Category: SoulFullHeart Healing Process

The Sacredness Of Being “Off-Centre”

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No one is ever truly centred in any perfect sense.

When we ride a bicycle, our centre of gravity tips from one side of true centre, crosses through centre and then back again, making for forward momentum as we zigzag in and through centre in this way.

An airplane sets a course to its destination, immediately begins ever so slightly flying off course, notices it, and then course corrects, and does this over and over again until it reaches its destination.

Human life journey isn’t any different. At times, the veering off course can be what feels wildly erratic, and sometimes an entire lifetime goes by without a single course correction, but even then, the soul is making its own way home, in its own time and in its own way.

Even for those of us who feel more centred, we are in many moments finding ourselves, like that airplane, maybe ever so slightly, but yet, off course. This is a built in call for us to return to our centre, which is as close as feeling ourselves, as the divine beings we are.

All of us have this portal of access inside of ourselves to return to centre. None of us is without this sense of being off centre when we are, and none of us are without a sense of which direction to take in order to find centre.

For some this may not appear to be true as far as the conscious person is concerned, but in their subconscious, they don’t lack this reality, nor do they lack access to it, as this essence goes beyond the conscious mind.

We are all fragments and fractals of God whose reality we owe to the divine deciding to fragment and fractal itself into so called ‘others’. We are ‘the divine, out divining’ in every movement of our lives. This is equally true for every ‘other’ around us.

Where this truth is especially true, that we are all ‘the divine out divining’, is in the things we see and feel as negative aspects or negative experiences in our lives, the things that make us feel shame or ‘less than’ in any way. Herein, as we come to self-forgiveness and self-love, we make our deepest strides in our homeward journey.

Prior to the divine birthing soul fragments out of itself, there was no centre per se, for all was centre, and thus no need to return to centre. It is only in these soul-birthed-God-fragments of you and me that a departure and return to centre mechanism exists. This was the divine’s choice to explore itself through the closest thing it could create that afforded the illusion of separation. We are in that illusion finding our way home. We are not outside of God in any way, except in the perception that we are outside of God,…that is in our consciousness.

What a magical experience it is to prove this to ourselves as many times as we need to, whether in a lifetime, a year or in a day….by simply returning to centre, and letting in a feeling based experience of the love that we are and that we are immersed in.

When we do find ourselves in perfect centre, without any departure at all, we will have completed the mission of our soul birth, to return to the All that we were birthed out of, till we get tired of perfection and want to again try something different.

I wish you many returns to centre in the new year.

 

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

When Upside Down Becomes Right Side Up

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By Sequoia Heartman

We are living in a time when the worldview we have subscribed to and identified with seems to be turning upside down. All the systems and beliefs our 3D self has held onto so dearly are coming under review with new energy and information making their way into the body collective. Our own personal attachments to the 3rd Dimension are being highlighted for us to feel as the ascension moves on in its own volition. As more and more of the collective begin to wake up to this, the rate of pace feels like it will pick up in an exponential fashion. This is where tensions will run high and conflicts may begin to be more common. Environmental shifts may follow.

But rather than seeing it through the lens of the 3D self, we can feel it through the greater context of the 5D heart. This is where things are turning right side up. We are coming back into alignment and into our more authentic crystalline/light nature. This world is literally upside down from the 3D perspective. Abundance instead of scarcity, cooperation instead of competition, No Time instead of linear time, Love instead of Fear. So for the 3D aspect of us, these are tumultuous times. Death is on the horizon and it can’t be stopped. But from the 5D perspective it is an Emergence. A time of glorious opportunity and thrival in relation to what we have experienced over the millennia.

This is a time of compassionate self-love and contextual understanding. We need to be loving and educating ourselves through alternative media and our own relationship to the guidance within us. The more you can go in and feel, heal, and release the more loving the transition will be. There is also support and guidance in heart to heart contact. That is what SoulFullHeart has been called to offer. An ark into this new territory. We live it everyday and are here to serve those that feel life is getting bumpy and need a passage through and want to be in connection with those that feel the same.

Here’s to Right Side Up and not Upside Down.

For more information on what we offer through sessions, please visit: www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Sequoia Heartman is a writer and a SoulFullHeart facilitator. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration. 

