Snow and Sun Codes Bring In Sense Of Newness and Rebirth

By Jelelle Awen

Taking in the first snow of the year here in Victoria, I’m reminded of how purifying and cleansing it is. How still snow is, even when it is ‘falling’, and how it blankets everything in this energy of newness. Snow codes are refreshing, especially if they come rarely and stay for a short time.

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The sun came out to greet us as we headed out on a walk to our local seaside park with Kalayna Solais. There is the joy of reunion in our hearts in the moment after a few months of choosing to be apart. This a celebration of new places to transact together…space made inside from necessarily being apart.

These are the rebirth moments that come out of the death and letting go phases that can be so challenging to navigate. These are the new moments that arise only out of letting go of the old. These are the confetti in the air moments where ash may still even be lingering.

It can seem in the darker moments of separation, that we won’t come into union again. It can push up the separation from the Divine and the wound that is often buried deep of what it felt like to be cast off from such bliss and Oneness. Parts of us can feel the pain of rejection, the hurt of disappointment, and land in the reality of our truth too that didn’t get brought before.

Yet, forgiveness inside and of others clears the ground. And, we are finding our way back to each other, back to the Divine, back to our souls. And life greets us and serves us with whatever necessary death and loss process will bring us most back to ourselves again.

Love,
Jelelle Awen
soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

I shared today a teaching and guided meditation as part of my Deepen 2020 series about death and rebirth, offering a bridge to the part of that needs to ‘die’ and let go in order to be reborn:

 

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Casket To Cradle/Death & Rebirth Guided Meditation Video Four Deepen 2020 W/Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

 

In this fourth video of my video series called Deepen 2020, I (Jelelle Awen, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator) talk about the death/rebirth cycle that we are constantly going through in awakening…the ‘death’ of 3D conditioning and the layers of protection created from it and the ‘birth’ of our awakening, 4D/5D self with parts of us integrating into it as they heal. I share about how you might be experiencing this death/rebirth cycle in your life, on a spectrum from subtle to extreme life changes, choices, transitions, and shifts, and how tuning into Divine trust and soul context helps with it.

In the meditation, Mother Mary and Dark Mother join you in a funeral service to honor and feel the part of you that wants and is ready to die, to let go, and to move on. Mother Mary then guides you to connect with the higher frequency version of yourself being born in a cradle. The meditation helps you to bridge and hold space for the death/rebirth process in a conscious way while you are connected to Divine support and trust.

Thank you for joining me in this video….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! You can watch each video in the Deepen 2020 playlist on my SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list…

You can watch videos from my previous 33 Day Deepen series from 2019 here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list…

Energy exchange increases the receiving of healing! Money donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange to support me and SoulFullHeart to continue providing free offerings such as this video series. You can donate through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen or become a one-time or regular patreon donor: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

This video series is a useful introduction and bridge to the powerful SoulFullHeart quantum healing process and cutting-edge way of life experienced and offered through group calls/sessions/retreats and 1:1 sessions with Jelelle and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators. For more information, visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Our Individuation Anger At the Divine

By Raphael Awen

Underneath all of our anxiety, depression; underneath all of our motivation and lack of motivation; in the bedrock of our lives and in the bedrock of our Metasoul can be found anger at God for individuating us out of itself.

‘The me who may have agreed to the whole plan doesn’t feel like the me who has to patiently endure the veil, the slow path to remembrance, and the boredom of something missing, something so deeply lost’ was the voice that came forward this week, followed quickly by another voice that said ‘but I can’t be angry at God! God is our only hope of return’.

I had quite a dam of tears break free right then, feeling compassion for the parts of me and my Metasoul feeling this bedrock underneath all the dramas of this life, especially as and triggered by new dramas that are wanting to unfold.

These past few weeks, I’ve been given to feeling the invitation to return to being in the moment; feeling how and when I’m not in the moment, etc. This awareness of this ‘soul fear/anger of individuation from the divine’ that I’m writing about today really speaks to why we avoid the moment. The moment contains this access to what’s real inside of us. Our Gatekeeper aspect of us has been convicted that we couldn’t handle this awareness, that feeling this fear would short circuit us or cause us to abandon our misssion, suicide (which as the gods we are is actually, a ‘deicide – killing god’).

