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From Scared to Sacred: Initiation of the Sacred Masculine

Published on March 30, 2017August 2, 2017 by Raphael Awen4 Comments

If there was ever a time that we needed a new template for the sacred masculine, that time is now. But where could that come from and what would that look like?

The masculine is always and forever the Sacred Masculine. Masculinity itself is out learning its way into knowing and feeling its essence; an attribute of divinity, out divining its way, through you and I.

Masculinity, like femininity is a polarity of a duality dance, but when either polarity loses its polarity, it loses its attractive energy, its power, its appeal. It is neutralized, neutered, emasculated. It moved from the sacred to the scared. Afraid. Limp. Milquetoast.

That’s where we are now….at the edge of scared trying to see a path that will take us back to Sacred.

I don’t think we need a return to some refurbished tribal hazing ritual over a sleep deprived weekend in a large auditorium gathering of men, with men dressed in fatigues yelling at you like a military sergeant. It’s quite pathetic what we came up with to address this deep hunger for a masculine template. Nature abhors a vacuum, so something will always show up as a filler until something more is ready to lead.

So where’s the arena then? Where’s the training gymnasium? Where do we go to get what we never got, or lost along the way?

True masculine energy is a sovereign energy. It is a king leading his personal kingdom. True king power originates from the heart, and if this heart is anything, it is autonomous. It does what it wants to, when it wants to, and it lives with the results, be they healthy or unhealthy. The queen is no less sovereign, no less individual, offering her portal to the Kings quest for no other reason than she wants to…IF, she wants to. Duty and obligation in this domain of heart, have long given way to desire and choice.

You are already doing this, you just can’t see it. Your life as you know it right now is the perfect gymnasium asking you to show up. So many things await your awakening? So many choices await your decree. The ground of this erection of the true King energy is none other than your life, arising from the sacral chakra…Your life as you know it right now is the true arena, the only training gymnasium…awaiting both your heart-on and your hard-on…your choice, your action, your lead, your pursuit of what YOU actually want!

And you as a man are inextricably linked to all men. Each man is a fractal of every other doing and riding life in the same gender expression vehicle. Your inhabitation of your own sacred masculinity is your greatest gift to all men…and it’s automatic. The ground you gain becomes your gift to all.

You don’t need another man to give this to you, because no man can actually give this to you, but you may find, like I have, that I need an arena of life, with other men to lead this in myself.

If these words juice you and call to you, I’d like to invite you to be a part the virtual group call for men that I am leading with Gabriel Heartman this coming Saturday.

Message me and I’ll give you the details…gotta run, I have a life to lead…. 🙂 and a queen to pursue…

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Please visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information and inspiration.

A Heart-On For Sacred Romance

Published on March 27, 2017March 27, 2017 by Gabriel Heartman2 Comments

Okay. So that was a little provocative. That´s alright. It was meant to be. I feel like there is something in the masculine that wants to push some boundaries. Get a little rise…sort of speak. So some inner teenager gets to come out and play a little bit. That is all part of the fun of self-discovery and exploration. On the road to the Men´s group call on Saturday I felt compelled to feel into some writing about the masculine and was guided to just write about what is in my space as a man in the moment.

It is a time of stoking the fire of romance. Feeling what that really means as a man. So much is written from a female’s perspective about romance and the desire to be in deep union. For me, it is a new way of wanting to relate to relationship and union. In my past I can feel how there were many unfelt and unhealed energies in my emotional body that made it difficult for me to be vulnerable. To get into the messy of what was real. Just wanting to be in a comfort place even if it really wasn´t comfortable. Those days are no longer as I have been on a healing path for over 5 years now and feel way more Me here than I ever have. A self-love that is wanting to overflow to another.

I feel that deep down all men want this too. As vibrations are raising and Love showering down on us every moment, we can´t help but to feel this draw and desire. To leave the old conditioning and patterns behind. There is a need in the core of our soul to want to grow and expand. It can happen at great depth on one´s own, but there is nothing like romance to turn on the afterburners and propel us into the reflection of some of our hidden places. Now, don´t get me wrong. I feel resistance from a part of me around that, but it is met with more desire to be vulnerable to that and let it work itself out in relationship. Scars and all.

There is an experience of life and ourselves as men that we just cannot have unless we are in a romance. I really believe there is a phase we all find ourselves in when we have been hurt and just need the solo time. But I don´t feel we were meant to be that way for long, unless the soul signed up for it. I still feel in our human heart we want to feel transactable love with each other on a ground that is ever expanding and never stagnant. The resistance to it comes from a protective part of us that has a very good reason for feeling the way it does.