‘Tis The Season For Desires

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By Jelelle Awen

The ache for closeness. The ache for family. The ache to be known and connected to. The ache to be seen and visible. The ache to be cherished. The ache to be acknowledged. The ache for a sense of purpose. The ache for romance. The ache for love. The ache for realness. The ache for joy. The ache for celebration. The ache for being in the moment. The ache for rest. The ache for aliveness.

The ache for intimacy. With ourselves. With others. With the Divine.

This time of year, the holiday season, the season of celebration and gathering; this time of year seems to push up these aches in us in a way that is more poignantly and urgently felt than the rest of the year. We feel pressed to connect, to consider each other, to gift each other with appreciations, to spend time together, and to take space and rest away from our professions and busy daily grinds. We feel called to seek and search for a connective sense of God, a higher source, the Divine. We feel called to honor in contemplation and in joyous song whatever our sense is of God.

The tension of this season of ache comes when these desires, which have been mostly suppressed the rest of the year (which is the reason they are experienced as aches), are unable to be met and fulfilled due to parts of us that remain closed down, fearful, and stuck in the intimacy ground of our relationships with ourselves, others, and the Divine. These parts of us which have become built-up clogged places block our desires from fully dancing, moving, and flowing. Plus, the pressure of conforming to expectations, confronting the back pressure built up from the clogged relationships, and experiencing the compartments that we have created between each other and inside ourselves gets in the way of love’s flow and, ultimately, can leave us quite frustrated.

Ask most people and, in their vulnerable and open moments, they will admit that they are left disappointed and frustrated by the holiday season. They may attribute it to the stress of finding gifts for people, to worry over spending too much money, to dramas of their extended family, and to the busy pace of the holidays. And, yes, these are contributing factors.

Yet, also, there is the unspoken angst that the deep ache that they had to connect, to be in joy, to feel intimacy with their family and themselves and the Divine….there is the deep pain and frustration that this ache did not get met. That even with all the effort, shopping, and visiting, they were unable to get these deep needs answered in an effortless dance of love, joy, connection, and realness. This is particularly hard on parts of us, who are tasked with suppressing our desires most of the time and so are deeply disappointed when their rest in vigilance is not rewarded with us receiving what we most passionately want.

SoulFullHeart offers that ache is desire that has been suppressed and wants to come up and be felt and given room. The holidays bring up a poignant call as they are accepted by the mass consciousness, yet, these aches are always there and are part of the hurting part in us and soul aspects of us that feel “fallen out” of grace and love with the Divine, and therefore essentially feels unworthy to feel and have desires. This part of us can feel estranged, lonely, and separate from others/itself/God even as it aches for closeness and intimacy.

Perhaps during the busyness of this holiday season, you might take a moment to feel your own ache for connection and desire.

To feel this part in you that is aching to feel held and loved again, enfolded in the arms of the Divine. And, in whatever way you choose to connect and celebrate your relationship with the Divine, that you would ask the Divine Mother especially to gift you with a sense of your own qualification with Her, for an acceptance of your desires (even if they can’t all be met right now), to feel a trust in Her grace of timing, synchronicity, and alchemy, and ask Her help to surrender the outcomes of your desires to Her. In this growing vulnerability with Her and more room to feel your own desires, you’ll discover the true gift of the holidays and the authentic joy of this, and all, seasons!

*Note: Originally written December, 2012

Jelelle Awen is an ascending teacher into 5D consciousness, Divine guide-scribe, and co-creator/teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

Embracing And Healing Our Fears To Experience More 5D Consciousness

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By Jelelle Awen

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“How do we dissolve and transcend fear contracts that we have created while in 3D reality so we can be clean for 4D and 5D experience?” This question was asked of me by someone to respond to from my perspective. This is probably a good time to offer that while I often have a strong sense of inner clarity, intuition, and guidance that comes from many years of inner work and soul integration, I also hold an open question about what I offer and do not claim to possess the Absolute Truth about reality. Only you can feel if what I am offering resonates in your heart and soul as a truth that you also are remembering and, therefore, we will find our resonance there.

The first place I feel to go in response to this question is the ideas that parts of us can have about fear. Our Divine or Higher self doesn’t have fear as it is a resistance to love and our Divine self is remembering that we ARE Infinite Love. Yet, in the process of remembering this and because we are so influenced by the cultural and societal conditioning and programming around us then parts of us are formed and created that hold fear or a very visceral resistance to love.

