Let’s Take The 12/12 Portal To Golden Earth: Alive Daily Video Series | Raphael Awen

By Raphael Awen

Lets take the 12/12 portal together for a guided journey to Golden Earth, taking along with you the part of you that needs this journey.

The ticket price is your presence live or via the recording. Total travel time – just under 15 minutes. Current weather conditions are just gorgeous.

3 things:

Our Podcast Links are here (next one is Jelelle and I sharing our story how we met): https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/podcasts

Our next group transmission and guided meditation – Digesting The Last Decade/Prep For 2020 Group Transmission info is here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/grouptransmissions

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Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our Patreon Page to send us love in the form of money: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart πŸ™‚

The Need To Be Loved: Alive Daily Video Series | Raphael Awen

By Raphael Awen

In today’s live, Raphael explores our common denominator of the need for love, how that begins with needs for love with others and how we are invited to bring that into love with ourselves – the only love that can never go away.

Here are a few promised links from today’s Live: Our Podcast Links are here (next one is Jelelle and I sharing our story how we met): https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/podcasts

Our next group transmission – December 14 – Digesting The Last Decade/Prep For 2020 Group Transmission info is here: https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/grouptransmissions

Become a one-time or monthly donor and patron to support SoulFullHeart and our expression through videos, writings, and more! https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our Patreon Page to send us love in the form of money: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart πŸ™‚

Launch And Intention: Alive Daily Video Series | Raphael Awen (Video)

By Raphael Awen

Alive Daily with meΒ Raphael AwenΒ – join me for this intention sharing Live as I share my desires and intention to launch a daily live video – real time, real vulnerability, real desire…what is calling you as we launch into the new decade and the next seven year cycle?

In this video, I share my intention to launch a daily live video series, at 6am PST, (Vancouver Time) each day.

I see this ongoing series being about feeling things together in real time, about what’s going on in your and my world. How are we transitioning to the new arising world we know in our hearts is possible.

I’ve long known I was called to be more outed, more transparent, more real in sharing what I’m here to share, but wrestled with parts of me and aspects of my Metasoul that were reticent to serve, feeling where in other timelines service and expansion went sideways and even ended in great destruction. This left me very intuitive about what I would or wouldn’t participate in, not so much from a judgmental place, as much as I simply couldn’t get excited about, sadly so, (and still can’t) anything that feels like it isn’t transparent, like something is being hidden.

I’ve known I was called to lead something knew, especially as I couldn’t find what my soul longed for, but found this daunting, and tried hard to find community that I could shine my light within, rather than having to lead or initiate the community. The time stamp on that effort expired whenΒ Jelelle AwenΒ and I became a couple, at the same time we were expelled from what felt like a soul family community. Jelelle’s leadership and vision in creating SoulFullHeart Way Of Life, was something I readily gave myself to, but also still played β€˜smaller than’ within somehow. While being called a cocreator, there have been numerous ways Jelelle has simply been ahead of me in her focus, clarity and energy to lead. It’s been a great playground to exercise my gifts and grow in, but now I find myself reaching a tipping point of resolution that I’m being invited into my own fuller leadership, still very much in the gift of what she and we have led, but with something resolving around this reticence – an owning, a claiming of my own heart and soul gifts; a more formal acceptance of the call to serve. It’s always an ongoing thing of course, but this feels like a tipping point, a long desired and foreseen tipping point of entering a new phase. Time will tell.

I said all of that to invite you to join me in this new intention, finding where it mirrors what’s moving in your own call to leadership and profound reconciliation with yourself, expressing within and without. I would be so honoured to be a part of your arising fulfillment and deepening into love and life and service.

I welcome your thoughts, feelings, encouragements, questions and dialogue. If I miss comments or questions during a given Live, I will respond in the comments or respond Live in the day following.

Much love,
Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our Patreon Page to send us love in the form of money: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart πŸ™‚

Grand Finale Experiences Of 3D Energies: SoulFullHeart Weekly Museletter (Dec. 2, 2019)

It’s the release of our weekly Museletter! Offering ALL of our writings, videos, events, healing offerings, and audio blogs for the week.Β Go read it here!

Go hereΒ to subscribe to receive these in your email inbox EVERY Friday!

In this week’s Museletter, we feature an energy update from SoulFullHeart Facilitator Jelelle Awen that provides an invitation to feel the “grand finale” energy of a year, a seven year cycle and a decade ending:

“2020 is inviting us to move beyond survival and into thrival, as a collective and individually. The grand finale of surviving on fear fumes is the energies moving through now.”