Our conscious selves have lived in a kind of militaristic compartmentalized hierarchy world of only knowing what we need to know to do our part, while other ‘commander’ aspects of our being hold a vastly larger overview of our soul purpose, our mission, our origin and our destination. We are invited now as the time has come to bridge these compartments and to feel the larger reasons and realities for our being. This sheds much light on the persistent wounding patterns playing out in parts of us this life.

How do we do this?

I believe we do this most simply and most profoundly by simply being willing and humble to feel all there is to feel. The rest is built in – the timing, the pieces, the resources, the relationships that come and go, the life changes. Like the bodies autonomic function, we don’t need to concern ourselves with how to breathe or how to get our heart to function. It just does, providing we remain ‘opted in’ to life. Opting in to your emotional body is a choice that more and more people are awakening to. The healing that occurs from this willingness to feel never ceases to amaze me.

Much love,

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com/sessions

Please check us out the link above if SoulFullHeart feels like a going on place for your healing journey. We have a free intro session available. Our website, YouTube channel and blog offers a ton of goods about this emotional body awakening that you can explore for free.

Photo yesterday of our first snowfall this winter.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our Patreon Page to send us love in the form of money: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart 🙂

My Nomadic Journey W/My Soul Mate Begins In Avalon

By Jelelle Awen

After years of envisioning, teleporting, and ‘visiting’ in the astral, I am finally headed to Glastonbury/Avalon in the physical with my beloved soul mate! Yesterday, Raphael and I booked a month’s stay in a place near-ish Glastonbury, about 30 minutes away in the countryside, for this May. We’ll be purchasing our plane tickets and rental car soon, yet getting a place early felt important to align our intentions with reality.

Glastonbury, which in a fourth dimensional space is one of my soul’s homes, has been calling me since I first read Mists Of Avalon and began connecting with my Avalonian Metasoul /deep soul sister aspect Morra during meditation journeys there. It has been clear to me that I need to be there in the physical for a phase of time to ground in the karmic healing I’ve been doing into the physical space and places where so much happened. And, also to serve those that might be drawn to join us in whatever arises for SoulFullHeart groups there too.

This is the first landing place of what we are feeling to be a ‘second honeymoon’ adventure for Raphael and I. We are feeling a call to leave Canada and be mostly alone together in this next phase after living in community for many years. We are drawn to spend time in the UK (on the coast as well, in Scotland, Wales, etc.) and also in France, Greece, Italy, and more. The openness feeling of it, the unknown, following the call of our souls and the Divine, the simplicity of letting go of a ‘set’ home is something I have wanted to do my whole life, yet, felt so strongly the call to create a community too. It feels like the community will form organically when it is time as it is what my soul most knows how to do and how to live.

During this phase, Raphael and I will continue to hold 1:1 sessions over Zoom and in person too for those who want to visit us wherever we are. Sessions, group calls, events, book sales and donations will be our main livelihood as well so your ongoing support is so wonderful! And, we’ll also be offering virtual gatherings with our first one March 20-23 with more details about that coming soon. This virtual one will replace our in-person gathering here in Victoria that we had planned to do.

My sense is that this journeying will expand my range, move me out of any remaining comfort zones and serve as a constant and gentle reminder that ‘home’ is truly found from within. ~

Love,
Jelelle Awen
More information about sessions, future events, etc. at soulfullheartwayoflife.com

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Photo of the Tor in Glastonbury during the recent full moon is by https://www.facebook.com/artofeloquencephotography/?tn-str=k*F&hc_location=group_dialog

Letting Go Of Community To Find It Anew Inside And Out

Hello, everyone. It has been some time since I have written a post due to a lot of inner processing since the New Year. I have been met with an awareness of myself that has been subconscious, and even unconscious to some degree, in my relationship to being in deep intimate community. I have been writing about this a lot as it has been my main focus since 11/11.

I have projected a lot of my own wounding onto those that are closest to me that have created an unfortunate dynamic that has been underground inside me for some time. I have recognized my own tendencies to repress some things that have needed air and they have just built up over time. In unpacking these suppressed realities and parts of me, I have found that I am in deep need of catching up to who I authentically am as a healer, leader, and in service to the Divine.

This has felt like a last gasp of my ego coming to the surface in many ways and I have recognized that they best way for me to truly reset this dynamic is to remove myself from the SoulFullHeart community as a member and a facilitator. It is how I can have these parts of me fully land in me fully and to see and feel community in a brand new light. Sometimes we need to step outside of something in order to let it in in a deeper and expanded way.

