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Energy Update: 1:11 Codes Initiate The Next Phases Of Your Ongoing Metamorphosis

Published on January 11, 2018January 11, 2018 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

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1:11 is HERE and the ‘pregame’ show of energies leading up to the ‘main event’ has been intense, to say the least. The energies have been ramping up starting at the beginning of the year on January 1st and continuing on through today. I’ve been offered by my guides that January is going to a mega month of both activating AND integrating Ascension energies….completing with another Supermoon Divine Feminine illumination at the end of the month. These energies are impacting those of us who track them and are sensitive to them AND, also, it is bringing an accelerated pace of illumination to the ongoing disclosure process of hidden shadow for collective consciousness. All tracks and rates and paces are important and sacred right now for EVERY soul; none better than the others, even if some of us have chosen to be at the front of the wave and help lead the way.

One of the interesting things for me (and maybe for you too) is that the more amplified the energies are, the less my linear mind can track, my brain goes good kind of fuzzy, and ‘loose mind’ is the ‘disorder’ of the day. I have been drawn to the beach for the last four days and the more codes I take in through sunlight, the more this effect is amplified for me. It has been difficult for me to do ‘basic’ things such as count change or deal with money at all (cannot remember the exchange rate here even after three years!) as money is feeling less and less ‘real’; remember basic language, even English!; track what I have said or not said or who I have told what to; recall what happened yesterday or even earlier that day; track time in a linear way!

I have learned to surrender to this altered-ness as an important aspect of the process and what is actually more real to our multidimensional self, more true to our nature as sacred humans. I am blessed to be in a community where I can ‘lean in’ to those with more mental facilities at times and everyone is wonderfully patient with me! I enjoy these states, honestly, as parts of me trust the process that is going on and have let go in many of ways of any self image around ‘having it altogether’. Being in this place makes it challenging to track these energies though and then try to describe them in words to share! It is SO worth it to try right now to communicate though, because it IS an important time to share, to serve, and to lead for those of us called to do and BE so.

The Metamorphosis video series that I’ve been doing every day since January 1st has been interesting to engage with as such strong energies come in. I just ‘show up’ for it and words seem to flow out. I can feel those of you who are taking the videos in, even though it will be in a ‘future’ now from when I record them. Most days I forget what I even said during the videos and have to listen to the recording again in order to write the description at the end of the day! I am getting much help from the higher dimensions to deliver and show up for these every day, it feels like, and I am very grateful for it! Somehow I am also able to hold sessions because it is service; it is important, and my heart is leading and holding the space there with women that I feel honored to serve love with.

It is occurring to me in this moment that these 1:11 codes are Metamorphosis codes. These codes are being offered to wake up the caterpillars that are TIRED of crawling and WANT to transform; those that WANT to go into a surrendered cocoon state and then bust their way out of it; those that WANT to FLY and arise into the place of BEcoming a butterfly. In a recent video, I used the analogy of the caterpillar to describe the 3D self; the cocooning state to describe the 4D self (including the ‘breaking out’ stage); and the butterfly state to describe the 5D self (the higher self consciousness coming into and integrating into the physical body). You can watch that video here: https://youtu.be/f-jVLpkU9LI

These 1:11 codes wake up the caterpillars AND they also seem to be supporting those of you in lingering in the cocoon phase too. You may be discovering reNEWED desire and corresponding conviction to break free from the previous cozy caves and necessary void spaces. Parts of you may be feeling frustration at what before felt comforting. You are SEEING that the cocoon is there and it is starting to feel limiting. Oh, it felt safe and good for a time, especially when so much of the caterpillar 3D life was being given up and lost and completed.

That cocoon has been made of all the things you have learned; the lessons you have bravely walked out; the tears you have shed. That cocoon protected you at times from receiving even more judgement from others still anchored to 3D and the hurt and shame that can come up in parts of you in reaction to the rejection of your NEW you, your ideas, your visions, your inspirations. You became your own landing place for all this instead and baked in your own energies, developing and cultivating an inner support system to replace the 3D one that no longer served you.

Time to break out, bust out, come free of the cocoons…these 1:11 codes seem to vibrate to this frequency of break out. This is the phase then of rebirth, as it feels like 2018 will offer all of us. Being reborn and RISKING to move into the NEW you by being vulnerable and sharing again; by claiming again; by desiring again; by trusting others again; by revealing yourself again. This time, though, you don’t have to wear the masks that you used to need. You don’t have to hide your authentic feelings or soul gifts or sensitivities to everything. Also, you can find and draw and ‘hang out’ with other butterflies. You find your tribe. You call your pack. You claim your community.