Romantic love turns your world upside down. We just know that on some level and that is scary. I have been beautifully upended twice in my life that found me making changes and feeling things a part of me never thought I would. In the words of Kalayna Colibri, it ¨rearranges your furniture¨…and then moves your house to a different country altogether. Your inner house gets lit up and some of the things you didn´t know were there or were hiding become highlighted.

In SoulFullHeart we see ourselves working our vertical self, the me to me, first. Then there is the transactable horizontal ground between a man and a woman that we call the Usness. This is the juicy place of all sorts of magic, emotionally, spiritually, and sexually. This is the Merkabah that is created between two hearts and souls that can traverse galaxies and back again. The kind of after-glow that can leave you in a fuzz for days.

I long for this kind of relationship. I know that it is not all honeymoon but a concerted desire to be with all that comes up personally and in response to another. It is an alchemical ground that offers so much in way of a true aliveness of being. I feel there are other men that long for the same and the road there is through your own heart. Though this was written from a single man´s perspective I feel those that are in current relationships can feel this in their own dynamic with their beloveds. What is it that we truly desire in our hearts and in romance with another?

To my Queen, wherever you may find yourself, this was dedicated to you.

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

The Ascending Man: What Is 5D Masculinity?

Published on March 22, 2017March 22, 2017 by Gabriel Heartman4 Comments

We are learning so much about what we as human beings are capable of in regards to our potential and expression. How we have so many gifts that lie dormant in our DNA and arising light bodies. A power of creation that seems mythical in proportions to our current limited consciousness. There is a general human frame that surrounds it and that is all true. I have also been very interested in how this plays out in our gender expressions. Do we just become less polarized this way and become more androgynous? I certainly feel this when it comes to our Star Being brethren. But does that mean we lose our humanness the way we know it now? I suppose, like all things in this unknown and unknowable time, it all depends on where we come from and where we want to go.

I feel we are being offered a Golden Age of Humanity. One in which we live both in unity consciousness and individuality. An individuation that is the Me within the We. Being connected to Source and having an awareness of our integrated fractal expressions. A higher vibratory dualistic experience. So in that picture I see a New Woman and a New Man. Or just remembering what it is we always were and even ARE currently. I feel this Golden Earth that we are desiring to be a part of and co-create together, is lead by the return and rebalance of more feminine and yin energies. This has been talked about for a long time and we see its need even more with the state of current affairs. The more wounded masculine psychic overlay is seeing its consequence and demise. Current disclosure revelations are showcasing the depths of this condition and awakenings are increasing.

Men are scattered just as much as women among the dimensional consciousness spectrum but women are closer to the frequency of 5D, at least in my opinion and experience. The awakening is happening mentally for most men and then as the vibration continues to raise on Gaia we are being invited to go more into our hearts, as that is what the core of 5D is. To live in the fullness of authentic BEingness. There are no more 3D wound-based blocks that cap or prevent our access to our more crystalline nature. So when we as men begin to heal the Heart what does that look and feel like?

Clearly we are honest with our emotions. We are vulnerable. When a feeling arises we express it with clarity, certainty, and openness to perspective and counter emotion. We are not afraid to get into the fray to burn away what is old and arise what is truly authentic. We invite the shadow reflection as a gift to deeper understanding and healing. There is a reverence for ourselves in the path of this integration. There is no longer self-doubt and self-judgment. We see ourselves as true Kings and proport ourselves as such.

The 5D masculine has met, wooed, and integrated his inner feminine. This creates a self-contained and balanced male BEing. The love and acceptance of the inner feminine reflects the reverence of the outer. The healing of the mom wound feels vitally important as it holds the energy of our relationship to the feminine and our subsequent sense of power and sexuality. There is the need for union with Woman as an alchemical and powerful dynamic of intensely epic proportions. This mating and integration of this inner feminine aspect brings us a more heart-open, softer, and less linear way of expression. There is less DOing and more BEing. Being with what arises in our desire and creative abundance. We clearly respect Gaia in all Her splendor and weep at the sight of Her stunning beauty. We are more connected to Her creatures and the guides and totems that they represent. Meat eating becomes a thing of the past that no longer has a place on our plate…our diet just changes with the integration of this new consciousness.