There are some new audio blogs and writings this week from Jelelle and Raphael Awen and Gabriel. The writings include a process update from Gabriel as well as another energy update and session announcement from Jelelle. Raphael shares a video talking about our free intro calls.

The fourth episode of our SoulFullHeart Experience Podcast with Jelelle Awen and Gabriel Heartman about navigating life transitions, relationship completions, timeline collapses and other shifts is available. You can watch all podcast episodes on the SoulFullHeart Experience YouTube ChannelΒ or listen to the audio on theΒ SoulFullHeart Soundcloud channelΒ orΒ iTunes channel.

Raphael and Jelelle will be co-leading their next monthly group transmission over Zoom on Saturday, December 14th PDT. This group explores and offers sacred union codes within and with a mate and activations from Yeshua and Magdalene. More information here to join them or receive the recording:Β https://www.facebook.com/events/465469127414714/

Jelelle Awen is leading her next monthly virtual women’s group called Sacred Arising Feminine Exploration (SAFE) on Sunday, December 29 2019 at 10:00am PDT over Zoom She will continue to teach about the energies and frequencies offered by the Divine Mother. More information here: https://www.facebook.com/events/474843500044699/

For more information on these events, visit: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

Raphael and Gabriel, SoulFullHeart Facilitators for men and women, are now offering FREE 30-45 minute intro calls over Zoom to see how the SFH process and ongoing 1:1 sessions may support you on your healing and Ascension journey. Jelelle Awen is now working with women new to the SoulFullHeart process in 1:1 bridging sessions. More info here:Β soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

Thank you so much for your interest in and support of SoulFullHeart Way of Life! You can become a patron of SoulFullHeart through a one-time or monthly donation via ourΒ patreon page.Β 

Check out the latest MuseletterΒ here

In The Beginning Was A Story

By Raphael Awen

If a big part of your life feels boring, disengaged, blah, and nothing to write home about, then that’s what’s true to a part of you, but it’s so far from what’s true about you and your life.

Fused to this part of you, there isn’t any other truth. End of story.

However, in relationship with this part of you, where there is an emerging you differentiating from this beloved part of you, there is magical quest and journey to get to know and feel why a part of you would be closed down. Beginning of story.

This part of you has been off your conscious radar and has, in your absence, effectively taken your consciousness hostage. The words of your mouth are a dead give away. β€˜I’m so bored…’ β€˜I can’t figure out what’s going on.’ β€˜I need some excitement’. Here, there’s no movement. There’s no space for movement. β€˜It is what it is’, as parts of us like to say in resignation, furthering the spell they hold over our waking consciousness.

These parts of us know and have seen a whole lot more than our conscious mind can access. They have their own very valid reasons for setting up a non eventful and tamed existence inside of us. They’ve seen and experienced things that they prefer β€˜you’ remain asleep to. The boredom or shutdown has self loving reasons for being.

Awakening to this spell you’ve been held under having been lured so deeply into the cult of Single Personality Disorder, you now begin a subtle, but very profound shift and rumble through your consciousness, and consciousness itself, by changing the waveform frequency broadcast coming from your mouth.

Instead of β€˜I feel…’, it’s β€˜a part of me feels…’. Now, with curiosity as our personal redemption, we’re getting to the plot of unfolding and eventful story.

Right here and now, you’ve altered the course of your history and herstory into an alternative dimension.

Word is β€˜palabra’ in Spanish, and β€˜parabol’ in Latin from which we get parable, or story. In the beginning was the word, the logos, the story, and the story was god.

Your life is a creator story, that you create, and to change your story, it will involve something so simple as a choice of words, a choice of parable, new script and scriptures, a new parable that is the spark that ignites fires that consume entire domains.

Even if you’re wanting to light your fire in the dead of a sleepy long cold wet winter, this alteration to the articulation of the frequency broadcast system of your BEing will lead to the opening out of the space for you make a great leap in your waking consciousness to begin to bridge to this wider and larger self version of you. You may not be ready to burn down an entire world when what’s needed first is a fire sufficient to warm hands and heart, leading to one self loving and felt step at a time.

This new world already exists, just maybe not in your present waking consciousness yet. This is good news. Your words don’t actually need to make up something that doesn’t already exist. They only need to dial in a different frequency, that creates a very different spell, a different story, a different reality. It’s still β€˜a’ reality. None of us get to exit the realm of story itself, we only get to choose our story and change our story when and if we are ready to.