The way to heal anything is with love; it is the only frequency that can and does heal and transform energies. Resistance to love is healed with more love. Rather than resisting our fears, we connect with, get to know, and love the parts of us that hold the fears. These are parts of us that have been conditioned to a 3D reality where fear is expressed in politics, in religion, in society, in education, in many ways and forms love is resisted and not embraced. Our fear is actually trying to show us where our resistance is. When I feel fear I celebrate it (at this point, for me, after many years of this awakening process through parts work I don’t feel much conscious fear anymore) because it is showing me another place inside of me that needs more love. When I feel fear, I become very curious about where it is coming from, how it lives inside of me, and I go in deeply to be with it.

When I feel into the idea of ‘fear contracts’, it doesn’t have an alive frequency for me. It feels like a binding idea, an idea of old paradigm binds with legalistic roots. It’s not a word that I have used over the years even as I have felt deeply the fear that exists inside of bonds with others, which is what I call the ‘binds’ that exist. There can be many layers to these binds between souls, many cords of codependence, many chapters living out even in other dimensions and other lifetimes. Those that are most intimate to us are usually the ones for which we have the most grounds of transaction of both binds and bonds. These souls are also the most powerful mirror for us to see ourselves and both our trailing and leading edges.

If both people are engaged in a consciousness awakening and heart and soul healing path, they can be with the fear that comes up to intimacy (again, a fear of love), feel the aspects of themselves that are in fear of love, and come back to the mutual ground to process it. Going in as an individual, going in ‘vertically’ rather than focusing on the horizontal ground is so important here as it is the only place that we actually have the power to heal or transform fear to love.

I also don’t use the word ‘transcend’ as it can imply not feeling or not being in the body, not embodying our emotions and fears. Again, it is the embracement of the fears and shadow that heals them. Embracing without going into suffering loops is a delicate balance and one that I have needed space holders at times to guide me in, to be a mirror outside of myself so I can see myself. This is what we offer in the SoulFullHeart process through holding session space for others. The person is always holding their own process of healing fears, yet the SoulFullHeart facilitator is there to guide and support, not to fix, but rather to support. I believe that this support from a heart-open other person is critical to this process of healing fears and awakening to our Divine self. Also, to be in a community of others who are on the same path is hugely nourishing and transformative as well. I do not feel that we were meant to do this alone. It can be the fear of love and the fusion to the 3d sense of separation that keeps us in a solitary place around our healing, suffering, and not asking for support.

It can be very tempting to parts of us to just escape our ‘pain body’ (where our subconscious woundings live in heart and soul frequencies) rather than ‘go in’ to them. Parts of us are literally afraid that we will die or go crazy if we go there. These parts of us will use spiritual frequencies pulled from the 4D and 5D consciousness levels to bypass feeling these things. However, I feel that we cannot really avoid our own healing. It comes back around in a parallel lifetime to be faced and held. It is why we are here after all.

With this ‘inner embracement’ of fears it is not that they dissolve so much as the parts of us that hold them eventually integrate into our Divine self until we experience more and more Wholeness of Being and more sense that we ARE Infinite Love. We experience more and more the frequencies of fifth dimensional consciousness (and beyond) as we let go into what we really ARE beyond the fear.

Jelelle Awen is co-creator, teacher, and writer of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information. 

The Freedom to be an Expert Experimenter and not an Expert

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By Leena Colibri

Sometimes the ticket to fun is the self-permission to be an expert experimenter, not an expert!

I was reminded of this just moments ago, feeling how much creative fun I’ve been having for the past two days. I’m not an expert in any particular creative avenue, but I do find that I have been feeling freer to experiment and have fun with it all again. This is a new and arising experience inside myself, after so many years of having parts of me hold intense self-punishment and criticism. These wounded aspects of myself who energize these frequencies are beginning to feel more and more held by me, leaving me more room to be in my authentic joy around creating more often.

Being with these intense parts of us is a deep process that eventually opens out to these more spacious terrains inside ourselves. I know that myself and a few others would love to help you find your way to rediscovering this unfolding freedom inside yourself too. There’s nothing quite like the feeling of being free to be the creative humans we were always meant to be…

 

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Leena Colibri is a facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.

Feeling Our Authentic Loneliness

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By Leena Colibri

 

Authentic loneliness is more powerful than settling for false company.