One of the biggest pieces to me is the shift from competition to cooperation as we become more aware of our connection to All That Is. We are One of the same so competing serves less purpose. I can feel a healthy form of competition possibly but my jury is still out on that one. As men begin to heal their father wounds the more we begin to open our hearts to each other in beautiful male bonding that is alive with wonder, exploration, and leadership. A cauldron of possibilities are shared and MANifested.

No longer will men feel responsible to achieve, but rather responsive to the call of building galactic bridges and to co-creating with their feminine counterparts in sacred union. The weight of the world and the need to control and provide are felt through and healed with love so that we can access our more authentic power that is in alignment with Source and Reverence. The chains of our own captivity are melted away with the tears of remembering what we have always been and why we chose the density of 3D.

This healing will open up our Galactic chakras and become more in tune with the energies of the universe. Many men are being awoken today only to be left with the question of what it all means and what to do with it. The grounding into Gaia and the heart feels like it will help with this feeling of uncertainty. This connection between our humanity and our universality is what creates a powerful new conscious cosmic experience. The heart opens up and grounds in. The service to others becomes 5D man´s new frontier.

I feel such a plethora of possibilities. Our expanded heart consciousness will open new doors of relationality among ourselves and our galactic connections. The relationship to Gaia will be in alignment with Her consciousness and Love. Living and breathing with and alongside her. Setting off into unknown realms to encounter new and exciting territory with the desire to learn and spread more love. Implementing and encountering new technologies and wisdoms. It is a great time to be alive.

But there is work to do on ourselves. Some more or less than others, but needed healing just the same. We are all in this together. All looking for those who are resonant and can provide support, reflection, and love. The old male collective is feeling the press of this continued flow of energy that is coming at us in Love each moment. Following Yin is to respond to the pings that are going off inside and to meet them with a gentle curiosity that brings them out into the light. No need to excavate or drill in the old way. Feeling each of our desires and fears are what leads us the next choice point of healing and ascending above the what used to keep us down. I look forward to this New 5D Man within me and within you to see what amazing experiences we can have together and with our counterpart 5D Woman. Now THERE is something to show up for!

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Collapse and Disclosure As A Reflection of Our Inner World

Published on March 10, 2017March 10, 2017 by Gabriel HeartmanLeave a comment

Disclosure is a hot topic in the 5D universe and beyond. I have not delved as deeply as my SoulFullHeart friend and mentor, Raphael Awen, but I have taken in a bit and have wanted to feel it from a more contextual level. It is easy for the masculine/linear side of us to go into the deep details as there is some incredibly fascinating information being unearthed. So much has been hidden from us in regard to our contact with star beings, repression of technologies, and the influence of darker forces that have been at the helm up until now.

In 4D consciousness there is a deep anger and resentment at all that has occurred. Many people have been in the Disclosure game for a long time. They are the messengers that have worked tirelessly to get this information out there. There is a lot to react to. For me it began with the story of Collapse. The one that picked up speed after the 2008 financial crisis. So much was happening before then but that feels like a pivot point. There are other stories before then as well but that could be for a later discussion. The time of Collapse in hindsight feels as though there was a collective internal collapse happening. The structures that we were trying to hold up inside were no longer finding any solid ground to support it. The thread of our collective tapestry was unraveling and the world was not behaving the same anymore. There was a big outbreath of WTF?.

More people began to wake to the reality that there was a charade going on. But since as above, is below there must also have been a truth in that for each of us individually. It feels reflective of a false world inside of us that was created in response to the false one on the outside. We all created together because we just didn`t consciously know better. But somewhere deeper we did. We cannot play victim to it as then it takes away the power that is inherent us all. We created it and we had to collapse it. We couldn`t bare it anymore.

Individually, this represents a time when we come to an awakening inside our emotional body. The mental body just loses its grip. For the wounded masculine, this is a very difficult process. It has been so used to suppressing its emotions for the fear of feeling it. I get that this is a general statement and not meant to cover individuals. The power structure outside did its very best to hold up the house of cards, and so has the wounded masculine. But this is was a great event! It has helped to wake up even more men, and women, to the nature of our circumstance. The realization that there is something happening inside us that was put to sleep in the control matrix.

