The Loneliness Of Awakening And Ascension

by Gabriel Solais

Ascension and awakening can be a lonely process.

Even when surrounded by others there may be a feeling that you are not really there. Not totally present to what is really being said or to the minutia of the day. It can feel like you are in another person’s body, in someone else’s life. All that made sense at one point fails to make much sense anymore. New information, new feelings, new awarenesses are arising. They are coming to the surface by drip or by flood. Though they are not really new….you are just beginning to remember the nature of your BEing. 

As you have walked through your conditioned world, the one you subscribed to either fully or partially, you created a world of relationship that matched that conditioning. But as this arising awareness has begun to fill your days there is this visceral chasm that begins to be felt between you and those around you. You may feel like an island unto yourself. This is where you feel the self, or part, that was created to exist in that past environment. Like a special suit that is needed to walk on a distant planet. 

This can be hard on the YOU that is in that suit, looking behind those eyes. Feeling behind those words. A tiredness may be coming through. An awareness that you feel like a there is a charade going on. Or you keep bringing your truth only to find it falling short of resonance or curiosity. Where do you get a reflection of all that is moving inside? There is a part of you that may be okay with being introverted. Okay with just being alone. That may be better than all the acting. All the interfacing in a rear view mirror. 

It important to feel that this YOU is not alone. There are many that are in similar circumstances and situations. The words may be different but the story is the same. There is a world of resonance INside of you when you find the time and desire to explore. There are a family and community of parts of you awaiting your Higher Heart to come and take them home there. An abundance of resonance that lies in the stars and in the heavens.

This is a reminder from all the guides, ancestors, animal spirits, light beings, and angels that surround us at any given moment. It is also a reminder from one human heart to yours. The journey of awakening is the journey of connecting…one part, one heart, one soul at a time. 

Gabriel Solais is an emoto-spiritual men’s and women’s Facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our website to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife/donations.

Healing The Feelings Of Abandonment W/Your Star Family & Star Seed Child Within

By Jelelle Awen

I am letting in, soaking in….connection with my star family and Metasoul aspects/sisters/fractals that I know of now and have become so close to. These kind of weepy tears come up as I feel their TOTAL love for me that is expressed without effort, boundary, or conditions. I recognize this feeling of weepiness….it is deeper need for resonance being met and being let in that can only truly happen from within the self and one’s own soul and with the Divine. No other person can provide and meet this need FOR us…although they can transact love WITH us from the overflow we both are experiencing from self love.

Star family for me is not a concept, yet a visceral and real supportive energy that is transactable through BEing with them. It is feelings of coming home, no longer feeling alone/abandoned, sense of bigger soul purpose here. Reunion feelings can be bittersweet, as they so long went unmet and unfelt. An itch being scratched that you didn’t even realize was there. It is feeling an acceptance of your alienness that makes up the substance of so much of our DNA. This is when ‘activation’ truly happens…when it is offered through your own soul and can be let in through a needing heart/soul to receive it with transactable love.

I feel this pain so often in others of feeling ‘left here’ and not feeling like they truly belong here on Gaia. This is amplified by estrangement and being misunderstood by/with birth family. Experiences of abuse (emotional, physical, mental, energetic, sexual) just compound/reinforce this sense of not belonging here in this 3D harshness and polarized density. Deep feelings of depression, suicide/wanting to leave, panic attacks/anxiety goes along with this. Parts of us BEcome the frequency of wounding from these experiences and there isn’t a bigger container there of compassionate resonance to digest and transform the pain into love/light again.

Our Star Seed aspect is an awakening inner child that can unanchor from 3D as their traumas are processed and a galactic awakening occurs….an innocence and purity lives in the heart of this part of us. They are so often in deep longing and loneliness to feel their star siblings again, to feel the wonder and magic of multidimensional and porous relationship to life that this galactic union offers. Processing undigested trauma/terror from what they felt as ‘abductions’, which were actually visits with star family, they can arise into becoming the magical fuel for our Merkabahs or light body vehicles.