Part of me, once bored, now is really excited to get on with the journey before β€˜us’, as in the story before all the parts of me, as well as the story before all the parts of us in the collective. These parts of me have been bridged to and related to and negotiated with. These parts of me once bored and shutdown are now eager and ready to return to full adventure and let in the events that want to eventualize and actualize our deeper and onward journey into the more that awaits me, and us, and You.

Much love,

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com/sessions

Check out the link above for a free intro call to SoulFullHeart process…

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Into The Trauma, And Beyond!

By Raianna Shai

Much of spirituality and emotional healing is based on the healing of trauma. From this life, other lifetimes, and with galactic connections. This is probably some of the most important work we do in healing our wounding and growing closer to our essence. My recent process, however, has helped me realize that there IS healing that exists beyond the trauma.

In my most recent session I connected with both my inner protector and a new gatekeeper. My inner protector is the part of me that helps get me through daily life. He is the one that can hold very 3D and physical/mental tasks. My gatekeeper, on the other hand, is the guide I can lean into when it comes to opening out my soul connections and gifts.

As I felt my protector first, he was overwhelmed and trying so hard to deepen my process and make it more meaningful. But deepening my healing isn’t his responsibility. I haven’t signed up for much trauma this life and the metasoul healing I’ve done so far has healed almost all of what I have signed up for. So this part’s job has shifted massively from protecting to resting and trusting.

This new gatekeeper, who I am calling Damien, is a much higher frequency and has the key to unlocking the rest of my soul that goes beyond the trauma. He can show me the gifts, the positive experiences, the magical and deep journeys that allow for more love and cohesion between all aspects of myself.

Going through this process has helped me realize that we don’t just have to be here for trauma healing. We can go beyond – deeper into who we want to be and what we want to build for ourselves. We can grow closer and closer to essence until maybe we are even done coming back as human.

In order to get to this place we must trudge through muddy waters, deconstruct all that we have believed to be true about ourselves, love who are parts once were and dream about who we want to be. We must find the worth, do the work and stay in the room with the darkest and most difficult parts of us. But each ounce of love we take in, each connection to the Divine and each step towards forgiveness brings us through our trauma and into the β€œbeyond”.

Beyond self consciousness, beyond fear, beyond anger, beyond anxiety and depression, even beyond much self awareness at all. The β€œbeyond” to me is pure love, essence, passion and service.

*****

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Healing,Β a healing process and paradigm offering New Gaia Ascension frequencies to transmute trauma into love on emotional/spiritual/physical levels. For more information about free intro calls and 1:1 individual sessions with SoulFullHeart Facilitators, virtual group transmissions, four day gatherings in Victoria, BC, writings/books, and videos, visitΒ soulfullheartwayoflife.com.

 

Love Has Places To Go In You That It Can’t Find Anywhere Else

By Raphael Awen

We couldn’t actually know love were it not for what feels like β€˜not love’. We couldn’t know break through were it not for resistance. We couldn’t know joy were it not for sorrow.

Both polarities are needed and both are sacred. The Divine itself is living out these discoveries through us. Love has places to go in you, that it can’t find anywhere else.

The name of the game however is to not suffer over what we could relate to as our necessary suffering in this polarity dynamic we find ourselves in. How could we truly give love to all parts of ourselves who are struggling to find their way through the polarity?

Someone who seems naturally buoyant and happy all the time can be about that they ARE actually in a healthy flow state, OR it could be about parts of them using buoyancy like a drug used to not feel other aspects of their inner polarity that is pressing in on them, wanting to be felt. It’s pretty easy to tell genuine joy over this kind of β€˜medicative’ happiness.

Another thing that surprises me is that I’ve discovered that genuine spiritual attainments are not necessarily one and the same with genuine joy in love and life. All too often, some genuine spiritual attainment or expanded state of consciousness can be detrimental to a person’s true fulfillment in relationships. So many spiritual seeker type people who’ve been around the block with spiritual teachers can attest to this dynamic in spiritual teachers. Does this mean they are fakes, or does it simply mean they have a lopsided awakening that’s awaiting some further awakening? My sense for all of us is that it’s the latter. We’re all in a never ending evolution.

If that’s true, then there really is a level playing field where our shared common denominator is this reverence for, and humility before, love’s ongoing unfolding – in polarity. We’re all in this together, yet as individuals. One person being β€˜ahead’ is only a storehouse placeholder that belongs to all. Your adoration of someone who embodies a true spiritual attainment is actually being afforded a recognition of your future self. You get to download that attainment as you’re ready too, as your system can handle it.

Life – it’s in you to live!

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com/sessions

I offer a free intro call for 45 minutes or so to discuss what working in ongoing sessions space with me could look and feel like for you and for where you’re at. There’s more info at the link above. If this interests you, I’d love to hear from you.

