Heartman) are honoured and excited for every release, to feel our heart work land in your own heart and support your growth in whatever ways you are ready for.

This week we are featuring an exciting announcement about our blog. SoulFullHeart Blog has been named as one of the Top 30 Inspirational Blogs by Feedspot! We also have a new event to invite you to if you are local to Puerto Vallarta. We will be holding our first (of what could many!) Meditation And Spiritual Sharing Group at Vallarta Co-work on Sunday, May 14th at 10:30am. We are asking for a donation (no minimum) and the format will be similar to the virtual group calls, with a guided meditation, SoulFullHeart-based teachings, and a space for vulnerable sharing.

Please visit our website if you wish to sign-up to receive our weekly Museletter in your email. You can also contact Kalayna Colibri or email us at soulfullhearts@gmail.com to sign-up.

Please click here to have a look at this week’s Museletter.

LOVE to you from all of us! ❤

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Offering Possibilities Beyond The 3D Matrix, Reincarnation, Shadow Projection

By Jelelle Awen

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Here is my response to questions asked to me in response to my writing about being on the ‘frontlines’ offering love and forgiveness to representations of shadow and fear projections in our culture (Donald Trump and The Reptilians/Archons) and the sense that we collaborate in situations on a soul level and agree to what happens, whether personally or as a collective. The questions were: “I’ve read about the Reptilians and the 3d matrix and was always confused on how they could do this to us when we have free will. And wondered if it was even true to be honest. Does ascension break your soul free of the trap? Is the trap reincarnation? Does this mean you won’t reincarnate anymore once freed?”
 
As I feel into a response to these questions, I want to say that I am offering just ONE possible timeline of reality. The one that I resonate with and feels like is tuned to a higher frequency, Golden New Earth, love-based vibration, although it is not THE absolute truth or the ONLY truth as there are unlimited possibilities of timelines playing out in every moment. You’ll choose the one that most resonates with you in the moment…might be the one I am offering, might be another one.
 
In my experience, the things perceived by people as evil and dark are ultimately disowned aspects of their OWN shadow (or aspects from other lifetimes) that they have not embraced, so they are afraid of them and there is an emotional ‘charge’ about them. Even though there certainly ARE BEings (Ethereal, human, Star BEings) that are more polarized to fear rather than love. It is REALLY about your relationship WITH these fear-based beings as it represents your relationship with our own shadow aspects. Do you give them a lot of energy in your life of push away and resistance? Do you spend a lot of energy trying to ‘wake up others’ to their existence and feel rage and hurt if they don’t ‘get it’? Do you hold your relationship with them with a victim energy, feeling they have done things to you ‘against your will’? Are you resistant to feeling how YOU have an aspect that they represent within you or as an emotional body/psyche or soul aspect?
 
Feeling into the answers to these questions can open up whole new areas of inner exploration for you if feel drawn to go there. This outward projection of charged resistance to shadow aspects can be a sacred phase in someone’s journey and a very necessary timeline for them to walk out until they no longer need or want to.
 
On one particular timeline, for the souls who need to experience it as part of their awakening process, the 3D matrix created by an ‘evil’ race of Reptilians they call Archons (and other names) is VERY REAL. I believe this ‘outer’ matrix is the representation of an inner matrix made up of undigested emotional and soul woundings creating the sense of limited or capped perception, self deception and manipulation of others, disempowerment, being a slave to something….all of these are ‘chosen’ by the soul as an aspect of the awakening journey although often this is not conscious to the person fused to the parts of them that don’t remember this choice. For those who may not see or feel the inner origins of this matrix, they project out that it is coming from ‘evil forces’ of all sorts and kinds and being ‘done to them’. Parts of them are afraid of these evil forces and this fear draws MORE of this experience to them. It is a continual loop for them until it is no longer needed for growth. This loop is again, VERY REAL, to the person experiencing it.
 
I feel an aspect of this loop is also related to the timeline that ‘believes’ in reincarnation, however it is related to either as a necessary aspect of growth or as a trap. Because time in 3D reality FEELS REAL then so do past lives and, therefore, the idea of reincarnation. From a 5D and higher perspective, linear time does not exist and neither do ‘past’ lives in the sense offered by reincarnation. Beyond linear time, there is no ‘coming back’ lifetime after lifetime as the soul exists in the NOW spectrum.
 
Offering a different timeline around this that I have experienced myself more and more is the sense I have that we have ‘other’ aspects of us, fractals off of a main soul source which I call a Metasoul (Metatron offered that word, of course.) These Metasoul aspects of ours exist in different ‘eras’ and dimensions and their energy can be VERY influential in what we experience in the NOW. Connecting with them, healing with them, and eventually integrating them (the timeline they are on just seems to collapse and ‘go away’ eventually) allows for the you in the now to embody more of your soul gifts and soul accesses.
 