This really in so many ways has been the process for 2017 too. 2018 seems to be taking it to another level of MORE in order to reach MORE. It is about actually LIVING the New Earth Now existence that your soul kNOWS is possible…in ALL areas of your life and in as many moments as is possible. To be real. To be authentic. To feel. To love. And to fly more…because your wings are ready and the skies are clear for taking off and UP!!

Much LOVE to you on 1:11….Injoy the codes! I’ll be sharing a video later offering more about these codes and a guided meditation to connect with and receive them more. Here is a link to watch all the videos so far in the 33 Day series that started on January 1st: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

Jelelle Awen is Co-creator/Facilitator/Teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. She is a Soul Scribe and author of three books about Ascension, Divine Feminine and Masculine, emotional body integration through parts work, quantum healing through Metasoul Aspect connection, sacred union, light body transformation, and much more!

Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions and a free intro session, group calls, videos, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a monthly or one time money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Relating With Your Body During Ascension – Day 10: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 10, 2018 by Jelelle Awen1 Comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day Ten of my metamorphosis series, I talk about the physical body changes and adjustments coming in response to the ongoing activation and integration of energies during the ascension process. You may be experiencing this through a varied range of body symptoms that are felt to be connected to ascension. I offer a perspective on how to relate with these shiftings from a place of curiosity, empowerment, desire to feel the deeper reasons and sources beyond just ‘ascension symptoms.’

The process of upgrading and crystallization of our bodies, DNA, glands, every living cell IS a mega one. Navigating this process can be served by negotiation with parts of you that may be in resistant and have understandable fear of it. Bringing these higher frequency energies into the body and experiencing altered realities while in the body (and not just during NDEs or astral travel) is new, especially coming from this denser 3D ground for so long. Our bodies have been the necessarily densest aspects of our BEing, so they are constantly trying to ‘catch up’ with what is happening. And, 3D has conditioned us to perceive reality AS only our bodies and what our five senses can feel, touch, smell, hear, and see, so we have to overcome this conditioning and programming as well.

The crystallization of our bodies also brings us through an intense detox leading to purification process. Toxicities exist, again, in our every living cells and are being cleared and cleansed out from our entire 3D experience here. These toxicities also have an emotional component to them as well since the emotional body is woven in with the physical.

I offer a different framing around the ascension process connected to what we experience in our bodies. Asking questions from a ground of interest when experiencing ascension symptoms shifts the energy quite a bit. The key thing to examine when it comes to our bodies is how we and parts of us RELATE with our bodies. Our Inner Punishers can often be quite harsh and judgmental about our bodies and, therefore, have a punishing relationship with the ascension process connected to the body as well.

Here is the guided meditation that I mention offered by Mother Mary to sooth ascension body experiences: https://youtu.be/nkTbTJBBlHE

Thank you for joining me on this tenth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S7Pj3hPLsv0&list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at https://soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

Donations are so appreciated and received with gratitude as an energy exchange in the offering of this series for free through paypal: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/donations or the SoulFullHeart Patreon Page: https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/watch…

My new book Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension and the book I mention in this video Keep Waking Up! is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.

Sacred Union & Sexuality – Day 9: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 9, 2018January 9, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day Nine of my 33 Days Metamorphosis series, my beloved sacred union mate for almost ten years Raphael joins me to talk about sacred union and 5D relationships. Raphael shares about his previous life/relationship with his first marriage and feeling his whole life a desire and ache for deeper and more meaningful relationships.

He brings up his completion with his first marriage, plus leaving Christianity, and how difficult it was for parts of him to leave and complete it, yet, eventually he felt it was the best for both. He wrote about this process in his journaling series Journal To The Demiurge, which you can read here:https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/by…/journal-to-the-demiurge/

Raphael and I also talk about how the ground narrows in 3D relationships and eventually pops you out while in higher dimensional ones the ground deepens and expands. We discuss what a sacred union is from our perspective in SoulFullHeart which is transactability and nourishment on ALL grounds of mind, body, soul, and heart. We talk about how in many relationships there are parts of each partner that are ‘hooked up’ in the bond, which often flattens and neuters desire and sexuality.

