SoulFullHeart Co-Founder, Facilitator, Teacher, and WayShower, Kalayna Colibri, held a live stream on June 5th, 2018 to share about her personal process with feeling her Inner Masculine parts and invite you to begin feeling your own, as a man or a woman. She also leads a short guided meditation to meet your Inner Masculine in whatever form or energy he is ready to be seen by you in, and answers some questions about the process of feeling your Inner Masculine.
This process is one of feeling the different ways in which your conditioning from the predominantly patriarchal culture you’ve grown up in has expressed in your life, often in strong suppression of your Inner Feminine, whether you are a man or a woman. This means suppression of your emotionality, of emotions being OK, of flowing with life without needing to try and control outcomes or only a very linear sense of how life should be or should go. The Inner Masculine expresses in the form of many different parts of you, including typically the Inner Protector, especially as a first pathway into this aspect of your being. The Inner Masculine is meant to be negotiated with though, not overridden or ‘fought’ with. There is plenty of need inside of you for the Masculine, especially in an inner Sacred Union experience with your Feminine.
For more on the Inner Masculine, parts, and Metasoul Aspects too, we have much writing on this blog! You can also visit this page on the SoulFullHeart website: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts
Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 35, emoto-spiritual teacher, WayShower, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
by Kalayna Colibri
Messages of being a warrior, how to stand up to men… conditioning around fighting, especially for our equality, in a world that seems to want anything but. Over-expressing our sexuality in an unemotional or emotionally immature way, or choosing to deny its presence altogether… there is so much templating going on, so many living examples of how to become a matriarch – strong, unsentimental, yet very often unfeeling too. All of this is an expression of the pain and wounds inflicted by a patriarchal culture, yes, and it is all a reflection of how a part of each of us has chosen to be and act in reaction to it. As a collective, modern womanhood has successfully buried what it means to be soft and still, especially as the Inner Matriarch, who is often also the Inner Mother, typically has never been offered a sense of what healthy womanhood is or could be, and thus wants to believe that softness is weakness, the mind and body are ultimately what matter over the heart, and that femininity means building a self-image of femininity that is often depicted in ways that at the core, are actually another expression of the wounded masculine, but with a feminine face.
The Inner Matriarch forms inside of you, following your nearest feminine conditioning while growing up, passed down by your mother or another female caregiver. Even if the influence seems subtle, it is likely working inside of you in many ways, including how you express or choose not to express your sexuality, how you feel about your gender, how you feel about and relate to men and other women as well, and how you navigate many other aspects of your life too. The Inner Matriarch, in this way, is also the Inner Mother – a significant part of any woman, that carries within her the legacy of the matriarchal lineage in her birth family, often to a large degree.
It can be challenging when living out this conditioning, to even realize this is what’s happening. So many patterns are being relived by you that your mother and likely her mother before her also lived out… or, this part of you could be trying to deliberately choose to do the opposite, yet somehow, there is something still playing out that runs parallel to the matrilineal conditioning and grooming. It’s nearly impossible to feel what this legacy really has held for this part of you until you have taken the space necessary from your own birth mother in order to truly feel it. The Inner Matriarch that could be leading much of your decision-making and relating to self and others in your life as you have known it so far, will blend into the tapestry woven by the other women in influence in your birth family and sometimes also in your group of friends. This is why the advocacy for space and going inward is so invaluable.
The Inner Matriarch is often a way in which the pervasive patriarchal culture gets to live on… she has had to become the way she is in order to stand up to and survive in this environment, or so she has been so deeply conditioned to believe. It takes more than the ‘inner strength’ of any female warrior archetype… it takes the strength of vulnerably feeling where the damage and hurt have been inflicted, bringing it back inward into your heart, and letting feeling waves in. It takes the courage to take the next step to even acknowledge this part of you, to feel and own the conditioning she has had and needed for so long, and to let in that something new could arise. The true feminine arising is a mystery wrapped in an enigma at times, with a soft touch that can also challenge and set boundaries as needed, without nastiness, pettiness or cruelty and without an all-out suppression of inner truth on the flipside of that.
There is a balance that can be lived into, where the rose of feminity can wrap around a healthy, vulnerable spine made of self-love and worth, coupled with a healing and humbled heart that now gets to lead the way… and this is what is offered as the Inner Mother and Matriarch gets felt and begins to heal from the long, long road she has been walking for so long, softening into the frequencies of a Sacred Queen. This is also what opens out the possibility of a nourishing Sacred Union romance with frequencies of heart, body and soul resonance that are nearly impossible to feel with the intensity of a wounded Inner Matriarch expressing predominantly in your life. There is much to go into and feel with her, yet it is all worth it as you begin to realize what your own version of the authentic and ever-arising feminine self is and could become as you move into more and more healing on all levels of your being. ❤
For more information about going into your own SoulFullHeart process and having space held for this part and other parts of you, please visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sfhprocess. We would love to serve love with you on your own journey into your deepest healing possibilities and timelines…. ❤
Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess. Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.
By Jelelle Awen
Here is the recording of our wonderful, touching AND powerful women’s SoulFullHeart call on Saturday! I offer (with contributions from SFH FacilitatorKalayna Colibri) about how masculine frequencies become ingrained and solidified into stuck energies (or what we call ‘parts’ or aspects’) of self as an adaptation to our environment, our families (esp. our birth mothers), our culture, etc. These masculine energies then protect our inner feminine from arising in full expression and bloom until it is ‘safe’ to do so through negotiation and healing with the Inner Protector part esp. Also, our soul gift expression and sense of soul purpose can be blocked or overly inhabited by masculine energies. Connection and surrogacies with Divine Feminine guides helps to open up this access for us and to our soul legacy or Metasoul line.
I also lead a guided meditation in this call to connect with your Emotional Body, symbolized by a river. You experience this river however you are meant to and are invited to submerge in it as well, feeling whatever feelings come up, visions, images, messages, etc. You also connect with your Inner Protector, the guard of your emotional body and inner feminine, to begin the negotiation with this energy that allows more access to both.
There are also personal sharings from two women who are currently engaged in the SoulFullHeart process through regular sessions with me, which you can read more about here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions. I feel so grateful to include their sharings as they offer so vulnerably and genuinely what their experience is with their emotional bodies and their Inner Protectors from a place of deepening into the process.
If you would like to join us for our next group call, we are hosting one on saturday with ALL of us and for women AND men. Raphael Awen and I will be teaching more about the SoulFullHeart perspective, process, community, and way of life as it connects to the overall ascension process, emotional body awakening and healing, sacred union, sacred masculine and feminine expression, body health, etc. We will be coleading a guided meditation as well to connect with Divine Guides and your Inner Protector – to start that connection or to deepen it. Go here for more information about joining us after offering at $11 min. donation:https://www.facebook.com/events/1888602498020451
The next women’s call is July 15th, if you would like to join us! Go to soulfullheartwayoflife.com/groupcalls or https://www.facebook.com/events/470353563318653
Jelelle Awen is an Emoto-Spiritual Teacher, Sacred Feminine and Sacred Union Facilitator, Soul Scribe, waySHOWer, and co-creator and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is author of Sacred Human, Arising Wonder: Ascension Through Integration Of Your Emotional Body With Your Spirituality and Keep Waking Up! Awakening Journeys To Avalon And Beyond .
Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.