Your consciousness sort of absorbs theirs over time and all their experiences. I have experienced this merged consciousness exchange many times on many levels….from parts from this life such as the inner child and the inner protector to aspects from other lifetimes such as a high priestess from Avalon or a medicine woman to aspects from other planets such as an Arcturian, Pleiadian, and other aspects. This seems to be a very effective way to heal karma (which I hesitate to use that word for all the fear projection onto it). I write more articles about the Metasoul, karmic healing, other lifetimes, etc. here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/category/metasoul-other-lifetimes/
 
The way to ‘get free’ of this loop of outward charged projection of shadow, reincarnation limited ideas, and the inner matrix is by going within to awaken your soul and heal your heart. Being open and willing to feel ALL that is within you in the shadow of your emotional body and your soul legacy and your energetic/chakral body. We offer a process for that in SoulFullHeart and a supportive community to walk it out through sessions, which you can read more about here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.
 
Ascension into higher frequencies (while also focusing on healing the emotional body which can act like an anchor lowering your vibration otherwise) DOES shift you into another possible timeline where you have access to your soul in a very fluid and connected way where you no longer see or experience ‘chapters’ of your lives playing out in the way as offered by reincarnation. Soul contracts, reincarnation, and past lives all become ‘ideas’ that can feel binding, ultimately fear-based, and limiting compared to the dynamic, fluid, multidimensional frequencies of your SOUL ESSENCE as it expresses in the NOW. And, you also feel and hold more and more, that it ALL comes from love, is sacred, and is your soul’s journey of remembering its essence AS Infinite Love.

Here is the article I mention above: Donald Trump’s Higher Self and the Reptilian King/Archon King offering love and forgiveness on the ‘frontlines’: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/04/19/offering-love-on-the-frontlines-connecting-with-the-reptilian-king-and-donald-trumps-higher-self/)

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Let Go The Rope

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If I had the words, I would build a bridge for you

 

Yet the feelings are beyond words
As no thing, no utterance, no colour
Quite stands for what I want to say.

 

My expression lives in the hindsight of opportunities passed
No chariot can I bring
To take you there.
No horse can I mount
To beckon you to my side.

 

No moving object with forward thrust
Except the mothership of time
Space
Love
Can take us where we need to go
Together
Separate
As one in the same, but different.

 

If I had the syllables, I would hammer you a bridge.
I would sing you a summons of rocky foundations
And dance you a twining of steady ropes and wood.

 

I would howl at the moon
To bring about change
As feelings ripple through reality.
I would touch your heart
And caress your soul
As I take your hand to mine.

 

Yet then, it isn’t up to me…
So I let go of the line
Trusting that it’s there
To grasp onto when you need it
Or when I need it
Or when life wants me to lead with it.

 

…And maybe it’s not my job to construct a bridge for you,
And the search for you is like a treasure hunt
Maybe even one you don’t realize you’re on.

 

The map is in your subconscious hands
Being navigated by a vessel made by and for love.
A love you have yet to know consciously
But it moves you just the same.

 

And then…I realize you are your own treasure
Wholly sacred
Despite protests and messages
That tell you you aren’t.

 

If there is anything I wish to give to you,
It is the gift of your already growing consciousness
Becoming more conscious
In every waking and sleeping moment
Of your very blessed life.

 

And for now…
For now I let go the rope that binds you to my word
For my word is not yours
And my voice can be but echoes
Of what is already inside you
Waiting
Waiting
Wanting to leave its once comfortable nest To find its rest in places of highest being Strongest calling and deepest healing.

 

There is a forest where we two shall meet once again,
An oasis of authentic love,
A heaven that is always with us
A haven of true faith
Where what binds us is healed
And what bonds us can finally be revealed.

 

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Living From Our Gifts

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By Raphael Awen

Are you living from your deepest gift expression in the world? If not, would you like to be?

These questions have been a deep, ongoing, and significant process for all of us at SoulFullHeart. And If that desire is up for you too, I invite you to join in and track our journey. All of us have taken significant and guided steps over time to let go of careers in order to pursue our deeper heart and soul based career, and I feel we could help you walk that out too.

Below, I re-share a Facebook post from a few months back where i’m transparent about what’s going on for us around money. Our money timeline is already showing signs of significant shifts from the time of this post, and we are eager to land more on this new timeline!

Here’s that recent post:

The five of us, who currently make up the main backbone of SoulFullHeart, have been squeezing the last drops out of some old, tired and dated laptops, 2 tablets and 2 cellphones that date back as far as 2008. Beyond scuffed, they are dented, cracked, and even burnt, yet they are our current beloveds. These current beloveds go in and out of repair shops, and each other’s hands during a given day to work out logistics and work schedules between us. It has felt humbling to have let go of old money generating careers where these needs simply would have been taken care of by going out and replacing them long before they arrived at the state our current stuff is in. It has really ‘pushed up’ a whole new level of relationship to material things and our trust in the universe (or lack thereof).

