Love Finding Its Way As You

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By Jelelle Awen

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Love opens up vistas of possibilities in every moment, each new curve and turn offering the Infinite Unknown….

The stumbling, crawling, fighting and purging…it is WORTH it as love’s embrace helps you find your way to your inner home.

The filters gone, the blinders off, the light shone on the dark…you can feel the miracle in the Now.

Completions and endings bring new beginnings, letting go allowing for more letting in….

This enlovenment, enlightenment, awakening of SELF, claiming of YOU creates a life filled with magical inner landscapes….

This ascending, growing, changing creates a life filled with not what you have known, but what you are BECOMING, more and more, as love finds its way AS YOU….

I love you…keep going! Keep being! Keep loving!

Jelelle Awen is a writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions with her, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.

To Those I Share Love With

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by Leena Colibri

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We build altogether,
stacking our hearts onto one another’s.
Our lives’ creations spring forth
from those effortless moments
of synchronicity
and conscious collaboration.

We bring it all to the foreground of life’s playing fields,
releasing our winged hearts
to soar high above where it all once fell
at the feet
of misappropriated power.

Together we stand within
the tall forests of growth
inside the long-standing biospheres
of the internal.

Together we find those places of dancing,
fire and fun,
that take place inside all
communal, unbreakable
unbound bonds
of the eternal.

Love dances on the wingtips
of the consequently unshackled,
freely feeling,
heart-clasping dancer-feelers
of its most precious creations yet,
and feeds the honouring
of all that needs now be remembered,
revered,
blessed once more
and forever over again.

 

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Leena Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, writer and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Fourth Dimensional (4D) Consciousness: Alchemical Purgatory, Dark Nights, And Profound Awakenings

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By Jelelle Awen

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Connection to other worlds and dimensions, the lift UP, the sense of I am HERE yet NOT HERE, I am THERE and HERE….this is arising now, coming now, available now. Merging worlds and dimensions…..letting these multiple realities into your NOW moments. Breathing them in as you walk around and breathing them in as you sleep deep, passing out and traveling and visiting. You are drifting often and weaving between the dimensional consciousnesses…..maybe dipping down into 3D, then awakening into 4D, and crawling there at times. And 5D comes in like a sunburst across your consciousness, spreading light rays across your sky.

THIS HERE in 3D life is enough until it is not enough and then you begin the process of remembering, of gliding, of awakening. You feel the 4D transitional dimension of alchemical purgatory, the sorting out dimension, of THIS from THAT. 4D is for dark nights and for kundalini awakenings both. It is the soul’s blood coming back to sleeping limbs. 4D can feel SO dark sometimes, walking in shadows, kneeling in glass type experiences. It can feel like the stomach flu, purging up and out that which does NOT belong to your soul. It can feel like epic journeys into vast terrains, all INSIDE of you.

4D can still be outward focus, outward triggers, looking for outward manifestations. There are edges being worked about the outside while the inside is becoming more consciousness to you. The inside is calling out for you for attention and love and care. Closing down from the outside happens more and more often as you need to reboot and recharge. You may feel like two versions of you in your life. The version of you that is still tied to 3D reality with friends and family who resonate on a certain level with you and even may want you to just remain the same. Then the version of you that is your soul awakening and your higher self coming in. Maybe you are more one version over the other, you may fluctuate between the two of them.

Changes, HUGE changes sometimes, happen in 4D. Old things collapse on themselves. Marriages end, friendships complete, careers change or are abandoned, geographies are shifted and left behind. It can feel at times like you are saying “no” and letting go of EVERYTHING and that you can’t imagine what will remain. You may be walking around in mourning so often that it is more familiar than joy. Yet, the trust is growing. The trust that the process is being held by the Divine and the process is leading somewhere.

You are fighting at times, battling the old conditioning that comes at you from the outside and the inside. Yet, also, the love you are experiencing more and more leaves you weary to battle. The parts of you that have battled and fought for a long time begin to rest and more and more imagine that some day they will be able to permanently put the sword down. You may be an activist and an advocate – this may be important for your soul and awakening journey. You may want others to ‘get it’ VERY badly and get very frustrated when they do not. You may feel like burning down the world that the ‘bad guys’ live in even as your world is often burning with ash in the air.

What makes 4D possible to navigate is your soul drawing support and love to you in many forms during the phase of intense embodiment of it. You find more and more resonant souls and you gather together, you form bonds, and it helps to sooth the pains from letting so much go. You want light, you want to end your suffering, and you consciously begin to feel HOW and WHAT you need in your life in order for that to happen.