Now we are in the throws of the Era of Disclosure. Another awakening into the deeper machinations of what has been going on behind the veil of deception. But I feel it important to emphasize we have co-created it in order to learn from it. This keeps us empowered. We are not only hearing of a trove of information about technologies and alliances, we are learning more about the nature of our Reality. Forget about economic collapse. This stuff changes everything! If we look at this time as a spiritual Disclosure, we can see that we are being shown how amazing we ARE and that we are a part of a vast experience that expands the territories of our limited consciousness. It is more than social justice, it is social evolution on a galactic level! So with each piece of information that is being shared, it is like a ray of light that is entering our BEing to upgrade our current operating system. This new `information` sends up old emotional congestions that need healing for integration that opens up more space for more light and love to enter our true sacred, crystalline bodies.

But it is not an easy process. A lot of this energy may not be ours personally and it can feel like we are moving mountains. As men, we have tended to be a bit less connected to our emotions, so this back up can be a difficult one for some. I feel it at times myself. I have done a lot of work to clear my block and open my heart as much as I can but there are still things that come up and may still but it is all about how vulnerable we can be in each moment so we can heal all the block inside. This is what we do daily in the SoulFullHeart community. I don`t mean we are suffering. I mean we are feeling ourselves and what may come up for ourselves that need attention and process if needed. There are many ways that we administer this healing to ourselves and with each other.

So for many men, Disclosure is first a mental digestion, then an emotional and spiritual one. This is the 4D Man. The man who feels that there is inner work to be done, to embody more of his 5D or Cosmic Sacred Masculine. As one who is on this daily path of continued healing, awakening, and embodying, I offer my heart and experience to those that are feeling that rumble inside. That palpable discomfort and excitement from disclosure. The veil continues to lift each day and we will find ourselves in new territory as human men, and of course women. More will start to surface and if you need help navigating that I would be honored to serve that. Thank you for all the work you are doing now during these times as it helps us all to heal faster and easier.

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

The Healing Gifts of Our Relationship to the Feminine: Kings of Heart Blog Series

Published on March 8, 2017 by Gabriel HeartmanLeave a comment

Today is International Women’s Day. It felt fitting to feel into the Sacred Feminine for this blog series. Now, of course, in the world of the Sacred Masculine, everyday is Women’s Day, and vice versa. It is a reverence that just IS. It resonates and harmonizes with the feminine inside the masculine. It is clear that the 3rd dimensional matrix upon Earth (I use Gaia for its 5D reference) is that of a patriarchal energy. While else would there be a day to celebrate women? It feels important to let in what the feminine means for all of us males, and to feel where our personal shadow may be in relationship to Her.

Since our “fall” from a more balanced union with the feminine there has been a force within the collective wounded masculine that has sought to dominate the feminine in one form or another. It has showed up in personal/social relationships, religious texts or their interpretations, the need to gain control over nature and consume Her resources. In this I feel a deep fear of separation. The feminine had a much stronger connection to Source, possibly due to their ability to give birth. It just understands creation and is a vehicle for that in a much more visceral way. I can feel this existential territory the collective masculine has navigated. In this fear of the unknown and unknowable, of which the feminine is so intimate, it seems likely that this need to control would play itself out. It also feels true that the masculine was more influenced by these darker energies and that this “influence” was coded into the DNA/meme of the masculine blueprint. Again, playing here, but something feels true here. The main point to me feels like, as men who have more of the masculine energies in us, that we are a part of that coding and it has influence.

To truly ascend into what we are calling our Sacred Humanity we must feel any blocks or denser energies that can anchor us into 3D, or wounded densities. Our relationship to women is psychospiritual and has many gifts even in the shadow. By going inward (I call in going “yin”) and feeling the parts of us that hold more “negative” feelings about women, rooted in our relationship to mother and other important influences, we can begin to see what lurks in the background operating system of our projections. Our mothers/female care-givers hold a huge part of that reflection. What was the dynamic between mother and son and how does it play out in our current relationships and perception of the Divine Feminine? I know it is a bit Freudian but it is extremely important. I don’t feel it can be glossed over in regard to ascension.

The era we find ourselves is requiring us to inhabit a more Feminine frequency. We can not control this thing. It is a surrender to Love Spirit that cannot be contained but seeks a container to move with and through. That is tough knuckles for the wounded masculine energy that wants to control and issue its own parameters. I feel it in my being as the days progress. I am still working with it on some level as the Light is shining more on what needs healing. That is why I am being guided write this. But the gift of going in and feeling our relationship the feminine we are given the gifts and guidance needed to make our way into our more natural expression as a Sacred Masculine Human.