Thank you for joining us on this ninth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphosis energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/watch…

My new book Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension and the book I mention in this video Keep Waking Up! is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.

Energy Update: 1/11 Portal Offers Self Loving Completions And Timeline Collapses

Published on January 9, 2018 by Jelelle Awen4 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Portals are starting to open in preparation for 1/11 coming up soon. You can see it in this photo that we took yesterday at the beach here and we are recognizing that the sun widens like this horizontally (looking like a space ship) when a portal is opening. As I have been tracking these cosmic Gateway and Portal openings for the last year especially, I can feel them now in my body, in my consciousness, in my heart…less and less now from tracking any kind of calendar or reading what others are sharing about them. Metatron and my other guides/aspects keep me in the loop on these events too with a gentle nudge to go take in the sun codes or open up to the portals and gateways during meditation.

Taking in the sun codes yesterday at the beach, I could feel them speaking to my skin, talking to my every living cell. The codes were reminders of the process, that it is ongoing…this Ascension…that it is an invitation to receive and respond to in every moment. These codes were activating ones to some degree and I felt altered afterwards. I am so often in an ‘altered state’ these days and it is getting more difficult for me to determine that as it is more the ‘normal’ than the ‘old normal’! If that sentence made sense to you, then you are ‘getting’ how beyond the mind’s tracking this process is!

There was a peacefulness in the codes too, a softness…it made us all blurry actually and we ‘passed out’ all five us lying in a row. We all felt afterwards that we had probably ‘group traveled’ somewhere in the astrals together, a trip to Golden Earth together where 3D really is left behind. The sounds of 3D fade away and blur away…this happens many times at the beach as it is a place where the ‘edges’ of consciousness dimensions overlap. It is at the beach where I most feel how the dimensional consciousness realities could split off from each other….3D separating into its own timeline reality and those of us in 4D and 5D and higher into ours.

As we go into this 1/11 portal, there is a feeling of truly leaving behind the old timelines and the previous 3D anchors. These timelines are wanting to collapse and maybe they already ARE for you or starting to. A timeline collapsing can feel like crisis or life changing events or live altering decisions. It can also feel like just ‘running out of gas’ on your old timeline as your tank is now empty to receive anymore of the old 3D fuel. Parts of you can no longer run on the fumes of the known and familiar.

What has previously been a struggle and a challenge and a contention can be soothed into resolution by these 1:11 codes if you let them in. Areas in your life that need it can be loved into completions if you are open to them. They offer a reminder to trust your Higher Self guidance, to trust your heart and what it wants, to trust your soul and what it kNOWs about WHY you are here and what your purpose is here. These codes can help with trust at that level AND can support parts of you that have difficulty with trust to move into those frequencies with you.

Tensions and pain may be coming up in your muscles especially as you adjust to these NEW codes and the NEW Earth life they are beaconing you toward. Parts of us energize in these muscles and the chakras associated with them as well. Especially in the head, neck, and shoulders. This is also where quite a bit of upgrading is happening as the pineal and pitutary glands crystalize, the throat, third eye and crown chakras all upgrade to more multidimensional. I am finding that a vinyassa flow yoga practice is helping alot to move these tensions and built up energy! We are all into Yoga with Adriene right now and her 30 day video series….a wonderful loving approach and grounded energy to breathe, stretch, love, and feel your body: https://www.youtube.com/user/yogawithadriene

These codes have a ‘feminine wrapper and buffer’ over them. The Divine Mother supports the INtegration of them with Her receiving energies. I’ll be sharing more about them and providing a meditation for you to receive a deeper activation during my 1/11 video, Day 11, in my 33 Day video series called Metamorphosis. You can view all eight videos that I’ve shared so far here: https://www.youtube.com/watch…

If it is cold and freezing where you are right now, you are welcome to take in these sun codes through the photo I shared here of them at the beach yesterday. You can teleport yourself to the beach, to the sun, to receive and let in. You can also take them in through meditation, asking to connect with them….you may even feel your skin ‘warming UP’ to receive them!

As we move closer to 1:11, the opportunities increase to let in guidance, get clarities about next steps, feel and respond to resonance. The opportunities for UNITY from within and with others continues to deepen, expand, and widen as we experience more New Earth in the Now!