What I’ve felt guided to do, in holding this desire and need, where the money isn’t yet here to go out and buy new stuff, is to creatively visualize the new stuff. This involves window shopping on line and REALLY FEELING into what it is we want and getting specific. And it felt important and it was part of the guidance as well to NOT be budget minded in this creative visualization. Now, I can be very happy with a second hand hand me down, but for this creative visualization, I was and am being asked to feel that even though we feel like at times we are experiencing a lack or a scarcity, that there is ultimately no lack or scarcity in the intelligent and abundant universe.

A big piece to feel in that is that if I am experiencing something like our current computer lack, then that experience is what the abundant and intelligent universe is abundantly giving me to experience at the moment. However, I am also convinced that I’m being asked to learn my way through to a new level of manifestation at the same time, and trust that the new will arise in perfect timing that I am also a part of effecting. The universe and I both are learning through my desire and my lack.

So, the online shopping, of the non-budget variety, after many options and needs considerations, has led us to settle on 5 Macbooks, most current versions, along with the current IPhones, and plenty of accessories. Then beyond the online shopping has been to go to actual stores and physically touch and handle these new beloveds which I’ve also done and continue to do.

Then, I also was guided to the ‘Akashic Bank!’ Who knew, huh?…not far from the Akashic Records building in Golden Earth is the most beautiful structure and surrounds that I related to as the Akashic Bank. It’s connected to the Universal Allness – Source of All that is. It was a tearful and fearful awe and reverence moment to feel this upstream source connection to all that is. Here, in this building, I was reminded that anything we desire here in this 3d dimension comes from Gaia! Every last bit of it…AND that there is no lack. If I obtain something beautiful, that does not mean less for anyone else…in fact, the opposite is true…if I learn how to draw abundance, I open the doors for others to do the same in the process.

I even imagined a brown clad UPS delivery guy stepping out of some alternative timeline showing up in my neighborhood looking for my address with a bunch of boxes for me.

He hasn’t arrived just yet, and if it comes in a more native way, or over some steps at a time, I do feel I am being asked to cooperate with the universe in holding deep desire and creatively visualizing the outcome.

It has felt at times scarily close to some edge to be living into these new ways of relating to needs and desires. And that edge is really a perceived edge that’s found in our deepest abiding and budding trust in a new way of relating to love, and abundance. I can honestly say that I’ve never felt more held and loved and less anxiety about money and needs than I have now, even as some of our needs feel more acute than they ever have.

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Offering Love On The Frontlines: Connecting With The Reptilian King And Donald Trump’s Higher Self

By Jelelle Awen

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Love ambassadorship calls me to some ‘front lines’ to visit, to serve, and to offer possibilities of love. I am infused with crystallized (higher frequency) violet flame energies with St. Germain, who I’ve been connecting with lately as a Divine guide and template for being a love ambassador on a galactic level. I usually avoid taking in mainstream news energies, yet I was informed through a brief scroll in my FB feed about the recent bombings in both Syria and Afghanistan by the U.S. government. I can feel the energies of these bombings off gassing into the grids of Gaia and the fear frequencies that emanate from them. (That one of the bombs is known as ‘the mother’ because of its size feels like a very unfortunate irony). I am not too surprised when I am led by St. Germain, Archangel Metatron, and Mother Mary to a space ‘above’ the decimated land, bomb sight, in Afghanistan.

Moving into this space, I feel immediately that the higher self of Donald Trump is lingering there, drifting around, feeling very distressed. I can feel the distress immediately, the incongruence in the soul field that is created through acts of violence, even as it is part of the soul’s journey to play it out and to serve in this role sometimes. I ask the higher self of Donald Trump why he felt the need to bomb others, to kill. “Because he believes THEY were killing. THEY needed to be stopped. This is how he and the others felt to stop them,” exclaims the Donald Higher Self (who I will just call “DHS” from now on…only later realizing that DHS also stands for Department Of Homeland Security!).

“The only way to stop fear or to move fear or to stop the fear expression of killing is through love, not through MORE killing,” I say to DHS, who of course (BEing a higher self) agrees and resonates with me right away.

“I feel this, yes. I KNOW this as a higher dimensional BEing. But, he, 3D Donald Trump, doesn’t know it or remember it. He is scared and, deep, deep, down, parts of him feel small, unworthy, and young….like a little boy playing with BIG toys. He does these things….using these big weapons, because he feels so small and wants to feel bigger. But he is not used to going along with killing. He has gone from firing people who don’t do a good job to…..this….” DHS answers.