We are blessed with the ability to dance in the unknown and the aliveness that that brings to our present experience of life. We are opened in our hearts to let in more of this exquisite love juice that in lapping up on our shores every second of infinity. We are delivered into union with Her impeccable sensuality and sexuality as a portal to the All That Is that kareens this magical energy all up and down our chakras. We see with heart eyes with reverence for all of life in all its bountiful and beautiful expressions both of, and outside, this world. There is an unlimited capacity of imagination and creation that sends beyond the machinations of our limited consciousness. She is the Queen to our King.
Gaia is looking for her Kings of Heart to arise out of the necessary ashes of 3D and embody the truly majestic essence of our being. We need to do our due diligence of feeling all there needs to feel in relationship to Her and the Feminine. There is a correlate in woman as well, but I will leave that to my feminine counterparts for that discussion. I will be touching upon more about our inner feminine in later posts as they arise. As always I appreciate any constructive comments or ideas that you may have about this that I will take into my heart. I am exploring this with an open heart and I don’t claim to have any definitive truths. I feel the heart says it all and is willing to feel more. Thank you for taking this in today and a special Love shower to all the women, feminine etheric/galactic BEings, Gaia, and Divine Mother on this day. I am in awe and reverence of YOU.

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Kings of Heart: Arising of the Sacred Masculine Blog Series

Published on March 7, 2017March 7, 2017 by Gabriel Heartman1 Comment

‘You can be the captain

And I will draw the chart

Sailing into destiny

Closer to the heart”

Lyrics from Closer to the Heart by Rush

This moment we all find ourselves in is extraordinary. We are in the midst of a great awakening from all that we have been asleep to. We are being exposed to more light codes, rising vibrations, and a thinning of the veil between dimensions. These are all meant to assist us on the next phase of our journey with Mother Gaia and our own growth as a soul toward more and more remembrance as our essence of Love. Much is discussed about our general human relationship to ascension, all of the ebbs and flows, ups and downs, but it feels important to feel into our dualistic expression as male and female to see how it can affect how we experience and engage in these energies.

At the core we are All One. But we chose to partake in the dual as a way to experience Love as Other. To be a conduit for Love to experience itself in its infinite possibility. In that dual state we chose to learn in a more masculine or feminine form. The lessons and challenges are the same on a very human level but there are others that lend themselves more specifically to one or the other. This is the path we chose to walk out.

This is a time of a great rebalancing on Mother Gaia. There has been an over abundance of wounded masculine, or Yang, energy that has served as a wake up call to our need to balance with the more Sacred Feminine. This energy exists in both men and women, however has been more energized in the male form. I do not judge Yang energy as negative. It is vital to all of life and is sacred in its purest and most healed expression. There was a purpose behind this disequilibrium. It will all be more understood as the nature of our “past” and “future” find themselves in our current state of NOW. There feels to be a connection to our Atlantean and Lemurian inheritance that may be at play here. At least that is how it is coming to me in my personal discovery with my guides. It is all play here and part of the masculine healing is to feel and engage in intuition, while taking in what has already been learnt about this dimension.

During this “time” of great peace and abundance, there was a more balanced male. Leaders and creators of great reverence and wisdom, co-creating in tandem with the feminine. Somewhere there was great influence by more negatively polarized BEings that caused a shift in consciousness that brought the end of this civilization. The psychic grid lowered in density and thus the veil emerged to eclipse the conscious memory of what once was (and still is). However, its legacy lives on in our DNA. We have been affected by that time, I believe, as well as numerous others. In our masculine expression, we lost something so near and dear to us. In the collective male psyche, I am exploring the ways in which we may have a suppressed emotive digestion of all that happened and how that has influenced our 3D experience. The theme, or archetype, is that of The Fallen King.

In honoring of the lyrics I posed at the beginning I want to bring this “closer to the heart”. Even if the Atlantis piece doesn’t resonate I feel this theme does. At least it does for me and I believe I am here to explore it more and with those that feel it too. There is a particular feeling tone that brings it to the surface of our emotional body. It may come out as shame, guilt, control, fear, judgment, aggression, and depression. As the energies I mentioned earlier increase, the “oil” of these repressed emotions and memories will surface. The question is, how do we as men respond to this influx of emotion that is currently underway? How do we see ourselves as leaders and co-creators in this dawning Age of Golden Earth? How do we relate to the Sacred Feminine as the vehicle for our ascending Sacred Masculine? Where is it that needs healing to fully inhabit this new role similar to, but different from, our intra-dimensional experience?