As you connect with these aspects of yourself that most NEED you and receive support from your star family, you can truly LAND here with a filling up heart and soul to receive, to give, and to BEcome love!

Here is a guided meditation to connect with your star family: https://youtu.be/ubrPcH09X6s

More about parts/Metasoul aspect connection here: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/parts

Jelelle Awen
1:1 bridging sessions to connect with star family, activate light language, meet your inner child/star seed available for $77 USD min. donation for 90 very full minutes! With me for women and for women/men with Raphael Awen and Gabriel Heartman. More info here:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/bridging-session

The Powerful Mirrors Of Holiday Gatherings

By Kalayna Colibri
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What you choose to show-up for, will always be a mirror for you… whether this is your personal healing process, your soul purpose work as you have felt it to be, a 3D job or career, or a relationship of any kind.
 
Tomorrow is American Thanksgiving… If we feel America as being a place of deep 3D conditioning yet also powerful opportunities for awakening, we can see how the two actually go hand-in-hand and how holidays like this one that takes place tomorrow are actually another opportunity for growth and healing, even though they may be rooted in 3D consciousness.
 
Choosing to be a part of any event with family or friends is a chance to look into a mirror, if you choose to do so. These relationships may be ones you have had all your life, or only for a short time so far. It is an opportunity to feel your awakenings and how they apply to your life as it is right now. It is a chance to play out these relationships and even your relationship to food too, to see what parts of you may be attached to certain conditions or aspects of these relationships. It is a chance to feel yourself in a different way, as all gatherings of any kind are.
 
Choosing to forgo this or any ‘holiday’ altogether can also be a mirror for you. Maybe you have been having many awakenings that have led you away from relationships, into a reboot and ‘lone wolf’ phase. If this is the case, feeling your loneliness and ache for relationships with those who would understand you and feel you and you, them. This feels so valuable, especially if you feel you are here to serve love… and is a powerful way to serve love to yourself, as you feel the parts of you and your sweet heart too.
 
Aches, desires and wishes are all major themes when it comes to holidays of any kind… feeling yours with parts of you is a way to boost your ascension and awakening journey, as you awaken inward more and more and begin to let more love in while doing so. Eventually, the need for ‘holidays’ as we have felt and held them becomes obsolete, as every arising moment with those you can be in deep soul and heart connection with,
including yourself first and foremost, is something that can last ALL year ’round. ❤

THIS Saturday, join Gabriel Heartman and I LIVE on Facebook and Youtube at 11:11am CST (Mexico City). Raphael and Jelelle Awen will be there too, hanging out ‘backstage’, fielding and answering your questions and bringing some to us too if there is something you would like to know! Go here: https://www.facebook.com/events/1508742299214244/ for more info ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Feeling Our Authentic Loneliness

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By Leena Colibri

 

Authentic loneliness is more powerful than settling for false company.

Having a solid relationship with ourselves begins by being okay with being alone for necessary phases of time. It doesn’t have to feel okay to every part of us though…some parts are used to reaching out to others outside ourselves for comfort, reassurance, validation, security. On the other side of the coin, some parts would rather be alone, feeling the strain of a social life that they can’t truly land in and be a part of authentically, and where they and other parts often get buried because what they feel isn’t deemed “okay”. This is what makes us all unique mosaics of emotions and reactions. It is what brings us into processes where we get to feel and sort through it all if we choose to, helping us move on to the next phase of our lives, perhaps without as much reaction and with a full-hearted strength that we could never have thought possible.

Our loneliness feels like a huge gift to me, if we can truly feel it and be with it…in being with it, we get to feel our uniqueness, our need and desire for more solidity inside ourselves, and our needs and desires for what we truly want in relationship with others (not just what we’ve been okay with up ’til now).

Loneliness, like any other emotion that carries the label of being “negative” and something that should be avoided at all costs, seems to actually have the power to change our lives for the better and bring us into landscapes of deep healing and growth if we can just let it in and fully feel it…

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Leena Colibri is a facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.