Gaia is currently in 4D consciousness it feels like and moving into 5D more and more. The death and rebirth sense of our current times, all of the upheavals, battles, polarizations, power struggles, injustices, wars…the realm of 4D exploration as human consciousness wakes up. The emergence of the sacred human is a messy process, yes at times, but it is held with much love and the dawning experiences of 5D frequencies makes all of it ultimately worth it. ❤

To read more about 3D, 4D, and 5D selves and how these versions of you relate to the seven areas of life (emotional, spiritual, mental, physical, social, financial, and environmental) go here:http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com/3d4d5dselvesquestions

Jelelle Awen is a writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions with her, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.

 

Roads Less Traveled: Metasoul Healing and Conscious Community

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On the path of healing to our most authentic essence of BEing, there is often a road less traveled and a support less considered.  As I continue to go in and raise my frequencies, I have needed not just the support of my inner guides, angels, elementals, and star beings but also that of the close personal and intimate community in which I reside.  Mirrors and gifts abound and while there is certainly great movement that can experienced within, we can’t quite get to feel certain aspects of us when we are outside of intimacy, be it sacred friendship or romance.  When this relationship is in close proximity the healing and love flow is exponential.  

I bring up community because currently I am in a big part of my healing process.  One that has me exploring soul aspects that are in their own hell.  “That doesn’t sound like fun!”.  This is where community comes in.  Lots of guidance and support is here.  Perspectives when things may get a little hard and confusing.  This has been an energy that has been with me during my life and I know it isn’t mine.  I need to go into this as offered by Metatron.  To bring my Lovelight into the space as there is no greater healing balm than Love.  I believe in my own experience that the triggers we have in life and the energies that come up are not just part of this life’s wounding.  We have echoes from other Metasoul aspects that are rippling into our consciousness.  I so feel how this may be what is happening in many “mental” health cases.  This is not about going in unprotected.  It is about raising our vibration up, feeling our yummy, juicy Love center and creating an energy around us.  It is like deep ocean diving with a big ol’ heart light.

It is feeling your intuition and claiming a soul aspect and pulling them out of the pain in which they reside.  No need to solve anything other that give this aspect all the Love you can muster.  There can be time for more briefing later.  There may be aspects that resist your Love and you can honor that but keep inviting them into your Heart.  I feel that while positive affirmations are a great way to maintain the higher frequency, just those alone will not be enough for the pain these aspects hold.  They need to feel authentic, compassionate love.  This if often the road less traveled.  

Going back to community, I can be supported in this and receive energy healing and space holding when needed.  I will get reflections when I am felt as bit low in my vibration and can’t quite consciously feel it.  They are heart-centered course corrections that I could not have outside conscious community.  I feel I am writing to specific souls out there that can feel where I am coming from.  The souls that feel this deep pain that can’t seem to move.  It can be a sludge at times without support and guidance from those that have been there.  Through my own personal experience I offer my Heart to those that have that Hell inside them.  That ache to move through it with Love to receive the gifts it was meant to offer.  I don’t claim it is the only way, just the way that is providing me and others with the means to live a more joyful and exquisite experience of the essence we were all meant to embody.  
Our souls have been through much, and I feel we are being honored and revered for all we have taken on.  They offer their Love but also know we need each other as well.  This is what being human is ultimately about.  Raising each other UP in the Bond of Heart and Unity of Soul.  

Gabriel Heartman is a space-holder, writer, poet, and Heartist.  You can find more about him and the SoulFullHeart community at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

What you resist, persists…What you embrace, arises….

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By Jelelle Awen with Archangel Metatron

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What you resist persists, what you embrace, arises…..

When you react with resistance to something that comes up inside of you or outside of you, then it will persist. When you resist to feel and go inside to feel and resist holding space to feel, then it will persist. The oppositional energy, the resistant energy itself creates a polarizing effect on whatever it is that you are resisting. The edges rub against each other creating more tension and more friction.

When you respond with embracement to something that comes up inside of you or outside of you that is difficult or hard, then it is able to arise. When you embrace feeling and going inside to be and feel and understand, the loving energy creates a loving effect on whatever it is that is needing your attention. The edges of separation dissolve, opening up the possibilities. The difficult or painful or hard energy can then arise into something ELSE, something that comes up in response to love.

