Arising Opportunities For Connection Through Deep Life Change

By Kalayna Solais

Earlier this week, Raianna Shai and I ventured out to Salt Spring Island for a couple of days’ journey… Salt Spring is very easy to get to from here in Victoria, yet I hadn’t been yet and this trip ended up having the most perfect timing with some deep personal changes being navigated recently in my life (more details on that in a future post).

It was wonderful to BE with Raianna in this emerging sense of sisterhood goodness… we have had a bond for quite a while now with her having been a Facilitant of mine in SoulFullHeart, yet we’ve also always had a clear connection on a soul and heart level that goes beyond physical age and even current life experience. Each moment together arose in a new way and we were able to arise in a new way for each other too. I have so much MORE love and appreciation for this feminine being that I get to be in relationship with right now and that feels so good! 😀

Together on this trip we felt a connection on a Metasoul level as we felt our First Nations Metasoul sisters and their own sisterly connection. They danced and chanted and sang and hugged trees while exploring the beautiful, super-natural landscapes of this stunning island and reuniting with us and with each other too.

There’s something about letting go into life changes and feeling the parts of you that are having a hard time trusting them deeply (or at all) that allows for this sort of newly arising set of circumstances and opportunities to really be let in… the bittersweetness of letting go of what was DOES make room for what IS and what will be. Opportunities do come as we continue to feel our hearts and the parts of us that live there, that hurt there, that need healing there.

There’s much to look forward to, but there’s also much to be with in this very moment too, being real about the pain surfacing and being with the parts that are feeling the losses, the cost, the retrospect, the sentimentality. There’s much to take stock of and digest about the past through big life changes yet there’s also much to hold out for, to envision as possible, to see as imminent and to let in as much as you can in each moment.

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Kalayna Solais is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.

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Lunar Eclipse Supports Feeling Shadow of Polarizations, Invites Unity

By Kalayna Colibri

Last night while witnessing the moon’s eclipse and feeling it hanging very close to my field, I was struck by a feeling of emerging sisterhood in my life and process, yet also the potential for it worldwide.

Yet… the temptation for many seems to still be that the way to unify is in anger. The way to find our common ground is to get pissed. To rage. To march. To condemn the masculine… in men yet also in each other. This is masculine versus masculine in the end, leaving the world inside and outside of us without any room for the sacred masculine AND feminine to unite and make love.

Pointing fingers, protesting, arguing without care of where and how it lands in each other is a phase of our relationship to each other that wants to move into something new. It’s a deep shadow expression of our fear of actually loving ourselves and each other. It’s a fear that the cycles of pain will continue while we continue to become a cog in the wheel, contributing to this cycle with that same fear. Real intimacy brings up a lot more than anger and push-away. It brings up tears and vulnerability, it brings up what’s underneath the rage and presses the heart to open in order to keep giving and receiving nourishment.

This picture of relationship I’m describing is not idealized or impossible… I get to live this every day, I get to be challenged by the presence of others who want to keep this flow going within themselves and with me, I get to feel and meet the challenge of continuing to move through my resistance to love and to keep letting it in… knowing full well that doing so means walking into fires of personal funeral pyres as the old way of approaching life and others passes away, and also knowing that it means getting to experience the heaven of a deeper and easier love flow than I’ve ever experienced before.

Even last night… sharing intimacy with my mate Gabriel, feeling his admiration of myself, my body, my heart and soul, I felt my admiration for his and let his male gaze into every pore. I felt so many tears come up and out like a fountain, feeling the pain of my soul and heart in relating to the masculine in ways that weren’t nourishing on either side and feeling afraid of it. Feeling the pain of a collective of women and what they’ve experienced and also the pain of the men who have not ever been initiated into how to make real love with a woman and what it feels like to be truly met or felt on their side either.

The more energy that’s spent in blame-game shaming and pushing away at each other, the less opportunities we create for the deep healing and nourishing intimacy that’s possible, that wants to bloom and blossom starting between parts of you that are polarized to each other but who want love more than anything else in this world. Starting to see and feel these dynamics within is the best and most profound way to shift what you draw in your outer relationships and what you start to see is really possible with each of them. ❤️

For support as you go into this territory and really feel how it all applies or could apply to you, my beloveds and I hold sacred session space for these explorations and more: soulfullheartwayoflife.com/sessions

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Kalayna Colibri is a SoulFullHeart Facilitator for women age 25 and under, energy healer, soul scribe, and poetess.  Visit https://www.soulfullheartwayoflife.com for more information about space holding sessions, group calls, videos, community, etc. Visit our Patreon page to offer a money donation to support our offerings at https://www.patreon.com/soulfullheart.