Join Raphael and I, plus Gabriel and Kalayna, for our monthly group call this Saturday, January 13th at 11:11am CST in which MORE activation to New Earth energies is available and shared! More details here:https://www.facebook.com/events/1783574521666832/

Seeing Yourself As The Divine Does – Day 8: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 8, 2018 by Jelelle Awen1 Comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day Eight of my 33 Days Metamorphosis series, I share one of my most popular writings as offered from Metatron and the Divine:

I wish you could SEE yourself as I do. That you could SEE your light that wants to glow, show, come through every living cell. A star in human form, walking around star shine BEAMING, and star dust stuff in your every molecule of DNA.

I wish you could FEEL yourself as I can. That you could feel your precious human heart that is the JEWEL of your species, that which makes you a beacon in all the Universes. Every tear containing the codes to unlock compassion, gratitude, forgiveness, and empathy. So many levels and layers to each feeling!

I wish you could BE yourself as I perceive you to BE. That you could be authentic without hiding, conforming, shrinking, or denying to anyone or anything. Your self consciousness or self judgement held by parts of you could be released and healed and your TRUE self FREE to BE in all moments.

I wish you could REMEMBER yourself as I remember you. That you could remember you are a reflection of Divine Source, that you ARE Infinite Love in human form. Your reclaiming of your birthright around this embodiment providing waves of trust and support as you undergo your journey of awakening and remembering.

I wish you could SERVE yourself as I serve you. That you could serve love TO yourself and all the parts of you that need your compassion, care, and re-parenting. That you could serve love to all the soul aspects from your Metasoul that are hurting, in trauma, suffering, all alone, existing in many timelines. ~

(You can read the rest here: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/i-wish-you-could-see-yours…/)

I talk about how this message is an invitation to your 5D Self to show up and see yourself as these higher dimensional BEings and the Divine does. This message is an invitation for you to share and serve love TO you and parts of you AND from that overflow, then, WITH others.

Parts of you start changing how they see themselves because of the mirror you show them, which is in more alignment with how the Divine sees you. I talk about the Inner Punisher part of you that may flatten desires, dreams, and filters your ability to see and feel your own bigness. This part is created due to our 3D culture that judges, contends, criticizes, and compares. Often the inner judging/punishing is a defense and protection that is going on inside of you and these energies are internalized to ‘put you down first’ before someone else can.

So much projection can be put onto God, the Divine, Angels, etc. that comes from a punishing energy inside that is projected onto the outside, saying that you need to be saved, redeemed, etc in order to be worthy of connection and access to these BEings. The message I’ve received and share here is about how big you really ARE, not broken, not needing fixing, and that the Divine wants to celebrate you remembering this. This message doesn’t have a punisher in it, doesn’t make parts of you feel shame; it is something that is based in love.

I also talk about transactabilty and relationality with the Divine and Guides and how much they want to ‘land’ and have their message go out. The gifts go both ways without anyone ‘losing, without a cost or with someone as the victim or ‘something bad’ happening. In 5D relationships, no one loses anymore and everyone (and every BEing) gains love!

Thank you for joining me on this eighth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog athttps://soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance.

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

My new book Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension and the book I mention in this video Keep Waking Up! is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.

Moving From Caterpillar To Cocoon To Butterfly – Day 7: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 7, 2018January 7, 2018 by Jelelle Awen1 Comment

By Jelelle Awen

I didn’t know this would be my topic today, but I had a lot of fun going full into a metaphor for the awakening process with the analogy of the caterpillar becoming a butterfly! In today’s video, Day Seven of my 33 Days Metamorphosis series, I talk about Metamorphosis – the process of transformation during Ascension. I compare the caterpillar to the 3D self, with its destiny just spring loaded inside to become a Butterfly, as it is in our DNA to become what we are meant to be as sacred humanity.

Your 3D Self caterpillar goes into the cocoon to bake in soul juices and soul frequencies. This creates the 4D Self…this is often experienced as a Lone Wolf Phase, cozy cave, and going into the void…..it can be a consciousness of frustration, wanting more than you currently have. 4D is not just a peaceful cocoon; it is also a mess and thrash, death and rebirth.

Cocoon phases can look and feel very different for everyone. Some are experienced within sacred union and community, as I have signed up and designed for myself. Or, it could be very important for you to be alone and in more isolation as you pull away from 3D relationships. 3D relationships are about comfort, safety, familiarity, and playing roles with each other. Staying in ‘locked in’ reality, not a lot of ‘play’ or to room to arise into anything new. Your Protector aspect may actually be ready for something new in relationship, while your Inner Teenager could be holding on.