These are all questions that I want to explore myself and have you join me in. I am not an expert on Atlantis and am being guided to feel more than research but I am certainly open to whatever you feel may be of importance. As part of the healing community called SoulFullHeart I will be using that lens to bring this topic into heart focus. We are in an epic time and I feel we are on a journey together. A journey of exploring, remembering, and experiencing ourselves beyond the limited consciousness we have found ourselves in and are currently awakening to. The feminine is imperative on this journey so I encourage you all to join along. It is through your heart and soul that we rise again and seek co-creative “power with” through your Yin nature. Together as men may we arise to embody our Kings of Heart.

Gabriel Heartman is a teacher, facilitator, energy healer, writer, poet, and heartist with the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. You can learn more about him at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

My Deepest Heart’s Love Song

Published on December 13, 2016March 14, 2017 by Kasha RosaLeave a comment

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By Leena Colibri

Two magics of a different kind

Meant to dance together though opposite,

Intended to weave together a tapestry

Of sweet intimate love and fiery passion.

The love mosaic we create together

And the dance steps we make up

Give us the juice we need to keep finding ourselves

And each other

Again, again and, possibly, again…

A two-step with endless possibilities

And an infinite ceiling

Of deep respect and admiration

Watches over us as we find those tensions

That keep it all alive.

In a ying-yang mess of body parts

We breathe onto each other’s skin

And into each others hearts,

Blowing on the embers of the hottest love

As it cascades through each of our chakras

In a timing we can’t plan.

Your mental prowess and creative expression

Impresses and presses upon my forest heart

Teeming with alchemical creation

And the consciousness we each bring towards the other

Only serves to prolong the ongoing ache

For more, more and, most likely, more….

For now the sediment of a unsettled filtering process

Careens towards the bottom of my life’s holdings

Waiting for the unfolding

Of what could be

The greatest, fiercest, most deeply claimed romance

This heart and body have ever seen.

Leena Colibri is a SoulFullHeart facilitator, writer and poetess. Find out more about the SoulFullHeart Way of Life at www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com

Falling Yin Love

Published on December 13, 2016August 2, 2017 by Gabriel HeartmanLeave a comment

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Over the past few days I have been going into my heart and soul to feel what I am being guided to offer and express. In the process it was not about solving or figuring anything out. A distinctly masculine approach. One that I have used often. I felt to reboot my relationship to more Yin energies within me. To do so is to go in rather than out. From that came an idea to start a possible book or something like it titled “Going Yin”. It is an exploration of what it means to feel our Yin nature as a human male. What are the themes that are so different from our wounded masculine tendencies? How do those live inside me and how do they shift the way I feel and perceive myself, life, reality, and love? There is a great shift happening and I am being guided to feel more into this as being in a more Yin space will offer many gifts in the arising unknown. To dance with it rather than fight it.

Words on paper. That is what I am being guided to do. While a part of me is questioning this “strategy” to starting a book, I immediately can feel the energy of plan and structure. I am not judging this, just noticing it. I was inspired to begin a…God knows what word could be inserted here…a free verse of a journey into the inner feminine of a male human being. The needs of strategy, planning, and structure are apparent as I have language and purpose to attend to but it is more an experiment in energy and intuition, and a trust that I have those already embedded in me. I feel the logical part of me wanting to reread this and check for clarification and profundity.

There is a great example. I have never used that word ‘profundity’ in my life (that I am conscious of). I am sure I heard it, was given a definition or context, and stored it somewhere. But I would have never used that word by structured choice. It came out of me through just listening to my intuition. My stream of consciousness. That, to me, feels very Yin in nature and the very reason why I am choosing to embark on this. While I have been on a very Yin-based awakening process, I still find myself relating to life, in all its variegates (okay now it is getting silly), with a more masculine filter and reaction. I love my logic and reasoning. Don’t get me wrong. They are still a huge part of who I am, and who we are as human beings. I just feel this over-emphasis on it as a way of being and perceiving in the world. It is a deep wound based in fear and separation, or the fear of separation to be more specific. That is my sense of it. This could be elaborated on, clarified, or just plain changed over the course of my journey.