Recent Photo above by me! (I so love the fall season of death and rebirth AND I also find that I especially need to feel the parts of me in reaction to the intensity of the death and rebirth season, hence the grounding in nature)

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Playing The Game of Hide and Seek

By Raphael Awen

In your seeking and awakening journey, a surprising finding occurs that ripples through your entire being.

You come to realize that not only are you the one with the desire to expand, to grow, to discover, to awaken, but that you are also the one responsible for your hiding and sleeping.

I believe that as a soul journeying through the illusion of time, you hid (past tense) your essence, so that you could rediscover (present tense) this essence and go on to become (future tense) something that you already were and never actually lost.

You can see this dynamic looking at your life journey so far, you can see it when looking at what you know as your soul journey. You can see it when you look at how you are journeying through a single day, or a single moment.

It’s like I’m in the boat, tossed to and fro on the stormy seas, only to realize that this grand tempest is inside of a teapot with none but my own hand on the handle.

But what then would be the purpose of all the dharma, the drama, and the trauma along the way? This is the bigger quest and question we are left with on the other side of this pivotal discovery, that I fear we best not be too quick to satisfy the quest of which with short pat answers lest we fall back asleep.

My deepest suspicion so far in an attempt to respond to this quest is that it has something to do with beginning to feel the edges of an awe and wonder that arises as I cycle in this phasing in and out of this ongoing forgetting and remembering.

Could it be that this is the process whereby infinite love is coming to know itself, through me and my up till now perceived β€˜insignificant’ life?

And just how would this infinite love want to come to know itself through such an arrangement?

I believe that infinite love comes to know itself (satisfy its quest) in any moment that you as a conscious being reach out in love to another conscious being. We could call this making love in the truest sense of the phrase, as in how β€˜Adam knew Eve’ in the biblical sense. This is love having a β€˜from’ and a β€˜to’ transaction that it couldn’t have were it not for a forgetting and a remembering. Both are equally necessary and both are equally sacred, and what they make for is something we call process. Love forgot (gave up something) in order to remember (bring back into membership). Love stepped out of itself in order to step back into itself.

And what β€˜other’ conscious being would be the best one to reach out to? Your children, your friend, your mate, your siblings, or humanity in general possibly? These are β€˜others’ right?

But wait, you’ve skipped over you. You are full of others awaiting your lovemaking. Your Inner Protector has been largely living your life as you in this absence of your now presenting higher self on the scene. You Inner Child who so wants to come back out to re-in-form your world with play awaits your outreach. Your Inner Teenager who wreaks havoc in your world from time to time only wants your attention in exchange for an energy source you’ve truly been missing.

Skipping over these others from within to reach out to the others without would have been deemed selfless up till now. Now, however, we are all seeing the falseness of attempting to give love to an other that we haven’t first given to ourselves – the many selves that live in our psyche and soul consciousness.

You get to make love with yourself. Truly, magically, profoundly. It’s about coming to terms in ongoing process and negotiation with a limitless world. You didn’t come here to awaken in a single moment. You came here to feel process, to feel each moment of the journey.

You have everything you need and the only valid teacher now is the one who helps you realize you need nothing. The phase of our codependence on teachers and belief systems, was necessary, but is now coming to a close for many souls who are at this stage in their process of coming to terms with being infinite love.

The love wants to flow and dance. Let it begin with you.

Raphael Awen
Soulfullheartwayoflife.Com/sessions

I’d love to help you find your inner guidance if who I am and what I offer calls to you. The link above will take you to more in-form-ation. πŸ™‚

Photo courtesy of https://unsplash.com/@elijahdhiett

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.  Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. Visit our donations page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Connecting With The You Who Can Feel You Reacting

By Raphael Awen

There’s you having a reaction with no one home to feel you having the reaction. You’ve simply become the reaction without awareness or consciousness of the reaction.

Then there’s you observing the you that’s having a reaction. Conscious awareness is being brought to the reaction. An aware you is showing up to take responsibility. That’s a big step ahead in growth for sure, but it’s also fraught with other reactions of a judgment and shame nature; an Inner Punisher showing up on the scene.

THEN, there’s a you who can feel and bring love and awareness to ALL of these states and phases of your consciousness evolution.

This higher self version of you can feel that you came here to have all of these stages, that you as well as your higher self needed this experience of both forgettance and remembrance. We chose a process of forgoing awareness as well as the entire process of returning to, and reigning in, full awareness.

Your reactions, along with your reactions to your reactivity, all the way to loving each and every one of them and especially the part of you having the experience is what you and I came here for.