I offer in the video an invitation for you to look at your awakening and all seven areas of life (emotional, spiritual, mental, social, physical, financial, and environmental) related to if you are being more of a caterpillar (3D self), cocoon (4D self), or the butterfly (5D self). We offer a similar assessment for you connected to the 3D/4D/5D self here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

Moving out of the cocoon phase and more into your Butterfly self happens not through force but through love in the form of soul family support, your Higher Self/aspects, the Divine, getting to know parts of you yourself, and you too!

This video today reminds me of a writing that I shared last month about becoming your Butterfly self!

“You are outgrowing that previously necessary cocoon. That safety place to bake, to ache, to create. That place removed, sometimes isolated, sometimes feeling dark void space. No longer able to be in a lesser 3D ground where others may be more comfortable meeting you there, even as you are growing taller than their imaginations can imagine yet.

You have been surrendering to the process of BEing the transforming caterpillar until now. Tucked into the birthing space, sometimes gestating, sometimes thrashing, sometimes searching for a deeper and wider understanding. Sometimes missing your precious forms, shapes, and ways that were in the known. You are becoming more comfortable in the unknown and in the space where Infinite Possibilities pose no obvious limits.

You are BEing created as you are creating the life and timeline that you most want and desire. The timeline shimmers like a mirage in the distance, yet it comes ever closer with every choice of love. With every choice to love even fear, even darkness, even denser, even differences. The timeline of your highest purpose to serve love comes closer with every shift of heart from comparison to inspiration; from judging to compassion; from taking to sharing; from polarization to unification.

You are BEing created as your Butterfly Self….to eventually emerge, to burst out of any kind of safety or limits, to always be growing. You are BEing the metamorphosis into your arising Sacred Human in fleshy form. You are ready to be born. You are ready to spread your wings. Now, you are ready to FLY!”

Thank you for joining me on this seventh day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time!

Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

My new book Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension and the book I mention in this video Keep Waking Up! is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.

Metatron/Sophia & Your Protector Guided Meditation – Day 6: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 6, 2018January 6, 2018 by Jelelle Awen1 Comment

By Jelelle Awen

In today’s video, Day Six of my 33 Days Metamorphosis series, I talk more about the process of working with, connecting with, and recognizing different aspects of self or parts or subpersonalities that we offer in SoulFullHeart. The benefits and gifts that I have received from engaging in this process myself with SO many wonderful, amazing, and BEloved energies/aspects/parts of myself over the last 13 years has been just incredible. I have changed SO much. My life has changed SO much. This is the way that has allowed me to navigate the changes and opportunities offered by the Ascension process. I also offer that session space with me or one of our facilitators is the BEST way to differentiate and deepen this process, more information about sessions here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

I’ve been sharing in my other videos about the primary 3D Self part, which we feel is the Protector aspect of us. They are a masculine feeling energy, warrior-like, guarded, vigilant, and loyal, in general.

Today, I guide you in a meditation at 11 minutes to meet this part of yourself. We get the help and support of Archangel Metatron and Goddess Sophia. Their high frequencies of Divine wisdom, Divine Masculine and Feminine, Love, and help with the Ascension process opens up your heart space and supports your 5D Self. I guide you to connect with, visualize, feel, talk with your Protector in this meditation. Whatever you experience is PERFECT and meant just for YOU!

Thank you for joining me on this fifth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos:https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

Check out our other video series about the seven areas of life covered in SoulFullHeart with Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri: https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

This is the group call and guided meditation about the Inner Protector that I mention and there are others on our SoulFullHeart Experience Youtube Channel:https://youtu.be/yP0OmxcSScc

More information about our group call on January 13th is here: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/events

My new book Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.

The 3D Self And The 5D Self – Day 5: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 6, 2018 by Jelelle Awen1 Comment

By Jelelle Awen

Today, for Day Five of my 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I talk about how parts of us compartmentalize our realities, keeping areas of our lives separate from other areas of it. In SoulFullHeart, we acknowledge seven areas of life that are being impacted by ascension and awakening: spiritual, emotional, social, mental, physical, financial, and environmental. In that way, the compartments are meant to be ‘flooded’ by love with none being separate from each other and with no parts of us dominant over certain areas.