I have had a lot of amazing memories with everyone in SFH, and that makes it all the harder to let go. Yet this feel like a necessary journey for me as a man and as a leader. I need to find my soul and heart voice and hold that with integrity in relationship to others, especially as intimate as we have all been the past seven years.

I know this comes on the heels of my last post about soul family, which I still hold as true, but it was a bit premature for me to post it as we were all still in processing together about these intimacy dynamics. I have removed it since for that reason. I still hold everyone as soul family. It is for this reason that I am doing this. Out of respect for them, my parts, and my growth.

I will be looking to move to the Seattle area soon and start to go deeper into my BEing and my human heart. I have a lot to reflect on and a lot to share along the way as that feels appropriate to share. I feel so blessed to have been a part of this community with Jelelle, Raphael, Raianna, and Kalayna. They are my heroes and my guides. It is a very sobering and humble time for me and that brings with it a lot more reverence and gratitude. I am aiming to cultivate more of that in months to come.

Thank you all for your years of support and reflection to me as man coming into his power and his heart. It has been a huge gift to me that I will be taking with me. I feel many of you as part of that ‘family’ feeling. I have a lot of trust this will lead me to a brand new experience of myself and of the world around me. I look forward to digesting it all along the way however it is meant to serve.

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Gabriel Heartman is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc.

1:11 Codes Transmission Group Call ON January 11, 2020

A NEW decade and a NEW year with higher timeline energies available to be tuned into and brought in to your field and heart!

SoulFullHeart Co-Creators/Teachers/Facilitators/Sacred Union Mates Raphael and Jelelle Awen host this monthly virtual SoulFullHeart group call over Zoom to provide a bridge to the 1:11 codes and your INtentions for 2020. INtentions are about an inward/out sense of what you want to shift, focus on, track and feel from within that then shifts your outer experience of life and manifestation.

The focus of this group on Saturday, January 11th, 2020 at 10:00am PDT is to share about the process of connecting to the 1/11 codes available on this day, continuing to digest the past experiences of your awakening, and align with higher frequency intentions for 2020.

We will also guide you in a deep, powerful meditative space to connect with the 1/11 codes, bringing your 3D self/Protector with us, and bridge to the 2020 quantum (higher frequency than collective consciousness) field as well.

This group transmission is open to the public. You can attend the group and/or receive the recording for an energy exchange of $15 CAD (about $11 USD). You can purchase the zoom link here to join us live (you can access a document with the zoom link on the ‘thank you’ page you receive after purchasing) for the transmission and receive the recording through your email: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/product-page/9-sacred-union-codes-group-transmission-jelelle-and-raphael-a

Or you can purchase it here through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen
and we will send you the zoom link via email.

You can receive these frequencies live with us (highly recommended) or take in the recording afterwards. If you attend the live group, you’ll have the opportunity to share with us what you experienced during the transmission and receive feedback/next steps of integration from them. Group will last a max of two hours depending on those that want to share their experiences and ask questions.

We recommend watching and engaging in this video before the transmission of Jelelle Awen connecting with the 1/11 codes last year: https://youtu.be/ClhBXTl112M

You can offer a donation of $15 CAD to receive the recording of the other previous group transmissions as well. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/grouptransmissions

Contact us here on FB or at soulfullhearts@gmail.com for more information.

Testimonials:

“I loved this call, the theme is such an interesting exploration I really enjoy the reflection of a decade ago.So much love was coming through!” Deva, group participant

“It’s always so magical and immensely uplifting how much love can be generated by a few people willing to witness and share with others from their authentic heart-space. And, speaking of space, thank you so much Jelelle and Raphael for holding the space so beautifully for all of us to also for your space-opening sharing Gabriel. I’m left feeling so grateful for all of you who were on the call and wish all of you blessings through the portal experience.” Dave, group participant

“So powerful and empowering. Thank you all for being a safe container for my process,” Alexis, group participant

Connect With Your Emotional Body Guided Meditation Video – Deepen 2020 W/Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

 

Connect With Your Emotional Body Guided Meditation – Video Three Deepen 2020

In this third video of my video series called Deepen 2020, I talk about the importance of connecting with your emotional body through accessing parts of yourself and digesting emotional traumas with them in a feeling-based way (not through mental analysis or bypassing with spiritual frequencies). I talk about how we are conditioned and trained to overly focus on the development of our mental bodies (and even our physical bodies and spiritual bodies) over our emotional body, which is often trailing behind in maturity, health and porosity/lightness. And that much of what we feel as ’emotions’ is actually reactions and off gassing from undigested traumas in our emotional bodies.