The impetus for this desire has arisen through my conscious awakening way of life called SoulFullHeart. It was founded by Jelelle and Raphael Awen as means to access our emotional pain body to allow the healing that is needed for us to awaken to our essence as divinely Infinite Love. It was birthed from Jelelle’s connection to the Divine Mother and the hard to feel reality that Her love, as well as Divine Father’s, has been misplaced in the shadow of our collective wounding, which is masculine in nature. A journey back to balance is felt as crucial as we find ourselves on the brink of global uncerntainties. But there is even a bigger picture. One of ascension. That there is a dimensional transition underway. One that part of an evolutionary process. A quickening. Gaia is moving into a 5^th dimensional era. I don’t exactly know what I totally mean by that to be honest. I know there are all sorts of ideas and information out there. I am just downloading my own interpretation and will be exploring that further in my heart as well as with those that I am closest to. Regardless of the specifics, the point is there is something big happening. (In Yin time it has already happened, is continuing to happen, and will be happening…all at the same time. Yeah…no sense thinking about it.) The metaphysics of this I leave to my good friend, mentor, and co-yinner Raphael Awen.

What I feel is needed in this time of change is a good deal of Yin. A trust and an surrender in something that contains us and is there for us when we feel lost and in the process of change. We are being born into something new. A new way of relating, of communicating, and creating. All rooted in the beauty and power of Infinite Love. But there is much to feel in all of it. We have much to feel as our limited perception of reality will be challenged and the pain of our past, present, and future will be exposed to be felt in order to move on. Regardless of where I, or any of us “end up”, it is all still wrapped in Love.

But I feel beyond this picture of Yin as a life-preserver, for if I solely see it as that then I am coming from fear that I will be “left behind”, I want to experience life from a more Yin seat of being. That is to not become a woman, but to experience my authentic masculine expression. It through the sacred feminine that I feel our sacred masculine arises. Our strength, heart, passion, sex, and creativity are all made whole and more in line with our divinely masculine nature. So in a way, I am more on a journey toward my Yang through the mysterious and admittedly scary waters of Yin’s birth canal. I feel changed in my being somehow just by writing this. Something shifting toward my desire, creativity, and purpose. I feel supported and guided to continue the next set of words, whenever they arise, wherever they lead. This is the heart of Yin and I think I am falling in love.

Sequoia Heartman is a facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way of Life. Please visit http://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.

The Emotional Reasons Why Men Are Drawn To Porn: Sacred Masculine Blog Series

Published on November 3, 2016November 3, 2016 by Raphael AwenLeave a comment

By Raphael Awen

He cannot relate to his own beauty, and neither can he relate to the beauty of the woman. To settle for looking at pictures of women’s awesome and naked beauty instead of having a personal and in the flesh experience of that beauty is like settling for pictures of nature, rather than experiencing the beauty of the forest, the ocean and the sunset.

I feel I’m downloading a bigger piece around the male attraction to porn.

Let me see if I can put some words around this that make sense and you tell me if this feels true for you or not.

For many, porn isn’t just an attraction, but a full on addiction with a ton of shame and self loathing.

Men are creatures of stunning beauty, and somewhere, deep inside, they know this. They know this, not consciously, but rather in the very fabric of their being. The universe doesn’t make any junk. This form of knowing lives in them despite everything else that says it isn’t so. The wounding, the self loathing, the deep core unworthiness that they carry in relation to what it means to be a man; none of it can diminish the actual and true beauty and power of what a man is in his essence.

But this beauty isn’t known and felt consciously or experientially. This incredible worth doesn’t colour their inner hearth of self-perception. Like an under-age heir to the throne, it’s theirs, but not yet.

To see yourself or any man as anything less than the grand beings they are is to perpetuate and contribute to this blocked access to true being. To call a man a pig because he paws over porn is to demean both the man and the pig.

Now this man, separated from his true worth and unable to embody it in life or relationships, is starved from the nourishment he was intended and created for. Outside of his own sovereign domain of worth, and unable to have a felt sense of his being, he turns to relate to women through this same separation from essence.

Both the woman and the man here in this settlement are utterly excluded from true and validating experience of beauty and sexuality. The porno-graph is a lousy substitute for the porno-experience.

The man is essentially using porn as an attempt to hold his relationship with his separation and banishment from true beauty.

It could be said that a man awakening to his sexuality could be served by a teen phase of porn, or a man needing to awaken his desire, but to settle for it, means something deep inside is disconnected and dying.