This applies to your inner world and then, what you experience of your outer world too. If you resist a person or the mirror they are offering you of YOU, then that negative energy persists between you and usually creates a loop of entanglement and suffering in the relationship. If you embrace the person and the mirror they are offering you, then the energy between you can arise into something else, something new, something made and coming from love. Even if you feel to take space from that person, YOU are different and what you experience of the situation is different because you ARE love even if they have not changed.

Feel the energy you are responding with….is it resistant? Is it embracing? Is it pushing away? Is it bringing closer? Is it open? Is it closed? Is it edgy? Is it soft? ALL reactions are sacred and embraced even as they are invited to move and to heal.

And with ascension, if you resist the transformational and alchemy energies that are flooding Gaia, they will still persist yet you will be in opposition to them or even in denial of them rather than in flow and surrender WITH them. Embracing these energies that want you to grow and that will support you to transform allows YOU to arise WITH them into infinite possibilities in every moment.

Join us on a group call this Saturday for a guided meditation led by me, connection with your higher self and Metatron, other like hearted and souled people too: https://www.facebook.com/events/1900735566837925/

Jelelle Awen is a writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions with her, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.

Holding Space For Your Tensions To Move Into Trust

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By Jelelle Awen with Archangel Metatron
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The tensions inside offer a communication to you about what is going on in your heart. The tensions are a broadcast signal pinging and ringing inside to get your attention.The tensions are energy that is stuck and fixated at a certain place. The tensions are a sacred thing as it sometimes in the contrasts that you get the most data about what is going on within you…..until you no longer need the tensions to ‘alert’ you to anything.

The tensions so often are about desires, about frustrations, about things and ways that cannot BE in the moment. The tensions are about fears of change or going into the unknown that parts of you may hold and feel. The tensions are about unexpressed or suppressed feelings that didn’t come out in the moment when they needed to. The tensions are perhaps about the gap between the current you and the current circumstances and the current relationships with what you dream self, dream live, and dream relationships are wanting to arise into.

When you feel the tensions, when you look to them for information, when you respond to them with LOVE, then you can get to the heart of where they are coming from. You can give them a voice, give them a tone, give them a tuning in, give them somewhere to land. You can give them a hug, a helping hand, a soft container.

Part of you can try to cover them over with things and activities and busyness, yet still underneath the tensions simmer and bubble. The substance of them, the root of them, does not heal, does not ‘go away’ until you feel and face, until you cry or scream or sleep or just go within or share with those you need to. The things that numb them for the moment eventually don’t work anymore as you become more conscious and self aware and tracking with your heart in every moment what you are feeling and being.

Your guides, angels, star being selves, all want to help you move these tensions as they can block their higher dimensional frequencies from coming into your field. Angels especially offer trusting frequencies, Infinite Love tones and energies that make all the tensions OK, permission to go to the heart of them, even as they dissolve in the loving energies. Divine Feminine energies from Mother Mary wrap the tensions in a loving pink container of support and compassion that allows you and invites you to release.

As you do this and as you ARE this space holder for the tensions, then more and more does the root cause of them (the heart wounding causes, the soul wounding causes) heal and integrate into your loving and spacious higher self who has NO tensions about existence in response to the moment. More and more the contrast of tension versus trusting is not needed and you live in the trust. You ARE and BECOME more and more the trust in the moment and that whatever happens is perfect just as it is.

In the meantime, embrace the tensions rather than resist them. As you do, the possibility arises then for something NEW to transmute from them, something moves, and then your heart is open again, you are trusting again, you are spacious again. You are love again as you have responded to ANYTHING inside of yourself with love and so it becomes love again.

Jelelle Awen is a writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions with her, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.

Saying “Yes” To Creating A Loving Container For Yourself For Healing

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by Kalayna Colibri

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That exquisitely sacred space you give to yourself for your feeling and healing process has movement just in the intention of it. There is no specific protocol to follow, though there are many tools that might help you, like journaling and meditating for example. The flow of love that happens from you to you is something that is so necessary, that it cannot actually be stoppered up once it has truly begun, even if you can’t feel it in your most upfront awareness in the moment.This healing can then happen upon you at times you aren’t actually expecting it to. Many times I’ve had movements while doing something other than consciously being “in process”, like watching an episode of a show on Netflix that suddenly helps me feel something specific about myself or what I’m working through, or perhaps when I’m out in nature or just walking my dog through the city.