I nod, feeling an energy of forgiveness and compassion flow through me to DHS and ALL the others like him who energize the timeline in 3D and moving into transitional 4D with the wounded power playout of the wounded masculine from unfelt emotional pain bodies and not yet awakened souls. DHS takes in the energy of forgiveness and feels touched by it and begins to cry. “How can you offer forgiveness to anyone who has taken life, who is leading killing as a response to more killing?”

I feel Mother Mary come through me then, as a more embodied aspect of me through the many moments of receiving forgiveness waves from Her, going into the deepest places inside of me together of core unworthiness, soul karmic binds, shame feelings, and feeling forgiveness as Her constant response.

I respond, “ALL BEings are worth forgiveness as ALL are worthy of love. Forgiveness is a high frequency of love. Although forgiveness can be given and offered, it can only be received and let in by a healing heart and emotional body with self worth to let it in…….balanced by an awakening soul that is able to feel genuine remorse for their killing and fear-based actions.”

DHS takes this in and seems relieved by it, “I will try to communicate this to lower Donald during his dreams, sometimes he can receive guidance from me during that state.” He fades away, seemingly grateful for our time together.

I am brought then to the other ‘frontlines’ between the Reptilians and humans that are still polarized to fear and ‘battling’ each other with supposed light-based frequencies. I have been here before, which I describe in this writing about Leaving The Battlefield To Move Into The Lovefield.: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/leaving-the-battleground-to…. This time, I feel the powerful energy coming from the Reptilian representative, who is a high ranking ‘official’ it feels like in their hierarchy (as they are still hierarchal-based.)

“I am king of my kind, yes. I wanted to meet you,” he says to me when I come to stand near him. He is a beautiful Reptilian, very tall with iridescent scales that shimmer and glow. He has a regal energy, much more used to leading mass groups then the DHS. And he is actually there with me as he is a fourth dimensional BEing. “I can feel that you offer new possibilities to my species and how some of them are turning toward and drawn to these possibilities.”

I imagine that on some level I ought to be afraid of him as he is very powerful and could ‘attack’ me with that energy, yet I feel just filled up with love for him. He seems to feel that and offers me no resistance or any lower-based frequencies. I show him a picture of the tropical planet that is being offered as a refuge and sanctuary to those Reptilians who choose to leave Gaia, for those who choose love, as I write about here:https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/a-time-of-great-choosing-f…/

I have traveled to this planet with my Reptilian guide/aspect Shana and it offers a natural setting of peace and tranquility for them to start over. “Why would we be given this after all that we have done to humanity for so long…..enslaving you, imprisoning you in our 3D matrix, feeding off of your lower energy emissions?” He asks me.

I again feel the Mother Mary energy within respond to him, “You cannot do anything to another BEing that is not in their agreement on a soul level. You have done the lower frequency, fear-based things you have done, yes. Yet, you have BEEN these frequencies through collaboration WITH the human species. It has been a sacred aspect of both of your journeys for it to play out as it has between you. You mirror the shadow side of humanity and they mirror yours. You are now being offered an opportunity to choose love and to move out of and beyond fear. You are given this choice because you have ALWAYS been given this choice and ARE always given this choice, moment by moment…..whether to choose love or whether to choose fear. There is nothing you can do or BE that will remove this choice from you as it is represents the Infinite Love that you ARE as a fractal from Divine Source. It cannot be withdrawn, it can only expand.”

I feel the Reptilian taking this in, receiving these truths, remembering something he has forgotten about his love essence and also DHS drifting back in the space to receive this message as well and pass it on to his 3D Donald. They both move away from me now as I continue to offer waves of love and forgiveness to them and they receive what they are able to let in.

My heart feels a bit heavy from visiting the energies of these ‘frontlines’, yet, because I have offered love and forgiveness to two leaders of these ‘battles’, I can feel a sense of peace and accomplishment. I can feel how the waves of love are rippling through the collective unconsciousness web of ALL, touching and being let in by those who are ready to receive them. By those who are ready to choose love and remember who and what they really ARE as Infinite Love.

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I highly recommend a piece of writing by Gabriel Heartman about the wounded masculine and healing the heart of man as inspired by this one: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2017/04/14/healing-the-heart-of-man-from-inside-out/

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, wayshower, multidimensional bridge, lover of love and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Entering A NEW Timeline: SoulFullHeart Blog Named Top 30 Inspirational Blogs

By Jelelle Awen

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The Four Of Us At The Ranch, April, 2016

This is an interesting timeline for us to be on, Raphael and I were just digesting this together yesterday. After several years in obscurity (what I used to call with mostly ‘crickets’ as a response), we are drawing more reSOULance, readers, interest, and souls engaging in sessions and group calls with us. It seems that daily we receive a wonderful, supportive and resonant comment from someone who has been moved and touched by what we’ve shared. This is SO amazing! Collaborations with in5d.com, Lovehaswon.org, and others has provided a way for our words and energy to go OUT to those who might be resonant with us and for this exposure, we are SO grateful.