I then talk about the 3D/4D/5D self and how it shows up in your life. We start in the SoulFullHeart process through sessions with this article about these selves and how they show up in each area, which would be a good one for you to take in as well to get more clarity about your desires and frustrations in each area:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

The 3D Self is your conditioned self, ego structure you could call it, and majority of energy is expressed as the energies of the Inner Protector. You can feel it when your ‘guard goes up’ or when you feel ‘defensive’, probably in a more subtle way at this point. The Protector is the vigilant, loyal, masculine energy that has a warrior vibe to them. The Protector came in with lots of armor to help you live in 3D life, especially as a baby. They are often ‘a guard in the room’ of your Inner Teenager and your Inner Feminine. The Protector is usually the most vigilantly guarding the social area and relationships, because parts of you have experienced the most harm and hurt in this area. The Protector usually sees ‘you’ as a Teenager that it needs to protect until you as a 5D self start connecting with it and separating from the Teenager/Child.

These are some questions that I offer in the video that you can ask and answer about your 3D Self/Inner Protector:
How have you felt the energy of protection over you in your life?
In what situations do you feel this guarding energy come up?
What do you feel could be the benefits of connecting with your Inner Protector?
What are your concerns about connecting with your Inner Protector?
What kind of relationship would you like to have with your Inner Protector?

I also offer that there is no ‘past’ in the sense of the emotional body and for parts of us. As these traumas and wounds are happening in the Now, in the moment, and are still being energized. So in responding to what has happened to you, you become less linear and more multidimensional about how you feel it and process it.

The Protector forms a protective bubble around you and you as a 5D self are invited to create a bridge to this energy in order for this bubble to move. Most people are not conscious of this guard in themselves, especially perhaps spiritual people. Not being vulnerable is a sign of this guardedness. Spirituality does not often equate to being vulnerable; healing of the Inner Child and negotiating with the Inner Protector allows for access to the Inner Child in the true frequencies of it.

This is not a quick fix process of just ‘healing in an instant’ these frequencies of Inner Child or other parts; or something that can be done and moved and cleared by someone else in a ‘one time’ healing session. It can feel evasive and even leave a sense of violation too by some parts of you, especially by the Protector, when you experience these kinds of approaches. The Divine Feminine sense of this healing process through parts work is of gestation, of process, of layers being felt and moved. You create a home inside for the Protector and other parts of you to grow trust with them over time and patience and with love.

These are the questions that I offer about your 5D Self, your awakening self, your soul self, your Higher Self aspect in your body, your authentic self, that moves you through all areas of life, etc.:
How would you describe your 5D Self?
What in your life supports your 5D Self to express?
What in your life limits your 5D Self from expressing?
What spiritual activities support the growth and expression of your 5D Self?
When do you feel ‘the most’ like your 5D Self or your authentic you?
What is your sense of your service of love purpose/mission here as your 5D Self?
What gets in the way of you fulfilling and BEing this purpose/mission?

This is the video series about the seven areas of life covered in SoulFullHeart with Gabriel Heartman and Kalayna Colibri:https://www.youtube.com/playlist…

This is the group call and guided meditation about the Inner Protector:https://youtu.be/yP0OmxcSScc…

My new book Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.

Connection With The Divine And Guides – Day 4: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle and Raphael Awen (Video)

Published on January 5, 2018 by Jelelle Awen2 Comments

By Jelelle Awen

Today, for Day four of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, my BEloved mate Raphael joins me and you get to be part of one of our soul and heart provoking conversations that happens frequently in our home! He is my most favorite collaborator and conversation partner and I am captivated with how his heart/soul/and mind works even after almost a decade together! This is the blessed experience of a true sacred union with a Counterpart Soulmate….it is stimulating, engaging, and resonant on deep levels.

In this video, Raphael and I talk about feeling Ascension in a personal way, an intimate way, and also relating with guides in a personal way too…..not as ‘better than’ you yet as intimate with you. It’s all personal and meant to be experienced as such, even while being a collective invitation toward ascension.

Making it personal is feeling the unworthiness and shame that can block letting in personal connection with the Divine and higher dimensional and vibrational guides/aspects. This unworthiness and shame come up from undigested traumas in the emotional body and parts of us that hold onto these frequencies until connected with and healed/moved.