In my experience, all processes don’t need “time” so much, since there really is no time, but just a simple yes to the next step… Yes, I would like to start feeling the roots of this pain. Yes, I would like this reaction to move and heal and yes, I am open to all the tears I need to shed to get there. Yes, I am open to loving myself more and feeling more of my worth. Yes… I want to experience more LOVE.

To claim your healing is big and the invitation in these times is that your healing will start to come faster and bolder if you allow it, if you say “yes” to it. All it needs is a big enough YOU there to step inside of it, shining your heart beam and casting love light over it. Now is not the time for suppression, but for embracing. That may feel like the scary place to go, yet there is a you there that can hold your innate goodness and still be with all of this. If you are in a phase of desiring and likely needing it, supportive and conscious community is a place to find the deeper reflections of yourself that help you shine a light in these dark places and can help show you where you still need to go inside of yourself. Relationship is where so much of our wounding has happened and thus, relationship is where we often need to go in order to heal and in order to see what’s truly going on inside of us.

This dedicated space you hold for yourself can last a short or long time, depending on what you need. Ideally it is your daily reality, yet with busy schedules it can be challenging to remember that you have a beautiful YOU that needs your energy too. Even despite busyness, any downtime that is dedicated to spending time with yourself is an opportunity for something to move. I have often had movements happen even while watching an episode of a TV show or a movie or reading a book. Sometimes journaling and meditation are what take me there too. Whatever your intuition tells you that you need in a given moment, whatever your impulses are, once you have opened this dam of self love you will not be able to stay away from the healing that is intended for you, from you. You are beloved by all beings around and within you. You are the guidance you’ve been seeking from guides both within and without you. You are indeed always seeking YOU, even if you don’t consciously realize it, and perhaps that’s why you’re drawn to reading this or taking in any other writing about this or that speaks to your pain in some way. Something in you wants to surface and be felt so it can be healed, so YOU can be healed and move forward, letting go of all that has been encumbering you in your personal process of ascension. It’s all happening, moving, flowing and it wants to flow to and through you.

There are so many ways to find out more of who you are, even if it feels as if the core of you has been gnawed away at somehow, through years of sustained wounding that has brought on many different reactions and play-outs in your life. Any and all of them are good and we all have our own path to get to a place of more emotional and spiritual health and of course, more LOVE flow. Of course the way I advocate for, live into and also facilitate is SoulFullHeart, and of course this invitation is for you to feel into that more for yourself. However, I also feel and understand that wherever we are all at is just as sacred and just as necessary until our healing encourages us to choose something different. There is always a wide array of choices and choice points and the possibilities truly are infinite.

I encourage you to remember yourself today…to flow with the love that wants to circulate more throughout your entire being, to remember that you are an embodiment of all of your choices up to now and that you have more choices based in love, in this very moment, to say yes to as they move into your awareness and offer to help you heal and become more of that love-filled essence of you that you crave to be and serve others from… ❤

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator for women around (and under) the age of 30, energy healer, indigo-crystal bridge, writer, and poetess. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

Embodiment of the Multidimensional Self and 5D Reality Experience Of Experience

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By Jelelle Awen
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I am moving from a ‘me’ to a ‘we’, a more merged consciousness, a more multidimensional consciousness. A consciousness that is not in a particular time but is responding from ALL times and many different soul aspects AT ONCE. I am experiencing more moments where there is no personality there or orientation to previous personality that I have ‘known’ or can be ‘known’. “Jelelle” is really then a waveform sound that others can use to delineate the physical me that shows up in front of them or what they experience as my essence. I let go of my birth name awhile ago so there is no longer much association with names as an identity.
 
I am experiencing more and more moments where my soul essence is responding in the NOW with love and NO reactivity. Most of my moments are like this now in the now. There is no longer pain or suffering or being triggered by others, although I am open to this if it comes up. This is not unexpected as it is what I have been consciously awakening and enlightening toward for many years. The subpersonality or parts differentiation process that I have very consciously and very diligently engaged with has brought me to this ‘place’ more and more with so many layers of persona being integrated and dissolved away essentially.
 
For many years, I was tracking my reactivity with much focus, connecting my reactions to whatever part or aspect that I was connecting with at the time, feeling deeply whatever there was to feel. This heightened sense of self consciousness and awareness is what allowed me to sort and experience what was ME in my soul essence and what was ME in conditioned personality. What had been formed in response to conditioning versus what WAS me as a soul or higher self. The energy that these aspects of me held that anchored me to the past, to past woundings and hurts, to past formations of personality and reactivity and pain are essentially GONE now.
 