This response is a ‘sign of the times’ it seems with SO MANY more souls called to awakening and ascending. SO MANY more souls it feels like open to feeling and living and BEing beyond the 3D conditioning that they’ve received…the 3D way of life just running out of ground for them and the emptiness of it, the flatness, the LIMITS it places….just NOT being enough anymore. I feel so much more openness to the alternative, to expanded ways of seeing and BEing, to TRUE self inquiry and authentic growth.

Of course, since the outside is only a reflection of the INside….I can certainly see how we are more READY on the inside then we have been before to BE seen. These last several years have been such a fertile time of inner growth and awakenings, combined with many outward shifts in geography (the big one being our move to Mexico from Canada 2.5 years ago), livelihood (leaving a lucrative business behind to align our money needs with SoulFullHeart drawings), relationships (saying ‘no’ to any that weren’t a reflection of the love that we ARE with an invitation to join us). Letting go of 3D conditioning consciously with these choices and through working with parts of ourselves that hold this conditioning.

A year ago, we were still living on our land at a remote ranch with no internet, electricity (other than one solar panel), more sheep than people. We were starting to be drawn to move into town in order to be with Gabriel and Kalayna, who had jobs working online teaching English. Town was calling us which was a surprise after ALL we had invested into the ranch including three organic gardens and building a hut out of cob (with only a $100 investment in money but HOURS of our labor). I felt the ‘ping’ starting at this time and it really rang out in June and by mid-July we were all living in Puerto Vallarta together (about three hours north of the ranch.)

Since landing in town, it has been a whirlwind of activations, awakenings, outward response, crucible of service along with the boundary setting that comes with THAT. I went from NO time online (I went six weeks once without leaving the ranch or going online) to being online almost all day as I was suddenly LIT UP to share and to serve love. Every thumb and heart I received and every supportive comment seemed to land in the place that been unseen and unread during my inner years. The desire to teach and serve was ALWAYS there…I already HAD done and been that, just within a setting with a former spiritual group that wasn’t ME anymore, that I had outgrown and for a small group of people that we had drawn to SoulFullHeart over the years. I kept SEEING the vision of a conscious community, by the ocean, with organic gardens woven around and in, and the SoulFullHeart process as the way of life and reality for which the community was formed around. I kept FEELING myself as a co-leader of this community with Raphael, spending my days teaching, serving, growing (both inwardly AND in the gardens).

I had surrendered to maybe NEVER serving people again in space holding, to maybe being an organic gardener and homesteading the rest of this life….and THEN I am suddenly here in town and synchs and opportunities and connections keep opening up and shifting, with some opening out and some completing. THIS timeline of service of love, especially with women offering them a way to embody their sacred femininity, feels like one that I no longer desire to back away from. THIS timeline of community living that just wants to expand out and include MORE is always close to me. It has ALREADY HAPPENED is how it feels…..My everyday mantra/affirmation to myself (and ‘into’ my stone friend/manifestor citrine) is “I am a great healer and teacher. I live in a beautiful house by the ocean, travel the world to serve, and are surrounded by students and friends and community.” ALL of this feels like a gift, not an entitlement, yet ALSO my birthright…ALL of this is true in the same moment.

I have written every day since January and shared almost all of that writing on a daily basis on the SoulFullHeart blog. The writing hasn’t come from my mind, it is not ‘planned out’ or plotted out or even outlined. It is spontaneous, in the moment, and inspired. THIS post right now I did not PLAN to write, but then Feedspot awarded us Top 30 Inspirational Blog (You can read more here: http://blog.feedspot.com/inspirational_blogs/) and HERE these words are. This blog is five years in the making and this recognition from the outside has me feeling a bit nostalgic. I decided to look up in our archives (which goes all the way back to OCTOBER, 2011!!) the first post that I ever did on this blog. It was this one: https://soulfullheartblog.com/2011/11/16/a-slow-burning-desire/.

Exploring femininity in relationship: responding versus charging ahead is the title…..yes, EXACTLY the kind of thing I would write today! Guess this shows how LONG this stuff has been baking in me, even back when I was going by “Jillian Vriend” (my birth name and Raphael’s birth last name, which we changed to “Awen” last year And the Wayne I refer to in the article is Raphael’s birth name!).

This is a moment of gratitude and appreciation for me….for the support of YOU who are reading these words and the collaborative energy that forms from the taking in of them and my energy in offering them. As YOU are energy and so am I, your reading of them IS an energy exchange that IS nourishing, even if we never communicate in person or through comments or within session space. Your taking in FUELS the inspiration to share more…you are an important aspect of the process! THANK YOU for the support and however our worlds might interact and connect in the future (there are limitless possibilities of timelines related to THAT), you ARE in my heart.