Raphael talks about his journey to experience the Divine in a personal way after most of his life as a Christian, parts of him feeling unworthy and sinful to experience direct connection. Connecting with these parts of himself has allowed Raphael to claim, name, and BE with higher vibrational guides/aspects and Divine Frequencies in a playful and yet poignant way too. This has also opened up his intuition and ability to experience powerful altered states and love with guides. Raphael shares about this journey in his journaling series, Journey To The Demiurge. Go here to read the entries in the series: https://soulfullheartblog.com/…/by…/journal-to-the-demiurge/

We also talk about using God and spirituality to bypass going into deeper emotions and the ‘mess’ of the emotional body, being ‘delivered’ from feeling, rather than going into feeling with Divine support which is what we offer in our SoulFullHeart process. We experience that Divine frequencies and love hold space for the exploration into the emotional body.

AND, we also talk about experiencing fear-based BEings/energies AS guides and why you might draw this because of undigested fear and soul experiences drawing these experiences to you as a mirror. This can lead to experiences of being ‘attacked’ rather than responding with love and so experiencing love.

Thank you for joining on this fourth day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

This is the guided meditation to connect with your Ascension chakras and your Higher Self that Jelelle mentions in the video: https://youtu.be/NzpoGL8Gt4I

Jelelle’s new book about ascension Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books.

Embracing Your Bliss Mess – Day 3: 33 Days Metamorphosis W/Jelelle Awen (Video)

Published on January 3, 2018January 3, 2018 by Jelelle AwenLeave a comment

By Jelelle Awen

Today, for Day three of this 33 Day Metamorphosis series, I talk about what I mean by the ‘bliss mess’ of ascension and why I advocate for the embracement of it. Bliss Mess is essentially the recognition and acceptance that we have had a messy emotional experience here in 3D and to desire to feel that in order to heal it…not just attain blissful states all the time. The attainment of bliss states can be used to bypass or transcend more difficult emotional places, woundings, and traumas that NEED to be felt and healed.

I offer a process for feeling any resistance in parts of you that may come up to feeling your ‘messes’ and going into that area. It is most likely your Inner Protector who would feel this way, usually doesn’t think that you can handle what would come up. The Inner Protector often related to you as an Inner Teenager, the energy that it has had to guard all your life. Negotiation with the Inner Teenager and the Inner Protector starts to separate their energies from each other, allowing more space for you to act as ambassador and negotiator. More about these parts here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

I also read a passage from my new book Bliss Mess: The Wonders And Challenges Of Ascension (it is available for purchase at soulfullheartwayoflife.com/books):

“We have been Star BEings, Oneness consciousness, much more than we have been human BEings. We are here to experience the bliss mess (yes, both) of feeling. The bliss mess, the highs and lows, the ups and downs, the suffering and the joys, the tears and the laughs.

Oh, this is our humanity in all its glory. Angels and Star BEings are watching us, admiring us, merging with us (when our consciousness and emotional body are ready) more and more to experience this emotional experience of reality through and with us. They are not judging our emotional states, yet do hope for the end of our suffering over suffering and for us to heal from the karmic patterns that can unconsciously haunt us, so that we can merge with them some more and create something completely new.

Our hearts are the beacon that shines across the stars and draws attention from around the galaxy!!

It is necessary to experience both the bliss and the mess to ascend, awaken your soul, enloven your heart, enlighten your mind, crystalize your body. To just reach for and want the bliss aspects of ascension is to miss out on the gifts that going into your deepest densities and shadows offers you. There is a wealth to your woundedness. Not that you need fixing, yet, going into your woundedness and healing it allows you to free up your essence and bigness from the wounded frequencies. This is a spring loaded process that just happens organically as you open up to experiencing both the bliss and the mess.”

Going into the wealth of our woundedness with MUCH care and compassion for all parts of us allows so many gifts of integration, growth, and, yes, eventually experience of bliss and joy….without leaving anything behind or covering over anything!

Note: Sound is a bit muffled today as we had strange noise from my computer and had to edit it out….will be using my video camera starting tomorrow 🙂

Thank you for joining on this third day of 33….as we move into Metamorphois energies together…..one beloved part of us at a time! Go here to view the playlist listing all of the videos: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLNmrHdaQSAvIkhNtLWKs-osheX1SoBFpI

You are invited to share comments on your experiences connected to this series and questions too on facebook, the blog at Soulfullheartblog.com, and on the SFH Experience Youtube channel for which I will respond and offer reflections/guidance. An organically arising community may form out of the shared experience and energy of taking in the series….a love-based group Merkabah!

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