Having a solid relationship with ourselves begins by being okay with being alone for necessary phases of time. It doesn’t have to feel okay to every part of us though…some parts are used to reaching out to others outside ourselves for comfort, reassurance, validation, security. On the other side of the coin, some parts would rather be alone, feeling the strain of a social life that they can’t truly land in and be a part of authentically, and where they and other parts often get buried because what they feel isn’t deemed “okay”. This is what makes us all unique mosaics of emotions and reactions. It is what brings us into processes where we get to feel and sort through it all if we choose to, helping us move on to the next phase of our lives, perhaps without as much reaction and with a full-hearted strength that we could never have thought possible.

Our loneliness feels like a huge gift to me, if we can truly feel it and be with it…in being with it, we get to feel our uniqueness, our need and desire for more solidity inside ourselves, and our needs and desires for what we truly want in relationship with others (not just what we’ve been okay with up ’til now).

Loneliness, like any other emotion that carries the label of being “negative” and something that should be avoided at all costs, seems to actually have the power to change our lives for the better and bring us into landscapes of deep healing and growth if we can just let it in and fully feel it…

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Leena Colibri is a facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.

 

 

Throw-Away Love

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By Leena Colibri

 

In a world made for the throw-away
life
love
plastic anything
romance
friendship
god

 

…self

 

How can real love show its colours
of brilliant black, blue, red and gold?
The bruises and dents on the quest’s trail
and the blood bled from the freshly opened heart
can barely shine through the muddle
the muttering
the utter grossness of our need for something more to pitch.

 

The pliable heart with plastic implants placed by dense fingers with no dexterity just reaction
nearly made impossible to open.
Nearly patented to be perfectly beyond reach
and beyond the touch of real, sacred human love.

 

There’s a way to see it
there’s a way to be with it
there’s a way to look and love beyond it
there’s a way to penetrate the din within that all-too-sacred noise and static
created by a static life
with static means
running out of ground too quickly
…or not quickly enough.

 

Love, breathe the hot air of passion down my neck.
Let it run out onto my swollen chest
barely holding my bare, aching heart.
Whisper that it’s over those times of war within
and that you are here to stay
so long as I claim you, want you, breathe you, need you.

 

So long as I can stand to keep letting you in.

 

So long as you can stand my insatiability.

 

May the world cry rumble below
into the caverns of the depths of soul and heart
showing the cracks on the walls of the ache and the pain and the need for more, more, more…

 

love
synthesis not synthetic
surreal but real

 

To heal, to feel…to ask for the real, live, moving, passionate, messy, sacred, ultimate piece
driving onward, inward, upward and out
bringing us to that longed-for place of release
realizing we could have seen it, held it, had it all along
if we had just asked.

 

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Leena Colibri is an apprentice facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.

Golden Earth Is Waiting For You

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By Jelelle Awen

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There is a world beyond the current one where things such as politics, greed, and war do not exist…it is this Golden Earth world that our hearts know is possible and our soul remembers…

We can invite others to join us in this Golden Earth and experience it ourselves in moments as our self worth and self love rises. As our connection with the Divine deepens. As our sense of being Infinite Love increases. As we surround ourselves with others who resonate and feel us deeply.

This Golden Earth is waiting for you and it lives already in your heart and soul.

The journey to it is through your shadow, your pain, and your suffering.

The journey to it is guarded by protective parts of you that are afraid for you to increase your frequency because they have been conditioned to fear love by a fear-based culture. These parts of you are afraid for you to feel too much of your woundings because they don’t want you to suffer even more.

The journey to it requires guides that can walk with you through your shadow land to reach the place where the golden rays of love rain down on you and emanate from you.

The journey to it invites you to risk the known for the unknown; to let go in order to let in; and to be dedicated in all ways to serve love for yourself, others, Gaia, and the Divine.

The journey to it is ultimately embracing the realization that you ARE it and that, in this way, you are already there.

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Jelelle Awen is co-creator, facilitator, and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. For more about our awakening process that leads to experiencing Golden Earth life visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com

The Epic Journey Is Inward Toward Self Love

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By Raphael Awen

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If life is anything, it’s a journey. An exciting and epic journey.

But why doesn’t it feel that way so much of the time for so many of us?

It’s because parts of us have worked so hard to isolate us from the journey that life is, working to tame it and make it manageable, predictable and safe. These parts of us can’t remove us from the movements of birth, childhood, young adult and middle age and old age, but if they can just keep it the safest possible within these uncontrollables, they will gladly settle for that.