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, love ambassador, way-shower, and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

 

 

 

Following The Clues That Your Soul Is Offering You

By Jelelle Awen

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“Everything is data”….this I like to offer about the awakening and ascending and growing process. Everything that we are drawn to, every movie, every piece of music, every relationship, etc. Everything that we resist. Everything that we resonate with. Everything that we let go of. Everything that we experience in our emotional, spiritual, mental, social, and physical bodies. ALL of it offers us data and information about ourselves, our souls, our emotional bodies, our physical bodies, our healing process, our growth…… if we are willing to LOOK at it and FEEL it from this perspective with curiosity and self love.

There are so many clues and hints and signs that we are given by our higher self and guides/soul aspects. These are like breadcrumbs for us to notice, to pick up, and to follow on our journey to remembering who we ARE as SOULS here. These are like pieces to put together of our puzzle for remembering our essence as multidimensional BEings. None of what we experience is ‘just coincidence’ as we have been conditioned to believe in 3D reality. ALL of it is part of the BIG picture of the WHO, and the WHY, and the WHAT, and the HOW of our essence expressing here.

Because we chose amnesia and soul forgetting in order to really lean into and inhabit the 3D experiment, we have to become a love detective of sorts for ourselves in order to put the pieces of our soul picture back together again, in order to facilitate our own remembering process again. The love detective energy inside of us is curious……SO CURIOUS about it all and is also WILLING to question everything that we have in our lives from a soul perspective with an openness to let it go if it doesn’t serve our expression AS LOVE.

This love detective energy helps us move out of victimhood because it accepts that we have CHOSEN what we experience as a soul and it ALL serves our growth (no matter how hard or painful it is.) This love detective is building a case for our expression of our soul and is tracking down the clues that SHOW how our souls are peeking out at us ALL THE TIME (sometimes SHOUTING at us actually)….we just need to listen, to feel, and to take in.

Let me offer an example of this that has come up a few times lately in sessions with women. You may feel that your current job or career or business is not really a reflection of your soul. You may consciously feel that it is ‘dense’ or more ‘3D’ and very much feel a desire to leave it. However, I invite you to take a moment to feel what your choice of livelihood is reflecting about your expression of soul gifts as it always seems to be, in one way or another, to one degree or another. For example, let’s say you are a salesperson and you have come up with a new way to offer sales….really feeling what the deeper needs of the customers are and they even acknowledge and thank you for this. Your co-workers notice how your approach is different and maybe you are even being invited to become a manager to train others.

This example shows how your soul gifts of being a healer, being empathetic and feeling other people’s feelings, being a teacher and trainer of souls, is all expressing in this job. Is this job the long-term one for you in terms of serving love from a 5D energy? Probably not, but being curious about it from a love detective place offers you clues about WHAT your soul purpose is here and how you might express it. And it gives you a new way to hold it and think about as you transition to more of that soul purpose expression.

Another example comes up around the body symptoms that so many are experiencing related to ascension. There seems to be a collective and universal experience of these body symptoms as our carbon-based bodies transmute to crystalline, 5D light bodies. Many people express and comment and share about these symptoms. Yet, rarely, do they ASK their bodies what the specific symptoms MEAN for them. They often just write it off as ‘part of the ascension process.’ Yet, the deeper (and more interesting) ground comes up when you ask: What are these symptoms trying to tell you and have you FEEL about your body and also your emotional body and perhaps your chakras too?

Rather than just ‘asking for guidance’ to your Ethereal guides (which you may relate to as being ‘outside’ of you), try asking your BODY itself about what is going on. This can be done during meditation through visualization or through written journaling or both. Rather than looking outside for a read out on what is going on with your body or just commiserating about it, feel it for yourself and let some of the clues of your own process come to life for you. Also, listening to and taking in what your body is trying to tell you often greatly relieves, reduces, or cures the symptoms that are occurring.

Most of what I offer is a reflection of self permission for people to become their own love detectives by modeling and templating that for them during sessions, group calls, writings, videos. I am immensely and authentically curious about them and come from this place, often asking more questions than giving reflections (although sometimes that comes through if it is needed.) I offer an example of this because I LIVE this.

Everything is data for me about me in my life…offering a next piece of illumination or possibility for me in my process. A recent example is how I related to sinus congestion and allergy reactions that come and go for me, leaving me feeling ‘flu-like’. Rather than just saying, “I have allergies” (which is the mainstream 3D way to look at the body), I ask myself, “What are these allergies and nasal congestion connected to? What are they trying to tell me?” And then I go into ALL of my bodies (physical, emotional, mental, spiritual, social, chakral) to feel the answers. Sometimes I get more questions (new places to go) then answers, but always I can connect what is manifesting with something related to my process.