Like any addiction, now, porn becomes an attachment to replace a missing something. Any addiction is not a bad thing. It’s telling us something. We may not like it’s effects on our lives, but that doesn’t make it bad or wrong or evil. It’s something that is calling our attention.

Men are meant to function in connection with the greatness of their worth. Anything less than living from that ground stirs ache and frustration, all of which call him to something more. If a man is anything, he is a being in search of more.

Finding and living into that more is what life is about.

If you are in search of more and you feel I could serve you in finding your more, I’d like to hear from you. The work I offer is about discovering the parts of your being and what their needs are. As you get in touch with each of your parts, you come to know the part of you that holds your relationship to porn. Now, finally, the war with self can truly be over as you come to discover your true inner beauty.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.

Healing Our Hijacked Masculinity: Sacred Masculinity Blog Series

Published on October 27, 2016October 27, 2016 by Raphael Awen1 Comment

By Raphael Awen

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Let’s dive into some more big picture stuff.

I offered in a previous post that you can call it the sacred masculine or divine masculine if you want to, but masculinity itself (like femininity itself) needs no such adjective. Adding the reverential is for you. It offers a way to expand your consciousness to a higher plane. Awe, wonder, and reverence are the result of coming out of the locked-down state of normal waking consciousness and being allowed to see depths of reality that are normally screened out of awareness by powerful parts of ourselves. Worship doesn’t effect divinity, it effects you. It effects you into your own divinity.

I am a man, male in gender, showing up in this 3rd dimension of reality currently as a 55 year old, with a name and a back story (a his-story). I have dreams for my future (a her-story) yet to play out in this time dimension phenomenon of past, present and future thing that we all dance with.

But all of this is just how I show up. What I am is actually an energy flow of infinite love. My true being and my higher self is ethereal. The manifestation of this energy here in 3D land is what is showing up as Raphael with enough continuity and distinction that this ‘me’ energy gets to participate in many things, one of which is masculinity. Another is femininity. I am a manifestation of both gender expression energies with a polarity that is weighted around the masculine, evidenced in my physical and emotional body. I am energy dancing in polarity. I sit here in this thing called a moment, using my thumbs on a thing called an IPad, using another phenomenal invention of linguistics to convey another phenomenon of thought and directable heart energy to convey meaning! My god, that any of us don’t just explode in any and every moment is an energy/miracle/management phenomenon itself of stunning proportions.

Instead we find ourselves bored and needing something called entertainment.

What happened?

How could life itself have become so tamed?

The other day, Jelelle Awen and I stepped into a large touristy store on the Malecon seawall asking about sunglasses, and the clerk about my age wanted to show me the ‘farmacia’ section, taking me over there, pointing out the various medications and pausing on the Viagra. ‘No necesito’ I replied. He looked at me persistently with one eye brow raised while glancing and nodding over in Jelelle’s direction. I had to again reassure him that I didn’t need or want his offer. Jelelle said later I should maybe have asked the guy if he had a pill that could do the opposite.

Today, we need a drug to stiffen the cock, an app to have a relationship and a movie to draw a tear. We have been hijacked from the essence of life itself and have been offered the cheapest and most degrading and demoralizing substitutes. We’ve been robbed off life, and robbed of awareness of the crime and blindly offered fixes.

Who we really are and what we really are hasn’t gone away. It’s still here and available. The only thing holding it back from awareness is powerful parts of you who became convinced that raw life is too risky unless life is heavily medicated and managed with these deep dimming effects upon your perception and experience of reality.

Getting to know, feel and heal these parts of ourselves is the path into our masculinity. It is also the path into the sacred marriage of our inner femininity with our masculinity inside of ourselves. Only this inward journey can truly change anything in our outer expression.

Joining a spiritual men’s group can afford you some ground for the masculine to have reflection and drama, but until that translates into deep inner self discovery, you are only fused with the parts of you posturing around as a stiff cock or a limp cock, while the true energy of you is capped off upstream and left mostly unavailable to you, remaining a deep mystery to be explored is a later life.

Real manhood is about this inward journey. The true Shamans of our time are those who know this journey and can guide others into their own sacred journey. Ayahuasca can show you a vista or two, but it cannot take you to that reality as your waking reality. It takes a man living a real life, identifying what he really wants and finding the courage to choose that at any cost to know this manifestation of his infinite love energy essence firing on all cylinders in this earthly domain.

Raphael Awen is co-creator, teacher, and facilitator of the SoulFullHeart Way Of Life. Visit soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information.

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