But, these aren’t the only parts of us. There are others longing for change and adventure, who feel like they are dying on the vine in the small carefully arranged life we’ve set up, that feels so set in stone.

Fused to these very different parts of us, we are managing a civil war inside of us, all the while seeking to remain functional on the outside and holding a self image intact to our world around us. A longing dream comes up to take a couple years and travel, and we end up settling for a 2 week all inclusive vacation paid for on a credit card. ‘How was it?’ our friends ask when we return, expecting nothing more than a polite answer to their polite question.

Why can’t we seem to access anything different? Well, if you are genuinely asking that question, you need to get ready, because you are beginning to access something different. If you are willing to hold that question as a quest, you will make conscious the journey that your life is.

Getting to know these very different parts inside of us and why they are disposed the way they are is an incredible journey in itself. It is in fact, the real journey. It is a journey that will require a journal for sure to digest and record the experience. This journey inward to deep self-love and self-reconciliation is the way of life that SoulFullHeart offers.

I’d like to take you to feeling one more piece today. You as a soul ARE a journey. You aren’t actually seeking a journey like you may think you are. You are on an epic journey right now. Even if part of you manages to keep you isolated and involved in as little change as possible for your entire life, you are still in and on this epic journey. If you are willing to feel this, that feeling space that you create and the intensity of feeling it will create in you the guidance you seek and need to feel, as to what path to take to undo the set-in-stone life you’ve set up for yourself so far.

The bigger context of life for all of us collectively is changing at lightning speeds in these recent years. People feeling this tend to either attempt hunkering down deeper into their set-in-stone approach, or they see that this tsunami of change must be flowed with. They make it a conscious feeling to feel all there is to feel around life change, desire and the internal unresolved conflicts coming from each of the beloved parts of themselves.

You don’t need to be in control. You don’t need a bullet proof plan. You don’t need another self-help program. You only need to be willing to feel.

I’d like to help you with that if that is something that calls deeply to you, if you know that feeling is the journey you are on. Hang around, get to know and reach out to us here in the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, facilitator, and teacher of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information. 

Moving Beyond Self Consciousness Into Authenticity

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By Jelelle Awen

While we were sipping wonderful margaritas and watching the sunset last night, we engaged in one of our meaningful conversations that happens almost every minute with us within our little community (woven in between having FUN!). I think I am still digesting it this morning and would like to share.

Sequoia has known me for almost twenty five years, we were previously married and divorced in 2001, and we co-raised a daughter together. For the last four years, I have been his facilitator and teacher and also, in many moments, we share a sacred friendship too. There is a lot of history there and he has known me through so many phases. With tears in his eyes, last night he offered that he is amazed at who I am now and who I am continuing to become.

He mentioned that he can feel the range that I can inhabit in the moment….from deep soul frequencies to joyful inner child to queen (and irritated control matriarch can still come through too!). And also that I don’t seem to have any self consciousness or self image when it comes to relating with others…not much ‘persona’ that I am putting on. I could feel his sincerity and love for me as he offered this and it touched me.

But, in another way, I couldn’t really get what he was seeing about me. This isn’t a deflection based in unworthiness. It has felt to me for awhile that we can’t really ‘see’ our most authentic self (or what we call our ‘SoulFullHeart Self’) because there is no self image related to it. It just IS US in our most unselfconscious expression.

Self consciousness comes from parts of us elevating us, positioning us, and doing ‘perception management’ strategies with others. These parts of us literally create versions of us to form fit in every environment and every situation. There can be many, many layers to this and it is quite craftily constructed, even in a small child it starts happening young!

After over ten years of work and negotiation with parts of myself who hold these frequencies, I feel that much of this self image has been deconstructed, let go of, felt, healed, moved beyond. So, in some ways, I cannot ‘see’ my most authentic self, yet I can certainly feel when and if love is transacting and if part of me is blocking it or not.

To be free from self consciousness is a wonderful gift and allows me to serve love so much more deeply to myself and others. I completely associate this result because of the process that I have engaged with through a previous path and also through SoulFullHeart to be with and know my subpersonalities. We offer that this state is called “SoulFullHeartenment” and isn’t an attainment, but more like something that just arises through the process of individuation, differentiation, and union with self, others, and the Divine.

If this stirs something in you and awakens a desire to experience life this way, we would be so honored to serve that in you. Please visit this page for more about what we offer: http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions.

Jelelle Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.