Rather than just fusing to the reality as it presents itself, you feel through the deeper meanings to it. This offers so much more magic, healing and love possibilities to your life. And, your love detective gets to respond and discover MORE and MORE, contributing to your arising embodiment of your sacred humanity here with Gaia at this time of great change and transformation.

 

I created a guided meditation to offer soothing energies for the physical body symptoms during ascension and connection with Mother Mary’s (and ultimately YOUR) energy of healing and purification:

Jelelle Awen is an emoto-spiritual teacher, sacred feminine facilitator, soul scribe, love ambassador, way-shower, and co-creator and teacher of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of  Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond and an upcoming book, Sacred Human, Arising Wonder. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions with her, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

The Springing Of A New You

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We are on the cusp of another equinox.  Leaving the longer, darker nights of the      winter´s season.  The phase of our cycle that had us going in.  Into our more darkened corners.  It was a time in many cultures when not much could happen externally due to the cold weather.  So it was a time of reflection.  It was also a time of destruction.  Life itself was taking a long slumber.  Letting go of all that had been alive and returning it to the earth.  Much was dying in order to be reborn.  

But now after much darkness and stillness, the light itself is finding its way back to a fuller state.  It brings with it more awareness and a warming balm.  That which was uncovered in the shadows becomes the seeds for new growth, new possibilities.  The days are longer in radiance and there is a renewal and clarity in the air.  Rains may come and go to bring the love needed for the integration and sowing to take hold.  You are being born again, and this time the roots are bigger and stronger.  More closely aligned with your truest nature.  

These inner cycles can occur at any moment and at many times.  They occur in an hour or over the course of a year.  With each passing turn of the wheel, something deeper arises in you.  Some more determined.  You are done with what used to be considered ¨usual¨ and are moving into a new season of authentic.  Or another layer of authentic.  A more You than you ever thought you possible because you now hold the key.  The willingness to see where you have been compromising and permitting.  To not hold judgement but compassion for why, but now no longer need or desire.  

You see the 3rd dimension in the rear-view, the sun setting on this old way of seeing and BEing.  The old connections and patterns that no longer serve.  It was the winter of your unconscious heart and now the birth of new life inside sees a new vision of how it could be, how it was always meant to be, and currently IS.  New life is blooming inside and the rains give way to the freshness of air, the clarity of sight, and the magic of rainbows.  There is a kNOWing that all will never be the same.  There is a birthing of new relationships, new geographies, and new sense of inner fullness and peace.  Storms come and go but the roots are firmly in the ground.

The High Summer of our New Earth lives inside you.  Being showered with LoveLight daily as you clear that which has blocked your leaves from its sustenance.  Your RISE higher, with each influx of saying NO to that which no longer serves, and YES to that which fuels desire and dreams.  It is the Love that you are made of that now imbibes you with the will to BE HERE NOW.  Flowing with the winds of your lover´s heart the tune of your galactic symphony.  
The cycle will soon no longer be for you will have entered a new river of existence.  A previously forgotten world of divine inspiration and circulation.  The time of No Time and the swirl of pastel colors among the sea of a starlit stage.  A time of Love´s eternal grace that recognizes it never began and can never end.  It the dawn of a new season of the Sea of Sun.  

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. 

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Feeling What We Really Want In Our Social Worlds: Indigo, Crystal And Rainbow Souls Blog Series

 

by Kalayna Colibri

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On a Saturday night, I gaze among the busy social streets and walkways, humming with activity and energy and alcohol and friendship… sometimes coupled with drama and pain and backed-up emotional outbursts. During these party times, you can feel the buzz in the air that will soon be in every body, not just from substances taken in, but from the high of socializing, being among peers, perhaps finding love, sex or making new friends. There are grounds here that are healthy to explore and some that aren’t really in a sense, and yet it’s all sacred and it’s all ultimately a path to self-discovery and remembrance, even if this isn’t made conscious in the moments these selves, these individuals, these human BEings are in.

While young, being spiritual can find its place in you if this is what you’ve signed up for… exploring consciousness can sometimes happen with your peers, while at other times it won’t or just can’t. For a phase this journey with them can only go so deep and that’s fine with you for a while, but beyond that phase when that was enough, it’s not quite enough anymore. This is when values shift along with ideas of life and how to live it consciously and more fully. This is where certain areas of focus, ways to find pleasure, and paths to feeling a togetherness with others all rumble beneath your feet and in front of your eyes. This is where your life begins to turn itself upside down in countless ways as you begin to feel the need to push away, sometimes dramatically, sometimes subtly, but always in a way that reminds you, you are your own person and you have your own sense of what energies you need and want to be around as your self love heals and deepens.