In the meditation, Mother Mary and Yeshua join us as Divine feminine and masculine energies that are very emotional body and heart-based in frequency and can hold space for emotional digestion. Your Inner Protector is invited as well and we journey to connect with your emotional body, as represented in visualization as a river. You are invited to see and feel how your emotional body river is right now and to wade into it…bringing healing energies with you.

Thank you for joining me in this video….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

You can watch each video in the Deepen 2020 playlist on my SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

You can watch videos from my previous 33 Day Deepen series from 2019 here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

Energy exchange increases the receiving of healing! Money donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange to support me and SoulFullHeart to continue providing free offerings such as this video series. You can donate through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen or become a one-time or regular patreon donor: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

This video series is a useful introduction and bridge to the powerful SoulFullHeart quantum healing process and cutting-edge way of life experienced and offered through group calls/sessions/retreats and 1:1 sessions with Jelelle and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators. For more information, visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

Bringing Light and Love To The Shadow Inside And In Your Soul

By Jelelle Awen

What is in my heart today are the lost ones, the ones called ‘dark’, the ones called ‘crazy’. The ones forgotten in the din and busyness of 3D life. The ones who don’t know how to play the ‘game’ or how to ‘get ahead’. The ones so sensitive that their hearts seem to burst and break with every injustice and abuse.

These ones live inside of you. They take the form and shape of your Inner Teenager. Your Inner Child. Your Inner Punisher. Your Inner Protector. Your Gatekeeper. Aspects from other timelines and lifetimes too.

They are beyond shape and age and time too. Their energies are so often stuck in a looping pattern of trauma, like a suffering-based Ground Hog’s Day that can never seem to end. They are beyond time in that the traumas are happening over and over…not in the ‘past’.

They become these traumas and cannot seem to escape from the aftermath of them…no matter how much conscious ‘work’ is done to heal from these situations. That is why so often you can feel a trailing edge emotional reactivity and wounding that still lingers on no matter how many spiritual awakening and bliss/Oneness/Kundalini experiences that you have.

They are sometimes soul fragments (Metasoul aspects) from other lifetimes who are in more intense circumstances than your current one. They are repeating out soul patterns of experiencing abuse, persecution, being both the victim and the perpetuator.

When you access and connect to these hidden ones directly inside yourself and in your soul with the support of the Divine, they can start to see that there IS a reality outside of the pain path they have known. As they feel YOU come into their world with compassionate curiosity, these parts of you can start to realize that they are not wrong, crazy, or dark at all. Yet, rather, they have often absorbed these energies from others in an effort to transmute them in order to get more love.

This is the way of the empath and sensitive healer soul…and it is often a painful way until the lessons are learned of boundaries that come from self love and self worth. As you feel all these sensitive and empathic parts of yourself, you also open up to the shadow ones that cause the recapitulation of abuse and judgement and even narcissistic pattern behavior too. As you love even the narcissist INSIDE, you provide relief to all parts of yourself and free up the gifts that these parts hold for you as they integrate.

These lost ones become found under the love of your beaming heart. These dark ones become light in response to your compassionate soul. These crazy ones become sane in relationship to your grounded sanity. I have witness this transformation take place over and over again in myself and many others….all made possible by love being directly offered to the parts that MOST need it.

This self love process is natural, organic, and ingrained in us as sparks of the Divine. The discovery is held with MUCH love by the Divine Mother and Father as we remember and BEcome the Divine essence of love in wholeness again!

Here is more about parts/Metasoul aspects: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Here are many guided meditation videos to assist you in connecting to these parts: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLiLpw1qSOmQE-tsqhGSAD3

Jelelle Awen
1:1 sessions available with me over zoom for women to feel and heal these precious parts of your self and soul for $100 CAD (about $77 USD) for 90 very FULL minutes! More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Jelelle Awen is Co-Creator/Teacher/Group Facilitator/Ambassador of SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about  1:1 individual sessions with her for women and with other SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group calls, writings/books, and videos, visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

2019 Death/Rebirth Passage Opens Up To A 2020 New Dawn: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Dec. 30, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week. Go read it here!

Go here to subscribe to receive these in your email inbox EVERY Saturday!