In place of this energy anchored to the past is now space for my multidimensional soul frequencies, galactic frequencies, to come in from the stars and from other lifetimes. With this multidimensionality comes the feelings that all of my experiences are ‘new’ as seen through the eyes and felt through the hearts of these soul aspects that are in much higher vibrational frequencies than what we feel here on Gaia. Yet, also, these aspects are VERY interested in what we experience as duality here, the edges that rub, the tastes, the sounds, the pleasures of the body, especially as felt through a healing heart and enlightened emotional body. These aspects of me are ‘dropping in’ now as there is more space in me for them. They are enjoying very much what they are experiencing through me and me through them. We are merging together and it is blissful, magical, and a feeling of deep RE-union with my soul. And, it is still very grounded to Gaia and inside of my body, not floaty at all, based in the heart.
 
This is challenging to write about honestly as the linear language of one word after another doesn’t work well to describe and transmit the energy of this kind of multidimensional experience of experience. To exchange this energy in voice and in person is much better, so you can feel it for yourself what it is that I am embodying and what you may feel drawn to embody. I offer spaces for this to happen if you desire for it to and it is what is next for you; through sessions, through our group calls, soon through in person immersion visits with us here in Puerto Vallarta, and a retreat later this year. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information. We want to offer spaces for you to experience this experience of multidimensional experience, we can call it 5D that is fine….spaces for you to experience it and remember, not just in writing but in energy exchange.
 
I feel it is where we are ‘headed’ as a species, to this more merged consciousness beyond personality where we are still an individual soul spark of consciousness. We are then both experiencing the non-dual nature of life AND the dualistic nature in the same moment. We have separated them out as that is what we tend to do from our overly dualistic focus place. Yet, to me and for me, they merge and the non-dual nature of our reality and of Divine Source HOLDS all experience of experience, including the dualistic frequencies.
 
It feels important to say that I did not open out or awaken or remember to this place of consciousness through bypassing my emotions or transcending them. I went into them and therefore through them. I am discovering (as are my beloveds on this path too) that there are more efficient ways to be in this, a sort of quantum healing way to be with the pain body, and more processes and methods are being offered to us in SoulFullHeart to share with you in the future. I have happily been a bush whacker of sorts, clearing the weeds and one of the paths. One of the methods is by being in immersion with us here, in our daily lives, in Puerto Vallarta, for as long as fits in your lifestyle. To be around this enlightened consciousness is to feel how it lives in you already and IS you already and it is just a process of remembering.
 
There IS an experience of experience beyond personality, beyond reactivity, beyond suffering, beyond pain, beyond negativity, beyond duality and WITH duality at the same time. I offer this to you as a remembrance that lives in you already and is ‘spring-loaded’ to BECOME you again. This is not an EASY path though as there is SO MUCH to unremember, so much to let go of, so much to say ‘NO’ to in the personality-based life you have created as you say ‘YES’ to your soul essence in expression. In my experience, these changes and letting go process are negotiable and always happen at a rate and pace that you can bear.
 
I cannot sell you on this process nor do I want to. Your higher self feels if it is your moment to claim it and if you are meant to walk it out and remember. I can offer you, with integrity, that this IS possible, what you dream is possible in terms of HOW you experience your life, yet, it is a continual, moment by moment choice of what IS your essence and to let go of what is NOT.
 
I feel a reaching out to you from beyond the personality, to your higher self, and feel us embracing together and remembering each other, seeing each other beyond the personality and name and identity….feeling each others as SOULS. I have felt many of you ‘in my field’ and even had some higher self conversations with some of you who wanted them. I am ready if you are ready. I am here if you are here as are my beloveds too. Where do you want to go together? The soul is limitless and the explorations profoundly unlimited too. Love is limitless and Infinite and wants you to remember that you are THIS too.
Jelelle Awen is a writer and co-creator/teacher/group facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about sessions with her, online group calls and circles, community, videos, and more.

Our Star Burst Moment

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To my mate, wherever you may find your self, yet always in my heart, I send you my desire through the ether on this blessed day of Love.