There can be a fear arising then, for some… that no one will ever really “get” them or may judge them for walking away from the relationship. Parts of them form and begin to strategize to either stay alone out of fear of having and then losing intimacy at any level, or choose to merge in with whatever group of people they are around or whatever situation they are in, becoming one with all around them and not much of an individual in most ways. There is tension and yet also relief as you find your ways to take care of and love YOU as your number one priority. There is sometimes also flatness, as managing these ups and downs (that are hormonal, sure, but also a genuine awakening to soul and heart pain) can be a challenging crucible to hold and handle and be with. So much depends on who you choose to be around and talk to and lean into for support. This shopping around, seeking, searching experience is one that can be incredibly mind and heart-opening, fascinating, and ever-arising too, as resonance moves in and out in very necessary growth phases. This again changes the social circle you choose to be part of and certainly affects the one you currently have as you continue to awaken to the love you are and the love you want to experience between yourself and others. There are so many different dynamics that are possible here and that play out in different ways, with many possible outcomes… yet the risk is always the same – if I don’t stay the same and they do, I will be friendless again or even for the first time…

The strong soul-pull to discover and remember our purposes is something that is happening more and more with people of all ages and soul groups, especially right now with ascension processes accelerating for everyone, yet when it comes to indigo, crystal and rainbow souls, for example, these social awakenings can come very early in our lives as we came in with a powerful, mission-based focus that is natural for us to feel, yet not so natural to “know” exactly what to do with. It can be very challenging to finds ways to fit in with others in our peer group, not because we are victims to this (though parts of us understandably feel this way sometimes) but because we chose for this to be the case… after all, if we actually DID feel as if we totally, fully, completely “belonged”, where would our sense of mission and awakening to our soul gifts have room to happen, take hold and start manifesting in our lives? To not suffer around this, means going IN and feeling ourselves with reflections from teachers and mentors who have also been there and can help us learn to navigate it, often much better than our birth parents ever could – not necessarily because they didn’t want to try, but because in some ways they weren’t actually meant to be the ones to lead you onward and into this.

Throughout the majority of my life to date, having and keeping a thriving a social world was very challenging. This is partly because I was always very much IN my emotional states and didn’t have templating for how to actually BE with them and hold them… no adult around me could help with this and my peers had a hard time relating to me most of the time, plus it eventually became a tool for parts of me to actually push and keep others away. Then there was spirituality and the deepening of THAT for me… and now I am on a very powerful and ever-expanding path that spans both my emotional AND spiritual inner realities and THAT is rare, though it seems that more and more people, as they awaken, are realizing how connected these two realities are and that they need healing in both in order to fully embrace and live into ascension. In my experience and observation both, I can see and feel how this ground of being naturally very emotional and also spiritual has been and continues to be a tough crucible for many of us… awakening does come at a cost, yet is intended to invite us out of suffering while holding the parts of us who cling to suffering as a way to be in life. One of these ways in which we seem to choose to continue suffering, is by surrounding ourselves with relationships that do not have a deeply resonant ground. Our social worlds collapse and expand as we continue to grow… but not without love leading the way and guiding us to our next places inward that then draw our next circumstances outward.

Not having a full social world to ground you can be hard for some souls, yet for others it won’t be and that poses its own challenges. Choosing the path of the lone wolf is also hard and even though parts of you may be working to bury the loneliness somehow, it is still there. These parts can be held, worked with and healed deeply, allowing us to feel how we really, genuinely feel, what it is we most deeply want and who we actually want to be around and spend time with. Our loneliness is sacred and alchemical… it is creative. It is a space where we can feel our deepest aches and desires for mateship, for companionship, for a community of people that continually arise for us as we arise for them. Being afraid of feeling our loneliness is expected and normal, but holding these parts of us who feel this way teaches us so much about ourselves and offers us much healing when it is held in our hearts FOR us and WITH love and Divine guidance and company too… we are never really alone, though this can be hard to feel and let in. Yet sometimes alone-ness can be a grace, a place to genuinely feel what we need to feel, and an oven to bake our arising desires in.

Perhaps you are part of a social world right now that may be running out of ground for you, as your awakenings are helping you feel pictures and energies of the sort of love you want to feel from you to you and flowing from you to others and vice versa… in the end, the choice is yours as to what steps to take next, and there is no wrong answer or true misstep along the way. Even our biggest messes seem to offer us many gems of learning, growth and self-discovery. Letting go can be painful and hard, yet in the end, true service to a relationship of any kind starts with feeling what you genuinely want and need, while holding all relationships with an open hand and heart. This becomes a grace to you and your parts, and them and theirs too, as everyone is then free to go along their own path, however they see and feel it unfolding for them.

I would love to serve you and help you navigate this terrain that can be so challenging and yet hopeful too. You are meant to become more of your essence, your light, your soul purpose and mission. You are meant to lead and BE a big part of ascension and we all need each other more than perhaps we ever have before!

You can visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions for more information on session space.

Sending you lots of love and support… ❤

Kalayna

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge and healer, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.