Because we are both one and individual at the same time, whatever you figure out for yourself in awakening and remembering process is instantly downloaded into the one mind that we all share and made available more and more to those who are ready for and needing the download codes of what it is we are all growing into. This is where all purpose is sourced in. You get to play with whatever passion purpose expression you want to that is unique to you and part of the great remembering that we all share.

What are the big reactions that are moving through your life now?

Can you bring your awareness to them and feel any judgment reactions to the reactions?

Can you then show up with a curious and open heart to feel it all?

Would you be willing to get to intimately know and feel the parts of you that have lived your life as you up till now?

This is the new awakening in spirituality today. It’s no longer about becoming β€˜higher frequency’ without getting to know the part of you pushing for the higher frequency attainment. It’s no longer about attainment, but is more about reverence for the entire process; the fusion stage of simply being your reactions; the stage of dawning awareness of your reactions; the stage of cascading reactions to your awareness of your reactions; and then all the way to revering it all as your sacred path and choice – and in that reverence, setting out to become intimate with it all.

I’m in it. You’re in it. We’re all in it.

If I can help you go into your next choice and awareness points, I’d like to invite you to consider a free intro session to the SoulFullHeart process. If you ask for the free intro session, myself or Gabriel Heartman will send you three simple questions to respond to and a short guided meditation to meet your Inner Protector to engage in, and then from there, we’ll set up a time to have the intro together for 30-45 minutes over Zoom. We’ll spend that time together and then from there, you can decide if you’d like to have regular sessions in ongoing process together.

How does that sound?

******

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.Β  VisitΒ soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about sessions, events, videos, etc. VisitΒ our donations pageΒ to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings.

Anxiety: A Peek Into The SoulFullHeart Process

By Raianna Shai

A couple of nights ago, I experienced anxiety in a way that I hadn’t in quite a long time. One thing that was very different this time was simply my awareness of it. I never totally realized that I had quite a bit of anxiety in the past. I always thought that because it wasn’t inherently debilitating that I was just an overthinker.

But I feel that this experience is quite prevalent in most of us, and is a mix of different relationships between parts of us.

For myself, it felt like my inner child feeling scared of β€œgetting in trouble”. She wants so badly to love, feel joy and play in the beauty of life. But when things happen in my life that are more β€œadult” and difficult, my Protector will put her out front so that it’s harder for others to get mad at me. Who really wants to yell at a child?

My Inner Protector also has fear, for getting in trouble means he has somehow failed me. So he tends to try and avoid these situations as much as possible in order to protect my other parts such as my inner child.

Then my Inner Punisher comes into play by judging my Inner Child for getting something wrong in the first place. For he’s constantly looking for things that she could improve. When deep down, he really just judges himself for the way he feels he has to be.

All this to say that no matter how bad my anxiety or depression gets, the biggest thing that gets me through and allows me to grow from the situation is feeling the dynamics going on inside.

It’s different for everyone but what’s the same is that all of our parts ultimately want love and to be heard. So if we take the time and space (if we can) to get to know these parts of ourselves then MAYBE we can begin to draw these feelings and situations less and less.

Here is *sort of* a poem I wrote to illustrate the process I had that night!

β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”β€”-

Tears of hopeless frustration

Feeling lost in a sea of emotion

Stomach tense in fear and expectation

Anxiety takes hold with intense ferocity

Sleep is lost to the silence of the night

Tossing and turning with measured repetition

Then I remember the family inside of me

Waiting to be felt

Waiting to be heard and loved

β€œWhat can I do for you, my loves?”

β€œHow can I help?”

β€œI’m scared and just want to have joy”

Says the little one

β€œI fear failure, that I put you in danger”

Says the fierce protector

β€œI don’t like this, and I need to to fix it”

Says the punishing voice

β€œYou are all loved, supported and heard”

I say

β€œYou, little one, need not to worry of things in the adult world. You are the joy and love I need to tell my truth with compassion.”

β€œYou, my loving guard, need not to protect the others. I am here now, to hold the space with intention and strength.”

β€œYou, my precious critic, need not to judge yourself or others. You were needed once before, but now you may rest.”

And with that

The child tucked in

The protector at rest

The punisher soothed

I sleep in peace

*****

Raianna Shai is a SoulFullHeart facilitant and social media maven for SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit Β www.soulfullheartwayoflife.comΒ for more information about sessions, events, videos, community, etc.Β Return LOVE in money form:Β https://www.paypal.me/supportsoulfullheartΒ or visit our Patreon page to become a monthly supporter:Β https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.