Your wind-swept hair sends notes of your inner symphony
Playing its tune in cadence to my inner dance

My infinite script of Love’s triumphs and healing tragedies
Find their resonance on your chromo-galactic soul screen

Our seeds have been planted in each other’s heart beds
Being watered by our self-care and desire for more and more US

The bond we share is this journey into our deepest calling
Our sweetest sensations of tender bliss

And the firecracker tendrils of our undeniable passion
Wrapped in a spaghetti pretzel of blankets and rose petal rain

Our candles lit from within
Stoking them with Love’s soft and sometimes bitter breeze

Each day we walk further into our own portals of discovery
Uncovering our recovery

We covet each other’s gifts; unwrap them with each vulnerable step
Into the unknown Now.

We feel each other gazing into our flourishing gardens
Preparing our special place where we both can ponder the heavens

Travel to our spiraling wonderment of our deepest fears
To make way for the spectacular light show that is our souls colliding

With a touch of my hand upon your silken skin
And your honey-amber lips affixed to mine

The life we live now will be but a treasured memory
Of all that lead to this star burst moment.

 

Get A Heart-on For Yourself

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By Raphael Awen

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Somehow, I know that my greatest gift to the world has to do with my desire and need to be loved.

As I feel that, and make it conscious more and more to myself, and see where I have that love and where I don’t at present, I am moved. My need and desire for love is what ‘unstucks’ me.

I’d like to title this Valentine’s Day message:

‘Get A Heart-on For Yourself’.

You see, you won’t ever actually find love ‘out there’ to any degree that exceeds the actual love you have learned for yourself. In fact, the lack of love you have for yourself will always be mirrored to you in the actual quality of your closest relationships.

The entire universe we live in is wired on love. I know it doesn’t look that way when we live on a planet that is so much wired on proving what love isn’t, but such a planet and such a motive, could only exist in a fear reaction to this potent and fearful love.

Reverence is another word for what we’re talking about here. More than anything in life, I want and need reverence. I want to be revered and I want to swim in reverence for all things. That’s the stuff the universe is made up of. That’s what I came here to learn and become certified in.

If this is true, (and I say that because I am well aware that I am proposing a very different view of the world), then it so beckons the deeper quest in all of us, collectively and personally, to learn how to let in love.

And if that’s the whole point, then realizing that point gets you to whatever is next, and that’s truly and awe-somely exciting.

What’s next can only and ever be more love, because we are infinite love, made by infinite love, seeking to come to terms with infinite love.

Now, we are asked IF we feel that, IF we believe that, IF we KNOW that, then what does being a student of that love mandate? Dare I use the word ‘dictate’? If love is thee most powerful force for which any and all force is derived, then love’s dictates are of supreme interest to me. This is a dictating mandating force that waits incredibly patiently, but ultimately cannot and will not take ‘no’ for an answer.

Wait now, I’m not speaking of an other, some power over you….I’m talking about your own, you-to-you relationship. You are this love and that love won’t settle till it finds you in you. Feeling this, and letting it color in and out of the lines in your life is the most transformative thing you will ever do in this earth plane.

The circumstances (encircling standing things) of your life are the witnesses and signposts to this sacred marriage. What is happening outside of you can only and ever be a reflection of what is happening inside of you.

For many, and even most of us, this comes as a testament, a reflection and a dawning realization of what we are not, intended to point out way back to what we are.

Life now asks us to take the most courageous step of our lives. Would we be willing to risk losing what we have, in order to gain what we are? Are we willing to say a firm ‘No!’ in a bid to find our ‘yes’.

Falling in love always births a death-and-rebirth cycle in our lives. True love always gives birth to new life, but only after it has suffered the death of what preceded the emergence of that love. Many can yearn for love, but use that yearning to avoid the death that life is inviting them into in order to take them to that love. There simply is no other way to this magical kingdom of getting a heart-on for you.

Sex is a perfect metaphor here. It’s a possessing force that can and wants nothing less than to take over your life. It wants you to be dripping wet (self-consciously so) with ache and desire, and then it wants to relieve and relive that desire over and over again…

Sounds pretty hot, huh? That’s because it is. Love is not ambivalent about you. Love has its heart-on very firmly (and discreetly) set on you, and only you. Extreme Monagamy, because this extreme Monagamy is the only doorway into extreme poly-amory. You cannot love the many until you love the one. That one is you. That you is love.

It won’t settle for anything less. It can’t settle for anything less.

Will you surrender to this love that you are?

(I dedicate this writing to my valentine, my outer reflection of my self love journey, my be-loved, my am-loved, Jelelle Awen)

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.