In this week’s Museletter, we feature a digestion by Jelelle Awen of the death and rebirth energy coming in with the new year. Many relationships, jobs, etc are coming to and end as the new 2020 higher timeline comes in:

“Three days into 2020 already and it does feel like we are on moving to the ‘other side’ of this intense pressurization and death/rebirth passage. The other side is not completely free of angst, hurt, growth, and feeling necessary darkness/shadow. Yet, there is a sense of this ‘New Dawn of A New Decade’ energy holding the bigger space for it.”

There are also some new writings this week from Jelelle and Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman. These include personal proess updates by Gabriel, energy updates and New Year gratitiude by Jelelle and inspirational digestions by Raphael.

SoulFullHeart Facilitator Raphael Awen continues his daily video series titled “Alive” in which he shares vulnerably and on a new topic each day. You can watch these on his Facebook page or our YouTube channel.

Jelelle Awen begins her own video series “Deepen 2020”. This series will be offered on an arising basis, rather than every day for a set period of time, and will be responsive to current events/cosmic energies/personal & collective process, etc. Every Deepen 2020 video will offer a teaching and a guided meditation. You can watch these on her Facebook page or our YouTube channel.

You can watch all podcast episodes on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel or listen to the audio on the SoulFullHeart Soundcloud channel or iTunes channel.

Jelelle Awen is leading her next monthly virtual women’s group called Sacred Arising Feminine Exploration (SAFE) on: Sunday, January 26th at 10:00am PDT over Zoom She will teach about navigating relationships with mates, birth family and friends during your awakening process as a woman: https://www.facebook.com/events/1064404573895702/

Raphael and Jelelle will be co-leading their next monthly group transmission over Zoom on Saturday, January 11th PDT. This group is about the process of connecting to the 1/11 codes available on this day, continuing to digest the past experiences of your awakening, and align with higher frequency intentions for 2020. More information here to join them or receive the recording: https://www.facebook.com/events/777180949450667/

Our next local event is our Four Day March Equinox Gathering from March 20-23rd. This four day gathering offers the opportunity to immerse into your soul and heart realities in a deep, powerful, and transmutational way. For more information go to: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/gatherings

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Raphael and Gabriel, SoulFullHeart Facilitators for men and women, are now offering FREE 30-45 minute intro calls over Zoom to see how the SFH process and ongoing 1:1 sessions may support you on your healing and Ascension journey. Jelelle Awen is now working with women new to the SoulFullHeart process in 1:1 bridging sessions. More info here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! You can become a patron of SoulFullHeart through a one-time or monthly donation via our patreon page.

Check out the latest Museletter here

 

Your Pain As A Portal W/Your Inner Protector Guided Meditation – Video Two Deepen 2020 Series W/Jelelle Awen

By Jelelle Awen

In this second video of my video series called Deepen 2020, I (Jelelle Awen, SoulFullHeart Teacher/Facilitator) explore how your pain/suffering can become an important portal to self and soul discovery. I talk about how connecting with parts of the self from this life (such as your Inner Protector, Inner Child, Inner Teenager, and more) gives you access to your pain and the discovery of the trauma experience that is causing it. Exploration on a soul level with your Gatekeeper (guardian of your veil of amnesia) and with Metasoul aspects (from other lifetimes) reveals how your current/local pain connects to soul patterns on a quantum level.

In the meditation, we connect with your essence in the moment as represented by a castle and with your Inner Protector. I give you some questions to ask your Protector about their pain, your pain, etc. to begin an inner negotiation ground to open up your pain as a portal, not just to be ‘fixed’ or ‘transcended.’ A beautiful sun ray came through into the room as I was connected to Archangel Michael as a support for your Protector!

Thank you for joining me in this video….as we move into Deepening energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! You can watch each video in the Deepen 2020 playlist on my SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube Channel here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLjwm17eBBTRhE3dbezYJdu

You can watch videos from my previous 33 Day Deepen series from 2019 here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvLiLpw1qSOmQE-tsqhGSAD3

Energy exchange increases the receiving of healing! Money donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange to support me and SoulFullHeart to continue providing free offerings such as this video series. You can donate through paypal: paypal.me/jelelleawen or become a one-time or regular patreon donor: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

This video series is a useful introduction and bridge to the powerful SoulFullHeart quantum healing process and cutting-edge way of life experienced and offered through group calls/sessions/retreats and 1:1 sessions with Jelelle and other SoulFullHeart Facilitators. For more information, visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com.